I SHIFTED I SHIFTED I SHIFTEDDD.
okay, okay, I’m still all over the place but I’ll try and reiterate what happened. I was sleeping restlessly (like I usually do, but I’m injured so it was a lot more difficult to become comfortable). it was early morning and fuckass light was sneaking under my equally fuckass blinds and I WANTED that cookie — shifting and my s/o being that cookie. so I released my predisposed and typical shifting routine with music and focus and visualisation and said FUCK ITTT. I turned over and imagined it was early morning in my dr too (my bed isn’t even close to the window there but god forbid a girl takes some creative liberties) and then I visualised my s/o’s arms around my waist, his breath on the back of my neck. it made me feel better and after a few seconds, i lowk forgot about my beef with the light and then I FELT IT. his breath. I WENT RIGID. I turned and felt him KISS MY CHEEK. TWICE. mind you WE ARE NOT TOGETHER YET. his mouth was so so very soft and I thought maybe I was in my cr and it was my mom?? sometimes she wakes me up with kisses, but why the fuck would she be awake now and THIS gentle?? I heard him murmur something to me, (I think it was my name??) and so so much adrenaline was rushing me that I shifted back because WHAT IS HAPPENING. it feels less startling now, and when I shifted back I was FRUSTRATED but OH MYYY. earlier in the evening, I’d started thinking of my routine and schedule in my dr, and affirming lightly that I would wake up there (this schedule included my ‘best friend’ staying over and waking up with him!!) drowsy, fuck it, visualise guys!!



















