!tw!

!sh/ed! he/it 20 cbmi FAT lbmi 17 gbmi 16.5

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unpinning when im back at lw

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maybe i will be back but Hopefully Not

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bee tee dubs im relapsing a little but i was so convinced i had gained like 10-15lbs from binging/not restricting but i weighed myself today and im only 5lbs up from lw. i have to die

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on one hand. a lower sw means i could probably hit a lower weight before i have to stop/am forced to stop by a binge cycle on the other hand I Dont Like Being Miserable

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bee tee dubs im relapsing a little but i was so convinced i had gained like 10-15lbs from binging/not restricting but i weighed myself today and im only 5lbs up from lw. i have to die

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hi so i havnt weighed myself but from. looking i think ive gained like 10-15lbs and i should kill myself

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i hate the way i look evil style im gonna lose weight normal style but ill be back if it goes bad

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i miss you …. 😢

sorryyyy ive beat eating. not disordered bc im too depressed to care </3 i think i will just be gone for a while but i have missed yous! just dont want to fall back into disordered eating habits n be in a cycle forever i think

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OKAY YAAAAAY! my discord is butheresthemeower where im Normal

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i will add you :)

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i miss you …. 😢

sorryyyy ive beat eating. not disordered bc im too depressed to care </3 i think i will just be gone for a while but i have missed yous! just dont want to fall back into disordered eating habits n be in a cycle forever i think

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we do a little overeating

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1328 today. not a deficit

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today is so bad :(

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1290 calories today. normal amount

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maybe next time i binge i stop being a baby and i purge it bc i cant. do this i cant weigh this much

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i dont know why im crying im fat and disgusting and i diid this to myself its all my fault for being aselfish digusting ugly freak why cant i just control myself

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i hate being alive so much

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mmmm if i do a soft 1000 limit. slowly lower calories again. dont go below 700. i can get back on track surely? and not fuck it up again bc i wont restrict as low? itll be fine maybe i think?

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why do i do this to myself genuinely