Want to be a Mum

27 | Australia | IT #TTC 13 months, Miscarriage 13 months ago, #PCOS diagnosed a few months ago

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What to do :(

My 20 yo niece and her 7 month old son became homeless Friday and she rang me , I went and picked her up and brought her and bub to mine and my partners house. I spoke to my partner and he reluctantly said yes to her staying until Monday so that way she had the weekend to sort stuff out. All he has done is moan and groan and carry on. She smokes (outside) he moans cos he can smell it. He moans cos she talks to loud. Last night we went to bed and he was treating me like crap and was saying why is it our problem and I can't take it etc etc. He is blaming me and won't show any affection towards me and when I speak to him I get little grunts as a response. I feel like I'm in the wrong for trying to do the right thing. I couldn't live with myself if they had to sleep in the streets. I feel so crappy. :(

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2 out of 3 complete. I do love cross stitching, it's so relaxing. Need to think about what one I would like to do next so I can order it before I finish this one.

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Who knew.....

Who knew teaching your partner how to drive would be one of the hardest things to do. Especially when he doesn't like to be told what to do and if you correct him he gets shitty at me but if I didnt teach him he gets shitty at me. Soooo hmmm where do I win????

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Men...

My god men can be so frustrating. They make you feel like you can't do anything right. Even though they have sat at their computer for over 5 hours talking and playing xbox with friends and you dish their tea up and take it to them at the computer and get no thank you or nothing but because you forgot to grab their alcohol from a friend's place, your the worst person :(

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Not sure how to feel...

I have a strange family and I don’t speak to a lot of them. This morning I got a phone call from my 17 yo sister that I haven’t spoke to in 2 years as she was on drugs and doing a lot of illegal things and she tells me she has a 8 month old daughter who welfare took when she was 6 months and she can’t see her until the child is 18. I’m so mad that a 15yo child can get pregnant and there are many people like me who are struggling to conceive but then I feel guilty for being mad , How is it fair?

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One part of my cross stitching and nearly done the 2nd part then for the last one. Love cross stitching so relaxing

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Even tho it's early but he knows when I'm having a off day. My present from the most sweetest boyfriend

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Good days but then also bad days

There are days that I feel good and think , ok so I got an appointment with the gyno in May and they should be able to help with getting my body on track for a baby , but then I also have my bad days and think I was pregnant but that was taken from me why do I have to go through all this now? I feel like I'm never going to have a baby and that scares me beyond anything else on this planet. Biggest question I have is...when is it my turn ?

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So mad.

I moved into a new house a month ago for a fresh start with my partner. I need to get away from family that were doing wrong by us and just found out today that one of those family members friends are moving in the same complex and they didn't even know where I lived, the world is hating me :(

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Had a friend and her 6yo niece lily stay last night, and lily can't go to sleep without a adult in the bed with her as her mother sleeps with her and got her like this. Well my friend made her go to bed without a adult and the little girl worked herself up so much that she was vomiting, her aunt was going mad at her and I was telling the girl it's OK not to worry that we will clean it and hope she feels better. in the morning lily was so quiet and pale and just came and snuggled with me on the couch and her aunt was going mad at her because she didn't sleep much and lily got so worked up again that she vomited on the floor and I was whispering to her that's it's OK and even joked and said that when I show people the new house I can say here is the kitchen here is where lily vomited . I just got so mad at my friend for treating lily this way and then to make it worse my friend took her home and her mother sent her to her room and was going mad at her. is it against the rules for kids to be sick these days or something?

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Facebook is a TTC persons worst nightmare. I just want to delete it but it's my only communication with family in another country. I'm happy for the pregnant people but when will it be my turn?

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Love spending time with my great nephew, even if he's sleeping it away haha

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Losing weight for PCOS

When I was diagnosed with PCOS I was told what would help it get back on track is to lose weight. I'm overweight and I know it, now that I'm settled into the new house I want to get the walking regularly going and luckily I have someone who wants to exercise as well so it's good to have a walking buddy more motivation. I have a long way to go to get near the weight I want to be at but I will do my best to get there so as of now I will be exercising more and getting more healthy.

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New to this

new to tumblr and not sure how it all works. I was referred by a new friend and she showed me people in situations like I am and have been reading your stories and they are inspirational. Brief run down of my story, my partner and I have been together for nearly 2 years, a year ago I found out I was pregnant and it was risky from the start as I found out because I was bleeding. I sadly lost our baby 3 weeks later, I was roughly 6 weeks. Since then we have been trying for a baby and nothing was happening. Recently I was diagnosed with pcos, I am not ovulating I was told, this was hard to hear but I am trying to look at it as I now know why and I can trying and correct it, I have my first appointment with the gyno in may and hope they will put us on the right track to having our baby.