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One moment we were laughing, drinking, moving to the blurred beats of the night club. Sip after sip, the world began to blur, began to darken.

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121.
One moment we were laughing, drinking, moving to the blurred beats of the night club. Sip after sip, the world began to blur, began to darken.
120.
I waited until all the crew members went to their quarters for the night to sneak into the kitchen.
119.
I swung the bat one last time just to make sure the crime scene looked convincing.
118.
I slouch as comfortably as possible on the steel chair and stare the detectives down. “You only heard their side of the story, but you don’t know the truth.”
117.
I turned the volume up and sang until my lungs hurt as I cruised down the highway, ignoring the wailing of sirens, the wings of a chopper tearing through the air, and the pounding that came from the trunk of the car.
115.
I stare down at the knife in my chest and for a second, I was mesmerized by the drip dripping of blood. Snapping myself out of the daze, I pull the knife out and smile as I held my new weapon. “Was that supposed to hurt?”
Aah no this one is great thanks.
I stared down at the knife in my chest, and for a second I was mesmerised by the dripping of blood. Snapping myself out of the daze, I pulled the knife out and smiled as I held my new weapon.
“Was that supposed to hurt?”
“It worked! It actually fu*king worked!” Olivia said with an increasing amount of amazement.
“Yeah. It sure did.” I didn’t know how to react, actually feeling weirdly numb. “Phoebe. I’m tired.” I looked at my mentor without understanding the cause for the fearful look on her face.
“We have to get you inside. Now.” She motioned for Olivia to support me whilst she took a small ring from her pocket and started mumbling about… something. Olivia started walking towards the door, forcing me to follow. When we entered the hallway we saw Dave standing in one of the dark corners.
“Is he okay?” He asked Olivia.
“I hope.”
“I can try and help you?”
“I think Phoebe is coming,” Olivia lifted my arm further up on her shoulder, “But some help with the lifting would be appreciated.”
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I awoke in my room, without a memory of what had happened. Olivia sat next to me, looking worried out of her mind.
“Why are you here?”
“To watch you. So you won’t die and stuff, you know.”
“Huh. Why?”
“You don’t remember, huh?” Olivia smiled mischievously, urging me not to believe her next few sentences. “You met a free Skaresth Dratorii and while I was trying to defend my self with magic you decided to go in for a fistfight, and so you got bitten and now you have an Skaresth fertün and it’s only thanks to me using ray of Urþatki that you aren’t dead!”
“Okay, half of those things are stuff I’d know about by now if they existed in a manner that would risk my life, but whatever.” I looked at her with a smile reflecting hers. “Because I remember an amonilareni attacking you, and me defending you like the hero I really am, making it come to a rest and turning into an Salossilareni. Isn’t that the way it went?”
“Okay, whatever, I’ll tell you the truth. We were training and I had to stab you because we were going to train you powers of life, but Phoebe had forgotten that my power of urþatk cancels out yours of life and so you would have died unless Phoebe had made a stone that makes it all alright and now it’s probably fine unless you take of the bandage on your torso because then you will bleed to death. Happy?”
“Yeah. I just wanted to know. And now I know not to get into a fight with you,” I said, looking right into her eyes for two seconds, before breaking into laughter.
113.
I grabbed my bat and smashed it into the mirror, the glass splattering everywhere and piercing my skin.
I needed the glass. I didn’t know why, but I needed it, badly. I took some of the bigger pieces up from the floor, quickly making my way to the door. To the door, down the hall, down the stairs, trough the door. I was out. I had gotten out of the house. I still had no clue why, but I wouldn’t be okay if I hadn’t gotten out. As I looked at the door i suddenly felt panic rumbling in my stomach. Why? I looked left, right. Nothing. Nowhere. Anywhere. Behind me? A car. If the person in the car enters the house it’ll be bad. Horrible. The door to the car opens. That woman. I care about her. I don’t know why, but I care about her. Panic. It’s back. The woman sees me. She looks worried. Why? I’m the one that should be worrying.
“Sweetheart, what are you doing? What’s that on your arms?”
Nevermind my arms.
“Don’t go in there.” She shouldn’t. She definitely shouldn’t. “Please.”
“Why?”
“Don’t.”
I’m running. Away. From it. The danger. I can’t stand still. I mustn’t. Screeching. Houses. A road. It’s a gravel road. Trees. Shade. The sun. A ring of light in the midst of darkness. I place the glass on the ground, making the pieces form a circle around me. I place the blood from my arm between the pieces, it’s like a wall. A wall of light and a wall of glass and blood. I sit in the midst of it. I’m safe. I’m finally safe. I’m safe. It can’t get me. It never will.
What did Sam mean? I looked after her as she ran away.
“Where are you going?” She doesn’t answer. She just runs. I hear screeching, and something sounding like a car crashing. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t seem to matter. When I go into the house I see a trail of blood. Placing my groceries on the floors I decide to follow it. It goes up the stairs, trough the hallway, into Sam’s room. There’s more blood, but that’s not important. I lift the carpet, revealing a hole. The hole. Or maybe not a hole? It stands up. I’m not safe. Why am I not safe? Why is there blood? Why am I thinking about a Sam? I try to run. I can’t. It’s gotten me. The it has gotten me. The it gotten me. The it me. It’s me. I’m it. I have to leave. I will leave. I will take anyone. I will take everyone, everything. I will find her. I will find Sam.
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Idk what that was but I feel like it’s kinda good? Idk. Just gives me a feeling of some kind, but I don’t know.
116.
I spread my arms wide and took one cautious step after the other. I tried not to think about what waited for me at the bottom if the slightest breeze tipped me over.
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I woke up and immediately groaned. I wanted to keep dreaming of them. It was the first time they held me. Why did I have to wake up so soon? I grabbed my beeping phone and turned off the alarm. Not ready to leap out of bed, I open Facebook to see if I’ve received any notifications, trying desperately to rub the sleep from my eyes. No notifications, but there are new friend suggestions. I scrolled through them absently, yawning. No, no Facebook, I’d rather not re-friend my ex, thanks. I hit the end of the suggestion list, and end up gasping painfully, half-choking in my attempt to breathe again. No doubt about it, their face is smiling up at me from my phone.
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「Just A Bit More」DMMd ficlet
PROMPT: From @procrastinatingwriterssociey PAIRING: Noiz/Aoba WORDS: 1,500+ RATING: General NOTE: A plot-hole fill for One Day Memory, Chapter 9, Turn. A/N: I never really get over my old stories :’)
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They said hope is ambiguous, that there’s no guarantee to hope. But unfortunately, that’s the only thing Noiz knows to do, and knows what to do.
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“Doctor, the patient is ready for surgery, if we don’t start now, we’ll lose him.”
Noiz closed his eyes for two whole seconds, then opening them again as he heaved a low breath. Despite the traumatizing incident that had happened in his last surgery, he’d earned the pass to proceed for another, as a well-certified doctor. He never once failed a surgery. He could never see himself failing any. But yet…
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69.
“Why is he bleeding?” “Because he’s and idiot.”
“Why is he bleeding?”
“Because he’s an idiot,” Angie growled, rubbing at her forehead.
Angie’s friend tilted her head at Ash curiously. “What did he do?”
She sighed heavily, pressing her temples in a failed attempt to quell the strengthening headache. “He took me seriously, Jen. Now, can you please tell me where you saw Jacob?”
She could feel Ash grinning behind her. What an absolute idiot, she thought angrily. Her headache was bordering on hospital worthy at this point, and she didn’t know how much more she could take.
“You asked me to be more demon-like,” Ash said, and she could hear the smile in his voice. “What will you have me do now, master?”
“Dying would be nice,” She muttered quietly. “Stop being sarcastic is fine for now, though.”
He leaned on her shoulders, resting his chin on top of her head. “Anything for you, Angie.”
Jen stared at them, one eye brow raised and lips pursed. “Are you sure he’s a demon? You both look like a married couple. I’ve seen quite a few demon pairs over the years, and you both are not like them.”
Angie scoffed. “I think I summoned the wrong one. Diane was-“
“Wait, you listened to Diane?” Jen asked abruptly, her eyebrows shooting for her hairline. “Diane Clark? Are you insane, Angie? Which demon did she tell you to summon?”
“I’m standing right here, you know.” Ash muttered, leaning away from Angie.
Jen placed her hands on her hips, but her eyes were filled with fear. “Knowing Diane, you won’t tell us squat about who you really are.”
Confused, Angie stopped rubbing her temples and focused on Jen. “What do you mean? She told me to summon Asme-Asmod…..something like that. The pronunciation was difficult.”
Jen paled and stepped back, hands raising as if to fend off a blow. “Get out.” She whispered. “Get out and get rid of him, Angelica.”
“But, Jacob-“
“Get OUT.” Jen shouted, eyes wild. “For He so loved the world…”
Concerned, but not wanting to upset her friend any further, Angie stood and turned to Ash. He was grinning, and there was a hard, dark look in his brown eyes. She huffed, grabbed his arm, and pulled him toward the exit. Jen was still reciting bible verses furiously as they exited the building.
“That went well,” Ash said, shoving his hands as deep as they could go in his black skinny jeans. “Want me to try again in a few hours? I can be pretty….persuasive.”
Angie sighed. “Why was she afraid of you, Ash?”
“No idea.” He shrugged, but the smile on his lips told a different story.
“Jen is the top demonologist in this town. She’s also damn good for information. Why did she freak out when she heard your name?”
Ash stopped in the middle of the sidewalk and tilted his head at her. “Diane sounds like a marvelous person. We should give her a little visit.”
Angie turned, skeptical. “What, why?”
“Well, I did say we should cause some type of serious injury for that bag of salt failure….”
She slapped his shoulder before turning away from him and marching down the sidewalk. “You are an idiot.”
He grinned at her back, tossing his golden hair over his shoulder. “We can travel on Barnaby! He’s lonely!”
“Idiot!” She shouted back.
“Oh, come on now! Don’t you want to know who I am? I think it was pretty naïve of you to summon me without knowing!”
That got her attention. She knew only what Diane had told her; he was a demon of revenge, perfect for what she needed done. But, it seemed she didn’t know the whole truth about him. Diane would have the answers, though she loathed conversing with the old woman. And that god awful tea Diane would insist on everyone drinking. Angie sighed again, shoulders slumped in defeat.
“Fine, you got me. Let’s go visit Diane.” As Ash skipped ahead of her, she shouted. “But we aren’t going to hurt her!”
“Now look whose being an idiot.” He shouted back, turning to flash her a quick smile.
“I’m not an idiot, idiot!”
“I’m calling Barnaby!” He sung happily, still skipping down the sidewalk.
She stomped her foot furiously. “Don’t YOU DARE!”
Heyy my name's Angie 😆
89.
“Doctor, the patient is ready for surgery, if we don’t start now, we’re going to lose him.”
I look up at the doctor’s face. My best friend of 15 years and he’s standing there in front of me looking helpless.
“Tina, you should really rest. This much stress isn’t good for the baby” he ushers over a nurse to take me back to my room
“Jay, you have to save him. I can’t do this without him”
“Tina, I’ll try my best, but this is a really complicated surgery….”
“Jay” I look at him tears pooling in my eyes, pleading “Please, just…please”
“Nurse, please take her back to her room” Jay answers as he reaches to brush away one of the tears that managed to escape. “I’ll do my best, he’s my friend too you know?”
Jay Sahota was the best neurosurgeon in the country, if he couldn’t save him then there was no hope left. Just a few hours ago their life was perfect, enviable even. All it takes is one second, and everything you love, everything you value can just be taken away from you in the blink of an eye
* Earlier that evening *
“Arjun man, I’m fine just let me drive” the man drawled out, now leaning on my husband for support. Arjun took the keys from him.
“Listen bro, this is my sister’s wedding and I’ll be damned if I let you drive home drunk.” he pulled his arm over his shoulder. “Tina will drive you in our car and I’ll take your car behind you okay? That way you get home safe and your car is home, cool?”
“Dude, I’m fine. Besides didn’t you drink?”
“Bro, my wife is pregnant, I’m not allowed to drink until she is!” Arjun laughs as he nods over to me.
“Don’t worry Paaji, you’re on our way home. It’s not a big deal at all. Better safe than sorry. Challo” I walk towards our car as my husband loads the obviously very intoxicated man into the car. His eyes shut as soon as he sits on our seats. “Idiot” I mutter to myself. We turn to drive down the road, his house was five minutes away from this hall but exhausted, sober and way too pregnant, I was ready to just go home.
“Okay Tina, see you in 5 minutes”
“Yeah, he still lives off of 10th line right?”
“Yeah, just follow my car”
“Alrighty” I turn on the ignition to my car and start to back out. My husband turn to me, pensive. Like he knows something is coming. I cock my face to the side, my way of asking him what’s going on in his mind.
“I love you Teen, you know that right? I really really love you”
“Arjun, babe. I love you too, but right now our son is driving me nuts and I really just wanna go home, so let’s go?” He gives it a moment of thought, and backs out his car. I follow behind him
“The Gods are being generous, not red lights. We’re going to be home in no time” I think to myself.
*BOOM, car horns blaring*
I open my eyes from a blink, a blink that might have lasted maybe 2.5 seconds too long. I slam my brakes and time, time seems to stop forever. I hear the car alarms of my husband car blaring off in the distance, my own car swerved and hit a light from the impact and braking. My drunk bade paaji has now woken up from his slumber, 100 times more sober as he evaluates the scene around him.
Three cars.
4 humans.
Our car is starting to smoke up, my bade paaji shakes me awake. “Tina, Tina, come on we have to get out of the car. TINA MOVE GODDAMNIT.” he looks around “Oh god, ARJUN. OH GOD, WHAT IS HAPPENING” he is panicking, but I can’t hear him. All I hear is the car alarm blaring on our 2016 Honda Civic, all I hear is the metal on metal sound of the two cars from the impact. All I see is darkness, there are no lights, no houses. Just the small street light barely visible through the fog forming around the car. I can’t move. I can’t feel anything. “TINA, GET UP” he comes around the door and drags me out of the car before he goes to inspect the damage to his own.
I sit there on the side walk, in my blue sari. It’s a unusually warm night even for summer, but my body is frigid, I’m shivering. I look onto the scene of the intersection. A small red Corvette is laying on the side of the road, barely recognizable under the damage caused by the Ford pick-up, both cars are minutes from bursting into flames. Then everything goes black.
I wake up under fluorescent white light, I start to resist and wake up. “WHERE AM I?!’ WHERE IS MY HUSBAND?! WHERE IS HE”
“Ma'am please, relax.” the nurse tries to sedate me but it’s useless. My body seems to have finally caught up with my mind, I am unstoppable now. For a 29 year old pregnant woman, I am pretty strong. I manage to shake the nurses off me and make a break towards the door when a pair of strong arms stop me. The nurse is at my tail. “Dr. Sahota, we tried to hold her down”
I look up to see my best friend holding me. “Tina, please. You’re pregnant, you were in an accident. We need to work you up”
“Jay, I need to see him. Please tell me he’s okay. Jay” I am in hysterics. Where is he, why isn’t he here in the ER?
“Tina, please calm down we need to make sure the baby is okay.” I calm down a little, my hand drifts towards my belly unconsciously. I sit onto the gurney.
“Okay, I’ll go. But is he okay?” Jay looks at me for one whole minute. The idea of lying crosses his mind. But then he decides against it, because he knows he can’t lie to me, not even to save his life.
“I don’t know” he motions to the nurses “Please take Dr. Gill up to Dr. Montgomery, she’s waiting for her.” I lay back on the gurney and pray with all my life that the man I love is still breathing.
115.
I stare down at the knife in my chest and for a second, I was mesmerized by the drip dripping of blood. Snapping myself out of the daze, I pull the knife out and smile as I held my new weapon. “Was that supposed to hurt?”
56.
She began to regret what she had done as the ground began to open wide and a hideous beast emerged from the depths of the earth.
(While all of my prompt stories will likely remain short, I might take this one further if there is interest. It was certainly fun!)
She began to regret what she had done as the ground began to open wide, and a hideous beast emerged from the depths of the earth.
Well, this is going to end painfully, she thought as the panic started to build. She took a few stumbling steps back from the crumbling earth before she could gain her footing, terrified the various cracks would split at any moment. The ground beneath her trembled as the beast continued its ascent. She could feel the vibrations in her bones. She’d go so far as to say she could feel them in her soul.
Clutching the bag of blessed salt to her chest, she waited for the beast to crest. The acrid, eye-watering smell of rotting eggs was enough to make her stomach lurch, had the terror paused a moment to give the smell a chance. Her stomach was somewhere up in her mouth; she was certain she’d vomit soon.
The beast crested with a monumental roar, it’s huge claws burying themselves deep in the dirt. The roar rocked her backwards, and she landed solidly on her behind. Damnit, she was really hoping these pants wouldn’t get dirty. The beast shook its massive head, and viscous gunk flew off in all directions. Where the gunk landed, it burned and gave off an incredibly foul smell. It reminded her of week old chicken breast left in the sun.
She trembled under the hot gaze of the beast. It reminded her of a bulldog, if the bulldog was covered in tar, had the fiery pits of Hell for eyes, and was the size of a three-bedroom house. Not to mention the monstrous claws and teeth. She wouldn’t mention those, and actively avoided staring at them for long.
Trembling, she yelled, “I’ve summoned you here! You will obey!” To add emphasis, she tossed a handful of salt at the beast.
The salt hit the beast and was quickly absorbed. It did nothing. It didn’t even sizzle. She stared, wide eyed, as the beast growled. Oh yeah, this was going to hurt.
“The first thing we need to do,” A voice roared above the beast, and a man’s head popped up behind a thick piece of gunk on the beast’s ear. “Is seriously injure whoever taught you how to summon. Salt? Really?”
Confused, she placed the bag of salt on the ground next to her, and began to stand. “Who are you?”
The man grinned and disappeared behind the beast again. A second later, she watched as he leaped from the beast’s back and landed hard on the cracked earth, unfazed. What the hell was going on? She had only summoned one demon, not two. If she had screwed up…well, there would be hell to pay, of that she was absolutely certain.
He sauntered over to her with one hand stuffed deep in the pocket of his black skinny jeans. His other hand teased his elbow length blonde hair, tossing it easily over his shoulder. He was taller than her, much taller, and appeared to be around her age. Appeared being the magical word here. His grin could only be matched by the smoldering look in his brown eyes, and her heart skipped a beat. There will be none of that, she admonished herself quickly. She realized her mouth was hanging open, and she closed it with an audible clack.
“You summoned me, and you’re asking who I am?” He asked her, his voice sultry and low. “My my, I certainly didn’t take you for being stupid. A bit naïve, maybe, but not stupid.”
Angry now, she snapped, “Well, excuse the fuck out of me.” She retorted, crossing her arms over her chest. “I didn’t expect you to be riding that…that…uh…thing!”
He laughed. It was an animated gesture that included throwing his head back and covering his eyes with his free hand. As the laugh burst from his open mouth, she blushed and squirmed. She knew well the powers of the underworld, but she had been certain she’d be unfazed. Only now did she realize how utterly incorrect she was in that assumption.
“You really thought that Hellhound was me?” He asked as the laughter died away.
She blushed as he peered at her through splayed fingers. “I did.” She answered honestly. “I was told to expect a hideous creature.”
He grinned, dropping his hand from his face. “Did you hear that, ol’ boy? She thinks you’re hideous!”
The beast growled deeply, and the ground shook with the sound. She tossed her hands up and shook her head, eyes widening, but the beast didn’t move. In fact, it didn’t seem to really understand the conversation, or, at least, wasn’t paying it much attention.
He watched her intently, and she squirmed again. “You know, us in the Underworld really aren’t as bad as the Sparklies tell you.” He reached forward and gently caressed her cheek with the back of his hand. “Hell, we love you humans.”
She jerked away from him. “Don’t lie to me.”
He laughed again, though this one had no mirth in it. In fact, it sounded angry. His eyes hardened and the playful look on his face was gone. When he gripped her upper arm and pulled her into his embrace, she was unprepared for how gentle he was, and yelped in response. He didn’t seem to notice.
“Listen, kid, because I’m about to blow that naïve little mind of yours,” He growled in her ear, running his fingers through her hair. “Why do you think you don’t summon angels for favors? Why do you humans always run to the denizens of the Underworld? It’s because they don’t give a rat’s dead ass about you creatures. You are imperfect, impure, and disgusting little nobodies to them; pawns in the greater, unknown scheme of the Big Man.”
His chest was warm and he smelled of rich earth, the kind found in a moss-covered forests untouched by man. As he spoke, the vibrations rumbled through her, through her very soul if she could properly describe how she felt. It’s just magic, she tried to remind herself as she listened closely. He’s lying through his teeth, and using magic. Stay strong.
“We come when summoned because we like you humans. You guys are interesting. You’re always ready to throw such impossible things away for the most mundane,” He purred, still stroking her hair. “You’re more like us than you realize.”
He released her. She stumbled back a step, disoriented, and tripped over the bag of salt she left on the ground. As she struck the ground, again, she jolted to her senses and glared at the man. He was smiling, but that hard edge in his eyes hadn’t softened yet.
With a sweeping motion, he bowed elegantly. “Anyway, enough with the theatrics. How may I serve you, master?” Still bowed, he picked his head up to look at her, his grinning face framed in a halo of golden hair. “And don’t forget to offer something….titillating.”
113.
I grabbed my bat and smashed it into the mirror, the glass splattering everywhere and piercing my skin.
(I DONT KNOW WHERE IM GOING WITH THIS) I stood there panting. The image was gone. What….what was that? Was it another hallucination? I stood there looking at my now bleeding arms. “Fuck…” i grumbled wincing. It hurt now that all the adrenaline was gone. I sat down and started picking out the shards that had dug into my skin. “Nice going.” a voice in my head said. Them they had always been there. I never figured out why but they were there. “Shut up ok? I panicked.” i said looking at the bat. “Reggie your not going to get anywhere if you keep this up.” The blood streaming down my arms now made them feel cold. “I dont care Dray.” I rubbed my forehead in frustration. My head hurt. “You need to take care of those wounds.” i sighed. Bossy as ever. Thats how dray always was. “Fine fine fine.” i said getting up. “Becks is gonna kill me for breaking her mirror though….”
89.
“Doctor, the patient is ready for surgery, if we don’t start now, we’re going to lose him.”
“Doctor. The patient is ready for surgery. If we don’t start now, we’re going to lose him.” The nurse said softly, gently touching my shoulder.
Startled at the touch, I jerked up and turned. “Oh! Oh, right. I’m coming.”
The nurse gave me a strange look before exiting the office. I blinked a few times, attempting to gain my bearings. Jesus, surgery? What the hell type of surgery am I performing?
There’s a book opened in front of me. I must have fallen asleep reading it. It’s an article on wedge resection. Oh, that’s right. I’m about to take a cancerous tumor from a lung. Not just from any lung, but from his lung. No wonder I’m disoriented.
I got up and wandered over to my file cabinet. Inside, I have a stash of smelling salts. I cracked one open, took a deep breath, and immediately felt more energized. I’m focused now. I’ve done a wedge resection close to fifty times. I can do them in my sleep. It doesn’t matter if it’s for him, or the boy down the street; the procedure is the same.
Heading out of my office and into the prep room for the OR, I am assaulted by the prep team. I’m properly outfitted for the procedure and sterilized. The operating room technicians are talking, but I can barely hear them. It doesn’t matter. We’ve performed this operation dozens of times together. This one won’t be any different.
We entered the OR and I freeze. He’s on the table, surrounded by light. There are machines connected to various parts of his body, beeping quietly, constantly monitoring various vital signs. For a moment, I’m not sure I can do this. I’m the only surgeon available, and the tumor needs to come out now.
I took a very deep, slow breath and approached the table. The operating room technician closest to me was a small girl, and she’s ready to start handing me tools. I must open the chest cavity; the minimal incision approach wouldn’t work for this patient. The location and size of the tumor wouldn’t permit me to use it.
As I began to make the large incision down his chest, my mind started to wander. I finished cutting him open, and I still see him as the man I loved. He needed to be another body, another person. As the OR team assisted me in prying open the ribcage enough to reach the tumor, I become lost in the methodic beeping of machines.
The cardiopulmonary bypass was working effectively. I don’t have to worry. Instead, I focused on cutting the delicate lobe carefully. The technician handed me a few more tools and, before I realized it, the tumor was out. We began the arduous task of replacing the rib cage, stitching up the wound, and removing the machines. I left a small incision for the drainage tube. He’d need that until the lung expanded, but otherwise would be fine.
I did it. He would be fine.
I left the minor cleaning to the technicians and disrobed in the prep room. Without warning, my stomach lurched, and I vomited in the trashcan. Jesus. I just operated on the man I love. He’s going to be okay. I fucking did it.
“You did well,”
I spun around and quickly wiped the spittle from my mouth. “What are you doing in here? You can’t be here.”
The elegantly dressed man smiled at me. “I used to work here. The code hasn’t changed,” He slowly clapped his hands together arrogantly. “I came to congratulate you on another successful surgery. You are really improving.”
“What are you talking about? You need to leave.” I told him sternly, pointing to the door.
The man grinned. It was disconcerting on his otherwise handsome face. My hand reached back slowly, and gripped one of the scalpels sitting in disinfectant. I don’t know why, but I feel as if he’s going to do something. I just don’t know what. Or when.
The man looked around the room for a moment. Dizziness overtook me, and I dropped the scalpel. Before I know it, I’m on my knees, and my head smacked into the cold linoleum floor.
“Doctor. The patient is ready for surgery. If we don’t start now, we’re going to lose him.” The nurse said softly, gently touching my shoulder.
I jerked awake and spun around, heart pounding in terror. The office looked just as it had before. As the nurse glared at me and left, the man entered my field of view. He’s still smiling, and looked as dangerous as before.
“What the hell-“ I started, but he cut me off with a wave of his hand.
“You begged for him to live. I’ve simply….granted that request.”