Beware the Broken Doll

song lyrics, rants, a blog for an emotionally damaged girl

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

Tell me my dear, can a heart still break once it's stopped beating 💔🖤

[heavensghost]

Everything has changed

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

“In case you haven’t noticed, I’m weird. I’m a weirdo. I don’t fit in. And I don’t want to fit in. Have you ever seen me without this stupid hat on? That’s weird.”

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

My chest feels tight. My eyes water. There’s hundreds of thoughts swirling around in my head. All mocking me. I cover my ears. Try my hardest to make it all stop. It doesn’t. Nothings enough. Before I know it I’m crying. And my fears have consumed me. Why am I like this. What’s wrong with me. I don’t like this feeling. I despise it. I just want to feel normal again…but I don't think I ever will.

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

[cwote]

Remember This...

You are NOT a burden for asking for help.

You are NOT annoying when you ramble.

You are NOT weird for crying for no reason.

You are NOT psycho for feeling depressed when no one else does.

You are NOT an outcast if you like to spend time alone.

You are NOT stupid if you have trouble articulating your thoughts.

You are NOT alone.

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

1/13 White lips, pale face Breathing in snowflakes Burnt lungs, sour taste Light's gone, day's end Struggling to pay rent Long nights, strange men And they say She's in the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream Been this way since eighteen But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting Crumbling like pastries And they scream The worst things in life come free to us 'Cause we're just under the upper hand And go mad for a couple grams And she don't want to go outside tonight And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland Or sells love to another man It's too cold outside For angels to fly Angels to fly Ripped gloves, raincoat Tried to swim and stay afloat Dry house, wet clothes Loose change, bank notes Weary-eyed, dry throat Call girl, no phone And they say She's in the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream Been this way since eighteen But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting Crumbling like pastries And they scream The worst things in life come free to us 'Cause we're just under the upper hand And go mad for a couple grams And she don't want to go outside tonight And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland Or sells love to another man It's too cold outside For angels to fly An angel will die Covered in white Closed eye And hoping for a better life This time, we'll fade out tonight Straight down the line And they say She's in the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream Been this way since eighteen But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting Crumbling like pastries They scream The worst things in life come free to us And we're all under the upper hand Go mad for a couple grams And we don't want to go outside tonight And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland Or sell love to another man It's too cold outside For angels to fly Angels to fly To fly, fly For angels to fly, to fly, to fly For angels to die

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

sometimes nails on my skin helps the pain deep within...three months and twenty eight days til I'm eighteen. Give me strength 😳

[imallbimyself]

You know when Jamie tells Cathy that if he hadn’t believed in her, he wouldn’t have loved her at all? And it is in that moment when Cathy starts crying because she realizes it’s over. And you know why? Because she had stopped believing in herself a while ago and so had Jamie. Cathy had been watching her dreams fall through and what was left for her to do? Being someone’s wife? That is not the life that she wanted, that is exactly what she didn’t want her life to be, she didn’t want to be the girl who required a man to get by, she knew she could do better than that. And that’s why I feel so sorry for Cathy and why I connect so much with her. Not because she ended up being heartbroken. That sucks, yes, but you will move on eventually. But what about her life? Jamie is over and where can she turn? It’s terrible when you put so much effort into a relationship and then it doesn’t work. But can you imagine exerting yourself every single day of your life to achieve something and then never getting it? Honestly, I don’t even know how Cathy put up with that for so many time. And that was no one’s fault and definitely not Jamie’s. That’s the thing about this movie, they are real people, making choices, trying to get by and not being able to find happiness together.

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

This is why I love this movie.

[daddyslittlequeenb]

I’m a fragile crybaby princess.

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

A fairytale

Once upon a time there was a girl. And everyday she would read of princesses and watch disney movies, she'd watch as the princess got swept off her feet and fall for the man who made her feel so special and safe. And the girl thought to herself one day, I'll find my prince the man who will always be there for me. Years past and after years of heartbreak and hurt she thought she found him. He was unlike the others. He took care of her in good and bad times, he loved her and held her and she finally felt safe. He foretold the future, a future he wanted with her and finally the girl was healed and at last believed she had found her knight in shining armour, her prince.. Then one day, the girl awoke to a message. A message from the prince. He told her he had changed his mind and needed time. And the girl felt her heart plummet to the floor and shatter into a million pieces she could never put back together Now the prince has found himself a new princess. And as for the girl, her emotions are locked in a tower. Never to be released again. And the four letter word she longed for as a child, is now the remnants of a broken promise and her own promise to never again let it leave her lips The End

[abducted-souls]

I refuse to call you, In any form of the word, An ex. No, you cannot be An ex lover, An ex friend. You cannot be A past lover, A past friend. I refuse to think of you As what you were And what you will never again be. You were beautiful. You were incredible. You were my love. You were so many things. But you didn’t want to be Any of them for very long. So no- I won’t call you an ex. I refuse to taint what we were. You were something to me. You were something marvelous. But you aren’t anymore. I can’t allow myself the pain Of thinking of what we were, So here it is. We were something. Now we’re nothing. And it was nice to know you once. It was good to know you. It was good to find a place for you In my heart, long ago. Long ago And never again, Dear someone I once knew.

A. Hietanen // February 6, 2016 (via abducted-souls)

[shxun-chxrles]

for the broken ones: he loved you like a small child loves candy; with greedy hands and mischievous eyes. and you loved him back. you loved him like you were dying and every goodbye was the last. you loved, all open mouths and open ribs because that was the only way you knew how, and there were no walls to be knocked down because you never knew to build them in the first place. but now the walls are littered with his graffiti. beautiful greens and pinks and neon yellow. him him him. all over your ribs and all over your smashed to smithereens heart that feels like it has seen the world. so here we go with tears and sobs and hugging pillows, wishing they were his arms. here we go with the swearing youll never fall in love again and that he took the best of you before he left. here we go with a roller coaster ride no one prepared you for, that you never asked to get on. but youre only put through things the universe knows you can handle.

[samisoffthewall]

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

Another drawing from this week If anyone's wondering the word is bordered by song lyrics ~the top is bittersweet tragedy by melanie martinez ~the bottom is addict with a pen by twenty one pilots ~the left is if you can't hang by sleeping with sirens ~and the right is gives you hell by all american reject

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

Sometimes you just gotta put on a happy face and pretend everything's okay

[puddlesoftearsandbrokendreams]

"One kiss was supposed to be so sweet, but I found grapefruit in your teeth"