Tim drake x reader ‘You can’t scare me’
Warnings - getting locked in a room. Death not of main character, mentions of harmful behavior. I think that’s all sorry.
Summary - (name) somehow got caught up in enchantress and only one person seems to not be wary.
If you wanna see a part of this where it focuses only on Tim’s perspective of this fic I will happily write it
It might be a tiny bit inaccurate in some areas sorry, I tried my best. If you see any grammatical issues no you don’t <3
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Why couldn’t I do anything right..?
Being sought out by the Batman was never a comforting feeling for anyone. Even more so with this thing living inside of me that could destroy the whole world with a flick of her wrist
I didn’t want this.. they have to believe me, I didn’t want her to be here, I didn’t think she would set her sights on me and decide id be her next host after June moone died…
Why did it have to be me? Why did everyone have to look at me in fear? Batman cornered me into joining the young justice team, at least there he said that he can always keep an eye on me, especially with the others around, they could neutralize the threat before it even became a threat. Especially with the young justice tied so closely to the actual justice league.
It was better than me living out in the open world…I thought it would be better..they would have to understand that I didn’t choose this for my life to turn out this way?
But instead? They hated me, the way they’d shy away from me, no one would pair with me during training sessions, no one would even step near me without solid proof that I wouldn’t just flick over and turn into enchantress.. Batman being Batman figured out a way to try and keep her at bay by using a piece of nanotechnology implanted into my arm to control the demon, it worked for the most part…most part being the operative word
Yesterday during training I had been partnered with gar, he’d always play nice around me, at least to my face he would, he was without a doubt like the others and tried to leave as quickly as possibly without drawing too much attention to the fact that he wanted to leave whatever room I’d been in prior so he didn’t have to inevitably wait for his demise as they all thought
I kept it in, really I did try .. until he threw me on the mat and my head hit the cushioning and everything went dark.. enchantress came out speaking in broken tongue, echos of the dead language ‘moonspeak’ filled the air as her dark twisted hair fell to the side as her head tilted in almost agony wanting to rain hell upon those who dared cross the demon who was once worshiped like a god in her time
I begged and screamed inside my own head silently trying to fight her for control when Richard Grayson, dick more commonly known used a super sonic frequency that only enchantress could hear, to shrink back into herself before he stabbed a tiny hole in enchantresses heart to keep her in control before she eventually gave in and I succumbed back to ownership of my body
By the time my eyes opened and I looked around the training ground everyone was cowered in the corner of the room, despite being heros themselves dealing with something as unknown as enchantress was a damn good reason for even them to cower away..dick laid a hand on my shoulder and ushered me out of the room to go sit in the padded room of the lockdown space
‘It’s built for yours and our safety, we understand it’s scary for you; but we are yet to understand the limits of her power even with junes research that she had done before her unfortunate death. After every use of enchantress controlled or not, you must sit in this room for at least 24 hours for everything to completely calm down, do you understand?’ Batman once spoke to me when I’d lost control of enchantress for the first time since getting brought to the tower with the team
At the time I nodded quietly feeling my whole body scratch and screaming for peace
“I..I didn’t mean too” I whispered my voice cracked and croaked in reluctance. Dick- Richard..I didn’t have the right to address him so informally despite his encouragement to do so. He just nodded in understanding keeping one hand on my arm where the nanotechnology had been implanted
“Did..did I hurt them?” I whispered unsure if I even wanted the answer, would I just feel more sick if I found out I hurt them? Would they become more scared of me? Would they never talk to me even if to be fake friendly? Would I feel better knowing I only scared them? That I didn’t hurt them? Or would that make me feel worse? I didn’t know anymore, learning anything made me feel sicker and more disgusting as the days with her inside my body Increased
Richard just looked down at me and opened the door to the padded room “you didn’t hurt anyone, you know this is for safe measures” he spoke in what I’m sure he meant to be reassuring but really the words translated to ‘you didn’t hurt anyone this time, but we don’t trust you so we’re gonna lock you away like the ticking time bomb you are and maybe we just won’t let you out again’ I imagined his face twisting into a sick smile before hearing the door close and the 8 different locks behind it clicking together
He’d never say that..? Would he? Maybe it’s what he meant, maybe if it’s that was what he actually thinking in that moment maybe that’s why I was able to imagine him saying it so easily, everyone hates me, everyone wants me gone no one even wants me to be around
I curled my legs under my chest as my forehead touched the cushy floor as wet patches grew from the tears that leaked my eyes. Moonspeak echoed in my ears even though no one was in the room, enchantress has grown into the habit of talking to me inside of my own head. It took me a while before I could understand a single word she uttered, no one spoke in that language anymore, it was beyond dead, not even the batcomputer had it logged and that usually had everything.
I caught certain words like trying to catch specs of dirt in a glass of water that marinated outside
‘Weak..no..respect’ were all the words I caught before she became silent, I never know if she’s refering to me as weak or others, I don’t even know if she likes me as a host, if she didn’t she wouldn’t stay right? How do you make a demon mad enough to leave your body? Would that kill me? Would it—
Who was that? Why were the locks opening,no no no it’s only been 3 hours..I’d only learnt to tell the time here because Richard would knock on the door every 4 hours making sure everything was ok and I hadn’t succumbed to enchantresses will, despite the cameras in the room he could check. I think he feels these personal check ins being me comfort, they don’t, never would.
So who’s at the door? Why is it opening, it’s never opened before the 24 hour mark, they’ve come to kill me haven’t they..? Turned off the cameras and decided they didn’t want such a demon— Tim drake..?
My eyes widened and my back pressed future into the padding of the back wall denting it, pressing so hard I could feel the layers of concrete behind the padding..probably layered with explosives, enough to kill me and whatever lays inside my body
“Hey” his boyish voice spoke out as he shut the door behind him, his eyes glanced up at the monitoring camera no longer seeing a flashing red light which usually meant someone was actively watching the feed, no red light, no one watching, why was he here?
“I wanted to come check on you” he looked away from me directly, his domino mask doing little to tell me what he was actually feeling in this moment
I couldn’t bring myself to respond to him as I just curled my knees closer to my body almost scared to even move an inch incase I did something to hurt him. He’d always been the nicest, never showed even the slightest bit of fear near me, which was shocking in of itself, I didn’t know why he never showed me fear…
He often took the seat next to me at breakfast and dinners, he would slide into the seat beside me on the couch which was rare since I never wanted to be around the common areas in fear of making the others uncomfortable.
Most importantly he was always the only volunteer to have me in his small team when we would have missions, I never understood it. Why would someone like him who is technically just a human who has a few cool gadgets and moves not be fearing for his life around someone so unknown like me? So why did he always have to be next to me as if he is some kind of inhumane never dying all knowing person? He was a puzzle I was never able to figure out and I don’t even want to figure it out, I just want him to stop
“You shouldn’t be here.. it’s dangerous” my voice cracked at the last words feeling the prickle of pain crack into my heart piercing the fragile muscles inch by inch awaiting his words like the final dagger. He will probably agree, probably think I’m some compromise to his team, some likability, i agree, I know I am, I hate me, I hate that I thought things would change the moment I stepped into this tower. I put his family, his friends, his home in danger so of course he’ll hate me, of course he’d be the first to raise a knife to enchantresses heart to destroy her then kill me for even hosting the unmoving demon
“You’re not scary. You’re anything but scary” his voice broke through the tunneling thoughts like a dam break and all the water, hot boiling water crashed down onto my exposed body, feeling the shivering of my skin not fitting my body.
Not scary? How could I not be scary? How can I not be scary? Why would he think that, how?
“Infact I think you’re divine, you know, they tried to understand you, but how can they understand you if they don’t let you live? They did this crap to Jane and look where she is” he stepped closer whispering my name like a gods prayer that could be his true savior
I tried to crawl back into the wall behind me, wishing for once that I was left alone, I take back all my begging I did hourly to find someone who wasn’t afraid of me, because this? This feels worse than having them be scared of me.
“Please” he whispered my name once more “help me help you, let me in past your fears to help you rein control of your life again” he lifted his hand up, not high enough to touch any section of my burning body but instead enough to give me that decide to let him inside
His hand laid out right in front of me silently asking for mine to hold it back, but it was too much. “No…” I whispered wishing I could curl my body in on itself to give more space between the two of us
His face fell a minuscule amount before he smiled softly “it’s ok, I understand, I won’t rush you, but my offer will never leave the table” his words faded into the silence of the room as he turned to leave glancing over his shoulder in what looked like almost hope but I couldn’t give in, I couldn’t risk getting comfortable to someone only to lose control and have them be the first victim.. I couldn’t let what happened to June happen to me…
“You were chosen for a reason” his words as sharp as the sound of the door closing, as if he didn’t want to give me a chance to argue that he was wrong, there was no reason I’d been chosen for this stupid power, I didn’t want this, I never wanted this, I never wanted to be haunted by a demon who supposed herself to be godly, it sure didn’t feel godly to have everyone be so scared of me, waiting, always waiting for me to break to prove in a freak of nature who should be terminated
I laid back on the floor of the room counting the seconds while moonspeak played on repeat in my head ‘worship..ground…ruler’ were the only words I understood from her, all I wanted to ask her was why me, why did she have to pick me after June died, why did it she have to ruin my life by haunting my body, my life will never be the same, it will never recover.
I used to be such a normal girl..I used to be happy, graduated from Gotham academy. I had friends, now I get locked into a padded room anytime I even so much as lose control of who is inside of me—
“Actually no, I’m not giving up, I’m sorry, really I am but I’m not letting you wallow” the door reopened and Tim came pacing inside not even bothering to close the door, that opened door made enchantress sizzle in excitement, I felt my body convulse, I gasped for air as I leaned down to the ground nails piercing the ground as two dusty blackened hands curled themselves around my hands before turning them over and she came back
Enchantress was back in control. It was only tim in the room..no no no- she can’t hurt him, please. I cried inside my head but it did nothing to stop enchantress from raising her hand with all intent of harming Tim.
“Move! Move please!” I screamed inside my head but she didn’t give on her control over my body, I couldn’t speak. I knew no one should have ever thought I could be anything but a liability.
“Please” I begged before gasping in pain falling to the ground as enchantress fell back to my subconscious as I finally looked up to see the damage she caused while I wasn’t in control
“It’s ok” Tim whispered as his arms curled around my shivering body as my eyes flickered around confused seeing nothing hurt or out of place “I..I don’t understand” I whispered looking up to see Tim
“You did it, she gave into your request” he whispered against my temple. The words were blurred and uncomfortable…she gave in?
“But I don’t..” I shook my head trying to escape his grasp to which he loosened only slightly “it’s ok, it will take some time to get used to this but I’m not leaving you. I never have” he spoke softly looking at me as if I was some injured cat living in an alley scared I was going to bolt at any moment and he’d never see me again
“You never..?” I tilted my head shaking my head “but..I’ll hurt you” I whispered feeling sick to my stomach at the thought of hurting him and it being out of my willpower
“I’m not scared off easily” he smiled taking the seat next to me no longer wrapped around me “and I’ll start by staying in this room with you, for as long as you need until you trust me to not run” he wrapped his pinkie finger around my own never letting go