qolden

he/him | @qolden on ao3 | teetle enjoyer

[qoldenskies]

intro/pinned post with all my links

@dominicpage / 20 / qolden on ao3 / fanfic writer / ♂ / my ko-fi!

this is a sideblog, i cant send asks or like posts! if we're mutuals here imagine im gassing you up with my brain though

every single prompt i discuss/talk about here is free to use, including things i've already written! if you want to riff off any presented concepts, i'd love to see it! <- this includes writing in my universes i LOVE that shit

i have no boundaries about my work as long as you do not interpret any family relationships between the characters as incestuous!

i'm the writer of the canary continuity, the separated au where we went wrong, and a couple of other aus, such as the villain donnie au that i run here on tumblr! catch-all tags for my projects will be in the tags of this post. i also recommend checking out my fanart tag and supporting the people who make wonderful art for me :)

i also currently have requests open for a bad things happen bingo !! (CLOSED)

i would also like to give a catch-all content warning for abuse, self-harm and suicidal behavior, grief and graphic violence, because those are topics that come up a lot in my work. i'll try and adequately tag them when discussions get more descriptive, but if these are things that seriously upset you, i advise you to be cautious!

(I MIGHT MISS FANART/ART DRAWN FOR ME, I DON'T ALWAYS GET THE NOTIFICATION WHEN I'M PINGED. IF I HAVEN'T RESPONDED TO IT IN SEVERAL DAYS, PLEASE PING ME AGAIN!!)

[qoldenskies]

tjis is raph and his brothers

[qoldenskies]

its crazy ive never dressed up v!donnie before because ive done that with cc before. like he'd look soooo cute in a little tuxedo. what the hell am i doing. why havent i drawn him in a little tuxedo

[qoldenskies]

i think being able to pick through the things you enjoy and recognize when certain aspects of it are problematic or poorly thought out is really important and seriously helps your critical thinking skills, but i feel like a lot of people need to hear that you really, really dont have to go and look through "[x] critical" tags of shows you like, in fact most people who frequent tags like that and make entire blogs shitting on something you really enjoy and misconstruing every aspect of it are usually very miserable people who are just going to make you miserable. i don't think you're a weird obsessed fan that doesnt listen to criticism if you don't want to engage with that, and those people will only say that about people like you because they want you to feel bad. you don't have to give them that power!

[qoldenskies]

like i have moral ocd and a lot of the time i felt like i had to engage with the most bullshit critiques of the things i enjoyed because i felt like i had to justify my enjoyment for them, and like. i do think knowing Why you enjoy something is important of course, but i don't think its healthy to have to do so to random strangers on the internet who hate you over something so inconsequential, lol. i really don't trust people who say fans of anything inherently can't listen to criticism, when some of the best critique is delivered inside the house in every single fandom i've ever been in

[roryjor]

"Good art, to me, reveals the basic beautiful absurdity of existence. When you find a great piece of art, you catch a glimpse of variety inherent in the human experience and in doing so add dimension to your own world. Trying to describe that affect and spread it around is what I love about art criticism and you're making a mockery of it, Shawn! You're taking something beautiful and making it flat and colorless! Why are you doing this? Why are you pouring water into my hot chocolate, Shawn?"

-Mariana Colín (PhD Candidate in Communications/Media Anthropology at UIUC)

[roryjor]

Also I have this

[qoldenskies]

i think being able to pick through the things you enjoy and recognize when certain aspects of it are problematic or poorly thought out is really important and seriously helps your critical thinking skills, but i feel like a lot of people need to hear that you really, really dont have to go and look through "[x] critical" tags of shows you like, in fact most people who frequent tags like that and make entire blogs shitting on something you really enjoy and misconstruing every aspect of it are usually very miserable people who are just going to make you miserable. i don't think you're a weird obsessed fan that doesnt listen to criticism if you don't want to engage with that, and those people will only say that about people like you because they want you to feel bad. you don't have to give them that power!

[qoldenskies]

like i have moral ocd and a lot of the time i felt like i had to engage with the most bullshit critiques of the things i enjoyed because i felt like i had to justify my enjoyment for them, and like. i do think knowing Why you enjoy something is important of course, but i don't think its healthy to have to do so to random strangers on the internet who hate you over something so inconsequential, lol. i really don't trust people who say fans of anything inherently can't listen to criticism, when some of the best critique is delivered inside the house in every single fandom i've ever been in

[londubhh]

HONESTLY. I was just venting to some friends about this. I was having such a hard time discerning between the two. I’m a firm believer in the importance of pointing things out in media, that it has a big impact, can cause harm, etc etc. so I felt like such a hypocrite when I’d see people I just didn’t want to engage with because it felt like it was coming from a place of moral superiority and a ‘I’m better than you because I talk about __’ kinda attitude. Sometimes people only wanna call something problematic so they get politically correct points on Twitter dot com and don’t actually care about it.

I felt like such an asshole feeling that way because there would be valid points along with the more ‘okay I think we’re being unnecessarily harsh’ and I just didn’t. wanna discuss something with someone who’s being like that. I was like wow it’s so privileged and whiney of you to wanna not talk about this because you just wanna enjoy something when you’re a COMMUNICATIONS major and know how important this is. So you’re just a hypocrite?? And I have to sit and remind myself that people can make valid points and you’re in no obligation to engage with them if their behavior is triggering or upsetting to you (by behavior I mean tone/language use/intention). I enjoy analyzing media, I believe it’s important, it’s also okay if you just wanna /silly for a little bit. You can do both and only the former when you’re in the headspace for it. It doesn’t mean you don’t care.

I’m not a person who likes to engage in hate-rooted discussions I find the negativity a bit grating. Idk how to explain it but if all you do is complain about something it’s so. genuinely triggering to me (the CPTSD emotionally immature mother wound, I fear) and feels more like. all you wanna do is complain and not actually talk about what’s going on. It’s like complaining about a paint color and never repainting. If you don’t like the media just don’t engage with it? It’s okay to be critical but it gets to a point that even if you’re making good points it just feels excessive. If that’s what you wanna do on the internet go ahead, as long as you’re not attacking people, it’s just not my thing.

It can be hard to navigate the line of ‘I want to analyze media critically’ and ‘this person doesn’t actually want to have discussions and is only talking about it to shit on said media because they don’t like it/use it to seem like they care about issues’/‘this person is being condescending and I am under no obligation to give them my time/energy discussing with them’ or even just being triggered by something for whatever reason without my brain telling me I’m the worst person in the world and don’t give a shit about the genuine harm problematic media causes.

Idk. Just remember someone can bring up points that are good and that you agree with and you don’t have to engage with it. That doesn’t mean you’re ignoring it. It’s okay if you just don’t vibe with someone and don’t wanna have that discussion with them. You can still care and protect your peace. It’s okay to wanna have fun in fandom. These discussions don’t have to be bad-natured. If they (as in behavior and not what’s being discussed because problematic material is icky etc) leave you feeling icky, maybe it’s not the right person to be talking to. Don’t ruin your day over a post on social media. It’s okay to prioritize yourself and walk away.

I also get a bit frustrated when I see people complain about a fandom that’s significantly on the younger side for doing like. typical teen things. The 13 year olds on the internet aren’t the most objective and I beg we keep that in mind when discussing them or something with them. Not that kids aren’t capable of having these discussions or understanding them of course, but just in general remember who you’re talking to could literally be 12 and lack some life experience that helps build a less rigid worldview.

[qoldenskies]

alright, the tadc movie's out. i'm gonna post the fic later today when i'm sure most of the people going to see it will have done it today, so warning if you're trying to avoid spoilers not to read it lol

[qoldenskies]

okay im seeing people post reactions to it on my twitter timeline now so im just gonna throw it out into the void now. BE CAREFUL EVERYONE

[qoldenskies]

wait i straight up forgot to link it lol. hi you can read this if you've seen the tadc finale or the leaks or whatever. i odnt care. Baka

[qoldenskies]

actually related to that last post i reblogged but i have so many Thoughts about the idea of f!leo going back to the past because like, wouldn't it be so horrible to recognize people he watched die. people who are currently children, where his only memories of them are them dying as adults, and having to save their children while they were wailing for them to wake up. how do you live with that. so many of those children he watched grow up in front of him will remain forever unborn because the circumstances that lead to their existence are too different, and in the timeline he escaped from, that means they'll be forever dead. he goes to a fast food place and has to excuse himself because the gangly, endearingly awkward teenage cashier was a peer he'd met in the rebellion that he sent to his death without knowing it. How do you live with that? how can you ever feel comfortable meeting anyone new when the ghosts of the people you sacrificed for the greater good are everywhere you look?

[qoldenskies]

him running into someone who was extremely close to one of his brothers in the bad future (lover or close friend or etc.) and being like. i know you, i knew you. i knew you because you loved someone very close to me that's gone, but now you don't know him, and it's very very likely now that you never will, not in the way you did as i knew you. i can't even bond with you over the grief i feel, so seeing you only makes it worse. i just have to live with it forever. you loved him. you would have loved him.

[qoldenskies]

hello random ten year old i just met in the supermarket. i watched your parents die in front of you and turn into mindless zombies and i had to take you in in the middle of the apocalypse as a seventeen year old and because of that you developed a blind, foolish reverence for me for years and looked up to me as a de-facto older brother even though we were never that close, and i watched you slowly mold yourself into a hard, unfeeling soldier and close yourself off from your remaining family as the hopelessness set in and then i watched you and the last few people you were ever close to as young adults die in a brutal bloody fight and i held your corpse as you choked on your own blood and cursed me in your final words, scratching my arm with bloodied fingernails and telling me that it was all my fault for letting this happen to you and blaming me for the death of your parents because i wasn't fast enough to save them all those years ago. and i took it personally because i already blamed myself for starting the end of the world in the first place. and it haunted me for years. am i standing in your way because you want to get to the recess peanut butter cups. sorry. thank you for telling me you like my pony and your favorite is pinkie pie. you'd never told me that.

[qoldenskies]

i think being able to pick through the things you enjoy and recognize when certain aspects of it are problematic or poorly thought out is really important and seriously helps your critical thinking skills, but i feel like a lot of people need to hear that you really, really dont have to go and look through "[x] critical" tags of shows you like, in fact most people who frequent tags like that and make entire blogs shitting on something you really enjoy and misconstruing every aspect of it are usually very miserable people who are just going to make you miserable. i don't think you're a weird obsessed fan that doesnt listen to criticism if you don't want to engage with that, and those people will only say that about people like you because they want you to feel bad. you don't have to give them that power!

[qoldenskies]

like i have moral ocd and a lot of the time i felt like i had to engage with the most bullshit critiques of the things i enjoyed because i felt like i had to justify my enjoyment for them, and like. i do think knowing Why you enjoy something is important of course, but i don't think its healthy to have to do so to random strangers on the internet who hate you over something so inconsequential, lol. i really don't trust people who say fans of anything inherently can't listen to criticism, when some of the best critique is delivered inside the house in every single fandom i've ever been in

[qoldenskies]

i think being able to pick through the things you enjoy and recognize when certain aspects of it are problematic or poorly thought out is really important and seriously helps your critical thinking skills, but i feel like a lot of people need to hear that you really, really dont have to go and look through "[x] critical" tags of shows you like, in fact most people who frequent tags like that and make entire blogs shitting on something you really enjoy and misconstruing every aspect of it are usually very miserable people who are just going to make you miserable. i don't think you're a weird obsessed fan that doesnt listen to criticism if you don't want to engage with that, and those people will only say that about people like you because they want you to feel bad. you don't have to give them that power!

[qoldenskies]

ive never realized how thorough the rottmnt community (and the tmnt community in general) has been with ao3 comments and art tags until now ngl like. you guys suddenly feel so uniquely attentive and considerate, maybe its because there's a more mixed age demographic here idk. just wanted to let you guys know i appreciate yall

[qoldenskies]

i feel super lucky to have gotten back into fic writing in a fandom that is uniquely very good to its fic authors LMAO

[qoldenskies]

ive never realized how thorough the rottmnt community (and the tmnt community in general) has been with ao3 comments and art tags until now ngl like. you guys suddenly feel so uniquely attentive and considerate, maybe its because there's a more mixed age demographic here idk. just wanted to let you guys know i appreciate yall

[vulstare]

probably the best water I have ever drawn in my life

wits & whimsy duo beach episode but its one piece brained. because i am one piece brained. currently drawing a bunch of one piece. help

[qoldenskies]

who the fuck went on my blog and said baka

[qoldenskies]

we need to have a Talk

[qoldenskies]

who the fuck went on my blog and said baka

[laaani-lei]

smarts and crafts / portal duo ouuuhhhhh i love them SO MUCH

[qoldenskies]

alright, the tadc movie's out. i'm gonna post the fic later today when i'm sure most of the people going to see it will have done it today, so warning if you're trying to avoid spoilers not to read it lol

[qoldenskies]

okay im seeing people post reactions to it on my twitter timeline now so im just gonna throw it out into the void now. BE CAREFUL EVERYONE

[qoldenskies]

wait i straight up forgot to link it lol. hi you can read this if you've seen the tadc finale or the leaks or whatever. i odnt care. Baka

[qoldenskies]

alright, the tadc movie's out. i'm gonna post the fic later today when i'm sure most of the people going to see it will have done it today, so warning if you're trying to avoid spoilers not to read it lol

[qoldenskies]

okay im seeing people post reactions to it on my twitter timeline now so im just gonna throw it out into the void now. BE CAREFUL EVERYONE