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SHANE & ILYA + parallels

No, no, and NO.

AO3 does not live in “the cloud” because that is other people’s computers, and other people’s computers are vulnerable to censorship.

AO3 is on its own computers. It does still have to be housed somewhere, and I suppose a determined enough hater could try to find that place and go after it, but it’s a lot harder than sending spurious complaints to Amazon or whomever going “BadWrong things are hosted on your cloud service!”

Owning the servers is a core tenet of OTW/AO3.

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Warming up a new database server….

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When people involved with AO3 talk about “the cost of servers” they don’t mean “the cost to pay Amazon for space on their servers.” They mean, like, the cost to physically own them, and eventually replace them with new ones. And the operating costs to run them.

AO3 is not “in the cloud.” AO3 is stored on physical machines that the OTW owns.

While this is not a solution that can work for everyone who wants to deal with controversial content, it is why AO3ple sneer at alt-righters who complain about getting thrown off hosting platforms.

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shane smiling

shanastoryteller

shane folds his clothes when he takes them off and sticks to a strict macrobiotic diet and has multiple beautiful homes because he understands that things that he values must be cared for and maintained. he goes to the aquarium with hayden and his kids even though he isn't shown to be entirely comfortable with them and goes to the club with rose even though he's tired and doesn't particularly like clubbing for the same reason. what matters to him deserves his attention and his care, both big and small, because consistent effort is the only thing he knows how to offer

ilya is desperate to take care of the people that matter to him. he wishes his relationship with his brother was better, that he knew his niece, that he'd been able to look after his father, that he'd somehow been able to save his mother from herself. he tells his team he loves them and he means it. there is so much in him that is not only desperate to be loved, but to love. svetlana takes care of him and also allows him to take care of her. he can just love her as he wants to love her and she never turns her nose up at it, but she's the only person he has

shane and ilya go to so much effort not to care about the other too much. to not show their hand and ruin everything. except shane is watching and worrying over ilya from the beginning, from his smoking through to his concern over his father before he knows anything to not letting him carry his bag with bruised ribs. ilya has been hoarding information on shane, knowing as a way of caring when with his father and mother knowing was all he could offer them. he notices his clothes and when they change, he knows what he likes to drink and the temperature he prefers it, he's gentle when he teases him about not halving the recipe and so soft when he reassures him when he's overwhelmed. he's so clearly reveling in being able to take care and comfort the man he's spent years yearning to take care of and comfort

and i love how that sincere, matter of fact effort that shane extends to all the things that matter to him will be fully awarded to ilya now that he doesn't have any reason to hide it or second guess it. shane encouraging ilya to talk to him even when he doesn't understand, carrying his bag, bringing him a blanket and coffee in the morning, deffering to what he wants to eat even though he's usually so strict with his diet (like how he ate the tuna melt even though there's no way it fit because ilya made it for him and that made it worth it, how desperate he was to accept ilya's care even while it terrified him). just those small considerations awarded to ilya every day, always thinking of how to make sure he's happy and he knows that shane loves him, because like his hockey performance and his real estate fetish and his best friends, ilya matters to him and shane isn't someone who loses things that are important to him through a lack of effort (trying multiple times to sleep with rose not only because he wanted it to work with a girl in general, but because he really likes her in particular and doesn't think he can keep her as a friend if he fails her as a lover. talking to his mother and telling her that he really tried to be perfect, to be straight, because he wants to be perfect but also because he wants to be her perfect son, his mom who he's so similar too and understands and loves and is loved by and who he never, ever wants to disappoint)

just. shane quietly warmed by ilya's care and loving and cherishing ilya the only way he knows how, which is also the way ilya's been deprived of and craves almost as much as he craves shane

stammiviktor

“I think I know how the staff likes to be treated after all these years” hits so hard. ilya has been secretly paying close attention to shane for seven years. what makes him tick, what he loves in bed, his hockey skills, that he loves ginger ale and has a cottage where he does yoga and his parents’ names are yuna and david and david reads the new yorker. he has been gathering up all of these pieces of shane and holding them inside of him. before this, we only ever get pieces of it (is the ginger ale cold enough?). but in this episode we finally get to see him own up to that and put his knowledge of shane on full display. I know what you like in bed, shane, I know that you like to be pinned down and fucked hard and teased. I know you like to be bad. I know that you do your yoga over there and I know how to refocus you when you’re panicking. I could map your freckles by heart. you have a weak backhand. I love you.

wizardarchetypes

a while back Saga was talking about hitting an emotional breaking point and they said, “it was a real floor poptart moment” and I said “a huh?” and they were surprised I didn’t understand. They said, “you don’t remember the floor poptart?” I said no and they proceeded to tell me a story about myself in which I was apparently 19 and on the verge of a catastrophic mental health crisis for weeks and one night at 2 am in our mom’s kitchen I was just barely holding it together as I cooked a poptart in the toaster and when it popped up & I went to eat it, I somehow dropped it on the floor, and the pillars of sand upon which stood the crumbling castle of my psyche gave way.

Apparently I got down on the floor with the poptart and laid there crying beside it as if it were perhaps the corpse of a dear friend.

And now when people in my family hit a wall they call it their “floor poptart moment.”

I have no memory of this whatsoever but I think it’s a good legacy

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KPOP DEMON HUNTERS (2025) dir. by Maggie Kang, Chris Appelhans

#kill me tbh

exwife-of-frankenstein

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#this is poetry

greelin

anyone want to give me two million dollars for absolutely nothing in return

seattle-mariners

He’s beautiful. He’s strong. He’s passionate. He’s caring. He’s a Seattle Mariner ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

honey-coloured

alchemy of souls part 2: every time when they are like “we have to stop Jang Uk from doing that!!” honey there is absolutely no way you stop this man from doing anything and that’s so fucking hot