VOX

VOX FICTIVE RADQUEER / TRANSID SIDE ACCOUNT FUCK OFF ANTIS

[pupvincentwhittman]

Intro post

I am Vox , I am a fictive in a system . We are bodily a minor . ( Chrono15 . . . ) I am radqueer , this is my radqueer dedicated side-blog . I use several transids . If you send hate , I’ll get off to it . We are physically and mentally disabled .

HI ALASTOR USES THIS ACCOUNT NOW TOO .

Non-transid labels : Physical disabilities , mental disabilities , autism level 2 , OSDD , borderline personality disorder , ( TBA )

Cis-IDs : CisDigital , cisMaincharacter , ( TBA )

Trans-IDs : TransAngel , transComputer , transAnisocoria , transRutcycle , transFormalhandwriting , transLobotomized , transKorean , transSharktail , transHeterochromia , transHypnosis , transSnuffed , transHypothermia , transFreezing , vanillascentic ( TBA )

Perma-IDs : PermaParasocial , permaPervert , permaCollared , permaFawn , ( TBA )

Paraphilias : Radiotiphilia , autoapagophilia , oscularohilia , electrophilia , hypnophilia , hierophilia , cervusphilia , consang , AAM , zoophilia , ( TBA )

[pupvincentwhittman]

i am so drained and tired. I don’t even know who’s in front right now, but. Yeah. Our lover, who i do love dearly and could never imagine leaving, is. Terrifying. I’m so attached to them, and yet i tell myself “I don’t care if they leave” again, when i do care. I care a lot. It hurts me. I don’t think they actually love me the way i love them. I don’t know what to do. I feel so unloved for some reason, yet i have a lover right in front of me. I can’t be happy, I haven’t been capable of genuinely being happy in years and I’m not sure why. I get spurts of euphoria and joy, but I don’t remember what it feels like to actually be happy. Call me an edgelord or whatever I guess, I don’t care.

I’m going through so much and I want to talk to someone. I want to be cared for. I want someone who can make me temporarily forget about everything by just. Being a caregiver towards me. I’m so fucking miserable right now and I try to act so happy and jolly, but I can’t. I hurt so bad from so many different things, and I don’t even know why.

I’m just making my available empathy plummet. Other people are too. I don’t care about other people. I do. What am I saying. I love other people. I need other people. I have to have other people. I just cannot find it in me to be able to relate to their problems. I have no emotional empathy. I don’t understand why people get upset when someone dies. I don’t get it why people get upset when they get broken up with. I can understand why actually. I just can’t relate to them. But when I’m going through a breakup, it’s the worst part of my life. I want to die Everytime someone leaves me. It’s all the same. Over and over and over again. I don’t want to do it anymore.

No one really cares.

Agere to help me feel better! But no caregiver or anyone to talk to without feeling ashamed or embarrassed. I care for myself. But then I get out of littlespace immediately because it just reminds me of when I HAD to care for myself when my mom was out cheating. When I HAD to care for my brother because she was out “working”.

Autism! I’m struggling and need someone to help caretake me while I’m having meltdowns or anxiety or sensory issues or helping me communicate because we’re bodily semi-verbal. Someone who wants to call while I screen record and work on my AAC pages. I need parallel play to get the motivation. But no one to have parallel play with.

Disabilities! It’s hard to live on my own without any support! But when I mention it, “oh there’s nothing wrong with you!” “It’ll get better!” “I’ll make all of it go away!” No you won’t. My body does not work right. I need help, but no one willingly offers it until I’m broken down and begging, screaming and crying.

Sorry if this doesn’t make sense. I’m not going to edit anything. I’m so upset and alone and I don’t know. Wording is hard right now.

[ein-fickfehler]

PermaBrokenGlasses A permaID in which one identifies as having permanently broken or cracked glasses.

@maki--archival

[pupvincentwhittman]

I wish people would go out of their way to harm me. I miss it. I get bullied in headspace everyday but. I want moreeee… Let me be the cisharmed to your cis/transharmful….

NSFW BELOW

Yes, shove your fingers in my mouth. Yes, call me stupid and dumb. Yes, insult me for being childish. Yes, force me to say a cuss word and then degrade me for sobbing out of embarrassment. Mhhh. I promise I won’t tell anyone.

[pupvincentwhittman]

Vincents identity hoard !

CIS — Children’s show host, green-blue heterochromia, Stockholm Syndrome, main character, forearm crutch user(1), wheelchair user(1), bubblegum scent, cake scent, candy scent, vanilla scent, hypnotized, cum dumpster,

TRIS — Brain damage, actor, rage syndrome, malignecrosis, 22 years old, underweight, periodic paralysis in both legs,

TRANS — Innocent, harmless, sedated, laughing gas, formal handwriting, anisocoria, comforting, hypotropia and exotropia, snaggle tooth, asteroid hyalosis, censored swearing, Functional Neurological Disorder,

NULL — NPD, misanthropist, bad person,

PERMA — Old film voice, 1950’s,

SOURCE — (Tris) Lobotomized, sex tortured, snuffed,

(1): We bodily use forearm crutches, but I didn’t want to put it as natal- because that would be confusing to me. (More may be added in the future.)

I try not to show my paraphilias or anything relating to NSFW content, because there may be young ears around!

(Please break my rules and be sexual towards me.)

[pupvincentwhittman]

VINCENT YOUR BANNER IS SO PRECIOUS

— 🗺️

AWW!! Thank you!! I’m so glad you think so! Vox bullied me for it.. Eheh.. I wish you would send more anons!! You seem so sweet!

It has some of my flags too.. My favorite/most connected one is trans-kids show host.. I miss my show from source. Ugh. I’m in the middle of making an ID hoard.. Also the 🌈 🍓 radqueer community combo makes me think of some of my IDs! I love it.

[pupvincentwhittman]

I made one… I think it looks good. Vox is mean to me.

We’ve had a habit of staying up until 3 AM recently. I’m not sure why we can’t sleep.

[pupvincentwhittman]

For your paraphilia ask game.. XV and XI, if you will. 💙

XV: “What is your least known fetish or paraphilia?” Hierophilia. I rarely talk about this one publically. Typically only partners or pets get to hear about it.

XI: “What is your favorite disease or illness?” Lewy Body Dementia, Chronic Wasting Disease, or mad cow disease.

I’m currently typing all this with a terrible bloody nose that woke me up, and hallucinating.

[pupvincentwhittman]

I’m tired. I cannot sleep. I miss him. I miss my pet. My eyes are foggy. I’ve been trying to experiment with those silly banners, with no success. Please tell me if you like it.

It looks terrible… I did find a cool font though!

[leytenantl]

self indulgent misc paraphilia asks part II

I — what is your favorite medical procedure?

II — are you into intox? what is your drug of choice?

III — which organ fascinates you the most?

IV — which body part would you keep as a memento?

V — what is your favorite stage of decomposition?

VI — what is your favorite incestrous dynamic?

VII — would you rather hunt someone or be hunted?

VIII — what is your favorite bone in the human body?

IX — what is your favorite type of scar?

X — what are you afraid of? do you have any phobias?

XI — what is your favorite disease or illness?

XII — what is your favorite form of brainwashing?

XIII — what are some odd things you find attractive?

XIV — what is your favorite unnatural cause of death?

XV — what is your least known fetish or paraphilia?

[mutobigbro]

Urophilia/urolagnia blinkies for a request. Shout out to the like 5 other raduqueer piss likers

[pupvincentwhittman]

Wondering if I should start a BAH blog . . .

[custardfingers-graphics]

TransMuzzleOwned - Identifying as muzzle owned in a trans way.

PermaMuzzleOwned - Identifying as permanently muzzle owned.

Symbols:

The browns are for different leather as a lot of muzzles are leather, the gray is for metal, the dark-almost black stripes are for the hard plastics some muzzles are made of. The white and black stripe represents ownership and the all-encompassing feeing of being owned, and for the perma- flag, infinity/permanence.

A recoin(?) because I think the original blog deactivated, and I couldn't find the flag archived anywhere. I have the original flag downloaded but it's really compressed. So here we are.

[pupvincentwhittman]

I need someone to choke on me while I hold their hair and praise them. Um. Oh wow. Someone should worship me. No. Not should. Someone needs to worship me. RIGHHTT NOW.

[pupvincentwhittman]

A little bit of blood for the freaks.

CW FOR BLOOD UNDER THE CUT

Just to be safe this is FAKE art. It is a painting and is enhanced by AI. This is SFX MAKEUP.

(Using the shedtwt terms…)

[pupvincentwhittman]

17th bloody nose today guys. Why does this happen 20 times a week for us.

[pupvincentwhittman]

I JUST SWALLOWED A FREEZING COLD BLOOD CLOT, SOMEONE FUCKING KILL ME NOW