I should not be left in charge of myself

mystery, mayhem the great, mother of harlots and abominations of the earth

[queen-mayhem]

Reviews From Satisfied Customers

"your blog is the trash compactor where I come to find mental illness"

"demonically forced to be as condescending as possible"

"i wish you had a full-time job that was just posting"

"you can't even talk to her because she's so convinced she's right about everything all the time"

"were you born with brain damage or did you seek it out?"

"if it weren’t for the fact that i highly respect/admire your intelligence and posts i would’ve unfollowed so fast"

"the backlash against your ideology will make the world a better place."

"i would genuinely pay money for a substack or newsletter that’s just your HP thoughts"

[queen-mayhem]

people tend to take it badly when you assume from the get-go that they have no common sense

y'all have got to come off anon sometimes. I piss off way too many people to keep track when you all have the same face and it's no fun.

[queen-mayhem]

every day I get caught up at work, and then every day there are new things to do

[kmbw]

He used to be a patriarch and now women point and laugh at him. 😔

Source: This Soviet World (1936) by Anna Louise Strong

[queen-mayhem]

keep disrespecting my Nruto blog and I’ll send you my mpreg fanfic as revenge >:(

don't threaten me with a good time

[queen-mayhem]

evil 12-year-old terf insulting my naruto yaoi blog? Sasuke would hate u

every day people expect me to know things about anime

[queen-mayhem]

the pharoah

spelling is hard :(

[queen-mayhem]

it’s actually Naruto :(

that's worse.

[queen-mayhem]

Are you 12 years old u act it

says the dragonball z yaoi blog

[queen-mayhem]

Like seriously, this is reaching biblical-plague levels of "getting signs from god or whatever that I need to make a change." Okay, I'm the pharoah in this metaphor. Where is my stuttering jew to tell me exactly what I'm supposed to be doing here? Send that guy. You know, in the story, he shows up before the plagues. It's starting to feel a little unfair.

[queen-mayhem]

I'm in a really frustrating place in my life where I'm getting tons of signals that it's time for me to leave the place I'm currently living and make a big change in my life, but no clarity about what to do next.

Every sign is like you can't stay here and I'm like great, agreed - where do I go next? And then I just get another sign that says you can't stay here.

Yes, I know. Each one of these successive signs is making it more and more miserable to stay here. I would like to go. Go where?

You can't stay here.

Okay well if I'm just gonna throw a dart at a map and go, I'm gonna need a lot of money in savings and that's gonna take a while so... either chill out on the signs or give me some clearer directions.

You can't stay here.

I GOT THE MESSAGE WITH THE FIRST SWARM OF BEES. THE SECOND AND THIRD WERE NOT NECESSARY. PLEASE SEND FEWER BEES AND MORE JOB OFFERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[queen-mayhem]

I know the ozempic thing is a joke, but I went on ozempic for PCOS and even with insurance not covering it, SoCal grocery prices means it’s been a net gain. im curious on your take about ozempic in general tho?

I don't have much of a take on it. I really don't care if people take it, or don't take, or why they take it or don't take it.

For my own mental health, I have to take the position that weight is morally neutral. Weight loss is neutral, weight gain is neutral, weight-staying-the-same is morally neutral.

And I certainly can't criticize people for the choices they make in order to lose weight. Taking an FDA-approved medication in an approved way with medical oversight is orders of magnitude less crazy than some of the stuff I've done to lose weight. I love to be a judgy hater, but I don't love being a hypocrite.

Scientifically speaking, I think it's a really cool medication and I'm really excited to see what they're going to do with it in the future, because it seems to be good for a lot of stuff besides diabetes and weight loss.

And... that's about it. That's the extent of my thoughts on ozempic.

[queen-mayhem]

Actually I do have one more thought about ozempic:

If you are taking ozempic, and you happen to be the person in control of purchasing food for some kind of group event or trip, please remember that the people around you might not be on ozempic and adjust your purchases accordingly.

Because I just had to have that conversation with my mom about family vacation this year. My parents, grandparents, and aunts and uncles are all on ozempic and have been for a while. We starved last year. And they genuinely didn't get it.

[queen-mayhem]

Maybe I’m overreacting and am just too sensitive, but that post about holding loved ones/friends to ethical standards has really got to me. Even when you and another commenter elaborate and say there’s varying degrees of unethical, they got so offended.

I know you’re not supposed to assume stuff about what people do or don’t say on the internet, but it’s genuinely so so damaging to say isolate yourself if you don’t agree with everyone. The refusal to engage with what you said makes me think they do just genuinely believe you should be by yourself.

Nevermind that humans are pack animals, mental health improves with actual community, sometimes reaching across the aisle helps get people to your side (and being firm in your boundaries with what you wont tolerate) but also sometimes situations aren’t always black and white (especially with family).

I’m just one person, but I have the morality scrupulosity subtype of OCD, if I cut everyone out of my life who didn’t match my values, I’d be alone, forever. And even if I wanted to, I couldn’t because of my situation. Even that post now has me reconsidering everything, every relationship because they don’t align perfectly.

Obviously this isn’t a call to be friends with racists. Nor is it a call to be friends with people who are friends with racists. No one is advocating for that and it’s weird that the ‘nuance’ website has so little nuance/loves to make sweeping statements and misread what people do/or do not say. Protect your own mental and physical well-being Live in-line to your own morals to the best of your ability. Don’t shit on others unless they’re actively shitting on you and/or other people.

It sounds like that post triggered your OCD.

But that's why I made that remark about context. The "average alt girl" caption makes me think that this statement was probably about something heinous, like nazi punks or or pedophile discord mods or some shit. But without the context, I don't know that.

And at the end of the day, whoever that commenter was is right. If you don't hold space for the fact that other people are different from you and have different values, you'll be lonely. The nuance is "but if all the people around you are like, nazis or something, you need to meet new people."

[queen-mayhem]

I know the ozempic thing is a joke, but I went on ozempic for PCOS and even with insurance not covering it, SoCal grocery prices means it’s been a net gain. im curious on your take about ozempic in general tho?

I don't have much of a take on it. I really don't care if people take it, or don't take, or why they take it or don't take it.

For my own mental health, I have to take the position that weight is morally neutral. Weight loss is neutral, weight gain is neutral, weight-staying-the-same is morally neutral.

And I certainly can't criticize people for the choices they make in order to lose weight. Taking an FDA-approved medication in an approved way with medical oversight is orders of magnitude less crazy than some of the stuff I've done to lose weight. I love to be a judgy hater, but I don't love being a hypocrite.

Scientifically speaking, I think it's a really cool medication and I'm really excited to see what they're going to do with it in the future, because it seems to be good for a lot of stuff besides diabetes and weight loss.

And... that's about it. That's the extent of my thoughts on ozempic.

[gokusclit]

Average alt girl

[flowerlygirls]

everyone needs to become less afraid of being alone NOW jesus christ you cannot genuinly prefer bad company to peaceful solitude

[hmsindecision]

I think there is a difference between “we can still be friends even if you aren’t boycotting Target because it’s the only grocery store you can access” or “I can’t currently afford to have a completely ethically made wardrobe on my salary” and “we can be friends even though you’re a racist and a liar who bullies people”. Trying to hold everyone to standards like the first is a recipe for lack of community. Not holding people to standards like the second is a recipe for a bad community that hurts people.

[queen-mayhem]

yeah I think context matters here. there's a big difference between "I expect everyone around me to share my exact values and apply them exactly the same way I do at all times" and "I deliberately cultivate voluntary relationships with reprehensible people because it's better than being alone."

both of those two extremes will destroy your soul, but there's a lot of territory between the two.

[gokusclit]

you two are being purposely obtuse aren’t you

[queen-mayhem]

no, I'm usually funnier when I'm being obtuse on purpose

[gokusclit]

save the quirky quips for someone else lol

[queen-mayhem]

well this was an extremely normal interaction. great job everyone, hit the showers.

[gokusclit]

Average alt girl

[flowerlygirls]

everyone needs to become less afraid of being alone NOW jesus christ you cannot genuinly prefer bad company to peaceful solitude

[hmsindecision]

I think there is a difference between “we can still be friends even if you aren’t boycotting Target because it’s the only grocery store you can access” or “I can’t currently afford to have a completely ethically made wardrobe on my salary” and “we can be friends even though you’re a racist and a liar who bullies people”. Trying to hold everyone to standards like the first is a recipe for lack of community. Not holding people to standards like the second is a recipe for a bad community that hurts people.

[queen-mayhem]

yeah I think context matters here. there's a big difference between "I expect everyone around me to share my exact values and apply them exactly the same way I do at all times" and "I deliberately cultivate voluntary relationships with reprehensible people because it's better than being alone."

both of those two extremes will destroy your soul, but there's a lot of territory between the two.

[gokusclit]

you two are being purposely obtuse aren’t you

[queen-mayhem]

no, I'm usually funnier when I'm being obtuse on purpose

[gokusclit]

Average alt girl

[flowerlygirls]

everyone needs to become less afraid of being alone NOW jesus christ you cannot genuinly prefer bad company to peaceful solitude

[hmsindecision]

I think there is a difference between “we can still be friends even if you aren’t boycotting Target because it’s the only grocery store you can access” or “I can’t currently afford to have a completely ethically made wardrobe on my salary” and “we can be friends even though you’re a racist and a liar who bullies people”. Trying to hold everyone to standards like the first is a recipe for lack of community. Not holding people to standards like the second is a recipe for a bad community that hurts people.

[queen-mayhem]

yeah I think context matters here. there's a big difference between "I expect everyone around me to share my exact values and apply them exactly the same way I do at all times" and "I deliberately cultivate voluntary relationships with reprehensible people because it's better than being alone."

both of those two extremes will destroy your soul, but there's a lot of territory between the two.