so messy, I have no life at college.
so i sit, and I do this stuff.
better than going out and getting fucked up right? acting like an idiot or an asshole?
i have lost my way with guys, fyi, i think i've just had about enough of them. all of you- grow up, it's not attractive. Congrats.
screw you for not understanding.not caring.leaving.everything.
i still do
you thought it'd be easier for me, better? Especially right now?
no, that was you being selfish again, the easier part was all for yourself.
I can't wait for this summer, to get away from it all. Even for that one week,
my eyes will open.
+ I thought this weekend home would be a relief, instead I walk in and I want to walk out.
This wasn't something made to showcase how I felt, it was just a way to finally talk, rant. I just needed some place to turn too. Different ways to let it all out. Pictures help describe how i feel or what i might desire or miss, words- well they're words. I don't want to offend anyone or anything,
sometimes i feel like it's unfair how this is so public. but then i think, why bother hiding it.
he's so stagnant. loosin up a bit. you can't be that dull all the time, people think your hilarious- where's that person? I asked why even be interested- the response was so rehearsed. you haven't gotten anything out of this so far- what are you trying for? cause im confused.
as for mr. mystery man- we talked for hours, went on walks, opened up, now you act like you've never even seen my face before. yeah I never thought anything of it but seriously, guys & girls were never meant to be friends. idk how you all do it.
this is probably the messiest post by far but dude, so many thoughts. too many.