Babby!

Late twenties female, pregnant. Panicking. Rejoicing. Rejoice-panicking.

[primigravidarina]

Sigh, sigh, sigh

Baby is over a week past the EDD and I have gestational diabetes. At the GD ultrasounds baby's abdomen is measuring large so the OB expects baby is getting pretty big in there. The practice didn't have any problem with me going past the due date but too far past a week far past is too much. We were scheduled for induction last Friday, I was dilated *just* enough for a membrane sweep that morning. and we got the induction pushed back to try to let the sweep work over the weekend. It didn't. And neither did anything else. Tomorrow night I feel like I have to (for medical reasons) go to the hospital without laboring at home, not knowing how dilated I am or what they will do. I am angry with my body and the baby, I am furious with pretty much everyone except my best friends and my husband-- you know what, friendos (and family), at this point I don't give a flying fuck when you think this baby will be born or what worked for you. Shut up. STOP TALKING ABOUT IT. Don't ask if the baby is here yet; you think I'd answer that message but not put up a picture of the baby if baby WAS here? Fuck you. FUCK YOU. Friends who said they would help with setting up a meal train of participating in something like it have dropped or slinked out. I found and hired a doula even after learning she may not be eligible for partial reimbursement through our insurance and for what? She'll come to the hospital (and be a help, I *am* sure that she will), but the induction may take forfuckingever so I'm not asking her to be there right away. We'll call her an hour and a half after we get there to check in. I hate this. I resent this. I am so discouraged and it feels like almost every bit of hope has been squeezed out of me.

[skyliath-blog]

Daughter tells her Dad he’s going to be a Grandpa [x]

[falenstar78]

When he says “really” ;’)

[bitt3rfruit]

Never leave this un-reblogged

[cumberbuddy]

What a dear human being he is. 

[rossana]

[mermaidsandcats29]

OMG YAY!

[primigravidarina]

Phrases that make me really happy during pregnancy

"I washed your body pillow cover for you." "Do you want me to rub your butt?" "How about Thai food?" "You just nap." "Can I get you a glass of water?"

[primigravidarina]

Husband, best

So my husband is pretty great all the time, but he’s done a nice job of stepping up lately and gotten me ginger ale, saltines, today we stopped at the grocery store on the way home from dinner with friends so I could get watermelon, etc.

And tonight, when I complained and said I was going to lay down in bed because my butt hurt, he came upstairs with me and rubbed it.

[primigravidarina]

SALTINES

Oh, godcrackers, I love you forever and ever and always and I will never stop, because thanks to you I got through today without once wanting to throw up, and I ate a sandwich, and I love you so much. SUCK IT, MORNING SICKNESS!

[primigravidarina]

Good christ, kid

I can't live on tomato soup and sour candy. Please let me want to/be able to eat something else.

[primigravidarina]

Sooooooooo bloaaaaaattttedddddddd. :( :( :( Have been nauseous all day with breaks only for a nap. Stopped feeling weird about a half hour ago. Feel like a distended balloon instead. On the upside, my best friend is pregnant, and we got to tell each other today. That was pretty special. And I got to have a nice Skype call with my first best friend. Unfortunately she had to text me to ask if I was still up for our Skype date... Because I was asleep. X[

[primigravidarina]

Salty little minx

This baby is going to be salllllllllllttttyyyyyyy.

[primigravidarina]

Thanks, babe.

Hubs and I love THANKS, OBAMA. It's not a constant thing around here, but sometimes one of us will come up with a really silly, perfect place to use one and we both get a laugh out of it. I've gotten low grade nausea as I've been getting ready for work the last few days. Usually, hey, that's because I hate the place I work, but this is definitely pregnancy. I sent the spouse a text asking if he would please get ginger ale (I leave before he does and get home after he does every day... one of the many reasons I hate where I'm working!), and examining why I wanted it. I followed that up with THANKS, BABBY and in a giggly afterthought, THANKS OBABBY.

[primigravidarina]

Oof

My boobs HURT.

[primigravidarina]

Morning Sickness

Yesterday I had my first bit of morning sickness. It didn't make me puke, but I felt distinctly unsettled in my tummy. I had some ginger ale right away (it wasn't first thing in the morning, it was post shower as I was getting ready to leave for work) and it seemed to settle. Gonna take a mint plant to my office and keep ginger ale there, too. I DO NOT LIKE hurling, so the less of it there is the happier I'll be.

[primigravidarina]

Craving

I don't want any food in particular, but I want ALL THE SALTY FOODS.

[primigravidarina]

First meltdown

In general, there aren't a ton of outward changes going on with my body. My breasts are less squishy and I'm having problems with acne like I do before my period (yay), but I'm overweight so I don't look pregnant. Nonetheless, weight is there. I don't like it. I've been working on it and making small progress. My doctor says it's okay to continue walking and hiking, so I'll keep doing what I've been doing. But. My body is a source of confidence and terrible worry for me. Last week, in my effort to plan healthy meals for baby development, I made a bean soup for us. I mentioned to my husband as we started to eat that I'd read using dry beans and soaking them was a good way to reduce emissions caused by beans, so hopefully this wouldn't involve so many farts. Today we were playing with our cats upstairs, and spouse said something to Marcie, our super affectionate gray kitty, about how he wished she would stop pooping. In my Marcie voice I said "Dad, I know what you do several hours after you eat a burrito and I still love you! I still think you have inherent worth!" We had a silly laugh about it, and then spouse said "You know the other night after we had soup, and it said it wouldn't make us fart, well right after you fell asleep on the couch--" Laughingly I said "I don't want to hear this, I don't want to hear this!" "There was this BIG one and I laughed really hard." And we were both laughing and then I wanted to cry and just kept moving the sponge over the bathroom counter in a circle as he said "Hey, I love you," and "I said it thinking you would laugh" and "Do you want to talk about it?" I shook my head but he just stood there and I started crying and he asked if I wanted him to leave and since what felt like eons before I'd told him I didn't want to talk about it, I said "YES!" and REALLY started crying. Augh.

[carazelaya]

carazelaya:

NOTHING MAKES ME ANGRIER THAN SOCIALIZED MALE DOMINANCE IN CONVERSATIONS SO LADIES PLEASE LEARN THESE THREE PHRASES AND NEVER BE AFRAID TO USE THEM

“Stop interrupting me.”

“I just said that.”

“DID THE MIDDLE OF MY SENTENCE INTERRUPT THE BEGINNING OF YOURS?”

ALSO WHEN YOU SEE FEMALES IN YOUR LIFE BEING DISMISSED IN CONVERSATION:

[Name] was speaking, how about we let her finish?

[Name] just said that.

[Name] was in the middle of saying something, can you please let her finish?

[trr3rr]

every fucking day I do this for myself and other women its a constant struggle to be heard

[wilwheaton]

Good advice.

[primigravidarina]

Blerg/hortch/grosssss

I am incorporating a bit of meat into my diet. We have some steaks given to us years ago by friends who were moving out of state. These are from a local farm cooperative that allows families to buy half a cow, essentially. I haven't eaten meat for years, so I thought my husband would eventually prepare them (...ha) or find a new home for them. Well, there they sit, in the freezer. Saying "I'll eat meat" and prepping meat are very different things. I was grossed out (I used to eat meat and I cut pieces into strips for stir fry or whatever, but it's been almost 5 years now) but told myself to keep going. And I did. I got the steak cut in half and into pieces, put those in marinade in a glass container in the fridge, rinsed the cutting board and knives, and then threw up in the sink. Husband is bringing home Subway, thank goodness. And ginger ale.

[primigravidarina]

Pregnant!

Doctor's office called. My pee is so pregnant! The RN went over some things I messaged the clinic about earlier this week. We set up my first appointment. Talked about okay foods. YAY! Aaaaaaaaa! So excited, so not ready, so ready!

[primigravidarina]

A positive on test? (hurrrrrr)

Peeing in a cup is HARD, but y'know, douchebag who used the bathroom before me, I did not get or leave urine all over the toilet seat so you are gross and I am pregnant. >:/ Tempted to quit my day job and design a better urine sample collection option for women, but after this one run in with the urine of another person I am quite sure I want no part of anyone else's output. I'm so ready for motherhood!