Aesmo

PTSD related feeling, hand in hand with horniness. 28 years old he/they - forced masculinization and others

[ptsd-holds-me]

You have absolutely no idea about how I crave content about a girl starting T because of her dom bc she’s so submissive with all the controls and abuse and shit and having a full mental breakdown before oh wait I AM A BOY

Idk man I’m a simple lad who wanna connect abuse and forcemasc and jerk off thinking about it

[butch-patriarchy]

"Testosterone will turn you into a violent pervert", do you fucking promise????

[ptsd-holds-me]

My only meal today has been candies and I hate myself :)

[userboxer]

[jascel-deactivated20210424]

I hate that I’m predisposed to addictive and self destructive behaviour

I hate that I have to be so very careful because I am an all or nothing kind of person

[perilousreality]

me when im having a hypomanic episode and trying to explain to everyone all of my lifechanging ideas

[what-if-im-not-finished]

“I’ve forgotten what it feels like to want to live.”

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[kaszewskah]

the game I play

constantly

[ocpdiddy]

Me @ my meds:

Mood stabilize me you cowards

[inkandmarrow]

Me: -forgets to eat for 6 to 12 hours straight, hasn’t showered in 4 days or brushed their teeth in 3, experiences The Rage over the slightest mishap, goes from a head buzzing hyperfixation and making grand plans to not caring about said thing at all, intrusive thoughts begging me to stop taking meds and start on heavy drugs instead, can’t sleep at night due to paranoia about shadow people coming to kill me in my sleep-

Also me: okay but hear me out what if I’m NOT actually bipolar

[what-if-im-not-finished]

[choosing-recovery-always]

*Can’t sleep for one night*

Me: Is this hypomania?

*Buys something impulsively*

Me: Is this hypomania?

*Actually holds a conversation easily*

Me: Is this hypomania?

*Is actually in a hypomanic episode*

Me: *Has no idea*

[bipolarconfession]

I’m only alive for everyone else’s sake. I couldn’t care less if I died at any given moment. I just can’t disappoint people even in my grave.

[ineedhugsss-deactivated20220729]

I go from "I'm fine being alone for a little longer" to "I can't handle being alone anymore and want to die" too often.

_

[ptsdying]

[silvermoon424]

You know, most of the time having depression and the blunted emotions that come along with it sucks, but I will say it’s granted me a zen-like peace in the chaos of the coronavirus, haha. Everyone else around me is freaking out and meanwhile I’m just like “I’ve had a good run, might as well play some video games and watch YouTube videos so I can actually try to enjoy my life.”

[readmedrown]

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