Pumpkin

I cook Cinderella Boy fanfics and podfics, plus whatever else catches my fancy https://archiveofourown.org/users/SunshineValley/pseuds/SunshineValley (they/them)

[pumpkins4all]

Boiling Frogs by SunshineValley

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences Relationships: Chase & His Issues, Buddy/Chase Hollow, Chase Hollow & Original character(s) Characters: Chase Hollow, Buddy (Cinderella boy), Princess Diana, Queen Angela Additional Tags: Murder mystery, existensial horror, grief/mourning, some fluff when im nice.

Summary: Spurred on by a sleepless night, Chase goes on a solo adventure into a book. It seems like the standard fairytale of a princess looking after her kingdom, but... Buddy is nowhere to found and family responsibilities soon start piling on the princess' shoulders.

Chase goes into a strange fairy tale, where the princess looks after her bedridden mother. He's very normal about this. (Ive been brainrotting over plot bunnies for this fic for weeks. Enjoy🐸)

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"Sorry, Stratt, I'll be sure to double check my work to make sure my imaginary hallucination base six number system doesn't clog up the works of the rest of the scientists here on board."

[annabelle--cane]

stratt gets to her monthly scheduled half-hour for "feeling things" and lets herself descend into cheeky little bitter envious frenzy over not having the coma resistance gene markers. oh, to not have to face the rest of her life on earth and be locked away helpless while everyone starves, and instead just wake up, work for a single month more, eat the best food available, fix everything with her own two hands, die in satisfied peace, and be remembered with reverence. she's just getting into a proper spiral about how grace has this opportunity but can't even seem to comprehend why this would the most beautiful thing and why, why doesn't he? does he not care? about the world, about me, about himself? what's wrong with him? he has the capacity to care, I've seen it, it's there, but he refuses it. why won't he do this for all of us? if I could just reach into his brain and fix-- and then her alarm goes off and she has to go to her next meeting.

[annabelle--cane]

*administering retroactive amnesia drug so he forgets core elements of his personality like his survival instincts, insecurities, and anger at the project* eva fix :)

[perennimal]

Least I’ll still have company, in my insides, tiny poison tree

[spookberry]

Was reminded of my old monster Cinderella x Snow White story and felt like redesigning them a bit

[dragonshine]

Just an observation but I suspect Nathaniel in book 1 dissociated through the entire night after the house fire. Given his slow reaction time, blank staring and spotty memory of that time, he was probably in shock and his mind retreated inwards to protect himself.

Nat also does this several other times. (Like that time with tallow getting eaten or that time in AoS when Lovelace summons the demon to kill the government officials) It's also noted that after the imp incident in his masters study, he didn't have an appetite and just lay in bed blankly for like...a week?

Dissociation of varying degrees happens when the mind can't cope with a traumatic event. It would also explain why it's mentioned that Nathaniel doesn't really remember the study incident but the shadow of it never left his mind. If you are dissociated, your memory forms in a really different way, just flashes of things and it's not a linear storyline. Sometimes, you can repress the event entirely if your memories were formed so badly that they are just tiny fragments due to the terror of the situation or you were in so much stress that you couldn't even process the event.

Dissciation happens on a spectrum and it's not always as extreme as feeling "out of your body" or "looking at event from third person".

Also I think Nathaniel is a mainly freeze-fight type. He either reacts defensively and angrily to fear or he just completely freezes up (the extreme of this is dissociation). But he does also use flight when he throws himself into work and denial to avoid his emotions and he learned to fawn in the government.

Also also! There's this time during emergency situations where people can suddenly become super calm and take control of the situation in a super logical manner, which is something I believe both Nat and Kitty do in varying degrees

"So black was the outlook now that fear had become redundant."

Anyone feel like discussing character trauma reactions with me? Hahaha.

[ekezable]

That's a good point... I would like to add that also during the demons' invasion, when Nouda forced Nathaniel to dismiss Bartimeaus, Nathaniel was so traumatized that he acted like in trance... he was just standing there looking down and whispering the dismissing formula. He didn't even remember what Bartimeaus said before leaving... so he was totally dissociated there.

On the other hand Kitty showed a colder demeanor, she never lost her awareness and will...eg. in that occasion she stared intensely at Bartimaeus untill he was gone.

I think that "the Nat dissociation-thing" was always triggered by someone he rely on (his parents, his art teacher, his master, his master's wife and, yes, Bartimeaus). Obviously the abandonment of his parents was the starting point... from that moment on he grew up scared to be left alone again, in constant need of recognition and always in search of someone who could support/love him.

Moreover, between the second and the third book the only one left to Nathaniel was Bartimaeus and he was so attached to him that he became obsessed, in fact he wasn't able to let him go untill Bart was almost dead🐸 and when Bart was dying between his hands Nathaniel was so shocked that risked his career as John Mandrake (carefully built up during the years) for him. (Less important but true anyway: after Jane Farrar suggested to torture Bartimeaus to obaint the information Nat seemed to lost all the attraction he once had felt for her).

So in the end when Nathaniel was forced to dismiss Bartimeaus he lost his last point of reference. His only salvation was that Kitty was there to take his place and encourage him in her way.🤜

Sorry for the long rant and for the grammar🧟‍♀️

[awed-frog]

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

[ekezable]

[silverfeatheredserpent]

Oh, I finally posted a very big fanfiction on AO3 about how Nathaniel got stuck in a time loop. I don't know how much you can read it through a translator, but I'm happy to bring this story to fandom.

This edith is based on this fanfiction. Nathaniel is being chased by an assassin, but magic does not help and Nathaniel has to defend himself with his own strength.

"When tomorrow comes"

Description:

"Tuesday, October 16" - invariably flaunted on the wall calendar. And even if you deliberately shift the date, you could not deceive yourself. He was stuck in one day. And tomorrow no longer came. No matter what Nathaniel did, no matter how he resisted - the day began and ended in the same way. And he woke up again and again on Tuesday. And died without waiting for dawn.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/86811921/chapters/229798241

[silverfeatheredserpent]

Oh, I finally posted a very big fanfiction on AO3 about how Nathaniel got stuck in a time loop. I don't know how much you can read it through a translator, but I'm happy to bring this story to fandom.

This edith is based on this fanfiction. Nathaniel is being chased by an assassin, but magic does not help and Nathaniel has to defend himself with his own strength.

"When tomorrow comes"

Description:

"Tuesday, October 16" - invariably flaunted on the wall calendar. And even if you deliberately shift the date, you could not deceive yourself. He was stuck in one day. And tomorrow no longer came. No matter what Nathaniel did, no matter how he resisted - the day began and ended in the same way. And he woke up again and again on Tuesday. And died without waiting for dawn.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/86811921/chapters/229798241

[mysticmeadowscamp]

this tiktok holds Campfire Kids energy

[pineappical]

grace look disguust

[sketchupnfries]

Did some more Project Hail Mary AU sketches, since I wanted to sketch another Treasure Planet AU sketch, and I realized I didn't do a Titan A.E. drawing

[loish]

It’s warm again and I’m craving the beach. But not just any beach. Specifically a beach with beautiful cliffs, crystal clear ice-cold water, and vibrant green algae. I don’t live near one of those so I will draw it instead 🌊

[myuuchii]

Lalala

[wolfythewitch]

Do you guys wanna see the version of bloodymary im somewhat invested in

[wolfythewitch]

Imagine you float up from near death and some old guy is poking you in the face and humming

[wolfythewitch]

Okay wait one more

[helix-pomatia]

Long-term Sequelae, comic

Single page comic based on my Long-term Sequelae fanfiction on AO3

By @/chu_chu_nator on BlueSky (posted with permission)

Aren't they lovely...?

Closeups below!