"we're all floating in space on the edge of death"

just breathing at the moment

[the-wolf-and-moon]

Comet R3 PanSTARRS

[absinthundblut]

[depsidase]

[do-not-u-dare]

Stole this from somewhere but i think it’s appropriate

[project-youngrecklesslove]

maybe the wind ties a soul to the every changing season. it can be a slight breeze that flows throigh the tall grass creating the all too familiar sound of rustling weeds on a summer day. it can pitch the highest of howls as violent as a tornado. destruction along anything in the path.

on collision with your opposite can lead to such devastation. or two of the same just result in no difference.

it can matter as much as an unbalanced equation of the chemistry of living organism or as insignificant as the vast amount of space empty with a void only minutely occupied by such vast masses we observe.

the wind you feel can feel as soothing or as traumatizing as a butterfly's wings with the dangerous possibility of the wind carrying the wing's flap into a grander scale of possibility.

we are not weightless but can be carried away by the winds. may the winds be the right ones to follow and may you find safety from what appears to give comfort.

[project-youngrecklesslove]

meeting a person on a random encounter that was not expected maybe gave me some insight to just doing what the great Uncle talked about. the impact of such conversation reinforced my old thought of gathering knowledge from others.

i am so worried about something i thought i had control of and desperately needed control of to make sure something doesnt happen. and in that i lost my rage, the anger that fueled me to be the better version of me. what i thought was peace was becoming my addiction. it became what i depended on. not because it brought me pleasure, but peace.

trying to let go and randomly typing this should help me in discovering what priority takes in my life. i always thought it would be alone until thr change happened. then through ripples in the timeline, changed course from what i was projecting to be my reality.

from walking across a concrete bridge to being hit with harsh winds, freezing winters, and constant travel of heavy burdens, the bridge that once seemed indestructible from an asteroid seems like any crack it has now can rupture all of it.

it seemed i was walking back and forth crossing the depths i was afraid of but in my travels, discovered the fog never cleared up. what i thought was the end was only another column that in itself had enough land to be considered the end point. ive been traveling back and forth on this bridge that i realized it goes on. the end is not in sight.

rather than be afraid of the unknown depths, the fear is staying in what im discovering to be one of the many small isoalted lands. after solace int this time, i can see the next island which this bridge connects to. but vaugely can i see what it holds. it's so far.

with risk, comes an avalanche of uncertain. an endless amount of cracks from an impact to a slate. should i remain on this bridge, i could fall into an endless pit. should i stay on the island, i might not be able to move forward or even come back to my beginnings. the beginning that has given me such strong base as a man.

what i had to do to get to this point was guidance of others. specifically those i felt were genuine. and as time passed by, felt the prescence was full of hate. a hate that was being harbored from days on end. to know how many days is to reach a black hole. the desire of attaining something that will engulf you in an emotion i could not comprehend until within my touch.

the reason i had to walk and try is slipping my hands. but as a broken glass, maybe i should just set it aside. burn it in flames until it can molded into something else. carrying seems to hurt. i refused change and yet others were quicker to it.

maybe thats why i stay on this island. what i thought was my end is my plateau. to harbor anger from humanity once again to allow me to build my equipment to travel on again without the worry of the past will take all of me.

i might not be able to allow others on my journey, but maybe they can use my camp ive left behind. a place to stop by and read my adventure. joining this trip would allow me to fall in peace again. i do not want to feel vulnerable.

i see the picture of what i once was. i smile as i might encounter such person on this bridge. when the light shines through this fog, i can see the next island. but most of the times it is too dark to see. left alone for so long has allowed me to see what i think are ghosts. demons. creatures too familiar to believe they are real. if i come across myself, i can only be strong to complete my travel for the innocence i once knew. the innocence i still hold on to for my younger self.

maybe i can help others. lead them to their dreams. that which i am beginning to understand wont be for me. complacent i have been, yes. joyful in the small items of life i have received. but to have my dreams are too distant to even desire. seeing other's rejoice in their accomplishments seems to give me more light than my own greed. i admit that much.

maybe on this new journey, i can leave behind desires. the weight has given my knees pain from which is not reversible. i take a point to say im selfish and greedy. maybe i am or maybe not. but i keep to hopefully be a better human.

i dont know who will see this or take the time to womder from my words, but hope you can flee your doubts and embark on being strong and stand. i can only leave you these words stranger. but may we meet again.

[project-youngrecklesslove]

this will be a long overdue post that is mainly for me.

in a couple of years, i will be ok or not. i look at right now and can only feel as a piece of leaf that got stuck in a ditch get washed by passing moments but unable to escape the mud that i happened to float on. if i could describe it better, i would. but when you leave the comfort ofvsomething whether because it was the right time or due to harsh conditions, the reality is that you fall.

i dont know what to feel but what bothers me is the inability to keep things the same. my desire would be for things to be the same. i dont desire things as my actions could show. but most of it depends pn factors i cannot control. and once they give me sight of a different picture, i cant force myself to push through it. could be the past that doesnt let me evolve but also, energy invested into a variable that can or cant give back is too much risk.

i just wish to be in a dark place and be left alone. with no worries, no responsibilities, and nothing keeping me stringed along. TTS is helping me reflect on it and i do appreciate what life has from ranging out deep in darkness to concrete rocks from the earth's center.

i just have to let go from my part as i can only see how this affects me in the sense of me wanting consistency. broken bridges can be fixed or replaced but glass containers need to be forged anew. picking them up to bring back the shape can just leave scars on top of compromised structural integrity.

maybe it's too vauge so if you read this, i hope you can find a coin to balance the scale on which you might be on.

5/14/24

[project-youngrecklesslove]

this would be me if i was a teddy bear... 2 days after Valentines Day with a 50% off price tag and still not picked. fml

[olivialovesleggings-deactivated]

Close your eyes and listen

[imfeelinghappiness]

Apps To Kill Time On

Keep seeing some posts circulating about popular websites and wanted to make a version for apps.

These are apps I’m way too addicted to. Am I missing any?

P.S. I’m on an iPhone so these are iPhone apps, but probably have an Android version too.

Edit: Sorry for all the time I’ve taken away from your life

Commaful - popular fanfiction, story, and poetry community 👑

Bettr - the reason my friends are jealous of my Insta

Sweatcoin - get paid to walk

Spellbound - addictive horror 👻 and romance stories

Helix Jump - legit the most addicting game on my phone

Calm - Award-winning app for meditation and sleeping better

Tenkyu - tilt your phone and watch the relaxing magic happen

Slime Road - bet you can’t hit the bullseye ⚾️

Hempire - become a plant mogul

Dune! - Ride the sand dunes like a baller!! so much fun

Go Fish - win trophies by catching hella fish

Hotspot Shield - free proxy/VPN to bypass school filters

Terrarium - build the ultimate garden empire

Golf Orbit - ever played golf on mars?

Ball Blast - Just shoot the balls. Simple right? ;)

Sling Drift - beep beep - level 70 is insane 🚗

1Q - get paid to answer simple questions

Crowd City - Become the popular kid in town by running around 

Bee Factory - become a honey tycoon

Wind Rider - fly through a city in a wing suit

Spill it - drop balls and break glass

Fire Balls - shoot balls at obstacles. gets pretty hard

Paper - can you conquer all the territory and win?

Two Dots - a fun puzzle game. easy time killer

Planet Bomber - let’s nuke some planets

Ice Racing - race down a mountain at record speeds

Splashy - bounce the ball accurately to survive. requires focus

Snakes Vs. Blocks - even more fun than the original snake hehe

Twenty48 Solitaire - best toilet game

Knock Balls - shoot down blocks with a canon - surprisingly relaxing

Wishbone - fun game for comparing stuff like hair, celebs, sports

Hole - fuck up a city muahaha

Dosh - get paid to shop

Sweatcoin - get paid to walk

Yarn - stories that are seriously creepy af

You’re welcome 😉

[project-youngrecklesslove]

arms installed and coilovers mounted but missing so much work on the subframe. . . . . #240sxproject #240 #240sx #zenkis #zenki #zenkilove #zenkis14 #zenkisunite #savethezenkis #electroplating #israrms #isrperformance #ffcoilovers #functionformtype2 #functionform #voodoo13 #nissanlove #nissan #carproject #carparts #2018

[project-youngrecklesslove]

Last night's capture. . . . #latenight #night #nightlights #amateurphotography #photography #photo #dallas #dallastx #2018 #photographychallenge2018 #photographychallenge

[hopefortheday]

In love with my first flag/tapestry I designed for myself 

[project-youngrecklesslove]

sway bars came out really good for the s14! reese's cup for color comparison. chrome powder with an aqua top coat! . . . #s14project #s14 #s14zenki #swaybar #240sxproject #240sx #nissanlove #nissan #savethezenkis #datzenkicrew #schassis #powdercoating #powdercoat

[project-youngrecklesslove]

half of the sway bar project is done👌🙏🏽 . . . . #sheetmetal #sheetmetalfab #fabrication #prismaticpowders #powdercoat #powdercoating #s14project #s14 #zenki #zenkis #zenkisunite #zenkis14 #swaybar #chromepowder #chrome

[project-youngrecklesslove]

this cold, rainy weather school night got me like 😪 . . . . #240sxproject #240 #savethezenkis #zenkis #zenki #zenkisunite #datzenkicrew #rainydays #rainy #rainynight #collegelife #college #enkeirpf1 #enkei #nissanlove #nissan #s14project #s14

[project-youngrecklesslove]

#puma365 are probably the best ive ever worn . . . . #puma #pumasoccer #soccer #soccergame #thebeautifulgame #indoorshoes #ballislife #futbolesvida #futbol #soccerplayers #soccerplayer #amoralfutbol

[project-youngrecklesslove]

when it was raining... . . . #2017 #december #winter #240sxproject #240sx #240 #s14 #s14project #savethezenkis #navanbros #navan #datzenkicrew #schassis #silvias14 #nissan #nissanlove #texas #texasweather #stjude #isrperformance