observer, philosopher, madman.

INTP, demisexual, ADHD, ASD, alexithymia

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What's your relationship with truth?

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Desperation is a gift of motivation to those fortunate enough to see the depth of their need.

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Lingered

Bathed in regret, dripping your fragrance

the confusing taste of tears and remembered lips stalling my recoil, hovering in a moment I can't see clearly in the freshly clearing steam.

A desire to call out presses from my chest, but an image of a void behind these walls keeps me poised on silence.

I will leave this moment

not because I am capable of dispersing the yearning, but because I am unable to renew the pieces which keep it together.

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Warm breezes are underrated.

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If you don't let kids make mistakes in the open, they'll make them in the shadows where the poison will fester...

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What can distract me long enough to take me to the next distraction?

Will an infinite chain of distractions be my savior?

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A spam account messaged me "heya cutie" on here years ago & I still have it so I can get that little boost when I glance at my inbox sometimes.

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My swipe-text has morbid humor. Trying to type "Let's explore" and it keeps giving me "Let's expire."

~I see that depression~

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I burst out laughing thinking that someone might see me one day and think I look like the answer to their problems! Oh the deceiving surface!

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I may live life depressed, but I refuse to live it paralyzed.

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We verify our realities via consistency.

Whatever is most consistent seems most real.

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Death landed while blossoms rose, as if spring and winter had come at once, leaving a disheveled smear of black & pink in the wake of grazed shoulders.

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No, this isn't a dating app, but neither is the grocery store & u know I be lookin' for dat prolonged eye contact out in them aisles~

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If I would've never existed, I wouldn't know I didn't exist.

also

There are an infinite number of people that will never exist.

~help~

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Desolate echoes sweep my mind;

since you've been gone I'm lost in time~

anchored to the air, I've expanded search

for an unknown heart on which to perch

Breathe for me~

press my lungs until I wheeze.

I've forgotten life~

ruled by the breeze.

drifting

drifting

endless chamber of freedom

waiting

waiting

I'll only settle for second best

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Your ability to make friends with me is no match for my ~supreme awkwardness~ 👌👌 👍

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Day 1 of watching Silver Linings Playbook until a mutually mentally ill person comes along and we fall in love yet live in denial until the last possible second.