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“Well, I mean hopefully you will find something you love that doesn’t remind you off him. I’m okay, as good as I could be.”

‘--I hope so too...perhaps sculpting will be my thing...it seems easy enough. That or pottery.’ She slipped off her suit jacket and pinned her hair back from her face taking a piece of clay from the scraps pile. ‘You can talk to me if you need to...I know no one is really okay, especially during this week..’She began rolling the clay between her fingers.

#{ ;Barney }#{ ;Chats }

“Oh. So you have gifts? What are they?”

‘--Hm. Well, I was injected with an Extremis virus years ago...I haven’t really explored in depth what I can do. I don’t really want to either.’

#{ ;America }#{ ;Chats }

“Really? I know little to nothing of your government here other than the ones who question us constantly when they’re not begging for our help.” Sif had little respect or desire to know anything about them. They caused too many inconveniences. “Help with what? Shopping? I don’t do that at all. I was going to hand money to an official and tell them to bring me whatever I needed.”

‘--Well Sif, you have to learn our ways sometime. Try doing it for yourself...plus there aren’t really ‘officials’ that will do all of what you desire for you, Most will laugh and tell you to do it on your own.’

#{ ;Sif }#{ ;Chats }

“Pep– Pepper, listen,” Clint said as he slowly edged into the room, his hand held low. Her own were starting to burn red and Clint knew she had to be scared out of her damn mind so he focused on being a calm and steady point for her, “Sweetheart, I’m not going anywhere. M’not leavin’ ya alone, Pep.” She stumbled back and Clint started to reach out - an automatic response - when her hands glowed brighter and hotter. “Pepper, you need to breathe. You’re okay, honey. You’re safe. You’re gonna be alright. I’m right here.”

Her heart was racing as she shifted her eyes from her hands to Clint. Her body was trembling as she feared what she might do. The last thing she wanted to do was hurt anyone, especially Clint. Closing her eyes she focused on his voice a tear rolling down her paled cheek. As he told her to breathe she turned her quick shuddered breaths to long deep ones. She wasn’t aware that she calmed down a decent amount so she carried on as if she were about to hurt someone. ‘--C...Clint...I’m going to hurt someone...what if I can’t make it stop...you need to go...’

#{ ;Clint }#{ ;Chats }

Carol fell to her knees in front of the woman. She pulled Pepper in a hug, stroking her hair soothingly. “I know.” She whispered. She could feel her throat close up and her eyes stung. “I-I miss him too.” Carol sobbed. “All of them.” She added, thinking about her team. Being with the Avengers was truly what modelled Carol into the woman she had become and she missed her teammates terribly. “If only I had fought harder… Tried to pull them together to work as a team..” She murmured, shaking with her sobs.

She felt Carol wrap her arms around her and she held on...she held on as if her life depended on it. She couldn’t stop the tears that fell from her eyes. As much as she wanted to hold Carol she didn’t have the strength herself. She just shook her head speaking the best she could. ‘--You did what you could..’

#{ ;Carol }#{ ;Chats }

“My mother didn’t die in battle. She was…She was trying to get to me. It wouldn’t be right or fair for the other’s where.”

‘--Sweetheart. That doesn’t matter at all...you still lost her and this memorial service is a day of remembrance no matter what.’

#{ ;Nix }#{ ;Chats }

Sofia just watched her mom breakdown, “You’re not the only one hurting mom. You have to get over this, it’s been 4 years. You move on. That’s exactly what you do, no matter what you move on because he’s gone and never coming back and you’re alive. That’s what you do.”

‘--Sofia...I can’t just move on. You’ll never understand until you are in my position. How dare you begin to tell me to just move on after four years...no time matters.’ She shook her head in disbelief that her daughter would even begin to say something like that. Her daughter didn’t get that she lost her best friend, her heart, her world...her everything.

#{ ;Sofia }#{ ;Chats }

Okay, okay she needed to have a nurturing voice, dammit be the complete opposite of yourself. “Okay, mama. Just calm down, find your happy place, you know green fields and double rainbows. Just calm thoughts.”

‘--There is no happy place! There will never be a happy place....ever again.’ She started pacing holding herself tightly as if she were to crumble to pieces. ‘--I...I don’t know what to do...’ Closing her eyes she tried to think some sort of calming though, but her mind went to Tony and it made things worse.

#{ ;Sofia }#{ ;Chats }#{ ;My Angel }

Letting her aunt take her face she shook her head, “I’m fine Aunt Pepper.” She shook her head, “I got into a fight outside of the school but it’s not a big deal.” She lied. “Like I said it’s just a little blood.”

‘--Talya...truth is always better than a lie.’ She spoke up before letting her face go. Walking to her bathroom she grabbed a soft towel wetting it a bit with disinfectant. Coming back she lightly took the girls chin in her palm. ‘This is going to sting a bit...but it will help.’ She began to lightly dab the disinfectant into the wound to clean it out.

#{ ;Talya }#{ ;Chats }

“Pepper,” Carol breathed, taking in the sight of the melted phone. “I don’t know about that.” She said softly as she moved towards the woman. “I just came to ask if there was anything you needed.” She searched the woman’s eyes for anger, but only found sorrow. Carol felt the sorrow too. Sorrow for her lost companions. The people that she had fought so many battles with as an Avenger. The blonde felt a tear roll down her cheek and quickly wiped it away.

‘--Carol I...’ She started but shook her head. She didn’t realize her hands were shaking until they came into focus. They began to glow and she placed them behind her back. Squeezing them to fists, Pepper remembered a technique Tony taught her...with that she was able to lower the heat to where they were only hot to the touch. With an already heavy heart, those thoughts of Tony added more to where she bit her lip hard. As much as she willed those tears away they just streamed down her cheeks and onto the carpet below her feet. ‘--I miss him so much...’ She whispered before completely breaking, crumbling to the ground.

#{ ;Carol }#{ ;Chats }

“Gold is a much easier form of currency. I don’t understand why I had to give 26 of these green papers to a man. I don’t have any idea if she does or not. She has her cousin here to help her with things better than I can.”

‘--Gold isn’t really worth much here if I remember correctly. Copper is worth more I think they said on the news the other day. But, I’m sorry you have to deal with Midgard currency, it can be tricky at times. It’s good to have someone help like that. Would you like to help? I like to think I am quite fluent in Midgard appliances and cultures.’

#{ ;Sif }#{ ;Chats }

Nix gave a small shrug, “I just…I don’t think it’s fair of me…that’s all.”

‘--You’re allowed to mourn just like the rest of us.’ Pepper nodded taking a seat by the wild haired girl.

#{ ;Nix }#{ ;Chats }

“Shouldn’t teachers train too, though?” America asked before she started hitting the punch bag again.

‘--I would if I were a teacher. I’m on the Administration board here at the academy. My gifts I don’t use to fight...I don’t use them at all actually.’

#{ ;America }#{ ;Chats }

“Hey Peps. Oh, I’m just playin’ around with the clay. Not sure where it’s gonna go yet. Oh, and I was listening to some Fleetwood Mac, their song Songbird.”

‘--I’ve often thought about taking up a hobby. Most of them remind me of Tony though...so it’s hard, especially now. How are you holding up? Good song.’

#{ ;Barney }#{ ;Chats }

Sofia had gotten some food, knowing her mom probably had not eaten at all. At least that ran in the family, work, work and work. She walked inside and dropped the box of food in disbelief. “Fine? You call this fine?”

Pepper jumped hearing her daughters voice. She looked down and closed her eyes lightly biting her lower lip. ‘Sofia...please...don’t start....’ She felt her body starting to shake in fear for not only herself but for her daughter.

#{ ;Sofia }#{ ;Chats }#{ ;My Angel }#it really did lol

Clint stared at the remains of the phone with wide eyes before looking up at Pepper, holding a hand out, “Pep– hey, c’mon. I know you’re fine. This is me you’re talking to, I’m the king of fine. I know what fine looks like. Just… breathe, yeah?” He took a couple of tentative steps closer, “Pepper, you’re alright. I’ve got you, sweetheart.”

‘--Clint....don’t.’ She spoke softly looking down. She wasn’t okay, she hadn’t been okay for a long time. Honestly, she never would be okay. She had begun to lose all control, any little thing set her off. Hence her staying out of sight. She didn’t want to hurt anyone, she could never forgive herself. ‘D...don’t come any closer...please.’ She stumbled backwards holding her hands out. ‘I’ll hurt you...’ Just then her hands turned that molten lava color, she started to panic more when she couldn’t will it away. ‘--Oh no...’

#{ ;Clint }#{ ;Chats }

“My daughter broke a toaster apparently. And I had to pay for a new one as if it was her fault she didn’t know what it was!”

‘--That should not have been that expensive. Most toasters go for about twenty to twenty-nine dollars. I can understand how that can seem like a lot to someone not from here. Does she understand how to work one now?’

#{ ;Sif }#{ ;Chats }

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