Pt.2 of Little!Robby (2.4k words)
One night Robby managed to involuntarily regress before he could even get out of his vehicle in the driveway.
He slowly unlocked the front door , trying his absolute best to hold back tears before he entered the house.
Robby had completely forgotten that Jack had the night off, little him freezes at the door. He could hear the TV playing and Jack laughing from the couch.
Sweet Robby was terrified to enter the house. The fear of being found out was taking a toll on him. He is such a sensitive little, a little no one gets to see.
They don’t get to see how sweet and soft Robby is. They don’t see how gentle he is and how he cares so much about others that he is suffering in silence rather than letting anyone know about this burden.
Mustering up the courage to finally make his way inside took a little while. When he finally pushed the door open , he gently removed his outside gear and hung up his backpack.
He quietly walked to the kitchen to see if Jack made anything for dinner. He saw that Jack had plated his dinner and left it on the counter with a sticky note.
Shame hit Robby hard , the fuzziness and the cloudiness impaired his ability to read or comprehend quite a bit.
Robby wasn’t able to read the little note his husband left him. He felt so guilty and selfish, he needed to get a grip on this, he can’t keep doing this.
The sweet boy let a couple tears slip out , running down his cheeks, his heart aching.
He didn’t even want to eat anymore the shame brought on nausea and Robby wasn’t sure if he could stomach anything.
Robby quietly put away the dish , keeping the posted note on it so once he was big he would be able to read it.
Robby was thankful that big and little him were quiet. Robby was always silent after a shift even if he didn’t regress.
It made it easier to hide , Jack knew that Robby preferred not to talk after a long shift and would most likely tell him about it tomorrow.
Robby made his way over to Jack , his steps were soft and quite different from big Robby. He placed a soft kiss on Jack’s cheek before he headed to their bathroom to shower and change.
Robby sobbed quietly while he showered, he felt smaller than he has in ages. He felt nothing but guilt and shame.
His coordination is off , meaning he spent even more time in the shower , he struggled with his balance and where he needed to wash. Having to do this all on his own when he felt so small was nothing but a struggle. He was so overwhelmed with all the decisions he had to make.
When he got out of the shower , he struggled to dry himself off , it felt like everything was so heavy to move.
Getting himself dressed into his pjs was even more of a struggle, he had no balance or coordination to be able to stand and put his pjs on. He sat down and pulled on his underwear and pj bottoms while sitting. Lifting his bum in order to slide the underwear and pants up. He slipped his pj top on and put warm fuzzy socks on his feet.
He had to hold onto the counter and bathtub in order to get himself back up standing.
He brushed his teeth, little Robby counting in his head the time passing to make sure he brushed well.
Robby tossed everything into the hamper and made his way to their room , grabbing his glasses and book.
When Robby is little, there’s very few signs he is little, the only way to catch it is to watch him extremely closely and carefully.
His eyes , they go big and round. You could see the fear and innocence in them. They were glassy from Robby holding back tears , he is such a sweet and sensitive boy. His eyes showed that.
Another sign is how he moves , he is so gentle and very slow, especially if he is feeling very small. Robby is usually pretty rough with things, it’s never intentional. He is just more consistent and confident with his coordination.
Those were the only signs Robby could not hide , he tried his absolute best to have nothing show.
He wears his glasses to help hide his eyes, he carries a book with him too.
Robby slowly made his way to the leaving room , just wanting to sit with Jack and pretend he understood what was written in his book.
“Hey baby” Jack said, pulling Robby to sit beside him. Robby having strength issues , gets pulled easily into Jack.
Robby nodded in response, letting Jack pull him into cuddle him. This was the closest Robby would get to having Jack cuddle little him.
Robby felt his eyes stinging and nausea creeping up. His heart ached , he felt shame , how could he be like this. All he could imagine was Jack having to help him on his day off and wasting his day on him. Robby could not imagine that , he could never knowingly burden Jack like that.
“I’m going to head to bed, I’ve had a really long day” Robby hushed it out , trying his absolute hardest to make sure his voice was steady. He couldn’t help with how soft it came out, he hoped Jack didn’t think anything of it.
“Ok love, I’ll be up shortly” Jack replied with a soft smile.
the second Robby was out of view he sobbed quietly and made his way to the bedroom.
He hasn’t felt this small in so long , it’s at least been a year since the last.
Robby was so thankful Jack had not opened the curtains. It made it easier for the little to just turn the lights off and roll into bed.
Robby played with the frills of a blanket , quietly talking to himself. It was just quiet mumbles, a way to self soothe.
He listened to the noises coming from down the hall , he kept the door open for Jack to come in.
Little Robby laid on his side facing away from the door. He looked around with wide eyes, being ready for whenever Jack made his way to the room.
Robby wasn’t sure how much time had passed once Jack slipped into the room.
Robby listened to Jack moving around, hearing his crutches on the ground. He heard Jack go into the en-suite bathroom and start a shower.
The gentle boy let out a shaky breath once he heard Jack get into the shower.
Robby tried to fall asleep , he hoped to be asleep before Jack made it into bed but he failed miserably with the amount of anxiety and fear he felt.
Little Robby was so lost in his head he didn’t hear the water turn off or Jacks movements towards the bed.
“Robby ? You still up?” Jack asked , hearing was quiet but loud enough to be heard. Robby let out a soft gasp , he was surprised by the sound.
“Robby? What’s going on?” Jack questioned, placing his crutches off to the side and slipping into the bed.
The little did not want to reply , he had no idea what to tell Jack. Words were too hard for him, this was all too much.
Jack gently touched Robby , he saw how quickly Robby tensed with fear. “Mike, can you look at me , please?” Jack was beyond worried now.
Robby was beyond terrified of being found out. He did not want Jack knowing , he did not want anyone knowing about this. This was his own burden and not for anyone else to worry about.
Little Robby knew if Jack found out and was disgusted with him , he would spiral and his mental health would be at a new low.
Little Robby feels the pain of big Robby , the fear of Jack wanting a divorce if he found out about this.
Robby didn’t budge from the way he was laying until Jack gently grabbed his shoulder to roll him.
Jack saw how red Robby’s eyes were and how he had tears running down his cheeks. Jack saw how scared Robby was, he was so lost as to what was happening with his husband.
“Robby please ? What is wrong ? You didn’t come inside when you first came home, you sat out there for 45 minutes before you came in. You didn’t eat dinner and you spent over an hour in the bathroom and now you are crying” Jack voice was laced with concern.
Robby just cried more and shook his head.
Robby looked so vulnerable and innocent, Jacks heart clenched. There’s something Robby was scared to share.
Jack noticed how big Robby’s eyes were and how different they looked from normal Robby. Robby wasn’t even holding himself the way he usually would, Jack just saw how scared Robby was.
“Mikey , baby , it’s ok. You can tell me what’s wrong” Jack said gently, using his thumb to wipe away Robby’s tears.
“I-I can’t” Robby sobbed , Jack noticed how it wasn’t Robby’s usual cries, they were softer. “It’s so bad” Robby hushed out hiccuping between sobs.
“You’ll hate me and so gross” Robby sobbed , he was clutching onto the bedding , Jack could see the fear all over the man.
Watching Robby be so distraught broke jacks heart. “Baby please ? Tell me what’s wrong , I hate seeing you like this” Jack pleaded.
“Robby love , you can tell me anything. Nothing you can say will make me hate you, I promise.” Jack said gently, placing a kiss on Robby’s forehead.
“I-I promised to not make this anyone else’s problem.” Robby sobbed out , he was so conflicted with what to do.
“Any problems you have are also mine , we took vows for each other” Jack coaxed Robby , hoping to get through to him.
“It’s so very bad , should never be seen” Robby tried his best with his words , unable to grasp anymore.
“Baby , why is it bad? I don’t understand” Jack said , gently running his fingers through Robby’s hair.
“No one is supposed to know”Robby sobbed harder , he is so scared to tell Jack . Jack will be so disappointed in him.
“Baby” Jack whispered , Robby just kept sobbing and shaking. Jack couldn’t even pull Robby into his arms , the man flinched with any movement.
Robby felt so much shame , so much disgust towards himself, so most disappointment. Robby is making so much noise, he can’t believe little him even let this happen. How could he be so stupid to show Jack this.
“M so scared to share , I can’t lose you too” Robby’s head hurt so much from crying.
“Baby , you won’t lose me, i promise” Jack gently said. Jack could only assume what was happening. He thinks he has an idea , from what he can understand from how Robby is acting is something his therapist had mentioned before.
He remembers briefly when his therapist had mentioned coping mechanisms, since Jack was not coping well when he first lost his leg .
She mentioned something about age regression but Jack dismissed it after hearing about it , figuring it wasn’t for him.
Robby just kept sobbing , he didn’t know what to say or how to say it. Having to come clean about something he has kept hidden for years. Something that held vulnerability and innocence.
“ baby, I think I know what it is, I don’t want you to panic” Jack said , Robby sobbed harder and hiccuping between breaths. His biggest secret is going to be out , something he has taken so much time and dedication to hide.
Robby sobbed out “no no” over and over again. “It’s ok baby , I’m not upset, I could never be upset with you over this” Jack said softly, slowly inching his hand towards Robby , attempting to pull him into a hug.
“ I think you feel small ? You feel fuzzy and cloudy ? You have trouble doing tasks, you feel overwhelmed don’t you” jack whispered into Robby’s hair.
“M so sorry” Robby cried , holding tightly onto Jack , terrified he was going to get up and leave.
“There’s nothing to be sorry about, it’s ok that you feel like this. All I care about is you nothing else” Jack said placing kisses against Robby’s head.
Jack held Robby close , letting him sob into his chest , Jack just wanted him to fall asleep. He can’t bare seeing Robby so upset.
Once Robby’s breathing finally evened out and his cries stopped , Jack finally let himself think about how bad this situation was.
How long was Robby suffering in silence and fear? How long had Robby been regressing for? How long had Robby felt like this?
Jacks heart broke at the thought of Robby being alone in such a vulnerable state with no help at all , poor thing probably scared of everything.
Jack already felt bad leaving robby after a horrible shift , he can’t imagine how hard it was for little Robby.
The sweet boy finally resting asleep against his chest , Jack feels awful for not noticing early, how he missed the signs from Robby.
Jack let a few tears slip at the thought of Michael being all alone and vulnerable. How he probably needed help with his tasks , how it took all the energy out of the little just to do a task. Poor baby , Jack can only cry more thinking about how much work Robby had to put in in order to keep this secret hidden.
Knowing Robby probably struggled to shower tonight, how he probably felt so overwhelmed, how he probably had trouble washing and getting dried off.
All Jack can see is the heart broken look on Robby’s face when he asked him what was wrong. How horrified he looked.
He never wanted Robby to feel like that again , he never wants Robby to hide himself. Jack doesn’t mind helping Robby , he would never mind , he loves Robby more than anything else and if this helped him , so be it.
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Hi! Here is part 2! I think this will be a couple parts maybe 4-5.
Next one will be about Jack taking care of Robby.
Let me know if you want a tag for the next part 🙂
