'Angel' Gray, your local oujidere

He/Hymn, It/It's Oujidere/Yandere, Jirai in culture but I don’t like restricting myself to one particular style, Lyfting & NPD Blog

[prince-angelgray]

Hello lovelies!

My name's Angel, you can also call me 'Angel Gray' or just 'Gray' <3

I'm new to yanblr and dereblr in general- though this is more specifically an oujidere blog than anything.

-18+ interactions only, if I interact with anyone under it was not on purpose and please lmk! -He/Hymn, It/It's -EVIL WOKE(I dont consider myself rq I just don't care, also transids) -Para and Proship friendly but non-contact

"....what's wrong with him?"

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oh boy what a diagnosis list.....yikes!

NPD w ASPD Traits (The big one! I'll likely post about this the most)

HPD

Schizophrenia

Bipolar II

Autism

MDD

OSDD

OCD

C-PTSD

Factitious Disorder History/mostly recovered

Afrid

Atypical anorexia nervosa (atypical due to recovery but the behaviour still being on and off)

Of course I'm all for and pro-non forced recovery, this is just a vent blog and a place for me to yap off main where I don't want some things completely public.👀

Dere Types (￣y▽￣)╭

(Updating over time probably)

Oujidere

Yandere (Choukyou/Training type, Stalker type[minor])

Usodere

[prince-angelgray]

It would be so fucking chill if my brain didn't decide everything is somehow my fault all the time man-

[prince-angelgray]

Another pretty decent haul in my opinion, I’ve been out of practice for a couple years after lifting for a lonnnggg time so I’m glad it’s come back to me so easy (ALL RP ;D)

[prince-angelgray]

My thrall just yelled at me I can’t do this he’s meant to love me I can’t understand why he seems to hate me so often when I am meant to be the most important thing to him, I’ve been sick all day and he said he’d take care of me when we got home… but now all he’s done since we got back is be horrible to me

(Op uses “thrall” instead of darling, partner, crush, boyfriend, etc)

[prince-angelgray]

Istg this wasn’t a set up for a bit I’m not even joking rn but everything is fine- he was just in the bathroom for too long and was loud from being overstimulated…. He wasn’t yelling at me.

Talk about npd blog living up to its name huh

[prince-angelgray]

My thrall just yelled at me I can’t do this he’s meant to love me I can’t understand why he seems to hate me so often when I am meant to be the most important thing to him, I’ve been sick all day and he said he’d take care of me when we got home… but now all he’s done since we got back is be horrible to me

(Op uses “thrall” instead of darling, partner, crush, boyfriend, etc)

[prince-angelgray]

I feel horrible everytime I start spiralling and end up going off at my thrall, all he asked was what I wanted to do next since I'm not studying anymore having dropped out of uni...

A fair question I guess but something about it just made me snap and I just started sobbing, I know that I mainly can't work due to physical disability but part of me feels like I also shouldn't have to otherwise, maybe I just want to be spoiled and cared for by someone else is that so bad???

Aside from that I just can't seem to stop going off the rails at things I know are perfectly normal statement and questions, but that still doesn't stop it

(*op uses "thrall" instead of darling and partner/boyfriend)

[angel-with-npd]

"what's your biggest fantasy?"

someone picking me up off the floor while im drunk and $h-ing and cleaning me up and telling me im okay.

but i cant say that

so i just say bondage

[amelifts]

having to buy stuff after getting used to l1ft1ng feels so horrible like i couldve gotten this for free

[prince-angelgray]

My haul from today ╰(*°▽°*)╯☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

[prince-angelgray]

I don’t really get jealous of anyone with my darling sexually as a polyamorous person? At least not to any extreme extent at the moment, but I’m normally quite a jealous person when it comes to attention- I suppose because neither of us have been with anyone else romantically atm I haven’t been given any sort of trigger, we’re both poly but just haven’t met anyone

But oh god platonic relationships

The moment one of his friends is getting attention instead of me???

I want to claw my eyes out

[pienhime]

bitches be like "why dont people fawn over me and worship me and love me" and then a man will talk to them and be like

...im bitches

[pienhime]

i think more people should give me money for being cute so i can get more clothes and skin treatments and get cuter

[noctivienne]

"you just want attention." yeah, i do. so are you gonna give it to me or not?

[iryoukawa]

“there are some things in life that you just have to do.”

wellllll no. i’m not obligated to do anything, especially succumbing to a brainless and depressing cycle that we are all expected to follow without question. go to school, get a job, work until you die; follow the rules of society, do whats proper, say whats right— none of that is worth it nor does it interest me one bit.

i dont want my body to add to the pile of people who’ve died over the excruciating weight of a corrupt system. i’ll do what i need to do to ensure my freedom, for myself, and also to spite people who tried shoving the same agenda down my throat. i refuse for my worth to be determined by my labor.

[venomdevout]

born to say “i hope they fucking die” forced to say “omg i hope you have funnn :3” whenever they go out with their friends

[angelic-himedere]

Feeling superior to people cause I’ve always been the “good one” or “smart one” to the point where there is someone smarter than me I can’t help but feel disbelief