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I am not a thing to be owned

[theinternetarchive]

great films available on the internet archive part two

first post + the archive collection with all of them

la haine (1995) dir. mathieu kassovitz

carnival of souls (1962) dir. herk harvey

andrei tarkovsky's filmography

a nightmare on elm st. (1984) dir wes craven

possession (1981) dir. andrzej źuławski

the silence of the lambs (1991) dir. jonathan demme

safe (1995) dir. todd haynes

psycho (1960) dir. alfred hitchcock

cops (1922) dir. buster keaton

sherlock jr (1924) dir. buster keaton

when harry met sally... (1989) dir. rob rainer

the bride of frankenstein (1935) dir. james whale

man with a movie camera (1927) dir. dziga vertov

coffee and cigarettes (2003) dir. jim jarmusch

m (1931) dir. fritz lang

it happened one night (1934) dir. frank capra

casablanca (1942) dir. michael curtiz

purple noon (1960) dir. rene clement

carrie (1976) dir. brian de palma

eraserhead (1977) dir. david lynch

they live (1988) dir. john carpenter

female trouble (1974) dir. john waters

do the right thing (1989) dir. spike lee

wings (1927) dir. william a wellman

fallen angels (1995) dir. wong kar wai

velvet goldmine (1998) dir. todd haynes

black panthers (1968) dir. agnes varda

american psycho (2000) dir. mary harron

the manchurian candidate (1962) dir. john frankenheimer

girlfriends (1978) dir. claudia weill

more to come ♡ glad you all like movies.

[curiosityistheleastofmyproblems]

Preserved human left hand, mid 19th century Human Remains.

[whyenn-reader]

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I really wish more ADHD mental health care told you WHY things like this matter to our quality of life.

The Hyperactivity in Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder is NOT about being physically hyperactive, it's about having a "hyperactive central nervous system" because it's a form of inheritable dysautonomia. The problem with disautonomia, especially the ADHD kind, is that it makes boredom flag to your nervous system as a THREAT, triggering hyperactive and maladaptive central nervous system processes like fight or flight.

But dysautonomia kills you that way. Literally, part of the reason our average life spand increase on stimulents is that it helps manage risk-taking impulsivity that can get us killed by accident, but the other part is that stimulents can regulate a hyperactive CNS such that it is functionally (while impacted by the stimulent) NOT dysregulated anymore. And PHYSIOLOGICALLY that is essential because the physical outcomes of dysautonomia can reduce your life span by YEARS if not decades through self-perpetuating hypervigelence, endocrine disruption, and adrenal fatigue.

So when the ADHD brain goes stimulation-seeking and a doctor tells you to practice mindfulness, it feels like being told "hey go stand in a functioning boiler until you can stop thinking" rather than WHAT IT IS which is the process of re-teaching your body what is and isn't safe.

Standing outside making mindful, non-interpretive/moralized observation of the world helps your brain and body re-acclimate to the idea that absence of that frantic "busy" feeling isn't a threat or a risk to your safety, and gradually reduces the level of distress that just hanging out somewhere triggers for you.

Learning WHY this stuff was being suggested and understanding what it was actually supposed to do went a long way towards changing my relationship with my ADHD. I am FAR more functional now, far less prone to shame spirals and rejection sensitivity, hell, I can **sit physically still for near on an hour at a time** now without feeling like I'm going to crawl out of my skin.

So yeah. Go outside. Let the world narrow around you and take deep breaths until it stops feeling claustrophobic or like you need to climb walls. Learn how to let little sensations become big ones like the way the heat of the sun on your skin starts as a gentle warming and be omes a unique collection of sensory moments depending on how it lands on you. Listen for sounds under sounds and let them fade in and out as you move your focus from one sound to the next. Enjoy. Move on. Rinse and repeat.

When you no longer feel like the world is actively killing you, it's a lot easier to navigate it.

[whyenn-reader]

S++ tier addition to the post, thank you tumblr user butts bouncing on the beltway

[joenns]

do u think 9pm is late for dinner

[darkestcinema]

renaissance in the 21st century

[blogitalianissimo]

[tinyphantomsalad]

some more

[kitsunebattleboxer]

the WHAT??

[personification-of-anxiety]

okay, found her

[whenstarsfall]

[whenstarsfall]

some more good replies from the notes

[whenstarsfall]

[ultimatebottom69]

Feeling this in my fucking bones.

[lupismaris]

- Anthony Bourdain, Les Halles Cookbook

[middle photo reads]

You need love.

Hopefully it's love for the people you're cooking for, because the greatest and most memorable meals are as much about who you are with as they are about what you are. But love for what you're doing, and for the ingredients you're doing it with, will more than suffice. I suggested once to a maniacal barbecue professional that cooking well was not a profession, it was a calling. He laughed and went further: "it's an illness." I knew just what he meant. You must like cooking for other people, even if you neither know nor like them. You must enjoy the fact that you are nourishing them, pleasing them, giving the best you've got.

[vympr]

short stories i love + the best times to read them. links or PDFs provided where i was able to find them 💞

cannibal lover by alisa nutting

Best read when you desperately want to be in love with someone who keeps saying you’re too good for them

the man on the stairs by miranda july

Best read when you’re lying awake at night unable to sleep and you think you hear something on the stairs

pinky finger by ha seong-nan

Best read when your uber is taking a little too long to arrive

you’re ugly, too by lorrie moore

Best read when you’re realizing youmight be the black sheep of the family/friend group/social circle

Keep reading

[anarchblr]

in case y'all ain't seen this yet, it has resources on:

Prison Abolition

Police Abolition

Abolitionist Toolkits

Abolition and Coronavirus

Origin Stories

Criminalizing Blackness

Sexual Violence and Anti-Carceral Feminism

Restorative and Transformative Justice

Disability Justice

The Perils of Reform

Prison Organizing, Past and Present

Private Prisons and Prison Labor

Mutual Aid and/as Abolition

Child Welfare and Family Regulation

The Nonprofit Industrial Complex

Climate (In)Justice and Prisons

Crimmigration

LGBTQ Criminalization

Christianity and Prison Abolition

Abolition for Parents and Young People

Abolition, Surveillance, and “(Counter)Terrorism”

Should Killer Cops Go To Prison?

Abolition and Gun Violence/Control

“Sex Offenses” and Civil Commitment

Sex Work Decriminalization

Hate Crimes and White Supremacist Violence

Abolition and Universities

🏴ACAB WORLDWIDE BABEY🏴

Prison Abolition Resource Guide

This guide contains resources on the abolition of policing, prisons, and punishment. You can find another resource hub, created by Mariame K

[1itchi]

[showcasedisplaysofsanity]

ON PURPOSE, I'M GOING TO LOVE YOU ON PURPOSE

Jenny Slate // Casey McQuiston, Red, White & Royal Blue // Pleiades, Anne Carson // Taylor Jenkins Reid, The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo // @oriley42 and @earth167 (and a half) on Tumblr // Jodi Picoult from The Book Of Two Ways // The Night Vale, Episode 100, The Toast // Adam Melchor, I Choose You // Kierston White, The Chaos of Stars

[desertsongpdf]

VIDEO ESSAYS 2 (PT. 1)

The Adorkable Misogyny of The Big Bang Theory what happens to youtubers after they “expire?” the problem with aesthetics QUEERING THE SLASHER: SCREAM why you hate learning Heterofatalism: WHY straight women aren’t okay. How David Fincher Uses Pop Music Dunkirk - The Art Of Fear THE MAN FROM U.N.C.L.E. (2015): Style Vs. Substance Homosexuality Is Not Moral And Here’s Why Alternative self help is brainwashing you. How To Harm Your Audience - Wonder Woman 1984 Dark Academia: The Corruptive Allure of Aesthetic Beauty TW: trigger warnings aren’t helping you How CAGE THE ELEPHANT Overcame Their Fear of Music Netflix’s Decisions are a Very Funny Joke What Makes Disney Villains so Gay? Succession Deserves the Hype the problem with teen dramas Miss Congeniality’s Mixed Messages | Good & Bad Takeaways The Lotus Blossom Stereotype - Dangers of the Asian Fetish How To Do A Fight Scene Why the Media NEEDED Joker to Fail you’re not s3xually liberated, you’re 16 Why You Should Stop Using Times New Roman Why a movie like Who Framed Roger Rabbit will NEVER be made again The Babadook: The New Physicality of Ghosts in Horror Get Out — A New Perspective in Horror Why The Shining is Terrifying The Importance of Horror (Why Horror Movies Don’t Suck) Vaping: A Lesson in Irony I don’t have a dream job: self-help scam or revolutionary concept? How To Do A Plot Twist Hunger Games clones and how they work Why The End of Jenna Marbles Is The End of Authenticity This Angel YA romance killed my ability to feel joy or love tiktok is kind of bad for fashion The Problem with Museums Is TikTok Hurting the Music Industry? I HATE “Guilty Pleasure” Music (A Rant) our obsession with glowing up Triumph of the Will and the Cinematic Language of Propaganda Talent Belongs to the Beautiful - How Media Manipulates your Tastes Edgar Wright - How to Do Visual Comedy NIETZSCHE: THE MAN WHO VIBE CHECKED GOD KANYE EXPLAINED: A Guide To Bipolar Disorder & Creativity Sleep is Just Death Being Shy This Is NOT How People Talk Men In Black International — How to Build a Toxic Hero How Spielberg Shoots A Film At 3 Budget Levels

[slightmood]

they hate to see a mold spore like me growing

[fjellblomst-deactivated20180409]

Antique Missouri Crazy Quilt

[filmnoirsbian]

Things Read in October

Articles/Essays:

Has Self Awareness Gone Too Far in Fiction?

Heroines of Self Hate

This Guy Has Invented A Scarf That Can Make You Invisible in Photos

Dune: an accomplished escape into the realm of cinematic Arab appropriation

The White Savior Industrial Complex

Does Capitalism Drive Drug Addiction?

This Buddhist Monk is A Makeup Artist and An LGBTQ Activist

The Gods Show Up

The Troubling Rhetoric of Space Exploration

The Art of Nonfiction

The Dutch Village Where Everyone Has Dementia

The Beauty-Happiness Connection

Physics's Pangolin

How Americans Became Convinced Their Halloween Candy Was Poisoned

It's time to drop the curtain on Japan's colonial legacy

Retro photos reveal what it was like to be a flight attendant throughout the years

Why the books we read as children are the ones that shape our psyche

Still Not A British Subject: Race and UK Poetry

I am Hazara and I fear for my persecuted people

Jamie Lee Curtis says plastic surgery is 'wiping out generations of beauty'

Identity Fraud

First Malaria Vaccine Approved by W.H.O.

Black Children Were Jailed For A Crime That Doesn't Exist. Almost Nothing Happened to the Adults in Charge.

Lush Rot

Pandora Papers: biggest ever leak of offshore data exposes financial secrets of rich and powerful

How mental health became a social media minefield

Don't Tell Me to Despair About the Climate: Hope is A Right We Must Protect

Before 'Get Out,' There Was 'Candyman'

Bring Back the Sabbath

The Psychology of Giant Princess Eyes

Black, gay, and graying gracefully in love

Bashō on Haiku: 17 Statements

Poetry:

October by Louise Glück

Cutting Odette's Fingernails by Bianca Stone

Miss you. Would like to take a walk with you. by Gabrielle Calvocoressi

A Myth of Devotion by Louise Glück

Poems From An Email Exchange by Hanif Abdurraqib

The Real Prayers Are Not the Words, But the Attention That Comes First by Mary Oliver

I Loved You Before I Was Born by Li-Young Lee

I Like My Body When It Is With Your Body by E. E. Cummings

Digging by Seamus Heaney

October by Robert Frost

Books:

A Stir of Bones by Nina Kiriki Hoffman

Mr. Suicide by Nicole Cushing

Eat Your Heart Out by Kelly Devos

The Turn of the Screw by Henry James

Teaching My Mother How to Give Birth by Warsan Shire

The Girl With All the Gifts by M. R. Carey

[weltenwellen]

Nedra Glover Tawwab, Set Boundaries, Find Peace: A Guide to Reclaiming Yourself

[sabertoothwalrus]

there’s something comedic when I see dozens of people say “I’d watch this but I don’t know where to find it!!” and then I google “[show’s name] watchcartoononline” or “[show’s name] kimcartoon” and find it immediately

[sabertoothwalrus]

rip to ppl without adblock and firefox but im different

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

“the color of god is a stain / shaped to you like a grief not yet come”

— “Ghazal” by Edil Hassan