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I really thought about it for a few days and as much as I desperately want to rp more and feel so much muse for pansy rn, I really don’t see myself coming back to tumblr. It’s just too much for me to deal with tbh, between feeling anxious about reaching out to people and establishing or re-establishing connections with people, and my duplicate anxiety that is still veeeery strong, and I don’t really want to be doubting myself constantly.

HOWEVERRRR if there is anyone that wants to rp on d!sco, I’m always very happy to rp there!! Feel free to add me Sis#2230. It feels like so much more of a safe space there lolll

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i’m feeling a rly big itch to write/plot rn so i’m just hopping on to reblog this and hope maybe someone wants to write with me lolll

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I really thought about it for a few days and as much as I desperately want to rp more and feel so much muse for pansy rn, I really don’t see myself coming back to tumblr. It’s just too much for me to deal with tbh, between feeling anxious about reaching out to people and establishing or re-establishing connections with people, and my duplicate anxiety that is still veeeery strong, and I don’t really want to be doubting myself constantly.

HOWEVERRRR if there is anyone that wants to rp on d!sco, I’m always very happy to rp there!! Feel free to add me Sis#2230. It feels like so much more of a safe space there lolll

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Wait I just realized that I miss Pansy’s birthday last month

I mean I was just a LITTLE preoccupied by my momma being sick BUT STILL

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i’m feeling SUCH AN ITCH TO RP... do i try to actually come back to tumblr rp???

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maybe if i lurk a lot i’ll actually want to rp on here??

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anyways i’ve been thinking about pansy SO MUCH recently bc i feel her on like a whole other level now... but i’m still not sure about coming back to tumblr rp... i’m still always down for disco though!!

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i had zero clue that jkr wrote another book until i happened to see it at walmart today, and the fact that i had no idea means that i interact with allll the right people lol

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i’m not really coming back to tumblr still but (tw death)

my momma passed away pretty suddenly earlier this week and i feel like i relate to pansy on a whole new level that i really really R E A L L Y never wanted to be able to related to her on

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so i think it’s safe to say that i won’t be back to writing on this blog for a looooong time (if ever). i much, much prefer the lack of pressure that i feel on disc., and not feeling like i’m not good enough or having duplicate anxiety or any of that shit.

so if anyone is interested in just chatting and being disc. friends or rping there, please add me!! Sis#2230

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the fact that nobody really rps characters from animal kingdom is honestly a fucking travesty

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yeah... no

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last night i had a dream i deleted this blog and honestly it felt a bit cathartic ngl

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me?? having even the slightest amount of muse??? who would have ever guessed

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i still exist, it's just that my current obsessions lie in ffxiv and blythe dolls atm and i'm having trouble switching my brain back to writing

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Things I thought I would do while out of work for two weeks (and counting) since my patient is in the hospital: writing literally 24/7

What I’ve done: played a lot of final fantasy XIV

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@blessedrevolt​ it’s true