a/n: disclaimer this does not represent them please do not take it as such, also this is just a short part leading towards a larger part coming soon
w/c: 1.4k
Walking down the aisles of the grocery store I scope out my favorite snacks. I hear the girls rushing up behind me, Myuwae is in the cart with her legs hanging out to the side. June is pushing the cart with reckless abandonment. Neyeo is walking behind them with her head hanging down.
âGuys, I keep having to apologize for you. Please stop or at least chill out,â Saeyeon begs after bowing to an older gentleman at the end of the aisle.
âDonât be such a party pooper,â Myuwae leans her head and gazes at Saeyeon with puppy eyes. âYouâre just upset you arenât the one in the cart,â pouting at her teasingly.
âYah!â
âHey guys,â With that they all quiet down and look at me. âRemember we came here for food, we canât be here for too long, manager-nim is waiting for us in the car. And we need to be peaceful for the rest of the people in here, please.â
âYah, whoâs making all this noise?â We all freeze at the familiar voices now coming from the other end of the aisle. The girls rush to bow towards them as i continue with the cart in my hands, checking off the items I have in my cart. I continue through the store while listening to their conversations in the background, as I pass couples in the store I bow and pull my mask up unconsciously.
âHey,â I hear a sweet voice call ahead of me. I look up to see Hyunjin leaning against the shelves at the end of the aisle, and canât help the smile that forms on my face. I quickly make my way to him and pull him behind the end of the aisle, away from the front of the store and windows, so I'm able to lean into him.
âHey pretty, Iâve missed seeing you.â He tucks some of my hair behind my ear and leans forward to press his lips against my forehead.
âIâve missed you too, sorry weâve just been so busy. This is the first time weâve been outside of the company or our dorms.â He pulls me into his chest even more and leans his head on top of mine.
âTrust me I know, your sleep schedule is almost worst than Chan-hyungâs. Donât think I donât notice your dark circles, you canât hide that from me.â He leans his head back and tilts my chin up to examine my face.
âYou donât need to worry about me-â
âBut you know I do, I canât help it. I think that you should go straight home from here and sleep, after you call me of course,â he says the last part matter-of-factly and smiles down at me. âI wish I could take better care of you myself,â his hand lingers on my cheek. Before we can react BangChan comes around the corner.
âHey guys- woah okay! Well I thought that we should all start heading out before it gets too late, if thatâs okay with you guys.â He talks with a slight smile playing on his lips, before I can answer Hyunjin responds.
âUh yeah, weâll be there just keep everyone distracted for a little bit. I promised Han-ah Iâd get him a cheesecake,â he looks down at his watch before looking back at me. He quickly kisses forehead and starts jogging through the store, âIâll be quick!â
Of course he leaves me a blushing mess in front of BangChan, he always seems to do that now.
âHeâs getting more daring in public isnât he?â BangChan adds as he shakes his head and the younger boy.
âHe really is, I canât tell if itâs a good or bad thing yet. He just makes me nervous sometimes,â I sigh a little as I hear his footsteps getting closer. âI donât want him to always put my reputation before his because to me he deserves it more.â The conversation promptly ends as Hyunjin places the cheesecake delicately on top of everything else.
âAlright letâs head out!â
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Sadly once we get home I get bombarded my texts from our manager saying I need to be more careful if weâre going to be seen out with Stray Kids. She proceeds to send me some of my photos that have been circulating. I thank her for her concern and then shut my phone down.
Everyone is in the living room playing games on the TV while I put all the groceries away in silence. Then someone knocks on the doorway into the kitchen.
I turn to see who it is, âOh hey Seungmin.â
âHow are you doing? I feel like itâs been a while since weâve been able to talk just the two of us.â He hops up onto the counter of the island while I keep putting things away.
âYeah, sorry about that. The girls and I have been so busy, even though our EP just got released Iâm already working on more music. Sorry if Iâm not answering your calls or texts either I usually keep my phone shut off,â I keep talking as I walk around the kitchen.
âYeah, Iâve noticed,â he scoffs.
âIâm sorry, what was that about?â I furrow my brows as I turn to face him.
âItâs not like I havenât noticed you and Hyunjin being busy at the same time almost every night. And honestly I donât like it, Iâm not a fan.â Iâm surprised by his tone towards me, Iâm taken aback.
âExcuse me?â I cock my head at him in surprise.
âDonât you know the type of person he is? Heâs a player, heâs not a relationship type person. It wont be long till he stops calling you. You deserve better Y/N, plain and simple.â
âAnd on what grounds do you think itâs okay to talk to me like this? You donât know what heâs like in a relationship, and frankly you donât know what Iâm like in one either. I donât know where this is coming from but its radiating jealousy,â I narrow my eyes at him and I feel my ears flush a deep red from anger.
âIâm only telling you this because I care about you and Iâm worried about the outcome of this fling,â he shrugs his shoulders carelessly while picking at his nails.
âWho do you think you are Kim Seungmin?â I bark out at him, now fuming and clenching my fist despite the feeling of my longer nails digging into my palms.
âIâm one of your closest friends, am I not?â He questions as he leans back on his arms behind him on the counter.
âGet out.â
â-Excuse me?â He hops down from the counter to stand in front of me.
âYou,â I stab my finger in the center of his chest causing him to start walking backwards. âYou are unbelievable, you are the most selfish person Iâve ever met! You only want me and Hyunjin to end so you have me all to your miserable self.â I seethe at him as I begin to be blinded by anger.
âSeungmin.â His head snaps over to the voice, BangChan seems to be just as angry as me. Hyunjin stands beside him staring straight at the ground with his lips pressed together. I break away from Seungmin immediately and move to cup Hyunjinâs face in my hands.
âGet out Seungmin, please.â With that I pull Hyunjin with me and take him to room, as soon as I close the door I hug him tightly.
âHeâs right isnât he?â He mumbles into my hair.
âWhat? No of course not, donât listen to him. He doesnât know what weâre like together, frankly I donât know why even started saying any of that.â I pull away so I can stroke his cheek, just to see the emotions clouding his eyes. âWhy donât you stay over tonight? We can watch movies, I can make some food and we can sleep in since neither of us has any schedules.â
He nods as he leans into my palm, âYes please.â
I pull him towards my bed and lay down first then pull him to lay on top of me. We donât speak for a while and I just run my fingers through his hair. After I notice his eyes start to drift closed I let out a sigh.
âYou know,â he hums quietly. âI donât believe what he said. I never could.â
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The studio smells like cold coffee and something metallic, like exhaustion has a scent, and itâs soaked into the walls.
Itâs past 3 a.m.
Again.
The only light comes from the monitors, casting a blue glow over Chanâs face. His eyes are rimmed red, eyelids heavy, skin pale under the glowing screens. Thereâs an untouched protein bar on the desk, and a cup of ramen that has long gone cold.
He hasnât eaten properly in two days.
He hasnât slept more than two hours at a time in well over a week.
And heâs still clicking, adjusting, replaying the same eight seconds of a track over and over like if he listens long enough, itâll magically fix itself.
âChan,â you say softly from the doorway.
He doesnât look at you. âMm?â
âYou should take a break.â
âI am,â he answers immediately. âThis is the break.â
You swallow. He responded the same way to your texts, and he has said the same thing for three hours.
You take a breath and walk toward him, placing the water bottle you brought on the desk. âJust drink something. Please.â
He sighs, but he does it. Takes a small sip. Sets it back down.
Thatâs the thing.
He never outright refuses you. He just⊠minimizes everything. Pushes through. Like, what his body needs is optional.
Like he is.
You move behind him and rest your hands on his shoulders. Theyâre rigid, so tense like he's made of stone.
âYouâre tense,â you whisper.
âIâm fine.â his usual response to anything.
âYouâre not.â You're anything but convinced by his words.
âI said Iâm fine.â His jaw tightens.
There it is, that edge. The one thatâs been creeping in more and more lately. Not at the members. Not at the staff.
Just with you.
Every time you text, check in, ask if he's eaten, and make sure he's taking breaks.
And that's why you're here now, because you knew he was lying, lying about taking breaks, about eating, about how exhausted he actually is.
You knead his shoulders gently. âYouâve been here all week, Chris. You barely came home.â
âDeadlines donât care if Iâm tired,â as if that justified anything.
âI care if youâre tired.â You keep your voice gentle.
Silence.
He pulls off his headphones and rubs his face. âI just need to finish this. Then I can rest.â
âYou said that yesterday.â You move to lean against his desk, crossing your arms.
âAnd I meant it yesterday,â he shoots back.
âThen why are you still here?â Your question seems to burn up the last of his patience.
He turns slightly toward you, and for a second, you see it in the way his shoulders seem weighed down, how his hands tremble, the way his eyes shine not with tears but with sheer exhaustion.
But instead of collapsing into you, he hardens himself and keeps pushing.
âI donât need you babying me.â his tone is harsh.
The words hit you hard.
âIâm notââ
âYes, you are.â His voice rises, sharp in the small room. âYouâre hovering. Youâre acting like I canât handle myself.â
âIâm acting like you havenât slept,â you whisper.
"Iâm doing my job!â he snaps back.
Silence after his words echoes around the two of you.
The only sound coming from the monitors hum and the faint sound of a click track from his headphones.
Your arms tighten like you are holding yourself togeather.
âIâm not a child,â he continues, voice rough. âI donât need someone checking if Iâve eaten or if Iâve slept. I know what Iâm doing.â
You nod slowly, because if you speak, you'll cry.
And you refuse to cry here, in front of him, knowing that will only make the situation worse.
This studio has already taken so much of him from you; you won't let it have your tears, too.
âAlright,â you say quietly.
He looks almost relieved.
That hurt more than you thought it would.
You grab your bag. âIâll stop.â
He doesnât answer.
He just turns back to the screen.
And thatâs worse than if heâd yelled again.
The apartment feels too big when you get home; it feels emptier tonight than it has in the past few days.
You sit on the edge ofyour shared bed and finally let yourself cry.
You never wanted to baby him; you just wanted him to take care of himself, you just wanted him here.
But if he didn't want your help, you'd honor his wishes.
You donât go back to the studio the next night.
Or the one after that.
Three days later, you're folding laundry when thereâs a knock at the door.
Itâs almost midnight, and since you couldn't sleep, you decided to actually fold the pile of laundry that's been sitting untouched in a basket for the past few weeks.
You donât know who would be stopping by at this hour, but the members have checked in with you every couple of days since you came to the company.
When you open the door, Chan is standing there.
He looks wrecked, worse than before.
His hair is covered in a black beanie, dark circles stain his skin, and his lips are cracked. His shoulders sag like someone finally cut the strings that were holding him upright.
âHey,â he says, his voice breaks on the word.
All your anger dissolves.
âChrisâŠâ
He swallows. His eyes are glassy. âCan I come in?â
You step aside immediately, letting him in, and he takes off his shoes as you shut the door and move back to the laundry.
He stands in the middle of your room like heâs not sure he deserves to be here.
âI messed up,â he says, quickly.
You cross your arms, not defensively, just to hold yourself together. âYou were tired.â
âThatâs not an excuse,â he sounds so broken.
âNo,â you whisper. âItâs not.â
His breath shakes. He runs a hand through his hair. A moment passes before he speaks again.
âI thought if I just pushed harder, Iâd feel better about it. Like if I worked enough, it would be enough.â
Your chest aches at his confession.
âBut I canât think,â he continues. âI keep replaying that moment. The way you looked at me.â
You donât realize you're crying until he steps closer and brushes a tear from your cheek with trembling fingers.
âI donât need you babying me,â he repeats, voice breaking. âGod. Why did I say that?â
âBecause youâre used to doing it all yourself,â you say softly. âAnd you didnât want to admit it.â
His composure cracks.
âI am,â he whispers.
The confession sounds like it hurts.
âIâm so tired,â he breathes. âI donât remember the last time I slept without hearing the track in my head. I donât remember the last time I wasnât scared it wasnât good enough.â
Your hands reach for him automatically.
He doesnât pull away, instead He all but collapses into your arms.
Not gracefully, not composed.
He finally lets go.
His forehead presses into your shoulder, and his arms wrap around your waist like youre the only solid thing left in the world.
âI didnât mean it,â he sobs quietly. âI need you. I need you so much and I hate that I do because it feels weak.â
âItâs not weak,â you cry, holding him tighter. âItâs human.â
His shoulders shake.
âI donât know how to stop,â he admits. âIf I slow down, I feel like everything will fall apart.â
âThen let me help you,â you whisper.
He grips your shirt like heâs afraid you will disappear.
âI canât do this alone,â he finally says.
And it sounds like surrender.
âI know,â you murmur into his hair. âYou donât have to.â
We stand there for a moment longer before you guide him to the bedroom.
He doesnât argue.
That alone tells you how exhausted he is.
You help him change out of his days-old clothes. He moves slowly, like even lifting his arms is too much.
When you lie down, he hesitates.
âWill youâŠ?â His voice is small.
You turn and open your arms to him with a soft smile.
He curls into you immediately, pressing his face into your chest, one arm draped across your waist. You run your fingers through his hair, scratching gently at his scalp the way he loves.
His breathing is uneven at first.
Restless.
Like his body doesnât remember how to power down.
âIâm sorry,â he murmurs again.
âI know.â
âIâll try,â he says. âTo let you in more. To not push you away when Iâm scared.â
âYou donât have to be perfect with me,â I whisper. âJust let me help.â
His grip tightens, and you give him a squeeze back as you continue to play with his hair for several minutes.
slowly his grip loosens as his body grows heavier, his breathing evens out.
For the first time in weeks, he's actually sleeping.
You donât move, even when your arm starts to tingle from falling asleep.
Because feeling his weight against you, the steady rise and fall of his chest, is worth everything.
you press a soft kiss to his hair.
âI love you,â you whisper before drifting off.
âŁ àł cw: explicit sexual content, exes to lovers, mutual masturbation , penetrative sex, creampie, crying during sex, pet anxiety, mentions of pregnancy, artist!hyunjin, mdni
notes: in which your situationship ex hyunjin from college asks you to watch his dog for the week--and things spiral from there.
You almost donât answer.
Your phone buzzes across the table, skittering like a beetle over the wood, and you glance at the screen with the reflex of someone who doesnât expect surprises anymore.
Hyunjin. The name glows up at you, unfamiliar only in the way it makes your stomach twistâlike a song you havenât heard in years but still remember every lyric to.
Itâs been months since you last spoke. Maybe a year since you last saw him. A coffee meetup that turned into wandering aimlessly through the park, talking like nothing had ever gone wrong between you, except it had. That night ended with a long hug and a promise to keep in touch that neither of you kept.
And now heâs calling.
You stare at the screen for another ring. Then another.
Then you answer.
â...Hello?â
Thereâs a beat of silence, just long enough to make you wonder if he hung up, and then:
âHey,â he says, breathless like heâd been holding it. âSorryâsorry to call out of nowhere. I didnât know who else to ask.â
His voice hasnât changed. Still soft in a way that wraps around your ribs. Still threaded with that low, careful tension like heâs always thinking five things at once and only saying one.
You shift in your seat, heart suddenly too loud in your chest.
âOkay,â you say slowly, warily. âWhatâs going on?â
A soft rustle comes through the lineâmaybe the jingle of keys, maybe his bracelets sliding against his wrist. You picture him pacing his apartment, the same way he used to during finals week, lip caught between his teeth, hair tucked behind one ear.
âI wouldnât call if it wasnât important,â he says. âAnd I get that itâs weird. Us not talking, and thenâme dropping this on you.â
You glance toward the window, try not to let your voice shake. âWhat is this, exactly?â
He hesitates. âI have to leave the city. Itâs an art residency. Last-minute. Itâs⊠big.â
Your stomach twists again, but this time itâs sharper. Of course itâs big. Hyunjin was always meant for something more.
You lean back in your chair, eyes tracing the rain sliding down the windowpane like itâs trying to draw an answer for you. A part of you wants to ask where he's going, what the project is, if heâs excitedâbecause of course he is, he always was, always buzzing with vision and color and a kind of hunger you never could name. But that part of you lives behind a glass wall now. Youâre not sure youâre allowed to tap on it.
So you donât ask. You swallow the words like coins dropped into a wellâsilent, swallowed, never coming back up.
âIâm happy for you,â you say instead, and itâs almost true. âYou deserve it.â
Hyunjin exhales, and for a second you wonder if heâs smiling. âThanks. That means more than you probably think.â
It shouldn't. But you donât say that either.
âI wouldnât call if I didnât really need the help,â he adds, voice dipping a little lower now, like heâs bracing for the ask to land wrong. âItâs Kkami. My sitter canceled last minute, and everyone else is either busy or allergic. You were the only person I thought of who could handle him.â
You laugh softly, mostly out of disbelief. âHandle him? Hyun, your dog hates me.â
âHe doesnât hate you,â Hyunjin says, though thereâs something too quick in his defense, too breathlessâlike maybe heâs trying to convince himself. âHeâs just... territorial.â
You huff a dry laugh. âYeah, I remember. He tried to piss on my jeans.â
âThat was one time.â
âTwice.â
âOkay, but in his defense, they smelled like me.â
You pause. The silence that follows is sharp and sudden, the kind that cuts deep and clean. Itâs the kind of silence that remembers.
Because those jeans had smelled like himâafter that night. The last one. The one where heâd backed you against the wall of your own bedroom with his fingers still wet from your mouth, where heâd said things he probably didnât mean and kissed you like he hated how much he did.
The night you both decidedâwithout saying itâthat it was over. That whatever âthingâ had been pulsing between you wasnât something either of you could hold without bleeding.
And yet. Here you are. Picking at it like a scab that never healed right.
Your throat works around the memory before your voice does. You donât say anything at firstâjust sit there, hand wrapped too tightly around your phone, eyes fixed on some vague point on the wall like if you donât move, it wonât reach you. Like you canât still feel him, breath hot against your neck, hands fisting in your sheets, mouth tracing every soft part of you like he was trying to memorize the map of a place he had no business returning to.
He clears his throat on the other end, and it sounds like guilt. Or maybe longing. Youâve always had trouble telling the difference when it came to him.
âLook,â Hyunjin says, quieter now. âI wouldnât be asking if I had another option. Kkami doesnât do well with new spaces, and I canât board him. Heâs too anxious, and if heâs not with someone he knows, heâll make himself sick.â
You finally speak, though your voice is thin. âSo you want me to stay at yours.â
A beat. ThenââYeah.â
Just like that. No sugarcoating. No backpedaling. Just Hyunjin, honest and bare in the way he always was once he stopped pretending not to feel everything at once.
You run a hand down your face. âHyun, we havenât talked in almost a year.â
âI know.â
âYou havenât even seen me sinceââ
âI know.â
Heâs not angry, not defensive. Just⊠raw. Like the words are scraping him on the way out. You can hear the scrape.
âI didnât think Iâd ever call you again,â he admits. âI thought that was the deal. But when they offered me this residency, and I realized I had to leave tonightâyouâre the only person I could trust. With him. With my home.â
You bite the inside of your cheek, hard enough to taste the coppery edge of restraint.
His home.
Itâs stupid, really. How easy it is to fall back into this rhythm. How even now, after all the months, all the distance, he can still lace your name with history. Youâd been friends once. Kind of. Youâd laughed a lot, touched a lot, fucked even moreâon couches, against doors, in the low hush of early morning when everything was tender and wrong. It was always supposed to be temporary. Temporary, but all-consuming.
But the feelings crept in like rot through the walls. And neither of you were brave enough to call it love, so you called it off instead.Â
âI donât know if thatâs a good idea,â you say, but even you donât sound convinced.
âIâll wash the sheets,â he jokes weakly.
You laugh, soft and involuntary, the sound catching somewhere in your throat. Itâs not really about the sheets.
It never was.
And the silence that followsâgod, it aches. Not sharp like the aftermath of a fight, but dull and lingering, like a bruise you donât remember getting. Like a conversation left open on a table, gathering dust.
You clear your throat. âWhat timeâs your flight?â
âLate,â he says. âBut I still have to pack a few pieces and drop off the canvases. Itâll be tight.â
âDo you need help?â The words are out before you can catch them. You curse yourself immediately for the softness in your voice.
He hesitates. âNo. Itâs fine. Justâjust the dog. Thatâs all I need help with.â
Right. The dog.
You glance at your calendar. Clear. Of course itâs clear.
Of course the universe decided to leave space for this.
âAlright,â you murmur. âJust send me the code. Iâll stay at yours. Itâs fine.â
âYou donât have to bring anything,â he rushes to say, and itâs like heâs trying to compensate for the ask with over-kindness. âI washed the old blanket. The one you used to crash under on the couch. Itâs still there.â
Your fingers tighten around your phone.
He doesnât mention that the last time you slept under that blanket, you were still tangled in him. Half-dressed. Half-drunk on him. That he pulled it over your hips after, when you were too spent to move, and he kissed your shoulder like he wanted to stay but didnât know how.
You donât bring it up either.
Instead, you breathe out slow. âCool. Iâll head over in an hour or two.â
âOkay.â
Neither of you say I missed you.
Neither of you say This is weird.
Neither of you say Is this going to break us again?
Instead, Hyunjin adds quietly, âIâll leave a note.â
âFor the dog?â
âFor you.â
You close your eyes.
âOkay.â
He doesnât say goodbye. Just⊠hangs up.
And you let the dial tone ring for a few seconds longer than you should, like maybe heâll change his mind. Like maybe you will.
But the silence stays.
And when you finally move, dragging out your overnight bag and stuffing it half-heartedly with essentials, you canât stop thinking about the smell of his apartment. The way the floor creaks by the hallway. The coffee mugs he used to leave near the sink, rimmed with paint. The pictures he never hung. The sketchbook that held a drawing of you in fading graphiteâone he never knew you found.
You wonder if itâs still there.
You wonder what else of you is.
The building hasnât changed.
You hate that you notice. Hate that your fingers still know the keycode before you even read the text. Hate that the elevator creaks on the same floor. That the hallway smells like turmeric and old wood and the trace of himâHyunjin, in incense and paint and something vaguely sweet.
His apartment door is unlocked, just like he promised. A sticky note is taped to the front, scrawled in the quick, crooked handwriting you used to recognize across lecture halls and grocery lists alike.
âCome in. Heâs dramatic, not dangerous. Donât let him guilt trip you.â âH.
You roll your eyes and open the door.
It looks the same. Lived-in, messy in a way thatâs curated. An art book cracked open on the coffee table. Two mugs in the sink. One of his hoodies flung across the back of the couch like he wore it last night. And maybe he did.
You hear the growl before you see him.
Kkami stands in the middle of the living room, ears pinned back, hackles raised, tail stiff like an accusation. He looks you dead in the eye and lets out a snarl so pointed you actually step back.
âOh, fuck off,â you mutter, tugging your bag higher on your shoulder. âWeâve been over this.â
He growls again. Louder.
You raise your hands. âI come in peace.â
He barks.
You take a careful step inside, nudging the door shut behind you. Kkami follows your every move like youâre an intruder in a palace he was knighted to protect.Â
âIâm not stealing your shit,â you tell the dog. âIâm just crashing here. Ask your absentee father.â
Kkami doesnât find it funny.
You inch toward the kitchen, where Hyunjinâs written schedule sits neatly beside two bowlsâone for food, one for water. Both full. Fresh.
You glance at the clock. Heâs probably already at the airport. Maybe already boarding. Maybe looking down at the city through a plane window, tapping his fingers against the glass like he always did when he was anxious. You wonder if he thought about calling you again. You wonder if heâs relieved you didnât call him first.
Kkami lets out a soft, pitiful whine behind you. When you turn, heâs sitting but tense, eyes never leaving you. Suspicious. Wounded. Territorial, like Hyunjin said.
âJesus, youâre worse than him,â you sigh.
A folded slip of paper catches your eye. Itâs tucked under the magnet shaped like a paintbrush on the fridge. Your name is written across the front.
Your throat tightens.
You donât open it. Not yet.
You drop your bag by the couch and finally take a seat, letting the quiet settle around you. The apartment hums with memory. You used to sit here wrapped in his hoodie, eating leftover tteokbokki at midnight, legs draped across his lap while he rubbed lazy circles into your shin. You used to kiss in this corner. Fuck in this corner. Sleep in the bed down the hall like it meant nothing, even when it meant too much.
Kkami barks onceâsharp and offendedâthen hops up onto the other end of the couch and curls into a tight, annoyed little donut.
âTruce?â you offer.
He sneezes. Well then.
You sigh and reach for your phone. Maybe you can FaceTime Hyunjin later. Let the dog see him. Hear him. Maybe thatâll help.
Or maybe itâll make everything worse.
You glance over at the folded blanket. The place where you used to lay your head.
And wonder how long itâll take for this place to feel empty without him in it.
You donât sleep well that first night.
Kkami stays curled at the farthest edge of the bed like heâs punishing you, his little back turned, ears twitching at every shift you make beneath the sheets. He doesnât bark, but he lets out these occasional, theatrical sighsâdeep, betrayed, bone-deep thingsâlike youâve committed the ultimate offense by existing where Hyunjin should be.
You get it.
You feel it too.
In the morning, you wake before the sun finishes rising. The air in the apartment is cold, the kind of cold that seeps into your joints, your thoughts, the hollow behind your ribs. You drag Hyunjinâs blanket from the couch and wrap yourself in it, settle on the floor near the window with a mug of instant coffee that tastes like cardboard and nostalgia.
Kkami watches you from the kitchen doorway, still suspicious.
âDo you have a schedule, or are we just winging it?â you ask him.
He sneezes and turns his head. No comment.
The hours pass slow. You walk himâtwice. He barks at a bus, growls at a stroller, and refuses to let you tie his leash to the bench while you grab a coffee from the corner place Hyunjin used to love. You wind up going without.
At noon, you wander the apartment, not touching anything but looking at everything. A half-finished canvas still rests on the easel in the corner. Itâs abstractâsomething celestial, maybe. Blue and smoke and gold bleeding together like bruises in motion. You donât know if itâs new. You donât ask.
You think about texting him. Just something simple. He misses you already. Or He hasnât peed on anything today. But the words feel too light. Too personal. You settle for:
12:31 PM â [You]: he ate most of his food. drank a lot of water too. no accidents.
The read receipt comes instantly. His reply is a few minutes later:
12:36 PM â [Hyunjin]: thank you <3
The heart curls in your chest. You close the app.
You make pasta for dinner and Kkami doesnât touch his kibble until you sit beside him on the floor and pretend to eat a piece. Then he snarfs it all down like heâs proving a point.
That night, he wonât sleep again. He whines. He paces. He jumps down from the bed and runs to the door, then back again. Tail twitching. Eyes darting.
When you try to pet him, he flinches like heâs expecting a trick. You sit on the floor again, cross-legged in Hyunjinâs oversized hoodie (you told yourself you brought it by accident), and say softly, âHeâs not here. Itâs just me.â
He whines again. Low and pitiful.
âMe too,â you whisper.
You glance toward the kitchen. Toward the fridge. That little slip of paper still waits, untouched beneath the magnet shaped like a paintbrush. Your name in his handwriting. Like a bruise. Like a dare.
You havenât opened it. Not yet.
You slept on the couch.
Not because the bed wasnât madeâHyunjin had even tucked in the corners, left a glass of water on the nightstand like he thought about what youâd needâbut because you couldnât bring yourself to crawl into the same sheets you used to wake up tangled in. Not when the scent of him still lived in the pillowcases. Not when the memory of his hands on your bare back still lingered in the seams of the duvet.
So you curled up under the old blanket instead, the one you used to steal during lazy afternoons and Netflix half-watched kisses and accepted the fact that your neck was going to ache in the morning. Kkami refused to join you. He spent most of the night pacing between the door and the hallway, growling at shadows.
The second night is worse.
Kkami is inconsolable. He wonât eat. Wonât lie down. Wonât stop pacing between the front door and the window like heâs waiting for Hyunjin to materialize from thin air. At one point, he noses Hyunjinâs shoesâleft by the entrywayâand lets out a sound so hollow and pitiful it actually makes your eyes sting.
You try everything. Treats. Music. White noise. The blanket that still smells like Hyunjinâs shampoo. But nothing works. Itâs like something inside him is unraveling, the cord pulled too tight and fraying with every hour he doesnât see the one person heâs built his little world around.
Same, you think bitterly, and feel stupid for it.
You end up sitting on the kitchen floor around midnight, your legs numb, your patience thinner than itâs been in weeks. Kkamiâs resting his chin on his paws but still letting out this tiny, high-pitched whine every few seconds, like heâs trying not to cry but canât help it.
And that soundâgod, that sound shatters something in you.
You sigh, rub your face with both hands, and reach for your phone.
12:04 AM â [You]: he wonât sleep. heâs been crying for an hour. wonât eat either.
You donât expect him to reply. Not at this hour, not while heâs halfway across the country doing Important Artist Things.
But your screen lights up with an incoming FaceTime call within seconds.
Your heart drops into your stomach.
You hesitate. Just for a second.
Then answer.
And for the first time in nearly a year, you see him.
Hyunjinâs face fills the screenâsoft-lit and sleepy, hoodie bunched around his neck like heâd just been getting ready for bed. But itâs not just the setting that throws you. Itâs him.
The long hair you used to run your fingers throughâgone. All of it.
In its place: a buzzcut. Clean, close, severe in a way that shouldnât suit him but somehow does. It makes his features sharper, more present. Like thereâs nothing to hide behind anymore.
You blink. You donât mean to stare, but the shock is immediate, visceral.
âHi,â he says, quiet.
You swallow. âHi.â
He sits up straighter. âIs he okay?â
You shift the camera toward Kkami, who immediately perks up. His ears shoot up like radar, and he lets out a small, startled bark before beelining to your lapâbumping his snout into the phone like heâs trying to crawl through it.
Hyunjin laughs. Itâs breathless. Disbelieving.
âGod, heâs dramatic.â
âHe gets it from you,â you mutter.
Kkami presses against your chest like heâs trying to bury himself in your heart, finally calm now, finally still. You stroke a hand down his back and try not to think about the fact that it took Hyunjinâs voice to soothe him.
You glance at the screen again. Hyunjinâs watching you, not Kkami.
Thereâs a beat where neither of you speak. The only sound is Kkamiâs soft breathing and the low hum of the city outside the window.
Then, gently:
âI left you something,â he says.
You swallow. âI know.â
âI wasnât sure if youâd find it.â
âI did.â
âYou gonna open it?â
You glance toward the fridge. The note still waits, tucked under the paintbrush magnet like a secret too fragile to touch.
âNot yet,â you say.
And he doesnât push. Just nods. âOkay.â
Kkami shifts closer to your thigh and exhales, finally resting his chin on your knee. You pet him with one hand, still holding the phone in the other.
âHeâs sleeping now,â you whisper.
âSo are you.â
You blink. âWhat?â
âYour eyes,â he says. âThey do that thing. The little flutter when youâre about to crash.â
Youâre too tired to argue. Too tired to ask why he remembers that.
âIâll hang up,â he offers.
You donât say no.
You just murmur, âGoodnight, Hyun.â
And you hear the softness in his voice as he says it back:
âGoodnight.â
You donât sleep much better that night.
But Kkami doesnât cry again.
The next few days fall into a strange kind of rhythmâquiet, off-kilter, but somehow soothing in the way old routines can be, even when theyâre made of things that werenât meant to last.
Kkami still hates you by daylight.
He growls when you walk into the room. Barks when you open the fridge. Refuses to eat unless you pretend not to look. He doesnât let you pet him unless heâs half-asleep or tricked by a treat, and he definitely doesnât let you forget that this is his house, his couch, his missing person.
But at night, when Hyunjin calls, itâs like a switch flips.
Kkami leaps into your lap the moment the ringtone echoes through the apartment. He curls there, fast and warm and trembling just slightly, like heâs spent all day building tension he doesnât know how to unspool without Hyunjinâs voice in the room.
You always answer on the couch, blanket pulled tight around your shoulders, phone propped up against a half-full glass of water. Hyunjin always looks a little tired, a little flushed from wherever heâs just come back fromâa gallery tour, a studio session, a walk through some city that doesnât have your footprints on its sidewalks.
He tells you about the art residency. The gallery director who makes coffee that tastes like battery acid. The studio spaceâwide and cold and full of light. He tells you about a piece heâs working on: abstract, rough, loud in a way he hasnât painted in years.
âYouâd hate it,â he laughs, voice crackling faintly through the call. âItâs all jagged lines. Chaos. I think itâs about⊠hunger. Or maybe grief. I donât know.â
âI never hated your work,â you say.
Hyunjin quiets. Then, low:
âYou hated what it did to me.â
Your breath catches.
Because heâs right.
You did.
You hated the way he disappeared into itâinto himselfâthose long stretches of silence when he wouldnât eat, wouldnât sleep, wouldnât touch you unless it was desperate and fleeting, like he was chasing the ghost of something he could never quite hold. You hated the way he used his own pain like paint thinner, diluted himself until all that was left was color on canvas and a shell of the boy you used to fall asleep beside.
But you donât say that.
You just sit there, curled on his couch in his hoodie youâve stolen from his drawer, your phone glowing in the soft hush of midnight.
âI hated how much it hurt you,â you say instead. âThatâs not the same thing.â
Hyunjin nods slowly, his lips pressed into a line. âNo. Itâs not.â
Kkami shifts in your lap, stretching a little, his snout nudging your elbow before he sighs and drifts deeper into sleep. You stroke his fur absently, eyes still locked on the screen, on Hyunjinâs faceâthe new angles of it, the way the buzzcut makes him look older, sharper, like a wound that finally scabbed over.
He watches you for a while. Then murmurs, âI was scared to call you.â
You smile, tired and small. âI figured.â
âI thought youâd say no. That you wouldnât even answer.â
âI almost didnât.â
His throat bobs. âWhyâd you say yes?â
You donât answer right away.
Because itâs not just about the dog. Not just about the key he left under the stairs or the food already stocked or the note still waiting on the fridge like a breath youâre not ready to exhale.
You look at him. Really look.
And when you speak, itâs quiet. Honest.
âBecause I missed you. Even when I hated missing you.â
The silence after is different this time.
He blinks. His mouth parts like heâs going to say something, but all that comes out is a whisper.
âFuck.â
You let out a laughâdry, breathless. âYeah.â
He shifts on the screen, pulling the blanket tighter around his shoulders. âYou still sleep on the couch?â
âEvery night.â
âWhy?â
âBecause the bed remembers more than Iâm ready to.â
His eyes flicker. He nods once. Like he understands. Like he hasnât been sleeping either.
Another pause. Thenâ
âI dream about you,â he says.
And itâs not a confession. Itâs a bruise. Something heâs been pressing on in the dark just to see if it still hurts.
You blink. âHyunââ
âNot just the sex,â he adds, voice hoarse. âThough⊠yeah. That too. A lot, actually.â
You glance away, heat creeping up your neck. âYou donât have to say that.â
âI want to,â he says. âI want you to know I stillââ
He cuts himself off. Breathes out hard. Shakes his head.
Kkami stirs in your lap, shifting slightly. The air feels too tight suddenly, the silence too loud.
You focus on Kkami. On the slow rise and fall of his small body, the way his paws twitch in sleep like heâs chasing something warm. It grounds youâbarely.
Hyunjin exhales on the other end of the line. You can hear it, soft and ragged, the kind of breath that holds everything he didnât say. Everything he still might.
You donât speak. Not yet. Because what could you say? I still touch myself to the thought of you? I still wear your hoodie like armor when I canât sleep? I still think about that night on the floor when we couldnât stop, even though we knew it was already over?
None of it would come out right.
So instead, you keep your voice even when you ask, âDo you paint me?â
The question slips out before you can stop it. You don't even know why you asked it. Maybe its because you're so sleepy you can't filter you're thoughts. Maybe because he mentioned it once, over soggy cereal over the golden morning light that filtered through the blinds, over the laughter you've never quite had again.
Hyunjin stills.
On the screen, he doesnât look shocked. He looks⊠worn. Like someone whoâs been carrying the answer around for a while and doesnât know where to put it.
âI try not to,â he says eventually. Quiet. Careful. âBut you always end up there.â
Your breath falters. You nod slowly, like thatâs an answer you expectedâbecause it is. Because you knew. Somehow, you always knew.
You shift the phone slightly, angle it so he can see the window behind you. The dark skyline. The reflection of the room, soft and gold and full of ghosts. Your voice is steadier than you feel when you say, âI havenât opened it.â
âI know,â he replies, just as soft.
âI want to. ButâŠâ
âYou donât have to explain.â
âI think I need more time.â
âTake it,â he murmurs. âI left it because I had to, not because I needed anything back.â
You nod. Not that he can see itânot really. But somehow, you think he feels it anyway.
âOkay,â you say. It's the only thing you can manage that doesnât crack under its own weight.
A pause stretches between you. Soft. Not cold. Just full. Like the breath before a confession. Like the second before a kiss.
Kkami snores lightly, curled deeper into your lap now, his whole body lax with trust. You glance down at him, stroke a thumb between his ears, then look back at the screen.
Hyunjinâs still watching you. Not the dog. Not the view.
Just you.
âYouâre wearing my hoodie,â he murmurs, a little smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.
You shrug, suddenly shy. âDidnât pack enough layers.â
âI knew youâd steal something,â he says, teasing, but lowâlike he's remembering the way you used to steal everything from him. His clothes. His time. His breath.
âYou left the drawer cracked open on purpose.â
âMaybe.â
His smile softens into something quieter. More real.
âI used to love seeing you in my stuff,â he adds. âUsed to come home and hope youâd be there. Curled up in it. Pretending to wait for me.â
You swallow. Itâs harder than it should be. âI wasnât pretending.â
Hyunjin blinks slowly. Like that hit him somewhere unexpected. Somewhere tender.
And then, quietly, almost afraid to hope: âAre you still?â
You could lie. You could deflect. But instead, you meet his eyes through the screen.
âI havenât been with anyone else.â
His jaw works. âNeither have I.â
The words land between you like a markerâdrawing a line not to separate, but to measure distance. And maybe the distance isnât as wide as you thought.
Your fingers curl a little tighter in Kkamiâs fur.
âI should go to bed,â you say. Your voice is quiet. A little raw.
âOkay,â Hyunjin whispers. âMe too.â
But neither of you move. The seconds tick by. You donât even blink.
Eventually, he says, âTomorrow night. Can I call again?â
You let out a soft breath, not quite a laugh. âHyun⊠youâve been calling every night.â
His smile doesnât fade, but it shiftsâtilts into something deeper. Less playful. More certain.
âI know,â he says. âBut that was for Kkami.â
You blink. âAnd tomorrow?â
His gaze doesnât waver. Not once.
âThatâs for you.â
It knocks the wind out of you a little, the way he says it. Not romantic. Not dramatic. Just simple. True. Like heâs only just letting himself say it out loud, but heâs known it all along.
Your throat tightens. âOh.â
Hyunjin watches you carefully. âIs that okay?â
You nod once. âYeah. Itâs⊠more than okay.â
Something in his posture loosens then, like heâs been holding a breath he can finally let go of. His shoulders drop. His mouth twitches again, a smile fighting its way to the surface but not quite formingâlike heâs still afraid to want too much, to hope too fast.
You donât know what tomorrow will bring. Not really.
But you know youâll answer.
And maybe this time youâll stop pretending itâs for the dog.
âYouâre on the bed.â
Hyunjin says it the moment the screen connects. No hello. No lead-up. Just those four words, soft and low and unmistakably aware.
You blink at him from where youâre sitting, back pressed to the headboard, knees pulled up beneath the comforter. His comforter.
You almost lie. Almost say you were just passing through. That the light was better in here. That Kkami stole the couch.
But Hyunjinâs already smilingâslow and knowing, like heâs been waiting for this.
You exhale through your nose. âKkamiâs on the couch.â
âMm,â he hums, a little amused. âSo itâs just you in my bed.â
Your fingers tighten around the phone, feeling a little flustered. âIs that going to be a problem?â
His eyes darken a shade, but the smile stays. âNot even a little.â
You roll onto your side, careful not to let the phone slip. The sheets are warm beneath you, still smelling faintly like cedar and fabric softener and something only he ever carried. His presence is everywhere in this room. On the walls. In the folded clothes. Under your skin.
Hyunjin shifts on his end of the callâheâs propped up on pillows, a fitted black tank clinging to his chest, the cut of it leaving little to the imagination. His toned arms are on full display, lean muscle catching the dim light, subtle and sculpted like something sketched in charcoal. His expression is unreadable, caught somewhere between reverence and restraint.
âI thought about you today,â he says after a beat.
You tuck your face into the pillow, just a little. âLike you usually do?â
âYeah,â he breathes. âBut this time I didnât fight it.â
Your heart thuds against your ribs, slow and heavy. âWhat were you thinking?â
His gaze dips, like heâs shy all of a sudden. âThat I miss you. That I used to wake up to you in that bed.â
You swallow, voice thinner now. âItâs a little colder without you.â
âYeah?â
âYeah.â
The silence that follows is different from all the others before it. Itâs thick. Electric. It hums with all the things neither of you have said but havenât stopped feeling. The kind of silence that shifts when the air gets warmer, when the breath starts catching, when the ache finally starts to slip through.
Hyunjin wets his lips. His voice is barely a whisper. âYou look good there.â
You bite the inside of your cheek. âI feel... restless.â
He shifts again, almost imperceptibly. âTell me.â
Your gaze flickers. âTell you what?â
âWhat youâre thinking. Right now.â
You hesitate.
But then, softly, deliberately: âI was thinking about your hands.â
Hyunjinâs mouth parts slightly.
âI was thinking about how you used to touch me here,â you say, dragging your fingers over the blanket, slow, just below your collarbone. âAnd here.â Down, lower now, to the place between your ribs.
His breath stutters through the speaker.
âAnd I was wonderingâŠâ you murmur, voice barely above a hum, âif you miss the way I used to say your name when you touched me like that.â
Hyunjin closes his eyes for a second. When he opens them again, theyâre dark, focused, hungry.
âI think about it all the time,â he says. âEvery fucking night.â
Your thighs press together under the blanket. You feel your pulse everywhereâbehind your knees, in your fingertips, between your legs. Itâs not even about the sex. Not yet. Itâs about the weight of being wanted by someone who remembers youâwho still remembers.
âI havenât touched anyone else,â you say.
He swallows hard. âDonât.â
âI donât want to.â
Hyunjin nods slowly. âMe either.â
Then, quiet: âCan I stay on the call?â
You blink. âWhat do you mean?â
âI mean,â he says, voice rough now, âif I asked you to touch yourself⊠would you let me watch?â
Your breath catches. Not from nerves. From need.
You donât say yes. You just let the phone settle against the pillow beside you, angled toward your face, the way he used to tilt your chin when he wanted a better look at how undone you were.
The sheets shift as your hand moves lower.
Hyunjin watches. And when he speaks, itâs barely a whisper, like heâs already somewhere far beneath the surface with you.
âFuck. You always looked so pretty like this.â
You inhale shakily, fingers slipping beneath the waistband of your sleep shorts, slow and careful, testing the heat already gathered there.
Hyunjinâs eyes drag down your body. His tongue flicks out to wet his lips. His voice is rough with memory.
âRemember that time on the floor? After your exam? You were so out of itâbarely undressed. I just shoved your panties to the side and made you come in, what, two minutes?â
You let out a quiet, choked sound at the back of your throat.
He smilesâcrooked, dark. âYeah. You clenched so hard around my fingers I thought Iâd lose them.â
You whimper softly. Your hand moves slow, wet, dragging through the mess of your own need, slick pooling beneath your fingertips like your body remembers him even better than your mind does.
âGod, that sound,â Hyunjin breathes. âThat little gasp when youâre just starting to touch yourself. Same one you made when I used to run my fingers down your stomachâreal slow, just to watch you twitch.â
You press harder against your clit, circles tightening, mouth falling open as your back arches into the memory. Heâs not even touching you, and stillâyour body bends like itâs learned him by muscle memory.
Hyunjin notices. Of course he does.
âLook at you,â he murmurs, voice gone low and ragged, the kind that scrapes the inside of your throat just hearing it. âAll spread out in my bed. Fucking yourself open with your hand like you want me to see everything. Like you know I used to make you feel better than anyone else ever could.â
You moan, breath catching, and Hyunjinâs smile sharpens.
âTouch your tits,â he says, not as a commandâbut a conjuring. Like he already knows youâre aching for it. âLift your shirt for me.â
You obey without a sound, pushing the hem up slowly, just enough to expose the curve of one breast, the soft point of your nipple hard and aching from the friction of your shirt.
He groans. âYou remember how obsessed I was with your tits? Couldnât stop sucking on them. Couldnât stop biting.â His jaw clenches. âYou used to beg me to be gentle. And then beg me not to stop.â
Your fingers slide down againâslippery, desperate. Your thighs shake under the weight of it. The rhythm is messier now, your hips chasing pressure. Hyunjin watches all of it, his hand dragging down his torso, disappearing beneath his waistband.
âTouching yourself in my bed,â he growls. âWearing my shirt. Letting me watch while you make yourself come for me.â
Heâs panting now, hand working slow, deliberate strokes beneath the screen. His tank top clings to his chest, sweat beading along his collarbones. His buzzed hair is messy, sticking slightly to his forehead, and his mouthâhis fucking mouthâis red and parted, like heâs still tasting you.
âYou remember the way I used to fuck you from behind?â he says. âPushed your face into the mattress, held your hips like youâd run from me if I let go?â
You whimperâyour fingers falter, then speed up.
âCould barely breathe, baby. Youâd just sob into the sheets. You loved it. Took every inch, crying like you couldnât handle itâand still begged for more.â
Your body goes taut, heels digging into the mattress, orgasm hovering just out of reach.
Hyunjin's voice drops to a growl, breath quick and filthy. âBet your pussyâs fucking tight right now. Clenching like it forgot what itâs supposed to takeâlike itâs trying to remember the shape of my cock.â
He groans, low and wrecked. âDonât worry, baby. Iâll teach it again. Iâll stretch you open so slow you feel it for days. Wonât stop âtil youâre dripping all over my sheets, crying into the pillow, begging for more.â
You whimper his nameâhelpless. Shattered.
âYou want me to say it?â Hyunjin pants, fist working now, muscles flexing. âWant me to tell you how Iâd do it?â
You nod, frantic. Desperate.
His voice turns molten. Thick with lust, arrogance, something cruel and beautiful.
âIâd start slow. Tease you with just the tip. Let you feel the stretch, let you beg for the rest of it. Then Iâd give you all of it at onceâdeep, hard. Just to see you fucking cry.â
You do cry out. The tension in your body snaps tighter, hips lifting off the bed, toes curling. So close.
âIâd fuck you into the mattress,â he growls. âGrip your hips and slam into you so hard youâd lose your voice. You remember how Iâd do that? Say, âYouâre not done yet, baby. You can take it.â And you always fucking would.â
Youâre whimpering now, moaning into your own shoulder to muffle the sound, fingers moving in slippery, filthy rhythm. The orgasmâs closeâso closeâspooling at the base of your spine, hot and tight and relentless.
âOh, fuck, there it is,â he gasps, fucking into his fist now, stroking faster. âYouâre close. I can see itâhear it. Just like that, baby. Let go for me. Come for the boy who still dreams about the way you taste. Come for the fucking lunatic whoâd trade his last painting just to feel your pussy clench around his fingers one more time.â
That breaks you.
You moan his nameâsoft, ruined, high-pitchedâand you come with your hand buried between your thighs, eyes fluttering, back arching. The pleasure pulses through you in waves, soaked and frantic and unstoppable.
âGod, youâre still so fucking perfect,â he grits out. âI couldâve painted this. Youâlike that. Thatâs my favorite version of you.â
You whimper, still trembling.
He grins. Dark. Gleaming. âWanna see what you do to me?â
You nod, dizzy.
He shifts the phoneâjust enough for you to see the slick length of him in his hand. Red at the tip, dripping, veins thick under taut skin. His pace is ruthless now.
âI used to fuck your thighs just to tease you,â he pants. âNot even your pussy. Just that pretty space between them. Used to slide my cock right there and come all over your stomach.â
You let out a breathy sound of disbelief, hips twitching in aftershock. Your cunt flutters around nothing, empty and aching.
âFucking ruined me,â he snarls. âYou ruined me. No one else has even come close. No one sounds like you. No one feels like you.â
And then, through gritted teeth:
âIâm gonna come thinking about your mouth. That filthy little tongue. That sweet fucking smile you gave me while I fucked your throat.â
Your legs tremble again.
âFuck, babyâfuckfuckfuckââ
He comes with your name on his tongue, head thrown back, muscles tensed, body shuddering through it as his hips stutter beneath the blanket. His jaw slackens, hand squeezing out the last twitch of pleasure.
The silence after is sharp. Breathless.
Your own body still buzzes, skin flushed, sheets damp with sweat and want and memory.
Neither of you speak at first. Just breathing. Just staring.
Eventually, Hyunjin looks up again. His voice is hoarse, trembling at the edges.
âTell me this isnât just sex.â
You donât.
You just stare back.
And then you hang up.
You hang up, and your hand is still trembling. Your whole body is still trembling, wrecked in ways that have nothing to do with the orgasm.
It takes less than a minute for him to call back.
Then again.
And again.
You watch the screen light up with his nameâHyunâand each time, it makes your stomach twist so violently it feels like punishment. Like grief.
You donât answer.
The fifth time, he stops calling. Thirty seconds later, your phone dings with a text.
[Hyunjin]: iâm sorry. please just tell me if that was too much. [Hyunjin]: i didnât mean to push you. i didnât mean to fuck everything up.
[Hyunjin]: we donât have to talk about it. we can pretend it didnât happen if you want. iâll follow your lead. just⊠please say something.
You donât respond to those either.
You just turn off read receipts and shove the phone under the pillow.
The next few days go by in a strange, slow blur.
You and Kkami settle into a rhythm. He doesnât bark anymore when you walk past. Doesnât flinch when you reach for his leash. He even curls up at your feet when youâre on the couch, sometimes nuzzling his nose into your ankle like heâs already decided you belong here.
It should feel comforting.
It doesnât.
You stop sitting in Hyunjinâs bed. You stop wearing the hoodie. You wash it, fold it, and put it back exactly where you found it, like none of this ever happened.
You send him brief texts. Clipped. Neutral.
[You]: he ate all his dinner. no accidents. slept fine.
[You]: took him for a walk. he peed on someoneâs shoe.
[You]: whenâs your flight again?Â
You donât tell him how it feels like the walls have closed in.
How youâve stopped sleeping in his bed againâeven if the couch hurts your back. Even if the couch doesnât smell quite like him.Â
How Kkami curls up beside you now without growling, without guilt. You take him for long walks. Let him tug you through the park. Let him bark at pigeons and lick your knuckles and rest his chin on your thigh when you scroll through old texts you donât send anymore.
You donât cry. But your chest aches in a way that feels dangerously close.
You were never going to be able to leave without feeling like this.
But now itâs worse. Because you let yourself want again.
And itâs giving you vertigo.
[Hyunjin]: should be back around 5:30. just leave the key in the box. thank you again. for everything.
You stare at the message for a long time.
Not because of what it says.
But because of what it doesnât.
And what you donât know is this:
Hyunjinâs lying.
His flight lands at 3:10.
Heâs already halfway through the city when youâre zipping up your bag.
Heâs already in the elevator by the time youâre taking out the trash.
And heâs standing at the front doorâkey in hand, chest tight, hands shakingâwhen you reach for the handle to leave.
You open the door and nearly collide with him.
You freeze.
The air catches.
Time does something strange.
Hyunjinâs just⊠there.
Sweatshirt slung over his shoulder, suitcase by his side, curls of damp air clinging to the collar of his shirt from the humid sprint through the city. And his eyesâsharp, dark, wide with something between relief and devastationâlock onto yours like heâs forgotten how to blink.
For a second, neither of you speaks.
Thenâ
âHyunâ?â
Kkami barrels into view like a missile. He lets out a shrill bark of excitement and practically throws himself into Hyunjinâs legs, circling and jumping and whining like heâs just won the fucking lottery.
But Hyunjin doesnât look down. Doesnât move. Doesnât even blink.
He just stares at you.
And says, low, quiet, steady:
âYou were really gonna leave.â
You clutch your bag a little tighter. âYou said youâd be back at five.â
âI lied.â
You swallow. âI figured that part out.â
His jaw clenches. His hands twitch by his sides, like he doesnât know whether to reach for you or shove them into his pockets or bury them in your skin just to make sure youâre real.
Kkami lets out another bark, trying to wedge his head between you two like heâs the center of gravityâbut Hyunjin doesnât even glance down. Not once.
All of him is focused on you.
âYou werenât going to say goodbye.â
Itâs not a question. Itâs an accusation. A plea. A wound.
âI didnât think you wanted me to.â
âBullshit.â
That makes you flinch. Just a little. He sees it. His expression softens, but only barely.
Hyunjin steps forward. Not fastâbut purposeful. Like if he stops now, youâll disappear all over again.
âIâm sorry,â he says, voice taut with something sharp. âIâm sorry I came on too strong. Iâm sorry I didnât give you time. Iâm sorry I didnât say what I shouldâve said months ago, years agoâfuck, the morning after. But donât stand here and tell me I didnât want you.â
You inhaleâtight, shallow. Like thereâs no room in your lungs for this.
For him.
âHyunââ
âNo,â he cuts in, but itâs not cruel. Just cracked. âYou donât get to walk out and let me find the ghost of you in my bed again. Not after you let me see you like that. Not after Iââ
His voice breaks.
He swallows it down.
Kkami sits at his feet now, finally quiet, as if even he knows this part isnât his.
âI meant it,â Hyunjin says, softer now. âThat night. Everything I said. Everything I remembered. It wasnât just to get you off.â
Your fingers tighten around the strap of your bag.
âYou said you missed me,â he goes on. âBut then you shut the door in my face. And I was willing to pretend I didnât care. I was willing to take scraps just to be near you. But if youâre still standing in front of meâif you havenât walked away yetâthen just fucking tell me.â
He looks at you like heâs trying to memorize you all over again.
You look at him. Really look. And you knowâheâs not going to let you run.
Not this time.
âGo get the note.â
His voice is soft, but firm. Like a command spoken through a kiss. Like an ache wrapped in velvet.
You blink. âWhat?â
âThe letter,â he repeats. âThe one I left you. On the fridge.â
You freeze.
âI know you havenât opened it.â
You swallow. âI wasnât ready.â
âI donât care,â he says, and thereâs a flicker of something dark in his voiceâsomething possessive, guttural. âI want you to read it. Now.â
You hesitate.
âPlease,â he adds, and thatâs what breaks you.
You nodâbarelyâand turn without a word. Each step toward the kitchen feels thick, underwater.
You open it, andâ
Itâs not a letter.
Not really.
Itâs a patchwork of thoughts, of half-confessions. Scribbled lines, crossed-out phrases, uneven spacing. The ink changes color midwayâblack, then blue, then black again. Some words are written in cursive. Some in a rush. Some like they cost him something to write.
You glance up. He nods again.
âRead it,â he says. âOut loud.â
You hesitate. Then you read.
âYou once laughed in your sleep, and I didnât sleep at all that night. I just watched you and hoped that whoever you were dreaming about looked like me.â
You swallow hard. Keep going.
The ink shifts color. From deep black to something fainter. Navy. A pen running dry, maybe.
Your voice wavers.
âThereâs a sweater you left. It doesnât smell like you anymore. I hold it anyway.â
Hyunjinâs throat works. He doesnât interrupt.
âI never painted your face. Couldnât do it. Couldnât get your eyes right. But I painted your hands. A hundred times. Because they always knew how to hold me better than I knew how to ask.â
Your chest twists. You canât speak the words out loud anymore, but you read. You read and read and read until there is nothing left, until the space between you feels aliveâelectric.Â
He steps forward. Just one step. But itâs enough to close the distance.
âI had people,â he continues. âSo many people I couldâve called. People I trust. People who wouldâve said yes.â
His eyes are burning nowâdark, wet, glittering with something fragile and ferocious.
âBut I didnât want them. I wanted you.â
You donât say anything. Canât. Your hands are trembling.
âI told myself it was about Kkami. About the timing. About convenience.â He huffs out a broken laugh. âBut it wasnât. It was you. It was always you.â
Your breath falters.
âI missed you,â he says. âSo much it made me sick. I thought I could bury it. Paint over it. Work through it. But I couldnât. I never did. Youâve always been underneath it allâunder the hunger, the silence, the mess I made of myself.â
He steps closer. Youâre breathing the same air now.
âI loved you then,â he says. âWhen we were tangled up in bedsheets and half-truths and pretending it didnât mean anything. I loved you when you wore my hoodie and called me yours with your eyes. I loved you the second I saw you, and Iââ
His voice cracks.
âAnd I love you now.â
You don't remember moving. Donât remember closing the gap, dropping your bag, reaching for him with hands that shouldâve known better.
All you know is this: one second, you're blinking back tears, and the next, you're kissing him like you're drowning.
Hyunjin catches you with both handsâone at your jaw, the other curling around your waist, steadying. The kiss is messy, open-mouthed, frantic. His lips part on a gasp when you press your body to his, and then he's devouring you like something starved.
Your back hits the wall. His teeth scrape your bottom lip. Fingers thread into his hairâshort now, prickling at the scalpâand he groans like itâs breaking him.
You drop your bag. You donât even hear it hit the floor.
You donât care.
His hands are everywhere. On your waist, your hips, the curve of your spine. He pulls you in so tight you feel the tremor in his arms, the sheer desperation coiled in his chest like a spring pulled too far.
âFuck,â he whispers, forehead pressed to yours. âIâve wanted thisâIâve wanted youââ
His voice breaks again, and then heâs back on you, lips trailing across your jaw, down the line of your neck. You tilt your head back, eyes fluttering shut, mouth parting on a moan as he bites softly into your throatâjust enough to mark. Just enough to remember.
Your hands scrabble at the hem of his shirt, yanking it up, palms hungry on bare skin. He hisses as your nails drag over his stomach, muscles twitching beneath the heat of your touch.
âTake it off,â you breathe.
He does. In one motion, the tank top is goneâflung to the floor like it offended him. And you stare. You canât help it.
Heâs still art. Still all sharp lines and soft skin and lean, desperate hunger. His chest heaves with every breath, sweat glinting in the hollow of his throat, and you think: I could die like this. I could burn for him and never want to be saved.
Hyunjin kisses you againâharder this time, hungrier. Like he heard it. Like he wants to go up in flames with you.
His hands slide under your thighs, lifting you without warning, and you gasp as your back hits the wall again, legs wrapping instinctively around his waist. The air shifts. Your breath catches. His cock presses against you through his jeansâthick, hot, twitching with every grind of his hips.
âI canât wait,â he pants against your mouth. âI need to be inside you. Right now.â
âThen do it,â you breathe, dragging your nails down his back. âHyuneâpleaseââ
Hyunjin breathes something that sounds like a curse, or maybe a prayer, and then heâs walkingâstumbling, reallyâhalf-guided by the desperate way youâre clinging to him, the press of your mouths, the sharp hitch of your breath when he grabs at your ass to hold you higher. You barely register the shift from wall to bedroom until your back hits the mattress, until the world becomes sheets and skin and the low rasp of his voice murmuring your name like itâs sacred.
The mattress gives beneath your weight, springs groaning under the tangle of limbs and heat and history. Hyunjin follows you down like gravity itself â hands sliding, mouth chasing, body already slotting between your thighs as if it never forgot where it belonged.
His shirt is gone. Yours joins it. He kisses you through every inch of skin he unveils, frantic and starved and reverent, like heâs not sure whether to worship you or ruin you.
You arch beneath him when his tongue traces the curve of your breast, the bite of his teeth following fast after â a soft sting that makes your breath catch, your fingers dig into his shoulders. He groans when your nails drag down his back, when your thighs fall open wider.
And then heâs there â rutting against your center, clothed still but so hard it aches through the friction, the weight of him pressing perfect and punishing between your legs.
You canât think. Canât breathe. Can only move â hips grinding up to meet every desperate push of his, your cunt soaked and aching with the need to be filled.
Hyunjinâs hand slips down, hooking your thigh over his hip. He grinds into you through the last barrier, jeans rough against your soaked underwear, and itâs filthy the way your body answersâalready arching, already clenching around nothing. You chase the friction shamelessly, trying to wring every ounce of pressure you can from the maddening drag of his cock pressed to your core.
He hisses against your throat, breath hot, teeth scraping the fragile skin there. Youâre drenched. Thereâs no mistaking itâthe way your panties cling, the way your slick seeps through them and stains his jeans, how he shudders just from the heat of you pulsing against the fabric.
The zipperâs down before you can even register the motion. He pushes his jeans low enough to free himselfâhard and heavy and flushed dark with want. Your mouth waters at the sight of it. He tears your panties off with a quiet growl, not cruel, just crazed with the need to feel skin on skin, no more layers, no more time.
When he lines up and pushes in, itâs one long, devastating strokeâhis cock thick and perfect and stretching you open like you were made for it.
You gaspâsharp, strangled. Your nails sink into his back.
Hyunjin goes still.
Buried to the hilt inside you, his entire body trembling with restraint, every muscle locked tight like heâs trying to keep himself from coming right then and there.
âFuck,â he breathes, voice wrecked. âYouâoh my godââ
His forehead drops to your shoulder. Heâs shaking. You feel it. In his arms, in his breath, in the way his cock pulses deep inside you without moving. The kind of overwhelmed that turns to worship. The kind of ruin that feels like coming home.
You tighten around him instinctivelyâhungry, pulsingâand he lets out a strangled moan against your skin.
âI swear to god,â he whispers, forehead pressing to yours. âIf I move, Iâm gonna come like a fucking teenager.â
Your nails dig deeper into his back, anchoring him there, as if you could stop time with the press of your fingertips. His cock twitches inside you, thick and throbbing, and it feels like too much and not enough all at once.
Hyunjin groansâlow, raw, like the sound is being dragged out of him by force.
âFuck, baby,â he pants. âYou feel⊠I forgotâfuck, I forgot how perfect you are.â
You whimper, breath caught in your throat. Youâre stretched so full it feels like splittingâblissfully unbearable. Like heâs carved to fit you, or maybe you were carved for him.
He doesnât move. Canât. His whole body is locked in place, every muscle drawn taut with the kind of restraint that hurts.
âIâm gonna embarrass myself,â he rasps. âYouâre so warm, IâI need a second.â
You nod, gasping. âOkay.â
But your body doesnât care. Itâs greedy. Slick clings to your inner thighs, to the base of his cock. You pulse around him againâtight, hot, involuntaryâand he shudders, a curse breaking on his lips.
âYouâre doing that on purpose,â he whispers, biting your shoulder.
âIâm not,â you breathe, but your hips roll anyway, a tiny grind up into his stillness.
Hyunjin moansâloud, broken. âBaby, Iâm serious. You do that again and Iâll fuckingââ
You clench again, on purpose this time.
He snaps.
In one hard thrust, he pulls out halfway and slams back in. You cry outâsharp, wantonâas your body folds around his. The stretch. The impact. The sound of skin on skin.
âOh my god,â you gasp, your head tipping back, throat exposed.
Hyunjin watches the way your mouth parts, how your breasts bounce with every desperate snap of his hips. He groans then drops his mouth to your chest, sucking a bruise over your heart.
âThis mine?â he pants, dragging his cock out slow before plunging back in. âStill mine?â
You canât speak. Can only nod, breath caught in your throat. He fucks you through the motion, slow and deep now, the grind of his cock so obscene you swear you can feel him everywhereâbehind your knees, in your throat, echoing in every part of you that remembers how he used to love you.
âNo, baby,â he murmurs, voice fraying, fingers sliding under your knee to push your thigh back, opening you wider. âSay it. Let me hear you say it.â
âItâsââ Your voice breaks on a moan when he thrusts deep again, dragging against that spot that makes your vision go white at the edges. âItâs yours, Hyunjin. Always.â
He groans into your chest like the words punched the air out of him. Then heâs fucking you harder, deeper, like heâs trying to anchor himself in the way you take him. The bed creaks, the headboard thuds against the wall, but you donâtHe moans into your chest like the words physically hit him, his thrusts growing messier, more frantic. His hand finds yours and pins it above your head, fingers lacing together tight, grounding him even as he loses himself in the slick, pulsing heat of you.
Youâre soaked, ruined, trembling under every thick slide of his cock. He hits so deep it borders on pain, and yet you arch into itâinto himâdragging him closer, clawing at his back like if you could just get closer, it might be enough.
âI missed this pussy,â he growls, the words slurred and broken against your throat. âI fucking dreamed about it. Thought about it every night with my cock in my handânothing felt as good, nothingâfuckââ
You keen, high-pitched, overwhelmed. Your body pulses around him again, tight as a vice, and it makes him stutterâa half-thrust cut short by the shudder that runs through him.
He kisses you thenâdesperate, biting, tongue dragging into your mouth like he wants to consume you from the inside out.
Youâre moan is swallowed by his mouth when he hits that spotâdeep and relentlessâand your whole body jolts. Your back arches, your legs tighten around his waist, dragging him deeper.
âRight there?â he growls. âThat the spot, baby?â
You nod, frantic, mouth open but no words comingâjust breath, just heat, just the sound of him splitting you open again and again.
Hyunjin grins. It's crooked. Crooked and cocky and dizzy with something feral. Like heâs gone. Like youâve pulled him under with you.
âYeah,â he breathes, thrusting deeper, slower now, grinding his hips in a filthy circle that makes your eyes roll back. âI remember. Right there. Got you clenching like youâre about to cry.â
His voice breaks on a moan, guttural and reverent. âFuck, thatâs so prettyâso fucking pretty, babyâyour face when I fuck you like this.â
Heâs unraveling, you can feel itâhis rhythm fraying, pace faltering, every thrust a prayer half-remembered. He buries himself deep and stays there, hips pressed flush, cock pulsing inside you like a heartbeat. His forehead falls to yours again, and heâs breathing so hard it shakes both your bodies.
âYou gonna cry for me?â he whispers, voice all fray and silk. âWanna see it, wanna feel you fall apart. Iâll take care of itâIâll hold you through it, I promise.â
You donât mean to. But itâs been too muchâhis mouth, his voice, the stretch of him splitting you open in perfect, deliberate ruin. Your eyes blur, your breath hitches, and before you can stop itâ
A tear slips down your cheek.
Hyunjin sees it. And something inside him shatters.
âOh my god,â he chokes, fingers trembling where they hold your thigh. âThatâs it, thatâsâfuckââ
He fucks you through it, slow and deep, every stroke angled to keep you on the edge. His free hand cradles your face, thumb brushing the wetness from your cheek. And heâs murmuring now, wrecked and ragged and sweet:
âYouâre so good for me. So perfect. I donât deserve youâI donâtââ
You cry out again, back arching as your orgasm hitsâwave after wave of unbearable heat crashing through you. You seize around him, walls fluttering, hips stuttering beneath his weight.
Hyunjin groans like itâs killing him. Like the feel of you falling apart around his cock is undoing him thread by thread.
âCan Iâfuck, baby, where do you want it?â he gasps, teeth gritted, body coiled so tight you think he might break apart if you say no.
âInside,â you breathe, wrecked and shameless. âWant it insideâplease.â
That last word shreds him.
He thrusts onceâdeep, sharpâthen again, slower this time, drawn-out like heâs trying to memorize the way you feel. His eyes flutter shut. His mouth falls open. And then heâs comingâhard.
A low, desperate sound tears out of him as his cock jerks inside you, spilling warmth in thick, molten pulses. He buries himself as deep as he can go, arms trembling around you, breath stuttering in your ear. His whole body shakes with it, every muscle straining to stay rooted in you as pleasure rips through him like lightning.
He stays like thatâdeep inside you, trembling, breathlessâuntil the shudders fade to something softer. Something quieter.
The kind of silence that feels like safety.
His forehead rests against yours, damp hair brushing your temple, and you can feel the weight of him everywhereâhis chest pressed to yours, his arms wrapped around your waist, the steady thrum of his heart syncing with your own.
Neither of you speaks.
Thereâs nothing left to say.
Just breath. Just warmth. Just the slow, wet drag of him slipping out of you when his body finally yields, when your bodies finally remember theyâre separate things again. You wince a little, overstimulated, but heâs carefulâgentle hands guiding your hips as he settles beside you.
The bed is a mess. Youâre a mess. But in his arms, none of it matters.
He pulls you close, one hand curling behind your neck, the other splayed low across your spine. You fit against him like you were made toâlegs tangled, faces barely apart. His eyes find yours, dark and soft and unreadable. And thenâ
He kisses you.
Slow. Tender. Unhurried. Like heâs not trying to restart anythingâjust thank you, silently, for letting him fall apart in your arms.
Your fingers slip into his hair. His thumb draws circles at the base of your spine.
And in that quiet, breathless spaceâthere is no ache, no past, no noise.
The gallery hums with low conversation and champagne glasses clinking. Golden evening light filters through tall windows, casting Hyunjinâs paintings in soft amber and dust. He stands near one of his larger piecesâstark, aching, all deep reds and pale ivory brushstrokes layered like wounds healed overâspeaking to a small crowd of critics and curators, hands moving with slow confidence as he explains his process.
Itâs been years since heâs spoken like thisâwithout apology. Years since he let the world see him this raw and unguarded. Heâs dressed in black from head to toe, long hair tied back loosely, wedding band glinting when he gestures. He looks settled now, anchored. And you know what it took to get him there.
You werenât supposed to come.
Heâd kissed your forehead this morning, hand warm and reverent on your swollen belly, and told you to rest. âYouâll just get exhausted,â heâd said, brushing your hair back, âand Iâll be distracted the whole time wondering if your ankles are swollen or if the babyâs doing backflips again.â
But now youâre here.
Standing just inside the gallery, framed by the door like something sacred. You wore the dress he lovesâthe one that drapes gently over the curve of your belly, soft and simple, glowing in the dusk light. One hand rests instinctively at your side, the other slipping under the swell of you. Thereâs a quiet smile on your lips, half proud, half bashful, and your eyes are locked on him.
Hyunjin doesnât see you at first. Heâs mid-sentence, talking about brush technique and layered memory, about how grief isn't linear, how art can be a body trying to heal. His voice is steady. His hands are sure.
Then he glances up.
And freezes.
You watch it happen in real timeâthe shift. His mouth stutters around a word, vowels cut short, fingers faltering mid-gesture. And thenâgod. That smile. Unrehearsed, boyish, wide in a way that crinkles his eyes and ruins all pretense. A pure, delighted thing that belongs only to you.
A few people glance over their shoulders, curious. But Hyunjin barely notices.
He catches himself, coughs once, and somehow fumbles through the last few lines of his explanation. His voice is softer now. Almost sheepish. He wraps up quickly, answering a question with a vague nod, thanking the crowd with a half-bow.
And then heâs moving.
Straight through the gallery, long strides purposeful, eyes never leaving yours.
You open your mouthâmaybe to apologize, maybe just to greet himâbut heâs already cupping your face in his hands before you can speak. His fingers are cool from holding a champagne flute, but his palms are warm. Familiar. His touch gentle despite how frantically he reaches for you.
âYouâre unbelievable,â he says, kissing your forehead. âI told you not to come.â A kiss to your nose. âI specifically saidââ another to your cheek, ââthat Iâd worryââ your chin ââthat youâd get tired,â he murmurs against your skin, peppering kisses like punctuation. âThat your feet would swell. That youâdâfuck, baby, I said stay home.â
You smile, tilting your head just enough to meet his gazeâwarm and full of something playful. âI know, butââ
He kisses you.
Soft and certain, his mouth presses to yours before the words can even leave your lips. Itâs instinctive, almost impatient, like he couldnât bear to hear the excuse when youâre standing right here, glowing and breathless and his. His hand curls at the back of your neck, thumb brushing the line of your jaw. You feel him smile into it, lips warm and reverent, like maybe heâs trying to convince himself heâs not dreaming.
You giggle against his mouth.
It bubbles out before you can stop itâlight, easy, surprised by your own happiness.
âHyunjin,â you laugh, gently pushing at his chest. âLet me speak.â
He leans back only a little, just enough to see you again. Thereâs a smudge of your lip gloss at the corner of his mouth, and you wipe it with your thumb, grinning.
âYouâre ridiculous,â you murmur.
Hyunjin pulls back just enough to look at youâreally look. His eyes trace every inch of your face like heâs memorizing you all over again. His thumb sweeps over your cheekbone. âYou take my breath away,â he murmurs, like a confession. âEvery damn time.â
You want to say somethingâsomething light, something teasingâbut the way heâs looking at you leaves no room for irony. Just warmth. Just wonder.
And love. So much of it, it floods the space between you.
His hand slips down, resting over the swell of your stomach, and he sighs when he feels the smallest kick beneath his palm. âLittle traitor,â he whispers to your bump, grinning. âYou two planned this, didnât you?â
You feign innocence. âI have no idea what youâre talking about.â
âMhm.â He leans in and kisses you againâsoft, slow, not quite chaste. Like thereâs no one else in the room, no critics still lingering, no gallery full of people pretending not to watch the artist come undone in the arms of his muse.
Eventually, he pulls backâjust a little. Just enough to rest his forehead against yours.
âStay?â he asks, almost shy. âI want to show you something. After everyone leaves.â
You nod.
You nod, and his smile deepensâboyish, brilliant, the kind that still makes your knees weak even now. He kisses you one last time, quick and giddy, before reluctantly pulling away with a soft groan, dragging his hand down your arm like heâs tethering himself to you.
âIâll be quick,â he promises, squeezing your fingers before turning back toward the crowd. âDonât go into labor while Iâm gone.â
You roll your eyes fondly. âNo promises.â
He shoots you a look over his shoulderâmock-scandalized, lips twitching with laughterâand then heâs swept back into the flow of guests, nodding politely, shaking hands, answering a few last questions as people begin to drift toward the exit.
You watch from the side, sipping sparkling water from a plastic flute someone handed you, perched on the edge of a velvet bench like you belong in one of his paintings. A few guests glance your wayâsome with recognition, some with curiosityâbut none of them matter.
You only watch him.
And he watches you tooâbetween conversations, between thank-yous and signatures, his gaze keeps sliding backâlike a tether, like gravity, like a vow thatâs already been made a hundred times in silence.
You smile around the rim of your glass and press a hand to your belly, where the smallest flicker answers back. A quiet reminder of everything the two of you have built in the quiet spaces between the chaos. In the brushstrokes. In the breathing.
The gallery empties slowly, like a tide pulling away from shore. But you stay, bathed in golden light, watching the man you love exist in a room full of people who will never know him like you do. Who will never see the version of him that wakes up sleep-tousled and soft, who talks to your stomach like it already understands him, who paints love into everything he touches because heâs learned how to survive by making beauty out of ache.
title: let's ruin the friendship
pairing: choi beomgyu x fem!reader
genre: smut (mdni!), porn without plot (a tiny bit of plot), friends to lovers
word count: 6.4k
summary: beomgyu ruins the friendship with four words. "you could kiss me."
author's note: i was working on something else (side eye) but had to take a break to get this out of my system. thanks for all ur love on the last one, I hope you enjoy this one just as much!! also, I cross-posted to ao3, so you can read it there if that's ur jam
tags/warnings: smut (mdni!), plot what plot, best friend choi beomgyu, soft dom choi beomgyu, vaginal sex, oral (f&m receiving), fingering, unprotected sex (oops), submissive reader, dirty talk, smoking, beomgyu talks you through it, gratuitous use of "baby"
âYou could kiss me,â Beomgyu said, leaning against the brick wall outside, cigarette dangling from his lips.Â
The words made your skin cold, goosebumps spreading in all directions.Â
âWhat?â you stuttered as he passed you the cigarette. You stared at his fingers, trying to keep your eyes from finding his. You couldnât look at him. Your lips parted, but words didnât come out. What were you supposed to say to that, anyway?Â
An immediate yes would be suspicious. And, well, you didnât want to reject him.
He chuckled under his breath, that deep laugh you loved. The one that had kept you company for nearly ten years. Â
Maybe it was your fault for complaining about another night at the bar with nothing to show for it. No one had even looked in your direction. But you never would have guessed that this would be the result of said complaining. A proposition from someone who had only ever been explicitly your friend.Â
Something youâd wanted for longer than you could admit. Something you could never voice.Â
âYeah,â he said, like it was nothing. âYou could kiss me. If you wanted to.âÂ
You took the cigarette from him, placing it between your lips in procrastination. You wouldnât have to play into whatever weird hypothetical this was if you couldnât speak.Â
âBeomgyu,â you said, after releasing the smoke from your mouth. You tried to keep the serious tone from your mouth, tried to pose the question like it didnât matter, tried to maintain the same casual air that he did. âDo you want to kiss me?âÂ
He shrugged, like it truly didnât matter either way. Like it was some selfless offer to make you feel better. âTen years of friendship, and weâve never tried it.âÂ
Your heart raced, picking up speed every time he looked at you. You were fine with being friends. Loved it, even. He was special to you. Important. It wasnât a friendship you were in any rush to ruin with your feelings. Despite how often youâd thought about it.Â
But you were tipsy. Face warm from the bar, and a little sad too. Lonely, even.Â
And he looked at you the way he looked at other girlsâat people he wanted to take home. One eyebrow slightly raised in proposition, and a lazy grin on his face like the whole thing could be a joke if you said no.Â
You didnât want to say no.Â
âWe could,â you said, trying your very best to sound halfway uninterested. Trying not to make it seem like it was something youâd thought about for years.Â
It was a quiet crush that flared in the little moments. When he brought you coffee in the morning or carried you to bed when you inevitably fell asleep during movie nights. It was the way he was always there for youâthrough every breakup, every major life change. He never wavered.Â
And sure, maybe it was easy to fall for that.Â
âYeah?â Beomgyu said. There was a hint of something to his voice. An excitement, almost. Maybe it was just shock at your agreement. It didnât matter.Â
âYeah,â you said, as he slipped the cigarette back between his lips. He took one final puff before dropping it to the ground and crushing it under his heel. He kicked off the wall, moving to stand in front of you. You looked up at him, watching.Â
Your heart hammered against your chest.Â
âReady?â Beomgyu askedâarguably not the most romantic way to preface a kiss. But you had to remind yourself that this wasnât for romance. It was one friend offering to give another something they hadnât had in a while. If anything, it was purely platonic.Â
Nothing about Beomgyu was hesitant. He was always sure of himself, confident. He lifted a hand, tucking your hair behind your ear before settling his palm against your cheek.Â
Youâd touched a thousand times. Half snuggled against one another on the couch, playfully shoving and fighting, holding hands to stay together in a crowd.Â
This felt immediately, jarringly different. His hand was warm on your face, and it stirred a heat in your chest youâd thought incapable of starting.Â
Your lips parted before he could move any closer. Another step in, and your bodies were nearly touching. You felt dead to the world, in your own bubble in the alley behind the bar. Even if someone were to walk by, you were certain you wouldnât notice. It was all him. Totally encompassing.Â
He lifted another hand, brushing more hair out of your face, threading his fingers through it.Â
âBeomgyu,â you said, half-choked.Â
He was looking down at your lips, but his eyes flicked upward at your words, catching your glance. âHm?â he asked.Â
You must have looked like a deer in headlights. Eyes wide, mouth open, a little bit confused. You wanted the car to hit you.Â
âYou okay?â he asked when you didnât respond.Â
You cleared your throat. âYes,â you said. âYes.â Saying it twice didnât exactly make it seem true. âI just didnât expectââ you started, stumbling halfway.Â
His hand fell out of your hair, and the pads of his fingers dragged down the column of your neck, making you shiver.Â
âIs this not what you wanted?â he asked. âFrom those sleazy guys in the bar? Is this not what you were imagining in your head?âÂ
His fingers skimmed your pulse point, and you wanted to jump out of your skin, but there was nowhere to go. Your back was lined with cold brick, and his chest almost touched yours.Â
âTell me,â he said. âIf it isnât, Iâll do whatever you want. I just want it to feel real.âÂ
Your heartâfaster, faster, until it felt like it might burst out of your chest completely. Your face leaned against his palm, melting without permission. He traced your collarbone.Â
âNo,â you said. âThis is good.â Your voice was barely above a whisper, stolen by the cold wind, whipped away by whatever was going on between the two of you, new and electric and maybe pretend.Â
âWhat else did you imagine?â he asked, hand still warm on your face, holding it so you couldnât look away. You wouldnât have, anyway. His brown eyes were too captivating, too focused on you. There was nothing else worth looking at.Â
You took too long to answer.Â
âWhen you thought about some guy,â he started. And the way the words fall from his lips catches you off guard. Some guy. Was thatâjealousy? âWhat was it like? How does he kiss you?âÂ
All the words you wanted to say got caught in your throat.Â
âCome on,â Beomgyu said. âYou complain about not being kissed every time we come out, I know youâve thought about it.âÂ
It was the way he said it.Â
I know you.Â
âI guess,â you started, reaching out to take his hand. âI guess itâs about the build-up.â You put his hand on the side of your rib cage, next to your breast. âAll the little touches just before the kiss. The spark. The sidelong glances. It sounds cheesy,â you said, blushing. âTo say it out loud.âÂ
âItâs not,â he said. He dropped his palm from your face, flipping it to skate his knuckles along your jawline, down your neck. It landed mirrored to the other, on your rib cage, holding you in place. Both hands moved slowly in and down, just grazing the sides of your chest before sliding along the curve of your waist. He watched his hands move on your bodyâas you watched him.Â
His eyes flicked up to meet yours, something new gleaming within them.Â
Did he want this, too? Or was he just a better actor than you remembered? A better friend than you deserved?Â
His hands slipped around to the back, holding your lower back as he moved closer to you, closing the remaining distance so only a hairâs breadth stood between your bodies. Your chest heaved with each breath, and there was no way he couldnât tell.Â
âAnd when he kisses you?â Beomgyu asked, eyes glued to your lips. âWhatâs that like?â His voice was low, quiet. A tone youâd never heard from him before, enough to send the heat in your chest lower, enough to make you ache.Â
You didnât want to follow his line of questioning, didnât want to lay it out for himâjust wanted him to kiss you. You didnât want him to follow some playbook, no. You wanted to know how Choi Beomgyu kissed. What he would do with you, given the chance. What he wanted.Â
The question went unanswered, but he lowered his head anyway, the tip of his nose grazing against the bridge of yours. It stopped feeling like an experiment, like something he was doing for you.Â
When your eyes locked, it felt real.Â
The same thought must have occurred to him. You watched the subtle change in the way he looked at you, the fraction of want appearing behind his eyes. His hands moved up your back as he closed the last bit of distance, flattening against your shoulder blades in time with his lips just barely touching yours.Â
It was hesitant. Different from the buildup, from the general confidence and impatience of Beomgyu. You froze solid at first contact, and he took his time.Â
His hands tensed on your back. And your hands, hanging by your side for the last several minutes, shot up to touch him. When your hands landed on his biceps, he captured your lips fully, breaking that nervous dam. The kiss was soft, slow, still tentative as you worked to figure each other out.Â
It didnât take long for the tension to break, for the gentle kisses to turn fervid, for your hands to wander along his arms, looking for a place to grab, for your mouths to move faster and harder. Every time you came apartâfor only a secondâyou collided again without wasting any time. You pressed your body into him, wrapping your hands around the back of his neck. He returned the favor by pushing you into the wall, one hand coming up to hold your face while the other stayed low around your waist, holding you against him.Â
You werenât sure how long you continued like that, kissing and touching, and not wanting to let go. When you came apart gasping, Beomgyu rested his forehead against yours.Â
âHow was that?â he asked.Â
You nodded through ragged breaths. âMore,â you said, because it was the only word that could come out of your mouthânot an answer to his question, but a plea.Â
He didnât hesitate this time. His lips found yours again, like they were home. He broke apart seconds later, nudging your head to the side with his nose to kiss along the column of your neck. You arched your neck for him, giving him the access he neededâletting him do whatever he wanted to you.Â
He dragged his teeth along your neck, eliciting a gasp that only made him smile. His fingers held your hips, digging into the fabric of your jeans. You leaned your head against the bricks.Â
One hand dipped underneath your shirt, and the feeling of his fingertips against your bare skin sent a shiver down your spine.Â
He kissed along your collarbone, stopping at the edge of your shirt and returning to your lips as he gripped your bare waist with both hands. He had you fully pressed against the wall now, every inch of your back against brick and every inch of your front against him. You parted your lips, letting him slide his tongue into your mouth as he slid a leg between yours.Â
There were no conscious thoughts left in your head, only Beomgyu and all the ways he was touching you. Your hips rolled against his thigh, looking for any kind of friction to sedate the aching feeling between your legs. You could feel his smile against your lips.
He broke apart then, leaving you both panting. âCome home with me,â he said, breath hot on your lips.Â
Those four words were enough to crack open whatever this feeling was and drown you in it. âOkay,â you said, nodding, not willing to let yourself question whether or not this was something. Whether or not this was a part of whatever game he was playing or not.Â
He took your hand, interlacing your fingers. He kissed you one more time, pressing his lips to yours gently, before pulling away and tugging you toward the parking lot. Holding hands was normal. He opened the door to his car for you. That was also normal.Â
The way he looked at you from the driverâs seatâlike he could have crossed the center console to kiss you over and over againâhowever, was not.Â
The drive was silent. All exchanged glances. You pressed your thighs together in an attempt to distract from the heat in your core, but there was nothing you could do about the fire burning in your chest, threatening to consume you entirely.Â
You didnât want to think about it, whatever this was. You just wanted to enjoy it, lest it cease to exist. You tried to tell your brain this very reasonable information, but it didnât listen. It could only repeat the same worries over and over again, attempting to convince you that whatever this was between you and Beomgyu, it wasnât anything real. That tomorrow you would go back to wanting, to friendship. Like this never happened.Â
Worst-case scenario? He felt bad for you. He knew you werenât getting any and wanted to throw you a bone. That had been what the kiss was for, right? A consolation prize?Â
Best-case scenario? Well, what was that exactly?
You were still thinking and rethinking and overthinking until the very second he turned the car off.Â
âHey,â he said, voice gentle, soft. The Beomgyu you knew sliding back into place. The best friend. The one who cared about you. âYou look like youâre thinking too much.âÂ
âIâm not,â you said.Â
âCome on,â he laughed. âYou know I can always tell when youâre lying.â
He slipped out of the car then, jogging around to the passenger side to open your door before you could. He extended a hand to you like a real-life princeâlike, seriously, how were you supposed to avoid falling for him when he looked like that, acted like that?
You took his hand. He squeezed it.Â
Inside, he released your hand. You took off your shoes, hung up your jacket, and stood awkwardly by the front door as he did the same.Â
Then, you looked at each other, and everything reiginited.Â
He crossed the distance, closing the space in seconds flat. His lips were on yours again before you could react. You threw your arms over his shoulders, holding him close, cherishing every moment you got to touch him, be with him, wondering when it would end. His lips dropped to your neck again, peppering gentle kisses downward.Â
âWait,â you said, pressing your hand against his chest. He lifted his lips from your neck. âI canâtââ you muttered. âI want this to be real.âÂ
Beomgyuâs eyes bored into yours, his features softening at the realization. âItâs always been real for me,â he said. He made the admission so easily. Without worry. Like heâd been thinking about it for just as long as you had. Like he had no fear. He kissed you, pulling away to whisper against your lips. âItâs real.âÂ
âItâs real?â you said.Â
âCome on,â he said, in disbelief that you believed him nonchalant about the matter. âI wanted to kiss you. Iâve wanted to kiss you for so long.â
It was news to you. âIââ you said. âMe too.âÂ
You kissed him again, lips parting against his almost instantly, deepening the kiss, taking everything you both wanted and turning it up to eleven. His hands skimmed your sides, grabbed your hips, then moved again, unable to settle in any one location, wanting to touch all of you. Likewise, you ran your hands down his chest, along his arms, touching everything you could reach.Â
He made the first move toward something more, dropping one hand to the hem of your shirt and playing with it. You nodded an answer to a question he didnât ask. He pulled away to look at you as he slowly removed your shirt, pulling it off over your head and tossing it onto the floor. He looked at you like you were carved from stone.Â
âGod,â he said, mesmerized.Â
âYour turn,â you said, and he complied quickly, whipping his shirt off over his head. Youâd seen him shirtless before. At the beach, the pool, the gym. It had been difficult not to stare then, and it was impossible now.Â
You trailed your fingers down his chest, his abs.Â
You moved back together like magnets, lips finding each other.Â
His fingers dragged up your back to the clasp of your bra. He made easy work of it, then slipped his fingers under the straps and pulled them down your arms, adding it to the pile of clothing on the floor, all without removing his lips from yours, without ceasing the passionate, hungry kisses, your tongues intertwining, heads tilted to deepen the kiss as much as possible, your hands in his hair to keep him from going anywhere.Â
One hand came up to cup your breast, thumb running over your nipple. You gasped into his mouth, and he pulled away to look at you, to watch the look of pleasure cross your face.Â
You arched your back, tossing your hair over your shoulders. His other hand clung to your lower back, holding you upright.Â
He continued pressing kisses down your neck, across your collarbone, down the center of your chest, before his lips closed on your nipple. Your eyes fluttered closed, your lips parted, soft gasps falling off them as he teased you.Â
He moved on, kissing down your stomach before dropping to his knees in front of you, looking up at you from the ground. You reached for his face, and he took your hand, pressing a kiss into your palm before leaning forward once more to press hot, wet kisses to your stomach. His fingers worked quickly to unbutton your jeans, sliding the zipper down as he looked up at you for confirmation that what he was doing was okay.Â
You nodded, lower lip between your teeth as you watched.Â
He pulled your jeans down, helped you out of them, then ran his palms along your hips, down the fronts of your thighs, and continued kissing your skin. First, the top of your hip, then the front of your thigh.Â
Heat pooled between your legs, aching and burning as he kissed, but you let him continue without begging for more.Â
He looked at you, almost entirely naked before him. Cogs turned behind his eyes, and you didnât have the time to ask why before his hand was on his feet again, hands lifting you up by the ass. Your legs went around him instinctively. Like the two of you had done this hundreds of times.Â
He didnât walk you into the bedroom, but rather the wall directly behind you, finding your lips again as he pressed you between him and the cool wall. His knuckles trailed from your collarbone down to the waistband of your underwear, then stalled.Â
âBeomgyu,â you said against his lips, when he didnât immediately act on whatever it was he wanted to do.Â
He pulled away just enough to look at you. The want was written all over his face, his lids more hooded, his lips pink and swollen, his hair messy and falling over his face. You pushed it out of the way.Â
âHm?â he said, running his finger along the band. He made no move to act any further. âSomething you want, beautiful?âÂ
Your mouth fell open at his words. Ten years of friendship, many years of wanting him, and here he wasâteasing you. He must have known that youâd do anything he wanted.
He ran his thumb over your lower lip. âCome on, baby,â he said. âIâve waited so long. Say it for me.âÂ
Your head lolled back against the wall because it was so easy to melt at anything he had to say. Besides, this was your best friend, and saying anything like that out loud made your cheeks turn red. His other hand snaked around the back of your neck, pulling you back to meet his eyes.Â
âPlease?â he asked, dipping his fingers just beneath the band.Â
You were hot, wet, aching. There were no other thoughts that existed in your mind, only those of him, of wanting him.Â
âBeomgyu,â you whined.Â
âYouâre so pretty when youâre whining, you know that?â he said, running his thumb over your lip again, making you shudder.Â
He moved his hand from the waistband of your underwear, instead dropping it to your inner thigh. His eyes never moved from your face, watching you carefully as he lowered a few fingers to the apex of your thighs, touching you through your panties. He hummed in immediate delight.Â
âFuck,â he said, as you squirmed underneath his touch, trying to get more. âYouâre so wet.âÂ
You groaned at his words, at the tenor of his voice, at the dripping need reflected in him. And still, he didnât give you more, just rubbed your clit through the fabric. âMore,â you said. âPlease, more.âÂ
âMore what?â he asked, one brow raised.Â
âBeomgyu,â you said again, sharper this time. âYouâre beingââÂ
He pushed your underwear to the side and slipped one finger inside of you. Your sharp inhale broke your sentence in half. He leaned forward, his lips just above your ear. âHow am I being, beautiful?â he asked.Â
He moved his finger slowly, relishing the way your lips parted, the way you looked at him through hooded eyes, the way you could hardly speak despite his minimal ministrations.Â
You shut your eyes, pressing them closed tight so you could focus on the words you wanted to say. âDifficult,â you murmured. âYouâre being difficult.âÂ
âMe?â he asked, in shock. âI think Iâm being incredibly nice.â He added another finger, moving them faster, curling them, eliciting more gasps from you. He leaned forward, captured your lips, silencing the string of moans falling off them. He pulled away just a hair. âIâm sorry,â he said. âI just wanted to hear my pretty baby tell me how badly she wants me.âÂ
His thumb grazed your clit, causing everything to seize up.Â
âIâll go first,â he whispered, moving his thumb in slow circles on your clit as he spoke, his fingers still moving at the same pace. âFuck, I want you so badly,â he said, dropping his forehead to yours. âIâve wanted youâgod, for so long.âÂ
âReally?â you whisper, in disbelief.Â
He chuckles under his breath, the sound only making you feel even crazier, making you want him even more. Even as everything tightens in your core, itâs not enough.Â
âThat bathing suit you wore last summerâJesus Christâit was like you were trying to kill me,â he said.Â
You remembered the one. And yeah, maybe you had been trying to catch his attention. And youâd thought it a complete failure.Â
âWere you trying to kill me?â he asked, words breathy as he touches you.Â
âMaybe,â you said.Â
âAnd that dress at the Christmas party,â he said as he dropped his lips to your neck again. âI wanted you so bad that night.â
âYou have me,â you said.Â
He hummed against your neck. âI like the sound of that.â
He added another finger, moving them faster, twisting and curling. Your head lolled backwards. âBeomgyuâoh my god,â you moaned. He kept the pace as you ground your hips against him.Â
âTell me, baby,â he said, lifting his head to find your eyes, to kiss you again in between his words. âTell me you want me, please. I want to hear you say it.âÂ
âIâI want you,â you said, stumbling over the words as he curls his fingers again and again. Your body shudders, tensing everywhere. Your hands grip his shoulders, nails digging into his skin, back arching against the wall as you grind against his hand. Everything unraveled at once in release, and Beomgyu kept going through it, making your body shake as he watched.Â
He removed his fingers slowly, earning another satisfied groan from you. And you watched with wide eyes as he lifted them to his lips and put them in his mouth. He dragged them out with a satisfied, âMm,â before hooking them under your chin.Â
âYou want me?â he asked, eyes roaming across your face, unable to find something to settle on.Â
âIâve always wanted you,â you said through ragged breaths.Â
His hands moved to your back as he pulled you away from the wall. With your legs wrapped around his waist, he carried you to the bedroom.Â
When he laid you down, it was careful, gentle. He stayed standing, looking at you. His hands went to the waistband of his pants, and he worked quickly to get them off. He pushed them down his legs, then kicked them to the side.Â
You stood up before he could move further. You put one hand against his chest and pushed him backwards. He took one step back, and you got to your knees, lifting your hands to the waistband of his briefs.Â
He watched in silence, his lips parted.Â
You pulled his briefs down, freeing his length. He stepped out of his underwear as you wrapped one hand around him, moving slowly from base to tip as you licked your lips.Â
Beomgyu sucked in a breath. âYouâre so sexy,â he said.Â
The corner of your lips turned up in a smile just before you leaned forward and ran your tongue along the length of him, flattening it across the tip.Â
âGod,â Beomgyu hissed as you took him into your mouth.Â
One hand cupped your cheek as you moved, the other came down to collect your hair, holding it away from your face in one hand. You looked up at him as you moved, and you could only think about how good he looked, about how good this all felt, about how if you blinked, it might just all disappear in a haze, like a dream.Â
But you did blink, and still he remained, looking gorgeous, watching you. It wasnât long before he pulled away from you, before he was pulling you up by the chin, before his lips were crashing into yours again, before he was backing you up into the bed, laying you down before him. Before he stepped away to reach for the drawer next to his bed.Â
âNoââ you said, rushed, without thinking. âI mean, we donât have toââÂ
A slow smile crawled across his lips. He hooked his hands under your knees and pulled you to the edge of the bed. âWhyâs that?â he asked, hand dropping to his dick, wrapping around it while he looked at you.Â
You sat up, reaching for him, pulling him closer. He situated himself between your legs. âI want to feel you,â you whispered meekly, almost inaudible. But he still caught it.Â
âIs that right?â he asked.Â
You caught your lower lip between your teeth and nodded. He ran a hand through his hair, letting strands fall back down around his face as he looked down at you, eyes trailing down your body and back. He hooked his thumbs through the band of your panties and pulled them off.Â
He positioned himself at your entrance, his tip dragging along your folds. He breathed in sharp, his lids fluttering closed for a moment. You lay back, propping yourself up on your elbows, hands balled into fists, fingernails cutting into your palms.Â
Beomgyu pushed into you, moving slowly. You gasped an, âOh,â as he inched forward.Â
âIs this what you wanted, baby?â Beomgyu said, the moment he was fully inside you. He pulled out just a fraction, then in again.Â
It was such a little movement, so why did your eyes feel like they were going to roll to the back of your head?Â
âYes,â you whimpered, hands balling into the comforter atop his bed.Â
He didnât speed up. He pulled out more each time, then slid back in at the same agonizingly slow pace, watching you as he did it. He held your thighs in the air, then collected your knees with one arm and pulled them to the side, holding your legs straight against his chest as he continued that same torturous pace.Â
âBeomgyu,â you whined.Â
He pulled out fully and slid back in slowly. You threw your head back, let your eyes flutter closed.Â
Beomgyu reached out and grabbed your hand, squeezing it. âCan you keep your eyes open for me, baby?â he asked. âI want to see you.â
Your eyes flicked back open as he slid into you once more. âNot if youâre going to keep doing that,â you said.Â
He did it again and dared to punctuate it with, âDoing what?â and a lazy smirk to match.Â
âYouâre being mean,â you said, voice breathy, barely able to get the words out.Â
âAm I?â he said as he lowered your legs again, placing one on either side of him. He pulled out fully, smirking. âIâm so sorry,â he said, as he got to his knees, as he hooked your legs over his shoulder, as he pulled you even closer to the edge of the bed.Â
He lowered his mouth to your clit, running his tongue in circles around it before closing his mouth and sucking as you moaned. Your toes curled.Â
âYouâre torturing me,â you managed to get out as he slipped a finger inside of you at the same annoyingly slow pace.Â
He lifted his mouth away from your swollen clit, the heat of your center, the aching fire that he kept stoking over and over again without giving you what you really wanted.Â
âWhat do you want then, baby?â he asked, standing up to lean over you. âI want to fuck you exactly how you like it.âÂ
You grabbed his shoulder with one hand, the back of his neck with the other, pulling him down against you and capturing his lips in a searing, messy kiss.Â
He pulled away from you. âScoot up,â he said, nodding toward the other side of the bed. You scooted backward, allowing him enough space to get on top of you, nestling between your thighs. He paused at your entrance, and you glared at him.Â
âYouâre so cute when youâre flustered, you know that?â he asked.Â
Heat rose to your cheeks. âIâm notââ you started.Â
âThen tell me what you want,â he said.Â
âI wantââ you said. âI wantââÂ
But no matter how many times you said it, there still wasnât an end to the sentence.Â
He leaned down so his lips were closer to your ear. âI could keep fucking you nice and slowâbut I have a feeling you want more than that,â he said. âIf you want me to fuck you until there are tears running down your face, all you have to do is ask.â
You turned away from him in an attempt to hide your face, the redness of your cheeks.Â
âIâve known you for ten years, beautiful, donât pretend youâre shy now.â One hand touched your face, pulled you back, made you look at him. âWhat do you want?âÂ
You groaned, your eyes fluttered closed as your hips moved in frustration, in lack of anything.Â
âCome on,â he whispered. âYou can do it. Use your words.â He ran his thumb along your lip, dragging it down.Â
âI want you,â you said.Â
âWell, weâve established that,â he teased.Â
âI want you toââ you started, hesitating, trying to figure out how to say the words you wanted to say. âI donât want you to hold back because itâs me. I want you to fuck me how you want to.âÂ
âSee, baby,â he said. âWas that so hard?â He ran the back of his finger down your cheek.Â
His hands moved from your face and dropped between his legs, moving along his cock for a few strokes before he aligned himself with your entrance. He pushed forward, starting slow, establishing that same rhythm that made your head loll back. But he was closer this time, hovering over you. You grabbed his shoulders, nails digging into skin, anchoring yourself as you move your hips against him.Â
He let out a low groan, and you canât help itâyou pull him down, lips crashing into his. The kiss was messy, hot, both of you moving hungrily, tongues sliding against one another, moans escaping into mouths.Â
He picked up the pace, sliding in and out of you faster, harder. You arched your back to get a better angle, dropped your hands to ball them into the fabric beneath you.Â
Your eyes fluttered closed.Â
âEyes open,â he was quick to remind you.Â
When you opened them, he was looking at you, same lazy smirk youâve known your entire life, just more dangerous now, sexy. You werenât sure what was going to happen after this, but neither could you find it in you to care as he slammed into you over and over again, harder each time, shaking the bed.Â
âOh,â you moaned. âMy god.âÂ
He grabbed your legs again, holding them at a ninety-degree angle with one hand, by the ankles.Â
It only served to deepen the ankle, to make your eyes roll back even more, your fists tighten in the blanket.Â
âBeomgyu,â you said. âOh my god.â
âTell me again, baby,â he said, panting. âHow much you want me. Please.âÂ
It was a fight to get the words out as he drove into you over and over again. He didnât slow down to let you speak, to let you get your thoughts straight.Â
âI want you so bad,â you breathed. âSo bad. Donât stop.âÂ
He grinned. Proud of what he had.Â
Your toes curled, and your back arched, and everything tightened. You clamped down tight around him, but he didnât slowâfucking you through the orgasm as you came. He slowed his pace some afterward, lowering your legs once more.Â
âLet me know if you need a break, okay, beautiful?â he said.Â
You nodded.Â
He pulled out and lowered himself to kiss you, soft and sweet, despite the thin layer of sweat on both of you, despite everything that had happened thus far. He moved off of you.Â
âYou wanna get on your knees for me, baby?â he asked.Â
You nodded, situating yourself on your knees as he moved behind you. You leaned forward, pressing your palms into the mattress.Â
He wasted no time. He knelt behind you and ran his hands down your back in appreciation. He positioned himself at your entrance and slid in fully in one quick motion, leaving you gasping for air.Â
âGod,â you hissed. âOh my god.âÂ
âDoes that feel good, baby?â Beomgyu asked. He thrust fast and hard, keeping up a pace that made your hands shake.Â
You could only moan in response.Â
He leaned forward to place a hand over yours. âCan I have this?â he asked. You nodded, and he took your hand, pulling it behind your back. He slipped his free hand over the other one and took that too, pinning them behind your back so your shoulders were pinned to the mattress, your face turned to the side. You could just barely see him out of the corner of your eye.Â
âFuck,â he hissed. âYouâre so good, you know that?âÂ
Your breathing is jagged, your body tensing again, tears pricking in your eyes.Â
âBeomgyu,â you said. âIââ
âNot yet,â he said. âNot yet, I want to look at you when you come.âÂ
Your whole body twitched because you couldnât stop it from happening, not with him behind you, slamming into you over and over again. âBeomgyu,â you whine again, because you need it.Â
He pulled out fast, releasing your hands and flipping you over by the hips in a smooth motion before thrusting into you once more.Â
âOh, look at you,â he said, wiping some of the tears off your cheeks as he moved inside of you at that same slow pace once more. âDid I make you cry?â he asked, mocking innocence.Â
You dug your fingers into his shoulders in response, and he hissed in pain and enjoyment. He worked his way back up to the same speed, eliciting more moans, more tears. He captured your lips, snaking his arms under your waist to hold you against him as he kissed you.Â
âGod,â you started, âIâm going toââ you cried against his lips.Â
He quickened his pace, grabbing onto the headboard above you as he slammed into you over and over again. Tears slipped down your cheeks as your back arched and came for a third time that night. He kept going until the very end before pulling out, spilling his come across your stomach with a groan and a few ragged breaths before he collapsed at your side.Â
The apartment went quiet.Â
Only the sounds of your breathing recovering echoed within those walls. Beomgyu got up eventually. Cleaned you off. When he returned to bed, it was to slip in next to you, to pull your body flush against his, to press kisses into your hair.Â
âSo,â he said, holding you tight, your face nestled into the crook of his neck. âThat was fun.âÂ
You nodded, too tired and drained to say anything else. He smiled into your hair. âSorry, I kind of wrecked you, huh?â
You twisted in his arms so you could find his eyes. âMaybe a little,â you laughed under your breath.Â
A sudden clarity passed over his features. âHey,â he said.Â
âHey,â you said.Â
âI was serious,â Beomgyu said. âAbout wanting you, I always have. That wasnât a lie.â
A smile broke out across your face. âBeomgyu, Iâve had a crush on you for like five years. I thought I was the idiot.âÂ
âTurns out weâre both idiots,â he said.Â
âYeah, who could have seen that coming?â you joked.Â
alpha!beomgyu & his mate, (part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4 â final!)
warnings: SMUT! p in v, unprotected sex (don't!), ALL things a/b/o, dom & sub dynamics, heat sex, oral (f & m rec), gyu's a munch, masturbation (kind of), fingering, teasing (lots of it), begging (reader says please A LOT), edging, praise, slick slurping, cum eating, strength kink, spanking, ruined orgasm, big dick beomgyu agenda, multiple positions: missionary, prone bone (kind of, it'll make sense), doggystyle, overstimulation, multiple orgasms, squirting, knotting, marking, claiming, basically porn with fluff sprinkled on top, gyu being a heartthrob, gyu duality king
whew, that was a mouthful :â|
wc: 7.6k
scz note: this is how i imagined gyu for this final part! this will be the last part of this series! may or may not contain some errors. i hope you all enjoy it! x
"so... who was the alpha you spent your first heat with?"
you're barely able to form a thought as you lay on your back in your bed, panties long gone and thighs being spread by beomgyu's persistent hands, mouth hot on your neck
he had been all over you since the minute the two of you woke up. you had pushed him off and forced him to go with you into the bathroom and freshen up first â to which he hastily obliged, immediately pushing you back onto your mattress
it was the last of your pre-heat today, your heat would be arriving tomorrow. your scent was becoming stronger, putting beomgyu in a frenzy
frenzy was a light way to put it, especially with the way he kissed down your body, now mouthing and biting at the soft flesh of your inner thighs, growing hungrier the closer he gets to your core
you whimper as his fingers start toying with your clit, temporarily distracting you from his question â which you've been avoiding since last night
"iâ shit, beomgyuâ waitâ" you protest, already grabbing a handfuls of the sheets, back arching
his eyes darken the longer he stares between your thighs, the object of his fixation dripping with slick, just begging to be devoured
his lips hover right above your core, "fuck, i've been dying to taste you properly baby", he rasps before he licks a fat stripe up your slit, removing his fingers to swirl his tongue around your clit, sucking the little bundle of nerves into his mouth
you moan breathlessly, head falling back onto your pillow as beomgyu hungrily starts making out with your pussy, guttural moans vibrating against you as he loses himself in your decadent sweetness
he pulls off, only to profess, "best pussy i've ever tasted," before he dives back in
you would have giggled at his words â if his assault wasn't rendering you totally brainless
wanton moans escape you as your mouth hangs agape, already feeling fucked out the more his tongue relentlessly works you, determined to figure out what you like
he fucks his tongue into you, slurping some of your essence that's leaking down to your ass â you gasp at the intrusion to your entrance
'kay, she likes when i do that, he notes, dragging his ravenous muscle back up to your clit, his jaw flexing as he flattens his tongue and rolls it against you again and again
"oh my god, beomgyu!â"
knew she'd like that too, he preens, smug as you cry out, a hand settling in his hair
fuck, he's already working you towards an orgasm
he pulls away again, making you whine and he snickers wickedly as you try to push his head back onto you, but to no avail
"still haven't answered my question, baby"
you huff, already missing having his mouth on you, frustratedly bucking your hips toward him before he holds them down, an arm flexing over your abdomen
"beomgyu...please...", you try, looking down at him to plead with your eyes, to which he only shakes his head
"c'mooon, is it someone i know? i told you who popped my cherry last night" he bargains, a finger teasing your slit again, before he places a fat kiss on your clit, making you jolt
you fuss, recalling the conversation you had whilst beomgyu was cuddling you after your...activities last night â
â him, having lost his virginity to an omega long ago and having fallen deeply in love with her, only for her to have left him the second she met her mate, soobin
the information had shocked you, because you knew soobin. heck, you guys have been at the same institutions since middle school â with kai and your best friend â you even remember her having a crush on him too
he didn't hate soobin, he knew he had no right to
but beomgyu had been crushed, knowing that no amount of whatever they had could outweigh the gravity of a mate bond â it still hurt that she didn't care whether or not he was watching whilst she doted on soobin, as if beomgyu never meant anything to her â which was exactly the reason he set out to become an "omega slayer" as kai liked to call him
he wanted to forget her, badly â and had tried filling the void with other omegas. he had succeeded in his pursuit of making his feelings diminish, but the damage had been done and a reputation had already been attached to his name by the time he decided to stop
your poor beomie, you had thought, if only you had met him earlier
you guess it was only fair to tell him who you had your first experience with â that is, if he wasn't so goddamn good with his mouth â
a light smack against your thigh had pulled you out of your thoughts, his tongue back to devouring you now, unable to wait as your slick trickled delectably from your hole, your alpha unable to resist the pull of your scent
your hand tightens in his hair, gasping when he slides a digit into you
"you're really not gonna tell me?" he speeds up, massaging your gummy walls deliciously as he makes out with your little bundle of nerves again
your hips attempt to buck, but remain immovable under his firm hold
god, he was turning your brain into mush
and he was enjoying it probably a lot more than he should have, slowing his pace and then speeding it up again. you scramble to form words as he plays with you, moans and whimpers escaping you every time you go to speak
your orgasm was creeping up on you again â and fast
"my baby can't even think right now, huh?" he teases, circling the tip of his tongue around your nub before sucking it into his warm mouth again, chuckling deeply against it â your eyes roll to the back of your skull
"c'mon, tell alpha who it was" he commands
the vibrations from his voice shoot straight up your spine, making you scream â "godâ fuck beomgyu! it was taehyun!" you finally manage to get out, unable to disobey him
his mouth pulls off again temporarily, "taehyun?" he asks incredulously, adding a second digit, "the guy next door?"
that magician fucker? he thinks to himself, his brows furrow as he doubles his efforts, making you cry out and writhe against his hold
he liked taehyun a little less now
"yes, beomgyu! can we please talk about him later? i'm so close, please!"
"fine" he huffs, going back to eating you out, fingers curling upward, hooking right into that yummy spot that has you losing all sense again
streams upon streams of slick are pouring out of you and you'd be mortified at the feeling and sound of beomgyu vulgarly slurping it all up â even turning his head side to side â if you weren't on the edge of what you were sure was going to be the best orgasm of your life right now
"alphaâ yes! oh my god, please don't stop!"
he peers up at you to see that you've gone cross eyed, the sight making him moan in satisfaction, sending more shockwaves and vibrations through your pussy
you could feel it coming now, tethering on the line between heaven and earth, nails digging into his scalp, moaning shamelessly
beomgyu swirls his tongue just right whenâ
"YOOHOO!" your roommate's voice and kai's little giggle sounds through the house, the front door shutting behind them
you gasp, shoving beomgyu's head from between your legs, snapping them shut
he genuinely looked like he was about to dive back in, you think, crossing them just to be safe â whimpering as your orgasm fades once again
his eyes are dark as he stares into yours, wiping his mouth and chin with the back of his hand before licking it all up, groaning in frustration
"y/n? you awake?" you hear your roommate call as you push beomgyu off the bed and scramble to find your panties on the floor
"iâ yeah! i'll be out in a minute!" you're still catching your breath, pulling on a pair of pants and gesturing for beomgyu to follow you out into the kitchen
the burn in your core had only intensified now
your cheeks burn as you sit on the couch next to beomgyu, your friends picking fun at you
"you should've seen them this morning, yeonjun! trying to tiptoe around the apartment. hah! it was the funniest thing ever!" your best friend cackles, clutching onto her stomach
"i would've paid good money to see that!" yeonjun laughs, wiping stray tears from his eyes
"fuck off, jun!" beomgyu laughs too now, shoving at the alpha
"finally man. i seriously thought you were gonna off yourself soon if you didn't get any!" he slows down now, earning himself a smack from hueningkai too
"okay, guys! enough! let's talk about tonight", kai chimes in, gathering his breath
"wait, what's happening tonight?" you ask, shifting closer to beomgyu. his hand finds yours, intertwining your fingers and your heart skips a beat
"you guys don't know? there's another tribe party tonight. new pack is being welcomed and everything", kai sits up
"already? hybe-house is really expanding now. what's the name of the new pack anyways?" you ask, momentarily shocked
"you would know if you and beomgyu weren't too busy bangingâ oof" a pillow hits yeonjun square in the face as he laughs, kai already threatening to hit him with another one
"they're gonna be called enha-pack or something," your best friend informs, scratching her head, "their last alpha presented a week ago, so they're celebrating. everybody's invited"
"makes sense for a pack to be formed already, considering hueningkai was the last alpha to present in ours," beomgyu states thoughtfully, "i heard some of their alphas presented super early too"
"interesting," you think out loud. "do they have an assigned pack leader?"
"yeah, a guy named jungwon. i met him at leadership training a few months ago! he's a really cool guy" kai beams
"then tonight should be great!" yeonjun cheers, his eyes scanning you and beomgyu, "you two coming?"
"absolutely not" beomgyu spoke with finality, "my omega's in pre-heat â and as much as i'd love to show my baby off..." he says, eyes locking onto yours, "i'm not letting her around other alphas like this, especially ones that presented just the other day"
his thumb traces circles over the back of your hand, making your heart do several flips
"good point" your best friend says, grinning at you knowingly
yeonjun makes a gagging noise, "okay, whatever. i'll just ask taehyun to join me"
"that magician fucker?" kai asks, laughing as his mate shoves him
"hyuka! take that back" your best friend gasps, chastising him
beomgyu cackles next to you, "hey, i call him that too! â and since when are you guys friends?" his attention directs back to yeonjun
"i actually know him from life guarding with me at the bay every summer, remember?" yeonjun informs. "plus, he seriously needs to get out more. y'know he really used to get down and dirty back in the day! that magic shit used to get omegas crazyâ"
"taehyun?! there's no way!" your best friend gasps, eyes comically large
"yeah, you didn't know?" kai stretches, "where'd you guys think your cute little alpha got all his experience from?" he puts "cute" in air commas, looking right at you
"am i missing something here?" yeonjun questions, head whipping around to look at all of you â especially tilting his head at you
"nope! nothing at all! i think we should head out, right beomie?" you say, standing abruptly, tugging beomgyu with you
beomgyu chuckles, "yeah, we probably should. you guys have fun at that party. let us know how it goes" he sings as he allows you to pull him to kai's front door
"hold on! where will you guys be? i meanâ you aren't going back to our place with y/n's heat and all..." your best friend trails off, smiling mischievously
"oh you don't have to worry about that," he smirks, "i'll be taking care of her at mine", is the last thing beomgyu says before he leads you out to his car, your friends hollering behind the two of you â you, blushing profusely
his scent is everywhere
â you note as you step into beomgyu's home, that woody amber engulfing you and wrapping around you like a cozy blanket
your core was blazing now and it was your turn to be all over him
but your alpha had other plans, placing you on his plush sofa and telling you to stay put while he gathered food and other things around his place for what will be a very long week ahead
well, at least one of you were level headed right now
you watch as he stores the last water bottle in the fridge before returning to where you're seated, his lips capturing yours
finally, you think, your arms snaking around his shoulders before he pulls away â a gentle hand on your chin, chuckling at the confusion on your face
"i just wanna spend a little more time with you before we go crazy" he clarifies and you sigh dreamily, nodding with understanding
after all, today would be the last day the two of you would get to spend together â sane, before you'd be fucking like, well, animals tomorrow
"wanted to show you something" he says, excitedly getting up and running to his room, where he returns from with his guitar case in hand
"what's all this?" you ask, eyes following him as he plugs in and sets up his fancy equipment for his electric guitar
"just a little something i put together" his teeth worry his bottom lip as he pulls out a sheet of music, some words scribbled in-between
you're already entranced when he picks at the first string, coaxing the guitar to sing, watching your reactions with quiet intent
the tune is slow, deliberate and your heart does somersaults when beomgyu opens his mouth to sing â sweet nothings describing your eyes, your lips, the way your laugh makes him come undone for the first time in years and ultimately â how he fell in love with you at first sight
god, were you supposed to feel for your mate what you were starting to feel for beomgyu already?
his husky voice melts into you, drawing you into a dazed-like state, his words settling deep inside of you â undoing every doubt of how serious he is about you
you were falling for him â and you were falling for him fast
you allow yourself to look at him, really look at him and how enchantingly beautiful he is and you realize â your heart dropping to your toes â that you could do this for the rest of your life
the song nears it's end now as he lets the melody land softly, trailing off as his eyes lift to yours, taking in your reaction
your eyes flit between his, releasing a breath you didn't know you were holding as you whisper, "beomgyu, that was..." he sets his guitar aside, making room for you to crawl into his lap, his arms wrapping securely around you. "that was beautiful. when did you have the time to create this?"
your hands cup his face as he speaks, "i started writing it since the first day we actually talked," he grins, "when you gave me that strict set of rules"
you laugh now, recalling your first few conversations with the alpha, how incredibly weary you were â and how you had already noticed how unfairly gorgeous he was, even in your state of denial
"did you like it?" he asks, his gaze travelling all over your face in sweet adoration
"i loved it" you say, leaning in to give him a gentle unhurried kiss, which he happily returns
you remain like that for the rest of the day, hours flying by as you and beomgyu talk about anything and everything, your tummy hurting at times with how hard he made you laugh â him, playing more tunes for you on his guitar, singing for you until late into the night
his voice lulls you to a state of sleepiness, beomgyu scooping you into his arms and carrying you to his bedroom, where he kisses you goodnight sweetly
your body was begging for him by now and you had become a little fussy until he promised you â low and certain â that he'd be taking care of you in the way you needed him to, tomorrow
your omega was excited for the day that lied ahead
agony â burning â whimpering
you wake up in a puddle of your own slick, your hand immediately reaching for the alpha next to you, meeting the bare skin of his chest
"b-beomgyuâ" your voice cracks on another whimper
"i'm here, baby" he answers, his raspy morning voice causing more arousal to pool in your panties as he rolls on top of you, wasting no time in slotting his lips to yours
you automatically spread your thighs wider to accommodate him, hips bucking up to meet the delicious friction of his already hard cock on your clothed folds
your omega was feral inside of you â and this time you did not want to argue with her at all
"alphaâ" you moan between kisses, causing him to growl deep in his chest, "alpha, i need you, please"
his hips roll harder against you, your nails clutching onto his shoulders, wailing for him as a hot flash wracks your body
there's no way beomgyu was trying to take things slow right now, you fuss to yourself, shoving him off of you before climbing on top of him, shamelessly dragging your swollen bundle of nerves along the outline of his hardness
god, he looks so pretty underneath you, you think â hair a little tousled, eyebrows furrowed, lip tucked between his teeth and hands gripping onto your hips
a sudden thought crosses your mind â a thought that you're unable to shake
"b-beomieâ wanna suck you off, please? can i please?" you beg, driving harder onto him, making him choke on air as his eyes widen, staring up at you
don't give in, beomgyu, he tells himself, you should be taking care of her, not the other way aroundâ
"please alpha, i really want to" you whimper, core igniting at the thought of having him in your mouth â nearly salivating
"fuck" he curses under his breath, "okay baby, get on your knees" he instructs and your omega is quick to push you to obey â which you happily do, sinking to his bedroom floor as he comes to a stand in front of you
fuck, he looks even taller from this angle, you think, hands making quick work of the strings on his sweats, before his own hands swat yours away
he lowers the waistband and you catch a glimpse of the smooth planes of skin on his adonis belt, his hand reaching to take his rock hard cock out, slowly
you gasp as you finally see it for the first time, thick, long and veiny â the tip a pretty pink oozing with pre-cum, just daring you to lean forward and have a taste â which you're about to do until beomgyu's hand catches your jaw, cupping the nape of your neck
"easy, baby. ' want you to take it nice and slow for me" he purrs, his thumb tracing your bottom lip as his other hand lazily jerks his cock, small groans sounding from deep in his chest â the sight makes you squeeze your thighs together, whining for him to give it to you
"open up" he commands, tapping his heavy tip on your tongue that has now lolled out of your mouth, quick to lower your jaw to accommodate him
"good girl" he rasps as he feeds his length into your mouth, the praise making you keen as you're determined to take him in fully, tears gathering at the corners of your eyes
you whimper as he pushes to the back of your throat, triggering your gag reflex
he snickers wickedly, "what, taehyun never taught you how to use your mouth? relax your jaw for me baby", he teases
you whine around him, the possessiveness in his tone making slick pool under you, unlocking your jaw as he instructed
"there we go" he exhales as he draws back, only to push in slowly again, a hand tangling in your hair
his head is thrown back, adams apple on full display as he groans and moans deeply while steadily thrusting his hips back and forth, but you have other plans
both of your hands come up to wrap around him, thumbs and middle fingers barely touching as you start working them around his base, bobbing your head up and down on his length â his precum coating your tongue
"fuck" he grunts, sucking in air between his teeth â shuddering as you speed up and twirl your tongue around the tip when you pull off, only one thing on your heat-clouded mind
you want his cum
"baby, i told you toâ holy shit" he chokes on his own spit for the second time today, nearly losing himself at the feel of you hollowing your cheeks around him, humming needily
your pussy's on fire watching beomgyu lose his mind, throbbing and pulsing every time he moans â those sexy moans you could not get enough of
god, you're so turned on right now, you realize as you reach a hand down between your thighs, desperately trying to relieve some of the ache
you take a deep breath before pushing him to the back of your throat again, nose kissing his abdomen
that forces another guttural moan out of him, looking down to see you touching yourself and the sight is nearly enough to make him come undone
"fuck yes, does sucking your alpha's cock make you that needy, hm? couldn't control yourself anymore?" he rasps, dick throbbing and heavy on your tongue
you pull off, strings of saliva connecting your lips to his tip, "want you to cum, want your cum alpha, please" you finally confess, your lips sealing around his tip again and he grunts â nearly indulging himself in the feel of your mouth again before he gains his senses and pulls you off, cupping your face and pulling you up to stand
fuck, you're a little minx, he thinks to himself
"i'm not gonna be coming today before you do" he asserts, the tone of his voice leaving no room for you to argue as you whine
you cling to him as he guides you back onto the bed, softly setting you on your back â making sure your head is supported with his pillow
his lips claim yours again, the fire between your thighs igniting excitedly as he kisses his way down your neck, pausing to remove your shirt
he curses under his breath at the sight of you â bare and ready â and kisses between your mounds before engulfing one of your nipples into his mouth â a breathy moan escaping you as he moves to the other, expertly twirling his tongue around the peak
god, you love his mouth
his kisses and nibbles travel down your torso, eating up the expanse of your belly as he reaches the waistband of your pants, his eyes peeking up at yours
"may i?" comes his husky voice, to which you nod quickly, followed by a breathy yes
another featherlight kiss is placed right above your waistband before he pulls your pants and panties off in one go, hastily tossing them to the floor
he's ravenous as he mouths at the skin of your inner thighs now, hands settling on the soft flesh to coax them further apart
two fingers caress your glistening folds, swirling the delectable arousal around before dragging them up to your clit, where he draws teasing little circles â your breath hitching as he continues to toy with you
your scent is much stronger now, honey curling around beomgyu as he simply breathes you in, his alpha prodding at him to taste, to claim, to relieve your pain
he slides the two digits down to your entrance again, a loaded kiss landing on your swollen bundle of nerves
you whimper, bucking your hips in an attempt to get him to give you what you want, his chuckle sounding low against your core
"i actually like you like this, so desperate for me" â another lingering kiss on your bundle of nerves, his fingers prodding your entrance
you're so goddamn worked up, if beomgyu would just stop being a teaseâ
a skilled digit eases into you and you sigh contentedly as he starts to curl it inside of you, deep and slow. your contentment doesn't last long however, your core soon demanding more
"aâalpha, i need more, please" you nearly sob when he adds a second digit, expertly curling it to find that spot â the one that has your walls quivering around him as he picks up his pace, slick causing an obscene squelch to sound through the room
"feels good?" he snickers, lips still hovering over and teasing your little bundle of nerves, making you whimper as it pulses painfully for him
"still need more, please" you rake a hand into his hair, in hopes of egging him on, but to no avail
"so pretty when you beg for me, baby. c'mon, beg for me some more"
god, he's driving you insane
"tell alpha what you want him to do" he demands, another curl of his fingers making your mouth fall agape
"beomie please, i want your mouthâ please make me come with your mouth...it hurts" your voice trembles, ovaries burning when you lock eyes with him
"good girl" a light spank lands on the side of your thigh, making you jolt
his gaze is ravenous as he finally lowers his mouth, easily sucking your bundle of nerves into the wet warmth â a deep possessive growl rippling through your core as he watches your eyes roll to the back of your skull, head falling back onto his pillow
beomgyu loves seeing you like this â completely at his mercy as he absolutely ravishes you with his skilled mouth, swirling his tongue around your clit again and again
you cry out as his fingers double their efforts, driving into you as he releases your little bundle of nerves, only to flatten his tongue and lick a fat stripe up from where his digits are scissoring you open
"fucking love the way you taste, baby â love that it's all mine"
he slowly pulls his two fingers out, quickly replacing them with his tongue, driving the muscle in and out of your entrance before burying his face between your thighs, vulgarly slurping at the honey-like slick dripping from you â his moans deep and guttural at what your body has to offer
you're borderline delirious now
wanton moans and wails of his name fall from your lips as your hips buck into his eager mouth, his fingers filling you once more, hooking them into that yummy spot in a come-hither motion again and again
his other hand squeezes onto the flesh on the underside of your thigh, beckoning you to grind harder onto his tongue as he flattens the muscle for you to ride on
your orgasm's creeping up on you now â fast â and it doesn't seem like beomgyu has any plans of slowing down, grunting as he feels you start to pulse around his fingers
"alpha! alpha! i'm gonna come!" you cry, thighs trembling around his head before white-hot pleasure consumes you, his mouth not stopping it's assault on your cunt â humming as the taste of honey coats his tongue
you're too far gone to tell him to stop as he eases a third finger in, the stretch making you gasp as he works them into you with more purpose
"a-alphaâ s'too much..." your breath hitches when his mouth pulls off, trailing up your body until he's hovering over you, hand cupping your face as his thumb traces your bottom lip, pulling down
"i need to prep you, baby. just give me one more, just like this" he says, placing a sweet kiss to your lips â in total contrast with his thumb finding purchase on your sensitive bundle of nerves, drawing tight little circles and rendering you dumb once more
your second high approaches you fast, the stretch instantly becoming delicious to your heat-clouded mind â pliant and inclined to take anything your alpha gives you
he's merciless and deep with his ministrations, your hips quickly rolling up to chase the pleasure and sweet relief that you can almost taste on your tongue â your blazing core eager for him to give you more, more, more
it doesn't take you long to reach your second orgasm, crying out as your alpha works you with hungry intent, momentarily reducing you to mindlessness. your jaw goes slack as your body writhes, trembling before going still
"baby? you still with me?" you hear his voice next to your ear, chuckling as you come back to your senses, pussy still pulsing around his digits
"yeah" is all you're able to utter â in total bliss, working on catching your breath instead
you're pulled out of your daze when you feel his fingers giving another experimental tease against that sensitive spot inside of you, gasping as you grab onto his wrist, "b-beomieâ"
he chuckles wickedly against your temple, "just playing with you, baby" his finally slides them out and like standard procedure â slips them into his mouth
his hand returns between your thighs, cupping your mound, "you ready for me?" he trails sweet kisses down the skin of your neck again, pausing to suck a mark into the flesh
beomgyu's going to be the death of you, you think
your body surprises you as it ignites once again â the thought of having him inside of you getting you excited now, pushing out rivulets of slick â knowing there was only one thing that could put out the fire in your core: his knot
he lifts his head to assess you again only to find you already looking fucked out, unable to resist the urge to kiss you, the taste of honey from his mouth making you hum into his
his hips slot themselves between your thighs again, his fat, mushroom tip gliding over your sensitive nub, riling you up once more
you whine, breaking away from his sweet kiss, "need you inside, beomie. please don't tease"
he cups your face, "yeah? you think you can take it?"
"i can take it!" your omega was desperate now, your abdomen purring with anticipation as his hips grind against you harder, dragging his heavy cock over your folds
your breath hitches as the tip prods at your entrance, almost pushing past the tight ring of muscle before your alpha pauses, "tell me if it hurts, okay?" he commands softly, taking ahold of the base
you nod quickly, gasping when he slowly inches is tip into you, the stretch already hurting so good, you attempt to lift your hips to meet his
he groans, brows furrowed and hand gripping onto your inner thigh hard as he forces you back down onto the mattress
you whine again, "beomieâ alpha, need more, please"
he sinks a few more inches into you, making you keen as you try to buck your hips again, but to no avail, your attempts no match for his authoritative strength
he's biting down on his lip, eyebrows furrowed as he buries himself to the hilt, momentarily stealing your breath
you feel...so full right now
he's still inside of you, causing you to huff frustratedly, "beomie move, please" you beg
his tone is gravelly when he opens his mouth to speak, "just give me a minute baby, i'm trying really hard not to blow my goddamn load right now"
your walls throb around him at that and beomgyu swears he might lose it
he's never had to gather himself when he's been inside another omega before â your sopping, trembling cunt nearly making him lose all sense of himself â this was a first for him
you feel him pull back not too long after gaining some control, willing his orgasm and his knot away as he starts to push into you again, setting a slow steady rhythm
his mouth lowers to your neck, nibbling at the skin as he rolls his hips into yours, your hands clutching onto his arms as moans fall shamelessly from your lips now
your body demands more, core feeling like a furnace, the pace beomgyu going at not helping to soothe the ache, instead amplifying it
you need him to use you, ruin you
"faster beomgyu, please" you beg, legs wrapping around his waist, heels digging into the backs of his thighs in an attempt to egg him on
another slow drag of his cock, right against that mouthwatering spot inside of you makes your eyes roll to the back of your skull, beomgyu snickering as he lifts head to watch you
"but baby, why? doesn't this feel so good?" he does it again, making your nails bite into his his biceps, pulling a groan from his chest
you will your eyes open, wound up as you fuss, "it could feel better if you would just fuck me"
"aw, stop being so crude baby, it's our first time. i'm trying to make love to you", he grins menacingly as he continues his slow, shallow thrusts
god, he just had to tease you right now
"you can make love to me some other time, beomgyu! right now i need you to fuck me" you huff, not very far from sobbing too
he sighs dramatically, "very well" before he pulls out and you're ready to protest until you're flipped onto your stomach
the alpha manhandles you so that one of your knees are hiked up, giving him the perfect view of your dripping cunt as he wastes no time in sheathing himself inside again with a growl, pulling out until his tip is still nestled in your warmth before pushing back in
"beomgyu, holy fuck!" you wail, hands fisting the sheets as he sets a brutal pace immediately, a heavy hand landing on the flesh of your ass
"this what you wanted, huh baby?" he rasps into your ear before lifting himself, placing his other hand on the back of your neck for more leverage as he gives you a particularly hard thrust
"yes! god, yes!" you cry out, unable to form another thought
you plant your hand that's closest to your knee on the mattress, lifting slightly and turning your torso to get a look at him and oh godâ
the sight of him â dark hair covering his eyes â tongue poking smugly at the corner of his mouth â the lean muscles of his pecs and abdomen flexing with every drive into your pussy â the veins along the skin of his adonis belt, even more prominent on his arms and hands that he uses to bend you as he pleases
you don't recall beomgyu ever telling you that he was working out, his inexplicable strength making so much more sense to you now
if you knew beomgyu had the ability to fold you into a goddamn pretzel, you would've let him fuck you a long time ago, you tell yourself in your delirium
your pussy pulses painfully around him the longer you look, making him lift his gaze, catching you ogling and drooling over him
"like what you see baby?" he asks, even more smug, thrusting deeper against that spot inside of you
"uh-huhâ" is all you can get out as your jaw goes slack, more wanton cries falling from your lips
"feels good?" he smiles triumphantly when he feels you clench around him
"yes alpha! please don't stop, please" you plead, watching him release a possessive growl, fucking into you so hard, the headboard was banging against the wall
beomgyu could stay like this forever â watching your hand fist in the sheets, your ass jiggle with every smack of his hips against you, your back arching as he feels you start to squeeze around his cock
you're getting close already
another heavy smack against your backside makes you yelp, loving how your alpha was absolutely taking you, using you as he pleases
your eyes flutter closed as the pleasure starts to consume you, another smack making them snap open
"eyes on me, baby. ' want you to look at me when you come, look at who's making you feel this good" he demands in that deep, territorial tone
his words coupled with the unforgiving drag of his length against your sweet spot is what pushes you over the edge, trembling around him as you fight to keep your eyes locked on his, crying "alpha! alpha!" before he slows and pulls out
you're still catching your breath when he removes his hand from the back of your neck, massaging where he had gripped, placing it next to your head instead â his other hand coming to rest on the flesh of your hip, caressing it affectionately. he leans down, pressing a proud, tender kiss against your temple before he asks, "more?"
"yes, please" you hum, your body still buzzing for him, "want your knot" you confess, gaze pleading with his
he curses under his breath before lifting himself off of you, that deep octave returning when he instructs, "all fours. present for me, baby"
your omega rejoices at the command and you do exactly as he asks, palms flat on the mattress as you raise yourself up on your knees, back arching instinctively as you put your ass and sopping pussy on display for him once more
beomgyu's unable to keep his hands off of you, admiring you in what was the known natural position for submission
this is it, this is you handing full vulnerability to your alpha
you feel him place a kiss between your shoulder blades, whispering reverently, "you look so perfect like this," before you feel his still rock hard cock nudging your entrance â you push your hips back against him eagerly
he wastes no time sliding into you, your slick from your previous orgasm making it easy, both of you moaning out at the feeling
beomgyu's hands find purchase on your hips as he starts driving into you, head thrown back as he starts to lose himself in your wet warmth
he swivels his hips just right to find that perfect spot inside of you again â the spot that he loves so much, because it makes you do thisâ
"beomgyu, don't stop!" you pant, fucking yourself back on his thick cock, back arching deeper
oh he does not plan on stopping at all, he thinks, biting down on his bottom lip as he increases his tempo, your pussy clamping down on him, ass slapping against his pelvis
another heavy smack lands against your backside, it jiggling and immediately becoming red with the impact as he groans
how you loved the feel of his hands on you â it was just like in the dream: grip firm and strong, guiding you back and forth onto his merciless thrusts, claiming you, taking control of you, handling you as he pleased
and then his voice, smug and husky when he taunts, "you're close for me already, aren't you?" â a deep chuckle following when you tighten around him immediately
"yes! yes alpha, pleaseâ" you choke on a gasp as he works himself into your cunt at an inhumane speed, tip nearly kissing your cervix with how ruthless he becomes. the cord in your stomach was wrung tight, ready to snap at any moment
this orgasm was going to take you straight to heaven
you sob as his tip glides against that delicious spot inside of you once more, triggering your release as you nearly scream, hands twisting in the sheets as slick gushes out from you
you're rendered brainless as you cry, "alpha! alpha! breed me! claim me, please! mark me! make me yoursâ fuckâ!"
your thighs are still trembling when beomgyu manhandles you onto your back, wasting no time in burying his length into you once more, keeping the same unforgiving pace, a hand settling on your throat and the other on your little bundle of nerves. you wail, delirious now as he lowers himself and bores his eyes into yours, gaze making goosebumps erupt all over your skin â the look in his eyes nothing less than primal
"you really want this?" he asks, voice soft â tentative and strained compared to his cock's unending abuse of your pussy
"to be marked and claimed by me â making you mine for life, for eternity?"
god, you've never wanted anything more in your entire life
you nod frantically, hands cupping his face as you wrap your legs around his waist, whimpering as you feel his knot start to form
"words, baby" he urges, a particularly hard thrust punching the air out of your lungs
"yes!" you whisper â voice breaking, "yes, i want you, beomgyu. i want us, i want this..." â your eyes plead with his â "for eternity"
your hand grips onto the hair at the back of his head and you watch as pride and instinct consumes him, your words washing over him and making him shiver before he whispers back, devotedly and wholeheartedly, "then i'm yours, baby" before placing a kiss on your neck
"and you are mine"
that's the last thing beomgyu says before his teeth sink into the flesh of your neck, the pleasure and sharp pain pulling another earth shattering orgasm from you, his knot swelling to its full size as his cum shoots deep into you, copious amounts pumping into your womb â making you gasp as tears gather and in your eyes and roll down your temples into your hairline â your back arching, nails raking down his back and hand clutching tighter onto his hair
your omega is finally satiated as she sighs inside of you, beomgyu's alpha doing the same â your wolves finally fully in sync and bonded
his hips slow to a stop before he removes his teeth from your flesh, tenderly kissing the wound and soothing it with his tongue
his knot continues to slowly pump cum into you, lifting his head as his hand around your throat cups your nape now, whispering informatively, "your turn to mark me, baby"
and you do so without hesitation â only after surveying the skin of his neck and the veins that run along it, his adams apple bobbing as he swallows, preparing himself to now be claimed, to be owned by you too
your teeth sinks into the smooth flesh, beomgyu moaning deep in his throat as you hum, feeling his arm slide around your waist, hugging you to him
you imitate his earlier actions when you're done marking him, kissing and soothing the wound with your tongue before pulling back, head plopping back onto his pillow. beomgyu pants as he captures your lips with his, his kiss conveying everything he couldn't put into words, arms circling around you tighter
never in a million years could he have imagined this â that he'd feel so fulfilled, so complete and it's amplified when you disconnect your lips from his, only to whisper:
"i think i love you" â and he chuckles endearingly, his heart doing somersaults
"i think i love you too", his forehead comes to rest on yours
by now the woody amber scent in his room had been sweetly tainted with honey â bleeding into the rest of his home â a blend that your alpha eagerly welcomed as he deeply inhaled the air around him
his knot was still slotted at the entrance of your warmth, beomgyu husking softly, "can't even move yet, baby. looks like i'm stuck inside you", that stupid little grin of his taking over his face
"it's okay. i like having you inside of me" you purr right into his ear, wrapping your arms around his neck deliberately as your thighs settle tighter against his waist, nestling him snugly in your center
he sucks air between his teeth, groaning as you purposely clench down on him â your heat induced body already starting to burn again
he chuckles wickedly, the softness replaced by mischief as he rasps, taunting, "is that so?"
he claims your lips with his before he starts moving again, only to be interrupted as his phone rings on his nightstand
he's determined to ignore it as his tongue slips into your mouth, you humming into him â but the ringtone persists incessant, beomgyu snarling as he breaks the heated kiss
the bond was already making him so territorial
you didn't mind that at all
yeonjun's name blinks back at you on the caller id, beomgyu answering the phone and you're quick to click on the speaker button
"what?" your alpha asks, tone gravelly
"guess what! guess what happened at the party last night, dude! "
"what?" beomgyu repeats, huffing
"taehyun found his mate!" you hear the older alpha exclaim excitedly on the other side of the phone
"what's that got to do with me?" beomgyu asks, raising a questioning eyebrow, making you swallow a laugh
"because, beomgyu he's not the only one that found his mate..."
you and beomgyu's eyes both widen, mouths falling agape
"i found my mate too...
and she's perfect"
scz notes: that brings us to the end of this rollercoaster ride! (yeonjun seriously needs to stop calling people when they just got done canoodling)
â guitarist heartthrob gyu, how are we feeling?
â soob & gyu tension uncovered from soft dom alpha!soobin hcs!
â inspo edits for gyu in this chapter: 1 , 2 , 3
I LOVE TO LAY WHEN LAYING IS NEXT TO YOU â¶ showing them affection
đąđđđđ âž ot7 x fem! reader 5.8k ( approx 820 words ) fluff lots of kissing teehee established relationship! au àšà§ mentions of alcohol, wedding lmao, nicknames (baby, sweetheart, angel, my girl, love) lowk secret relationship in jay's jungwon's a little sad and burntout in his :(
ìŽ HEESEUNG @ heeseung's family dinner
the soft hum of conversation filled the lee family dining room â the clinking of dishes, the warm scent of stew, and bursts of laughter threading through the air. heeseungâs house always felt like comfort incarnate: walls lined with framed childhood photos, the familiar whir of the old ceiling fan, and a table that never seemed to fit everyone but somehow always did.
for years, everyone had known heeseung and yn as the quiet couple. the affectionate, deeply-in-love kind, yes â but never the touchy type. at gatherings, while other pairs hugged or linked arms, heeseung and yn were content with a gentle smile shared across the table or fingers brushing under the tablecloth. the most anyone ever caught was them holding hands â and even then, heeseungâs ears would turn pink.
heeseung had his arm draped around ynâs shoulders from the moment they sat down, absentmindedly tracing shapes on her upper arm while she talked to his cousins. every time she laughed, he looked at her like she was the only person in the room. and every time she looked down at her ring with that tiny smile, he would lean in, press a small kiss to her hairline, and whisper something that made her blush.
âbaby,â he murmured once, low enough that only she heard, âyou keep staring at it like itâs magic.â
her lips curved, still shy, still a little pink. âit is magic, hee,â she whispered back. âyou picked it.â
he smiled, eyes creasing. âi picked you first.â
across the table, his mother caught the moment and barely stifled a laugh. âmy goodness,â she muttered under her breath to heeseungâs aunt, âlook at those two! youâd think itâs their wedding night.â
âlet them be,â her sister teased. âheâs finally showing her some affection in front of people. i never thought iâd see the day.â
heeseungâs mother smiled knowingly. âyou know what they say â the quiet ones love the loudest.â
later, after dinner had been served and the family scattered â some toward dessert, some to the living room, some to the garden â heeseung and yn found themselves tucked into the corner couch by the window. the fairy lights from outside cast a golden glow over them, soft and cozy.
ynâs legs were curled beside her, her head resting lightly on heeseungâs shoulder. he was scrolling through something on his phone â probably a video his cousin had just sent â but his hand never left her waist. occasionally heâd turn to her, say something teasing, and sheâd swat at him, giggling before kissing his cheek in quick retaliation.
she didnât even realize how natural it had become â kissing him like that in front of people.
when she leaned in again to whisper something, her lips brushed his cheek for the third time, and he chuckled softly, turning his head to look at her. âyouâre getting bold tonight, baby,â he teased, voice a mix of amusement and warmth.
her cheeks went pink immediately. âyou started it,â she mumbled, tracing the edge of his sleeve.
âi started what?â he grinned, leaning closer.
âbeing all sweet and touchy,â she said, barely a whisper. âeveryoneâs looking, you know.â
she hid her face in his chest at that, flustered but smiling so hard her cheeks hurt. heeseungâs laugh rumbled against her, his hand stroking her hair.
and thatâs exactly how his mom found them â curled together like that, all cozy and wrapped up in each otherâs world.
she stopped at the corner of the living room, one hand on her hip and an affectionate grin tugging at her mouth. âwell, would you look at this,â she said, her voice teasing and sing-song.
yn froze. her head shot up, eyes wide, face going scarlet in seconds. heeseung just blinked, caught between laughter and embarrassment.
âmomââ he started, but she cut him off, laughing.
âi thought iâd stepped into the wrong house for a second!â she said. âmy son, the same one who used to panic when someone hugged him in public, is cuddling on my sofa. and getting kissed in front of me, no less!â
âmrs. lee!â yn squeaked, hiding her face again, her whole body warm from laughter and mortification.
his mother only laughed harder. âdonât you âmrs. leeâ me, dear. i love it! itâs about time you two acted like youâre engaged!â
âmom,â heeseung groaned, though the grin tugging at his mouth betrayed him. âyouâre enjoying this way too much.â
âoh, completely,â she replied, smiling. âi havenât seen you this happy since your schooldays, seungie. she makes you glow.â
at that, heeseungâs teasing melted away, replaced by that soft, earnest look he reserved only for yn. he turned to her again, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear. âshe does,â he said quietly.
the older woman smiled warmly at that, patting his arm before walking off, muttering something about âwedding plansâ and âgrandbabies someday.â
as soon as she was gone, yn exhaled a tiny laugh, still red. âhee, i think i embarrassed myself for life.â
heeseung chuckled, tightening his arm around her. âno, baby. you just showed them how much you love me.â
she lifted her head to meet his eyes, soft and sparkling. âthey already knew that.â
âyeah,â he whispered, pressing one last kiss to her forehead. âbut now they see it.â
and with her hand resting on his chest, his arm around her waist, and the golden light flickering against their intertwined fingers â they didnât mind being seen at all.
ë° JAY @ the boy's dorm
the living room was a mess of blankets, cushions, and popcorn bowls â the kind of comfortable chaos that came with group movie nights. the boys had been arguing for twenty solid minutes over what to watch until jungwon finally won with some feel-good action flick that half of them wouldnât even pay attention to after the first thirty minutes.
yn sat wedged between jake and jay on the big sectional, her legs comfortably draped over jayâs lap, a soft blanket covering them both. sheâd been here enough times to blend right in â chatting, laughing, teasing like one of them â though none of them (except maybe sunoo, who suspected everything) knew that the casual touches between her and jay werenât just friendly.
jay was good at playing it cool. always had been. his arm rested casually across the back of the couch, fingers occasionally brushing her shoulder in a way that seemed effortless to everyone else â but to her, it was deliberate, reassuring. every small gesture from him carried weight.
the movie played on, dim light flickering across everyoneâs faces. jay was unusually quiet, one hand idly tracing small circles against her thigh through the blanket â not enough for anyone to notice, but enough to make her heart feel full.
about halfway through the movie, the air conditioner kicked in harder, and the temperature in the room dipped. yn shivered, pulling the blanket closer around her. her nose scrunched up, and she tucked her arms into the folds of the blanket with a small sigh.
jay noticed immediately.
without a word, he shifted slightly, pulling the blanket higher over both of them. his palm brushed over her arm, then her shoulder, gently rubbing warmth into her skin through the fabric. she looked up at him, meeting his soft gaze in the dim light.
âyou cold, angel?â he murmured, voice low, just for her.
she nodded, her voice equally quiet. âjust a little.â
he smiled faintly â that soft, fond curve of his lips that she always adored â before slipping an arm around her shoulders, tucking her against his chest. âcâmere,â he whispered, rubbing her arm again. âyouâll warm up faster like this.â
yn melted instantly into him. his warmth, his cologne â a mix of cedarwood and laundry detergent â and the slow rhythm of his breathing made her heart calm. she could feel the vibration of his quiet laugh when he murmured, âbetter?â
âmhm,â she hummed, looking up briefly to smile. âthank you, seong.â
âanything for you, angel,â he whispered, pressing a tender kiss to the top of her head. it wasnât meant to be seen â just one of those instinctive, comforting gestures he did without thinking. but of course, timing never worked in their favor.
jake happened to look over right then.
he froze, popcorn halfway to his mouth, eyes wide. then, like a true agent of chaos, he grinned. âoh. ohhhhhh. whatâs this?â
immediately, the others turned.
sunghoon, lounging on the beanbag, perked up. âwhatâs what?â
jake pointed dramatically. âthat! jayâs got someone on his lap and heâs getting all cozy!â
âwaitâ what?â jungwon leaned forward, trying to see around the bowl of chips.
sunoo gasped, scandalized but thrilled. âi knew it! i knew something was going on!â
in a split second, the room went from quiet movie night to chaos. everyone started talking at once â teasing, laughing, shouting questions.
jay blinked, momentarily stunned, while ynâs face turned a shade of red that could rival the netflix logo glowing on the tv screen.
ârelax, itâs cold,â jay said casually, leaning back like nothing had happened â but the slight smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth betrayed him.
âoh sure,â jake drawled, grinning ear to ear. âitâs cold. and the kiss on the head? was that for warmth too, jay?â
yn groaned, burying her face in jayâs hoodie. âseong, make them stop,â she mumbled, voice muffled but desperate.
jay chuckled, his hand resting comfortingly on her knee. âyou guys act like youâve never seen two people cuddle before,â he said smoothly, though his tone carried that smug undercurrent only he could pull off.
âoh my god,â sunghoon said between laughs. âjayâs actually soft. i never thought iâd live to see it.â
âiâmâ iâm emotional,â sunoo added dramatically, fanning himself. âthis is like finding out your teacher has a secret life.â
jay rolled his eyes, amusement flickering through his expression as he gently squeezed ynâs hand under the blanket â hidden, private, just theirs. âyouâre all ridiculous.â
âridiculously right,â jake shot back, still grinning.
for a moment, everyoneâs teasing blended with laughter, light and chaotic, bouncing off the walls. the movie was long forgotten. yn peeked out from where sheâd been hiding against jayâs chest, her cheeks still pink but her eyes sparkling.
jay caught her glance, his hand brushing her jaw with the kind of subtle affection that made her heart twist. âdonât worry about them, angel,â he murmured softly, just for her. âtheyâll forget in ten minutes.â
âthey wonât,â she whispered back.
he smiled. âmaybe not. but i donât mind anymore.â
â...you donât?â
he shook his head slowly, eyes warm. ânah. let them see. youâre worth it.â
ìŹ JAKE @ jake's cousin's wedding
the reception hall shimmered with warm light â the chandeliers glinting like champagne bubbles, laughter floating through the air, and music soft enough to hum under. jakeâs cousinâs wedding had been beautiful from start to finish â the vows, the dinner, the dance â all of it steeped in that dreamy kind of happiness that made even the guests feel like they were in love.
yn looked radiant under the golden lights. her dress â a soft pastel that caught the light every time she moved â fluttered just around her knees, and jake couldnât take his eyes off her all night. five years together, and she still made his heart skip. every smile, every laugh â it still hit him the same way it did when they first met.
he was sitting with his cousins at one of the side tables, laughing at some joke sunghoon had sent him over text, when the djâs voice rang out over the speakers.
immediately, a cheer rippled through the crowd. chairs shuffled, laughter broke out, and all the unmarried girls â cousins, friends, and bridesmaids â gathered near the stage.
âgo, go!â jakeâs aunt encouraged, waving yn over with a grin.
she laughed, shaking her head. âno way, iâm notââ
but before she could finish, two of jakeâs cousins grabbed her by the wrist, giggling as they dragged her to the growing circle. âyou have to! itâs tradition!â
jake leaned back in his chair, smiling at the sight of her joining the group. her hair framed her face perfectly, eyes bright with laughter as she took her spot among the others. he caught her glance just once â that quick, nervous smile she always gave when she was out of her comfort zone â and he gave her a reassuring nod, mouthing, you got this, baby.
she rolled her eyes, but he saw the way her lips twitched up anyway.
the bride, laughing, turned around and gave the bouquet a few fake tosses to build suspense. the crowd cheered, some shouting names, others raising their phones to record.
and then â she threw it.
a flash of petals, a flurry of hands â and before anyone could blink, yn was standing there with the bouquet in her hands, eyes wide and mouth slightly open in disbelief.
the crowd erupted.
cheers, clapping, whistles â and a few teasing screams of, ânext bride right there!â
her face turned pink instantly. she clutched the bouquet tight to her chest and laughed, shy and flustered. jake, watching from across the room, couldnât help but grin â that soft, full kind of smile that reached his eyes.
before anyone could tease her further, she scanned the crowd â and the moment her gaze found him, it was like the rest of the room disappeared.
she didnât look at anyone else.
still smiling, still clutching the bouquet, she made her way across the dance floor toward him, weaving through tables and laughing relatives. every step was light, every movement filled with excitement that she wasnât even trying to hide.
jake stood up without thinking.
when she reached him, she held up the bouquet proudly, eyes sparkling. âjakey,â she beamed, slightly breathless, âi caught it!â
he chuckled softly, reaching out to steady her hand. âyou did, huh?â
âyeah!â she said, her smile radiant. âcan you believe it?â
âi can,â he murmured, gaze softening. âyou look beautiful, baby.â
her blush deepened, but before she could say anything else, she leaned up on her toes and pressed a quick, delighted kiss to his cheek â spontaneous, unplanned, pure joy.
and thatâs exactly when the teasing started.
from a nearby table came a chorus of playful gasps and laughter. âohhh, look at that!â one of his cousins crowed. âheâs next, heâs next!â
âawww, thatâs so cute!â another cooed. âlook how happy she is!â
âfive years and now the bouquet? jake, you better start practicing your vows!â someone else teased, and the whole table erupted in laughter.
yn froze mid-smile, her face going scarlet. âoh my god,â she muttered under her breath, burying her face half in the bouquet. âthey saw that?â
jake only laughed, slipping an arm around her waist and pulling her closer. âyeah, baby,â he murmured against her hair, amused. âpretty sure the whole family saw.â
âjakey,â she groaned, voice muffled against his shoulder. âtheyâre never gonna let me live this down.â
he smiled, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of her head. âmaybe not. but itâs cute. youâre cute.â
she peeked up at him with a small, shy grin. âyouâre not embarrassed?â
ânot even a little,â he said honestly. âyou just made my night.â
her smile softened, eyes shining under the lights. around them, his relatives were still laughing and teasing, but for a moment, it all faded. it was just them â her in his arms, still holding the bouquet like it meant something more, him looking at her like he already knew it did.
jake brushed a stray hair from her face, his thumb lingering against her cheek. âyou know,â he murmured, voice barely above the music, âyou catching that bouquet feels kind of⊠fitting.â
she tilted her head, curious. âfitting?â
he smirked lightly, eyes glinting with that familiar mischief. âmm. youâll see.â
âjakey,â she said suspiciously, narrowing her eyes. âwhat are youââ
but before she could finish, one of his uncles yelled from across the room, âjake! next time weâre here, it better be for your wedding!â
the entire room burst into laughter again, and yn hid her face in his chest, laughing helplessly. jake wrapped both arms around her this time, shaking his head but smiling like a man who couldnât stop himself even if he tried.
he kissed the top of her head once more â slow, tender, and full of quiet affection.
âdonât worry, baby,â he murmured so only she could hear, âtheyâll get what they want soon enough.â
because tucked away back home, sitting safely in his top drawer, was a ring box â one heâd been carrying from country to country for weeks now, waiting for the perfect moment.
ë° SUNGHOON @ a friend's bday party
sunghoon was gone. likeâabsolutely gone. the kind of gone where his grin never quite left his face, and his words had started slurring so much that even his friends stopped pretending they understood him. it wasnât often that anyone got to see him this wayâhe was usually the composed one, the one dragging everyone else home before they did something stupid.
but tonight? nope. tonight, park sunghoon was the chaos.
and yn, sweet and patient as ever, was his babysitter.
sheâd been by his side most of the night, keeping a loose hold on his wrist whenever he wandered too far, smiling fondly whenever he laughed too loudly. she hadnât drunk a sipânot because she didnât want to have fun, but because someone had to make sure her boyfriend didnât end up doing karaoke on top of the table again.
currently, he was slouched against the couch, one arm lazily thrown over her shoulders, hair sticking up in every direction. he was giggling at something heeseung had saidâsomething not even remotely funnyâbut to sunghoon, it might as well have been the best joke in the world.
âhoon,â yn murmured softly, brushing her thumb over his knee. âitâs late, baby. letâs go home, hmm?â
he turned to her with wide, glassy eyes, that lazy smile still playing on his lips. âhome? but the partyâsââ he hiccuped ââjust getting started!â
âitâs two a.m.,â she said gently, pushing a stray strand of hair away from his forehead.
he blinked. âthatâs early.â
she huffed a laugh. âyouâve been saying that for the past hour.â
sunghoon frowned, then brightened up suddenly as he spotted another round of drinks being brought over. âsee? more drinks! iâm not even drunk yet, angel.â
that made half the room laugh. jay nearly choked on his beer. ânot drunk, huh? tell that to the guy who called heeseung âhyungnim of my soulâ five minutes ago.â
that earned another round of laughter. yn tried to hide her smile behind her hand, but sunghoon noticed and dramatically gasped. âyouâre laughing at me!â he accused, pointing at her with mock offense.
she giggled. âiâm not laughing at you, hoon. iâm just saying maybe we should call it a night, yeah? before you say something else youâll regret tomorrow.â
âi donât regret anything when it comes to you, baby,â he slurred, leaning closer. the cheesy tone wouldâve made her roll her eyes if it werenât for the pure sincerity in his gazeâmessy and tipsy as he was, he meant it.
her heart softened. âcâmon,â she whispered, tilting her head slightly. âif you come with me, iâll give you something better than another drink.â
he blinked, processing that. âbetter?â
âmhm.â she leaned forward, brushing a soft kiss against his lipsâjust a peck, but enough to make him melt. his hand automatically came up to her cheek, his thumb grazing her jaw as he chased after her lips when she pulled back.
the room erupted in whoops and laughter.
âoh my godâlook at him!â jay howled.
âheâs gone,â jake cackled, smacking heeseungâs arm. âshe kissed him and the man folded instantly.â
sunghoon groaned, leaning his forehead against ynâs shoulder. âtheyâre so loud,â he muttered.
âyou deserve it,â she teased softly, rubbing circles on his back. âthatâs what you get for saying youâre not drunk.â
she then mumbled something incoherent, her words muffled against him. then, suddenly, he straightened up and stood, swaying just slightly before regaining his balance. âfine,â he announced, determination flashing across his face. âweâre going home.â
the others burst into laughter again, their teasing turning into exaggerated claps and whistles.
âa miracle!â sunoo called out. âheâs finally listening!â
âwhat did you say to him?â jungwon asked, grinning wide.
yn just smirked, standing up to grab her bag. âwouldnât you like to know.â
the boys erupted again at that, teasing sunghoon even more as he reached for her hand, tugging her closer. his expression was adorably serious despite the way he was clearly fighting to stay upright.
âletâs go home, baby,â he murmured, low enough for only her to hear. âyou promised me something better, remember?â
she bit back a laugh, slipping her hand into his. âyeah, yeah. letâs get you out of here before you start confessing to the furniture again.â
as she led him toward the door, he stopped for a second, turning to glance back at their friends. âyou guys are just jealous,â he slurred proudly, arm sliding around ynâs waist. âsheâs mine.â
that only fueled the chaos.
âalright, loverboy,â heeseung called between laughs. âgo before you say something sheâll make you regret later!â
sunghoon just grinned, pressing a sloppy kiss to ynâs temple before leaning close to whisper, âyou are coming home with me, right?â
she looked up at him fondly, shaking her head with a small smile. âalways, hoon.â
he beamed at thatâgiddy, tipsy, utterly smitten.
and as they disappeared out the door, hand in hand, the room behind them was still filled with laughter and teasingâbut sunghoon didnât hear any of it. all he could think about was herâhis patient, beautiful, way-too-good-for-him girlfriend who somehow made even his drunkest nights feel like the best ones.
êč SUNOO @ sunoo's family house
the living room was cozy, filled with the quiet hum of a family settling in after a long day. yn had spent the past three days at sunooâs house, getting a crash course in his familyâs dynamicâand, more importantly, bonding with his older sister, who had been relentlessly kind, witty, and slightly competitive over âclaimingâ yn for herself.
sunoo had spent most of the afternoon half-laughing, half-feigning offense at how his sister seemed to corner yn whenever possible.
âhey!â he called from the couch, waving a hand dramatically. âgive her back!â
his sister laughed, an arm around ynâs shoulder as if to stake her claim. âoh, sunoo, relax. iâm just making sure sheâs well-fed and entertained. youâre too slow sometimes, sunoo.â
sunooâs jaw dropped, and he threw himself backward into the couch cushions, throwing his arms up in mock defeat. âwell-fed?! entertained?! thatâs my girlfriend, not a houseguest!â
yn giggled, caught in the crossfire of teasing that had been ongoing all day. âyou two are ridiculous,â she said, shaking her head, but the light in her eyes betrayed how much she enjoyed the banter.
âoh, iâm ridiculous,â his sister said with a grin. âand she likes it. admit it, sunoo.â
sunoo narrowed his eyes at her sister, lips twitching into a grin that was all mischief and mock indignation. âsheâs mine!â he proclaimed, turning to yn with his arms open as if to sweep her up in a protective hug.
yn laughed, holding up her hands in surrender. âiâm staying right here,â she said, stepping closer to sunoo, wrapping a small hand around his wrist. âiâm not going anywhere.â
the teasing continued, but eventually, the family gathered around the dinner table, the playful chaos giving way to the warm, aromatic comfort of a home-cooked meal. sunooâs parents watched quietly, smiling at the lively energy of their children and the âguestâ who had quickly become part of the family.
as the meal progressed, yn found herself passing around dishes, laughing at his sisterâs incessant commentary on everything from seasoning choices to the right way to serve the dessert. when she reached sunoo with a small plate, he took it from her hand, his eyes catching hers for just a beat longer than necessary.
âthanks, baby,â he said softly, voice just above a whisper, the warmth in it unmistakable.
ynâs lips curved into a playful, affectionate smile. without thinking, she pressed a gentle kiss to his cheek, leaving a soft imprint. âanytime, sunny,â she murmured, her voice tender, her fingers brushing against his hand for a brief, fleeting touch that sent warmth straight to his chest.
sunooâs head snapped slightly toward his sister, eyes wide and triumphant, as if to silently say, see? i win.
the room erupted into soft chuckles, yn giggling as she sat back in her chair, smiling at him fondly. sunoo, still flushed with a mix of pride and affection, leaned slightly toward her, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear. âsee?â he whispered, only for her to hear. âsheâs mine. nobody gets to claim you, baby.â
ynâs cheeks warmed, and she leaned into him slightly, pressing her forehead against his shoulder. âiâm all yours, sunny. always,â she whispered back.
from across the table, their parents exchanged amused glances, silent but utterly enamored with the display. the subtle affection, the playful teasing, and the ease between them was unmistakable.
sunooâs sister, though pretending to pout, was smiling just as broadly, shaking her head. âfine, fine,â she said, throwing up her hands. âyou win today, sunoo. but donât get too cockyâiâll be back.â
sunoo grinned, kissing the top of ynâs hand. âchallenge accepted,â he whispered.
ì JUNGWON @ the hybe practice room
jungwon sat slumped in the far corner of the practice room, back against the mirrored wall, a towel draped around his neck and his phone loosely cradled in his hand. sweat clung to his skin, darkening his shirt at the collar and chest. his breathing had evened out after their last run-through, but the exhaustion written across his face was deeper than just physical.
heâd been running on fumes for days nowâearly call times, endless rehearsals, back-to-back interviews. he did what he always did: smiled, led, encouraged. but the sparkle that usually accompanied his grin had dulled. even the boysâwho were just as tiredâhad noticed how quiet heâd gotten, how much longer he lingered on his phone between breaks. they knew who he was waiting on.
âman looks like heâs about to cry if she doesnât text back soon,â sunoo murmured, nudging riki.
jake shot him a look but chuckled softly. âhonestly? iâd cry too if i hadnât seen my girlfriend in two weeks.â
jay nodded from where he was tying his shoe. âhe misses her bad. havenât seen him pout this much since we ran out of banana milk in the dorm.â
they laughed, but it wasnât unkind. they all loved ynâshe was the calm to jungwonâs endless rhythm, the one person who could make their usually composed leader blush and stumble over his words.
and right now, the poor guy looked absolutely miserable.
he scrolled back through her old messages again, thumb tracing the words like he could somehow feel her through the screen. his lips quirked faintly at one of her old jokes, but it was small, fleeting. his eyes were tired.
thatâs when the door creaked open.
jungwon didnât even look up at first, too lost in thought. but the others straightened immediately, a ripple of smiles passing through them as yn stepped inside, holding a water bottle and a small tote bag.
she looked around until her gaze found himâand in that second, everything about him changed.
jungwonâs head snapped up, eyes widening, his pout dissolving into something softer, something almost disbelieving. â...yn?â his voice cracked, quiet, hopeful.
ynâs lips curved into the gentlest smile as she nodded, setting her things down by the door before walking toward him.
the boys quickly shuffled to one side of the room, pretending to busy themselves with the speakers or stretchingâbut they werenât fooling anyone. every single one of them was watching.
when she reached him, jungwon finally pushed himself to his feet, the exhaustion in his limbs replaced by the kind of energy only she could bring out of him. he looked like he wanted to say something, but instead, he just stood there, blinking at her, throat tight.
âyou look like youâve been running yourself into the ground again,â yn said softly, brushing a damp strand of hair off his forehead.
he gave a sheepish half-smile. âmaybe a little.â
she clicked her tongue. âa little?â her voice was gentle but teasing as she cupped his face, thumbs brushing under his eyes. âyou havenât been sleeping, have you?â
âiâm fine, baby,â he murmured automatically, leaning into her touch before his eyes fluttered shut. âi just⊠missed you.â
her heart squeezed. âi missed you too, wonnie.â
something about the nicknameâso soft, so herâmade his composure crumble completely. his hands found her waist, holding on as if to ground himself, and before she could say anything else, his forehead dropped against her shoulder.
yn ran her fingers through jungwonâs hair, massaging his scalp gently. he sighed into her neck, the tension in his shoulders finally starting to release. for a moment, all he did was breatheâslow, deep, unhurried breaths like he hadnât allowed himself to in days.
when he finally lifted his head again, she smiled and kissed the corner of his mouth. then another one on his cheek. then his temple. each one softer than the last.
he blinked, dazed, a little pink spreading across his cheeks. âwhat was that for?â
âfor missing me too much,â she said simply, brushing her nose against his.
the teasing chatter from across the room started instantly.
âaw, theyâre so sweet,â sunoo cooed dramatically.
jake grinned. âlook at our leader, all lovesick.â
jay nudged heeseung, who was grinning wide. âi think he just recharged his entire system.â
jungwon flushed even harder, burying his face against ynâs neck for a second. âtheyâre watching,â he mumbled.
she laughed softly, hand rubbing slow circles on his back. âlet them. they missed seeing you smile too.â
he huffed a small laugh but didnât pull away right away, content to stay there, her scent grounding him more than any nap ever could.
finally, he looked up, his hand trailing down her arm to lace their fingers together. his voice was quiet but full of relief. âyou always know exactly when i need you, baby.â
her eyes softened. âalways, wonnie. thatâs my job.â
the boys melted behind them, even if theyâd never admit it.
as yn helped him sit back down, handing him the water she brought, he looked at her like she was sunlight after a stormâeyes soft, smile barely there but full of warmth.
è„żæ RIKI @ their local fast food place
the fluorescent lights of the fast-food joint flickered softly above them, casting a warm glow over the table littered with paper wrappers, half-eaten fries, and sodden napkins. the smell of fried food and soda lingered in the air, mingling with laughter and chatter from other late-night patrons. it was chaotic, yesâbut in the best way. this was exactly the kind of casual chaos riki and yn loved when they were out with their friends.
riki leaned back in his chair, arms crossed over his chest, a grin tugging at the corners of his lips. normally, he wouldâve been the cool, effortless one at the table, casually tossing a fry into his mouth while smirking at the othersâ antics. but tonight, yn had something in mind.
âyouâre not finishing your fries,â she said, sliding a paper tray closer to him.
âiâll survive,â he said nonchalantly, though the slight twitch of his eyebrows betrayed him. he was looking at her, after all.
âriks,â she coaxed, her tone soft and playful, leaning across the table to lightly poke his chest. âeat them, or iâll eat them for you.â
he raised an eyebrow, clearly impressed by her persistence but unwilling to give her the satisfaction. âare you threatening me?â
âyes,â she said, nodding solemnly, pressing a fry into his hand like a peace offering-slash-command. âbut lovingly.â
the moment was small, almost mundaneâbut rikiâs friends couldnât help themselves. they exchanged knowing smirks and subtle nudges, already sensing what was about to happen.
riki finally sighed, surrendering just slightly. âfine,â he said, munching on the fry sheâd offered. âyouâre spoiling me tonight, baby girl.â
ynâs grin widened, almost predatory in its sweetness. âmhm. you deserve it.â she reached over, brushing a strand of hair from his forehead with her fingers. âyouâve been working hard, and you need your love.â
riki blinked, caught off guard by the tenderness in her voice. his casual grin faltered into a soft smile, the type he only reserved for her. âyou always know what to say,â he murmured, leaning into her touch.
âof course,â she whispered, leaning closer, placing a playful kiss on his temple. the warmth lingered, making his usual confident air falter into something more relaxed, moreâŠsoft.
from the edge of the booth, their friends nearly lost it.
âheâs blushing!â jay exclaimed, barely able to contain himself.
âno way,â sunghoon said, trying to look casual but failing spectacularly, his gaze flicking between them. âriki? blushing? this canât be real.â
jake chuckled, leaning back in his chair. âi like seeing him like this. ynâs doing it. sheâs⊠babying him.â
riki, oblivious to most of the teasing, only smiled at yn, resting his hand over hers. âyou really are something, baby girl,â he murmured. âalways making me feel like this.â
yn pressed her cheek to the back of his hand, savoring the warmth. âbecause youâre worth it, riki baby.â
he couldnât help the small, genuine laugh that slipped out. it was rare, reserved only for her. he looked around at their friends, shrugging as if to say, yeah, this is me now. deal with it.
and, of course, they didnât deal with it silently.
âoh my god, ynâs babying riki?â sunoo asked, mock horror in his voice. âi think i just witnessed a miracle.â
ânext thing you know, heâll be asking for cuddles before bed,â jay added, grinning wide.
riki groaned dramatically, though the blush creeping over his cheeks betrayed him. âshut up,â he said, leaning into ynâs side. âyouâre lucky sheâs mine.â
ynâs fingers traced idle patterns on his arm, brushing his hand with hers. âalways, riks. donât you forget it.â
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They didnât mean to hurt you â but they did.
And you started changing because of it.
Now they notice⊠and itâs already different.
USHIJIMA WAKATOSHI
âWatch what you eat,â Ushijima says, voice low, neutral. Heâs looking at your tray like itâs offended him.
You smileâa practiced, automatic thingâand laugh it off.
âOh, right. Yeah. Just hungry, I guess.â
He nods. Just once.
And thatâs the end of it. To him, anyway.
The next day, you bring a salad. You poke at the lettuce with your plastic fork, chew each bite like penance. He glances at your lunch, says nothing.
The day after, itâs just fruit. You peel a clementine slowly, fingers sticky with juice, and avoid his eyes.
Then you stop bringing your usual snack. The one he used to reach over and steal a bite of without asking. The one that always made him smileâsubtly, but still. Now your bag is empty. So are you.
By the fourth day, Tendou corners him by the gym doors.
âHey, Wakatoshi,â he says, voice too light. âYou realize sheâs barely eating, right?â
Ushijima blinks. Still, silent. His gaze drifts toward youâsitting against the wall, water bottle untouched, your eyes vacant in a way he canât quite name.
That evening, practice ends. The sun is low, gym almost empty. You sit alone on the bleachers, staring at nothing, your fingers curling around the hem of your sleeve.
He approaches without a word, sits beside you like it's instinct. In his hands: two onigiri, wrapped carefully.
âI didnât mean it that way,â he says, eyes on the rice, not you. âI just⊠I care if you're healthy. Not thinner.â
You donât respond. Your fingers twitch toward your bag, but fall short. He places one onigiri in your lap, the other in his own hands.
You pick at the rice. Slowly. Cautiously. Like youâve forgotten how to be hungry.
He doesnât speak. Just sits with you, quiet, steady. Watching.
Thereâs guilt in the way his shoulders slope. In the way his chopsticks pause every few bites, waiting to see if youâll keep going.
You finish half. Itâs the most youâve eaten all week.
He nudges the second one a little closer. Not pushingâjust offering.
âPlease eat,â he says, barely louder than a whisper. âWith me.â
And you do.
For a long time, he says nothing else. But his silence is kind now. Careful.
And when he finally looks at you, itâs with eyes that say heâs sorry in all the ways words canât.
SHIRABU KENJIRO
The words slipped out of Shirabuâs mouth like a diagnosisâclinical, cold, final.
And the worst part?
You werenât even fighting.
You had just spilled tea on your notesâweeks of lectures and scribbled diagrams now soaked through and curling at the edges. You laughed, a little sheepishly, brushing at the mess with your sleeve. âWell. Thatâs my sign to take a break, I guessââ
He didnât laugh.
He stared at the papers like theyâd personally offended him.
âYouâre not cut out for the kind of future I want.â
You blinked.
ââŠFuture?â
He nodded once, distracted, eyes already flicking back to his laptop. âMedicineâs not for people who lose focus. Who make little mistakes.â
You smiled, like it didnât sting.
Laughed, like you hadnât heard that same voice in your own head on bad days.
âRight. Of course.â
That night, you stayed up redoing your notes from scratch.
And the night after that.
And the one after that.
You started waking up before him.
Stopped doodling in the margins of your med books.
Stopped humming when you cooked, because every second needed to be productive.
Coffee became a meal. Sleep became a luxury.
You didnât complain. Didnât cry.
Just⊠shifted. Quietly. Carefully. Willfully.
The version of you Shirabu fell forâthe one who teased him while quizzing him on anatomy terms, who wore fuzzy socks to study groups, who once made him a human heart out of Jello just to prove a jokeâshe was slowly fading.
At first, he liked the change.
The silence. The discipline.
The way your pens were always aligned now.
The way you never interrupted him mid-sentence anymore.
But thenâŠ
He noticed.
You never touched him just because anymore.
Never made dumb puns over dinner.
Your shoulders stayed tense even in your sleep.
The music in your world had gone quietâand he hadnât realized how much he loved its sound until it disappeared.
One night, he came home late from the library and found you at your desk, fast asleep.
Your glasses were still on.
Your hand was stained with blue ink, fingertips trembling slightly from too much caffeine and too little rest.
There was a cut on your thumb from a broken pen.
Your lips were dry.
You looked paleâdrained, like all your color had been slowly siphoned away.
He didnât say anything. Just stood there, heart sinking.
And when he touched your hand, you didnât even stir.
He sat down beside you, swallowing guilt like poison.
âI didnât mean for you to become someone else,â he whispered, the words raw and foreign in his mouth. âI just wanted you with me. I didnât realize I was asking you to lose yourself.â
His voice cracked.
For the first time in years, he cried.
Quietly.
Beside you.
Because you were still there. Breathing. Trying.
But something in you had cracked.
And he had been the one to make the first fracture.
TSUKISHIMA KEI
That was the last thing he said to you that day.
You had just finished gushing about your favorite showâsomething about parallel universes and time loops and a sad, smiley villain who reminded you of him (your words, not his).
You were laughing, hands moving, eyes bright.
And he had sighed, leaned back in his chair, and muttered:
âAre you done yet?â
You blinked.
Laughed it off. âRight. Sorry. Got carried away.â
He didnât respond. Just went back to scrolling.
After that, you didnât talk about your favorite shows anymore.
Stopped sending him memes.
Stopped rambling in long voice notes that always ended with you laughing at your own jokes.
He noticed, of course. But didnât say anything.
Yamaguchi did.
âShe doesnât text you stuff anymore, huh?â
Tsukishima scoffed. âDidnât realize you were tracking my notifications.â
But later that night, alone in his room, he opened your chat.
Scrolled through the silence.
Past the last thing you sentâa meme, three weeks ago. A stupid one, about dinosaurs and headphones. He hadnât even reacted to it.
The empty space beneath it felt louder than any rant you used to send.
The next day, he walked past a store on the way home and froze.
In the window: a little keychain of your favorite character.
The one you wouldnât shut up about for two whole weeks.
The one he pretended not to care about but secretly knew the name of.
He bought it.
He didnât even think. Just⊠did.
The next morning, he dropped it on your desk before class. No warning. No note.
You blinked, staring at the tiny figure in your hand.
âWhatâs this for?â
He adjusted his glasses, gaze fixed somewhere over your shoulder.
âSo youâll annoy me again.â
You stared at him for a beat, stunned. Then your lips twitched.
You didnât say anything.
But that night, he got a message.
[you]: i just rewatched episode 8 again and i need you to understand how emotionally devastating that scene was. also this keychain is SO cute i might cry.
He read it three times.
Smiled. Just a little.
(Translation: I forgive you. I missed you too.)
SUNA RINTARO
He had said it offhandedly. Barely looking up from his phone.
You had just sent him a selfieâyour hair a little messy, eyes a little dull, but your smile was there. Honest. Tired, maybe. But still you.
And he said:
âYou look tired.â
You blinked at the screen, lips twitching in a way that didnât quite reach your eyes.
Then replied,
âYeah. Been a long day.â
After that, you stopped sending selfies.
Started fixing your hair more before calls.
Wore cooler tones. More neutrals. Nothing bright. Nothing bold.
Started double-checking the lighting. Your angles. Yourself.
One day you joked,
âBetter not look tired again, right?â
But your voice was too quiet. The kind that curls at the edge of something fragile.
Atsumu noticed it first.
âShe doesnât send you stuff anymore, huh?â
Suna didnât answer.
âYou told her she looked tired, didnât you?â
He shrugged. But his thumb froze over your chat.
Unread messages: none.
The last picture you sent had disappeared after twenty-four hours. You didnât save it.
And you hadnât sent another since.
The silence in the thread felt heavier than words.
So he stared at his camera for a long second, then sighed and snapped a picture.
No filters. No angles. Just himâmessy hair, hoodie hood half-on, eyes barely open.
He sent it with a message:
âThis is how I look when I actually look tired.â
âYou always look like someone I wanna keep looking at.â
You stared at the screen. Chest aching.
Then, finally:
[you]: you're still bad at words.
[suna]: yeah. but iâm trying.
And he was.
In his own wayâawkward, quiet, a little late.
But trying.
(And somehow, that was what mattered most.)
OIKAWA TOORU
You didnât mean to bother him.
You had only sent three messages.
Short ones. Thoughtful, even.
[you]: hey, u free later?
[you]: you okay? youâve been quiet today.
[you]: let me know if you need anything. iâll leave you be. promise.
And then it came.
His reply.
Flat. Dismissive.
Laced with exhaustion and that familiar edge he gets when heâs overwhelmed.
[oikawa]: youâre really needy sometimes.
You stared at the screen for a moment too long.
Then you smiled. The kind of smile you force when people are watching.
âlol sorry. my bad.â
One last message. That was all.
And then you stopped.
You stopped texting first.
Stopped sending him memes you knew would make him laugh.
Stopped double-texting, triple-texting.
Stopped reaching out at all.
You gave him what he seemed to want.
Space.
He noticed by dinner.
By the time the team wrapped up practice, Oikawa was already scrolling through your messages, rereading old ones like a lifeline.
There were no new ones.
No âI miss you.â
No âGoodnight.â
Just⊠nothing.
He opened your chat three times that night.
Typed. Deleted.
Typed. Deleted again.
What was he even supposed to say?
Iwaizumi noticed the silence too.
âSheâs not needy,â he said while they packed up. âYouâre just used to being worshipped.â
That stung.
Because it was true.
Oikawa Tooru had always been admiredâon the court, online, in every room he walked into.
He thought love looked like attention.
He hadnât realized until now that heâd treated your warmth like a reflex, not a choice.
Until you took it away.
Until your silence said everything.
So three nights later, he was standing in front of your door.
A hoodie pulled over his head. Hands stuffed deep in his pockets. He looked small. Not in heightâbut in guilt.
He knocked.
Once.
Twice.
You opened it.
Your eyes were tired. Guarded. The space between you filled with things unsaid.
Oikawaâs voice was low. He didnât even try to smile.
ââŠI miss your âneedy,ââ he said.
You blinked, lips parting slightly.
âI miss you.â
Still, you said nothing. Just looked at him like you werenât sure if this was another performance or the real thing.
âI donât want space,â he continued. âI want your clingy texts. I want the memes. The constant check-ins. The way you send me random thoughts at midnight.â
He looked down at his shoes.
âI want everything. Even the parts I didnât appreciate.â
Silence.
Then he looked up, eyes raw.
âI only push away the people I care too much about,â he whispered. âAnd thatâs you.â
It wasnât poetic.
It wasnât dramatic.
It was just honest.
For a long moment, you stood there. Then, slowlyâquietlyâyou stepped aside.
He didnât wait for permission.
He just walked in, shoulders trembling slightly.
You closed the door behind him.
And neither of you said another word.
Because this time, he would show you through presence what he failed to express in words.
He came back.
And he didnât let go.
SAKUSA KIYOOMI
It was just a bad game.
He was frustrated. Quiet. His shoulders tight. His jaw locked.
You knew how he got.
You didnât say anything.
You just reached outâsoftly, gentlyâfor his hand.
Not to fix him. Just to say Iâm here.
But he pulled back like your touch burned him.
âDonât touch me right now.â
The words werenât loud.
They didnât need to be.
You blinked, hand frozen mid-air. Then you let it drop, your voice a quiet crumble.
ââŠSorry.â
That was it.
You stepped back. Gave him space.
And from that day on, you stayed there.
You stopped reaching for him.
Stopped brushing your fingers against his sleeve when you passed by.
Stopped fixing his hair when it curled over his forehead.
Stopped lacing your fingers through his on long walks.
You hesitated nowâevery time.
Your hands hovered near him, never landing.
And Kiyoomi⊠didnât notice.
Not at first.
But Komori did.
He waited until the locker room was empty, then slammed his locker shut louder than necessary.
âYou told her not to touch you,â he said, arms crossed. âAnd now she doesnât. Happy?â
Kiyoomi blinked, confused.
âShe flinched when you brushed her arm, Omi. She flinched. That girl used to hold your hand like it was second nature.â
The words hit harder than they shouldâve.
Komori left. Kiyoomi sat down, heart unsettled, brain replaying every tiny momentâyour hands curled into your lap, your stiff shoulders, the way your gaze flicked to his fingers then away.
It was true.
You were gone, somehow, even while still beside him.
That nightâno, early morningâhe couldnât sleep.
He stared at his phone screen in the dark, thumbs hovering. Then:
[sakusa]: iâm sorry. i didnât mean to make you feel unwanted.
No typing bubbles appeared.
He didnât expect them to.
But the next day, he found you outside the gym, hugging your arms to yourself, pretending not to see him.
He walked straight to you.
You looked up, cautious.
He didnât speak. Not yet.
He just reached forwardâand for once, it was him who was shakingâand took your hand. Both of his around yours, like anchoring something fragile.
You looked down at the connection.
Then back at him.
His voice was hoarse, barely above a whisper.
âI want you close,â he said. âEven when Iâm upset. Especially then.â
Your lip trembled.
He held your hand tighter.
And in that quiet moment, on the edge of hurt and healing, you let yourself believe him.
Because sometimes, people push away what they need most.
And sometimes, if theyâre lucky, they get the chance to hold it again.
KENMA KOZUME
You used to sit beside him.
No words. No noise.
Just quiet company while his fingers danced across the keyboard, headset snug over his ears.
You liked being close.
He never complainedâuntil one night, between matches, he muttered without looking at you:
âYouâre kind of distracting when Iâm streaming.â
It wasnât cruel.
It wasnât sharp.
But it stuck.
You blinked. âOh.â
And after that⊠you stopped.
You stopped bringing snacks and dropping soft kisses to his temple when he won.
Stopped curling up next to him.
Stopped humming under your breath or watching from the corner of his screen.
You stayed in your room more.
Quiet. Out of sight.
Invisible.
Kenma didnât notice at firstâtoo busy adjusting his settings, managing collabs, climbing ranks.
But Kuroo noticed.
Over Discord, mid-game, as Kenma sat in silence between rounds, Kuroo muttered:
âShe doesnât bug you anymore, huh?â
Kenma blinked.
âWhat?â
âYou look kinda lonely now.â
The words landed like a delayed hit.
Kenma glanced to the sideâout of instinctâat the space where you used to sit.
Empty.
Still.
He stared longer than he meant to.
His fingers paused over the keys.
The stream kept running. The chat wondered what happened. But Kenma didnât move.
Later that night, he found himself in front of your door.
A bag of your favorite snacks in hand. Slightly crumpled from how tightly heâd been holding it.
He knocked once. Soft.
You opened the door, eyes tired.
Surprised.
He didnât speak at first. Just held out the bag.
ââŠWhatâs this?â you asked quietly.
âPeace offering.â
Your brow arched. âYou said I was distracting.â
He looked down, fingers flexing.
âI know,â he murmured. âI was wrong.â
You stayed quiet.
So he stepped forward, placed the snack gently beside his controller on his desk, then turned back to you.
âCome sit with me?â he asked.
Then, even softer:
âI miss your noise.â
You blinked.
And for the first time in days, your lips curvedâjust slightly.
He held his hand out toward you.
And this time, when you took it, he didnât let go.
Not even when the game started.
Not even when chat noticed.
Because he wasnât playing to win anymore.
He just wanted you back beside him.
Even if you distracted him.
Especially if you did.
MIYA ATSUMU
You hadnât meant to cry.
You didnât even realize it was happeningâuntil your voice cracked mid-sentence, and you saw the way Atsumuâs expression tightened, not with concern, but irritation.
âIâm not in the mood for your drama right now.â
It hit like a slammed door.
You blinked once. Twice.
Then you nodded.
"Sorry," you said, voice barely there.
And after thatâyou stopped.
You stopped venting.
Stopped opening up.
Started smiling too wide, laughing a little too quickly.
"Iâm fine."
"Just tired."
"Nothing big."
You said it so much, you almost believed it.
But Atsumu didnât.
Not at firstâhe was too wrapped up in training, in pressure, in exhaustion and ego.
But Osamu noticed.
âYou broke something, yâknow,â he said one night, tossing a towel over Atsumuâs head.
âYou might wanna fix it before it stays broken.â
Thatâs what finally made him pause.
And thatâs what led him hereâ
To the empty gym hallway, where he found you sitting against the wall, knees to your chest, eyes blank.
You didnât notice him at first.
Didnât look up.
Didnât flinch.
He walked over, crouched down, and gently rested his forehead against your shoulder.
ââŠIâm the drama,â he whispered, voice raw. âNot you.â
You stayed quiet.
He clenched his fists. Loosened them. Then tried again.
âPlease donât hide your feelings from me. Ever.â
Your throat tightened.
You looked away, eyes burning, lip tremblingâbut still, you said nothing.
So Atsumu pulled you into his arms.
Held you there. Not asking for forgiveness, not rushing itâjust there.
âI was stupid,â he mumbled into your hair.
âI was tired and selfish and I made you feel like too much.â
His voice cracked.
âYouâre not too much. I was just too stupid to handle someone real.â
You didnât say anything right away.
But your hands slowlyâfinallyâgripped the back of his jersey.
And that was enough.
Because this time, he wouldnât let go first.
KITA SHINSUKE
You were tired.
Not just physically, but the kind of tired that settles in your chest and makes everything feel heavier.
You forgot to do something small â misplanted a row of seedlings in your shared garden, or maybe you overslept and missed breakfast with him.
He didnât yell.
He never did.
Just that calm, steady voice:
âThatâs not very disciplined of you.â
No anger. Just disappointment.
And somehow, that was worse.
It clung to you for days.
You started fixing your posture more, triple-checking tasks, waking up earlier than needed.
No more lazy mornings. No more spontaneous dancing in the rain or lying in the grass just to feel the sun.
You stopped being soft. You started being⊠correct.
And he noticed.
How your laugh faded.
How your hands trembled when you thought he was watching.
It was Aran who quietly pulled him aside one afternoon.
They were harvesting. The sun was warm. But Kita felt cold at the words:
âSheâs not blooming anymore. Sheâs surviving.â
âYouâre so focused on raising standards⊠you didnât see her lower herself.â
That night, he found you tending the garden.
The same bed you both built together.
The soil was dry. The petals curled inward. And so were you.
He knelt beside you silently, heart heavy.
âDiscipline matters,â he started. âBut so does grace. I shouldâve given you more of it.â
You didnât look at him.
Your fingers kept digging gently through the soil.
So he did something rare.
He placed his hand over yours.
Soft. Still. Sure.
âYou donât need to be perfect⊠to be precious to me.â
Your breath hitched.
And when you finally looked up â eyes glassy, dirt smudged on your cheek â
he smiled, just barely.
âLetâs grow softer things. Together.â
KAGEYAMA TOBIO
Youâd tried something new.
Maybe you curled your hair, tried eyeliner, wore that outfit you werenât sure about but finally had the courage to put on.
You didnât expect a grand reaction.
But you didnât expect that either.
âYou look weird.â
He didnât laugh.
Didnât smirk.
Just said it like a volleyball stat: flat. Unthinking. Unfiltered.
You smiled like it didnât hurt.
Went to the bathroom that night and wiped it all off.
Told yourself it wasnât a big deal.
But the next day, you played it safe.
No more makeup.
Neutral clothes.
You toned it down, layer by layer, until it felt like youâd erased something.
And he didnât even seem to notice.
But others did.
Sugawara asked Kageyama during practice, teasing but genuine:
âWhat happened to all those selfies she used to send you? I kinda miss the glitter.â
Kageyama blinked.
Paused.
Scrolled through his phone that night.
Through bright lipstick, messy buns, silly filters, captioned doodles.
Gone, now.
He found you that night, seated quietly on the porch or your shared bench near the gym.
âHeyâŠâ
You looked up. Tired. Dull.
He sat beside you, awkward fingers twitching on his knee.
âYouâre⊠not weird. I mean, you are, but like. Notâbad weird. Like⊠your kind of weird. And I liked that.â
You didnât respond. Just stared ahead.
So he added, softer this time:
âIâm stupid with words. But I didnât mean to make you feel like you had to disappear.â
You swallowed.
He turned slightly, desperate and clumsy:
âPlease donât change for something dumb I said. I didnât realize how much I loved⊠all of that. All of you.â
You turned to him.
Eyes glossy, voice small:
âThen why didnât you say that sooner?â
He didnât have an answer.
So instead, he reached into his pocket and held out the phone screen â a selfie of you from a month ago.
âI saved this one. I liked your smile here the most.â
DAICHI SAWAMURA
It was something small.
You tripped on a stair and instinctively, he caught your wrist, pulling you close before you fell.
Someone whistled.
A teammate teased:Â âOoh, Daichi, playing knight in shining armor?â
He panicked. Embarrassed. Tried to play it cool.
So he shrugged and muttered,
âSheâs not my responsibility.â
Laughed it off.
But your smile didnât reach your eyes.
Youâd never expected him to take responsibility for you.
You werenât asking to be saved.
But youâd thought â maybe â it was okay to lean. To trust. To fall near him.
After that day, you stopped doing that.
You handled everything alone â even when your hands shook carrying too much, even when your emotions threatened to spill.
No more late-night texts.
No more spontaneous hangouts.
No more quiet moments walking beside him.
You avoided everyone for a while.
Until Suga found you missing again from another group outing and went straight to Daichi.
âShe knows sheâs not your responsibility, Daichi. She just thought⊠you gave a damn.â
That silenced him.
That night, he went up to the school rooftop â the place you always went when you needed to breathe.
You were already there, arms wrapped around your knees, eyes on the sky.
He didnât speak.
Just sat beside you.
Let the silence ache between you both.
Then finally, barely audible:
âI wanted to protect you. Not push you away.â
You didnât look at him. You just said, hollowly:
âYou donât have to explain. I get it.â
But he shook his head gently.
âNo, you donât. I didnât say that because I didnât care. I said it because I was scared of how much I did.â
You blinked, eyes burning.
âYouâre not my responsibility,â he whispered again â but this time softer, reverent.
âYouâre my person. Thatâs⊠different.â
fake bf!Heeseung x being stalked!reader - You kissed Heeseung to escape your stalkerâs gazeâbut the danger didnât end there. One fake kiss, and suddenly everything is terrifyingly real.
The fluorescent lights of the subway car flicker overhead, casting an unflattering glow across the half-empty train. It's later than you'd usually be out on a weeknight, but your coworker's birthday drinks ran longer than expected. You check your phone: 11:43 PM. Only three more stops until home.
That's when you feel itâthe unmistakable sensation of being watched.
You glance up from your phone, trying to appear casual as your eyes scan the car. And there he is. Third seat from the door. A man in his thirties, wearing a dark jacket despite the warm spring evening, staring directly at you. When your eyes meet, he doesn't look away. Instead, his lips curl into what might be considered a smile, if it weren't so utterly devoid of warmth.
You quickly look back down at your phone, heart rate accelerating. It's nothing, you tell yourself. Just another weird encounter in the city.
The train slows to a stop, doors sliding open. You remain seated, two more stops to go. From your peripheral vision, you see the man stand up. Relief washes over youâhe's leaving. But instead of exiting, he simply moves to a seat closer to you. Your stomach drops.
When the doors close and the train lurches forward, you decide you're not waiting two more stops. You'll get off at the next station, find a busier platform, maybe even grab a taxi the rest of the way home. Anything to shake this feeling.
The next stop arrives. You stand quickly, moving toward the doors. As they open, you glance backâhe's standing too. Following you.
Panic rises in your throat as you step onto the platform. It's nearly deserted at this hour, just a few late-night commuters waiting for trains going the opposite direction. You walk briskly toward the exit, the sound of footsteps behind you matching your pace.
That's when you see himâa young man leaning against a pillar, scrolling through his phone. He's striking even under the harsh station lights, with delicate features contrasted by sharp eyes and broad shoulders. Something about him radiates both gentleness and strength. You make a split-second decision.
You approach him quickly, heart pounding in your ears.
"Excuse me," you say softly, your voice shakier than you'd like. "Can you please pretend to be my boyfriend for a minute? There's someone following me."
He looks up from his phone, confusion crossing his face for only a moment before his eyes flick past you, assessing the situation with remarkable speed. His expression shifts to understanding, then determination.
"Of course, babe," he says loudly enough to be overheard, smoothly slipping his phone into his pocket. "I was wondering when you'd get here."
In one fluid motion, he wraps an arm around your waist, pulling you closer. The warmth of his body against yours is startling but comforting.
"He's still watching," the stranger whispers against your hair. "Is that the guy? Black jacket, about five-nine?"
You nod almost imperceptibly.
"I'm Heeseung, by the way," he murmurs, maintaining the charade by playing with a strand of your hair.
"I'm Y/N," you whisper back.
You both stand there for a moment, locked in an embrace that feels both foreign and strangely safe. But you can still feel the stalker's eyes boring into your back.
"He's not buying it," Heeseung says quietly, his breath warm against your ear. Then, even softer: "Want me to kiss you? Might be more convincing."
Your eyes widen slightly, but the footsteps behind you seem to be getting closer. You nod again, bracing yourself.
Heeseung's hand gently tilts your chin upward. His eyes meet yours, silently asking one more time if this is okay. There's something unexpectedly tender in his gaze that makes your breath catch. Then he leans down, pressing his lips against yours.
The kiss is gentle at first, almost hesitantâthe kiss of strangers playing a part. But as his arms tighten around you, something shifts. His lips move more confidently against yours, and you find yourself responding, your hands instinctively moving to his shoulders. For a brief moment, you forget about the man watching you, forget that this is all pretend. There is only the softness of Heeseung's lips and the steadiness of his hands at your waist.
When you finally break apart, you're both slightly breathless. Heeseung's eyes search yours for a moment before he looks past you, his expression hardening.
"He's still there," he says, voice lower now, a protective edge creeping in. "What's this guy's problem?"
The stalker stands several feet away, his stare unrelenting, suspicious. Clearly, your performance hasn't convinced him.
Something in Heeseung snaps. He steps slightly in front of you, shielding you with his body.
"What are you looking at?" he calls out, his voice echoing in the nearly empty station. "You need something?"
The man doesn't respond, just continues staring.
"What?" Heeseung's voice rises, anger evident. "You need more proof? Want me to fuck her in front of you too?"
You grab Heeseung's arm, both shocked and grateful for his protective fury. The few remaining commuters on the platform turn to stare.
The stalker finally breaks his gaze, muttering something under his breath before walking toward the exit. But the look he gives you before he turns away sends ice through your veinsâthis isn't over.
"Hey, are you okay?" Heeseung asks, turning back to you, his expression immediately softening. "Sorry if I went too far. I just couldn't stand the way he was looking at you."
"Thank you," you manage, suddenly aware that you're trembling. "I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't been here."
"Which way are you headed?" he asks, concern etched across his features.
"I'm two stops down, but I think I'll just get a taxi now."
"I'll wait with you," he says firmly. "Or I can ride with you the rest of the way, if you want."
As you both head toward the exit, you feel Heeseung's hand gently rest against the small of your backâa protective gesture that makes you feel safer than you have all night.
Neither of you notice the stalker watching from the shadows as you leave the station together, his eyes narrowed with suspicion and something more dangerous simmering beneath.
-
The taxi ride is quiet, the silence broken only by the occasional direction you give the driver. Heeseung sits beside you, a respectful distance between you now, but his presence remains solid and reassuring. The adrenaline from earlier is beginning to wear off, leaving you feeling drained and slightly embarrassed.
"I'm really sorry about all of this," you finally say, glancing over at him. In the dim light of the passing streetlamps, his profile looks almost ethereal. "I can't believe I dragged a complete stranger into my problems."
Heeseung turns to you, his expression earnest. "Don't apologize. That guy was seriously creepy. Anyone would have needed help."
"Not everyone would have helped the way you did," you point out. "Most people would have just walked away."
He shrugs, a small smile playing at his lips. "Well, I'm not most people."
The taxi pulls up to your apartment building, and you reach for your wallet, but Heeseung already has his card out.
"Please, let me," he insists, paying the driver before you can protest.
"You really don't have toâ"
"Consider it my good deed for the day," he says with a gentle smile that makes something flutter in your chest.
You both step out onto the sidewalk, and suddenly you're not sure how to end this strange encounter. A handshake seems too formal after what you've shared, but anything more feels presumptuous.
"I'd feel better if I saw you safely to your door," Heeseung says, breaking the awkward moment. "If that's okay with you."
You nod, grateful for his consideration, and lead him into the building. The elevator ride to the fifth floor is quiet, but not uncomfortable. Standing next to him, you notice he smells faintly of sandalwood and something uniquely his own.
When you reach your apartment door, you turn to face him. "Thank you again. Seriously. I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't been there."
"I'm just glad I could help," he says, and there's a sincerity in his voice that's rare these days.
An idea strikes you. "Wait here for a second?" You unlock your door and rush inside, grabbing a pen and scrap of paper from the entryway table. You quickly scribble your number on it, then return to the hallway where Heeseung waits patiently.
"Here," you say, offering him the paper. "In case you ever need someone to pretend to be your girlfriend." You attempt a joke to lighten the moment, though your heart beats a little faster as he takes the paper.
Heeseung looks at your number, then back at you, a slow smile spreading across his face. He pulls out his phone, inputs your number, and then you feel your phone vibrate in your pocket.
"Now you have mine too," he says. "If you ever feel unsafe again or if that guy shows up, call me. Doesn't matter what time."
"I couldn't possiblyâ"
"I mean it," he interrupts, his expression turning serious. "Promise me you'll call if anything happens."
Something about the intensity in his eyes makes you nod. "I promise."
"Good." His expression softens again. "Get some rest, Y/N. It's been a long night."
"You too, Heeseung."
He waits until you're safely inside with the door locked before you hear his footsteps retreating down the hallway.
-
The next morning, the whole encounter feels almost like a dream. You might have convinced yourself it was, if not for the new contact in your phone: "Heeseung (Subway Hero)."
Life returns to normal surprisingly fast. You're more cautious on your commute, taking earlier trains and staying in crowded cars, but there's no sign of the creepy man. After a week passes without incident, you begin to relax.
You think about texting Heeseung several times. Your finger hovers over his contact information, but what would you say? "Thanks again for pretending to be my boyfriend and kissing me"? "Want to grab coffee sometime when I'm not being stalked"? Everything sounds awkward or presumptuous. He was just being kind to a stranger in trouble. You don't want to mistaken his kindness for interest.
So you don't text him, and the days pass.
Almost two weeks after the subway incident, you're working late at the office. The design project you've been assigned has a tight deadline, and you've lost track of time staring at your computer screen. When you finally look up, it's past 10 PM, and you're the only one left on your floor.
You pack up quickly, suddenly aware of how quiet and empty the building feels. In the elevator down to the lobby, you check your phone and see a notification for an email from an address you don't recognize.
The subject line reads: "I SAW YOU WITH HIM."
A chill runs down your spine. You should delete it without opening it, but morbid curiosity gets the better of you. The message contains just one line:
"I know he's not really your boyfriend."
Your hands start to shake. Below the text is a photoâof you and Heeseung leaving the subway station together that night. The angle suggests it was taken from a distance, from someone following behind.
As you step out of the elevator into the dimly lit lobby, another email notification appears. Same sender.
"You're alone now. Look up."
Your heart nearly stops. Slowly, you raise your head from your phone screen and scan the lobby. At first, you see nothing unusualâjust the security desk (empty at this hour), the entrance doors, the row of potted plants along the wall.
Then a shadow moves near the entrance, and you see him. The man from the subway, watching you through the glass doors, that same cold smile on his face.
Without thinking, you step back into the elevator and frantically press the button for your floor. As the doors close, you see him moving toward the building entrance.
Your fingers tremble as you pull up Heeseung's contact. It's been two weeks. He probably doesn't even remember you. But you promised.
He answers on the second ring.
"Y/N?" His voice is alert, not groggy despite the hour. "Is everything okay?"
"He found me," you whisper, watching the elevator numbers climb. "The guy from the subway. He's here at my office building. He has pictures of us. He knowsâhe knows you're not really my boyfriend."
There's a brief silence, then Heeseung's voice comes through, calm but urgent. "Where exactly are you now?"
"In the elevator, going back up to my office. I don't think he can get past building security without a keycard, but he was right outside."
"Okay, listen to me. Go back to your office, lock the door if you can. What's the address?"
You tell him, surprised at how clearly you remember his address despite your panic.
"I'm leaving now. I'll be there in fifteen minutes. Stay on the phone with me, okay?"
"Okay," you manage, stepping out of the elevator and hurrying down the hallway to your office. You lock the door behind you, then turn off the lights and move away from the windows. "I'm sorry to drag you into this again."
"Don't apologize," he says, and you can hear rustling in the background, the jingle of keys. "I told you to call if anything happened."
"I know, butâ"
"Y/N," he interrupts gently. "I'm glad you called. I've been thinking about you anyway."
Despite everything, a small flutter of warmth spreads through your chest at his words.
"He thinks I'm your boyfriend?" Heeseung continues, and you hear a door slam shut on his end. "What are you going to do about this guy?"
"I don't know," you admit, sinking down beneath your desk, phone clutched to your ear like a lifeline. "I guess I should file a police report, butâ"
Your sentence is cut short by another email notification. With dread, you open it to find another pictureâthis one of your office building, with a simple message: "I'll wait."
"Heeseung," you whisper, fear making your voice crack. "Please hurry."
-
"I'm five minutes away," Heeseung reassures you, his voice steady despite the sound of rapid footsteps on his end. "Stay where you are and keep talking to me."
You curl up tighter beneath your desk, eyes fixed on the locked office door. The building is eerily quiet at this hourâevery distant sound making your heart race. Is that the elevator? Footsteps in the stairwell? Your imagination is turning every creak and hum of the building into a threat.
"Tell me about your day," Heeseung says suddenly.
"What?"
"Your day. What were you working on that kept you at the office so late?" His tone is deliberately casual, trying to distract you from the panic.
You take a shaky breath. "A design project for a new client. They're launching a sustainable clothing line and needed the branding finalized by tomorrow morning." Speaking helpsâfocusing on normal things makes the situation feel slightly less terrifying.
"You're a designer?" There's genuine interest in his voice.
"Graphic designer, yeah. What about you? What do you do when you're not rescuing strangers on the subway?" You attempt a weak joke.
There's a soft chuckle on the other end. "Music production, mostly. I work at a studio downtown."
"That sounds amazing," you say, briefly forgetting your fear. "Do you work with anyone I might know?"
"Maybe. I've worked withâ" He cuts himself off. "I'm at your building now. Is there a security guard?"
"There should be, but I didn't see anyone when I was in the lobby."
"There's no one here now either," Heeseung says, his voice lower. "How do I get up to your floor?"
"You need a keycard for the elevator after hours," you explain, anxiety flooding back. "But waitâif there's no security guard, where did he go? And how would the stalker get in without a card?"
There's a moment of silence before Heeseung responds, his voice tight. "I don't know, but I don't like it. Is there another way up? A stairwell?"
"Yes, but it needs a keycard tooâ" You stop as another email notification appears. With trembling fingers, you open it.
The message contains just three words: "I'M INSIDE NOW."
"Heeseung," you whisper, terror making your voice almost inaudible. "He says he's inside the building."
"Shit," he mutters. Then, more decisively: "I'm going to try something. What floor are you on?"
"Seventh."
"Give me two minutes."
The line goes quiet except for the sound of Heeseung's breathing and occasional grunts of effort. You're about to ask what he's doing when you hear a distant alarm begin to wail.
"What's happening?" you ask.
"Fire alarm," Heeseung explains, slightly out of breath. "Building security will unlock automatically. I'm coming up the stairs now."
Relief washes over youâuntil you realize that if the security systems are overridden, there's nothing keeping the stalker from accessing your floor either.
As if reading your thoughts, Heeseung speaks again. "Stay hidden. I'll be there soon. Which office number?"
"705. It's at the end of the hallway on the right when you come out of the stairwell."
"Got it. Almost there."
You hear the sound of a door banging open through the phone, then rapid footsteps. A moment later, there's a gentle knock at your office door.
"Y/N? It's me."
You scramble out from under the desk and rush to the door, pressing your ear against it. "Heeseung?"
"It's me," he confirms. "Open the door."
Your hands shake as you unlock the door. The moment it opens, Heeseung slips inside, immediately locking it behind him. In the dim emergency lighting, you can see he's breathing hard, hair slightly damp with sweatâhe must have run the entire way.
Without thinking, you throw your arms around him, the relief of seeing a friendly face overwhelming in your state of fear. He stiffens in surprise for just a moment before his arms wrap around you, holding you securely.
"Are you okay?" he murmurs against your hair.
You nod against his chest, embarrassed but unable to pull away just yet. His heartbeat is rapid beneath your ear, his body warm and solidâan anchor in the storm of your fear.
When you finally step back, you notice he's scanning the room, eyes alert and wary. "We should go. The fire department will be here soon because of the alarm, but I don't want to risk running into this guy."
"Okay," you agree, quickly gathering your belongings.
Heeseung peers out the office door, checking the hallway. "Clear. Let's go to the stairsâthey're closer than the elevator."
He takes your hand as you hurry down the corridor, his grip firm and reassuring. At the stairwell door, he pauses, listening intently before pushing it open.
"Stay close," he instructs as you begin descending.
You're halfway between the fifth and fourth floors when a door slams somewhere below you. Heeseung freezes, pushing you gently against the wall, his body shielding yours. You both listen, hardly breathing.
Footsteps on the stairsâcoming up.
Heeseung's eyes meet yours, his expression tense but determined. Silently, he gestures upward. You nod in understanding.
As quietly as possible, you both backtrack, climbing up instead of down. When you reach the eighth floor, Heeseung carefully opens the door, checking that the hallway is clear before pulling you through.
"We'll try the elevator on this floor," he whispers. "The alarm should have reset the security lockdowns."
The eighth floor is darker than yours, with only emergency exit signs providing dim red illumination. Heeseung keeps your hand firmly in his as you navigate to the elevator bank. He presses the call button, and you both watch anxiously as the numbers climb from the lobby.
The distant sound of a door opening makes you both tense. Heeseung positions himself slightly in front of you, his stance protective.
The elevator seems to take forever. Three... Four... Five...
You're about to protest when the elevator finally arrives with a soft chime. The doors slide open, and you both quickly step inside. Heeseung jabs the lobby button repeatedly, then the door close button.
As the doors begin to shut, you catch a glimpse of a figure at the end of the hallwayâa man in a dark jacket. Your breath catches.
The doors close fully, and the elevator begins its descent.
"That was him," you whisper, leaning against the wall for support. "That was definitely him."
Heeseung's jaw tightens, a mixture of anger and concern crossing his features. "When we get to the lobby, we're going straight to my car. No stopping, okay?"
You nod, trying to calm your racing heart.
The elevator reaches the lobby, doors opening to reveal chaos. The fire alarm has drawn several security personnel and what looks like the beginning of a fire department response. In the confusion, you and Heeseung slip out relatively unnoticed, his arm around your waist guiding you swiftly through the crowd and out to the street.
"This way," he says, leading you to a sleek black car parked half on the curbâhe must have been in a hurry when he arrived.
Once inside with the doors locked, you finally allow yourself to take a deep breath. Heeseung starts the engine but doesn't immediately drive away.
"Are you hurt at all?" he asks, turning to examine you with concern.
"No, I'm fine," you assure him, though your hands are still trembling. "Just scared."
He nods, reaching out to briefly squeeze your hand before putting the car in drive. "I'm taking you to my place," he says, pulling away from the curb. "I don't think it's safe for you to go home tonight."
Under normal circumstances, going to a near-stranger's apartment would set off all kinds of alarm bells. But nothing about this situation is normal, and the safety Heeseung represents outweighs any reservation you might have.
"Thank you," you say simply.
He glances in the rearview mirror frequently as he drives, checking that you're not being followed. The adrenaline is starting to wear off, leaving you feeling drained and slightly nauseous.
"I should call the police," you say after a few minutes of silence.
"Definitely," Heeseung agrees. "But let's get somewhere safe first."
His apartment turns out to be in a secure building with underground parking and a doormanâfacts that provide immediate relief. Inside, the space is surprisingly homey: a modern open-concept layout with warm lighting and comfortable furnishings. A keyboard and small recording setup occupies one corner of the living area, confirming his earlier mention of music production.
"Make yourself at home," he says, gesturing to the couch. "I'll get you some water."
As he moves to the kitchen, you sink onto the sofa, the events of the night finally catching up to you. Your phone chimes with another email notification, and you nearly drop it in fear.
Heeseung notices your reaction, returning quickly with a glass of water. "Another message from him?"
You nod, unable to open it.
"May I?" he asks, holding out his hand for your phone.
You pass it to him, watching as he opens the email, his expression darkening as he reads.
"What does it say?" you ask, not sure you want to know.
Heeseung looks up, his eyes filled with protective anger. "He says he knows you're with me now. That you've 'chosen your side.' And that he'll be watching both of us." He sets your phone down. "We're definitely calling the police. This is serious stalking."
While Heeseung contacts the authorities, you sip your water, trying to make sense of this nightmare. How did this happen? One random encounter on the subway has spiraled into a genuine threat to your safety. And Heeseungâa complete stranger two weeks agoâis now putting himself at risk to keep you safe.
When he finishes the call, he sits beside you on the couch, close enough that you can feel his warmth but not touching. "They're sending someone over to take your statement. They also advised documenting everythingâall the messages, photos, any evidence of him following you."
You nod, staring down at your hands. "I'm so sorry for involving you in this."
"Hey," he says gently, waiting until you look up at him. "None of this is your fault. And I'm not sorry I helped you that night, even if it means being involved now."
"Why?" The question slips out before you can stop it. "Why would you do all this for someone you barely know?"
Heeseung is quiet for a moment, seemingly considering the question carefully. "I've seen what happens when people look the other way," he finally says. "My sister had a stalker in college. Not as extreme as this, but scary enough. People knewâher friends, her roommatesâbut no one really did anything. They thought it wasn't their problem." His voice hardens slightly. "I won't be that person. Not ever."
The personal revelation surprises you. "I'm sorry about your sister. Is she okay now?"
He nods. "She's fine. It eventually stopped, but it affected her for a long time. Made it hard for her to trust people." He meets your eyes. "That's why I want to help you end this now, before it gets worse."
His words wrap around you like a shield, and for the first time since you saw that man on the subway, you feel truly protected.
"Thank you," you say again, the words inadequate but sincere.
The police arrive about twenty minutes laterâa female officer who takes your statement professionally and thoroughly. She confirms what Heeseung already said: document everything, file for a restraining order as soon as possible, and take precautions with your personal security.
"What about tonight?" you ask as she's preparing to leave. "Is it safe for me to go home?"
The officer hesitates. "We can have a patrol car drive by your residence periodically, but we don't have the resources for constant surveillance. Do you have someone who can stay with you? A friend or family member?"
Before you can answer, Heeseung speaks up. "She can stay here. I have a spare room, security building, doorman. She'll be safe."
The officer looks between the two of you. "That would certainly be safer than being alone," she agrees. "And it might be good to have someone with you for the next few days at least, until we can locate this individual."
After she leaves, a quiet falls over the apartment. You're exhausted but too wired to sleep, and the thought of imposing on Heeseung even more makes you uncomfortable.
"I can take you home if you'd prefer," he offers, reading your hesitation. "Or to a friend's place, or a hotel."
You consider the options, but the thought of being aloneâor explaining this bizarre situation to a friend in the middle of the nightâseems overwhelming. And a hotel doesn't offer the same security as Heeseung's building.
"If you really don't mind, staying here would make me feel safer," you admit. "Just for tonight. I can figure something else out tomorrow."
"I don't mind at all," he says, and there's such sincerity in his voice that you believe him. "Let me show you the guest room and find you something to sleep in."
The spare room is simple but comfortable, with a queen-sized bed and attached bathroom. Heeseung lends you a soft t-shirt and sweatpants that dwarf your frame but are clean and comfortable.
"Try to get some rest," he says, lingering in the doorway. "I'm right across the hall if you need anything. Anything at all."
"Thank you, Heeseung," you say, the words becoming something of a mantra between you. "For everything."
He smilesâa small, tired smile that still manages to reach his eyes. "Good night, Y/N."
After he leaves, you sit on the edge of the bed, overwhelmed by the events of the day. You should be terrifiedâand you areâbut there's also a strange sense of security that comes from knowing Heeseung is just across the hall. A man who was a stranger two weeks ago has become your shield against a nightmare you never saw coming.
When you finally lay down, exhaustion quickly overtakes your racing thoughts. You fall asleep to the distant sound of Heeseung moving around the apartment, the knowledge of his presence a comfort in the darkness.
-
You wake to sunlight filtering through unfamiliar curtains and the smell of coffee. For a moment, disorientation grips youâuntil memories of the previous night come flooding back. The stalker, the chase through your office building, Heeseung's rescue, and now... his guest bedroom.
After using the bathroom and attempting to make yourself somewhat presentable, you venture out to the main living area. Heeseung is in the kitchen, back turned to you as he works at the counter. He's wearing a plain white t-shirt and gray sweatpants, his hair slightly rumpled from sleep.
He turns at the sound of your approach, offering a gentle smile. "Morning. How did you sleep?"
"Better than I expected," you admit. "Something smells amazing."
"Coffee and breakfast," he says, gesturing to the stove where eggs are cooking. "I figured you might be hungry."
The thoughtfulness of the gesture catches you off guard. "Thank you. Again."
He waves it off. "Sit. Eat. Then we can figure out what to do next."
Over breakfast, you both discuss the situation more calmly than was possible the night before. You need clothes and personal items from your apartment, but the thought of going there alone makes your stomach clench.
"I'll go with you," Heeseung offers immediately. "And I still think you should stay here for a few days, at least until the police locate this guy."
"I can't impose on you like that," you protest.
"You're not imposing if I'm offering," he counters. "Look, this guy has clearly fixated on both of us now. It makes sense to stick together." His expression softens. "Plus, I'd worry about you being alone."
The admission brings unexpected comfort. "Okay," you agree. "Just until they find him."
After breakfast, Heeseung insists on driving you to your apartment to collect some essentials. The daylight makes the situation feel less threatening, but you're still jumpy, constantly checking over your shoulder. Heeseung stays close, his presence a constant reassurance.
At your apartment, everything looks normalâno signs of disturbance or intrusion. You quickly pack a bag with clothes and necessities for a few days, while Heeseung checks each room, making sure the space is secure.
"All clear," he reports when you finish packing. "But we should let your building manager know what's happening. And you might want to consider getting your locks changed, just in case."
The practicality of his advice grounds you. This isn't just a nightmare to be endured; there are concrete steps you can take to protect yourself.
Back at Heeseung's apartment, you call your boss to explain the situation (leaving out some of the more frightening details) and arrange to work remotely for a few days. Heeseung does the same, rescheduling his studio sessions to work from home instead.
"You don't have to do that," you tell him. "I'll be fine here alone."
"I know," he says. "But I'd rather be here. Just in case."
The rest of the day passes in a strange bubble of temporary safety. You work on your laptop from his dining table while he tinkers with music tracks at his home studio setup. Occasionally, one of you will make coffee or suggest ordering food, and you find yourself settling into an easy rhythm despite the bizarre circumstances.
In the evening, after dinner (takeout from a nearby Thai place), you sit together on the couch, the TV playing a movie neither of you is really watching. Your mind keeps returning to the danger lurking outsideâand to the stranger who has become your protector.
"Can I ask you something?" you finally say.
Heeseung turns to you, giving you his full attention. "Of course."
"That night on the subway platform... when you helped me..." You hesitate, searching for the right words. "Why did you believe me right away? Most people would have thought I was crazy."
He's quiet for a moment, his expression thoughtful. "The fear in your eyes was real," he finally says. "I've seen that kind of fear before. It's not something people fake." His gaze is steady, sincere. "And honestly, what did I have to lose by helping? If you were making it up, the worst that happens is I feel a little awkward for a few minutes. But if you weren't..." He shrugs. "Then maybe I could help keep someone safe."
His simple explanation touches something deep inside you. In a world where so many people turn away from others' problems, Heeseung's instinct was to step forward, to protect.
"Well," you say softly, "you definitely did that. Twice now."
A small smile tugs at his lips. "And I'll keep doing it until this is over."
Your phones sit side by side on the coffee table, both silent for now. But you know the stalker will contact you again. And when he does, you won't be facing him alone.
In this moment of quiet, with the city lights twinkling beyond the windows and Heeseung's steady presence beside you, you allow yourself to breathe. The danger hasn't passed, but for now, in this space, you're safe. And that's enough.
-
The following day, a detective calls to update you on the case. Heeseung sits next to you on the couch as you put the call on speaker, his presence steady and reassuring.
"We've identified the individual from the security footage," the detective explains, her voice professional but tinged with concern. "His name is Lee Minhyuk. He has a history of stalking behavior."
You feel Heeseung tense beside you. "What kind of history?" he asks.
There's a brief pause on the line. "I don't want to alarm you unnecessarily, but you should both be aware that this isn't his first fixation. He's been linked to at least two similar cases in the past three years."
"And?" you prompt, sensing there's more she isn't saying.
"And in the most recent case, the situation escalated to physical violence." The detective's voice becomes more serious. "The victim had a restraining order in place, but Minhyuk violated it. She was hospitalized with non-life-threatening injuries. He served eight months before being released on good behavior."
Your blood runs cold. Beside you, Heeseung's jaw clenches, his eyes darkening with anger and concern.
"So what happens now?" you ask, trying to keep your voice steady despite the fear churning in your stomach.
"We're actively looking for him," the detective assures you. "We have units checking his known addresses and places of employment. But until we locate him, you need to take every possible precaution."
"What about police protection?" Heeseung asks.
Another pause. "Unfortunately, we don't have the resources to provide continuous protection at this time. We can increase patrols in both your neighborhoods, butâ"
"That's not good enough," Heeseung interrupts, frustration evident in his voice. "If this guy is violentâ"
"I understand your concern," the detective says. "Believe me, I do. But the best advice I can give you right now is to stay together, maintain awareness of your surroundings, continue documenting any contact he makes, and call 911 immediately if you believe you're in danger."
After hanging up, you sit in stunned silence. The abstract threat has suddenly become terrifyingly concreteâa real person with a name and a violent history.
"Y/N?" Heeseung says softly, concern etched across his features. "Talk to me."
"I didn't think it would be this serious," you whisper, your voice barely audible. "A violent stalker? How is this happening to me?"
Heeseung reaches for your hand, his warm fingers wrapping around yours. "We'll get through this," he says firmly. "I'm not going to let anything happen to you. We just need to be careful until they find him."
You nod, but the detective's words echo in your mind: escalated to physical violence... hospitalized... released on good behavior.
That night, despite Heeseung's reassurances and the security of his apartment, sleep eludes you. You toss and turn in the guest bed, startling at every small noise in the building. When exhaustion finally pulls you under, your dreams are plagued by shadows and footsteps and cold, unblinking eyes watching you from dark corners.
You wake screaming sometime after 3 AM, drenched in sweat, the nightmare still vivid in your mind. In it, the stalkerâMinhyukâhad broken into the apartment and was standing over the bed, watching you sleep, something glinting in his hand.
Before you can fully register what's happening, the bedroom door bursts open and Heeseung is there, hair disheveled from sleep but eyes alert and searching for danger.
"Y/N? What's wrong?" he asks urgently, scanning the room before rushing to your side.
"Nightmare," you manage, still trembling. "I'm sorryâI didn't mean to wake you."
The tension in his shoulders eases slightly, but concern remains etched across his features. "Don't apologize," he says, sitting on the edge of the bed. "Do you want to talk about it?"
You shake your head, embarrassed by your reaction despite the lingering terror. "It was just a bad dream."
Heeseung studies your face for a moment, clearly unconvinced. "Would it help if I stayed? Just until you fall back asleep?"
The offer is so sincere, so free of judgment, that tears spring to your eyes. You nod, unable to voice how desperately you don't want to be alone right now.
Without another word, Heeseung moves to sit with his back against the headboard. After a moment's hesitation, you lay back down, surprised by how much safer you feel with him there. He doesn't touch you, but the sound of his steady breathing eventually lulls you back to sleep.
The pattern repeats the next night, and the next. Each time, the nightmares grow more vivid, more terrifying. Each time, you wake calling Heeseung's name, and each time he's there within moments, a solid presence against the fear.
The third morning after another disrupted night, you find Heeseung already in the kitchen when you emerge from the guest room. Dark circles shadow his eyesâclear evidence of his own interrupted sleepâbut he smiles warmly when he sees you.
"Morning," he says, sliding a mug of coffee across the counter. "Just how you like it. Two sugars, splash of milk."
You're touched that he's noticed this detail about you in such a short time. "Thank you. I'm really sorry about last night. Again."
He waves away your apology. "Stop apologizing. It's not your fault."
"But you're exhausted too," you point out, gesturing to the faint shadows under his eyes.
Instead of denying it, Heeseung reaches into a cabinet and pulls out a colorful box. "Nothing that sugar can't fix," he declares with a mischievous grin, presenting the box of Frosted Flakes with a flourish. "Breakfast of champions."
The childish delight on his face as he pours two bowls is so incongruous with the somber situation that you can't help but laugh. "Seriously? Frosted Flakes?"
"Don't judge," he says, defending his choice with mock seriousness. "Tony the Tiger has gotten me through some tough times."
You accept the bowl he offers, taking a bite and exaggerating your enjoyment. "Mmm, you're right. They're grrrreat!"
Your tiger impression is terrible, and it makes Heeseung burst into laughter, nearly choking on his cereal. The sound is bright and genuine, lightening the heaviness that's hung between you for days. For a moment, it's easy to forget why you're hereâthat somewhere out there, someone is looking for you.
"So," Heeseung says when you've both calmed down, "I was thinking we could watch a movie tonight. Something completely mindless and happy. No suspense, no thriller elements, nothing remotely scary."
"That sounds perfect," you admit.
That evening, after you both finish work, Heeseung makes good on his promise. He builds what can only be described as a pillow fortress on the couch, complete with every cushion and throw blanket in the apartment. He microwaves popcorn and pulls out an assortment of candy that would make a dentist cry.
"What are you, twelve?" you tease, but you're smiling as you say it.
"Sometimes," he admits with a shrug. "Being an adult is overrated."
You settle into the nest of pillows as he scrolls through options on the TV. He ends up selecting an animated film about dragons that's clearly meant for children but is visually stunning enough for adults to enjoy. As the movie plays, you find yourself relaxing more than you have in days, occasionally stealing glances at Heeseung as he laughs unreservedly at the funny parts.
When the movie ends, neither of you makes a move to get up right away. The comfortable silence stretches between you, broken only when Heeseung reaches for his phone.
"Oh God," he says suddenly, covering his mouth to suppress his laughter. "Have you seen this?"
He passes you his phone, showing a ridiculous viral video of a cat walking dramatically to music. It's silly and inconsequential, but soon you're both laughing uncontrollably, sharing more videos and memes back and forth, your shoulders pressed together as you huddle over the small screen.
For the first time since this nightmare began, you feel normal. Just two people enjoying each other's company, finding joy in the absurd corners of the internet. The shared laughter creates a bubble around you both, keeping the fear at bay, if only temporarily.
Eventually, the hour grows late, and you can't suppress a yawn.
"Time for bed," Heeseung says, noticing immediately. Something flickers across his faceâconcern, perhaps, knowing what sleep has meant for you these past few nights.
On the fourth night, after a particularly brutal nightmare where you couldn't scream, couldn't move as Minhyuk approached, Heeseung makes a gentle suggestion over breakfast.
"Maybe it would help if I just stayed in the room from the start," he offers, his voice careful, non-presumptuous. "The guest bed is plenty big enough. I can sleep on top of the covers if that makes you more comfortable."
The idea of not being alone with your fears is so appealing that you agree without hesitation. "Are you sure you don't mind? I feel like I'm completely disrupting your life."
"You're not," he says simply. "I'd rather be here than listen to you suffer alone."
That evening, a new kind of awkwardness creeps in as bedtime approaches. You've never prepared for sleep knowing Heeseung would be there from the beginning. The nighttime routine you've developed over the past few daysâbrushing teeth side by side at the dual bathroom sinks, moving around each other with careful politenessâsuddenly feels different, charged with awareness.
"I'll give you privacy to change," Heeseung says, retreating from the guest room after retrieving what he needs for the night.
When he returns fifteen minutes later, hair damp from a shower and wearing a soft t-shirt and sweatpants, you've already changed into the pajamas you borrowed from him (a t-shirt so large it reaches mid-thigh and a pair of shorts with a drawstring pulled tight). You're sitting cross-legged on the bed, scrolling through your phone, trying to appear casual though your heart beats a little faster at the sight of him.
"I found something," he says, holding up a small bottle. "Lavender spray for the pillows. My sister swears by it for better sleep." He looks suddenly self-conscious. "It's probably sillyâ"
"No, it's... that's really thoughtful," you interrupt, genuinely touched by the gesture.
He approaches the bed hesitantly. "May I?"
You nod, and he lightly mists the pillows with the fragrant spray. The gentle scent fills the air, surprisingly comforting.
"And I have one more thing," he adds, reaching into his pocket and producing a small portable speaker. He places it on the nightstand and connects his phone. Soft piano music begins to play, quiet enough to not be distracting. "I use this when I can't turn my brain off after a long day in the studio."
The care he's putting into making you comfortable brings a lump to your throat. "Heeseung, you didn't have to do all this."
He shrugs, a shy smile playing at his lips. "I want you to actually sleep tonight."
You both settle into the bed, Heeseung on top of the covers as promised, you underneath them. Despite the physical barrier of the duvet between you, there's an intimacy to sharing this space intentionally, rather than him rushing in after a nightmare has already claimed you.
"Good night, Y/N," he says softly, reaching to turn off the lamp.
"Good night, Heeseung," you reply, the lavender scent and gentle music already making your eyelids heavy.
You sleep better that nightânot perfectly, but the nightmares, when they come, are less intense. Heeseung's presence seems to anchor you, giving your subconscious something to hold onto when the fear threatens to drag you under.
The next morning, you wake to find Heeseung already gone, the side of the bed where he slept neatly made. For a moment, disappointment washes over you until the smell of coffee draws you to the kitchen.
"Perfect timing," he says when he sees you, sliding a plate of toast and scrambled eggs across the counter. "I was just about to come wake you."
"You didn't have to cook," you say, though your stomach growls appreciatively at the sight of the food.
"I didn't mind. Besides, you slept past nine. I was starting to worry you were hibernating." His teasing smile makes the kitchen feel warmer somehow.
Over the next few days, a new rhythm emerges. During daylight hours, you share the apartment comfortably, each working on your respective projects but coming together for meals and breaks. You learn that Heeseung is meticulous about some things (the organization of his music equipment) and charmingly chaotic about others (the state of his sock drawer). He learns that you're grumpy before coffee but surprisingly cheerful during thunderstorms.
Small rituals develop without discussion. Morning coffee prepared just the way you like it waiting for you when you wake up. Evening walks around the secure courtyard of his building, his hand finding yours whenever you pass through a shadowy area. Movie nights where neither of you watches the screen as much as you share childhood stories or debate the merits of different ice cream flavors.
At night, you continue to share the bed, the arrangement becoming less awkward with each passing evening. Your bedtime routine evolves into something almost domesticâHeeseung reading a book while you finish an email, you applying lotion to your hands while he sets the alarm, both of you gravitating to your respective sides of the bed with increasing comfort.
One night, as you're both getting ready for sleep, Heeseung emerges from the bathroom wearing a ridiculous sheet mask that makes him look like a cartoon character.
"What on earth is that?" you ask, unable to contain your laughter.
"Skin care is important," he says with exaggerated seriousness, his voice slightly muffled by the mask. "This one makes me look like a panda. There's a tiger one too if you want to join me."
"Absolutely not," you declare, still giggling.
"Your loss," he shrugs, before lifting his phone. "Wait, this requires documentation."
He sits beside you on the bed, holding up his phone to take a selfie. You try to duck away, but his arm catches you around the shoulders, pulling you into the frame. "Say cheese!"
"I am not posing with you looking like that!" you protest, but you're laughing too hard to resist properly.
He snaps several photos in quick succession, capturing your failed attempts to escape and your helpless laughter. When he shows you the results, you have to admit they're hilariousâHeeseung looking serene in his panda mask while you're caught mid-laugh, head thrown back, joy written across your features.
"Delete those," you demand without any real heat.
"No way," he replies, holding the phone out of your reach. "These are artistic masterpieces."
You make a grab for the phone, but he's quicker, holding it high above his head. What follows is a playful tussle that ends with you both breathless with laughter, the momentary physical contact feeling natural rather than forced or awkward.
Later, when you're both settled in bed, lights off and the now-familiar lavender scent surrounding you, Heeseung speaks softly in the darkness.
"It was good to hear you laugh like that," he says.
You turn toward his voice, though you can only make out his silhouette in the dim light filtering through the curtains. "It felt good to laugh," you admit. "Thank you for... all of this. For making this situation somehow bearable."
"You don't have to thank me," he says, and you can hear the smile in his voice. "Besides, now I have blackmail material with those photos."
You swat blindly in his direction, your hand connecting with what feels like his shoulder. He chuckles, the sound warming you from the inside.
By the sixth day of your stay, with no word from the police about Minhyuk's whereabouts, your new routine has solidified. During the day, you both work from the apartment, occasionally sharing meals or brief conversations. In the evenings, you watch movies or talk, carefully avoiding discussion of the situation unless there are new developments. And at night, you sleep in the same bed, the space between you a boundary neither has crossed.
Until tonight.
Something wakes youânot a nightmare this time, but some small sound or shift in the atmosphere. The digital clock on the nightstand reads 2:17 AM. The room is dark except for the faint glow of streetlights filtering through the curtains.
That's when you feel it. The sensation of being watched.
Your eyes dart to the window, heart hammering in your chest. The logical part of your brain knows it's impossibleâyou're on the twelfth floor, the windows don't open more than a few inches, and there's no balcony or fire escape. But in the shadows cast by the streetlights, every flutter of the curtain looks like movement, every reflection like eyes staring back.
You close your eyes tightly, telling yourself it's just paranoia, just your mind playing tricks in the aftermath of so much stress and fear. But when you open them again, the feeling intensifies. You swear you can see a figure in the darkest corner of the room, watching, waiting.
A sob builds in your throat, but you suppress it, not wanting to wake Heeseung again, not wanting to be more of a burden than you already are. Silent tears slide down your cheeks as you stare at the ceiling, trying to control your breathing, trying to convince yourself you're safe.
But your body betrays you. A small tremor runs through you, then another, until you're shaking with the effort of containing your fear.
Beside you, Heeseung stirs. You feel him turn toward you, hear the soft intake of breath as he realizes you're awake and crying.
"Y/N?" His voice emerges from the darkness, heavy with sleep and barely above a whisper. "What's happening?"
You can hear how deeply he'd been sleeping in the thickness of his words, the way he has to clear his throat softly after speaking. The digital clock reads 2:17 AM.
"I'm sorry," you whisper back, voice breaking. "I didn't mean to wake you. Go back to sleep."
There's a rustling of sheets as he shifts beside you. Even in the darkness, you can sense him fighting against the pull of sleep, forcing his eyes to stay open for your sake.
"No, s'okay," he mumbles, words slightly slurred. You feel his hand fumbling across the covers, searching until his fingers find yours. His touch is warm, clumsy with drowsiness. "You're shaking," he observes, concern gradually replacing the grogginess in his voice. "Another nightmare?"
You shake your head, though you're not sure if he can see the gesture in the darkness. "Not exactly. I just... I can't stop feeling like someone's watching me. Like he's here, somehow."
Heeseung makes a soft sound of understanding. You hear him yawn, then feel the mattress dip as he pushes himself up to sitting position. He reaches for the bedside lamp, missing it the first time, his movements slow and uncoordinated. On the second attempt, he manages to switch it on.
The warm glow reveals his face, softened with sleep. His hair is completely disheveled, sticking up at odd angles. One cheek bears the imprint of his pillow, and his eyes are heavy-lidded, struggling to stay fully open. Despite his obvious exhaustion, there's nothing but patient concern in his expression as he blinks slowly, trying to focus on you.
"It's just us," he says softly, his voice a comforting rumble in the quiet room. "Just you 'n me here. You're safe."
He rubs at his eyes with the heel of his palm, clearly fighting the heaviness of sleep still clinging to him. The gesture is so innocent, so childlike, that it momentarily distracts you from your fear.
"I know it's irrational," you say, wiping at your tears. "But my brain won't stop. I can't turn it off."
Heeseung's eyes drift closed for a moment before he catches himself, snapping them back open with visible effort. He studies your face, his own expression thoughtful despite the sleep that keeps trying to reclaim him. His eyelids flutter, heavy, but he persists, present with you even as his body begs for rest.
"Can I..." he begins, then pauses to stifle another yawn. "Can I try something? To help distract your mind?"
There's such sincerity in his sleepy determination to help you that you find yourself nodding, willing to try anything to escape the endless loop of fearâand to allow him to go back to sleep.
"Close your eyes," he says, his voice a gentle murmur.
You comply, though a small part of you tenses at the thought of not being able to see any potential threats.
"Focus on my voice," Heeseung continues, his tone soothing despite the drowsiness that makes his words flow together like honey, slow and sweet. "Nothing else matters right now. Just this room..." He yawns again, soft and unguarded. "Just this moment."
The bed shifts as he moves closer, his movements languid with fatigue. You can feel the warmth radiating from him, sense his protective presence drawing nearer despite how desperately his body must be yearning to return to sleep.
You try to follow his instructions, concentrating on the low timbre of his voice, the warmth of his hand still holding yours.
"Y/N," he says, his voice closer now. "Is it okay if I kiss you?"
Your eyes fly open in surprise, meeting his serious gaze. There's concern there, and something elseâa softness that makes your breath catch.
"To distract your mind," he explains quietly. "Give it something else to focus on besides fear."
The idea is so unexpected, so far from anything you'd anticipated, that it cuts through the panic clouding your thoughts. You find yourself nodding before you've fully processed the request.
Heeseung moves closer, the space between you disappearing as he gently cups your cheek with his free hand. "Tell me to stop if it doesn't help," he murmurs, his breath warm against your skin.
Then his lips meet yours, soft and questioning at first, giving you every opportunity to pull away. But instead of retreating, you find yourself responding, your body instinctively leaning into the contact, seeking comfort and connection.
When his tongue traces the seam of your lips, a soft "mmm" vibrates from his chestâa sound so quietly pleased it makes your stomach flip. You part your lips instinctively, and the moment his tongue slides against yours, a low, satisfied hum rumbles from his throat.
"Is thisâ" you try to speak, but his tongue sweeps deeper, stealing your words, your thoughts, your very ability to form sentences.
His kiss grows bolder, more insistent, and your brain begins to short-circuit with each stroke of his tongue. The fear that had been cycling through your mind evaporates under the wet heat of his mouth. He tastes faintly of toothpaste and something uniquely him, and when he gently sucks on your bottom lip, he makes another soundâa soft "hmm" that shoots straight down your spine.
You pull back slightly, trying to gather your thoughts. "Iâ" But that's all you manage before he chases your lips, recapturing them with gentle insistence, and whatever you were going to say dissolves into nothing.
"Shh," he whispers against your mouth, his breath hot against your sensitized lips. "Don't think."
And then he's kissing you again, deeper this time, his tongue sliding alongside yours in a rhythm that makes your toes curl. The hand in your hair tightens just enough to send a shiver through you, and a soft groanâ"Mmh"âescapes him when you respond by pressing closer.
His teeth graze your lower lip, and suddenly your mind is completely empty, wiped clean of everything except the sensation of his mouth on yours, his hand in your hair, his body so close you can feel the heat radiating from him.
The kiss breaks for a moment, both of you breathing hard. You open your mouth to speak, to try to articulate how effectively he's scattered your thoughts, but all that comes out is a breathy "Iâyouâ" before words fail you completely.
Heeseung's lips curl into a small smile, understanding in his eyes. "Not thinking anymore?" he asks softly.
You shake your head, unable to string together a coherent sentence. Your brain has turned to absolute mush, every thought process suspended in the warm haze he's created.
"Good," he whispers, and then his lips are on yours again, the gentle scrape of his teeth followed by the soothing slide of his tongue making you gasp. He makes a sound halfway between a sigh and a moanâ"Aahh"âwhen your fingers curl into the fabric of his t-shirt, pulling him closer.
Time loses all meaning as he kisses you again and again, each one melting into the next until you're not sure where one ends and another begins. Sometimes gentle and exploring, sometimes deeper and more intense, but always with that same effectâemptying your mind until there's nothing but sensation.
When he finally pulls back, his breathing uneven, pupils dilated in the dim light, you try once more to speak. "That wasâ" But the words won't come, your brain still offline, thoughts scattered like confetti.
"Did it help?" he asks, his voice rougher now, lower.
You nod, surprised to find that forming words feels like trying to catch smoke with your bare hands. "Myâ" you start, then swallow and try again. "Brain... empty," is all you manage to articulate, gesturing vaguely at your head.
A smile touches his lips, genuine and slightly pleased. "Good," he says simply, his thumb brushing your lower lip, still sensitive from his attention. The small touch sends another wave of blankness washing through your mind.
He starts to move back to his side of the bed, and you make a small sound of protest, hand reaching out to stop him. Again, you try to speak, to ask him to stay close, but all that comes out is a breathy "Don'tâ" before words fail you once more.
Understanding flickers in his eyes. He settles beside you, closer this time, one arm wrapping around your waist as you turn toward him. The position brings your faces close together, your breath mingling in the small space between you.
"Better?" he asks.
"Much better," you admit.
He kisses you again, slower this time, more deliberate. Your hands find their way to his shoulders, then his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart beneath your palm. Each kiss blurs the edges of your thoughts more, until your mind is blissfully, wonderfully blankâno fear, no stalker, no danger. Just Heeseung, his lips on yours, his arms around you, making you feel safer than locked doors or security systems ever could.
When exhaustion finally begins to reclaim you, Heeseung presses one last gentle kiss to your forehead. "Sleep," he murmurs. "I'm right here."
And for the first time in days, you drift off without fear, your head tucked against his chest, his heartbeat a steady rhythm in your earâa constant reminder that you're not alone.
The nightmares don't come again that night.
-
Sunlight filters through the curtains when you wake the next morning. For the first time in days, you've slept through the night without nightmares. The space beside you is empty, but the sheets still hold the faint warmth of Heeseung's body. You stretch, a strange mixture of embarrassment and comfort washing over you as memories of the previous night returnâhis lips on yours, the way your mind had emptied of everything but sensation, how easily you'd fallen asleep afterwards.
The sound of movement in the kitchen draws you from the bed. You brush your teeth and attempt to tame your sleep-rumpled hair before venturing out, unsure what to expect after crossing such an intimate boundary with someone who was a stranger just a week ago.
Heeseung stands at the counter, back to you, humming softly as he measures coffee grounds. He's wearing a faded t-shirt and sweatpants that hang low on his hips, his hair still mussed from sleep. The scene is so domestic, so normal, that for a moment you forget why you're hereâthat somewhere out there, someone is looking for you with dangerous intent.
He turns at the sound of your approach, a soft smile spreading across his face. No awkwardness, no regret, just warmth.
"Morning," he says. "Sleep okay?"
You nod, relief washing over you at his easy manner. "Better than I have in days."
He pushes a mug of coffee across the counterâalready prepared the way you like it. The simple gesture of remembrance makes your chest tighten with something you're not ready to name.
"Thanks," you say, taking a sip to hide whatever might be showing on your face. "For the coffee. And for... last night."
Heeseung's expression softens, understanding in his eyes. "You don't have to thank me for that."
An almost comfortable silence settles between you as you both drink your coffee, the events of last night hanging in the airâacknowledged but not discussed.
"I thought I'd make us a real breakfast," you finally say, needing to do something, to contribute somehow to this strange partnership that's formed. "Since you've been cooking for me all week."
"You don't have toâ"
"I want to," you interrupt, already moving toward the refrigerator. "It's the least I can do."
Heeseung watches with amusement as you examine the contents of his fridge. "What did you have in mind?"
"How do you feel about omelets? You have vegetables that need to be used."
"Omelets sound perfect," he says, leaning against the counter as you gather ingredients.
The simple task of cooking is grounding. You wash and chop bell peppers, onions, and mushrooms, concentrating on the steady rhythm of the knife against the cutting board. Heeseung moves around you, setting the table, occasionally brushing against you in the small kitchen. Each brief contact sends a small jolt through youânot unpleasant, just heightened awareness.
You're halfway through dicing an onion when a notification sound from your phone breaks the peaceful bubble. Your hand falters, the knife slipping slightly. It's probably nothingâan email from work, a news alert, anythingâbut your heart instantly accelerates, your mind immediately jumping to the worst possibility.
Heeseung notices the change immediately. "Hey," he says gently. "Want me to check it?"
You nod, hating how easily your calm has been shattered, how quickly fear reclaims its hold. Heeseung picks up your phone from the counter, checks the screen, and his shoulders relax.
"It's just an email from someone named Sarah. Subject line says 'Project Updates.'"
Relief weakens your knees. Just work. Not him.
But the damage is done. Your hands have begun to tremble, and the vegetables in front of you blur slightly as your mind slips back into the spiral of fear. What if he figures out where Heeseung lives? What if he's watching the building right now? What ifâ
"Y/N." Heeseung's voice, closer now. You didn't notice him move, but suddenly he's right behind you, his chest nearly touching your back. "You're shaking."
"I'm fine," you lie, but the knife trembles visibly in your grip.
Heeseung gently removes the knife from your hand, setting it safely on the cutting board. Then his hands are on your shoulders, warm and steadying, turning you to face him. You expect to see pity in his eyes, but there's only warmth and understanding.
"You're not fine," he says softly. "And that's okay."
"I hate this," you whisper, frustration bleeding through the fear. "I hate that one notification can do this to me. I hate that he has this power."
Heeseung's hands slide from your shoulders to cup your face, his touch so gentle it makes your breath catch. "He doesn't have power over you," he says firmly. "This reactionâit's just your brain trying to protect you. It's not weakness."
You close your eyes, trying to believe him, trying to slow the racing of your heart. When you feel his breath against your cheek, your eyes flutter open to find his face much closer, his gaze questioning.
"Let me help you think about something else," he murmurs, his voice dropping to a register that immediately sends warmth spreading through your chest.
You nod, barely perceptible, and then his lips are at your jawline, not quite kissing, just brushing against the skin there. Your hands find his waist, needing something to anchor you as he traces a path down to your neck. When his mouth settles against the sensitive spot where your neck meets your shoulder, a small sigh escapes you.
The first gentle scrape of his teeth against your skin makes your thoughts scatter like startled birds. He follows it with the soothing warmth of his tongue, and your grip on his t-shirt tightens involuntarily.
"Is this okay?" he whispers against your skin.
"Yes," you breathe, tilting your head to give him better access. "Don't stop."
His lips curve into a smile against your neck, and then he's kissing the spot again, more purposefully this time. One hand slides into your hair, cradling the back of your head, while the other rests at the small of your back, drawing you closer until you're fully pressed against him.
The fear that had been building melts away with each press of his lips, each gentle scrape of teeth. Your mind empties of everything but the sensation of his mouth on your skin, the solid warmth of his body against yours, the faint scent of sleep and coffee that clings to him.
When he finds a particularly sensitive spot just below your ear, your knees actually weaken. Heeseung notices, his arm tightening around your waist to support you.
"Still thinking about the notification?" he murmurs, his breath hot against your ear.
You try to respond, but your brain feels deliciously fuzzy, unable to form words. Instead, you shake your head, managing only a soft "Mmm" that makes him chuckle.
"Good," he says, pulling back slightly to look at your face. His pupils are dilated, lips slightly parted, and the sight sends another wave of warmth through you. "Because the eggs are getting warm and the vegetables are only half-chopped."
It takes a moment for his words to register through the pleasant haze in your mind. When they do, you glance back at the abandoned breakfast preparations on the counter and can't help but laugh. "Oh god, I forgot all about breakfast."
Heeseung's answering smile is bright enough to chase away the last lingering shadows of your fear. "Mission accomplished then."
You reluctantly step out of his embrace, turning back to the cutting board. "Let me finish this before I get distracted again."
"Distracted? By what?" he teases, but he keeps a respectful distance as you resume chopping, though his eyes never leave you.
The rest of the morning passes in a comfortable rhythm. You finish making breakfast together, moving around each other in the kitchen with growing ease. The omelets turn out perfect, and the simple accomplishment of creating a meal feels significant somehowâa small island of normalcy in the storm of the past week.
After breakfast, you settle in to work on your design project, which your boss has been understanding enough to let you complete remotely. Heeseung works on his music in the corner of the living room, occasionally humming or playing soft melodies on his keyboard. The peaceful coexistence reminds you of how it might feel to share a space with someone by choice, not necessity.
But reality intrudes every time you check your email or glance at your phone. Each notification makes your heart stutter, each unknown number that calls either of your phones sends a spike of adrenaline through your system. The stalker hasn't contacted you today, but his absence feels more like the calm before a storm than any true reprieve.
By late afternoon, your eyes are burning from staring at your laptop screen, and the tension in your shoulders has returned despite your best efforts to focus on work. You save your design file and stretch, rolling your neck to release the stiffness.
Heeseung glances up from his keyboard, noting your discomfort. "Break time," he announces decisively. "You've been hunched over that laptop for hours."
"I need to finish this project," you protest weakly, but your body betrays you with another stretch.
"The project will still be there after a proper break," he counters, standing and moving toward the kitchen. "I'm making tea. Then we're going to do something completely unproductive for at least an hour."
You find yourself smiling at his determined tone. "Is that so? What did you have in mind?"
"I'm thinking..." he pauses dramatically, filling the kettle with water, "a heated battle of Mario Kart."
The suggestion is so unexpected, so delightfully normal, that you laugh. "Mario Kart? Really?"
"Don't tell me you're scared of a little competition," he challenges, raising an eyebrow as he sets the kettle on the stove. "Unless you don't think you can beat me."
"Oh, it's on," you declare, grateful for the distraction. "I'll have you know I was the reigning champion among my college roommates."
"We'll see about that," he grins, the playful light in his eyes making him look younger, carefreeâa glimpse of who he might be outside the strange circumstances that have thrown you together.
The promised hour turns into two as you both get increasingly competitive, shouting good-natured insults at each other when one pulls ahead or drops a particularly well-timed shell. You haven't laughed this much in daysâmaybe weeksâand the release of endorphins leaves you feeling lighter, the constant undercurrent of fear temporarily pushed to the background.
"That's it, I'm cutting you off," Heeseung declares after you beat him for the fifth time in a row. "You're too good at this. It's embarrassing for me."
You raise your controller in victory. "Told you I was the champion."
"Yeah, yeah," he concedes with a mock scowl that quickly melts into a genuine smile. "Hungry yet? I was thinking we could order in. Maybe that Thai place again?"
"Sounds perfect," you agree.
As Heeseung pulls up the restaurant's menu on his phone, you find yourself studying himâthe way his brow furrows slightly in concentration, the gentle slope of his nose, the fullness of his lips. The lips that were on your neck this morning, that were on your mouth last night, emptying your mind of everything but sensation. Something warm unfurls in your chest at the memory.
He looks up suddenly, catching you watching him. Instead of looking away, embarrassed, you hold his gaze. A moment of silent understanding passes between youâan acknowledgment that whatever is happening between you isn't just about distraction or safety anymore.
Heeseung breaks the moment first, clearing his throat slightly. "The usual? Or did you want to try something different?"
"The usual is fine," you say, grateful for his tact in not drawing attention to the charged moment.
After placing the order, you both gravitate back to the couch, but with a new awareness of each other. You sit closer than necessary, your thigh just barely touching his. When he reaches for the remote to turn on the TV, his arm brushes yours, and neither of you moves away from the contact.
He finds a cooking competition show that requires minimal attention, and you settle in to watch, the domestic scene surreal in its normalcy. At some point, his arm drapes over the back of the couch behind you, not quite touching but close enough that you can feel his warmth.
"This is nice," you say after a while, the words slipping out without conscious thought.
Heeseung glances at you, his expression softening. "Yeah," he agrees quietly. "It is."
His fingers begin to play absently with a strand of your hair that falls over the couch. The gentle tugging sensation sends pleasant shivers down your spine, and you find yourself leaning subtly into the touch. Each brush of his fingers against your neck seems to short-circuit a different part of your brain until you're barely processing the show at all, focused instead on the points of contact between you.
The doorbell rings, startling you both. Heeseung's hand withdraws from your hair as he stands to answer it.
"That'll be the food," he says, but you notice he checks the peephole carefully before opening the door.
The reminder of the danger lurking outside your temporary sanctuary dampens your mood slightly. As you set up dinner on the coffee table, your phone buzzes with an incoming email. You freeze, fork halfway to your mouth, that familiar dread pooling in your stomach.
Heeseung notices your reaction and reaches for your phone. "Want me to check it?"
You nod, setting your food down, no longer hungry.
He scans the screen, relief washing over his features. "It's just a receipt from the Thai place." He hands the phone back to you. "We're okay."
But the moment has been tainted. The fear is back, hovering at the edges of your consciousness, threatening to overwhelm the fragile peace you've built throughout the day. You push your food around on your plate, appetite gone.
Heeseung watches you for a moment, then sets his own plate down. Without a word, he shifts closer to you on the couch, his thigh pressing firmly against yours now. When his hand comes up to tilt your chin toward him, you meet his eyes without resistance.
"He's not here," Heeseung says softly. "Right now, in this moment, it's just us. Okay?"
"Okay," you whisper, trying to believe him.
His thumb traces your lower lip gently, and your body responds instantly to the touch, a pleasant haziness beginning to cloud the edges of your fear. When he leans in, you meet him halfway, your lips finding his with growing familiarity.
This kiss is different from the othersânot desperate or distracting, but slow and deliberate. His tongue slides against yours with unhurried confidence, and your mind begins to empty in that now-familiar way, thoughts evaporating like morning dew under the sun.
By the time he pulls back, you've forgotten what triggered your fear in the first place. Your food sits cooling on the coffee table, entirely unimportant compared to the warmth spreading through your body.
"Better?" he asks, his voice lower than usual.
You nod, offering a small smile. "You're getting good at that."
"At what?" There's a playful glint in his eye that makes your heart skip.
"Turning my brain off."
He tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, his expression growing more serious. "For as long as you need it," he promises.
The rest of the evening passes in comfortable closeness. You eventually return to your food, eating while leaning against each other on the couch. When you finally head to bed, the routine feels both new and familiar at onceâbrushing teeth side by side, Heeseung waiting in the hallway while you change, the brief moment of adjustment as you both settle into the bed.
But tonight, there's less space between you than before. He still stays on top of the covers while you slip underneath, but when you turn off the lamp, his hand finds yours in the darkness, fingers intertwining naturally.
"Good night, Y/N," he murmurs, his voice already heavy with approaching sleep.
"Good night, Heeseung," you reply, squeezing his hand gently.
You fall asleep with his fingers still linked with yours, the weight of his hand an anchor against the night terrors that might come. Your last thought before drifting off is that you've never felt safer than in this strange limboâtrapped by circumstances beyond your control, yet somehow freer than you've been in a long time.
The morning comes too quickly, sunlight streaming through a gap in the curtains and painting a stripe of gold across the bed. You wake to find yourself curled toward Heeseung, who's still asleep on his side facing you. In sleep, his face is completely relaxed, all traces of vigilance gone, making him look younger and impossibly vulnerable.
You allow yourself a moment to simply look at him, to memorize the sweep of his eyelashes against his cheeks, the slight part of his lips, the way his hair falls across his forehead. There's a strange ache in your chest at the sightâgratitude mixed with something deeper that you're not ready to name.
As if sensing your gaze, his eyes flutter open, landing immediately on your face. A slow, sleepy smile spreads across his features, unguarded and genuine.
"Morning," he mumbles, voice husky with sleep.
"Morning," you whisper back, strangely reluctant to break the peaceful bubble around you.
Neither of you moves for a long moment, content to exist in this quiet space between night and day, between danger and safety, between strangers and something more. Then reality intrudes in the form of his buzzing phone on the nightstand.
Heeseung rolls over with a groan, reaching for the device. As he checks the screen, his body goes rigid, sleep vanishing in an instant.
"What is it?" you ask, dread already pooling in your stomach.
He sits up, running a hand through his hair as he reads whatever message has appeared. When he turns back to you, his expression is carefully controlled, but you can see the tension around his eyes.
"It's from the detective," he says carefully. "Minhyuk was spotted near my building yesterday."
The fragile peace of the morning shatters completely. Fear rushes back in with a vengeance, your heart rate spiking so quickly you feel light-headed.
"He knows I'm here?" Your voice sounds distant to your own ears, panic rising like a tide.
Heeseung's hand finds yours, squeezing tightly. "We don't know that for sure. But the detective thinks we should consider relocating, just to be safe."
"Where would we even go?" The thought of leaving this apartmentâthe only place you've felt secure in daysâsends another wave of anxiety through you.
"I might have an idea," Heeseung says, his thumb rubbing soothing circles on the back of your hand. "But first, breakfast. And coffee. Lots of coffee."
You nod, clinging to his steady presence as your mind races with terrifying possibilities. The tiny window of normalcy you'd carved out for yourselves is closing, and the world with all its dangers is forcing its way back in.
But as Heeseung helps you to your feet, his hand never leaving yours, you realize something important: whatever comes next, you're no longer facing it alone. And for now, that will have to be enough.
-
The detective's news about Minhyuk being spotted near Heeseung's building leaves you both on edge. Despite Heeseung's attempts at normalcyâbreakfast, coffee, casual conversationâthere's a new tension in the air, a heightened vigilance in the way he frequently checks his phone and glances at the door.
You try to work on your design project, but concentration is impossible. Your mind keeps conjuring images of Minhyuk watching the building, waiting, planning. By mid-afternoon, you've accomplished almost nothing, your anxiety a living thing crawling beneath your skin.
That's when your phone chimes with a new email notification.
You freeze, looking up to find Heeseung already watching you from across the room, his expression tense. Without a word, he crosses to where you sit, placing a reassuring hand on your shoulder as you open the message.
The subject line is blank. The sender's address is unfamiliarâa string of random numbers and letters.
Your trembling finger taps the message open.
There's no text, just an image: a photograph of you and Heeseung standing in his kitchen from earlier that morning, clearly taken through the window of his apartment. The angle suggests it was shot from the building across the street. Below the photo is a single line of text:
"Glass won't protect you forever."
A strangled sound escapes your throat as the phone slips from your fingers, clattering to the floor. Heeseung snatches it up, his face darkening as he views the message.
"That's not possible," he mutters, moving quickly to the windows. "We're twelve floors up."
But as he pulls back the curtain to scan the building opposite, you feel it startâthe tightening in your chest, the sudden inability to pull in enough air, the roaring in your ears. The room seems to tilt and spin around you.
"He can see us," you gasp, each breath becoming more difficult than the last. "He's watching us right now. He can see us right now."
Heeseung is at your side instantly, closing the curtains and guiding you away from the windows. "Y/N, breathe. You need to breathe."
But you can't. Your lungs refuse to cooperate, each shallow gasp more painful than the last. Dark spots dance at the edges of your vision, and your hands have gone numb, fingers tingling.
"He's going toâhe's going toâ" You can't even finish the thought, terror consuming every rational part of your mind.
"Y/N, look at me," Heeseung says firmly, his hands framing your face, forcing you to meet his eyes. "Focus on me. Just me."
He tries all the techniques that have worked beforeâdeep breathing instructions, gentle reassurances, even pressing his lips to yours in that way that usually empties your mind. But the panic is too overwhelming, the fear too visceral. Even his kiss, which normally blanks your thoughts completely, barely makes a dent in the terror.
When he pulls back, your breathing is still erratic, tears streaming down your face. "It's not working," you choke out. "I can'tâI can't turn it off. My mind won't stop."
The helplessness in Heeseung's eyes is devastating. "Tell me what you need. Anything."
"Make it stop," you beg, clutching at his shirt. "Please, I don't care what you have to do. Make me go dumb. Turn my brain off. I can't take it anymore."
His eyes darken at your words, understanding dawning in his expression. "Y/N..."
"Please," you whisper, desperation making your voice crack. "Fuck me until I can't think anymore. Until I can't remember my own name. I need to not be in my head right now. I need everything to just stop."
Heeseung's breath catches, his pupils dilating until there's just a thin ring of brown around the black. You watch the struggle play out on his faceâdesire warring with concern, restraint battling with the need to help you.
"Are you sure?" he asks, his voice lower than you've ever heard it. "Because if we do this... I want to help you, Y/N, more than anything. But I don't know if I'll be able to hold back once we start."
A sob escapes you, your hands fisting in his shirt. "I don't want you to hold back. I want you to make me forget everything but you." You're openly crying now, beyond shame or hesitation. "Please, Heeseung. Please make it all go away."
Something snaps in his expression. His hand slides into your hair, gripping firmly as he searches your eyes one last time. Whatever he sees there must convince him, because in the next moment, his mouth crashes against yours with none of the gentleness from before.
This kiss is differentâhungry, almost desperate. His tongue pushes past your lips immediately, demanding rather than asking. One arm locks around your waist, pulling you flush against him as he walks you backward until your back hits the wall.
When his teeth sink into your lower lip, pain mingling with pleasure, your thoughts begin to splinter. His hand slips under your shirt, fingers splaying across your ribs, and your mind fragments further.
"Tell me to stop and I will," he says against your mouth, his breathing ragged. "At any point."
"Don't stop," you gasp. "Don't you dare stop."
His eyes meet yours, something primal and protective darkening his gaze. "I'm going to help you forget everything," he promises, his voice a rough whisper. "Everything but this."
Heeseung's eyes lock onto yours, dark with a raw intensity that makes your heart pound violently in your chest. His fingers twist harshly into your hair, pulling your head back sharply, fully exposing your vulnerable throat. His lips crash against your skin roughly, teeth biting deeply, marking you as his own with bruising kisses that send sparks of pain and pleasure shooting through your veins.
Your breathing is ragged, erratic, your entire body trembling beneath him. His other hand moves urgently down your body, gripping your waist tightly, fingertips pressing deep enough into your flesh to leave bruises, marking you unmistakably as his. You arch your body against his, desperate for more contact, craving the harsh intensity that only he can provide.
"Harder," you plead breathlessly, voice quivering with desperation. "Heeseung, pleaseâuse me, ruin me. Make me forget everything else."
A dark, feral growl tears from his throat, his eyes blazing dangerously as he claims your mouth roughly, tongue pushing aggressively past your lips. You moan helplessly into the kiss, surrendering completely to his dominating embrace, your nails scratching feverishly down his back, urging him to take you harder, deeper, to erase every lingering thought from your mind.
Heeseung breaks away, his breath hot and ragged as he trails searing kisses down your trembling body, biting roughly at your collarbone, chest, and stomach, each sharp nip igniting fiery jolts of pain and pleasure that tear gasps from your lips. You writhe helplessly beneath him, mind unraveling with each aggressive touch.
"Please," you beg desperately, voice nearly incoherent, tears gathering at the corners of your eyes. "Heeseung, Iâll do anything. Anything you want, justâjust make me forget."
A fierce, primal growl resonates from deep in his chest. "Anything?" he rasps darkly, his eyes blazing with barely controlled hunger. "You're going to regret saying that, sweetheart."
He pushes your thighs apart roughly, fully exposing you to his hungry gaze. His mouth descends aggressively, tongue plunging deep and fast, consuming you without mercy. You scream out sharply, hips bucking uncontrollably against him, your hands clutching desperately at his hair, pulling him even closer. Every intense, relentless movement of his tongue drives you closer to a devastating climax.
But before you reach that peak, he stops abruptly, leaving you sobbing in frustration. Your eyes plead desperately for release as you gasp, "Pleaseâdon't stop."
Heeseung positions himself swiftly over you, gripping your hips with bruising intensity, plunging deep and brutally into your aching core without warning, tearing a raw scream from your throat. He sets an unforgiving pace, each powerful thrust ruthlessly tearing apart your remaining thoughts, overwhelming you completely.
"Feel that?" he snarls roughly, hips pounding mercilessly against yours. "That's me claiming you. I'm going to fuck every last thought out of your head until you're nothing but mine."
His filthy, possessive words make your entire body shake uncontrollably, tears streaming down your cheeks as you cry out shamelessly for more. His grip tightens painfully on your wrists, pinning them roughly above your head as his hips drive harder, deeper, faster, each brutal thrust sending shockwaves through your body.
"You're mine," he growls harshly into your ear, teeth scraping your sensitive skin. "Say it."
"I'm yours," you choke out weakly, mind fracturing under the relentless assault of sensation.
"Louder," he demands fiercely, slamming even harder into you, movements ruthless and unyielding.
"I'm yours!" you scream, voice cracking from the intensity.
"Good girl," he snarls, rewarding you with deeper, fiercer thrusts, pushing your body to its absolute limits. His hand wraps around your throat firmly, just enough to make your vision blur, enhancing every overwhelming sensation tenfold.
Your body writhes violently beneath him, unable to form coherent words anymore, reduced to sobbing gasps and broken pleas. Heeseung continues relentlessly, his body driving into yours mercilessly until you're utterly consumed, your mind blanking entirely, eyes glazing over, unable to do anything but feel him, hear him, lose yourself completely to him.
"Cum for me," he commands roughly, his voice low and dangerously seductive. "Show me exactly how completely you belong to me."
Your body reacts instantly, violently, shattering beneath him into waves of devastating pleasure that tear through you, obliterating any remaining thought. You collapse, trembling uncontrollably, completely and utterly surrendered to him, mind blissfully empty, lost entirely in the overwhelming force of his claim.
Then his hands and mouth begin their relentless campaign to empty your mind completely, and thinking becomes impossible.
-
Hours later, you lie boneless and spent in Heeseung's arms, your mind blissfully, wonderfully blank. No fear, no anxiety, no thoughts of Minhyuk or danger or what comes next. Just the pleasant hum of your body and the steady rhythm of Heeseung's heartbeat beneath your ear.
He's been silent for a while, his fingers tracing idle patterns on your bare shoulder. When he finally speaks, his voice is soft with something that might be concern.
"Are you okay?"
You have to concentrate to form words, your brain still deliciously fuzzy around the edges. "Mmm. Better than okay."
His chest rises and falls with a deep breath. "I didn't hurt you?"
You shake your head against his chest. "You did exactly what I needed."
His arms tighten around you, and you feel his lips press against the top of your head. "Your mind quiet now?"
"Completely empty," you murmur, surprised to find yourself smiling. "Mission accomplished."
You feel rather than see his answering smile, his whole body relaxing beneath yours. For several long moments, you both drift in comfortable silence, the world beyond this bed temporarily forgotten.
Until Heeseung's phone buzzes on the nightstand.
The tension returns to his body immediately, but he doesn't move to check it, unwilling to disturb the peace you've found. The phone buzzes again, more insistent this time.
"You should get that," you say softly. "It might be important."
Reluctantly, he reaches for the phone, keeping you tucked against him with his other arm. You watch his face as he reads the message, preparing yourself for bad news.
"It's the detective," he says after a moment, his voice carefully neutral. "She thinks we should consider temporary relocationâsomewhere Minhyuk wouldn't think to look."
The fear starts to creep back in at the edges of your consciousness, but you fight it, focusing on the warmth of Heeseung's body against yours, the lingering pleasant numbness in your limbs.
"She says they can arrange a safe house, but it would take a few days." He scrolls through more of the message. "Or... we could go somewhere on our own. Somewhere only we know about."
You push yourself up on one elbow to look at him properly. "Like where?"
A thoughtful expression crosses his face. "My family has a cabin in the mountains. It's remote, secure. Only a handful of people even know it exists."
"How far?"
"About three hours' drive. Completely isolated." His eyes search yours. "We'd be alone out there."
The thought should be terrifying after everything that's happened, but instead it brings an unexpected sense of relief. Somewhere Minhyuk can't find you. Somewhere you could breathe again.
"When can we leave?" you ask.
Heeseung studies your face, perhaps looking for signs of fear or hesitation. "Tomorrow morning, first light. We'll need to be careful, make sure we're not followed."
You nod, settling back against his chest. "Tomorrow then."
His arm wraps around you again, protective and warm. "Get some rest," he murmurs, his lips brushing your forehead. "I'll be right here."
As sleep begins to claim you, one last coherent thought floats through your mind: whatever happens next, whatever Minhyuk tries, you're not alone. You have Heeseungâyour protector, your sanctuary.
Your mind emptier.
-
You wake before dawn, the sky outside still ink-dark. For a moment, you forget why you're rising so earlyâthen memories of yesterday's message flood back. Minhyuk knows where you are. You're no longer safe here.
Heeseung is already up, moving quietly around the apartment, packing essentials into a duffel bag. He pauses when he notices you watching him, a small smile crossing his face despite the tension in his shoulders.
"Morning," he says softly. "I was trying not to wake you."
"I don't think I was really sleeping," you admit, sitting up. "Too much on my mind."
He crosses to sit beside you on the bed, his hand finding yours. "We'll be okay," he promises. "The cabin is safe. My family's owned it for generations, and it's not listed under my name. There's no way he could trace it."
You nod, drawing strength from his certainty. "What do you need me to do?"
"Just pack whatever you need for a week or so. Clothes, toiletries. I've got everything else coveredâfood, first aid supplies." He squeezes your hand. "And we should get moving soon. I want to be on the road before the city wakes up."
Thirty minutes later, you're both ready. The apartment is locked downâlights on timers to simulate occupancy, mail delivery paused. Heeseung has even arranged for a neighbor to occasionally move his car in the garage to maintain the illusion that you're both still here.
The detective has been notified of your plans, though not your specific destination. "Just tell her we're heading north," Heeseung had instructed during your call. "The fewer people who know exactly where we are, the better."
Dawn is just breaking as you slip into Heeseung's car in the underground parking garage. He drives cautiously, taking a circuitous route through the awakening city, frequently checking the rearview mirror for any signs of being followed.
"You really think he could track us?" you ask, watching Heeseung's vigilant eyes scanning the traffic behind you.
"I'm not taking any chances," he says simply. "Not with your safety."
The city gradually gives way to suburbs, then to open countryside. With each mile that passes, you feel the vise-grip of fear around your chest loosening slightly. By the time you're an hour into the journey, the weight of constant vigilance has lightened enough that you notice your surroundingsâthe spectacular autumn colors painting the landscape, the mountains rising in the distance, shrouded in morning mist.
Heeseung must notice your gaze, because he reaches across the console to take your hand. "Beautiful, isn't it?"
You nod, surprised to find yourself capable of appreciating beauty after days of seeing only danger. "I didn't realize how much I needed to get out of the city."
His thumb traces circles on the back of your hand. "We both did."
The drive continues, winding steadily upward into the mountains. Cell service becomes increasingly spotty, then disappears altogether. The isolation that would have terrified you days ago now feels like a blessingâa barrier between you and the danger you've left behind.
"Almost there," Heeseung says as he turns onto a narrow dirt road that seems to disappear into the forest. "It's a bit hidden."
'A bit hidden' proves to be an understatement. The roadâlittle more than a trailâwinds through dense trees for nearly a mile before suddenly opening into a small clearing. And there, nestled against a backdrop of pines with a breathtaking view of the valley below, stands the cabin.
It's not what you expectedânot the rustic, primitive structure the word "cabin" had conjured in your mind. This is a beautifully crafted home of stone and timber, with large windows facing the valley and a wide porch wrapping around two sides.
"Heeseung," you breathe, taking in the scene. "This is..."
"Home," he says simply, a soft smile playing at his lips as he watches your reaction. "At least, it always has been for me."
He parks beside the cabin and comes around to open your door, offering his hand to help you out. The mountain air hits you immediatelyâcrisp, pine-scented, revitalizing. You take a deep breath, feeling something tight in your chest unfurl.
"Come on," Heeseung says, retrieving your bags from the trunk. "Let's get inside before it gets cold."
The interior of the cabin is even more beautiful than the exteriorâan open-concept living area with soaring ceilings, the far wall dominated by a stone fireplace. The furnishings are simple but high-quality, clearly chosen to complement the natural surroundings. Large windows frame the valley view like living paintings.
"This is incredible," you say, turning slowly to take it all in. "Your family built this?"
"My grandfather," Heeseung confirms, setting the bags down. "He wanted a place where the family could escape, reconnect with nature. I spent every summer here as a kid." A wistful smile crosses his face. "Haven't been back in a couple of years though. Work always seemed more important somehow."
You move to the windows, gazing out at the panoramic view. The valley stretches below you, a patchwork of golds and reds and deep greens in the autumn sunlight. In the distance, more mountains rise, their peaks ghostly in the afternoon haze.
"I've never seen anything like this," you admit, momentarily forgetting why you're hereânot a vacation, but an escape from danger.
Heeseung comes to stand behind you, his hands resting lightly on your shoulders. "Good," he says softly. "I wanted you to see something beautiful after everything you've been through."
The simple statement, so earnest and thoughtful, brings unexpected tears to your eyes. You turn to face him, finding his gaze already on you, warm and steady.
"Thank you," you whisper. "For all of this. For keeping me safe."
His expression softens further. "You don't have to thank me."
"I do," you insist. "Most people wouldn't have done half of what you have for someone they barely know."
Something shifts in his eyes at that. "I think we're well past 'barely know,' don't you?"
Heat rises to your cheeks as memories of yesterday flood backâhis hands on your skin, his mouth on yours, the way he'd made you forget everything but him. "Yes," you agree quietly. "I guess we are."
The moment stretches between you, charged with unspoken things. Then Heeseung clears his throat, stepping back slightly. "I should get the generator going and check the water. Make yourself at home."
As he busies himself with the practical aspects of opening the cabin, you explore the space that will be your sanctuary for the foreseeable future. Besides the main living area, there's a well-equipped kitchen, a bathroom with a surprisingly modern shower, and two bedroomsâone large, one small. You peek into the larger one, noting the king-sized bed with its blue-and-white quilt, the bedside tables with reading lamps, the large window offering the same spectacular view as the living room.
Your exploration is interrupted by Heeseung's return. "Everything's working," he announces. "Water's running, generator's humming along. We're all set." He glances at his watch. "I should try to call the detective while we still have daylight. The satellite phone works better outside."
You nod, suddenly remembering the reason for this idyllic retreat. "I'll unpack some of the food supplies."
While Heeseung steps onto the porch with the satellite phone, you busy yourself in the kitchen, organizing the groceries you picked up on the drive. The domesticity of the task is soothingâarranging canned goods in cupboards, filling the refrigerator with fresh produce, setting out cooking utensils. For a few minutes, it's possible to pretend this is just a vacation, a romantic getaway rather than a desperate flight from danger.
When Heeseung returns, his expression is more relaxed than before. "Good news," he says, setting the satellite phone on the counter. "They've got leads on Minhyuk. Apparently he's been spotted in the city, which means he doesn't know we've left."
Relief floods through you. "So we're safe here?"
"For now, at least," he confirms. "The detective says to stay put. They'll contact us as soon as they have him in custody."
You lean against the counter, suddenly exhausted as the tension of the day catches up with you. "So what do we do now?"
Heeseung steps closer, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear with gentle fingers. "Now," he says softly, "we rest. We breathe. We let ourselves feel safe for a while."
"I'm not sure I remember what that feels like," you admit.
His hand cups your cheek, thumb brushing along your cheekbone. "Then I'll help you remember," he promises.
The first evening in the cabin passes in a peaceful haze. Heeseung builds a fire in the massive stone hearth while you prepare a simple dinner from the supplies you brought. The routine feels surprisingly naturalâhim pausing to taste the sauce you're making, you passing him logs for the fire, both of you moving around each other with an ease that belies how new this closeness really is.
After dinner, you settle on the comfortable sofa facing the fireplace, a blanket draped over both of you. Outside, night has fallen completely, the darkness absolute in a way it never is in the city. Inside, the fire casts dancing shadows on the walls, bathing everything in warm golden light.
"What are you thinking?" Heeseung asks, noticing your contemplative expression.
You consider the question, surprised by your answer. "That I can't remember the last time I felt this calm."
His arm around your shoulders tightens slightly. "Good. That's what I wanted for you here."
You turn to look at him, studying his face in the firelightâthe strong line of his jaw, the fullness of his lips, the warmth in his eyes as he returns your gaze. Something swells in your chest, a feeling too new and fragile to name.
"What about you?" you ask. "What were you thinking?"
A small smile plays at his lips. "That I've never brought anyone here before. Not like this."
The admission sends a pleasant warmth spreading through you. "Not even your...?"
"No," he says simply. "No one. This place has always been just for family." He pauses, his eyes never leaving yours. "But having you here feels right somehow."
The words hang in the air between you, weighted with meaning. Then, as if drawn by an invisible force, you both lean in, lips meeting in a kiss that's different from any you've shared beforeânot desperate or distracting, but slow and deliberate, a question and an answer all at once.
When you break apart, something has shifted between you yet again. The pretense that this is merely about safety, about distraction from fear, has fallen away completely. What remains is something new and uncharted, fragile but intensely real.
"It's getting late," Heeseung murmurs, though he makes no move to pull away. "We should probably get some sleep."
The practical concern brings a sudden awkwardness. There are two bedrooms in the cabin, but after everything that's happened between you, the thought of sleeping apart feels strange, almost wrong.
As if reading your thoughts, Heeseung adds hesitantly, "I can take the small room if you want space, or..."
"No," you say quicklyâtoo quickly perhaps. "I mean, I'd rather not be alone. If that's okay."
The smile that spreads across his face is like sunrise. "More than okay," he assures you.
The nighttime routine you establish feels like an extension of the easy domesticity you've been buildingâbrushing teeth side by side at the single bathroom sink, taking turns changing in the bedroom, pulling back the covers together. When you finally settle into bed, Heeseung's arm wraps around your waist, drawing you against his chest as naturally as if you've been falling asleep this way for years.
"Good night, Y/N," he murmurs, lips brushing the nape of your neck.
"Good night, Heeseung," you whisper back, marveling at how quickly terror has given way to tranquility.
As you drift toward sleep, one last coherent thought forms in your mind: here, miles from civilization, cut off from the world, entirely alone with a man who was a stranger just days ago, you've never felt safer in your life.
-
Heeseung's eyes soften, his gaze lingering warmly on yours as sunlight filters through the window, bathing your tangled bodies in golden warmth. His thumb brushes gently over your lower lip, sending a shiver down your spine.
Over the next few days, your intimacy deepens, boundaries dissolving entirely as your desire grows increasingly insatiable. Mornings find you waking to his warm body pressed firmly against yours, his hands already exploring your skin, teasing sensitive spots until you're fully awake, panting and desperate for him.
Afternoons turn into hours spent in relentless pursuit of pleasureâHeeseung pressing you against cabin walls, your bodies colliding roughly, passionately. His hands gripping your hips tightly, thrusting deep and mercilessly, leaving you screaming his name, your thoughts scattering as he repeatedly takes you over the edge. His mouth is everywhere, biting, sucking, and marking you until your body feels entirely claimed.
Late nights, he has you bent over the couch, his fingers tangled in your hair, holding you firmly in place as he drives into you with powerful, possessive strokes, whispering filthy praise into your ear. He loves seeing how quickly he can make your eyes glaze over, leaving you utterly mindless and completely his, each climax more intense, more consuming than the last.
One rainy afternoon, your bodies slam together against the window overlooking the forest, your cries blending with the sound of raindrops hitting the glass. Heeseung lifts you effortlessly, pinning you hard against the cold surface, entering you sharply and deeply, pushing you to the edge with a brutal, relentless rhythm. You cling desperately to him, sobbing from pleasure, your vision blurring as you lose yourself entirely to the sensations he's inflicting upon your body.
In quieter moments, he lays you out on the bed, spreading your legs wide, taking his time teasing you mercilessly with slow, torturous strokes of his tongue and fingers, pushing you to the brink repeatedly until you're begging him shamelessly for release. He enjoys reducing you to pleading incoherence, knowing that only he can unravel you so completely.
One evening, under the flickering glow of candlelight, you ride him slowly at first, then harder, more desperately as your need overtakes you. His fingers dig painfully into your hips, urging you on, thrusting up into you roughly until your body shatters, leaving you trembling, tears slipping down your cheeks from sheer overwhelming pleasure.
"How did we ever survive without this?" you whisper afterward, your voice soft, your body warm and languid against his.
Heeseung smiles darkly, pressing a possessive kiss to your temple. "I don't know," he murmurs, pulling you impossibly closer. "But I plan to make sure you never forget exactly who makes you feel this good."
This time, there's no fear driving you together, no desperate need to escape your thoughts. There's only wantâpure and simple and mutual. Every touch is deliberate, every kiss intentional. And when you come together, it's with a sweetness that brings tears to your eyes, your mind emptying not from desperate distraction but from sheer overwhelming pleasure.
"That was..." you begin afterward, struggling to find words as you lie tangled together in the sunlit bed.
"I know," Heeseung says, pressing a kiss to your forehead. "For me too."
The admission brings a smile to your lips. "How is this real?" you wonder aloud. "two weeks ago, you were a stranger."
He traces patterns on your bare shoulder, his expression thoughtful. "Maybe sometimes life compresses. A week feels like months because we've experienced so much together."
You consider this, watching sunlight play across his features. "I like that explanation."
His fingers continue their gentle exploration of your skin. "Or maybe," he adds more softly, "this was always going to happen, somehow. Maybe we were meant to find each other, even if the circumstances were..."
"Completely terrifying?" you supply with a small laugh.
He smiles, but his eyes remain serious. "I would never wish what you've been through on anyone," he says. "But I can't regret that it brought you into my life."
The simple honesty of his words makes your chest tighten with emotion. You lean up to kiss him, trying to convey without words what you're not yet ready to say aloud.
The satellite phone rings that afternoonâthe detective with an update. They've narrowed down Minhyuk's location but haven't apprehended him yet. The news casts a brief shadow over your idyllic retreat, a reminder that the danger hasn't passed. But somehow, it doesn't hold the same power to terrify you anymore.
"We're safe here," Heeseung reassures you after the call. "And they're getting closer to finding him."
You nod, surprised to realize you truly believe him. The panic that has been your constant companion for days has receded to a dull concern, manageable rather than overwhelming.
That evening, a storm moves in, bringing wind and rain that lash at the windows. You build the fire higher, creating a cocoon of warmth against the elements. The electricity flickers once, twice, then goes out completely, leaving you in firelight and shadows.
"Generator must have cut out," Heeseung says, already reaching for a flashlight. "I'll go check it."
"Be careful," you call as he heads for the door, suddenly anxious about him leaving, even briefly.
He pauses, returning to press a quick kiss to your lips. "Always am," he promises. "Keep the fire goingâI'll be back in ten minutes."
While he's gone, you add logs to the fire, then gather candles from the kitchen cupboards, placing them strategically around the living area. The storm seems to intensify, rain drumming against the roof, wind howling through the trees outside. For the first time since arriving at the cabin, you feel a prickle of unease, attuned to every sound.
When the door finally opens, admitting a rain-soaked Heeseung, relief rushes through you so strongly that you cross the room in seconds, throwing your arms around him despite his wet clothes.
"Hey," he says, clearly surprised by the reaction. "It's okay. Just a blown fuseâI fixed it, but the power company's out anyway. We'll have to wait out the storm."
"I don't care about the power," you murmur against his chest. "I just... I didn't like you being out there alone."
He pulls back slightly to look at you, rainwater dripping from his hair onto his face. "I'm right here," he says softly. "Not going anywhere."
You help him out of his wet jacket, insisting he change into dry clothes while you make hot chocolate on the gas stove. By the time he returns, you've created a nest of blankets and pillows on the floor in front of the fireplace, the closest source of warmth.
"What's all this?" he asks, a smile playing at his lips.
"Camping," you declare with mock seriousness. "Indoor version."
He laughs, the sound warming you more than the fire. "I like the way you think."
You settle into your makeshift camp, sipping hot chocolate, listening to the storm rage outside while remaining perfectly safe and warm within. The contrast isn't lost on youâhow something that would have terrified you a week ago now feels almost romantic.
"Thank you," you say suddenly, looking up at Heeseung.
"For what?" he asks, brow furrowing slightly.
"For this," you gesture around you. "For keeping me safe. For... everything."
His expression softens. "You don't have to thank me."
"I know," you admit. "But I want to. Not just for the practical thingsâthe protection, the cabin. But for making me feel..." You search for the right word. "Normal again. Like myself, not just someone who's afraid all the time."
Heeseung sets down his mug, turning to face you fully. "You're extraordinary," he says, his voice low and sincere. "The way you've handled everything that's happenedâmost people would have broken down completely. But you're still here, still fighting."
The earnestness in his eyes makes your breath catch. "Only because of you."
He shakes his head. "No. I may have helped, but the strength was yours all along." He takes your hand, threading his fingers through yours. "Do you know what I thought when you first grabbed me that night on the subway?"
You shake your head, curious.
"I thought, 'This person is brave.' Not just because you asked a stranger for help, but because I could see in your eyes that you were scared but refusing to be paralyzed by it." His thumb traces circles on your palm. "I still think that. Every day."
Emotion swells in your chest, too big to contain. You lean forward, closing the distance between you, your lips finding his in a kiss that tries to convey everything you're feelingâgratitude, yes, but also something deeper, something that's been growing quietly in the shadow of fear.
The kiss deepens, hands beginning to wander, the storm outside forgotten entirely as you create your own tempest within the circle of firelight. Heeseung's lips trace a path down your neck, finding the spot that makes your mind go blissfully blank, and you surrender to the sensation, to him, to the unexpected gift of feeling safe in a world that had become nothing but danger.
The warmth of the fire bathes the room in soft golden light, shadows dancing gently across your intertwined bodies. Heeseung's fingers glide slowly over your skin, tracing sensual, languid patterns that ignite a slow-burning fire within you. His eyes meet yours, heavy-lidded and filled with desire, making your heart race with anticipation.
He gently guides you to move above him, hands firmly gripping your hips, positioning you carefully until you're comfortably settled with your thighs on either side of his face. A thrill of excitement courses through your body, and you tremble slightly at the intimate vulnerability of the position. Heeseung's gaze reassures you entirely, filled with warmth, adoration, and undeniable lust.
"Take your time," he whispers huskily, warm breath teasing your sensitive skin. "I want to savor you."
His hands slowly stroke your thighs, fingertips pressing lightly into your skin as he draws you closer. Your breath hitches when his lips press softly, sensually along your inner thighs, lingering kisses growing hotter, more intense, making your muscles relax as desire pools deep within your core.
You release a soft, breathless moan as his tongue finally makes contact, moving slowly and deliberately, dragging in slow, teasing strokes, sending waves of languid pleasure cascading through you. Your fingers thread into his hair, guiding his movements gently, hips beginning to rock instinctively, chasing the irresistible sensations he creates.
"Heeseung," you sigh, voice thick with desire, body melting under the slow, sinful movements of his tongue. He hums appreciatively against you, the vibrations rippling pleasure deeper into your body, making you gasp softly.
His touch remains unhurried, deliberately teasing, each slow, tantalizing swipe of his tongue pulling you further into a blissful haze of sensation. He explores every inch of you thoroughly, lips and tongue moving expertly, alternating between slow, gentle strokes and firm, demanding pressure, making you whimper and moan his name repeatedly.
"You taste so good," he murmurs, voice deep and rough, eyes blazing with passion as he briefly pulls away to gaze up at you. "I could do this all night."
Your hips move more insistently now, grinding slowly against his mouth, savoring the deep, languid rhythm you've fallen into. Pleasure coils tighter within you, slow-building yet powerful, as he continues to worship you expertly, driving you steadily toward the edge.
Your breathing becomes ragged, body trembling with need, fingers tightening in his hair as the exquisite sensations push you gently yet inexorably toward release. Heeseung senses your closeness, intensifying his efforts, tongue moving deeply, urgently, drawing you over the edge into a languid, shuddering climax that leaves you breathless and softly trembling above him.
When you finally sink back beside him, his arms wrap around you possessively, pulling you flush against his chest, your bodies tangled intimately as he presses slow, sensual kisses along your skin. The firelight flickers warmly around you, creating a perfect cocoon of warmth, sensuality, and unspoken promises.
Heeseung's fingers trace lazy patterns on your bare skin, his breathing slow and even against your hair.
"What happens when this is over?" you ask softly, the question that's been lingering in the back of your mind finally finding voice. "When they catch him and we go back to the city?"
Heeseung is quiet for a long moment, his hand stilling against your shoulder. Then he props himself up on one elbow, looking down at you with an expression so serious it makes your heart stutter.
"Whatever you want to happen," he says simply. "But I hope... I hope we don't go back to being strangers."
The vulnerability in his voice melts something inside you. "I don't think we could if we tried," you confess. "Not after everything."
Relief softens his features. "Good," he says. "Because I've gotten used to this. To you."
"Me too," you admit, reaching up to trace the line of his jaw. "I can't imagine waking up and you not being there."
His smile is so tender it makes your chest ache. "Then don't," he says, leaning down to brush his lips against yours. "Don't imagine it."
As you drift toward sleep in his arms, the rain pattering gently against the roof, you realize something profound: in running from danger, in seeking refuge, you've somehow found something you weren't even looking forâa connection that transcends the circumstances of your meeting, a sanctuary not just in this remote cabin but in each other.
Whatever comes nextâwhether Minhyuk is caught tomorrow or weeks from nowâthat connection remains. And for the first time since this nightmare began, you find yourself looking toward the future with something like hope.
-
The storm rages through the night, wind howling around the cabin and rain lashing against the windows. Despite the exhaustion weighing on your limbs, sleep comes in fitful bursts, each crack of thunder or creak of the cabin jolting you awake. Beside you, Heeseung maintains his vigil, dozing occasionally but never fully surrendering to sleep. The baseball bat remains within reach, a grim reminder of the danger lurking beyond the walls.
Just before dawn, the storm begins to subside, rain softening to a gentle patter against the roof. Through a small gap in the blanket covering the bedroom window, you can see the sky lightening from black to deep blue, the first hint of morning approaching.
"We should start packing," Heeseung says, his voice low and tense. "I want to be ready to leave as soon as it's fully light."
You nod, slipping from the warmth of the bed into the chill morning air. The satellite phone still shows no signalâthe storm's aftermath continuing to block transmission. You move through the cabin with careful efficiency, gathering only the essentials, keeping away from windows despite the coverings.
"Do you think he's still out there?" you ask, your voice barely above a whisper despite the unlikelihood of being overheard.
Heeseung pauses in his methodical packing, his expression grave. "I don't know. But I'm not taking any chances. We leave in twenty minutes, head straight for the car, and don't stop for anything."
The gravity of his words settles heavily between you. For all your planning, there's still the most dangerous moment to navigateâthe brief exposure between cabin and car, when you'll be completely vulnerable.
As the minutes tick by, tension builds in your chest, a familiar tightness that signals the approach of panic. You focus on your breathing, on the practical tasks at hand, on Heeseung's steady presence beside you. When everything is packed and ready, you stand together in the kitchen, the duffle bags at your feet, steeling yourselves for departure.
"Ready?" Heeseung asks, the baseball bat in one hand, car keys in the other.
You nod, swallowing hard against the fear. "Ready."
He moves to the door, checking through the peephole before unlocking the deadbolt with deliberate quietness. The metallic click of the lock releasing seems unnaturally loud in the pre-dawn stillness. Heeseung turns the knob slowly, easing the door open just enough to scan the porch and clearing beyond.
"Clear," he whispers, opening the door wider. "Let's go."
You step onto the porch, the wooden boards still slick with rain, the air cool and misty after the storm. The clearing surrounding the cabin is eerily still, trees dripping quietly, no wildlife sounds yet greeting the dawn. Everything appears peaceful, normalâand that, somehow, makes your nerves stretch tighter.
Heeseung goes first, bags slung over his shoulder, bat held ready. You follow closely, your footsteps seeming thunderous despite your attempts at stealth. The car is only thirty feet away, but the distance feels vast, exposed, each step taking too long.
You're halfway to the car when you see itâmovement at the forest edge, a dark shape detaching from the deeper shadows beneath the trees. Heeseung notices in the same moment, his body tensing, placing himself between you and the approaching figure.
"Get in the car," he says, voice low and urgent. "Now."
You fumble with the bag, trying to move faster, but your limbs feel heavy with dread. The figure steps fully into the clearing, and even in the dim pre-dawn light, there's no mistaking who it is. Minhyukâhis face gaunt, clothes dirty and wet from the storm, eyes fixed on you with a terrible intensity.
"Go," Heeseung urges again, pressing the car keys into your hand. "Get inside and lock the doors."
But before you can reach the car, Minhyuk calls out, his voice carrying clearly across the clearing. "Don't bother. I cut the fuel line."
Heeseung freezes, a curse escaping under his breath. You can see his mind racing, calculating options, weighing the truth of Minhyuk's claim against the risk of finding out too late.
"What do you want?" Heeseung calls back, his voice steady despite the tension evident in every line of his body.
Minhyuk takes another step forward, and now you can see what he's holdingâthe metallic glint of a knife catching the growing light. "I just want to talk to Y/N. To explain things." His voice is eerily calm, almost reasonable, which somehow makes it more terrifying. "You've turned her against me. I just need a chance to make her understand."
"She understands perfectly," Heeseung responds, his grip tightening on the bat. "You need to leave. Now."
A strange smile crosses Minhyuk's face. "Always the hero, aren't you? Playing the protector." His eyes shift to you, somehow both pleading and menacing. "He's not really your boyfriend, Y/N. We both know that. This is all an act."
Fear roots you to the spot, but anger rises alongside itâanger at this man who has terrorized you, forced you from your home, hunted you across counties. "It doesn't matter," you find yourself saying, your voice stronger than expected. "I don't know you. I don't want to know you. Leave us alone."
Something shifts in Minhyuk's expressionâthe calm facade cracking to reveal something darker, more volatile. "You don't mean that," he says, his voice hardening. "He's manipulating you. Making you say these things."
"No one's manipulating anyone," Heeseung says, taking a half-step forward. "Y/N has made herself clear. You need to go."
Minhyuk's gaze snaps back to Heeseung, hatred twisting his features. "This is between me and her. You're the intruder here."
"Heeseung," you whisper, terror clawing at your throat as you watch Minhyuk's grip tighten on the knife. "Please."
The tension stretches between the three of you, the clearing silent except for the dripping trees and your own heartbeat pounding in your ears. Then Minhyuk movesâa sudden lunge forward that sends panic surging through your veins.
Heeseung reacts instantly, pushing you toward the cabin. "Run!" he shouts, raising the bat as Minhyuk charges.
Time seems to slow and accelerate simultaneouslyâMinhyuk closing the distance with terrifying speed, Heeseung bracing to meet him, the sound of your own ragged breathing as you stumble backward. You want to run as instructed, but can't bear to leave Heeseung alone, your feet refusing to carry you to safety while he faces danger.
The two men collide with violent force. Heeseung swings the bat, forcing Minhyuk to dodge, buying precious seconds. But Minhyuk is fueled by obsession, by a deranged determination that makes him reckless and unpredictable. He feints left, then strikes right, the knife slashing through the air.
Heeseung avoids the worst of it, but the blade catches his arm, tearing through his jacket. He doesn't cry out, doesn't falter, swinging the bat again with controlled precision. This time it connects, striking Minhyuk's shoulder with a sickening thud.
Minhyuk staggers back, but doesn't fall. The injury seems to fuel his rage rather than slow him down. "You think you can protect her?" he snarls. "You think you deserve her?"
"This isn't about deserving," Heeseung responds, voice steady despite the blood now visible on his sleeve. "This is about her choice. And she didn't choose you."
The words seem to strike Minhyuk more powerfully than the physical blow. His face contorts with fury, and he charges again, knife held high.
You're still rooted to the spot, terror paralyzing your limbs. But as Minhyuk rushes toward Heeseung again, survival instinct finally kicks in. Not for yourselfâfor Heeseung. Without conscious thought, you grab the nearest objectâa large rock dislodged during the stormâand throw it with all your strength.
It strikes Minhyuk's back, not hard enough to injure seriously, but enough to distract him, to disrupt his attack. He whirls toward you, eyes wild with betrayal and rage.
"You," he hisses, changing direction, now advancing on you. "After everything I've done to find you..."
Heeseung doesn't hesitate. He lunges forward, tackling Minhyuk from behind before he can reach you. Both men go down hard, grappling in the mud and wet grass. The knife glints in the growing light as they struggle for control, a deadly variable in the chaotic fight.
You search desperately for another weapon, anything to help, when a new sound cuts through the terrible sounds of combatâsirens, distant but approaching. Relief floods through you, followed immediately by renewed fear. Will help arrive in time?
The sound reaches the fighting men as well. Minhyuk freezes for just an instant, his head turning toward the roadâand in that moment of distraction, Heeseung strikes. His fist connects with Minhyuk's jaw, a powerful blow that sends the stalker sprawling backward. The knife falls from his grip, landing on the wet ground between them.
Both men lunge for it simultaneously. Your heart seems to stop as they grapple again, the knife now the focal point of the struggle. Then Heeseung shouts in pain, and you see a flash of redâblood, his bloodâand terror unlike anything you've ever known seizes your heart.
But Heeseung doesn't falter. Despite the wound, he manages to knock the knife away, sending it skittering across the clearing. Then, with a final surge of strength, he pins Minhyuk to the ground, his knee on the stalker's chest, one hand gripping his throat.
"It's over," Heeseung says, his voice ragged with exertion and pain. "Do you hear those sirens? It's over."
Minhyuk struggles for a few more seconds, then goes still, the fight seeming to drain from him as the sound of approaching vehicles grows louder. Heeseung maintains his grip, not trusting the sudden compliance.
The sirens grow louder, then headlights appear through the trees, illuminating the clearing with harsh white light. Police carsâthree of themâbumping down the rough access road, followed by what looks like an ambulance.
"Here!" you shout, waving frantically. "Over here!"
Everything moves quickly after that. Officers pour from the vehicles, guns drawn, shouting commands. Heeseung carefully backs away from Minhyuk, hands raised to show he's not a threat. Minhyuk is immediately handcuffed, his expression eerily vacant now, the manic energy gone.
You rush to Heeseung, heart pounding violently in your chest as you see the blood staining his sleeve, another patch rapidly spreading across his side. His jacket is torn open, revealing a deep gash that makes your stomach lurch.
"You're hurt," you cry out, your voice breaking as tears immediately flood your eyes. Your hands hover over his wounds, afraid to touch and cause more pain but desperate to help. "Oh my god, you're hurt. You're bleeding so much."
"I'm okay," he assures you, though his face is alarmingly pale, his breathing shallow with pain. "It's not as bad as it looks."
"Don't say that!" Your voice rises with panic, tears now streaming freely down your face. "Look at you! This is all my fault. You're hurt because of me."
Your hands tremble as they finally settle on his face, cradling his cheeks as if he might shatter. "You're my baby and you're hurt," you whisper, the words tumbling out without thought, raw with emotion. "Please, you need help right now."
His eyes widen slightly at your words, a softness passing through them despite his pain. He tries to lift his hand to wipe your tears but winces with the movement.
"Don't move," you plead, becoming more frantic as you notice how the blood continues to seep through his clothes. You turn toward the approaching paramedics, desperation in your voice. "Please hurry! He's losing too much blood!"
You turn back to Heeseung, pressing your forehead gently against his, uncaring about the mud and blood. "Stay with me," you whisper fiercely. "I can't lose you. Not now. Not after everything."
Paramedics approach, guiding Heeseung to sit on the steps of the cabin while they examine his wounds. You hover anxiously nearby, unable to tear your eyes from him even as a female officer gently questions you about what happened.
Across the clearing, Minhyuk is being loaded into a police car, his vacant expression finally shifting as his eyes find yours one last time. There's something in his gazeânot remorse, not exactly, but perhaps the first glimmer of understanding that his obsession has led him to ruin.
"He'll be going away for a long time," the detective says, appearing at your side. She looks tired but satisfied. "Attempted murder, stalking, violation of restraining ordersâthe list goes on. He won't hurt anyone else."
Relief makes your knees weak. You look to where Heeseung sits, enduring the ministrations of the paramedics with stoic patience. When he catches your eye, he manages a small, reassuring smile despite everything.
"You should go to him," the detective says, following your gaze. "We can finish the statements later."
You don't need to be told twice. You cross to Heeseung, carefully sitting beside him on the cabin steps. The paramedics have cut away his sleeve to reveal a long gash on his forearm, already partially bandaged. Another wound at his side has been dressed, though blood still seeps through the white gauze.
"How bad is it?" you ask one of the paramedics.
"He'll need stitches," she replies. "But no major arteries were hit. He was lucky."
Lucky isn't the word you'd use. Brave. Selfless. Incredible. Those come closer.
"We need to transport him to the hospital," the paramedic continues. "Would you like to ride along?"
"Yes," you say immediately, your hand finding Heeseung's uninjured one. "I'm not leaving him."
Heeseung's fingers tighten around yours. "It's over," he says softly, just for you. "Really over."
As they help him onto a stretcher, you remain by his side, your hand never leaving his. Behind you, the cabin stands silent in the growing daylight, its brief role as both sanctuary and battleground now complete. Around you, police officers document the scene, take photographs, collect evidence. Minhyuk is driven away, the police car disappearing down the access road toward a future of concrete and steel bars.
In the ambulance, as paramedics hook Heeseung to monitoring equipment and start an IV for pain medication, he keeps his eyes on you, as if afraid you might disappear if he looks away.
"You saved me," he says, his voice slightly slurred as the pain medication begins to take effect. "With that rock. You saved me."
Tears fill your eyes as you shake your head. "No. You saved me. From the very beginning, you saved me."
His lips curve into a tired smile. "Maybe we saved each other."
As the ambulance begins its journey down the mountain, you hold tight to his hand, to that simple truth. Whatever comes nextâhospital rooms, police statements, the eventual return to normal lifeâyou'll face it together. The nightmare is over. Minhyuk can no longer reach you, no longer control your life with fear.
For the first time since that night on the subway platform, you feel truly, completely free. And despite the trauma of the morning, despite Heeseung's injuries and the lingering shock, there's something else growing beneath the reliefâhope. Hope for what comes after fear. Hope for a future neither of you expected to find in the midst of danger.
He smiles, turning his hand to intertwine his fingers with yours. "Sorry. Habit."
It's been exactly twelve weeks since Minhyuk was arrested. Twelve weeks of healingâboth physical and emotional. Twelve weeks of rebuilding what had been so violently disrupted. Twelve weeks of discovering who you are together when fear isn't the foundation of your connection.
The legal proceedings had moved swiftly. Minhyuk pleaded guilty to all charges, perhaps finally recognizing the gravity of his actions. His psychiatric evaluation revealed a disturbing pattern of obsessive behavior dating back years before he ever saw you on the subway. The judge had been uncompromising in his sentencing: fifteen years with mandatory psychiatric treatment. You'd attended the sentencing hearing, Heeseung's hand tight around yours as you faced your stalker one final time.
"Whatever made him fixate on you wasn't your fault," the detective had told you afterward. "Some people just break in ways we can't understand."
Those words had helped, as had the therapy sessions you began shortly after returning to the city. But what helped most was Heeseungâhis unwavering presence, his patience as you worked through lingering fears, his understanding on the nights when you still woke gasping from nightmares.
"What time is your appointment?" Heeseung asks now, bringing you back to the present.
"Four o'clock," you reply, glancing at your watch. "Dr. Kim says this might be our last weekly session. She thinks we can move to bi-weekly."
Pride flickers across Heeseung's face. "That's great. You've come so far."
You nod, a small smile tugging at your lips. "I have a good support system."
His thumb traces circles on your palm, his eyes warm with an emotion neither of you has put into words yet, though you both feel it. "Are you still okay with dinner at my parents' place tonight? We can reschedule if you're tired after therapy."
"I want to go," you assure him. Meeting his family had been a major stepâacknowledging that what began in crisis had evolved into something lasting. His parents had welcomed you with genuine warmth, never asking too many questions about how you met, somehow understanding that those details weren't what mattered.
"They like you, you know," Heeseung says, as if reading your thoughts. "My mother keeps asking when you're coming back."
You laugh, the sound still feeling like a small victory each time. "She just wants someone to appreciate her cooking more than you do."
"True," he concedes with a grin.
The waiter arrives with your check, and Heeseung reaches for it automatically. You let him, having learned to pick your battles. Some protective instincts run too deep to challengeâand if you're honest, his devotion is something you've come to cherish rather than resist.
"I'll walk you to Dr. Kim's office," he says. "Then I need to stop by the studio for an hour before dinner."
Your paths have settled into a comfortable rhythm over the past months. You returned to your design firm, picking up old projects and beginning new ones. Heeseung resumed his work at the music studio, though he now keeps more regular hours, prioritizing evenings with you. You still have separate apartments, but most nights are spent together, switching between your spaces with easy familiarity.
The walk to your therapist's office takes you past the subway station where it all beganâa route you initially avoided but now traverse without the surge of anxiety it once triggered. Progress, Dr. Kim calls it. Reclaiming your city, your life.
"I'll see you at my place around seven?" Heeseung confirms as you reach the office building.
"I'll be there," you promise. "Should I bring anything?"
"Just yourself." He pauses, then adds, "And maybe pack an overnight bag. My parents usually insist we stay late, and I don't want you taking the subway alone after dark."
Once, you might have chafed at the protectiveness in those words. Now, you recognize it as care rather than control. "Already packed," you admit. "It's in my work bag."
He smiles, leaning down to kiss you briefly. "That's my girl."
As he turns to go, you catch his hand, pulling him back for a moment. "Hey," you say softly. "I've been thinking."
"Dangerous," he teases gently. "About what?"
You hesitate, then take the plunge. "My lease is up next month."
His expression shifts, a cautious hope lighting his eyes. "Is it?"
"I was thinking maybe I shouldn't renew it."
The implication hangs between you, clear but unspoken. Heeseung's hand tightens around yours, his voice dropping to match your quieter tone. "Any particular alternative in mind?"
You hold his gaze, your heart beating faster but not with fearâwith anticipation, with certainty. "Your place is bigger. And you have that spare room you're using as storage that would make a perfect home office for me."
A smile slowly spreads across his face, transforming his features with such joy that it takes your breath away. "I think that could be arranged."
"Yeah?"
"Definitely." He pulls you closer, public setting forgotten as he kisses you properly this time, his hands cradling your face with the same tender care he's shown since that very first night.
When he pulls back, you're both slightly breathless. "Go talk to Dr. Kim," he says, reluctantly releasing you. "I'll see you tonight."
You watch him walk away, struck by how far you've come from that terrified person who grabbed a stranger on a subway platform. The journey hasn't been easyâthere are still moments when fear creeps in, still days when you check over your shoulder more often than necessary. But those moments are becoming rarer, overshadowed by new memories, better ones.
As you turn to enter the building, your phone buzzes with a text. Heeseung, already missing you:
"Just realized we never used the small bedroom at the cabin. Maybe we should go back someday. Make some better memories there."
You smile, typing your reply:
"I'd like that. As long as you're with me."
His response comes instantly:
"Always."
A promise that began in crisis, tested by danger, and nowâfinallyâhas the chance to unfold in peace. You pocket your phone and head into your appointment, ready to talk about the future rather than the past.
A future with Heeseung. A future without fear.
A future that began with two strangers on a subway platform, and against all odds, became home.
warnings: smol argument (slight angst), jk and oc ignore each other for a few days,,, smut ! somewhat virgin au... jk guides oc and oc is unsure but curious the entire time !!! very domestic of them :') ,,, jk eats her out, jk lives out a fantasy and face fucks oc, oc tries cowgirl for the first time & jk takes over in the end lol. raw sex, both of them orgasm & get all mushy in the end <3
note: oh my gawd this smut took me so long to write . tmi one of the side effects of my meds is a lower sex drive so i haven't been in the headspace for this ,, i'm so happy i got around to it. obviously it's not perfect or even close to what i envisioned for them ,, but i also think that's what makes them so hehe haha .
enj !
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tuesdays are never good.Â
jungkook decided this a long time ago. tuesdays are always the busiestâthe most inconvenient and the longest. worst of all, with all of tuesdayâs chaosâit means no you.Â
thatâs what jungkook hates the most.Â
days without you.Â
but today is an anomaly.
a breath above water.
a break.
his lab professor extended their assignment deadline. his afternoon class got canceled. shit, jungkook even hit a new personal record at the gym.Â
not to mention that the weather isnât miserable. for once, april isnât pouring rain. instead, the sky is blue and the sunshines almost as brightly as you. currently, heâs on his way to surprise you with a matcha latte from your favorite cafe. which, was difficult for him to do.Â
âone iced matcha with oat milk and less ice please.âÂ
god, it sounded so insufferable coming from his mouth⊠but itâs whatever. heâd do anything for you. you two have been together for almost one year and heâs utterly in love with you⊠he just hasnât said it yet.Â
you talked about it every now and then⊠how your favourite moments with him are the ones where he initiates seeing you. ever since you verbalized that, heâs been keeping a list of random things he could do in his notes app. though itâs a small act, getting you a surprise matcha is on the top of his list.Â
your class should be ending right about now.
he timed his matcha gesture perfectly.Â
and it is, because just as he rounds the corner, he sees you walking out of the building. surrounded by a group of people. jungkook snickers under his breath. of course. youâd never just walk out alone like a normal person. you always have an entire entourage.
as everyone disperses, he reaches for his phone.
nerd [11:45AM]: so popular
nerd [11:45AM]: u have time for ur bf or what ?
yn [11:47AM]: itâs tuesday :(Â
yn [11:48AM]: tuesday takes my handsome man away </3Â
nerd [11:48AM]: not today. i fought a few dragons, sailed across the 7 seas and crawled my way to u n shitÂ
yn [11:49AM]: HAHAHAA
yn [11:49AM]: wtf are u onÂ
yn [11:49AM]: iâll call u tn. focus on ur day. miss u :pÂ
nerd [11:48AM]: turn around dummyÂ
seen
he watches as you put your phone away and stretch your neck, scanning the area for him.
jungkookâs chest swells. but before your eyes land on him, someone else beats him to you. some guyâwho jungkook assumes is a classmateâruns up from behind, surprising you.
you let out a playful scream, throwing your arms up as the guy engulfs you in a hug. and thenâfucking thenâhe lifts you off the ground and twirls you around.
right then and there, jungkook feels his blood pressure skyrocket. irritation creeps up his spine, jealousy curling in his chest like a tightening fist. the guy sets you down, and you scan the area again. this time, your eyes find his. you brighten, beaming at him, and thenâyou point.Â
to him.Â
to jungkook.Â
your boyfriend.Â
and the guy follows your gaze, lifting a hand in acknowledgment. jungkook barely raises a hand back.Â
half-assed.Â
dismissive.Â
unimpressed.
then, as if his patience wasnât already paper-thin, the guy pulls you in for another hug before saying goodbye. jungkook rolls his eyes as you do this. just as he shifts his feet to close the distance, youâre already halfway to him.
you tilt your head, pouting.Â
âhi babyâoh my god. is that for me?â
his gaze flickers to the iced matcha latte in his hand.Â
then back to you.
before he can answer, youâre already leaning in, wrapping your lips around the straw and taking a long sipâright from the drink heâs still holding. he watches as your throat bobs, as you hum in satisfaction, as your fingers brush against his wrist.
without a word, he reaches over, slipping the tote bag off your shoulder and swinging it over his own. itâs muscle memory at this point. second nature, the way he carries your things like theyâre his.
you tiptoe, pressing a kiss to his cheek. he turns at the last second, catching your lips instead. you giggle, and like always, your fingers intertwine with his, your free hand still gripping the matcha latte.Â
suddenly and then all at once, jungkook canât help but notice how pretty you are.Â
just like that, his mood begins to fade.Â
âhow was class?â
âboring.â you frown. âi hate elective classes. theyâre so extra for no reason. arenât they supposed to be gpa boosters? what the heck are they doing assigning me exams and group projects? itâs painful.â
âit may be painful, but that doesnât give you the excuse to be attempting to sext me during class.â
you glare at him.Â
âitâs really annoying that youâre a nerd and actually care about my learning.â
âright,â he huffs. âiâm a shitty boyfriend.â
âyou are,â you agree easily.
silence follows.Â
but itâs not uncomfortable.
after a beat, you exhale. âoh, the guy earlierâheâs my first friend from first year. he just transferred, and his transcript has been all over the place. but he just found out his credits got accepted, so he doesnât have to retake a class. fuck, iâve been stressing for him all week.â
jungkook glances at you, voice softer now. âyou shouldnât stress over things that arenât yours to stress about.â
âbut heâs my friend. am i not allowed to careââ
âthatâs not what i meant,â he interrupts, shaking his head. âyou know that.â
you hold his gaze, the fight dying in your throat. you let it go.
âalsoâŠâ you hesitate. âhe invited me to his party on saturday. itâs a costume party.â
jungkook scoffs, rolling his eyes. âwho throws a costume party in the middle of april?â
âthe entire class is going.â
âokay,â jungkook says with a plain tone. âso what?â
âwhat do you mean so what?â you huff, stopping in your tracks to face him. âwhatâs with your mood?â
jungkook clenches his jaw. he doesnât know. today was goodâuntil he saw that guy hug you. âi donât know,â he exhales. âsorry, baby. i didnât mean toââ
âforgiven.â
he blinks. âthat easy?â
âyes, because youâre coming to the party and youâre dressing up.â
he scoffs. âno, iâm not.â
âyes, you are.â
âi donât do costumes.â
âwell, you do now.â
he exhales sharply, dragging a hand through his hair. âbabeââ
âdonât babe me.â
âi have a meeting with the dean about the marine conservation club and our potential donners. iâm not going to that stupid party and i was hoping youâd accompany me to my thing.â
you pause.Â
âyou decided that for me?â you ask.Â
jungkook sighs. âi never said that. i said i was hoping youâd accompany me.â
âbut you can decide right off the bat that you arenât going to my thing because itâs not your crowd and itâs not important to you.âÂ
he stares at you.Â
you glare at him. ânewsflash, jungkook⊠i donât give a shit about dolphins, but i do care about you. but thereâs no way iâm going to your meeting with the dean to be your arm candy if youâre acting like this over a harmless costume partyââÂ
âthatâs hosted by some guy who clearly wants to fuck you.â
his words come out faster than his thoughts to filter them. he knows how youâre going to react. he knows heâs digging himself a grave right now⊠but a part of him doesnât care. heâs upset. he should have the right to express his feelings and the reality of the situation.Â
your mouth falls open.Â
âwhat?â
he huffs a humorless laugh. âcome on, baby⊠you really donât see it?â
âsee what?â you furrow your brows.Â
âheâs into you.â
you stare at him, brows furrowing. âjungkook, heâs my friend.â
âyeah? and how many of your âfriendsâ have tried to get with you? be honest with me⊠he at least had a thing for you, didnât he?â
anger rises in your chest. âthatâs not fair.â
âwhat isnât fair? the truth?â
you gawk at him. âso what, you donât trust me?â
âof course i trust you.â jungkook exhales sharply, looking away. heâs beyond frustrated at this point⊠and so are you. âi just donât trust him.â
âholy shit, jungkook.â you shake your head, throwing your hands up. âitâs just a party. youâre blowing this way out of proportion.â
he doesnât respond, jaw set, eyes fixed on the pavement.
âitâs stupid,â he breathes. âiâm not going. i donât want you to go either, if iâm being completely honest.â
your face drops.Â
you donât mind the honesty⊠you hate the audacity.Â
âyou know what?â you walk forward and turn to him. with a final defeated breath, you tell him; âtext me when you pick me over your stupid dolphins.â
then, just like that, you turn on your heel and walk away, leaving him standing there, fists clenched at his sides. jungkook watches as you shove the matcha latte into the nearest trash bin and storm off towards the direction of your home.Â
his feet feel glued to the ground for some reason.Â
the rational thing to do is run after you, apologize, and make up with you⊠but instead, he sulks. jungkook turns the other direction, choosing to be a complete idiot.
you donât text him that night.Â
you donât call him the next morning, either.
jungkook doesnât reach out, but you catch him viewing your stories, and liking your tiktok reposts.Â
he lingers closely when you hang out with the guys throughout the week. like maybe heâll say something. like maybe heâll tap your shoulder and ask if you still want him to come. but he doesnât.
you bump into him around campus once.Â
you pass each otherâhis eyes flick to yours, but you look past him. not out of malice. you just donât have the energy for his half-hearted apologies or defensive silences. you donât want him to say sorry because you asked him to. you want him to say sorry because he means it.Â
when thursday passes with no message, you wonder if heâs really not coming.
you wonder if heâll just let this linger, like it doesnât matter.
you go shopping with your friends on friday. pick out a costume thatâs just silly enough to make you feel like yourself.Â
then itâs saturday.
and you still havenât heard from him.
the party is lame.Â
you hate to admit it, but maybe jungkook was right. costumes in the middle of spring? it just doesnât feel right. regardless, you're laughing at a story youâre only half-listening to.
youâre having fun.Â
you swear.
youâve been having fun for the past two hours. smiling, mingling, keeping the energy light⊠but your phoneâs screen is a little too smudged from checking it every ten minutes.
no texts.
you open instagram. he watched your story.
you close it again.
youâre mid-sip when someone bumps your sideânot too hard, just enough to jostle the drink. you turn instinctively, lips parting to apologize, when you see him.
jungkook.
in his marine conservation blazer, white shirt crisp under the low light. tie loosened, hair pushed back like heâs been running his hand through it all night.
and on his head?
tiger ears.
he doesnât say anything at first. just stands there beside you like heâs been there the whole time. then he glances down at you, voice low and casual.
âyou waiting for your shitty boyfriend to text you?â
you blink at him.
âyouâre a tiger.â
he nods. âroar.â
you snort. âdo they even roar?â
he rolls his eyes, the corner of his mouth twitching like heâs trying not to smile. then he shifts, turning to face you properly. his hands find your waist without question, like thatâs still his place. like youâre still his.
his voice softens.Â
âthey roar. and they say sorry.â
you look at him.
"sorry," he adds. his brows are furrow just a little, like he means it. like heâs been thinking about it all night. like the headband was his way of saying i miss you in the dumbest way possible.
you reach up, adjust one of the ears so itâs standing upright again.
âwell... you look stupid.â
âyou like it.â
âunfortunately.â
he presses his forehead to yours, sighs quietly. you glance at the headband again, then back at him. heâs fidgeting with the sleeves of his shirt, refusing to meet your eyes. for once, jungkook looks nervous.Â
you soften.
âyou didnât have to come. we would've worked it out regardless.â
âi know,â he says quietly. âand i wouldâve been here faster but the dolphinsâŠâ
âthose damn dolphins,â you laugh.Â
he joins you.Â
then, a beat.
then he lifts his gaze, eyes meeting yours for the first time in days.
âi wanted to come,â he confesses. âi want to be wherever you are.â
and just like that, the fight breaks into dust.
you step closer, close enough to touch. your hand brushes his. he doesnât move, but his pinky curls around yours like muscle memory.
you donât talk about the argument. you donât ask if heâs sorry. you donât need to.
you lean in, voice lower now.
âone dance. and then we go.â
he rolls his eyes, but thereâs the faintest smile tugging at his lips. âjust one?â
âtwo.â
âthree.â
the door clicks shut behind you.
you kick your shoes off with more force than necessary and drop your bag somewhere near the wall. jungkook follows behind, slower, undoing the top button of his shirt as he steps inside.
the silence isnât uncomfortable. just thick. waiting to be cut. so here you two areâripping the bandaid off.
you turn to face him.
âyou were a dick.â
he nods. âi know.â
âand jealous. for no reason.â
another nod. âi know that, too.â
you cross your arms. âso?â
âsoâŠâ he sighs, tugging at the sleeve of his shirt like he needs something to fidget with. âi got in my head. and then i got mad about being in my head. and then i made it your problem. i'm sorry i said all that. but also, i don't think i'm wrong to feel intimidated by him. he's someone from your past.â
you watch him. you donât say anything.
he finally meets your gaze.
âi trust you,â he says, voice quieter now. âi do. i just⊠get scared sometimes. that someone else will be better. smarter. funnier. more patient with me when iâm acting like a five-year-old.â
you blink at him. âyouâre not five.â
he snorts under his breath.
âyouâre like⊠seven. max.â
he huffs a small laugh, the tension in his shoulders easing just a bit.
âi should have considered why it could have made you feel uncomfortable. shit, you gave up tutoring just because for me... although you could have said it in a nicer way, i understand where you were coming from... and not to mention... youâre the smartest person i know,â you say with no hesitation. âiâve never met a bigger nerd than you. i wouldn't worry about me dumping you for an even bigger nerd. don't think i could handle more nerdology behaviour.â
jungkook cracks a smile.
still, he huffs in frustration and tsks. âi⊠i just didnât want to lose you over something dumb. i hate messing things up with you,â he murmurs.
you step toward him, hands slipping under his blazer, palms resting against his chest.Â
âyou aren't messing anything up.â
his hand covers yours. his eyes flick between yours.
âi'm really trying, ___. i swear.â
you nod, smiling sweetly at him. âyou did good tonight.â
âthe ears?â
âthe ears.â you smile. âvery charming.â
he leans in slightly, voice lower. âwanna pet me?â
âmaybe later.â
jungkook rolls his eyes before dipping his head low. he kisses you for the first time in so long and literally feels his heartache dissolve. you reach over his neck and kiss him with more passion. then, when you pull away, you murmur; âiâm sorry i wasnât very patient. can you and the dolphins ever forgive me?â
âforgiven.â
kiss.Â
âthat easy?â
kiss.Â
âyouâre too pretty to stay mad at.â
jungkook is laid back against his pillows, hands planted lightly on your thighs like heâs not sure if heâs allowed to grip you tighter yet.
youâre straddling his lap, your fingers curled into the open collar of his shirt, your lips pressed to his like youâre trying to memorize the shape of him again. like you need him to know: i missed you.
his mouth moves under yoursâeager, but letting you set the rhythm.
you pull back just a little, your breath shallow. âwe were really mad at each other. didnât even text.â
his eyes open slowly. âyeah,â he murmurs. âi hated it.â
you lean down, kissing the corner of his mouth. âme too.â
before he knows it, your fingers make their way to the buttons of his shirt. you begin to unbutton them, one by one. his breath shakes. this is only the third time you two have ever had sex⊠the first time youâve ever initiated it, too. the first few times you two have had sex, itâs always been a little slow and soft. heâs always been sure to make it as easy as possible for you because, in your words, it feels weird.Â
you like it, of course.Â
itâs just different. losing your virginity recently to him is a completely new experience. in all honesty, heâs done everything right so far. jungkook is always so gentle and caring. but something about the way you look at him right now tells him that maybe⊠tonight that isnât what you want. maybe, you donât want gentle.Â
you want himâŠÂ
hard. messy. hot.Â
âcan you take this off?â
jungkook freezes.Â
then, his hand slides up your waist, thumb brushing under your shirt. âyouâre sure? we donât have to.â
he wants you to be sure. he wants you to know that sex is always in your control and that you get to have it your way. to finish your way⊠to start? this is new. it makes him nervous too⊠but excited more than ever.Â
your reply is barely a whisper.Â
âkiss me again.â
and so he does.Â
slower this time.Â
deeper.Â
one hand cups the back of your head, the other squeezing your hip like heâs finally letting himself touch you the way he wants to. the kiss grows hotter, messierâyour teeth graze his lip, and he exhales a shaky breath through his nose like heâs barely holding it together.
âfuck,â he whispers. âmissed you so much.â
you smile against his mouth. âgood.â
jungkook is buried between your legs.Â
he kisses your thighs slowly, slightly lifting his head up for air. then, he reaches over to your hips and palms them, pressing some pressure. without warning, he dips his head low and begins to eat you out again.Â
his tongue flickers back and forth, fast and messy. he digs his nose in as he sucks your clit and pulls away. he takes his time, flattening his tongue against your clit. your toes curl, your head throws back, and your stomach tightens as the feeling.Â
âd-donât laugh at m-me, okay?â you stutter.
he lifts his head.Â
âwhatâs wrong?â
âi⊠i t-think i might pee,â you pant. âi donât wanna pee.â
jungkook chuckles, not mocking, just warmly.Â
âyouâre not gonna. promise.â
your eyebrows furrow. âbut what if i do? thatâs so gross.â
âdo you want me to stop?â
you nod.Â
âsorry.â
jungkook shakes his head and reaches over to kiss your forehead. âdonât apologize. letâs do what you want and what makes you feel good, okay?â
you swallow.Â
âw-what do you wanna do?â you ask him shyly. jungkook breathes you in, resting hs body on top of yours. like second nature, you wrap your arms around him and hold him close. he trails kisses on your neck as you murmur; âi wanna do something for you too.âÂ
he smiles against your skin.Â
âwe donât have to do anything,â he tells you honestly. âwe can just go to sleepââ
âdo you wanna fuck my face?â
his breath hitches.Â
âuhmâŠâ jungkook shifts and chases your eyes. you stare into his eyes and smile warmly. âw-what?â
you shrug.Â
âi wanna try it,â you confess. âand you mentioned it once jokingly⊠why not, right?âÂ
he blinks at you.Â
before he can register this, you shift and slide lower down the bed. he lifts his body, following your lead and positioning himself. jungkook kneels over you, straddling your chest. his knees are on either side of your body with one hand on the headboard for balance⊠the other cradles your cheek, thumb swiping your puffy lips.Â
âif itâs too muchââ
âi wanna take it,â you pout. âmanifested for you to be oversized. this is me facing my consequence.âÂ
thatâs all it takesÂ
as jungkook tilts his head with a playful smirk, he shoves his heavy cock inside your pretty mouth. he shifts his hips forward slowly, sinking himself deeper inside your mouth.Â
âtoo deep?â he asks, fingers brushing your hair back.Â
you shake your head, eyes watery but committed.Â
shakily, he lets out a deep and wrecked groan. he drags his cock out, bringing the tip to your lips to play with. you swirl your tongue around it, playing with his slit. he inhales sharply before you part your lips for him to thrust himself back in again. jungkook then slides his hand to cup the back of your head, lifting you just a bit for a better angle. the slight move causes you to gag around him.Â
his stomach sinks.Â
he pauses instantly.Â
âyou okay?â
you blink twice at him and begin to suck him off. jungkook throws his head back, moving in slow and shallow thrusts. he tests the waters, as the headboard begins to creak.Â
âgod,â he moans. âlook at you, baby⊠taking me so well. iâm so fucking proud of you.â
then, his pace gets a little rougher. his hips roll forward with more intent, but his hand stays gentle on your head. he doesnât force you to take more. when you moan around him, your nails begin to dig into his thighs.Â
âshitâbaby,â jungkook begins to lose his breath. âsay something⊠gonna cum just like this.â
you pull off for air.Â
âyou can⊠if you want.â
jungkook hisses. âyou canât say shit like that.â
then, he leans over you, bracing both hands against the headboard now. he cages you in. his abs flex with each thrust, and the view of him above youâeyes wide, flushed chest heavingâis seared into your memory forever.
god, heâs so handsome.Â
you keep your hands on his thighs, letting him set the pace. he watches you the entire time, making sure youâre doing okay. it backfires, though because all he can notice is how your mouth stretches around him. how your eyebrows furrow and how your eyes flutter shut like you enjoy this.
spoiler: you do enjoy this.Â
then, he feels his body tighten.Â
he knows the feeling all too well.Â
without warning, he pulls himself out and with a groanâdrops down to kiss you.Â
âgonna stop,â he pants. âgotta be inside you when i finish.â
you let out a laugh against his lips. âokay,â you agree. âwant you to finish inside me too.âÂ
with that, you feel your legs tremble when he pulls you upright. he kisses you slow and settles back against the pillows. his cock is angry, twitching between his thighs. jungkook pulls you into his lap.Â
you hesitate a little, as you swing a leg over. your knees rest on either sides of him. his eyes flicker to the way your hands hover above his chest. you look unsure⊠but also desperate. he canât fight with that.Â
âwhat do you wanna do?â he asks gently, fingers tracing your thighs.Â
âwanna ride you,â you say shyly. âlike cowgirl⊠b-butââ
âyou donât know how?â
âiâm gonna look stupid.â
he rolls his eyes at you. ânot possible.â
jungkook leans in, pressing his lips to your shoulder. âtake your time with it. youâre in control. iâll help you figure it out, okay? do what you want. iâm all yours, baby.â
with that, he lies back as you grab the base of his cock rather awkwardly. you lower yourself down slowly. sinking inch by inch, you gasp.Â
âsorryââ
âdonât apologize,â he reassures you, as he reaches over and helps you line himself up. âhere, like this.â
jungkook holds himself still while you slowly sink down. your hands are planted on his chest, steadying yourself. he groans as he feels your tight pussy clench. his hands grip your hips tightly. you let out a shaky breath in response.Â
you both pause when once you realize youâve taken him in fully.Â
you catch your breath as his hands soothe up and down your sides.Â
âf-fuck.â
âyou okay?â
âyeah,â you nod, taking a deep breath in. âjust⊠big.â
jungkook chuckles, leaning in for a kiss. âyour fault.â
you let out a small laugh as he rubs circles on your hips. you adjust, locking eyes with his.Â
âshould i move now?â
he blinks at you. âyeah. try rocking your hips. you donât have to bounce or anythingâjust move how you feel.â
you nod and try it.
itâs awkward at first, but his hands guide you. soon enough, youâre rolling your hips against his. the slow grind of your bodies both make you moan. you feel his cock harden inside you, and the sharpness is something you never expected to love so much. it feels so good. jungkookâs head lolls forward, kissing your breasts and then your neck.Â
heâs breathless.Â
âthatâs it,â he praises. âgood girl⊠youâre so perfect, baby.â
you lean in to kiss him. then, you pick up your pace. you roll your hips forward, grinding and humping him however your body wants to. heâs biting his bottom lip as your movements quicken and you begin to feel tingling in the pit of your stomach. you chase the feeling by riding him harder. soon, you begin to let out breathey moans.Â
âohh,â you almost cry. âf-fuck. oh my godâŠâÂ
âthatâs it,â jungkook moans. âshit. just like that.â
you fuck him harder.Â
jungkook slaps your ass and you let out a whimper. as you two fuck, you begin to feel the pressure of it all weigh in on you. for some reason, as you look at him, you canât help but pant and want more of this insane feeling.Â
âlook at you,â he hisses. âyouâre doing it, baby. fuck. youâre riding me.â
before you know it, youâre whimpering.Â
your grinding gets lazier but the high is still there. youâre out of breath, sweaty and tired. youâre still moving in his lap, but your thighs are burning. he looks up at you like heâs never seen anything more beautiful.Â
(he hasnât)
âyou okay?â
you give him a small breathless nod. even before you tell him with words, jungkook pulls himself out and reaches over to you. he checks in you.Â
âeverything okay?â
again, you nod but your rhythm falters. your legs shake a little as you try to lift yourself and sink again. you whimper, frusterated at yourself.Â
âsorryââ
âhey,â jungkook murmurs, quickly sitting up. he kisses your forehead. âyouâre doing so good. nothing to be sorry about.â
âi think my legs are giving out,â you murmur, nuzzling into the side of his neck. âbut donât wanna stop.â
he chuckles, running his hands up and down your back. jungkook kisses your jaw. âlay back for me?â
before you can even answer, he shiftsâscooping an arm under your knees and the other behind your back, rolling the both of you with practiced ease until youâre lying against his chest, back to his front.
âthis okay?â he asks, lips brushing your ear.Â
you nod quickly, already breathless as he hooks your thighs over his, keeping you wide open while he stays deep inside you. his arms wrap around your middle, pulling you in tighter, grounding you completely.
he starts to thrust againâslow, deep rolls of his hips that push into you from underneath, the angle making you whimper. your head tilts back onto his shoulder, eyes fluttering shut as you melt into him, letting him do the work.
jungkook fucks you like this for a while. you focus on your breathing and the feeling of him inside you. all your thoughts and efforts crumble when he places his hand over your pussy and begins to play with your clit.Â
âj-jungkook⊠i canâtââ
âyou can.â
âiâm gonnaânghhhâŠ. oh my g-god. jungkook!âÂ
your body starts to tremble, back pressed flush against his chest, every nerve ending alive as he keeps grinding into you from beneath.
his arms stay locked around your waist, one hand splayed over your stomach, holding you still while the other toys with your clitâsoft, steady strokes that match the rhythm of his hips.
âfuckââ you gasp. âjungkookâi thinkâiâm gonnaââ
âi know, baby,â he whispers, his voice shaky but so sweet. âyouâre close, yeah? itâs okay.â
his mouth is right at your ear, so gentle despite how deep he is inside you.
âbreathe through it,â he hisses. âi feel your pussy tightening. youâre gonan cum soon and your instict is to hold your breathâdonât. i want you to breathe through it. want you to feel it all, okay? can you be a good girl and do that for me, baby?âÂ
jungkook fucks himself inside you deeper and harder. you hold your breath as you take him in, and then shut your eyes to exhale.Â
you breathe through your nose, trying to focus on his request.Â
and when you doâyour body curling forward, a desperate whimper falling from your lipsâhe wraps you tighter in his arms, guiding you through it with slow, grounding thrusts, his hand not leaving your clit until you're twitching and whining from the overstimulation.
you cream his cock.Â
âyouâre so perfect,â he breathes, kissing the side of your neck. âyou did so good for me. so fucking good.â
youâre still catching your breath when he carefully lifts you off, laying you back down on the pillows.
âyou okay?â he asks, brushing your hair from your face.
you nod, dazed, your skin flushed and glowing. he kisses your forehead.
âgonna finish, yeah?â he whispers. âjust wanna be close.â
and then heâs sliding back inâslow and deepâhis body over yours, elbows tucked beside your head as he holds himself up just enough to look at you.
âfeels so good,â he moans, dropping a kiss to your cheek. âso warm.â
your hands trail up his back, pulling him in. his movements are less frantic now, more like heâs savoring itâeach roll of his hips drawn out, every kiss messy and sweet.
âlook at me,â he whispers, foreheads touching. âwanna see you when i cum.â
and when he doesâhips stuttering, a low groan leaving his throatâyou kiss him through it, soft and open-mouthed, your fingers carding through his hair as he falls apart right there, with you.
his whole body trembles, but he doesnât moveâdoesnât leave. just stays wrapped around you, breathing hard, kissing your lips again and again like he doesnât want to let you go.
just like that, jungkook cums inside youâfilling your pussy up with every ounce of himself.Â
youâre draped over him like a blanket, one leg tossed over his hips, face tucked into the crook of his neck. the room is quiet, save for the low hum of the fan and the slow, steady rhythm of your breathing as it evens out.
jungkook's fingers trace lazy shapes along your thigh, slow and thoughtless, like heâs just making sure youâre still there. still his. still real.
beside you, hello kitty stares from the edge of the bed. a little crooked. still wearing the ribbon he tied on her hours ago.
âyou think she judged us?â you mumble against his collarbone.
his chest shakes with a quiet laugh.
âshe was appalled. horrified, even.â
you snort.
âpoor girl didnât sign up for that.â
âwe should apologize.â he suggests. âsorry, kitty.â
you giggle agaisnt his chest. then, you lift your face and say; ânext time⊠i think the tiger ears should stay on.â
he stills, then looks down at you slowlyâlike you just said something criminal.
âwhatâs with you and props? if itâs not my glasses, itâs the tiger ears. whatâs next? blindfolds and whips?â
âiâm dead serious.â
âoh, i know. thatâs the scary part.â
you both dissolve into soft laughter, his fingers still moving along your bare skin. at some point, he tugs hello kitty into the covers, nestling her between your bodies like a little buffer. a witness, maybe. or a silent secret keeper.
your eyes flutter closed soon after. sleep is winning.
but jungkook stays awake a little longer. watches you. breathes you in.
and once heâs sureâsure your breathing is slow and even, sure you wonât catch him in the actâhe leans down, presses a kiss to the crown of your head, and whispers against your skin like itâs sacred.
â___?â jungkook whispers, voice low and careful, like heâs scared of waking you.
he shifts a little, just enough to see your face in the soft lamplight. your lashes are fanned out across your cheeks, your lips slightly parted, breath slow and steady.
you donât answer.
he watches you in silence. listens to the hush of the room and the tiny creak of the mattress as he adjusts his arm under your waist. your leg is still hooked over his hip, and your fingers rest gently on his chestâright over the spot where his heart is beating just a little too fast.
maybe youâre asleep. maybe youâre not.
but he takes the chance anyway.
he turns his head, nose brushing the side of yours. and with a kiss so soft it almost doesnât land, he presses his mouth to your hairline.
âiâm so in love with you,â he breathes. not even a whisperâmore like a confession carried on his last exhale. âi love you.â
you donât move. donât speak. donât flinch or blink.
but your fingers twitch. just slightly.
and then they curl in, sinking into the fabric of his shirt. slow and gentle, like your body coudnât help but respond before your mind caught up. like your heart heard him first.
jungkookâs eyes flutter close.
he doesnât say anything else. doesnât push or ask or even hope. he just sinks a little deeper into the sheets, into you, pulling you closer like maybe, if he holds you tight enough, the moment wonât break.
and youâstill quiet, still pretendingâfeel everything.
the weight of his arm around you.
the warmth of his skin against yours. the truth of what he said lingering in the space between your bodies.
you donât say it back.
not yet.
but you feel it, too. so, in your head you say it back. drifting to sleep, tangled with the love of your lifeâ
â Synopsis: After years of being Mr. Choi's personal secretary, you had become accustomed to the dynamics of working closely with him. However, fate had brought about a change â Mr. Choi's son, Seungcheol, would now be taking over the company. Unbeknownst to you, Seungcheol had harbored a secret crush on you for years.
â WC: 8k
â WARNINGS: Smut, mentions of collapsing, blacking out, burn-out, teasing, dirty talk, fingering, oral (f. receiving), cock riding (pro-riddah), 'jealousy', all types of moans and whimpering, crush confessions, creampie, reader is mentioned as 'noona' sometimes.
You started at the company fresh out of college, eager to make your mark in the corporate world. Landing an internship and apprenticeship seemed like the perfect opportunity to kickstart your career. But from the beginning, it was a whirlwind. The partners and directors barely acknowledged your presence, treating you as if you were invisible.
Their dismissive attitudes fueled your determination to prove yourself. You worked tirelessly, absorbing every bit of knowledge and skill you could. Despite the frustrations and challenges, you persevered, determined to make your mark.
Then, when chaos descended and problems arose, suddenly you were thrust into the spotlight. Issues that had been brewing for months seemed to land squarely on your shoulders. It was as if your colleagues had only just noticed your existence, expecting you to magically solve all their problems.
But you didn't falter. Instead, you faced each challenge head-on, drawing upon your education, experience, and sheer determination. With each obstacle overcome, your confidence grew, and your colleagues began to take notice.
You hit the big leagues when you stepped into the role of a top executive, becoming the right-hand person to Mr. Choi, the company's director. From picking out his ties to scrutinizing private contracts, your responsibilities spanned the spectrum.
Every single morning, like clockwork, you'd hop into your car with a casket of coffee and croissants for Mr. Choi. Strutting into the office in your killer heels and impeccable attire, you were ready to make an impression, especially during those crucial meetings where you stood by Mr. Choi's side.
Being Mr. Choi's right arm wasn't just about fetching coffee; it was about being his trusted confidante, advisor, and problem-solver, all rolled into one.
"Y/N, can you schedule a meeting with the board members for next week?"
"Absolutely, Mr. Choi."
"Y/N, can you prepare a presentation for the investors' conference?"Â
"I'll have it ready in no time, Mr. Choi."
"Y/N, can you liaise with our international partners regarding the new partnership agreement?"Â
"Of course, Mr. Choi."
"Y/N, could you buy a birthday gift for my son?"Â
"I'll take care of it, Mr. Choi. "
"Y/N, could you book a reservation at that new restaurant for my wife's birthday dinner?"Â
"Consider it done, Mr. Choi."
Your life was a whirlwind, with the constant ticking of the clock mirroring the click-clack of your heels wherever you went. Tension hung heavy in the air, creeping up your neck like a suffocating scarf. Dark circles under your eyes were a testament to the countless nights of poor sleep, hidden only by layers of concealer slapped onto your face.
Cups of coffee became your lifeline, keeping your eyes wide open until you finally collapsed onto your bed at night. It was a relentless cycle of hustle and grind, each day blending into the next in a blur of meetings, deadlines, and demands.Â
Despite the chaos of your professional life, there was a silver lining: the bills were paid, and then some. Your salary exceeded your wildest expectations, causing whispers among your coworkers about just how much you were making. But Mr. Choi never wavered in his support, always quick to defend your worth and affirm that you deserved every penny.
He'd extend invitations for you to spend time with his family, insisting that you join them at their summer house. You'd seen his family at various company events and dinners, and while you appreciated the gesture, you couldn't shake the feeling of intruding on their private time.
So, respectfully, you always declined, preferring to maintain a professional boundary despite Mr. Choi's insistenceäžEven though he wanted you to choose even the color of his ties.
On another typical day in the office, you meticulously scheduled a meeting for Mr. Choi, gathering his collaborators for an important discussion. As usual, you stood faithfully by his side, your sharp heels elevating you to eye level with the top brass.Â
The room was set, and you watched as the group filed in, taking their seats around the sleek glass table.
But something caught your eyeâa figure among the usual faces. It was Seungcheol, Mr. Choi's son, entering the room. It was a rare sight to see him at these meetings, and you couldn't help but feel a twinge of curiosity.
What struck you even more was the watch adorning Seungcheol's wrist. It was the Audemars Piguet timepiece that Mr. Choi had asked you to purchase for his birthday last year.
You remembered selecting it based on your own taste, so seeing Seungcheol wearing it filled you with a sense of pride. It was a small validation that your choices were appreciated, even by the boss's son.
As Mr. Choi began the meeting, you were right there by his side, ready to assist with whatever he needed.
"Good morning, everyone. Thank you for joining us today," Mr. Choi began, his voice commanding the attention of the room.
You quickly handed him a folder containing the agenda for the meeting, making sure everything was in order.
"First, let's review the progress on our latest project," Mr. Choi continued, flipping through the documents in the folder.
"Of course, Mr. Choi," you interjected, pulling up the relevant slides on the screen for everyone to see.
As the meeting progressed, you anticipated Mr. Choi's needs, fetching him water when his throat grew dry and passing him important documents without skipping a beat.
"As some of you may know, over the past few months, I've been dealing with some health issues," Mr. Choi continued, his gaze sweeping across the room. "And after much consideration and consultation with my doctors, I've come to the difficult decision that I need to take some time away from the company to focus on my health."
Silence fell over the room, the weight of his words sinking in. This was unexpected, and you could feel the tension in the air.
Then, as Mr. Choi's eyes met yours, you saw an understanding dawn in Seungcheol expression. Everything suddenly clicked into placeâthe presence of Mr. Choi's son at the meeting. Â
Then, Mr. Choi continued, "During my absence, I've decided that my son, Seungcheol, will be stepping into my role temporarily."
All eyes turned to Seungcheol as he rose from his seat and bowed respectfully. You couldn't help but feel a sense of uncertainty, but Mr. Choi's next words put you at ease.
"And I have full confidence in both Seungcheol and Y/N," Mr. Choi declared, gesturing towards you. "Y/N will be assisting the whole team, and Seungcheol in any way necessary during this transition period."
You lifted your head, meeting Seungcheol's gaze as he nodded at you. Despite any doubts you may have had, you knew that Seungcheol was capable. You had seen glimpses of his dedication during family dinners, noticing how he would often excuse himself to study, for example.
After the meeting, you found yourself alone with Mr. Choi in the conference room. He looked at you with a gentle expression and asked, "Y/N, why do you seem so worried?"
You offered a small smile, trying to mask your concerns. "I didn't know your health had gotten this bad," you admitted softly.
Mr. Choi returned your smile, his eyes filled with understanding. "I kept it under wraps as best as I could," he said reassuringly. "But I'm confident that everything will be fine, especially with you and Seungcheol at the helm."
Just then, Seungcheol entered the room, and Mr. Choi's attention shifted to his son. "Seungcheol, Y/N will be here to keep you in line," Mr. Choi teased with a grin. "If you step out of line, she has my permission to pull your ear."
Seungcheol chuckled shyly, his eyes meeting yours briefly before he nodded in acknowledgment.Â
Mr. Choi raised an eyebrow, a playful glint in his eye. "Well, she's the best secretary anyone could have," he remarked, his tone teasing. "If she ever decides to leave because of you, consider yourself dead."
You couldn't help but laugh at the exchange, appreciating the camaraderie between father and son. "I'm not going anywhere, Mr. Choi," you reassured him with a smile. "You're stuck with me for the long haul."
The days following Mr. Choi's announcement were a fuss as you attempted to navigate the new dynamic with Seungcheol in charge. You found yourself juggling multiple tasks, trying to prioritize and triage everything so that Seungcheol could acclimate to the heightened demands of his new role.
Despite the added pressure, you remained steadfast in your routine. Each morning, you meticulously dressed, ensuring every detail of your attire was perfect. You prepared Mr. Choi's favorite coffee and croissants, just as you had done for his father every day.
One morning, as you placed the casket on Seungcheol's desk, you noticed him peering up from his papers with a furrowed brow. "Why do you bring me coffee every day?" he asked, his tone curious yet slightly perplexed.
You paused, taken aback by the question. Tilting your head slightly, you replied, "I did this every day for your dad."
Seungcheol raised an eyebrow, clearly surprised. "Did my dad ask for this every day?" he inquired, his curiosity piqued.
You nodded in affirmation, but before you could say anything else, Seungcheol interjected. "You don't need to do that," he stated firmly, shaking his head.
You opened your mouth to respond, but he cut you off. "Seriously, you don't have to go out of your way for me like that," he insisted, his expression earnest.
You paused, considering his words for a moment before nodding in understanding. "Alright," you acquiesced with a small smile, realizing that perhaps Seungcheol's management style was different from his father's.
As the days passed and the workload continued to pile up, you found yourself working late into the night, long after your scheduled shift had ended. Massaging your temples, you stared at the glowing computer screen, the soft hum of the office, the only sound in the empty building.
Glancing up at the clock, you realized with a start that it was already 10 p.m. The realization made your shoulders sag with exhaustion, but you knew there were still tasks that needed your attention.
Looking around your office, which was nestled within the boss's office and separated only by glass walls, you noticed that the rest of the building was deserted. The departments were dark, their lights extinguished for the night.
As the first rays of sunlight filtered into the office, you blinked in surprise, realizing with a jolt that you had slept at your desk. Glancing at the clock, which now read 6:00 a.m., you felt a surge of panic course through you. You couldn't believe you had let yourself fall asleep at work.
Quickly, you sprang into action, rushing to the bathroom to wash your face, brush your teeth and try to salvage your appearance. Splashing cold water on your face, you hoped it would help wake you up and banish the grogginess that clung to you.
With shaky hands, you reapplied your makeup, doing your best to hide the signs of exhaustion that lingered beneath your eyes. You knew that going home to freshen up wasn't an optionâthere was simply too much to do and not enough time.
"You're early, Ms. Y/N," Seungcheol's voice cut through the early morning haze, causing you to startle slightly. You managed a small smile in response, trying to mask the fatigue that weighed heavily on you.
As Seungcheol looked you up and down, you couldn't help but feel self-conscious under his scrutiny. Quickly, you averted your gaze, feeling the tension in your shoulders from the uncomfortable position you had slept in.
Without a word, Seungcheol settled behind his desk, and you seized the opportunity to slip out of the office. The ache in your back served as a constant reminder of your less-than-ideal sleeping arrangements.
Heading to the nearest coffee shop, you hoped that a strong cup of coffee would help invigorate you and shake off the lingering exhaustion.
With the reports prepared the night before, you and Seungcheol led another meeting, this time with the financial team. You entered the conference room together, your demeanor professional despite the weariness that still clung to you from your sleepless night.
Seungcheol took his seat at the head of the table, and you sat beside him, ready to support him in any way you could. As the meeting progressed, you found yourself immersed in the discussion, your mind racing to keep up with the financial jargon being tossed around.
However, amidst the exchange of numbers and projections, you couldn't help but notice Seungcheol's occasional glances in your direction. Each time his eyes met yours, you detected a hint of scrutiny, causing you to wonder if he had noticed your exhaustion.
Desperately trying to maintain your focus, you clenched a pen in your hand, using it as a reminder to stay alert and engaged. But despite your efforts, you could feel your energy waning with each passing minute.
As the meeting dragged on, you found it increasingly difficult to concentrate. Your eyelids feels heavy, and you struggle to keep your thoughts coherent. All you wanted was for the meeting to finish so you could finally rest and recharge.
As the meeting drew to a close and the team members began to file out of the conference room, Seungcheol rose from his seat, gathering some papers from the table. You followed suit, clutching onto the edge of the desk for support as you struggled to maintain your balance.
Seungcheol noticed your unsteady demeanor and furrowed his brow in concern. "Y/N, are you okay?"Â
"I'm fine," you managed to reply, your voice barely above a whisper. But even to your own ears, the words sounded hollow and unconvincing, the effort only served to make your head spin even more.
But as Seungcheol's voice grew louder and more alarmed, it felt as though his words were merely echoing around your head, distant and muffled, you realized just how drained you truly were. The room seemed to spin around you, struggling to keep your balance, you fought to stay on your feet.
The last thing you saw before darkness enveloped you was Seungcheol's panicked expression as he rushed forward, his arms outstretched to catch you before you hit the ground.
He shaked you as his figure blurred and distorted as your vision faded, and then everything went black, the sound of rushing blood pounding in your ears.
Slowly, consciousness began to seep back into your mind, accompanied by the soft murmur of voices and the gentle beeping of medical equipment. Blinking groggily, you struggled to make sense of your surroundings.
As your vision cleared, you realized you were in the nursery, surrounded by the sterile white walls and the comforting hum of medical machinery. And by your side, sitting in a chair with his head bowed, was Seungcheol.
His presence brought a sense of calm to the room, and you couldn't help but feel a rush of gratitude toward him. Despite the strain of his new responsibilities, he had stayed by your side, ensuring that you were taken care of.
You tried to speak, but your throat felt dry and scratchy. Seungcheol must have sensed your movement, because he looked up, his eyes widening in relief as he saw you awake.
You tried to sit up, but a wave of dizziness washed over you, forcing you back against the pillows. Seungcheol placed a comforting hand on your shoulder, urging you to rest.
"You collapsed during the meeting," he explained, his voice filled with worry. "They brought you here to rest. The doctors said it was exhaustion."
"Exhaustion? I-" you began, but before you could finish your sentence, Seungcheol cut in, his arms crossed firmly over his chest.
"I saw on the cameras that you slept at your desk," he stated matter-of-factly, his tone tinged with concern. "I noticed becqause you're still wearing the same clothes," Seungcheol added, his tone gentle but firm.
You felt your cheeks burn even hotter at his observation, wishing you could disappear into the floor. The thought of him noticing you using the same clothes from the previous day filled you with mortification, and you struggled to find the right words to respond.
"I... I didn't have time to change," you mumbled, your voice barely above a whisper. The weight of exhaustion and embarrassment settled heavily on your shoulders, and you couldn't bring yourself to meet Seungcheol's eyes.
"You need to take better care of yourself, Y/N," he said softly, his concern evident in his eyes. "I saw you working for my dad for years, and I know how demanding he could be."
You swallowed hard, feeling a lump form in your throat at the mention of Mr. Choi. Memories of late nights and early mornings spent tirelessly working flooded your mind, and you couldn't help but feel a twinge of guilt for letting Seungcheol down.
"But I also know that you can't keep pushing yourself like this," Seungcheol continued, his voice filled with empathy. "You're human, Y/N, and you have limits."
Seungcheol's gaze softened as he looked at you, concern etched into his features. "Y/N, do you remember the last time you took time off?" he asked gently, his voice filled with genuine worry.
You hesitated, feeling a pang of guilt as you realized that you couldn't recall the last time you had taken a break. "Um... I'm not sure," you admitted quietly, your gaze dropping to the floor.
Seungcheol glanced at his watch, his expression thoughtful. "Well, you don't need to work for the rest of the week," he declared, his tone firm yet compassionate.
Your eyes widened in surprise at the sudden announcement, your mind racing to comprehend what he had just said. "But there are still conferences," you protested weakly, rising from the bed with shaky legs.
Seungcheol shook his head, his eyes meeting yours with determination. "I'll handle the conferences," he insisted, his voice leaving no room for argument. "You need to rest, Y/N. That's an order."
You opened your mouth to protest further, but the exhaustion that weighed heavily on your shoulders silenced you. With a sigh, you nodded in reluctant acceptance, realizing that perhaps Seungcheol was rightâyou did need to take care of yourself.
Despite having time off, your body remained accustomed to waking up at the same early hour as your workdays, thanks to the relentless consistency of your alarm. Each morning, you would groggily switch off the alarm, only to fall back into the comforting embrace of sleep for a few more precious hours.
But something changed during these days off.
Just as you used to bring coffee for your boss, you found yourself receiving a basket of breakfast at your door every morning, each one bearing Seungcheol's unmistakable calligraphy. Instead of the usual croissants and coffee, the baskets were filled with a colorful array of fruits, a healthier alternative that he seemed to insist upon, instead of his dad.
"Fruits are way more healthy than croissantsâŠÂ - Seungcheol."
[...]
Your phone rang unexpectedly in the early morning hours of your last day off, jolting you awake from a peaceful slumber. Blinking away the remnants of sleep, you answered the call, greeted by the voice of Joshua from the Human Resources Department.
"Hello?" you murmured, still groggy from sleep.
"Hi, Y/N," Joshua replied, his voice hushed as though sharing a secret. "I hope I'm not disturbing you."
You shook your head, sitting up in bed and giving your full attention to the call. "No, it's fine. What's up, Joshua?"
"I just wanted to let you know," Joshua continued, his tone serious yet tinged with amusement, "Seungcheol asked all the departments to give you some space and let you rest during your time off."
You felt a surge of gratitude towards Seungcheol for his thoughtfulness, but your gratitude was short-lived as Joshua's next words caught you off guard.
"However," Joshua added, a hint of mischief evident in his voice, "he's struggling a bit with managing everything himself. I caught him pacing back and forth in his office for the past few minutes."
You couldn't help but chuckle at the mental image of Seungcheol pacing anxiously in his office. "I'll take care of it," you assured Joshua, determination seeping into your voice.
"Great," Joshua replied with a laugh. "I'll leave you to it then. Enjoy the rest of your day off, Y/N."
As you confidently strode into the building, the weight of the archives in your hand felt oddly reassuring. Despite the lingering fatigue from your days off, you felt a renewed sense of determination as you navigated the familiar halls in your high heels.
The glances from your coworkers didn't go unnoticed, their surprise at seeing you back at work evident in their expressions. You could almost hear the unspoken question hanging in the airâshouldn't you be at home resting?
Lost in his thoughts, Seungcheol snapped out of his trance as he caught sight of you through the glass walls that separated his office. His eyes widened at the unexpected sight of you, and you offered him a small bow as you approached.
Pushing open the door, you entered his office, the determined set of your shoulders belying any trace of uncertainty. Seungcheol watched you with concern, his normally impeccable hair tousled and his lips worryingly bitten.
"You shouldn't be here," he stated, his voice tinged with worry as he took in your appearance.
You simply smiled in response, pressing the archives into his chest with a sense of purpose. "We have work to do," you replied firmly, meeting his gaze with unwavering determination. "Do you want my help or not?"
Seungcheol's lips parted slightly, his cheeks flushing with a hint of embarrassment as he processed your words. After a moment of hesitation, he nodded shyly, a faint smile playing at the corners of his lips. "Yes," he whispered, his voice filled with gratitude and relief.
[...]
As Seungcheol sat alone in the dimly lit office, surrounded by the quiet emptiness of the building, a sense of clarity washed over him. He had been so determined to prove himself capable, to show his dadâand youâthat he could handle the responsibilities of running the company on his own. But as the days passed and the chaos of the company threatened to overwhelm him, he found himself feeling lost and unsure.
Now, as he looked around at the neatly organized piles of contracts, the meticulously scheduled meetings, and the completed spreadsheets on the computer screen, he finally understood why his dad had always relied on you so heavily. Despite your youth, you possessed a rare combination of competence, efficiency, and dedication that made you indispensable to the smooth operation of the company.
Seungcheol couldn't tear his eyes away from you as he watched from the other side of the table. The soft glow of the computer screen illuminated your face, casting shadows that danced across your features as you worked diligently.
Your unbuttoned white shirt and raised sleeves hinted at the long hours you had put in, while your hair, now gathered in a messy bun, spoke about the intensity of your focus. Despite the exhaustion that lingered in the lines of your face, there was a determined set to your jaw, a resilience that shone through even in the late hours of the night.
Seungcheol marveled at the sight of your manicured nails flying across the keyboard with practiced precision, effortlessly organizing the digital archives with a speed that left him in awe.
Seungcheol let out an exasperated sigh, his frustration evident as he leaned back in his chair, his gaze fixed on you with guilt. "I feel terrible," he admitted, his voice heavy with regret. "You shouldn't have had to resolve all of these problems. I took you away from your day off, and now you're stuck here dealing with all of this mess."
You couldn't help but smile at the poor boy, his sulky expression only serving to make him appear more endearing. "Hey, it's okay," you reassured him, your tone gentle as you reached across the table to place a comforting hand on his arm. "I'm already feeling better, thanks to you."
Seungcheol's expression softened at your words, a flicker of relief crossing his features. "I just wish I could have handled things better," he confessed, his voice tinged with self-doubt.
You shook your head, dismissing his concerns with a playful grin. "Well, you did leave fruits at my door," you teased, unable to resist poking fun at his earlier gesture of kindness. "So I'd say you're doing just fine."
Seungcheol couldn't help but let out a chuckle, his usual professional demeanor momentarily slipping as he made a lighthearted comment about your near fall earlier in the day. "Man, you were this close to eating floor," he quipped, a mischievous twinkle in his eye.
You gasped in mock indignation, caught off guard by his informal tone. "Seungcheol!" you exclaimed, your hand flying to your chest in exaggerated shock. "I can't believe you just said that!"
But despite your feigned outrage, you couldn't suppress the laughter bubbling up inside you.
Seungcheol's laughter filled the air as he apologized, his voice laced with amusement. "Sorry, sorry," he repeated, his grin widening as he realized the playful banter between you.
You couldn't help but mock offense at his apology, feigning exaggerated indignation. "I'm deeply wounded," you joked, your tone dripping with sarcasm as you placed a hand dramatically over your heart. "How will I ever recover from such a grievous insult?"
Seungcheol laughed at your theatrics, the sound warm and genuine. "I'll make it up to you, I promise," he said, his eyes sparkling with mischief. "How about dinner? My treat."
You raised an eyebrow in mock skepticism, a playful smile tugging at the corners of your lips. "Hmm, I don't know," you teased, pretending to consider his offer. "I might need a more sincere apology than that."
But as you glanced at Seungcheol's earnest expression, you couldn't help but feel a flutter of excitement at the prospect of spending more time together outside of work. With a grin, you relented, accepting his invitation with a playful wink. "Alright, dinner it is."
"Let's go," Seungcheol declared with a grin, his eyes alight with excitement.
You widened your eyes in surprise, a hint of disbelief creeping into your voice. "Tonight?" you echoed, unable to hide your astonishment.
Seungcheol nodded eagerly, his stomach rumbling audibly. "Yes, tonight," he confirmed, a smirk playing at the corners of his lips. "I'm starving."
With a smile, you rose from your seat, placing the neatly organized archives on the side of his desk. "Alright then, let's go," you agreed, grabbing your bag and slinging it over your shoulder.
As you made your way towards the exit of the empty, darkened building, you heard a surprised whistle from Seungcheol. You couldn't help but giggle at his reaction, turning to tease him playfully. "Afraid of ghosts, Seungcheol?" you teased, a mischievous twinkle in your eye.
Seungcheol scoffed, his expression mockingly indignant. "Please, the building is sinister at night," he retorted, his tone tinged with exaggeration. "How could you possibly spend nights here?"
As you walked side by side with Seungcheol towards the parking lot, the darkness of the night enveloping the empty streets, you couldn't resist teasing him about his earlier comment about the building being sinister.
"It's scarier during the day with that bunch of people around," you quipped with a playful grin, nudging him lightly with your elbow.
Seungcheol chuckled at your remark, his laughter filling the quiet night air. "Was I one of those people that scared you?" he asked, his tone laced with amusement.
You couldn't help but play along, feigning exaggerated fear as you imitated his walk with a comically exaggerated pout and furrowed eyebrows. "Oh, definitely," you replied with mock seriousness, your lips puckered into a pout. "You walk like this."
Seungcheol gasped dramatically, a hand flying to his chest in mock offense. "I'm hurt," he protested, his voice dripping with faux indignation. "I'm a friendly guy, you know."
As Seungcheol held the door of the car open for you, a small smile played at the corners of your lips as you settled into the seat. "You know, in the past, you were friendly with everyone but me," you remarked casually, fastening your seatbelt as he made his way around to the driver's seat. "It's surprising to see how gentle you're being right now."
Seungcheol chuckled at your observation, his laughter warm and genuine. "It wasn't always like this," he admitted as he started the car, the engine humming to life.
You scoffed lightly, shaking your head in mock disbelief. "Oh, please," you retorted, a playful glint in your eye. "I distinctly remember you going out of your way to avoid me at dinners in your house. You'd even skip dinner altogether because of me."
A smile tugged at the corners of Seungcheol's lips at your words, a hint of nostalgia coloring his expression as he navigated the quiet streets.
Seungcheol's voice was tinged with a hint of reluctance as he spoke, his gaze fixed on the road ahead. "I had my reasons," he murmured, a note of hesitation in his tone.
You raised an eyebrow in curiosity, turning to look at him expectantly. "And what might those reasons be?" you inquired, your tone playful yet genuinely curious.
But Seungcheol merely glanced at you briefly before returning his attention to the streets, a faint blush tinting his cheeks. "I'm not going to answer that," he replied firmly, his voice tinged with embarrassment.
You couldn't help but sulk at his refusal, crossing your arms over your chest. "Why not?" you pouted, unable to resist teasing him.
Seungcheol let out a soft chuckle, shaking his head in amusement. "Because it's embarrassing," he admitted sheepishly, his cheeks flushing slightly at the admission.
You couldn't resist pressing further, a playful glint in your eye as you leaned in closer. "Come on, Seungcheol, you can't leave me hanging like this," you teased, a mischievous smile playing on your lips. "I promise I won't laugh."
Seungcheol let out a soft sigh, his expression full of embarrassment and reluctance. "Fine," he relented, his cheeks still tinged with a faint blush. "But you have to promise not to make fun of me."
You nodded eagerly, your curiosity piqued. "I promise," you replied earnestly, your eyes wide with anticipation.
"The truth is..." Seungcheol began, he glanced at you briefly before returning his focus to the road ahead. "I was secretly in love with your impeccable taste in office supplies."
You blinked in surprise, caught off guard by his unexpected confession. For a moment, you were speechless, the weight of his words sinking in. But then you noticed the playful glint in his eyes, the mischievous curve of his lips, and you couldn't help but roll your eyes.
"Come on, Seungcheol," you scoffed, "Tell me the real reason."
But Seungcheol merely chuckled, a boyish grin spreading across his face as he feigned pain at your weak slaps on his shoulder. "Ouch, that hurts," he teased, his laughter filling the car.
Seungcheol's voice was hesitant as he spoke, his gaze fixed on the road ahead. "My dad would kill me if he heard me saying this, but..." he trailed off, his words hanging in the air.
"But what?" you prompted.
Seungcheol took a deep breath, his cheeks tinged with a faint blush. "At the time, I had a crush on you," he confessed, his admission hanging in the air between you.
You felt your breath catch in your throat, your mind racing as you processed his words. You stayed silent, unable to form a coherent response as a rush of emotions washed over you.
After a moment of tense silence, Seungcheol continued, his voice barely above a whisper. "And... I was jealous of you with my dad," he admitted.
A wheeze of laughter escaped your lips before you could stop it, and you clapped a hand over your mouth, trying to suppress the sudden burst of amusement. But it was too lateâonce the laughter started, it was impossible to hold back.
Seungcheol looked at you, a mixture of confusion and embarrassment crossing his features as he watched you dissolve into laughter. He bit his lip, trying to suppress a laugh of his own, but soon he couldn't hold it in any longer.
Seungcheol's voice carried a hint of mock indignation as he spoke. "You're laughing at my feelings?" he teased, a playful glint in his eyes.
You tried to stifle your laughter, shaking your head as tears of mirth streamed down your cheeks. "No, no," you managed to gasp out between giggles, "but... me? Your dad?" The absurdity of the situation struck you, and you dissolved into laughter once again, your body shaking with the force of it.
Seungcheol couldn't help but join in, his own laughter mingling with yours as he glanced at you with a mixture of amusement and embarrassment. "Okay, okay," he said, his voice tinged with laughter, "maybe it does sound a little ridiculous when you say it like that."
As the laughter subsided, you wiped away tears of mirth and leaned against the window, still chuckling softly to yourself.
You asked with a playful smile, your curiosity piqued. "Why me, Seungcheol?"
Seungcheol let out a soft chuckle, shaking his head as he glanced at you. "Well, think about it," he began, his tone lighthearted. "My dad spent every day with you, but I only saw you on special occasions. And every time I tried to catch your attention, you were busy with something with my dad." He chuckled again.
You couldn't help but laugh along with him, playfully shaking his shoulder. "Oh, so I didn't catch your charms at that time?" you teased, a mischievous twinkle in your eye.
Seungcheol grinned, his gaze meeting yours. "I guess not," he replied with a shrug, his tone teasing yet fond.
You couldn't resist teasing Seungcheol a little more. "And your charm was ignoring me when you saw me?" you asked, raising an eyebrow.
Seungcheol let out a nervous chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly. "Okay, maybe I was a little nervous," he admitted, his cheeks flushing slightly.
You laughed at his confession, enjoying the playful banter between you. "Was I really that intimidating?" you asked, feigning surprise.
Seungcheol nodded emphatically, his eyebrows raised in seriousness. "Definitely," he replied.
He continued, "I mean, we're almost the same age, but every time I saw you at dinner, you came looking like a lawyer ready to win a case."
You couldn't help but be curious. "And why didn't you tell me?" you asked, your tone gentle.
Seungcheol paused for a moment, his expression thoughtful. "Honestly, before, I didn't really know how to tell you," he confessed, "I wasn't exactly experienced in... well, talking to girls, let alone asking them out on dates."
You raised an eyebrow, intrigued by his admission. "And now?" you pressed.
Seungcheol turned to you, a warm smile gracing his features, as the car pulled up to the restaurant, Seungcheol got out and hurried around to open the door for you, gesturing for you to step out. "Well, I'd like to think I've gotten a little better at it," he replied, his tone light.
You chuckled softly, stepping out of the car and allowing him to guide you towards the entrance of the restaurant. "I'd say you've definitely improved," you remarked, a teasing glint in your eye.
Seungcheol chuckled, his cheeks tinged with a faint blush. "The old Seungcheol would be freaking out right now if he knew he is now taking you to dinner," he admitted, a sheepish grin spreading across his face.
As you settled into your seats at the restaurant, the ambiance around you buzzing with the soft hum of conversation and the clinking of glasses. Seungcheol sat across from you, a playful smile dancing on his lips as he perused the menu.
"So, Seungcheol," you began, your voice laced with mischief, "tell me about your crush on me when you were just a boy."
Seungcheol's eyebrows shot up in surprise, his gaze meeting yours. "Well," he began, a mischievous twinkle in his eye, "let's just say, my crush on you hasn't exactly faded over the years."
You couldn't help but laugh at his bold confession, the unexpectedness of his words catching you off guard. "Oh, really?" you replied, a teasing smile playing on your lips. "And here I thought you were just taking me out to dinner as a friendly gesture."Â
You drink a sip of wine, "Imagine if your dad finds out about this little dinner date, Mr. Choi SeungcheolâŠ"
Seungcheol's smirk widened at your response, a glint of amusement dancing in his eyes. "And if he finds out?" he teased, his tone light yet filled with confidence.
You raised your chin slightly, meeting his gaze with a knowing look. "Well, Seungcheol," you replied, your voice steady, "it's not exactly ethical for a boss to take his employees on dates."
Seungcheol's smirk only grew, his confidence unwavering as he leaned forward slightly. "I think I can decide what's ethical while I'm in charge," he countered, his tone playful yet determined. "And besides, what harm could it do after your shift?"
You couldn't help but raise an eyebrow in playful skepticism at Seungcheol's suggestion. "Is it normal to take female employees on dates?" you asked, your tone teasing yet curious. "I'm sure the other girls would be interested to know."
Seungcheol's gaze softened as he met your eyes, a faint smile playing on his lips. "I can't speak for anyone else," he replied, his voice low and sincere, "but I only have eyes for one woman in this company."
You couldn't deny the flutter of excitement mixed with apprehension as Seungcheol's gaze locked with yours, his smile causing your heart to race. "Seungcheol..." you began, your voice trailing off as you searched for the right words.
Seungcheol's smile widened, a playful glint in his eyes as he leaned forward slightly. "Yes?" he prompted, his voice low.
You took a deep breath, steeling yourself as you meet his gaze. "I have to admit," you started, your voice steady despite the racing of your heart, "it's not exactly the most conventional situation, considering you're the son of my boss."
Seungcheol's smile remained, his eyes twinkling. "Well, technically, I am your boss," he teased.
You raised an eyebrow, "Is that supposed to sound better?" you retorted, a hint of amusement in your voice.
Seungcheol chuckled softly, leaning back in his chair as he met your gaze with a knowing look. "With that title," he replied, his voice laced with playful arrogance, "I can bend the rules a little."
You held your breath for a moment, nodding in acknowledgment of Seungcheol's words. But as you met his gaze once more, a determined look in your eyes, you couldn't help but shake your head slightly.
"You won't win me over that easily," you declared, your voice firm yet tinged with a hint of playfulness.
Seungcheol's smile faltered slightly, a spark of challenge igniting in his eyes as he leaned forward once more. "Challenge accepted," he replied, his voice filled with determination.
You couldn't help but smirk as you leaned back in your chair, your gaze locked with Seungcheol's.
Seungcheol's breath caught in his throat, his expression shifting from playful to slightly flustered. "Damn, don't look at me like that," he muttered under his breath, his cheeks flushing slightly.
You couldn't suppress a laugh at his reaction, feeling a sense of satisfaction at the way you were able to tease him. "Like what?" you teased.
Seungcheol shook his head slightly, a faint smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Like you know exactly what you're doing,"
You couldn't resist the urge to playfully tease Seungcheol, so you tilted your head and fixed him with an intense gaze. "Like this?" you asked, your voice soft but tinged with amusement.
Seungcheol's breath hitched slightly, his feet shifting nervously under the table as he looked away from you, unable to meet your gaze. You couldn't help but feel a sense of satisfaction at the effect you were having on him, a mischievous smile playing on your lips as you watched his reaction.
Seungcheol let out a slow exhale, his eyes flickering back to meet yours briefly before darting away again. "Yeah, like that," he mumbled, his voice slightly strained.
You couldn't help but chuckle softly at his response, enjoying the playful banter between the two of you. "Good to know I still have that effect on you," you teased, a playful glint in your eye.
Seungcheol rolled his eyes playfully, a hint of a smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Yeah, yeah, don't get too cocky now," he replied, his tone light but filled with warmth.
As the dinner drew to a close and both of you felt the weariness of the day settling in, Seungcheol pulled up in front of your apartment building. You exchanged a few final words, the playful banter still lingering between you as you prepared to part ways.
With a smirk, you couldn't resist teasing Seungcheol one last time before you left. "Well, thanks for the dinner, boss," you said, your voice laced with a hint of mischief.
Seungcheol chuckled softly, shaking his head in amusement. "Anytime, secretary," he replied, his tone teasing yet filled with warmth.
Before you stepped out of the car, you leaned in to plant a quick kiss on Seungcheol's cheek, a gesture of gratitude. "Goodnight, Seungcheol," you said with a smile, feeling a sense of contentment wash over you.
"Goodnight, Y/N," Seungcheol replied, his voice soft as he returned your smile.
With one final wave, you stepped out of the car and watched as Seungcheol drove off into the nightäžgiggling like a little girl.
You lay in your bed, the soft sheets providing a feeling of comfort after a long day. Your mind starts to wonder as you take in the moment of silence. That is, until your cellphone interrupts your thoughts with notifications from Seungcheol.
You glanced down at your phone and couldn't suppress a smile when you saw Seungcheol's message. It read, "Since you're such a busy woman, I thought I'd save you the trouble and make plans for Saturday. I'll pick you up in the morning and we'll spend the day at the summer house."
With a playful glint in your eye, you quickly replied, "Just like your dad to invite me to the summer house, huh?"
A moment later, Seungcheol's response came through. "Yes, but this time, you'll go," he wrote, his tone confident yet filled with warmth.
You couldn't resist teasing him a bit more. "Who guarantees that?" you typed quickly, a smirk playing on your lips as you sent the message.
A moment later, your phone buzzed with Seungcheol's response. "I do" he replied confidently. "And if that's not enough, I can promise you good food, great company, and a beautiful view. What more could you want?"
You chuckled softly, appreciating his playful persistence. "Alright, you win. I'll be ready," you responded, feeling a flutter of excitement for the upcoming weekend.
"Great! Looking forward to it," Seungcheol replied with a smiley face emoji.
Just as he promised, Seungcheol stopped in front of your apartment in the morning. You stepped out of the building, the bright sun shining down, and made your way to his car. You were wearing sunglasses and a sundress, a look quite different from the usual office attire Seungcheol was accustomed to seeing you in.
As you slid into the passenger seat, Seungcheol gave you an appreciative once-over and grinned. "Well, look at you," he teased, his eyes twinkling with amusement. "I almost didn't recognize you without the high heels and power suit."
You laughed, adjusting your sunglasses. "Surprised, huh? I do have a life outside the office, you know."
He chuckled as he started the car. "I must say, I like this version of you." Seungcheol glanced over at you, a playful smirk on his lips. "Finally, I thought you would never get to see our summer house," he teased.
You chuckled, adjusting your sunglasses. "Well, your dad always invited me on weekends to spend the day with you and your brother. I guess I just never took him up on the offer."
Seungcheol raised an eyebrow, a hint of surprise in his eyes. "Really? My dad wanted you to spend time with us?"
"Yeah," you nodded, smiling at the memory. "He would always insist, but I didn't want to intrude on your family time."
Seungcheol shook his head, laughing softly. "You wouldn't have been intruding. My dad probably wanted you there to keep me and my brother in line."
You chuckled at Seungcheol's playful response, shaking your head in amusement. "Of course, you were terrible. I needed to choose my peace," you teased, a playful glint in your eye.
Seungcheol laughed, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "No way, my dad told you about all the things we've done?" he exclaimed, sounding genuinely surprised.
You nodded with a smirk. "Yeah, I saved you two from a lot of mess already. I needed to remind your dad to take you two off punishment more than once."
Seungcheol's lips curled into a mischievous smile as he glanced at you. "Let me reward you then?" he suggested, his tone laced with teasing.
You raised an eyebrow, feigning surprise. "Bold move, Seungcheol," you teased, a playful smirk on your lips.
"I grew up, Noona," he proclaimed with the new nickname, his voice dripping with a flirtatious undertone. "I'm not that little boy anymore."
You smirked at his comment, intrigued to see where he was going with this. "Ooh, do go on, Seungcheol," you responded, your tone laced with playful curiosity. "What, pray tell, has changed since I last saw you?"
Seungcheol chuckled, clearly enjoying the banter. His smile widened, revealing a glimpse of the boyish charm that still clung to him. "Well, I've grown a little taller, for starters," he admitted, a hint of bravado in his voice. "And I've gained some muscle too."
You couldn't help but playfully tease him further, a challenge in your eyes as your lips curled into a mischievous smile. "Grown taller, you say?" you retorted, a hint of sarcasm in your voice. "And gained some muscle? Aren't you just the pinnacle of maturity now?"
Seungcheol's eyes twinkled as he met your gaze, clearly enjoying the banter. "Oh, don't worry, Noona, I still have my charming ways," he teased, a flirtatious grin settling on his face.
As the conversation continued, Seungcheol's cheeks flushed slightly as he confessed, "The old me couldn't even bring himself to ask out his crush, much less invite her to the summer house to spend time together alone."
Your surprise was evident as you echoed, "Alone? Just the two of us?" A newfound realization dawned on you, and you couldn't help but wonder, "Is that why you invited me, Seungcheol?"
He flashed you a sheepish smile and nodded, his embarrassment adding a touch of charm to his confession.
Seungcheol's flushed cheeks and bashful demeanor confirmed the truth of his revelation. He chuckled nervously. "Yeah, I guess it is," he admitted, scratching the back of his neck. "I wanted some alone time with you, Noona."
"Alone in a romantic summer house?" you echoed, your voice tinged with a touch of tease. "Well, I suppose we could enjoy the scenic views, relax by the pool, and indulge in some good food and wine. But I have a feeling you had something specific in mind, Seungcheol. Care to enlighten me?"
Seungcheol's gaze flicked up to the rearview mirror, his eyes widening ever so slightly as he caught your suggestive question. A subtle blush crept onto his cheeks, and he bit his lip shyly, clearly embarrassed by the direction the conversation was taking.
He chuckled nervously. "Oh, no, Noona, not that." He quickly added, "I just wanted to spend some quality time with you, you know? Talk, laugh, just have fun together."
"Well, if I wasn't worried about distracting the driver, I might say something even more suggestive," you teased, a mischievous smile playing on your lips.
Seungcheol flushed deeper, his grip on the steering wheel tightening slightly as he tried to focus on the road. "Noona, please," he pleaded, his voice tinged with embarrassment and something you couldn't read well. "It's hard enough to concentrate as it is. Don't make it harder."
"You're not getting nervous, are you? Is the thought of being alone with me in a romantic summer house too much for you?"
"Hush, Noona," he said with a light-hearted scold, giving you a quick glance. "Can you not talk like that while I'm driving?"Â his voice slightly strained.
"Relax, Seungcheol," you teased leaning on your seat again. "It's just a little harmless fun. But if it's making you this flustered, I suppose I'll keep the dirty talk for later."
You chuckled, finding his bashfulness endearing. "Alright, alright, I'll behave," you said, lifting your hands in mock surrender. "For now."
"I think the boldest one here is you, from what I see."Â
You grinned at his observation, "Oh, you're just noticing that now, Seungcheol?" you teased. "I've always been the bolder one between the two of us. But don't worry, I'll try not to overwhelm you with my boldness."
"I have no doubts about that, Noona," he replied, "Bring on the surprises later. I can handle it."
As you continued your playful banter with Seungcheol, you noticed a hint of vulnerability in his eyes. Years of harboring a secret crush on you, struggling to hide his true feelings, had taken a toll on him.Â
Deep down, he was tired of waiting, desperate to express the admiration he held for you. You wondered how much longer he could keep his feelings restrained, how much more pent-up emotion he could bear before they would inevitably burst forth.
As you stepped into the summer house, the pure air filling your lungs, you couldn't help but feel a sense of excitement. Turning to glance at Seungcheol, the reality of the situation finally hitting youäžjust the two of you. A soft smile curved your lips as you took in the peaceful atmosphere.
Seungcheol, too, seemed affected by the realization.
As you glanced around, your eyes fell upon the family portraits hanging on the wall. There was a charming photo of Seungcheol and his brother hugging their mother, another one capturing Mr. Choi tenderly kissing Mrs. Choi. Your gaze then moved to a playful shot of them both splashing water, and finally, a picture of Seungcheol himself. As you stood there admiring the memories, you felt a warm presence behind you.
With his arms crossed and a wide grin on his face, Seungcheol stood by your side, clearly amused by your initial reaction.
You couldn't help but let out a quiet chuckle, finding Seungcheol's amused expression endearing. Turning to face him, you commented, "Looks like Mr. and Mrs. Choi couldn't keep their hands off each other."
Seungcheol laughed lightly, his eyes twinkling. "Yeah, they've always been like that," he replied. "They're not exactly shy about their affection for each other."
"Are you really this egotistical, displaying your own picture on the wall like this?"
Seungcheol chuckled, his smile widening as he playfully rolled his eyes at your teasing. "Oh please, Noona," he replied, "It's not my fault you're just now realizing how irresistibly handsome I am."
You chuckled, shaking your head in amusement. "Alright, alright," you conceded, "You win this round, ego extraordinaire. But I must admit, you've always been quite handsome, even if it's a bit exaggerated." You smirked playfully.
Seungcheol grinned, basking in the compliment. "Aww, so you finally admit it, do you?" he teased, a cocky smile on his face.
As you playfully warned him not to get cocky, Seungcheol couldn't resist the temptation. He stepped closer, his hands gently settling on your waist. You could feel his breath ghosting over your lips, his eyes intense and captivating.Â
However, you playfully resisted, pushing him away and throwing him a challenging glance. As you walked away, you gave him one last sultry look over your shoulder before disappearing into the next room.
Seungcheol stood there for a moment, dumbfounded by the unexpected turn of events. A combination of surprise and desire coursed through him as he tried to compose himself, his heart racing.
His eyes gleamed with a combination of desire and disappointment, but a smile tugged at the corners of his lips. It was clear that the game had only just begun.
The night had crept upon you, enveloping the summer house in a gentle embrace. As you sat on the balcony, sipping on a bottle of wine, you savored the simple pleasure of sharing a meal with Seungcheol.
The soft glow of the moonlight cast a warm, enchanting ambiance, and the distant sound of the television from within the house provided a pleasant background melody. You found yourself lost in the moment, feeling completely⊠content in his company.
As you let the flavors of the wine wash over your palate, you paused for a moment, your thoughts wandering to your recent travels. A hint of nostalgia tinged your voice as you spoke. "You know," you began, "I can't recall the last time I took a trip that wasn't connected to work."
You chuckled, swirling the wine in your glass, your eyes fixed on the liquid's dance. "Ah, yes," you responded with a wry smile. "Even if it is my... boss's house." you echoed his words, a hint of dry humor in your tone.
Seungcheol raised an eyebrow, a playful glint in his eyes. "Feeling a bit cheeky, are we?" he taunted, a grin tugging at the corners of his lips. "Watch your words, or I might have to dock your pay later."
You laughed, playfully sticking out your tongue at his jest. "Oh, you wouldn't dare," you retorted, a smirk on your lips. "What would the company do without my fabulous work?"
Seungcheol's grin widened, his eyes gleaming. "Ah, you've got me there," he conceded, raising a hand in mock surrender. "I guess I'll just have to find some other way to punish you for that sharp tongue of yours."
You smirked, taking another sip of your wine, and teasingly asked, "Oh, what are we talking about, indeed?" The question hung in the air, laced with a hint of provocation. You knew perfectly well what you were discussing, but you couldn't resist the urge to tease him further.
Seungcheol chuckled, shaking his head at your playfulness. He leaned back in his chair, a suggestive glint in his eyes. "You know exactly what we're talking about," he replied.
You raised an eyebrow, feigning innocence. "Do I now?" you said, a mischievous smile on your lips. "And what might that be, pray tell?"
Seungcheol saw through your act, his gaze locking onto yours. He leaned in closer, his voice lowering to a sultry tone. "Oh, don't act all coy with me, Noona," he murmured, his eyes fixed on yours. "You know exactly what we've been dancing around."
You stared into Seungcheol's eyes, the intensity of his gaze setting your heart racing.
Seungcheol's voice dropped to a whisper, his words laced with seductive undertones. "We've been dancing around it all night, skirting around the subject..." he murmured, grazing his fingers lightly against yours.
"But enough games, Noona... You know exactly where this is heading."
As Seungcheol got up from his seat and moved behind you, his hands gently massaging your shoulders and neck, you closed your eyes, enjoying the soothing touch of his hands.Â
A soft moan escaped your lips, and you couldn't help but teasingly ask, "So sure of yourself, aren't you, Seungcheol? But what makes you so sure I want this, too?"Â
"Ah, Noona, you're a difficult woman to read sometimes," he teased. "But the way you respond to my touch... I can feel the desire building in your body, just like mine."
Seungcheol chuckled, his fingers skillfully working the tension out of your shoulders. He apparently knew exactly how to make you melt under his touch. "Oh, Noona," he drawled, his voice laced with certainty and amusement. "Your body betrays you. Your sighs, your reactions... I can feel the way you lean into my touch. You can try to hide it all you want, but deep down, you want this just as much as I do."
You felt your breath catch in your throat at his words, your breath hitched in agreement to his perception, your body's response betraying your own longing.
Seungcheol's hands continued their ministrations, his touch growing bolder. "You can deny it if you want," he murmured, trailing gentle kisses along your neck, "But your body tells the truth, Noona."
As Seungcheol's lips gently traced along your neck, you found yourself melting even more under his touch, your defenses crumbling. But just as abruptly, you snapped out of the blissful haze, realizing the need to regain control over your emotions. You quickly stood up, breaking the intimate contact.
Seungcheol looked momentarily taken aback, you could see the flicker of confusion in his face, as he tried to understand the sudden change in your demeanor.
You caught a glimpse of his parted lips, still moist from their previous closeness against your skin.
"Noona..." he whispered, his voice laced with concern. "Is everything alright? Did I... did I go too far?"
Your breath shuddered nervously, emotions swirling within you like a raging tempest. You held onto his hands. You look into his eyes, seeing the desperation and longing there. He seems ready to ask for all of you, but the sheer intensity of his gaze makes you hesitate.
"Seungcheol," you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper. "It's not that I don't want this but... your family, our work, the company... it's justâ"
Before you can finish your sentence, Seungcheol silences you with a gentle finger on your lips. His smile widens, and with a reassuring expression, he shakes his head slightly. "Sshh," he whispers, his eyes filled with understanding. "I know what you're thinking, Noona. You're worried about everything that could happen. But right now, in this moment, all I want is to be close to you. Nothing else matters."
"Cheolâ"
"You worry too much, Noona," he whispers gently, "Just let yourself feel what's between us."
"C'mere." As Seungcheol guides your steps towards the main bedroom, his warm presence enveloping you, he stands before you, gently lifting your chin.
His gaze captures yours, his voice filled with desire and intent. "For once in your life, Noona," he whispers, his touch on your chin light. "Do exactly what you really want."
With a confident smile, Seungcheol leans closer, his breath brushing against your skin. "Or," he continues, his words carrying a hint of playfulness, "I will."
His proximity ignited a spark within you, evoking a sense of youthful freedom.
Memories of missed opportunities and fleeting moments flood your mind. You bite your smile as you find yourself drawn to his infectious energy and the intoxicating vibe he exudes.
"I dare you," you murmur softly, your voice infused with anticipation. "Show me what you've got, Seungcheol."
As Seungcheol leaned in closer and claimed your lips in a passionate kiss. äža long awaited kissäžHis fingers tenderly brushed against the nape of your neck, while his other hand gripped your waist, scrunching the dress between his fingers.
Your bodies pressed close together, you could feel the fervent thudding of Seungcheol's heart against your chest, mirroring the desperate beats of your own heart. His tongue danced with yours, igniting sparks of desire with every caress. As you allowed your fingers to bury into the softness of his hair, you heard a low, needy moan escape his lips.
As Seungcheol laid you on the expansive bed, his fingers gently encircling your waist, while he held one of your thighs, you felt a rush of heat as he settled between your legs.
The bed felt plush and inviting, while the soft silk of the sheets caressed your skin. With a suggestive motion, he simulated a thrust, and a gasp of pleasure escaped your lips, mingling with the intoxicating friction between your bodies.
Seungcheol gently lifted your dress over your head, revealing your naked form. His breath hitched in his throat as his eyes roamed over your exposed skin, and a whine escaped from deep within his chest. He buried his face into your neck, his voice ragged as he whispered.
"Have you been walking around like this all night, Noona? Wearing nothing underneath that dress this whole time?"
You chuckled, biting your bottom lip.
"Can it be possible, Noona..." "You cooked with me," Seungcheol whispered, his voice growing heated with each word, "went shopping at the vineyard, wore that enticing dress, and were completely naked under it the wholâ fuck." He couldn't help but let out a playful moan against your neck. "You're driving me crazy, Noona."
As Seungcheol's hand continued its languid path across your body, tracing a languid trail along the valley of your breasts, down your stomach, and finally finding its destination between your thighs, he let out an appreciative hum of satisfaction. "Mmmm," he murmured, his voice dripping with approval.
He parts your thighs, his fingers slipping between your folds, teasing you with gentle, deliberate strokes. "You're already so wet," he whispers, his breath hot against your ear. "All this for me?" He slides a finger inside you, curling it just right, and then, adds another, making you arch your back and moan.
"Cheol," you gasp, your hands gripping the sheets as your body trembles under his touch.
He smirks, looking down at where his fingers are disappearing inside you. The wet sounds are so loud that they almost drown out your whimpers. "Look at how you take my fingers," he murmurs, his voice dripping with lust.Â
Your eyes follow his gaze, watching his fingers move in and out of you, slick with your arousal. The sight and the sound of it drive you wild, making you squirm and whimper even more. Seungcheol's thumb finds your clit, pressing and circling it in a way that makes you see stars.
"You're so tight Noona," he groans, his own arousal evident in his voice. "I can't wait to feel you around my cock."
You moan, feeling the pleasure build to an almost unbearable level. His fingers press deeper, and you clench around them, so tight that his fingers almost slide out of you with each pulse of your walls. Seungcheol bites his lip, trying to maintain his composure, but it's not working.
Without warning, he slides down the bed, positioning himself between your legs. He devours your pussy with a hunger that makes you scream, your body flinching on the bed from the overwhelming sensation. His hot tongue flicks and swirls around your clit, and he drinks you in, savoring every drop of your arousal.
"Cheol, oh my god!" you cry out, your hands flying to his hair, fingers gripping tightly.
He holds you still, his strong hands pressing down on your hips as you writhe beneath him. The combination of his tongue and fingers is driving you wild, and you can feel the orgasm building rapidly. He slides one hand up your body, finding your nipple and rolling the bud between his fingers, making you burn in pleasure.
"You're so perfect," he murmurs against your folds, his voice vibrating through you. "So fucking sweet."
Your moans grow louder, the sensations overwhelming your senses. Seungcheol's tongue moves with expert precision, and when he adds another finger inside you, curling them too, you can't hold back any longer. Your orgasm crashes over you, and you scream his name, your body convulsing with pleasure.
Seungcheol doesn't stop, his mouth and fingers working you through your orgasm, extending it until you're a quivering, whimpering mess beneath him. Only when you're completely spent does he finally pull back, looking up at you with a satisfied smile. His lips glisten with your cum, and his eyes are dark with desire.
"That's my good girl," he praises, sliding back up your body to kiss you deeply. You can taste yourself on his lips, and it only makes you want him more. "Now, let's see how tight you are around my cock."
Seungcheol starts to strip, his eyes never leaving yours as he reveals his toned, muscular body. You wait, watching him with the 'fuck me' eyes. As he finally removes the last piece of clothing, you seize the moment.
With a swift, confident movement, you grab him and push him back onto the bed. He falls back, his eyes widening in surprise. You straddle his naked body, your own arousal evident as you press your pussy against him. His hands slide to your hips, gripping you tightly.
He looks up at you, a devilish smile playing on his lips. "Fuck, I'm in trouble," he murmurs, his voice dripping with admiration. "You're going to be the death of me."
You smirk, leaning down to capture his lips in a searing kiss, your bodies aligning perfectly. "Then let's make it worth it," you whisper against his mouth, feeling his cock harden beneath you.Â
You grab Seungcheol's cock, aligning it with your wet, eager pussy. As you slide down onto him, you feel the delicious stretch, and your head falls back, mouth slack with pleasure. Seungcheol bites his lip, almost tasting blood, his mind racing with random thoughts to avoid cumming too soon.
"Fuck," he moans, his voice strained as his eyebrows furrow in concentration.
You bottom out, and the sensation is overwhelming. Seungcheol's hands grip your hips tightly, his eyes dark with desire as he tries to keep his composure. The feeling of your tightness around him is almost too much to bear, but he holds on, savoring every moment.
"Too much already?" you purred. "We've barely begun, Seungcheol," you whispered, your breath catching as your core quivered against his tantalizing touch.
As you raised your hips slightly, allowing yourself to sink back down onto Seungcheol, he let out a trembling breath, his eyes closing as his jaw went slack with pleasure. Despite his valiant attempt at forming a response, all that escaped his lips was a strained "Noona" as his body trembled beneath you.Â
You start to ride him, bouncing up and down, your juices splashing at the base of his cock. Each time you sink down, Seungcheol's body shudders, moving in rhythm with you. His hands grip your hips, trying to guide your movementsäžbut mostly just holding on for dear life.
"Fuck, Y/N" Seungcheol groans again, his voice filled with raw need. His eyes are glued to where your bodies join, watching as you take him in over and over. "You're so fucking perfect," he mutters, barely able to keep his composure as your tightness drives him wild. The sensation is almost too much, but he holds on, wanting to prolong this intense pleasure for as long as he can.
To give your legs a rest, you start to circle your hips, grinding on him, feeling the tip of his cock hitting your g'spot perfectly. Seungcheol's hands slide up your body, one settling on your breast, squeezing gently, while the other grips your waist, guiding your movements.
"Fuck, that's it," he groans, his eyes rolling back at the sensation. "You feel so fucking good." His voice is husky, filled with desperation as he tries to hold on. His thumb finds your clit, rubbing it in circles to match the rhythm of your hips.
You moan loudly, your head falling back as the pleasure builds even more intensely. "Cheol," you gasp, "I can't hold it much longer." Your body trembles, every nerve ending on fire.
"Don't hold back, baby, don't hold it" he urges, his voice strained but filled with encouragement. "Let go for me. Cum all over my cock."
You hold a little longer to ask him, "How does it feel, Seungcheol," you whisper, "to finally have the woman you've had a longstanding crush on, sitting on you like this?"
Seungcheol stutters, his breath hitching as he feels your walls clenching and unclenching purposely around him. "F-fuck, Noona," he groans, his voice shaky and full of raw need. "It's... it's everything I ever dreamed of and more."
You smirk, enjoying the power you have over him. "Is that so?" you tease, grinding your hips in slow, deliberate circles. "I never knew you had such dirty fantasies about me."
He bites his lip, his hands gripping your hips tighter. "You have no idea," he admits, his voice low and strained. "Iâve wanted you for so long. Seeing you like this... feeling you like this... itâs driving me insane."
You lean down, your lips brushing against his ear. "Good," you whisper, clenching around him again. "I want you to remember this feeling, Seungcheol. Every time you look at me, I want you to remember how it feels to be inside me."
He shudders, a deep, guttural moan escaping his lips. "I won't forget," he promises, his hands moving up to cup your breasts, his thumbs brushing over your nipples. "I'll never forget this, Noona."
You lean down further, your breath hot against his ear. "Seungcheol," you whisper, your voice sultry and teasing, "I can feel how close you are. Do you want to cum inside me? Do you want to fill me up with everything you've got?"
His eyes widen, and he lets out a strangled moan, his hips bucking up involuntarily. "Fuck, Noona, you're gonna make meâ"
You cut him off with a sharp thrust, feeling his cock throb inside you. "Tell me how good it feels," you demand, your own voice trembling with need. "Tell me how much you love fucking me."
"It feels so fucking good," he gasps, his fingers digging into your hips. "I love it, Noona. I love fucking you so much. You're so tight, so wet, I can't hold onâ"
You can feel your own orgasm building, spurred on by his desperate words and the intensity of his gaze. "That's it, baby," you purr, riding him harder. "Cum for me, Seungcheol. Fill me up. I want to feel you cumming inside me."
His eyes roll back, and he grips you even tighter. "I'm gonnaâfuck, I'm cummingâ"
"Fuäž... ahh,"
As Seungcheol's release fills you to the brim, you feel a warm, liquid sensation spreading inside you, overflowing with his essence. He holds you close, pressing your bodies together as if to recompose the bond between you.
Just as you're catching your breath and basking in the afterglow, Seungcheol suddenly flips you over onto the bed with a determined look in his eyes. His hands roam over your body, trailing fire wherever they touch, and you can feel the familiar ache building within you once again.
"I need to make you cum again Noona."Â "Now, let me take care of you."
With a sudden burst of energy, Seungcheol flips you over onto your stomach, his hands roaming eagerly over your body as he prepares to make you cum all over again.
Seungcheol's cock enters you deep and sloppy, the abundance of lubrication spilling out around him. You scream into the sheets as he presses your head down onto the bed, his movements becoming more assertive as he thrusts into you with purpose.
Your breath grew sharper with every thrust, each one pushing you closer to the precipice.
"I've imagined this moment... countless times," he whispered, his voice low and husky. "Having you like this... under me, writhing and gasping."
"So⊠Ah! Nasty, Seungcheol!"Â
Seungcheol couldn't help but chuckle at your teasing remark, his eyes filled with both affection and desire. As he continued to drive into you, he replied with a playful smack on the ample flesh of your ass.
"You have no idea," he murmured.
As you felt the wave of pleasure wash over you, your vision temporarily white in the overwhelming sensations, his name left your throat all whiny and strained. Seungcheol couldn't help but whine in response to his own heightened sensitivity.Â
He wanted to please you, to bring you to climax, but the overwhelming experience only made him more reactive to your every move and sound.
The intensity of your climax began to subside, your body finally melting into the sheets, Seungcheol stumbled off the bed, his legs trembling from the intense sex.Â
He made his way to the bathroom, seeking out some wipes to gently clean you up, his own breaths still ragged and unsteady.
As Seungcheol returned with the wipes, he found you lying there, chest heaving and breath labored. He crawled back into bed next to you, gently beginning to clean you up, his touch tender and caring.
"You alright there, Noona?" he asked, a hint of concern mingling with his breathless voice. "I didn't... hurt you, did I?"
You reached out, gently running your fingers through Seungcheol's messed hair, a weary yet satisfied smile playing on your lips.
"I'm okay, babyâŠ" you whispered, your voice filled with contentment.Â
He couldn't help but bite back a smile at your choice of words.
As Seungcheol continued his gentle ministrations, cleaning you up with the wipes, taking care to not overwhelm you when he brushes the wipes against your clit.
"Baby?" he echoed, a hint of amusement in his voice. "Is that what you're calling me now?" Despite the teasing tone, there was a warmth in his eyes that betrayed his affection
"You're such a big baby SeungcheolâŠ"
In response to your lighthearted comment, Seungcheol couldn't help but chuckle. He leaned down and planted a gentle kiss on your shoulder before responding.
"Well, I am big, you're not wrong about that," he replied, a mischievous grin on his face. "But I guess 'big baby' suits me just fine, especially if it's coming from you."
As Seungcheol finished cleaning you up, he tossed the wipes aside and draped an arm around your middle, pulling you closer. He leaned in, peppering soft kisses along your neck and shoulder, his touch gentle.
"And your image," he continued, his voice dropping to a husky whisper, "riding me like that... it's something I'll never forget. It's the most beautiful sight I've ever seen."
"Did you like it?" You ask him, giving a glance over your shoulder.Â
Seungcheol furrowed his brows, giving you a slightly exasperated look, as if the answer should have been obvious. "Noona, that was a rhetorical question, right?" he teased, a hint of affectionate amusement in his voice. "Of course I liked it."
[...]
In the soft morning light, sunlight trickled into the room, and you woke to the gentle sensation of Seungcheol's fingers running through your hair. As your eyes slowly opened, you found him already dressed, looking striking in the warm glow.
"Noona," he whispered, his gaze tender and filled with affection. "My parents... they're here."
Hearing this, you instantly sat upright in bed, your eyes widening in shock.
The realization that Seungcheol's parents had arrived hit you like a bolt of lightning. You hastily stumbled out of bed, making a beeline for the bathroom, leaving him chuckling at your flustered state.
You quickly emerged from the bathroom, your hair still damp and clinging to your skin, a bath towel wrapped tightly around your body. You found Seungcheol lounging on the bed, casually scrolling through his phone.
"Cheol," you began with a slight scowl, "why didn't you tell me your parents arrived earlier? I could've prepared myself better!"
Seungcheol shrugged apologetically, a hint of sheepishness in his expression. "Honestly, Noona, I had no idea they were coming either," he admitted, offering a sincere smile. "They didn't give a heads up, and I couldn't warn you beforehand."
You let out a sigh, the lingering worry evident on your face. "It's not just about that," you murmured, "What will they think of me... sleeping with you⊠their son, my boss?"
"Noona, my parents aren't like that," he assured you, gently squeezing your hand. "They won't judge you based on your relationship to me or your job. They see the person you are, and that's all that matters."
He chuckled softly, attempting to lighten the mood. "Besides, I'm pretty sure they already love you just because you're so good at bossing me around."
You playfully gave Seungcheol's shoulder a gentle slap, your worries momentarily replaced by a smile. As you both left the bedroom, he wrapped an arm around your shoulder, guiding you towards the living room.
You had worked closely with Seungcheol's father for years, and the thought of them knowing about your intimate relationship was nerve-wracking. Yet, Seungcheol's calming presence beside you helped ease your nerves.
Mr. Choi regarded you with a warm and teasing smile as you bowed in greeting. "Ah, there she is!" he exclaimed with feigned, feigned, disappointment. "The famous Y/N who refuses my invitations to the summerhouse. But with my son, suddenly she finds the time."
Mrs. Choi chuckled softly at her husband's jest, her eyes filled with warmth.
You felt a warmth spread across your cheeks, totally embarrassed. "I'm truly sorry, Mr. Choi," you apologized, your voice soft. "It's just... Seungcheol has a way of convincing me."
Mr. Choi's eyes gleamed with an affectionate pride as he spoke. "When Seungcheol was younger," he began, gesturing with his hands, "he used to come to me, curious about you. He would ask, 'Father, do you think Noona could be interested in someone like me?'"
His voice was tinged with amusement as he continued, "I always told him, 'Son, Y/N is quite the catch. You just need to be patient, and show her your true self.' And look where we are now."
"'How is Noona today?' 'What's Noona doing?' 'When is Noona coming to visit?'" His mom continues.Â
Seungcheol's face flushed a deeper shade of red, and he hurriedly covered his face with his hands, visibly embarrassed by his father's words. You seized the opportunity to add to the teasing, a playful grin on your face.
"Oh, Cheollie," you teased, "So it's true, you were quite smitten with me even back then. How utterly endearing."
â Synopsis: Where you âunfortunatelyâ caught your best friend's roomateâyour unsaid enemyâmasturbating in their shared apartment.
â WC: 4.6k
â WARNINGS: smut, monster cock!seungcheol, explicit language and content, overstimulation, dry fucking, oral as a tongue massage (f. receiving)âa reward <3, body fluids (cum), dry humping, cock riding, dumbfication, degradation, aftercare, exhaustion, and DIRTY TALK.
hereâs how it always goes with seungcheol:
you walk into a room, he immediately finds something to scoff at. maybe itâs the way you dress, maybe itâs the way you talk, maybe itâs just the fact that you exist in his general vicinity. but it doesnât matter what you doâhe hates you. or, at the very least, thatâs what he insists on showing you.
joshua, your best friend and possibly the only person in the world who can tolerate both of you without losing his mind, always tells you to be the bigger person. âheâs not that bad,â he says, as if seungcheol didnât practically hiss at you last week for sitting on his side of the couch.
but whatever. you donât go out of your way to piss him off, and he doesnât go out of his way to be nice. thatâs just the way it is.
which is why you hesitate when joshua calls you:
âi swear, i wouldnât ask if it wasnât important. i left my keys at your place before i flew out, remember?â
âokay, but i literally donât want to step foot in his apartment,â you stress, cringing at the thought.
âitâs my apartment, too,â joshua deadpans.
you groan, already feeling a headache coming on.
âjust go in, grab the folder on my desk, and leave,â he insists. âcheol probably wonât even be home.â
which is how you find yourself standing outside their apartment door, holding joshuaâs keys and hyping yourself up like youâre about to enter enemy territory. which, in a way, you are.
you unlock the door, push it open,
and immediately wish you hadnât.
seungcheol. on the couch. fisting his cock.
your brain short-circuits. like, full shutdown, blue screen, cease all functioning mode.
the man is spread outâlegs wide, head tipped back, theres a drop of sweat that drips from his neck aand land in the middle of his chest. hes exposing his toned abs that clench with every up and down of his hand. and his cock is huge. thick from the base to the top and flushed deep red at the tip, veins prominent as his fist works over it.
heâs so lost in it that he doesnât even register your presence at first, not until he finally cracks his eyes open and sees you standing there, frozen stunned into silence.
the next few seconds happen in slow motion.
his eyes widen. his entire body stiffens. his hand stops.
âWHAT THE FUCKââ
seungcheol scrambles to cover himself, reaching for the nearest thingâwhich, unfortunately for him, is a shirt that does nothing to hide the absolute tent heâs pitching. his face goes red, splotchy from the neck up, and he looks so flustered that for a split second, you almost feel bad.
âwhy the fuck are you here?!â he practically barks at you, voice ragged from whatever the fuck he was doing before you ruined his life.
you blink, still processing the image thatâs now burned into your brain for eternity. âuh. joshua?â
âwhat about joshua?!â
âhe⊠he needed a document.â
seungcheol lets out a sound that is so frustrated, so exasperated, that it almost doesnât register as human. âand you didnât think to knock?!â
âwhy would i knock?! i didnât think anyone would be jerking off in the living room like a fucking pervertââ
âITâS MY APARTMENT.â
âITâS JOSHUAâS TOO.â
âHEâS NOT HERE.â
âWELL, NEITHER AM I, NOW.â you turn on your heel, hand reaching for the doorknob. âiâll just get the doc laterââ
but before you can escape, he rasps, âdonât you dare tell joshua about this.â
you pause. smirk. oh, this is fun.
back still facing him, fingers still wrapped around the doorknob. you should leave. should pretend none of this ever happened. but somethingâsome sick, wrong part of youâdoesnât want to.
so you turn. lean back against the door. cross your arms.
âwhat?â he snaps, shifting on the couch, the shirt still pitifully draped over his lap.
you tilt your head, dragging your gaze slowly down his bodyâhis hard nipples, the taut muscles in his arms, the way his thighs tense like heâs fighting the urge to close them. you can see the way he twitches under the shirt.
âyouâre still hard,â you note, your voice syrupy sweet, but your eyes gleam meanly.
seungcheol tenses. âso?â
âso⊠youâre mad at me for walking in,â you say, cocking a brow, âbut youâre still hard as fuck.â
he grits his teeth, but his silence is loud as hell.
so you take a step forward. just one.
his breath hitches.
âcheol.â you coo at him. âyou sure you hate me?â
he glares, but itâs weaker now, faltering under your scrutiny. you can see itâthe slight tremor in his fingers, the way his pulse jumps in his throat, the way heâs not telling you to stop.
so you take another step.
and another.
until youâre standing right in front of him, the shirt the only barrier between his cock and your eyes.
his jaw tightens. âdonât.â
âdonât what?â you murmur, reaching forward to trace your fingers over his wristâthe one that was just wrapped around his cock. âdonât call you out? donât get closer? donâtââ
in a flash, he grabs your wrist, yanking you down.
you gasp as you land on his lap, his hands firm on your hips, his cock pressing against your ass through the thin barrier of the shirt and your clothes.
his lips are right by your ear when he growls, âdonât fucking test me.â
you shiver, but youâre not scared, youâre thrilled.
so you shift, pressing back against him, and smirk when he lets out a sharp breath through his nose.
âor what?â you whisper.
his grip tightens. âyou really wanna find out?â
your fingers curl into his hair, tugging just enough to make him hiss.
âyeah,â you breathe, lips brushing his jaw. âi do.â
he snaps.
the shirt under you is gone.
his mouth crashes into yours, hot and angry, his hands gripping your waist like heâs trying to burn the shape of you into his palms. his teeth nip at your bottom lip, his tongue prying your mouth open, swallowing the gasp you let out when his fingers dig into your hips.
you grind down, moaning into his mouth when you feel just how fucking thick he is, leaking against your skirt.Â
his hands are rough when he yanks your skirt up, bunching the fabric around your waist with no intention of letting it fall back down. you barely have a second to breathe before his fingers push past your thighs, finding the front of your panties hooking his thumb into the damp fabric and pulling it to the side.
the rush of cold air makes you gasp, thighs trying to snap shut, but his thighs pins them open. and maybe, he has a shred of decency in him, because he lets out a low breath and murmurs, âthis is gonna be rough.â
no warning. just that.
you should stop him. you should tell him to go slow, to prep you, to at least spit on itâbut you donât, you need to feel this big cock stretching you until every single thought inside your head gets completely erased.
thereâs no lube, no prep besides the mess between your thighs, just the torturous process of sinking down.
seungcheol watches all of it. watches the way your lips part, how your lashes flutter, how your nails dig into the skin of his shoulders the lower you go. heâs leaning back against the couch, one hand gripping the plush of your ass, the other wrapped around his base, guiding you onto him like youâre something delicate. like heâs trying to help.
but heâs not.
because he knows what heâs doing when he taps his cockhead against your clit first, dragging the tip through your slick, coaxing out little whimpers that make him smirk. he knows what heâs doing when he presses up, just the tip slipping inside, barely enough to be satisfying but more than enough to make your thighs twitch.
your breath catches in your throat, your whole body twitching up as you take the next inch too fast. your brain is empty, your body is working on instinct, thighs shaking as you brace yourself against him, tryingâfailingâto push down further.
and he sees it. sees how youâre struggling, sees how your muscles twitch like youâre about to give out, sees how you want to take it but your body is fighting the stretch.
so he helps.
his hands clamp down on your waist.
and then he slams you down.
the sound that leaves your throat is so ruined that he cant help but feel a bit of compassion.
because suddenly youâre full. suddenly youâre sitting completely in his lap, completely engulfed in him, your thighs flush against his, his cock buried so fucking deep that you can feel it pressing up against every nerve inside you.
but when you try to move, try to lift yourself even an inchânothing.
your thighs wonât cooperate. your muscles wonât listen.
you canât move.
âoh?â seungcheol tilts his head, smug grin curling at his lips as he grinds up, watching the way your mouth falls open at the sensation.
âtoo big for you, baby?â
you whimper.
âthought so.â
and then he takes control, because you canât moveâso he does it for you. his hands lift you effortlessly, dragging your hips up before slamming you back down, setting the pace, forcing your body to take what itâs given.
and you canât think straight anymore. every thrust knocks the air from your lungs, every time he slams you down it punches little whimpers from your throat that only make him hungrier.
âawww⊠thought you were so tough. but you canât even fuck yourself on my cock, huh?â
you cry out, body giving up, melting against his chest as you desperately try to follow his rhythm, hips twitching with little, pathetic attempts to keep up. your body isnât even yours anymoreâjust a toy, something for seungcheol to use, something heâs breaking in with every brutal roll of his hips.Â
his fingers dig into your waist, gripping you so tight it hurts, but the pleasure drowns it out. youâre so deep into it, into him, that every ounce of shame has left your body, every shred of dignity gone. because you canât do anything but take it, canât do anything but let him use you like you were made for this.
he tilts his head, watching you fall apart, watching how your thighs tremble with every slap of his hips against yours.
âdamn,â he laughs, licking his lips, voice mocking. âyouâre making such a fucking mess of yourself.â
you whimper, forehead pressing against his collarbone.
and then he grabs your chin, forcing you to look at him.
âmm-mm, donât hide now,â he says, smirking. âbe a good girl and let me see that dumb little face while i ruin you.â
a sob rips from your throat, high-pitched and wrecked.
he groans, grinding up into you.
âfuck. bet the neighbors can hear you, huh? joshuaâs gonna be so fucking embarrassed when he gets a noise complaint for his dumb little best friend getting dicked down like a whore.â
your whole body jerks, a whimper escaping your lips at the humiliation, the filth dripping from his tongue.
and he sees it.
his grin turns cruel.
âoh, you like that?â he taunts, thrusting up so deep your back arches. âyou like knowing that youâre loud enough to make it everyoneâs fucking problem? that youâre such a good little fucktoy for me that i canât even keep you quiet?â
you nod, because you canât lie. his fingers tighten around your jaw, his lips brushing against yours as he coos.
âpoor little thing.â
he thrusts up again, so hard, so deep that your whole body bounces, hands scrambling against his chest, voice cracking in a choked-out sob.
and he moans, deep and satisfied, because youâre so fucking perfect for him. because your body is his to use, to mold, to ruin.
âjoshuaâs gonna kill me c-cheol.â
his hips snap up again, knocking the breath from your lungs.
âbut youâll tell him it was worth it, wonât you, baby?â
he smooths one over your back, pressing down so your tits rub against his burning skin, while the other stays firm on your hip, keeping you still. your body jerks with every pulse of his cock inside you, twitching as you flutter around him, so overstimulated you canât tell where the pleasure starts or ends.
âs-seungcheolââ his name is nothing but a broken cry, muffled against his neck, but heâs relentless. he doesnât even let you finish, just shifts his knees slightly and thrusts up into you with all the power in his core.
âfuck,â he hisses when you clamp down, crying out into his skin, and he wraps an arm fully around you to hold you up. âshh, baby, youâre being so loud.â
his hand snakes up your back, fingers tangling into your hair, forcing you to lift your head. you meet his gaze, and it knocks the breath from your lungs. he looks fucked, mouth parted, sweat dripping from his hairline, chest heaving, but he still manages to look at you like heâs about to devour you whole.
âcâmon,â he coos, tilting his head, his grip tightening just enough to make your scalp tingle. âtell me it was worth it. tell me how good my cock is.â
he punctuates it with a sharp snap of his hips and you keen, trying to lift yourself, trying to relieve some of the intensity, but your thighs betray you. seungcheol laughs, breathless but smug, and his fingers press bruises into your skin as he maneuvers you like you weigh nothing.
âsee? canât even move, huh? my poor baby,â he murmurs, voice syrupy sweet, his free hand cupping your cheek now. âyouâre just gonna sit here and take it like the perfect fucktoy you are.â
heat prickles at your skin at the words, your brain too fogged up to be embarrassed, too fucked out to do anything but let him guide you. he rocks you against him, making sure you feel every inch of him dragging against your walls, rubbing at all the right places, pressing into you deeper than you thought was even possible.
âyou take me so well, baby,â he praises, leaning in to press his lips against yours, just enough to tease. âso fuckinâ tight, so warmâfucking heaven.â
his hand slides between your bodies, two fingers finding your swollen, neglected clit, rubbing slow, deliberate circles over it. the sensation makes your thighs twitch, your nails dig into his back, a fresh wave of tears pooling at the corners of your eyes.
âshhh, i got you, baby,â he whispers, kissing your jaw now, your temple. his fingers on your clit work in time with the slow, torturous grind of his hips. âi got you, yeah? you gonna cum for me? hm?â
he kisses you full on the mouth when you sob, swallowing the sound like he wants to keep it forever. and then he speeds up just a little, rolling your clit with more pressure, meeting every rut of your hips with a firm thrust up.
you shatter.
your whole body seizes, a strangled moan tearing from your throat as you clamp down so tight on him that it sends him tumbling over the edge with you. he groans, long and low, holding you so tight against him that you can feel every pulse of his cum inside you, hot and deep. his hips jerk once, twice more before he stills, forehead pressed against yours as you both gasp for air.
itâs quiet for a moment, the only sounds are the distant hum of the city outside the window, and the soft squelch when he finally shifts, making you both moan.
your body trembles like a leaf caught in the wind, and seungcheol drinks it in, the heat of your overstimulated form twitching against his chest as he presses slow, lingering kisses into the curve of your neck. his lips move down, sucking at the pulse point that hammers beneath your skin. your breath stutters. his fingers, nails just barely grazing, trail down the arch of your spine, featherlight but enough to make you shiver. you barely even realize youâre moving, the last bit of strength in your boneless limbs used to weakly push yourself up, to let his cock slip free from where itâs buried inside you.Â
the second it leaves you, your body gives out. you collapse right into his chest, heavier than before, spent and trembling, the exhaustion hitting all at once. you canât even pretend to be embarrassed about it. you just sigh, your lips brushing the base of his throat as you settle against him, body limp.
seungcheol holds you steady with both hands, like heâs afraid you might melt right into the couch and disappear. his broad palm cradles the back of your head, fingers splaying across your scalp, scratching at your roots. he keeps the other hand wrapped around your waist, thumb stroking absentmindedly against your ribs. the tension in his body hasnât left yet. his shoulders are still tight. you know him well enough to know whatâs coming before he even says it.
âyou good?âÂ
you hum in response, nuzzling into his chest as your fingers curl weakly against his pecs. âjust a little sore.â
he exhales through his nose. shifts beneath you. you can feel his fingers flex where they rest on your waist, like he wants to squeeze but holds himself back. then, with zero effort, he grips the back of your neck and lifts you up, just enough to force you to look at him. your lids are heavy, half-lidded, dazed, and fuck, that shouldnât make him feel so possessive, but it does.
his thumb sweeps across your cheek, his jaw tensing. âshit. iâm sorry,â he murmurs, eyes scanning over your features like heâs searching for anything more than just exhaustion. âlemme take care of you, hm?â
you donât have it in you to resist, donât even want to. you let him move you, let him handle you like you weigh nothing as he lifts you from his lap and shifts you onto the couch, laying you down as if youâre something delicate. and maybe you are, now, after the way he ruined you. maybe thatâs why you donât fight him when he presses your thighs apart, watching as they just fall open on their own, spread wide like a doll.
you donât have the strength to do much else than whimper softly as his thumbs spread you further, gaze locked onto your swollen cunt, still so slick from where he fucked you. his jaw clenches.
you donât even get a warning before he moves in, before his hands grip your thighs to keep them open as he dives between them, mouth sealing over your clit in one slow stroke of his tongue.
you jolt, a weak little gasp punching from your lungs. your fingers barely find the energy to tangle into his hair, and the grip is nowhere near as firm as it usually is, but he groans anyway. whether itâs from the feeling of your grip or from the way you instantly react to him, you donât know. but he doesnât stop.
his tongue moves slow, warm and so fucking wet as he licks broad, flat strokes over your sensitive flesh, working you open again with patience. he isnât trying to overstimulate, isnât trying to get you off againâthough you can already tell it wouldnât take much. his focus is entirely on easing the ache, on massaging every tender inch of you with his mouth, his lips, his tongue.
âfeels good?â his voice is muffled against you, but it vibrates in just the right way.
you nod, breath hitching when he sucks your clit into his mouth, tongue rolling it in slow circles. your body twitches, heat curling at the base of your spine. âcheolâŠâ
he moans against you, and presses you down harder against his face. your hips jump, an embarrassing whimper breaking free as his tongue dips lower, tracing around your entrance before dragging back up, collecting every bit of slick along the way.
you whine, fingers curling tighter in his hair. he doesnât tease. doesnât prolong it. just keeps his pace slow and steady, gentle enough to soothe, firm enough to keep you on the edge of something, even if youâre too sensitive to chase it. and if the way heâs grinding his hips into the couch tells you anythingâitâs that heâs just as affected as you are.
heâs not eating you out to get himself off, but fuck if it isnât working.
the obscene sounds of his mouth working between your thighs filling the entire apartment, mixing in with your breathless moans and the way he groans right into your cunt. you donât even have it in you to be embarrassed about the way your cum is smeared all over his chin, his jaw, his cheeksâhow it drips down onto the couch below with every intentional roll of his tongue against your entrance.
his tongue works in circles, pressing flat to your hole before dragging up again, tasting every bit of your arousal as it gushes out onto his lips. his mouth is open the entire time, tongue rolling and flicking, nose nudging against your clit as he angles his head lower. he flattens his tongue, groaning as he drags it up through your folds before plunging it into you, so messy that you swear you see white behind your eyelids.
your back arches, chest rising in sharp, hiccupped gasps, every single nerve in your body on flames. your thighs twitch in his grasp, and he squeezes them tighter, keeping you spread open just for him. his hands slide up, one wrapping firmly around your waist, keeping you pinned in place, while the other travels up, upâhis fingers finding the stiff peaks of your nipples.
your eyes snap open, a gasp catching in your throat as he rolls one between his fingertips, twisting just enough to make your eyes roll. you swear you hear him chuckle against you, like he knows exactly what heâs doing to you.
âbreathe,â he murmurs, lips brushing against your clit before sucking it between his teeth, tongue rolling in lazy, teasing circles on the swollen bud. âbreathe for me, baby.â
you try. you really do. but the way his mouth moves, the way his fingers tweak and pull, itâs too much. youâre spiraling. you feel another orgasm creeping up so fast it steals the air right out of your lungs.
he sees it. he knows.
his grip tightens on your thigh, his tongue flicking faster, working you open as his free hand continues to play with your tits, kneading the soft flesh, fingers rolling your nipples in rhythm with the lazy grind of his tongue against your clit.
your moans turn high-pitched, desperate. your body twists beneath him, unable to keep still as the pleasure builds, climbing higher and higher.
but thenâa whimper.
not from you.
from him.
you force your heavy lids open, head lolling to the side as you try to focus on him. and fuck, the sight that greets you is almost enough to make you cum then and there.
seungcheol is rutting against the couch. grinding, fucking humping it like a damn dog, his hips rolling in slow thrusts, his rock-hard cock straining against his stomach, smearing precum all over his abs and the fabric beneath him.
he whimpers again, this time louder, his brows furrowed, his breath coming in short, uneven pants.
âfuck,â he groans, mouth still pressed against you, voice muffled by the way his tongue keeps working you over. he pulls back just enough to speak, his lips glistening, his chin soaked. his eyes are dark, glassy, pupils blown wide as he looks up at you. âcanâtâfuck, i canât stop. you taste too good.â
your chest tightens, a desperate, aching cry slipping from your lips as you clutch at his hair, thighs twitching in his grasp. âcheolâgonnaâgonna cum, oh my godââ
he moans, actually fucking moans, his hips grinding down harder against the couch as he redoubles his efforts, tongue circling your clit in precise, teasing flicks, his fingers pinching your nipples just hard enough to send you over the edge.
your body locks up. your back arches. your mouth falls open, a silent scream tearing from your throat as your orgasm crashes over you, all-consuming.
seungcheol doesnât stop. doesnât slow down. he works you through it like itâs his mission, licking you clean, his tongue rolling over your entrance, collecting every last drop as your body trembles violently beneath him.
your chest heaves, your vision blurring, but even through the haze, you can feel him still grinding against the couch, still so fucking hard and desperate, all because of you.
your brain is slow. dial-up connection slow. everything feels like itâs underwater, your body floating somewhere between consciousness and the best orgasm-induced coma of your life. itâs warm, so warm, like your body is still riding out the fever of your high, tongue pressed against the roof of your mouth, throat dry, muscles heavy like theyâre full of sand.
but youâre awake now. sort of. and youâre in his bed.
the sheets are soft, cool against your fevered skin, and it feels so good that you canât help the tired, pleased moan that slips past your lips, involuntary, barely conscious.
but itâs enough to make him look at you.
you blink, vision still a little hazy, but yeah, thatâs definitely seungcheol, sitting at his desk, dressed in a loose shirt and sweats, hair damp, probably from a shower. thereâs a slight smirk on his lips, but his eyes are soft as they sweep over you, taking in the way youâre still half-buried in his sheets, limbs heavy, body relaxed.
then it hits you.
the documents.
joshua.
fuck.
your eyes widen, and you jolt up too fast, regretting it immediately when the soreness between your thighs protests, a sharp ache shooting up your spine. âfuckââ
seungcheolâs already up, one hand pressing to your shoulder, guiding you back down before you can do any more damage. âhey, hey, relax. youâre gonna hurt yourself.â
âtheâdocuments,â you mumble, eyes fluttering shut again as the exhaustion creeps back in. âjoshua.â
he chuckles, and you open your eyes just in time to see him shaking a small stack of papers in his hand. âyeah, yeah. i got it. sent them over while you were passed out.â
you frown, groggy. âi was supposed to send them.â
âand joshua needs to get used to me handling shit for you,â he says, grinning as he sets the papers down. âbesides, heâd probably prefer not to get another noise complaint under his name.â
your face heats up instantly. âoh my god.â
âmhmm,â seungcheol hums, tilting his head. âwanna know how loud you were?â
âno.â
he laughs, reaching out to brush a stray strand of hair from your face, thumb tracing your cheek. âthen go back to sleep, baby.â
you glare at him. or, at least, you try to. itâs weak, and he knows it, because all it takes is one more stroke of his thumb before your eyes flutter shut again, body sinking further into his bed.
yeah. you can fight him about the joshua thing later. maybe. probably not.
another night where you fight, another night of silence. another night where miya osamu sleeps with his back to you.
the realization that there is not much more you can do to save your relationship clutches at your chest with an iron grip.
the gravity of it makes you whimper. pressing your lips together, you shakily push yourself up to sit blinking back tears while blindly stepping around for your slippers, willing yourself not to sobânot here, not where he can hear. your toes touch the fluff of them, and you hurry to slip them on. you need to get out of here.
as quiet as possible, you leave your boyfriend in your shared bedroom.
you stumble to the couch and kick off your shoes, blindly searching until your fingers catch the lampshade switch. you yank it to provide some light, rattling as it flings back into place.
you pull your knees to your chest and press your forehead against your kneecaps. a numb part of your brain thinks oh, so this is where this was, when you think of the misery that quieted itself, replaced with a numbness that overtook you during the fight you had with him earlier.
the numbness that made your limbs feel like ice when he clicked off the phone call without even hearing you out.
you wanted to tell him so much, but in the face of his blank gaze and dismissive demeanor, you shut off. you have more fight in you, you know that. but tonight you just couldnât. couldnât listen to him tell you that he needed more from youâmore support, more time, more patience.
youâve given him that, right? your brain runs with thoughts you can't keep up with. you gave him yourself. you have, for months, for years. you did what you could. youâve withstood lonely anniversaries, forgotten birthdays, broken promises. youâve done everything you could. you gave what you could. you gave everything you could.
i want you to come home, you wanted to tell him eatlier tonight. come home. youâre never home. i know youâre busy at work and youâre doing what you love but please, âsamu. please.Â
love me, too.
your body wracks with a sob, the hurt fresh, as if the words that you never got to say wounded your insides instead. you wanted to tell him that, you wanted to beg for it, beg for his time, beg for his attention, beg for him to love you back. but time and time again he just turns and says heâs tired, he doesn't want to hear it, and the moment is gone, and now the fear of knowing that leaving things unsaid will destroy you, will destroy him. will destroy both of you.
you huddle closer into yourself and sob, a sharp sound in your ears making your head pound.
âbabe?â you hear through the ringing in your ears, and suddenly warm hands are on your arms. âbabe, whatâs wrong?â his voice is calm against your turmoil. âare you having a panic attack?â
ââsamu, iâmââ you shudder and he leaves for a moment, flitting to the kitchen to grab you some water.Â
âdrink, please,â he tells you, gently unfurling you to sit. you comply with shaky limbs, taking the water heâd given you in your delicate grip. a few sips are enough to calm you down, but the fear is still there.
he gingerly takes the glass and sets it aside. he kneels in front of you, taking your hands and soothingly rubbing his thumbs against your skin. his fingers are hot, almost like a furnace, but when you realize that he's not, he's fine, your hands are freezing, you resist the urge to pull away as he warms your palm.
when he looks up to smile at you, you see the exhaustion on his face, and, instantly, you hate yourself for it. for this.
"i'm sorry," you blurt out, a fresh wave of tears threatening to spill over.
his hand leaves yours and cups your cheek. "for what, baby?"
âi love you so much, osamu,â you tell him without thinking, voice thick and wet and miserable. you press the palm of the hand he let go of against his cheek, hiccuping when he closes his eyes to lean into your touch.Â
âi love you, too,â he says, ready to apologize for the fight, but it's not about that.
not anymore.
you pull away. the confusion and hurt on his face is making everything worse.
âi love you so much,â you tell him, desperately wishing that he could understand. âbut iââ you sob, âbut, osamu, i canât anymore.â
osamu presses his lips together, saying nothing. you hear him sniffle, and his fingers come forward to brush at the tears on your cheeks and tuck a lock of hair behind your ear.
âi love you so much,â you confess. âi would do anything for you. and i have, i have for years. iâve tried my best, but osamu, iâm so tired,â you sob. your voice feels like its giving out but the desperation makes the words claw themselves out of your mouth. âiâm so tired, i'm so tired and i'm so lonely, andâandâand i love you so much, but i have nothing left to give.â
you pull your hands away to hunch over and cry into your palms unable to face him. messily, you wipe at your face and push your hair back. you give him the most apologetic smile you can muster, but you're unable to see his face through your tears. âiâm so sorry i canât give you more, osamu.â
you hear him sniffle and when you wipe your tears away with the backs of your hands, his eyes are glassy. then he closes his eyes.
the pain that washes over his face is absolutely unbearable. the furrow of his brow and the wrinkle of his chin, the lines by his scowl that you know is him trying his best to keep it together.
when he opens his eyes to look at you, his eyes are no longer glassy. your heart breaks for the pain he refuses to show. âwhatâs next?â
your smile is sad and wet with tears. âi think you know.â you brush his hair back and cradle his face with your hands. âletâs⊠letâs do this in the morning, okay?â
he nods, looking away. he licks his lips and shakes his head, and he turns to face you with a furrowed brow and a little more composure despite his watery gaze. but it doesnât take long before his face crumples and he rushes to hide his face against your legs. his quiet sobs are pained and miserable, his chest shaking as he cries.Â
you press your face against his hair and cry with him.
â
the morning greets you kindly, the soft sunlight bathing your room in a sweet glow. itâs early, but you canât keep sleeping. thereâs a lot to pack.
your eyes feel hot and swollen, and bones feel heavy beneath your skin, weighing you down from getting up from the bed. still, you fight. you push yourself up to sit and notice that youâre alone. unsurprising, really; osamu has been leaving earlier and coming home later. onigiri miya needs care, needs nurturing, so itâll blossom and grow. you need to stop begrudging him for it.
you finish your morning ablutions in the bathroom and head out to the kitchen, but when you open your bedroom door, the smell of food hits your nose like a smack to the face. your stomach twists when you see a familiar broad backâosamu didnât leaveâand your fingers turn cold.
the door slides shut behind you and he turns. âgood morninâ,â he says quietly, shutting off the stove.
âgood morning,â you say, walking to your kitchenette. when you see the spread on the table, you gape despite yourself. âosamu. what isâwhat.â
he flushes, sliding a delicious looking steak unto a plate and setting it alongside the other platesânearly every single plate you own, you noteâand your dining table is bursting with food. âcooked breakfast.â
âfor how many people?â you ask, incredulous.
âi tried t'remember everythinâ you liked,â he said with a sniff, and your heart crinkles at the edges, because that means something.
âthank you,â you whisper, and you quietly take a seat while sets aside the dishware he used.Â
when he finishes, he turns to look at you, leaning on the counter. it takes him a while. âwhen you leave,â he says, âiâm going to try again.â
you stare at him, confused. you say nothing and wait for him to continue.
âi donât want you to leave,â he says, and he rubs his face in frustration. âbut i know iâveâi know i fucked up. i love you, and i never shouldâve hurt you.â he inhales through his nose. âbut i did, and i canât change that.
âbut iâm not giving up on you. not on us. youââ he clears his throat, and the dark circles beneath his eyes makes your heart feel tight. âiâll⊠if i have to start all over again, iâll do it,â he whispers, walking closer and taking your chin in his hand, tilting your face up to meet his eyes. âiâll win you back.â
âosamu,â you whisper, and his face crumples again.
âi love you too much to let you go,â he says, voice breaking as he fights back tears. âand i know that makes me a jerk. but iâm⊠i love you, so muchâso fucking much, and i hate myself for not making you feel that. for hurting you.â
he gets on his knees and tears are streaming down your face. âleave me if you have to,â he says brokenly.
âif you need space, iâll understand. but please,â he begs. âplease donât give up on me.âÂ
he does the unthinkable. he curls over and bows, back curved and forehead pressed against the backs of his hands, pressed against the floor.
the horror that overtakes you is beyond words.Â
you drop to the floor to pull him upright, not letting him do this. he wonât do this to himself, you wonât let him. not for anyone, not for you. you pull his face against yours and kiss him as hard as you can, crying as you do.
you won't let him do this.
later, you sit on the couch, arms around osamuâs middle as you lie on his chest. the idea that this could be the last time you held him like this made you want to burst into tears again.
âiâll make it up to you,â he promises, pushing your hair out of your face, gently guiding your chin up. âplease, just⊠give me another chance.â
you look up at him, and your eyes meet.
â
âhey!â atsumu greets warmly as soon as you enter the restaurant, spreading his arms wide to engulf you in a hug. âitâs so good tâsee you!â
âhi, âtsumu,â you greet, returning the hug.Â
he motions for you to sit as he picks up the menu. âknow what you want?â
you nod, not even bothering to pick up the menu. âhow are you? howâs training?â
ââm good! trainingâs good. teammates are pretty good, too.â
"yeah? like who?"
atsumu makes a show of looking at the menu. "oh, i don't you know them."
you roll your eyes at his obvious ploy to get you to start talking. âfine. ask me.â
atsumu instantly leans in, conspiratorially covering his mouth with the menu and whispering, âhow are you two? itâs been over a month now, right?â
âoi.â you twist your head to smile up at the newcomer. âstop bothering them, âtsumu.â
atsumu glares at his twin. âiâm the one who invited âem to lunch!â
osamu rolls his eyes and lays down a platter of onigiri in front of you. he snatches the menu and smacks his brotherâs wandering hands with it before they get to close. âthese are not for you.â
âbut thatâs a lot!" atsumu whines. "canât i have any?â
âno,â osamu says resolutely, then turns to you and gives you the softest smile he can muster, pinning the menu by his side and arm.
"i haven't even ordered yet!" atsumu complains.
osamu ignores him. âlet me know what you think.â
âokay,â you say with a smile.Â
âand let me know if you need to take out anything,â he continues, âiâll wrap it up for you.â he leans forward and presses a kiss to your temple. âenjoy.â
âthank you, âsamu,â you tell him before he turns to leave.Â
he smiles back at you and heads back behind the bar.
atsumu has evidently forgotten about ordering, because his eyes shuttle back and forth between you two before nodding considerably. âso i take it things are going well?â
âyeah,â you admit, picking up an onigiri. âgoing really well, actually.â
âyouâve beenâŠâ atsumu searches for the word, âis it still called âdatingâ? you broke up. but⊠entertaining each otherâŠ?â
âdonât hurt yourself,â you joke. âbut yeah. letâs call it dating. and itâs going well, thanks for asking.â you take a bite of the onigiri.
âdoes he still have a chance?â atsumu asks, genuine curiosity on his face.
you chew thoughtfully as you look back at osamu, whoâs smiling at a customer. you remember that bright morning, when he helped you pack, helped you move into your friendâs apartment. when he cooked all that food, and you found it neatly packed away in a thermal bag that had a handwritten note, reminding you to eat well.
you remember the next day, when he showed up at your friendâs door, holding flowers and inviting you out to get some ice cream. you remember his messages, his calls, his check ins on you, littered across the days, asking you how you are or if youâre eating or if you need any food.
you could call him if you needed any help, if you needed anything at all.
but reality sets in when you think of how one phone call could be a mistake, it stops you from searching his name each time you pick up the phone.
in your mind, you see his bent form, his begging, his tears. you remember his smiles and his hugs and his âsee you laterâs, his gradually growing list of unbroken promises. you remember the effort, the time heâs putting into you, putting aside for you. you remember how hard he tries for you.
it's like everything is new again.
his eyes catch yours and he gives you a small wave, and you wave back, your stomach fluttering.
nanami who has you impaled deep on his cock, hands restraining your tiny, quivery wrists.
youâve been a bad girl.
fussing over the smallest inconsistencies throughout your day spent with your dearest fiance â having taken a day off to spend with his darling girl. but youâre a brat â thereâs no doubt about it. nonetheless, itâs kentoâs responsibility to put you back in your place, turn you back into the pliant, nice, and smart woman he knows you to be.
and he knows itâs not your fault â youâre big on emotions but hefty weak when it comes to communication. so, heâll just have to force it out of you.
you writhe in his grip, crying out his name with a soft whine as a peace offer for mercy, any mercy.
âcorrect your posture and straighten your thighs. like i taught you many times before. donât tell me you forgot, darling.â he eyes you condescendingly, sighing with a disappointed demeanor that has you whimpering.
âyâyhes.. yes sir!â and you do just as he says, straightening your back and stretching out your legs. it takes you a weak couple of grinds before you manage to find a suiting pace â although slow but kento deems it acceptable.
âwell done. now,â kento grunts, âtell me whatâs gotten you so fussy today. will you?â
you huff, shaking your head softly with an adorable pout, increasing the speed of your pace in hopes to lose the man in his thoughts with your hips.
ânow now,â kento warns, his free hand, the right one coming up to squeeze at your cheeks, his calloused thumb jabbing into your right dimple, the rest of his hand laying tight against your left. âweâre not about to play the guessing game.â
you squeak in pain, eyes closing shut which forces the previously bubbling tears to spill over your lash line.
âspeak up, darling, or you wonât be cumming anytime soon. i can promise you that.â he growls â which is his last and final warning, an assertion of dominance youâve only seen once long before.
âiâiââ
nanami removes his grip from your face, a contradicting thumb that comes to wipe at your tears so sweetly you might just cry again.
âwaâwanâ you to put a baby in mâme already,â you hiccup, âwanâa have your kids, kâken.â finally, you crack.
nanami cums.
you squeak inevitably, not expecting the sudden fill in your womb, thick ropes of spent painting your walls white and filling your tummy. âoâoh shhhâshit.â nanami whines, cursing himself when he feels it leak against his tummy. your hips slow, meaning to stop, âno.. donât stop. keeping going, lâlove. until you canât, for me.â
you nod shakily, hiccuping softly when you hear the man chuckle, leaning back against the headboard with a weary stare. âthatâs it, doll? youâve been so fussy, so mean all day just because you wanted me to breed this little wâwomb? aw.â nanami coos, and you canât help but feel the slightest bit embarrassed. youâre quick to pout again at his teasing, but your ploy is quickly shocked to failure when he presses harshly against the chub of your tummy â directly atop your womb.
âdarling, you must communicate. how would i have known youâd ask of sâsomething so simple?ânanami stutters when you drop onto his lap, situating yourself tiredly onto him. âi justâ âs-s embarrassing.â you whimper in response, lifting your head to receive a gentle kiss from the man.
synopsis: jeonghan finally convinced you to move in with him, but you're starting to think he has ulterior motives.
genre: fluff, crack, ninaverse/tuvos!couple (takes place somewhere in between the prequel and before they got married lolol)
wcc: 856
a/n: MOM I MISS HIM SM đ«
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"Did you grab the chunjang sauce?" you ask.
Jeonghan hums softly at your voice, tearing his eyes away from the vacuum-sealed package of rice cakes to watch you approach the cart, each hand fisting something you picked up from a distant part of the store. You set scallions and apples atop the teetering pile of cereal, spices, and other small snacks in the shelf above that would usually hold a toddler, eyes scanning the rest of the groceries for the said paste.
Jeonghan extends a hand in your direction, and not even looking in his direction, eyes still lingering on the items in the cart, you knew to to just slip your hand into his. It immediately brings a smile to Jeonghan's face, his chest blooming with, dare he think it, love. He gently pulls you to his side, your free hand, coming to rest on his upper arm. Jeonghan thinks he could get used to this . . . or maybe he already is.
He has been back in the city for a little over three months now, which meant being able to see you more regularly. It started out as a few times per week, especially on the weekends - cute little outings at cafes, walks in the park, catching up with friends collectively, or simply just lounging at yours or his place. However, it quickly turned to a daily occurrence. Jeonghan and you made it a point to see each other at least once per day, towards the end there, moreso him coming to your place after work . . . and staying there. Overnight. Cute dates transformed into him inserting himself in your routine (or vice versa): skincare, laundry days, cooking (or rather him trying to), and well, grocery shopping.
Jeonghan had half expected these mundane activities to get boring fast, but instead, he finds himself enjoying them. The two of you fall into an easy rhythm, even if he's kind of a bad cook or mixed the blues with the whites sometimes.
It's comfortable and quiet, and Jeonghan likes it. He doesn't voice it per se, but seeing you in your day-to-day-sometimes with no makeup and in his oversized tee, sometimes dolled up with a form fitting power suit after work-it makes him love you more, if that's even possible.
Hence, when your lease was nearing its end, naturally, he asks you to move in with him. It goes much more smoothly and less dramatically than Minghao and Seungcheol had prepared him for, you quickly agreeing after a short, but effective discussion.
"You didn't grab the chunjang sauce," you answer your own question earlier.
"I didn't," Jeonghan confirms. He looks up again, plucking the rice cakes off the shelf.
He turns to find you frowning at him. Nonetheless, you still reach up to tuck a fringe out of his eyes and behind his ear. He hadn't cut his hair since he dyed it back to black, so it's now overgrown and shading well-over his eyes if he didn't style it carefully, the ends tickling the nape of his neck. You nag him about getting a haircut constantly, but he thinks you secretly like it since you always end up playing with his fringes unconsciously like now.
"Didn't you say you wanted to try making jajangmyeon this week?" you ask.
He shrugs casually, pointing at the rice cakes. "What if you make tteokbokki instead?"
You narrow your eyes at him, footsteps falling in sync with his as he starts pushing the cart forward, pretending to be interested in the assortments of rice on the shelf running parallel to the two of you.
"Yoon Jeonghan," you warn.
"Have you tried basmati rice?" he asks you.
You let go of him and sigh, "What if you make tteokbokki instead?"
He smiles sheepishly, putting on his best wide-eyed plea. "It's not as good as yours?"
You cross your arms over your chest, eyes rolling. "I'm starting to think you only asked me to move in with you because you want someone to cook for you."
"Not true," he bumps your hip playfully, "If I did, I would've asked Mingyu to be roommates."
"That's still possible," you play along.
Jeonghan snorts. "Nonsense," you feel him wrap around your wrist, fingers fumbling to open your palm. He loosely wraps his pinky around yours. "Wouldn't trade you for Mingyu ever - he snores when he sleeps, you know? Also, who'd go grocery shopping with me then?"
"Mingyu . . .?" you offer.
"Nah - I don't love him like that."
This catches you off-guard, slowly peering at him, giving him your best incredulous, judgmental look, silently asking, 'did you really just say that?'
But Jeonghan knows better - he can tell from the way your lips falter, the way your cheeks heat up, and the sudden squeeze of his hand. He scoffs, followed by a hearty chuckle, pressing presses a chaste kiss on your temple before he continues down the aisle.
Yoon Jeonghan doesn't love loudly, but his adoration for you is embroidered into nearly every gesture, including these small, mundane moments.
Bold of you to think after all this time, he'd still go voluntarily grocery shopping with anyone but you.
â WHAT HAPPENS WHEN TWO YAKUZA HEIRS ARE FIGHTING OVER WHO GETS TO MARRY YOU ?? â
â§ pairing: yakuza!satoru gojo x f!reader x yakuza!suguru geto
â§ summary: you had no patience for the yakuza lifestyle your grandfather had -- you wanted to live a normal life, but when it leaks that your grandfather is in talks to have you engaged to one of two yakuza heirs -- you realize you're in deeper than you thought -- especially when they both fall in love with you.
â§ warnings: 18+, nsfw, smut, fluff, inspired / dialogue / scene concepts taken from the manga âyakuza fiance,â (which the fic is named after), reader's age is ambiguous, but all are 20s+, violence (as expected from mafia / yakuza stories), blood, stsg have tattoos, implied satosugu (just a passing mention of dating briefly), stsg have sadomasochistic tendencies, a little ooc, switch! gojo (very sub gojo), switch! geto, oral (f + m), deepthroating, handjob (m), fingering (f! receiving), double penetration, sex (p in v), creampie, poly relationship implied ending,
â§ wc: 18,476
âI donât want to marry either of you,âÂ
And your statement is met with confused stares â and normally stares like this wouldnât be terrifying to the average person, but these were not average men you were dealing with.Â
Satoru Gojo and Suguru Geto were anything but average â in many ways.Â
Both were incredibly handsome â Satoru was blessed with a piercing blue gaze of the heavens and snow white locks that could stun any person into silence, and Suguru was no slouch either â with long inky black locks tied into a neat bun and his sharp features and his almost all too alluring smile â the two of them looked like they belonged to a modeling agency. Both were also brilliant, attending one of the best high schools in Tokyo, before going to the best university, leading in their respective specialities (Satoru studying physics, while Suguru chose literature).Â
And, the two were both the heirs to two of the most dangerous Yakuza families in all of Japan.Â
But right now, they are your biggest problems, personified.Â
Their families were both vying for your hand in marriage â thanks to your meddling grandfather who shipped you off to Tokyo to get a would-be Yakuza husband â your yakuza family hoping to broker peace after decades upon decades of fighting with one of the other two biggest yakuza families around â the Gojo and Geto families respectively.Â
âExcuse me?â Suguru speaks first, a single eyebrow raised, arms crossed over his crisp white button up.Â
âIâm not here for this yakuza bullshit. Iâm trying to live my own life â and Iâm not in the mood to get swept along in my grandfatherâs wishes for me to get married,â your hand is in your bag, fingers curled around your collapsible metal pole, âand I donât care to know either of you, I donât really care to stick around you â especially because all its earned me is the disdain of all the other students who have crushes on you â so how about we simply tolerate each other for this year?âÂ
Satoru whistles, âhow disappointing,â his eyes raking over you from head to toe, âyouâre worse than your reputation â we heard you were a stuck-up, spoiled rich girl that would do anything to get her way, but turns out youâre just normal,â he sticks out his tongue and makes a gagging noise, âhow boring,âÂ
âTruly tiresome,â Suguru hums, his bangs falling in his dark gaze, âI was looking forward to a woman who could match up to us â maybe fuck me up, punish me, and strip away my dignity â type of girl whoâd ruin my life, do you understand?âÂ
You stare at him, lips parted, brow furrowed, âWhat?âÂ
âIn other words, we were hoping you were much more interesting than you were â as you are now, youâre just useless,â Satoru sighs dramatically, his pink lips curled in a smile, âbor-inggggg,âÂ
âYou might as well go back to Osaka, or wherever it was you came from,â Suguru shrugs, hands in his pockets, as he pulls a cigarette and a lighter, âyou could stay, but as it stands, you would be better off back home â maybe it would even start a war â that could be fun, Satoru,â he remarks, his grin growing more sinister by the minute, as he places the cigarette between his lips, and lighting it.Â
âLetâs actually not be so hasty, Suguru. She could have some use,â he holds out his fingers to frame you between them, âcould be worth something if we have her work at one of our families clubs â selling her body. She could make some use for us,â he says cruelly, âOtherwise, go back home, and let them know weâre the ones not interested in you,â he says, brushing past you along with Suguru.Â
And you couldnât decide which one of their smiles were the most bone chilling â and why you couldnât quite find your voice in that moment. And you didnât â not until you finally reached home, your phone ringing.Â
âHowâs it going, dear granddaughter?â you could hear the grin of the old coot even over the phone â and how could you tell him you wanted to go home now? You had hoped to go there to give two rejections â not earn two of your own. You hoped to stick out the year before leaving this place behind, if only to appease your grandfather.Â
âIâm fine, but I thinkâŠI think Iâm homesick,â you sit on the edge of your bed, hunched over, hand holding your head up, propped against your knee.Â
âWhyâs that? Did something happen?âÂ
âNothing, I justââÂ
âYouâre not coming back home,â and your hopes fall, âone year, you have to stay one year no matter what. Donât care if you have to fight with every bone in your body and fiber of your being â last a year,âÂ
âBut whyââÂ
âMake those boys fall for you, and then break their hearts, heh â your grandfather is a heartbreaker and I know you can do the same,â and you know his lips are curled in a smile not too dissimilar to the two men you met today, âdonât forget where you come from â and what youâre worth,â and he cuts the line, as you stare at your phone, before tossing it away and lying back.Â
Well, you know what you had to do.Â
~~~
âMorning,â you know whereâd they be â the only free period they had together that they spent in the dining hall with their entourage â including some girls who had been harassing you about how you knew the pair â ones you had suspected in fucking with your locker, smearing mud all over your shoes. A small retaliation for capturing their precious crushesâ attention.
The two heirs only stare for a moment â it had been two weeks since they had seen you, âthought I had gone home?âÂ
âSurprised you didnât,â Suguru remarks, utterly disinterested from the look in his eyes, despite the smile plastered on his lips, âguess I lost the bet, Satoru,âÂ
You raise an eyebrow at Satoru, âyou thought Iâd stay?âÂ
âThought you'd stay to take me up on my offer to sell your body,â he holds out his hand as Suguru slaps a stack of bills in his palm, âdid you?âÂ
âI did actually,â your lips curl, as their gazes slide to one another, before you drop a bag on their table, âone kidney, 5,000,000 yen,â and you take delight in the smiles that slide off their expressions, as they stare at you, Satoru looking over the lip of the bag before you knocked it over and let the stacks of money spill over the table, âit took two weeks since it took a while to arrange and recover, but it was well worth it,âÂ
The pair only can stare â expression unreadable and words seemingly stolen from their mouths, as you only smiled down at them, your gaze digging into their faces like daggers.
Suguruâs eyebrows knit together, âHow did youââÂ
âFriend of a friend,â you shrug, âIâll have to be on a low sodium diet and probably do blood work a little more frequently but you were right about one thing â I was being weak,â you lift up your shirt to show the bandage on your side, their eyes wide, as they can only stare, âI wonât be making that mistake again,âÂ
And you place your foot up on their table, leaning in, as the mask slips from your face, and your anger surges forth, âlisten here, you masochistic fuckers, Iâm not scared of either one of you. I donât care if I have to crawl home choking on my own blood, Iâll be sure youâre choking on each otherâs as I drag you both to hell. Iâm staying here, whether either of you like it or not,âÂ
âYou canât talk to them like thatââ one of the girls pipes up, her lips twisted in a frown.Â
âI can talk to them however I want - do you know who I am? I come from a family just like thereâs but we actually know how to cover up our crimes,â you chuckle, head tilting, âdo you know how easy itâd be to get rid of you two?â Your gaze slides to the other girl, âitâd be all too simple â and trust me, Iâd get my hands dirty if itâs the two of you,â your lips curl into a wide grin as you add, âafter all, you guys did me the favor of dirtying my shoes already,âÂ
And the two blanch white, all indignance replaced with genuine fear â and you had never known someone could look at you as someone to be feared.Â
And you didnât know you would like it so much.Â
You staple the smile on your face again, as the two heirs still sit speechless in their seats, eyes glued to you, âWell thatâs all,â you slide back, âI have to head to classââÂ
But then your wrists are caught â pulling you back, as you find yourself pinned on either side by the two heirs, your body tense, before your gaze slides between them, âWhat?âÂ
âMarry me,â they both say simultaneously â and you gape at them.Â
You are pushing them back, palms pressed against their chests, but find yourself met with two immovable objects, instead trying to squirm out of their grips. âWhat?â And their grips loosen enough for you to take a step back, but their hands remain around your wrists.Â
âI have to have you,â Suguru presses a chaste kiss to the back of your hand, dark gaze lidded as he looks up at you, and a shiver climbs up your spine, âIâve never been so terrified or turned on in my life â it must be love,âÂ
Satoru is the same, mesmerized with eager words, âI want you to do what you promised, Princess â ruin my life,â Satoruâs lips curled in a wide grin, âwant you to completely fuck me up, dominate my entire life â and thereâs only one way to do that, marry me,âÂ
Suguru only scowls at Satoru, âYou know Satoru, itâs very rude to propose after your best friend does,â Suguruâs gaze slides to him, âsheâs mine,â and his other hand finds your shoulder, pulling you against his chest, even as you struggle against their grips, âher family reached out to mine first,âÂ
âFuckers, I swear to god, let me goââ but they act as if they canât hear you, a current of possessiveness sweeping their thoughts away.Â
âSo what? Her family decided to ask for my hand â looks like yours wasnât good enough,â Satoru only grins, pulling you against him instead, his breath warming your flushed skin, as you grimace, âand Iâd make her happier than you ever would.âÂ
âWant to take this outside, Satoru?â Suguruâs glare sent chills down your spine, but Satoruâs lips split into a smile so wide, you were afraid his head would crack in two.Â
âWhy? Feeling lonely? Go by yourself,â
And finally you stomp on Satoruâs foot before elbowing Suguru in the stomach, drawing groans from both boys, as you stumble away from them, whirling to face them, âDonât treat me like your goddamn property or that Iâm a prize to be won,â your words slip like venom from your lips, âdonât ever fucking touch me without asking,âÂ
âOf course, weâre sorry,â Suguru only grins after, holding his stomach, but he still looks all too delighted, âyou should reprimand us like the scum we are, isnât that right Satoru?âÂ
Satoru nods, pouting, âYeah we deserve more of a punishment,â and your skin crawls at their eagerness.Â
âI donât know what the fuck is wrong with you two, but I donât want anything to do with it,â you walk away, hiding your dumbstruck expression, but the two only followed you.Â
âYou canât just walk away from us, you have to decide who you want,â Suguru calls after you, their long strides meant they caught up all too fast, and youâre armed with your collapsible pole now, pointing it at both of them.Â
âTwo minutes ago, both of you thought I was normal and boring,â your eyes narrow â was this another plot to just sell you to some club?Â
âAnd Iâm sorry about that sweetheart,â Satoruâs arm is around your waist again, while Suguruâs fingers intertwined with yours, âwe were clearly wrong â and you have to take responsibility,âÂ
You stare at them, âfor what?âÂ
And heâs leaning to whisper in your ear, âIâm so hard for you right now,â And youâre whirling on them with the pole, but they both expertly dodge your assault, before youâre hurrying away. But they let you go, watching after you with a grin.Â
âThis is going to be fun,â Suguru remarks, looking at his best friend, âI canât guarantee I wonât kill you for her hand,âÂ
Satoru only smirks in reply, âYou stole the words out of my mouth, Suguru.âÂ
~~~
It had been a week â a week of you trying skillfully to evade the two yakuza heirs.Â
And you had failed. No matter how fast you left your classes, where you hid, where you sat â the two always found you. And now you have resorted to sitting outside to eat your lunch, being careful to avoid any stray glance of your presence. You sat, back against the building, as you held your head, bento box in your lap â how long until they would get the message? How long until they figured out you wanted nothing to do with them?Â
Your grandpa had told you to make them fall for you, but you didnât think you had too much more to do with how the two were following you around, dogging your every step.Â
How would you last another year?Â
You opened your bento â at least for once, you could enjoy your lunch without one of themâÂ
âThere you are,â and your lunch nearly goes tumbling out of your lap, but you grasp it, keeping your food from spilling out of your bento, and you turn to meet the gaze of Suguru, leaning against the windowsill, âyouâre a fast one, sweetheart,â his head tilted and lips curled in his signature smile.Â
âHow the fuck did you find me so fast?â you stare at him, brow furrowed, âitâs barely been five minutes, and this campus is huge,âÂ
âItâs the power of love, of course,â you cringe, and he laughs, bringing his knuckles to his lips, âoh rather, itâs the power of the tracking device I slipped in your bag,âÂ
And you blink, âYou what?âÂ
He shrugs, âWell how else would I have found you so quickly? Iâll slip it in your shoe next time,â and he sighs, as you dig through your bag, before turning it upside down and letting your things spill out on the grass, âbesides, thereâs a good reason Iâm tracking you,â and you find the tracker before stomping on it, digging your heel into it, crushing it into the dirt, âthereâs been a kidnapping of another Yakuza heiress,âÂ
And your eyes flit to him, and heâs still smiling at you, âWho?â you continue to collect your things, shaking out textbooks and examining your things for any other hidden trackers.Â
âYouâll learn tonight â come to the compound tonight â youâve been formally invited by both my father and Satoruâs father,â and heâs hopping out of the window, fingers brushing yours as he hands you your pencil case, and heâs all too close now, his warm breath warming your lips.Â
âAnd if I refuse?â and his lips curl in a smirk.Â
âYouâd be offending not only my family, but Satoruâs as wellââ and heâs rising to his feet, offering you a hand, âand it might end in an all out war, but that would be just fine for us â would it for you?âÂ
You glare at him, taking his hand reluctantly, as he helps you to your feet, and you brush the dirt from your skirt and legs, âFine, what time?âÂ
âAfter school, Satoru will be waiting by the gates for you,â he smiles, as he settles next to you, pulling out his own lunch, and you tilt your head, âoh are you curious about me? I have my own business to attend to,âÂ
âIs that what the other bastard is up to?â and he chuckles at that, taking a bite of his food.Â
âSomething like that.âÂ
~~~~
âTook you long enough, pretty,â the Gojo heirâs eyes drag over you like spotlights as he leans against the gate outside, the other students staring as you two speak, whispering as they walk by, slowing down to either catch a longer glance at Satoru or hear a bit of your conversation, âwith being so quick to leave for lunch, I thought youâd be just as quick leaving the building,â and heâs offering you a drink from the vending machine that you reluctantly take.Â
âWell, I wasnât exactly looking forward to being a spectacle,â you grumble, as you power walk away from the burgeoning traffic jam that Satoru was causing, and he follows behind, âwhy do they all stare anyway? They know you're a yakuza, donât they?âÂ
âPart of the draw,â he shrugs, the hiss of his own soda filling the air as he pops it open, âeveryone wants what they canât have, but donât worry, I only have eyes for you, sweetheart,â you grimace as he sips at his soda, raising an eyebrow, âso what canât you have?âÂ
You both finally reach the heart of the city, bustling with people left and right â the one thing you couldnât get used to from the quieter life you led, âSome peace and quiet, apparently,â you adjust your bag on your shoulder in a tighter grip, if only you could lose him in this crowd and be done with all this shit, but it wasnât that simple, and then it occurs to you, âdid you put a tracker on me as well?âÂ
âNah, I just used Suguruâs,â he smiles, as he downs the rest of his drink with his head thrown back, before crushing the can in his hand and tossing it away in the recycling bin nearby, âplus, I didnât have time, been busy with other things, unfortunately,âÂ
âWhat things have youââÂ
And youâre suddenly tugged into an alleyway, an arm around your neck and a hand clamped over your mouth, âDonât struggle, it will only make it more difficult for you,â the man whispers in your ear, as another two men draw closer to your sides, âweâll kill you if you do,âÂ
You canât scream, but you donât need to â because the man who grabbed you screams first.Â
âWho the fuck areââ and he screams, his hands slipping from your side, the thump of his body against the pavement making you flinch, as you slowly turn to find Gojo, as he only glares at the other men, before his gaze slides to you, softening with a smile.Â
âSweetheart, itâs okay, come here,â and you swallow, before taking shaky steps to his side, and heâs pulling you behind him, âwait here,âÂ
It happens far too quickly.
Or maybe itâs just a blur now. Because now heâs beaten the three men into submission, their scarlet blood splattering against his uniform, the wet squelch of their flesh as he punches and kicks them, his shoe digging into their sides. He winds his fist back again.Â
âThatâs enough,â you say hoarsely, swallowing thickly, âtheyâre barely alive,âÂ
âMore than they deserve,â he mutters, before sighing and grabbing one by his shirt, fabric straining against the dead weight of the man, and pulls him close, his hand connecting with his face as he slaps him awake, âYou hear me? Listen,â he shakes him, until the manâs eyes blink open, bleary, âYou see me? Donât forget my face. You touch her again â and itâs the last thing youâll see before the afterlife, got that?âÂ
âYes,â the man slurs.Â
âThatâs my girl,â he jerks his head at you, âsheâs mine and if you or any of your stupid friends or family see her, donât talk or touch her, much less even look at her,â and his lips curl again, âor I promise my family and the Geto family will slaughter you â until thereâs nothing left.â and he drops the man onto the ground, âletâs go,â he mutters, shaking the blood off his knuckles, before using the inside of his uniform jacket to wipe the rest off.Â
âYour uniform, it'sââ and he glances at the blood seeping into the fabric of his jacket and crisp shirt, and youâre digging through your bag, âI have my hand towel and someââ and heâs shaking his head.Â
âI have a sweatshirt I can wear in my bag,â and heâs tugging off his uniform jacket and unbuttoning his shirt, and you canât look away fast enough â not before seeing the tattoo littering his back.Â
A large lion against his back, seemingly roaring, against a backdrop of bamboo, stared back at you, as your breath catches in your throat â he wasnât just a spoiled heir, he was a real yakuza. And what he did to those men â his eyes met yours again, as he tugged the sweatshirt on, lips still in that ridiculous smile â it was likely the least of what he could really do to them.Â
âOh, sorry, guess I never told ya,â he pulls the orange sweatshirt down, pulling a pair of sunglasses on, and your horrified expression in the circular black rims stare back at you, âsorry for scaring you, sweetheart,âÂ
âYouâre reallyââ you cut off, heart caught in your throat. Yeah, you had spent too much of your life surrounded by men covered in tattoos, but these two â their auras â were on another level that was simply â terrifying.Â
âA yakuza?â he finishes, peering at you over the rim of his sunglasses, âSurprised it took you this long to figure out â thought you had that pieced together a while ago â what? I assume your family shielded you from that kind of violence â probably had guards on you 24/7 so no one would mess with you. Well you arenât in Osaka anymore,â his fingers intertwined with yours, his larger hand engulfing yours as he tugs you along away from the alley, the faint groans of the men disappearing into the ambient noise of the city, âStay close, princess.âÂ
And you flushed, biting your lip. There was a lot you didnât know, but you knew you better learn â you spare one glance back at the alley â and quick.Â
~~~
You both arrive back to the compound, as youâre funneled into a room, you get a glimpse of Suguru in an adjacent hallway, his clothes as bloodied as Satoruâs was, if not more. His dark eyes catch yours and his lips curl, as he holds his hand up as a greeting, mouthing, âYo,âÂ
Youâre shepherded away to sit, and soon enough, Satoru and Suguru join you, as you fidget in the middle of the room, the three of you sit on cushions, while another cushion directly in front of you. Your fingers can't help but toy with the ribbon on the front of your uniform â what if this was just a ruse to sell you off? Maybe they even found out about you selling your kidney? Anxiety swirled in your mind, dragging down your body to even the tips of your toes, your body buzzing and stinging with thoughts.Â
âThis really is just a talk to discuss the missing Yakuza heiress,â Suguru cuts through your thoughts, as you stare at him, slack jawed, and he only shrugs, leaning back against his hands flat on the floor, âyouâre not hard to read, sweetheart,âÂ
âBesides, if we wanted to kill you, why not let you die in that alleyway?â Satoru chimes in, ever so helpful, as you glare at him, before his gaze slides to Suguru, âdid you take care of that like I asked, Suguru?â and he nods, and before you can ask a question, the door slides open.Â
Instead of the heads of the household, a yakuza comes in, sunglasses stare back at you, his dark brown hair slicked back, shaved on the sides of his head, as he stared down at the three of you, âThe heads wonât be able to make it to this meeting â something has come up,âÂ
âYaga, good to see you,â Suguru chirps, while Satoru only sighs, hands behind his head.Â
âGlad to see you havenât gotten yourself killed since youâve been away, old manââ and Satoru earns a fist to his head, âow!âÂ
âKeep it up and youâll get something worse than a whack to the head,â Yaga grumbles, taking his seat, âyou must be the girl,â he eyes you up and down, âIâll get straight to the point â the Akazawa heiress is missing. Sheâs assumed to be kidnapped,â he hands you a photo of her â shoulder length black hair, her eyes look past the camera, her head tilted downwards, but her hazel eyes pierce through the picture.Â
âHow long has she been gone?â Suguru asks, âany chance that she just ran off?âÂ
âThereâs a chance sheâs been sold off for a couple hundred thou,â Satoru remarks, crossing his arms, âpeople would pay a premium for a yakuza heiress,â and his eyes slide to you, and you glare back.Â
âWe donât know â maybe she ran off, maybe sheâs been sold, maybe thereâll be a ransom coming in at one point or another, or maybe sheâs deadââ and you bite your lip, âbut we canât take the risk, especially since we have a similar heiress under our care now,â Yaga says, crossing his arms with a hefty sigh, âthat being said, youâll be staying at the compound until further noticeâ your things have already been brought here,â you gape at him, mouth nearly hanging open, âand youâll have Satoru or Suguru with you at all times â their schedules have been rearranged to have class with you,âÂ
âButââ and Yaga shoots a look at you that silences your protests.Â
âThese orders came from the three heads, including your grandfather, would you like to defy them?â And your mouth clamps shut, your head falling.Â
âNo, sir,â Yaga rises, leaving, but not before ordering the two heirs to show you where youâll be staying, âand any real threats to you appear, and your classes will be made online and you will remain under guard in the compound,â Yaga adds before disappearing behind another door.Â
âIt wonât be that bad, Princess,â Suguru grins, as they walk you to your room, ânow we can really get to know each other before weâre married,âÂ
âDonât you mean before weâre married?â Satoru says, as Suguru only smiles back at him.Â
âI would rather not marry you, Satoru, dating you for a week was enoughââ and Satoru opens his mouth to reply.Â
âIâm not marrying either of you,â you rub your head, feeling the beginnings of a headache creeping on your temples â you barely could make it through the day with enduring the amount of insanity these two already inflicted, you were sure youâd murder one or both of them if you had to spend 24/7 with them, âwe should be keeping a low profile from now on, not going outââÂ
âExcept for the dates we have planned,â Satoru says, offering you the key to your room, and you unlock the door, stepping inside.Â
âEspecially not for those.â And you slam the door shut and lock it.Â
Your eyes take in the boxes that surround you, full of the things from your apartment, and sigh.Â
Fuck, this really was your life now, wasnât it?Â
~~~
âWhy are you staring at me?â you canât ignore Suguruâs stare in the subway, even when you refuse to meet it. The light from the windows flooded into the subway, flickering as the carts sped by, as the two of you hung onto the grab handles. Your usual peaceful ride to university was now impeded by Suguru who stood by your side, his eyes seemingly glued to you.Â
âI see that your left side is slower to respond than your right,â and you shift under his gaze, âthatâs why your bag is always on your left side, so you can spot a threat easier and have a stronger grip, smart,âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, âHow did you figure that out?âÂ
He shrugs, âFrom observation â I also move a little slower on my left â I even blink slower,â and you face him, staring into his eyes, trying to notice any difference between the two eyes. The only thing you could see is how pretty they really were â dark and lidded, not as bright or striking as Satoruâs, but just as mysterious.Â
âI canât tell,â you tilt your head, and he only smiles.Â
âThere isnât a difference, but I got you to stare into my eyes, didnât I?â and you glower at him, your remark cut off by the influx of people flooding into the cart. Fuck, you never had seen it this full before. You forced yourself not to cringe under the tight quarters â you could handle this, it wasnât a big deal, even as the people sandwiched themselves all around you, anxiety biting at your nerves. And then youâre knocked around by the crowd as the cart jerks, but then, Suguru is pulling you lightly so your back is pressed against a wall and heâs caging you in, his body protecting you.Â
Your breath catches â heâs so close, âYou donât have toââ and your gazes meet again, your breath catching, your bag caught between your bodies. Heâs nearly pressed against you, the heat from his form seeps into your own. And he smells good, despite the sticky heat of the summer lingering â something musky but sharp at the same time â what was that scent?Â
âYou seemed uncomfortable,â he says, his hand holding onto the grab handle above, âthis seemed like the easiest solution, especially so I can protect you â it would be much easier to shield you with my body this way,âÂ
âShut up,â you grumble, as he chuckles, before youâre sighing, âIâm not used to taking the subway â I used to have a car that took me back and forth,â you chew your lip, âI didnât want you to think I couldnât take care of myself,âÂ
âMakes sense to have you driven â as a yakuza heiress, they wanted precautions,â Suguru nods, his eyes sliding around the cart, âyou never know,âÂ
âIs that why your eyes keep scanning the subway cart?â you raise an eyebrow.Â
And his lips curl, âI did say Iâd protect you with my life, didnât I?âÂ
âDid you mean that?â
A chuckle escaped his lips, a noise that makes your breath catch, as the cart jerks again, pressing you both even closer, âI never say anything that I donât mean, princess.âÂ
~~~
âIs following me around really necessary even after classes?â you hadnât bothered to pull your usual disappearing act â it was counterproductive in multiple ways (the first being that either of them would find you and the second being you had to be glued to one of their sides at all times), âitâs not like someone is going jump from the shadows and kidnap me on campus.âÂ
âYou donât know that for sure, do you, princess?â Satoru drawls lazily, as he twirls his dinner knife around his fingers with a skill that said heâd done it a million times before â probably instead of doing the thing he was supposed to be doing, âa man comes up behind you while youâre studying or shopping, presses a weapon or gun to your side, just out of view, and heâs got the perfect hostage,âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, âYou sound like youâve done it before,â and the knife stops between his middle finger and pointer, the tip pointed at you, as he looks at you over the rim of his sunglasses.Â
âDonât get jealous, sweetheart, youâre the only girl Iâd want to kidnap,â he leans forward and swipes a mochi from your plate â even though he had already ate his own â and you scoff, as you turn your attention back to your neglected dessert, choosing to use your brain cells to focus on your food instead of this psycho.Â
âHow lucky,â you mutter, as you stab your remaining mochi instead of your escort, âdo the two of you have to take shifts like this? Iâm surprised the two of you arenât glued to my sides 24/7 together,âÂ
âWe thought it was only fair the two of us split our time â and as much as Iâd like to spend each and every hour with you, we both unfortunately have other responsibilities to tend to,â and he takes a bite of the mochi, âplus, this way, we get to spend time with you alone without the other interfering, and trust me, if I saw you with Suguru,â his lips curl, âIâd interfere,âÂ
âWell you donât have to be worried about that, because I donât plan on being with either one of you,â you reply, âIâm here to finish school and go home as soon as I can,âÂ
âYou wonât be saying that once I make you fall for me,âÂ
You get to your feet, as you pull out your wallet â but Satoru waves you off, already pulling out his card for the waiter, âYouâd have a better chance making me fall for you if you tripped me,â you roll your eyes, as you round the booth, and quick as a light, you trip right into his arms, your body bumping against his chest as his arms steady you. A hand tilts your face up to meet cerulean eyes filled with mirth, âdid you tripââÂ
And then you spot the chair leg you had tripped over oh-so-gratefully, âI donât need to resort to those measures to make you fall for me, princess,â his finger traces your jaw with a featherlight touch, âI have plenty of other ways to do that,âÂ
You get to your feet properly and shove him away, as he chuckled, as you rolled your eyes, âMaybe in your twisted dreams, butââ And Satoru is tugging you away from the booth â a tight arm around you waist, as you stammer, âwhat the fuck are youââÂ
âGuyâs been following you â just spotted him from a distance,â he murmurs, and your shoulders tense, resisting the urge to look back, âjust keep walking with me, donât worry,â his arm gently squeezed you, âwonât let anything happen to you, princess,âÂ
âDonât call me that,â you murmur, as he leads you back inside the closest building, âwhere are weââ and heâs pulling out his phone, texting several people.Â
âGetting us a ride in case I need to get you to safety, and letting Suguru know of the situation,â he offers you a small grin, âI could send you back, but that would be that and you will be on lockdown. Things might be getting a little more interesting from here â so itâs your choice, will you stay or go?âÂ
You considered your choices â you could run away from this, go back to the compound, but going back was a guarantee that you would be stuck 24/7 in the compound and stuck there for the remainder of your time here. And these two would take full advantage of that. Plus, your mind wandered to the girl who had been taken â you wanted to know more about what happened to her and why you were being targeted next.Â
âLetâs go,â and his lips curl. The two of you round several street corners, Satoruâs arm remains tight around your waist, as he leads to a more and more secluded corner of the city, âis this the right move?â your hand wanders into your pocket, fingers around your collapsible pole.Â
He sighs dramatically, âDo you have such little faith in me, sweetheart?âÂ
âConsidering the two of you are insane, yes, I do,â and he clicks his tongue at you, âwhereââÂ
And someone punches you, fist connecting with your left cheek as you stumble sideways into the wall of a nearby building. You hear the cock of a gun, your eyes catch sight of the weapon pointed at Satoru. You caught a glimpse as your eyes flicker open, several men stand behind him, all bearing weapons of some sort.Â
Your ears ring, as you clutch at your head, as you struggle to get your balance, your vision in your left eye blurry from the impact, âCome with me, and your girlfriend wonât have to watch you die,â you feel something warm run down your nose, and you touch it â scarlet stains your fingers.Â
Fuck.Â
Your eyes flicker back to where Satoru stands, eyes flickering to you, a shiver running down your spine at his hard gaze â not a hint of euphoria left â his lips a thin line, and his fists clenched, âIâll fucking kill you,â his words leave in a whispered hiss, and quick as lightning, the gun is knocked from his fingers, and Satoruâs got him pinned down, fist winding back to punch his head in. The other men donât hesitate to join the fray, just as Satoru doesnât hesitate to take them down, blood spilling from their bodies as they fall one by one.Â
You said you would be stronger â that you wouldnât let this happen again. You werenât some person who needed to be sheltered away. Your fingers clutched at the pole in your pocket, pulling it out, as you slowly uncollapsed it â you were a yakuza heir, just as much as these two were.Â
One of them got up to shaky feet, lifting up his knife to stab Satoru from behind, âDIE!â and you slam into his side, hitting over the head with the pole â a grisly crack as the pole nearly snaps against his skull.Â
âFuck off and die!â the words leave your lips as you taste your own blood dripping from your nose. And you can feel Satoru turn to see you, eyes wide as he stares â your words burn as much as your head hurts, as you wipe the blood from your nose.Â
And the men are all down now, as Satoru walks over to you, and his fingers reach gently for your face, as he examines the blood dripping, âitâs just a nosebleed,â you say, and his gaze softens ever so slightly, before darkening, as a groan comes from the man that punched you.Â
âAre you sure youâre okay?â your heart flutters at his gentle touch, the calluses of his fingers against your cheek, as he pulls tissues from his pocket to wipe the blood from your nose.Â
And his eyes linger on your face for a moment, before he turns to the culprit, fingers clenched tightly around the napkin soaked in your blood.Â
He drags the man up by the collar, shaking him, a gurgled groan leaving his bloody lips, âYou might want to go, sweetheart â I have to make sure I let this one die for ever laying a hand on my womanââ and you clasp your hand on his shoulder, shaking your head.Â
âHeâs half dead already â you donât need to finish the job,â and he pouts, shaking the man again for good measure.Â
âYou said he should dieââÂ
You shrug, âPeople like this arenât worth the trouble of killing. And you donât need more problems on your hands â so if youâre doing this for me, donât bother. Letâs just go,âÂ
And you see his lips slowly curl into a grin, as he pulls you into a hug, arms around you waist, as he runs his fingers through your hair gingerly, âI didnât realize you cared, sweetheart,â and you frown, âdonât want me getting in more trouble, huh? If itâs for you, Iâll oblige, but you owe me one,â and his fingers slide under your chin.Â
âOi, is the party over without me?â A familiar voice calls, Suguru walks over, several other Yakuza in tow, his sleeves rolled up, as he takes a once over of the situation, seemingly uninterested in the scum, his eyes falling on you and Satoru, lingering on the blood that still was trickling from your nose. His eyes narrowed, âwhich oneââÂ
âItâs already taken care of, Suguru,â Satoru rubs the back of his head, âbut for your information,â he kicks the one who had punched you in his side, forcing him to roll over, a slight groan escaping his lips, âthatâs the one who hurt her,âÂ
Suguru nodded, stepping over the bodies as if it was nothing more than a spill that had been yet to be cleaned up, as his hand brushes over your chin softly, drawing close, a sharp gasp leaving your lips when his fingers decide to travel to your nose, âItâs not broken, just bleeding, but I should still get her checked out at the compound,âÂ
âYou?â Satoru furrows his brow, âyouâre going to leave meââÂ
âTo clean up your own mess? Yes, I am,â Suguru smiles, âbecause itâs my turn to keep watch,â as he shows his watch, already well past midnight, âand I should be getting her back to the compound,â the two glare at each other, a tension settling over the scene that you were far too done with.Â
You sigh, stepping past both of them, walking over the bodies splayed out on the floor, âLet me know when you both decide,â you yawn, hands in your pockets now, âI need sleep,â and Suguru follows behind, and you donât see him turn to smirk at Satoru.Â
~~~~
You swore someone was watching you.Â
A presence loomed over you, hovering slightly, as you shifted in your sleep, a sigh parting your lips as you turned, still caught between in realms of deep sleep as you drifted in and out, eyes fluttering open a moment, and caught sight of a shadow.Â
No, it was nothing. It was nothing. And then youâd wake to sunlight filtering through your windows, eyes fluttering open, but you would still wake with the lingering touch of someone else against your face.Â
But each morning youâd check the locks, and it would be locked, with no signs of tampering â and youâd be left wondering if it was a dream or not.Â
It had been like this for the last week â youâd sense a presence, for a split second of what you thought was consciousness, and then it would be morning again.Â
And finally, you decided to stay awake, a knife you had pilfered away from the kitchen under your pillow. You let your eyes drift shut, drifting in and out of a half sleep, until you hear it.Â
The slow slide of the door opening, and the soft close of the door behind. The person takes nearly soundless steps towards you, before leaning above you and you feel the faint brush of hair against your skin, before leaning back with a quiet sigh.Â
Suguru?
And his fingers slide through your hair softly. He watches over you, quietly, until you turn to face him, eyes open.Â
âYou know itâs really creepy to break into a womanâs room in the middle of the night,â and Suguru blinks, before his lips curl in a small smirk, âand itâs even weirder when you just sit there to watch her sleep,âÂ
âJust trying to make sure youâre safe, sweetheart,âÂ
âIn a locked room?â And he shrugs.Â
âI broke in easily,â and you scoff, as he rakes his own fingers through his hair, âwho else would keep an eye on you?âÂ
You sit up, crossing your arms, âSurprised you and Satoru arenât in here,âÂ
âWe take turns,â and you stare at him, as he leans back against the wall, âall we do is keep watch princess â would you have let us in otherwise?âÂ
You open and shut your mouth, before you find words again amidst the haze of frustration, âIâm not so fucking helpless that you both need to sit here and watch me sleep,â
âWe have been doing this since the threats began nearly and you only noticed recently,â he points out, his eyes catching the faint light of the moon, as cautious and patient as Suguru was â his expression as indiscernible as a new moon was, âand itâs only because Satoru had gotten sloppy,â he shrugs.Â
You rub at your temples, âyouâre not the only one who is a yakuzaââÂ
Suguru tilts his head, âPrincess, you donât know what it means to be one â not even your fingers have never been bloodied, and it should stay that wayââÂ
Your fingers close around the handle of the knife as you lunge at him â you snapped. You were tired â tired of the men in your life running your life â your grandfather, these yakuza heads, and these two idiots â all of them treating you as if you were spineless.Â
And you werenât.Â
His hand darts out â and it happens quickly. The knife clatters against the hardwood, and heâs pinned you underneath him.Â
You glare, embarrassment licks at your cheeks like flames â you had placed your fingers on the stovetop and what were you expecting other than to get burned? You canât meet his gaze, and youâre expecting another lecture or sanctimonious attitude, but instead, his fingers skim your cheek, âYou should pick your battles wisely, sweetheart â because not all of them will let you off the hook,â and he leans close, breath warming your lips, as your eyes canât help but squeeze shut.Â
Only to wince after a sharp flick to your forehead.Â
And his weight leaves you at once, your head turning to find him examining the knife you had stolen, âYou should also choose a better weapon than a kitchen knife â especially one as dull as this one,âÂ
You scowl at him, âWell, how else will I defend myself?âÂ
And he smiles, shrugging, âIsnât it simple? Use the weapons already at your disposal,âÂ
Your brow knots together, âWhat weapons?â And his hand is sliding the door open, as he casts one more glance over his shoulder, lips curled in that insufferable smile.Â
âThe ones sworn to you.âÂ
~~~~Â
âYouâre staying home tomorrow from class,â the thermometer is plucked from between your lips, the white haired yakuza scrutinizing your room, cerulean eyes catching the pile of tissues you had failed to stuff properly in your trash bin, âhow long have you had this, Princess?âÂ
You lay bedridden and pouting as you draw the covers over your face â you had not been feeling well this whole weekend, but you developed a fever last night. You thought it would be gone by the morning, âJust since this morning,â and heâs tugging the covers away, his brow wrinkled, and then you see it, bandages on his forehead, âwhen did you get hit on the head?âÂ
And he blink, fingers running through his hair, âThis? Itâs nothing,â and you raise an eyebrow, âif you must know, itâs just my punishment for taking you into the thick of things the other day,âÂ
Your brow wrinkles, âWhoââÂ
He waves you off, âItâs not important â the important thing is that you get better â canât have my future wife succumbing to the flu, now can I?â And you scoff.Â
âIâm not your future wife,â you mumble, and you hear a small chuckle from him. And then your muscles begin to grow heavy, eyelids fluttering shut under the weight of exhaustion, and your skin feeling far too cold for your burning insides, âGojo, Iâm notââÂ
And you slip into darkness.Â
You can feel the world around you move, the sounds of wind brushing against your skin, and the flicker of lights in your eyes. Your lips part, a desert inside your mouth with no oasis in sight, âwhereââ
A voice quietly shushes you, fingers raking through your hair gently, lulling you back to sleep. Was it your grandfather? No, he never coddled you like this. Not even he had his yakuza to look after. You were expected to care for yourself â- you couldnât show weakness.Â
Not as an heir â even if you were just a kid.Â
And when you do wake for a moment, itâs with some prodding, a voice whispering for you to open your mouth at the press of a medicine cap to your lips, and your eyes flutter open to catch a glimpse of blue eyes â so you do, swallowing it with water.Â
You fall into the arms of sleep again, only waking to your head slightly aching, and a distinct void in your stomach. You reach around blindly for your phone, and find that itâs still Sunday, nearly the evening. Your eyes adjust as your gaze spots the last glimmers of the sunset in the window.Â
How long have you slept? Like four hours? You sighed, slumping back into bed, as you stretched. Your fingers pressed to your forehead, still a slight fever, but it was definitely lower. Maybe you could sleep for a bit longer, and you turn on your side only to find a familiar, not-so familiar sight. Your lips canât help but curl a little. Again there is someone in your room, but instead as your eyes flutter open you see that Satoru has dozed off.
You hold back a chuckle, as you slowly get up, drawing a little closer. His head was against the wall, slightly tilted, soft breaths leaving his lips, arms crossed. He had a prescription medicine next to him along with a water bottle. Your fingers reach for the medicine, and you glance it over â seeing that it was prescribed earlier today for you.Â
Your brows knit together, when did youâand then it comes back to you slowly â the lights, the sound of wind and cars â he drove you to a hospital. And his shoulder starts to slipÂ
And then you reach for him, trying to make sure he didnât hurt himself.Â
Thatâs when he grabs you â his eyes fly open, as he grabs you by the wrist, pulling you close, his hard topaz gaze cuts through you, until it slowly fills with recognition. His fingers digging into your wrist loosen ever so slightly, as he blinks.Â
âSorry about that, sweetheart,â but his fingers donât leave your wrist, âare you feeling better?âÂ
âI am,â you admit, as his other hand reaches up to brush against your forehead and then neck, sending hest crawling up your skin for a different reason.Â
âLooks like the medicine worked,â he sighs, leaning back, âguess I can scratch beating up that doctor off my list,â and you furrow your brow, âit was a joke, Princess,âÂ
âWhy did you take me?â You asked and he tilted his head, âI mean you could have had me looked at here, so why did youââÂ
âAs much as my father pays for these services, they donât work weekends, usually â we do have an on-call physician, but,â he shrugs, as his thumb brushed back and forth against your wrist, right where your pulse was, âI didnât want to wait,âÂ
And your eyes slide to the bandages around his head, âbut you couldnât get that checked out?âÂ
âWorried about me? Iâm touched, Princess,â and your fingers reach for the bandages and brush against his locks, âhey, youââÂ
âItâs coming loose,â you lean over and slide your hands until you find where itâs coming undone and tie it tighter, fingers brushing against his soft locks â noting the undercut you hadnât noticed before, âthere,âÂ
âThank you,â he murmurs, as your eyes meet his and your breath catches, your face an inch or two from his. And he looks different in the dark of the room, illuminated by the last vestiges of sun that were quickly fading into the night â softer.Â
âWhy did you take care of me?â And he blinks a moment, taken aback and he tilts his head, âsomeone else could haveââÂ
âI wanted to,â he cuts you off gently, âwhy would I let someone else do it when I could? It was the least I could do,â and it was your turn to tilt your head, as he adds in a whisper, âI let you get hurt. I should have sent you home,âÂ
âIf you had tried, I would have stayed anyway,â and he chuckles.Â
âI know,â he murmurs, âand I know what itâs like to tough through things as if youâre invincible â as if nothing can touch you â and itâs only a matter of time until it does,â and your fingers brush against the bandages on his head, as you dare closer, less than a breath away.Â
âMaybe I should make you take your own advice,â you whisper, and his lips quirk upwards in a smirk.Â
âIâd love to see you try, Princess,â he adds with a grin, âyou know Iâd love to submit to you anytiââÂ
And you swallow the rest of his sentence with your lips, a chaste brush that leaves your entire body burning for more â a spark to kindling that you told yourself you wouldnât start. But, your lips part his to see his soft gaze meeting your own, before finding your lips again, how could you not?Â
âIâm going to get you sick,â you manage between kisses, lips meeting and parting, as he chuckles against you, a vibration sending a shiver that definitely wasnât from your fever.
âYouâre worth it, Princess,â but he kisses you one last time, noses brushing, before your stomach rumbles loudly in the relative silence of both of your soft pants. You flush, and he canât hold back his laugh, as you smack his shoulder. Â
âShut up, I havenât eaten since breakfast, thanks to someone,â and heâs still laughing as you try to smack him again, but he catches you by the wrist.Â
âDonât forget, I really like it when you punish me,â his lips press to your wrist, your breath catching for a moment before you hit him again on the chest regardless. And he laughs, leaning on his hand, âoh what will I do with you, sweetheart?âÂ
You scowl at him, rolling your eyes, âYou can start by getting me dinner,â you grumble, and he repents, getting to his feet, âSatoru?â And he pauses, eyes flickering back, âthank you,â you manage, biting your lip all the whole, unable to meet his eyes or see the smile on his lips.Â
âAnytime, Princess.âÂ
~~~~
You hadnât seen Suguru or Satoru all week.Â
Once a sought after rarity l, but now a foreboding concern. Satoru had been away on business â you didnât care to know what, but you knew heâd come back only more clingy than ever. You chewed on your lip â especially after the kiss.Â
Fuck. You kissed Satoru, you buried your face in your hands, what the fuck were you doing? Could you use the excuse that your fever had rendered you momentarily insane? No, Satoru would only crack a joke saying that heâs crazy for you too.Â
What was your plan? You were only trying to bide your time for a year â not become further entangledÂ
You lay back on your bed, as you scroll through your phone â but Suguru was a different story. You heard from Satoru that he had returned. Yet now there was some random yakuza checking in each hour â and even worse, keeping you confined to the compound.Â
And a small part of you did worry for them as you tossed your phone aside â those fools may have death wishes but that didnât mean you wished the same.Â
You leave your room, sighing as you explore the compound. You had done your fair share of exploring, but you had never wandered into Suguru or Satoruâs quarters. You had been told by each of them where their rooms were, only for you to glare at them for providing you the implication. But nowâŠmaybe it was useful.Â
You walked through the halls â seemed like most people were away at the moment. When Satoru had captured those people who had attacked you both, there was information learned about who was targeting you and of where that girl who was taken could possibly be. But itâs not like you were able to find that information out â unless you went looking yourself.Â
Satoru and Suguruâs rooms were close to each otherâs â but Satoruâs room was locked, as you tugged at the door to no avail. You glared at the handle as if it was the white haired idiot itself, before turning to Suguruâs door.Â
You pressed your ear to the door, it was silent, not a single noise inside. You pull at the door and it opens. You step inside â the room is neat, a desk in the corner, along with a bed on the opposite side, but not much else. There were a few other things â a dresser with a few containers tucked beside it and a small bookcase against the wall near the desk lined with books on each shelf.Â
It wasnât what you expected â though you didnât know what to expect. You stepped into the room, glancing around, as you approached the desk first. You rifle through the papers, finding nothing relevant â only papers from class and a few scattered notes that had nothing but addresses and initials scribbled.Â
And then the door opens, you freeze, before you slowly turn to see Suguru, his clothes tattered, blood dripping from his arms and soaked through his white button up. His gaze is dark and heavy, until he finds your eyes, his brow wrinkled.Â
âWhat are you doing?â no âsweetheartâ or âPrincessâ â just a question.Â
âI was lookingââ but you bite your lips, as you watch his shoulders slump, âwhat happenedââÂ
And he draws closer, as you slowly take steps back, until heâs looming over you, his arm pressed above you, âPrincess, you shouldnât get involved in these things, unless you want to end up like this,â and the smell of death rolls off of him, the heaviness of his gaze could drag you down to the depths of hell â but you didnât care.Â
âSit down,â and he blinks, before youâre pressing him onto the bed, âIâm going to get a first aid kit and some bandages,âÂ
âSweetheartââ but youâre already out of the room, returning with a first aid kit and bandages, âwhere did youââÂ
âWell after that first time Satoru and I got jumped by those people, I figured it would be good to stock up on things,â you pull out scissors and tape, and you dampen a washcloth you had stored in the kit with a water bottle you had grabbed. âTake off your shirt,â he hesitates, âgetting shy?âÂ
Suguruâs lips curl, before he sighs, unbuttoning his shirt, âYou know I rather you hurt me than take care of me,â and you scoff, as you busy yourself with preparing the materials to tend to him.Â
âWell it looks like someone else already did that for you,â and your eyes meet with his bare chest, the red and black ink of his tattoos encroached onto his shoulders, but more than that â bruises bloomed on different parts of his body, scars from old wounds of various ages littered his skin, and dried and fresh scarlet clung to his skin from fresh cuts.Â
You take the washcloth, slowly starting to run it over his body, the white cloth marred with his blood, he doesnât flinch even as it cleans his cuts or wounds. Â
âWhy are you doing this?â And your eyes meet his, his amethyst eyes cut through you.Â
âBecause youâre hurt,âÂ
âJust because Iâm hurt doesnât mean you have to help,â you sigh, as you urge him to turn so you can clean his back next, the sight of his tattoo on his back unsurprising now as you continue to clean it.Â
âDoesnât mean you donât have to either,â he gives a soft chuckle, âwhatâs your goal here sweetheart?â You urge him to turn again, as you begin to clean the blood from his arms.Â
âDo I need to have a goal?â And he turns to face you, leaning even closer, as his black locks fall in his eyes.Â
âEveryone has one â didnât you have one for coming in here?â And your hesitation is all the answers he needs, âcurious about whatâs going on with those people after you, huh?âÂ
There wasnât any use lying now, âWouldnât you be?âÂ
âI would be, but I wouldnât get caught, now would I?â and you scoff, as his lips curl, âwe have been tracking the group that we suspect has the heiress, and we have been interrogating the people that you and Satoru secured,â âsecuredâ â more like nearly murdered by the way Satoru acted.Â
âAnd where were you?âÂ
He sighed, âDealing with some loose ends â and some other business that my father had me deal with,â and he adds, âI had to make sure a message got out â so no one would ever attack you like that again,â
And why does your heart squeeze at the thought, âWhy are you so willing to tell me?â And your hands begin to clean and wipe his palms. And you set the washcloth down, beginning to bandage some of the larger cuts and wounds, and his fingers intertwined with yours, as you glance up.Â
âBecause you deserve the truth,â he shrugs, âand even if I lie, youâll figure it out, so why not tell you to begin with?â And he leans even closer, fingers skimming your cheek, âplus I donât keep secrets from my future wife,âÂ
âIâm not marrying you,â but you donât pull away, as heâs even closer now.Â
âWell, you said never before â and Iâve worn you down to a ânotâ â itâs only a matter of time,â and his words make you want you to pull away, to scoff at his words and leave, but you donât.Â
Why canât you?Â
âAnd I thought Satoru was the one full of himselfââ and his lips find yours, his kiss was more insistent, his fingers find your jaw, featherlight before it finds purchase on the back of your neck. You could taste the faint taste of blood, lingering on his lips,Â
âAnd you also thought Satoru was a good kisser,â he smirks, as his lips ghost down your jaw, nose brushing against your cheek, as you pause â how did heâ âwell now you know what a good kisser is actually like,âÂ
Your eyebrows knit together, âGetoââÂ
âSuguru,â he corrects you, he tilts his head, his thumb cupping your chin, and your lips find the otherâs, his forehead pressed to yours. Then his phone rings, and the momentâs broken. He pulls away just as fast, as he turns to answer his phone, âHello?â he listens, a manâs voice on the other end, âI understand, okay.â and the call ends, as he offers a smile to you, âI have to deal with some business, but Iâll be back later. And then it looks like Iâll be your escort while Satoru is away.âÂ
âWhat businessââ but heâs brushing past you, going to his wardrobe to grab a fresh shirt, buttoning it swiftly, before pulling on another jacket, as he turns to glance at you over his shoulder.Â
âYou know better than to ask me that,â
âBut you said you would be honest,â and he shrugs his shoulders, a smirk on his lips, as he heads out of the room.Â
âI didnât say when.âÂ
~~~~
âWe have to tell her,â Satoru stood, hands in his pockets, leaning against the wall of the compound. Suguru clicks his lighter again, flicking it on and off â he had quit a few months ago when you had told him that you hated the smell. And he didnât miss it, but he still carried the lighter â old habits die hard, âthe pictures we got â they are getting better at tracking her without us noticing. And these other fires weâre being sent out to deal with â itâs leaving us with less time to protect her,â
âDo you have to?â Suguru asked, flicking his lighter closer, the silver outside glinting in the low light of the moon, âisnât it safer for her to stay in the dark for now?âÂ
âStaying in the dark doesnât mean she wonât put herself in danger one way or another without us knowing,â Satoru shrugs, âshe said even if I had sent her home that day that those men were after her, she would have came after me,âÂ
Suguru gives a terse chuckle, âI donât doubt that she would,â he sighs, gaze towards the inky darkness of the sky, dotted with faint stars that he couldnât see but knew were there â just as these threats were, âif she found out that her grandfather was threatened too? Thereâs no way she would wait,âÂ
âSo what do we do?â Satoru scratched the back of his head, âwe could send her back home â she might be safer there than here,âÂ
âHer grandfather told usââÂ
âI know, but what choice do we have, Suguru?â he sighs, and Suguru canât help but quirk his lips.Â
âYou know if we do this, we may have to fight her grandfather to stay engaged with her,â And Satoru smiles, shrugging.Â
âI know, but we can handle it, canât we?â Satoru leans back, âweâll just have to fight him on it. Why? Are you afraid?â Â
Suguru gives a short chuckle, âSince when have you known me to be afraid of anything?â And he turns his gaze towards the door, âso when should we tell her?âÂ
But they donât notice that youâre pressed against the door, your fists clenched. And they were right about one thing â you wouldnât wait.Â
~~~~
CRACK!Â
Fuck, your eyes burned as you tried to open them, the sharp pain in the back of your head radiating all over, as your eyelids refused to open. What happened? You tried to hold your head, only to have your wrists strain against something rough â rope? The fibers dig into your wrists as you try to stand, only to find them bound to something else.Â
âFinally awake?â it was a womanâs voice â and your eyes still canât quite open â fuck, this wasnât part of your plan, âtake your time, they said they wanted you in pristine condition so I canât have you falling apart on me later on,â she scoffs, her footsteps receding away, and you could hear the quiet murmurs of other voices â men, by the baritone.Â
Your eyes burned as you adjusted to opening them, still fighting the urge to flutter them shut under the pain. The dim light swung overhead, a warehouse from the bare floors and even barer walls and ceilings overhead, barely illuminated in the flickering exposed lightbulbs hanging over the middle of the room.Â
âWhere am I?â You choked out, voice wavering in a way that made you want to grit your teeth and chide yourself for the fear that seeped into your words.Â
The quiet click of heels came closer, âDonât recognize me? Well I suppose you never did see my face in person,â and you knit your brows together as she stepped closer, leaning in far too near for your comfort, âI should thank you for your efforts in trying to find out what happened to me. It made it far easier to kidnap you,âÂ
Her hazel eyes were even more startling in person.Â
âThe Akawaza heiress,â you stare at her â her hair had grown a little past her shoulders now, ends slightly curling at them, âI thoughtââÂ
âI was missing? I was,â her lips curled, running her sharp lacquered nails through her black locks, âbut it was my choice,â the screech of chair legs scraping against the floor makes you flinch ever so slightly, as she sits in front of you, her legs crossed, âIâm being rude â how is your grandfather?âÂ
âFuck off,â you spit, and she clicks her tongue.Â
âAnd here I thought you had manners, but I suppose the cityâs changed you, little princess?â she hums, leaning back, wood of the chair creaking as she did, âor maybe your boyfriends did,â you say nothing, scoffing, as she sighs, âor knowing your grandfather, you probably didnât have any to begin with,âÂ
Rage fills your veins, lava bursting from them as the venom leaves your lips, âDonât talk about my grandfather like thatââÂ
âWhy shouldnât I? You never cared for the yakuza before, right? Is your grandfather not included in that equation? Or maybe it was because he kept what he did behind closed doors, and never bothered to tell you the truth,â and youâre not fast enough to stop your brow from furrowing, and she latches onto it, âOh he didnât tell you, did he?âÂ
âYou really love the sound of your own voice, donât you?â you murmur, and she laughs at your remark, her nails clicking against the forearm of the chair â lacquer on wood that began to grate on your nerves, âcan you get to the point of all this shit? Why the fuck am I here?âÂ
âBecause your grandfather is picking and choosing who he favors â and so I decided to take his heart, and Iâll only give her back if he gives me what I want â â and then you see the way her lips curl and her jaw is cut, and it occurs to you.Â
Your grandfather had said he was a heartbreaker.Â
âYouâre his granddaughter,â and she smirks, her nails falling still.Â
âDo you see the family resemblance?â she leans against her hand, elbow against the arm of her chair, âit would be nice to meet you â if I didnât have to possibly kill you,âÂ
âSo you want to be the heiress? I never wanted to be one in the first placeââÂ
âDo you think that matters?â she scoffs, âwhat matters is the choice your grandfather makes â and heâs chosen you â with no regard for the other children he has had,â her gaze falls downward, âdo you know what it is like to watch your mother vye for the approval of someone who never truly cared for her in the first place?âÂ
Your gaze falls downward, âI donât know,â you admit, âbut is all this worth this? What do you think he will even do for me?âÂ
âHeâll meet my demands, and each hour he doesnât, heâll get another finger of yours,â she pulls a knife out, the blade glinting in the dim light, as she rises to her feet, your body straining back as she draws close to you, running the flat of the blade down your cheek, âshould I start with your left hand or right?â she pulls the blade back, and you smile, âwhatââÂ
And you lean your head back and smash your head against her own. The crack of your skulls colliding rung in your ears, along with the knife clattering to the ground, as you felt warm droplets ran down your face, and she stumbles back, clutching at her forehead, scarlet staining her face and fingers, âItâs funny you think that I came to you without a plan â how do you think I found you?âÂ
âIt wasnât on her own,â and a hand on her shoulder, before sheâs pinned to the floor. Satoruâs eyes slide to you, a smile on his lips, as sheâs struggling, trying to look for her men, âlooking for your goons? Suguru has taken care of them by now, unless he needs my help,âÂ
âAkari isnât the only one who likes to hear herself talk,â Suguru runs his fingers through his hair, âSatoru, you havenât even untied her,â his footsteps echoing as he approaches you, bending down to pick up Akariâs knife.Â
âA little busy at the moment, Suguru,â Gojo has Akari pinned with one hand, âunless youâd like her to get away,â and Suguru shrugs, as he slips the knife under your restraints and cuts them off, âare you doing alright, sweetheart?âÂ
âIâm fine, just my headâs aching,â and Suguru pulls a cloth from his pocket, wiping the blood from your face, your eyes closing and nose wrinkling as he does, âdid you call my grandfather?âÂ
âYeah, I donât have a death wish,â Satoru replies as he hauls Akari up and hands her off to his associate to take her.Â
You get to shaky feet, âHold on,â you walk over, grabbing Akari by the front of her blouse, silk wrinkling under your grasp, âfuck with me or my family again, and I wonât be so lenient,â you shove her off, and then you add, âbut Iâll talk to my grandfather about some sort of possible arrangement for your mother,âÂ
And then you wave the yakuza off and they take her away â assuredly to Kyoto to be dealt with by her grandfather.Â
âAre you really going to talk to your grandfather about her?â Suguru asks, raising an eyebrow.Â
âItâs the least he could do since he caused me to be targeted,â you grumble, rubbing your wrists, as Satoru takes his suit coat off and places it around your shoulders, before a smirk pulls at your lips.Â
Suguru tilts his head, smiling, âWell, how would he feel if he knew you got kidnapped on purpose?â And you shrug.Â
âHe doesnât need to know that.âÂ
~~~
âIâm surprised you guys agreed to my plan,â you hiss as Satoru takes a damp cloth to clean the dried blood from your face, while Suguru is knelt, bandaging your ankles â their rough and bruised hands somehow still gentle, âI thought you would never let me wander into danger,âÂ
âWell, we knew we had to do something when we realized you were listening to us, didnât we, Princess?â Satoru snorted, and you could hear the smile gracing his features â even with your eyes shut â âand this was the best way to ensure you werenât hurt,âÂ
âRelatively,â Suguru adds, as he finishes bandaging one ankle, âdid she do anything else to you?âÂ
And Satoruâs hand pauses as they both wait for your answer, and you shake your head, âNo,â and Satoru pulls the washcloth away, your eyes fluttering open to meet two skeptical gazes, âreally, Iâm fine,â your lips curl after the two of them look away, Satoru turning to grab a bag of ice for your forehead, while Suguru busied himself with bandaging your other ankle, âis this threat the reason my grandfather sent me to Tokyo?âÂ
The timing had lined up â Akari had started the threats not a few months before â after she had reached legal age, the perfect age to contend for the position of successor to her grandfather. And by sending you here, your grandfather thought he was putting you out of immediate danger â but he didnât know Akari would make her way to Tokyo.Â
âI would be safe protected twofold by two of the biggest familiesââ and you blink, pulling the ice pack away from your face, âthe engagements â thatâs why they were leaked â it was to protect me,â you mumble, âso that meansââÂ
âYou can go home if you want, Princess,â Suguru says, looking up at you, expression as inscrutable as it always was, âthe engagements were only pretense,âÂ
âYou both knew?â And Satoru sighs, scratching the back of his head, and why does it feel as if his nails are carving out a piece of your heart.Â
âThe old coot swore us to secrecy, we didnât haveââÂ
âBut, everything, the two of youâŠthe engagementâitâs over,â you say slowly, gaze falling downward. You should be happy, relieved, thrilled â you could go home, what you wanted to do from the start. You could get your own apartment or transfer to a different universityâand leave this behind, a bad dream washed away by the events of a new day. So why?Â
Why did it hurt?Â
âDonât tell me youâll actually miss us, sweetheart?â Satoru teased, a force more than anything â bittersweet worded coated in a sugary sarcasm, âbecause I very well may propose here and now,âÂ
You almost scoff, but Suguru beats you to it.Â
âA proposal now? Seems like finishing early isnât what you just do in bed, Satoru,â Suguru scoffs, as Satoru shoots a glare over his sunglasses, âsheâs only eager to get home now isnât she? "If she isnât so eager,â he adds, âthen she would stop the one she wants from leaving her room, wouldnât she?âÂ
And Suguru is slowly getting to his feet, while Satoru also turns to leave â and you donât thinkâbut you were sure that you truly hadnât thought a single sane thought since you had arrived in Tokyoâ
You grab at the fabric of both their shirts, fingers clutching at it, as your lips curled when they glanced back at you.Â
âWho said either of you could leave?â
~~~
âYouâre going to have to use your words,â you murmured, fingers ghosting Satoruâs jaw, a delightful shiver parting his lips as you smiled at him, sat spread at the edge of your bed, âwhat do you want?â You stepped closer, between his legs, daring even closer.Â
âSweetheart, you know what Iââ and a low groan leaves his throat as your fingers slide to the nape of his neck to tug at his snowy locks, âpleaseââÂ
âI know you love this,â you murmur, leaning to press a kiss to his throat, smiling against his skin, âyou said you wanted me to hurt you, so it looks like youâre getting your wish,â your eyes slide to the other, sat in a chair, âI know you like to watch, Suguru, so you must be enjoying yourself,â and youâre further unbuttoning Satoruâs shirt all the same â crisp white button up definitely creased and wrinkled as it fell open, tugged out from his slacks.Â
Suguruâs fingers flexed against the grain of the wood of the armrests, his muscles taut, his lips a tight line that only matched the fabric of his slacks straining against his erection. The corner of his mouth twitches, and you smirk.Â
âI didnât hear an answer, Suguru,â and youâre placing another kiss on Satoruâs neck, a whine leaving his throat, while your eyes find Suguruâs amethyst gaze darkened to nearly black, his knuckles white against the wood, as you lean down to lick a stripe up Satoruâs neck, who bites his bottom lip.Â
âIâd enjoy it even more if I could touch you, or me,â Suguru adds through gritted teeth, âPrincessââÂ
And you click your tongue, âYou had such patience when you were watching me sleep â so whereâs that patience now?â Your fingers graze Satoruâs erection through his slacks, and his head is falling back, as Suguru shifts in his seat, not so subtly adjusting himself.Â
You undo Satoruâs belt, unbuckling it with ease, as his cock slaps against his stomach, and you didnât know it was possible for a dick to be pretty, but Satoruâs was â a deep flush settled over it, pearly beads of precum dripping from the ruby tip. And a distinct heat begins to throb between your thighs.Â
âYou can touch yourself,â you tell Suguru, his legs twitching to get up, âbut you canât cum until I tell you can,â you run a finger up Satoruâs cock, teasing the weeping tip, a groan leaving the snowy haired manâs lips, âstrip, Suguru,âÂ
And he does, you hear the click of his belt, the sound of fabric rustling, as your fingers tease the slit of Satoruâs cock, gathering precum on your fingers, drawing a grunt from his lips. You can hear the distinct sound of Suguru spitting in his palm, his hand beginning to work at his own cock.Â
âBoth sâgood for me,â you murmur, as you stroke Satoruâs cock in earnest, the quiet moans from both their mouths sending a ribbon of need to your already dripping cunt, âcanât wait to fuck you both, make you my toys,â and youâre pressing a kiss to Satoruâs tip, his pretty, pink lips parting, as his head rolls back again, âbut youâd both like that wouldnât you? Maybe I shouldnât let either of you cum, make you beg me all night,â as your tongue traces his lovely vein up the side of his cock, âwhat do you think, Toru?â And your mouth finally closes around his dick, sucking hard that draws a hiss from his lips, fingers fisted in the sheets.Â
And Suguru isnât doing much better, the sounds of his hand squelching and the moans leaving his lips growing louder and louder.Â
âPlease, Princess, Iâm close, I canâtââ and you click your tongue, a pout on your lips, as you pull away your touch, âbaby, IââÂ
âCanât let either of you cum so fast,â your eyes slide to Suguru, his cheeks flushed a lovely pink that reaches even his ears, as his hand slows, his cock twitching in his fingers, âgotta make you earn it. Itâs only right after all the shit you put me through right?âÂ
Itâs a cycle, a cycle of you bringing them both to the edge of orgasm, only to tell them to stop. Their sweat slicked brows wrinkled, as you worked them up once again and again and again â you had lost track of how many times.Â
âPlease, please, sweetheart,â and you knew you could get Satoru to beg, but you didnât think it would be this easy, and you let his dick brush against your throat, as you let him fuck your throat, hips jerking, âfuuuuck, I need toââÂ
And youâre pulling your lips from his cock with a pop, glancing at Suguru whose black locks are beginning to come loose from their neat bun, more of a mess now than he had been fighting yakuza earlier, and all because of you.Â
âSuguru? Wanna cum?â you ask, smirking as his gaze raises to meet yours, a desperate look that tells you everything you need to know, âbe a good boy and tell me,âÂ
He swallows, adamâs apple bobbing, as pre drips down his knuckles, âfuck, Princess,â heâs shaking his head, â I want to cum, please â I needââÂ
And your lips curl, âcum for me,â you murmur before youâre wrapping your lips around Satoru again, his tip brushing against your throat, sucking hard, his fingers finding purchase in your hair. And heâs cumming hard, his hot release slides down your throat, nails digging into your scalp, nearly never ending â even as you pull away, his cum paints your face and lips, and drips onto your clothes. His cerulean eyes glazed as he looked down at you between his legs, a string of spit and cum connecting you to his cock.Â
And Suguru was no better. He had cum hard all over his hand and the floor, his cock still somehow half hard, his body slumped back in the chair, as his chest heaved. His hair tie had long fallen away, his long black locks brushing against his shoulders.Â
You lick your lips clean of Satoruâs cum, wiping the rest away with the back of your hand, âMade such a mess,â you tsk, as you get to your feet, slipping off your shorts and shirt, before leaning down to kiss Satoru, and heâs still sensitive by the way he jolts against your touch, before melting into it, his tongue parted your lips with ease. And fuck, you hoped he couldnât see how wet you were â nearly dripping down your thighs at this point.Â
And youâre pulling away, your thumb dragging down his lips, as his teeth try to catch the finger between them, but youâre too quick. You turn, a smile on your lips, you make your way over to Suguru.Â
Youâre wiping up the mess on the floor with your shirt before kneeling, âmade such a mess, Sugu,â and heâs staring at you through half lidded eyes, his fingers brushing your cheek, âdid I say you could touch me?âÂ
âYou never said I couldnât,â he murmurs, and god, his voice is far gone, raw and nearly guttural, as his fingers found purchase in your hair, âand I think I earned it after your little performanceââ and he hisses when you lean in, tip of your tongue teasing his slit and licking the dripping cum off his half hard cock, âfuckââÂ
âNot yet,â you smiled, as you started to lick his cock clean of his cum, âbut maybe if youâre good,â he grunts as you sink is cock into your mouth, tongue swirling around his length, licking and sucking â and fuck, he was already twitching in your mouth.Â
And then heâs easing you off his dick with a tug of your hair, and youâre glancing up at him, a question on the tip of your tongue, but heâs swallowing it with a kiss, as his hands slip down your body to haul you nearly into his lap. Calloused palms find their way to your hips, squeezing lightly, as he pulls away, cupping your chin with his thumb.Â
âSuguruââ and you yelp as he picks you up with ease, placing you in Satoruâs lap whose hands wind their way around your waist, his fingers already beginning to tease your hardened buds through your bra, a gasp leaving your lips, as Suguru placed his on your neck with a smirk as he murmurs:
 âLet me show you how good we can be, sweetheart.âÂ
~~~~
âTell us what you want, princess,â Satoru murmured in your ear, his warm breath doing nothing to help the needy heat between your thighs, the one that Suguru was knelt between, his large palms spreading you before him, âis she as wet as I think, Suguru?âÂ
And Suguru catches your gaze, a wicked smile on his lips as he replies, âWetter, sheâs a mess, arenât you?â you bite your lip to stop a whimper from leaving your lips as his fingers graze the growing wet patch on your panties. And your squirming only makes Satoru grunt, his erection pressed against you, the friction doing little to help either of you.Â
âFuckers,â and Satoru clicks his tongue, a smile on his lips as he turns your head.Â
âThink I have a better use for that mouth of yours, sweetheart,â and his lips find yours, right as Suguru toys with the elastic of your panties, snapping it against your skin, Satoru swallows the small noise that escapes your lips, his tongue slipping into your mouth as it does.Â
And god, you already canât even think straight.Â
Satoruâs fingers are pushing up your bra, teasing your nipples, as Suguru pressing a kiss to your dripping cunt through your soaked underwear.Â
âSo pretty,â Suguru murmurs, and Satoruâs lips part from yours, gaze darkening as he drags his thumb down your kiss ruined lips, and he tugs your drenched panties down, âand your cunt is even prettier, isnât it princess?âÂ
And you were â your gorgeous pussy was glossy with your pre, dripping all over his fingers when he parts your messy folds, âBet sheâs even tighter, isnât she?â Satoru murmurs, as his dick twitches against your ass, â
You whine as his words warm your aching pussy, your eyes flickering downwards, as Suguruâs lips graze your inner thigh, and you already know Satoruâs pouting.Â
âYouâre taking your goddamn time, Suguru, when do I get my chance?â He grumbles, nose brushing against your neck, as you canât help but chuckle.Â
âYou got your turn, and now itâs time for you to watch,â and your giggle turns to a soft gasp when his lips press a kiss to your clit, âand sweetheart, canât wait to see how youâll punish me for this later â because Iâm not stopping until you beg me to,â
Your lips part with a reply, but he pulls a moan from your lips instead as his tongue drags up the length of your weeping entrance. God, fuck, how did you taste this good? His tongue flicked against your puffy clit, drawing lazy circles, your slick already drenching his chin and lips.Â
âSo fucking good, baby, sâgood fâme,â and your fingers are threading their way into his dark locks, pulling him even closer, his lips closing around your clit to suck, âcould live in this pretty cunt,â he grunts, the tip of his tongue teasing your entrance.Â
Your head falls against Satoruâs shoulders, a groan fell from his lips as his cock dragged against your ass, your slick drenching his thighs and cock alike, âcanât wait to sink my cock into you, fuck,â Satoru murmurs, the wet squelch of your cunt rang in his ears, and he could imagine how wet and warm youâd be once he sunk into you, inch by inch.Â
And he couldnât wait â he needed to do something.Â
Satoruâs fingers found their way down your body, tweaking your nipple before one large palm dragged slowly down your front, until he found your clit right above Suguruâs face.Â
âToru,â you gasp, as his fingers pinch your clit and Suguru glares, pulling his lips away for a moment, only to sink a finger back in insteas, drawing a moan from your lips, âSuguâfuckââÂ
And itâs too much, one more touch and youâre cumming, body falling back into Satoru, as Suguru fucks you through your orgasm. Your release runs down their fingers, as Satoru lifts his hand a moment to lick his fingers clean.Â
God, youâre too pretty for your own good, Satoruâs eyes drag over you â your kiss ruined lips, skin shiny from your sweat, and the way your eyes were lost in an endless pool of lust.Â
âSuguru was right, youâre the sweetest thing Iâve ever tasted,â Satoru grin, gently turning your head, and youâre panting, nose wrinkling ever so slightly at his words, and he tuts, âdonât believe me? Well I can fix that,â and his lips find yours again, letting you taste yourself, swallowing your moans, as Suguru continued to finger fuck you.Â
Suguruâs finger stretches you open, fluttering, knuckle deep, as your precum drips down his fingers.Â
âRemember whoâs fucking this cunt, sweetheart,â and Suguru is, another finger parting your needy folds, and between Satoru rubbing your clit and Suguruâs fingers curling to find that one spot, drags against your insides, âfuck, how are we going to fit, Satoru? Sheâs still so tight,â Suguru grunts.Â
You pull your lips from Satoruâs, a whine leaving your lips, âMore, please, I needââ and a third finger joins the other two â but itâs not Suguruâs.Â
âFuck, youâre so fucking soft,â Satoru groans, pressing soft kisses to your skin, only serving to make you keen at their touch, and your walls flutter around their fingers.Â
âFuck, weâre trying to fuck her open and she just keeps getting tighter,â Suguru grunts, while Satoruâs lips find your earlobe, sucking, just as he adds another finger, a moan escaping your lips again.Â
Suguruâs fingers fuck at a steady pace, fucking deeper and deeper, while Satoruâs are faster, pistoning in and out while dragging against your walls â and itâs not long until they are working you up to a second orgasm, itâs too fucking good â and they both find that spot in you that has you seeing stars.Â
âIâm gânnaââ and Satoru finds your lips in a sloppy kiss, saliva slipping from the corner of your mouth. And you cum, even harder, your swollen folds clamping down on their fingers as they continue to fuck you unendingly through your orgasm. Your lips pull away, only to moan their names, again and again, until they finally slow down.Â
âGood girl,â Suguru murmurs, pressing sweet kisses to your thighs, while you come down from your high, walls flutter around nothing at the praise, while Satoru nips at your neck right above your racing pulse. And your eyes find Suguru lazily palming his weeping erection, as you lift your bare foot to rub against it, making him hiss, while you rub against Satoru teasingly.Â
âDonât forget whoâs in control,â you kiss Satoru again, before biting his bottom lip, and heâs melting into your touch, âand, you were good,â your foot rubs against Suguruâs cock again, drawing another pretty groan from his lips, âbut now itâs time to be obedient.âÂ
And they are â as you have Satoru sit back against the pillow lined headboard, because if it was anything you knew now â Satoru loved to be controlled, while Suguru liked the illusion of control, even if he didnât have even a bit of it. So you have Suguru kneeling behind you, as you climb into Satoruâs lap, a small groan leaving his lips as your cunt grazes his hard cock.Â
âSuch a good boy, arenât you, Toru?â your fingers run through his hair â and god, his undercut was so fucking hot, as your fingers found his cock, letting the tip tease your soaked folds, as you line yourself up, âtell me what you want,âÂ
âFuck, princess, yâknow what I want,â and a whine leaves his throat when you let his tip sink into you, only to pull out.Â
âCome on, nothing else to say? You always love running that mouth, donât you? You wanted this, wanted me to ruin you, didnât you? Well here we are,â you hum, as you press a teasing kiss to the corner of his mouth, âbeg me,âÂ
And his dick twitches, painfully hard, and the words spill from his lips, âPlease, please, sweetheart, use me, use my cock as a toy, want you to fuck me so bad, make me yoursââ and youâre sinking onto his cock, his length parting your folds, as moans fall from both of your lips. And he bottoms out, your hips meeting his as you do, and you can feel every vein, every ridge, every inch notched inside your walls.Â
âToru, fuck, sâgood, sâbig,â it feels too fucking good, and heâs so long â god, he was brushing against places you never even dreamed of reaching. And your pussy clenched at the thought of how deep he would go when he would start thrusting.Â
âSure you have space for me, Princess?â Suguru leans back over to press kisses all over your face, before finding your lips in a heated kiss, âmight be too tight of a fit,â his nose brushing against your cheek.Â
âIâll make you fit,â you murmur against his lips, your hands against Satoruâs chest, as you shift to cup his chin, âget behind me, Sugu,âÂ
Suguru smirks, slipping behind you, pressing himself against your back, dragging his cock teasingly against you, âSo needy â youâre worse than Satoru,â and Satoru makes a noise of protest, but your walls flutter, making his back arch, âwant me inside you, sweetheart?â And his tip teases at your entrance, brushing against Satoruâs cock, causing all three of you to moan, âtell me how much you want us to fuck you, how much you want both of us inside you,âÂ
âFucker, I swear to god,â you turn your head, your glare undercut by the desperation on your face, âjust fuck meâÂ
And Suguru sinks into you, your head falling back against him, as both of their cocks stretch your cunt out. You were so fucking full. And the way your walls clenched around them was nearly enough to make them cum. Their groans come in unison.Â
âFuck, Princess, you donât have to break our dicks off â weâll fuck you again,â Suguru grunts, his rough palms sliding to your hips to squeeze them.Â
âSâgood, sweetheart, so fucking right for us,â and you canât think straight with the two of them inside of you, and youâre moaning.Â
âPlease, moveââ and they oblige, beginning to fuck you. You moved against Satoru, riding him as best you can, while Suguru fucked you from behind, his balls slapping against your ass.Â
Suguru drives into you at a steady pace, causing you to rock against Satoru, your hips pressed against his, as they both drive deeper and deeper into your wet cunt.Â
âSâgood, so pretty,â Suguru presses sweet kisses to your neck, while Satoruâs eyes flutter open to meet yours, âIâm close, SatoruââÂ
âMe too,â Satoru manages, and his hips begin to meet your thrusts, âyou gonna cum for us princess?â And he finds your gaze, the fucked out expression enough to nearly make him cum right there.Â
A whine leaves your lips, as they continue to fuck you, and you know youâre so close. And then they find that spot in you again, and youâre falling apart, lips parted in a moan, both their names on your lips. You clamp down on them, toes curling as you cum, and neither of them can last. Their hips stutter as they give sloppy thrusts, until they both cum,Â
They groan your name as they spurt their thick cum inside, notching themselves as deep as they could, continuing to fuck their cum inside you with messy thrusts.Â
A whimper escapes your lips between pants, as your arms and legs shake from your position, utterly fucked out. You three stay like that for a moment, both of their sweet nothings they murmur to you falling on deaf ears.
And then finally they are shifting you onto the bed, pressing soft kisses to your face and neck, as your eyes flutter shut. Thereâs shifting on the bed, as one of them leaves for a moment, and you make a noise, only to be reassured that heâll be right back.Â
Your eyes finally flutter open to find Satoru and Suguru cleaning you up with a wet washcloth, and your gaze finds both of their own. Your lips curl at the sight of them, their gentle gaze enough to make your heart ache.Â
âCome back,â you whine, and they both chuckle, as they begin to finish drying you off, before tossing the washcloth into the wastebasket, and crawling back beside you. They help you pull a shirt on, before settling in.Â
âSo needy,â Satoru murmurs, pressing a kiss to your forehead, even as he buries his face in your chest, his warm breath tickling you as you run your fingers softly through his white locks. And Suguru presses himself to your back, pressing a soft kiss to your neck, his arm around your waist, and yours resting on top of his.Â
âWhat will we do with her?â Suguru mutters, and you can hear the smirk in his tone.Â
âShut up,â you mumble, your eyes beginning to feel heavy, as you give into the warmth that enveloped you from their bodies, as it lulled you to sleep. And your lips curled into a smile, a smile that had you wondering right before you slipped into sleepâ
When was it that you fell for them?Â
~~~~
You couldnât do this. Not to them.Â
Thatâs what you had decided come morning â waking up between entangled limbs and soft breaths against your skin â how could you? You felt Satoru shift closer to you, as you leaned into his touch, running your fingers through Suguruâs black locks. You were addicted to their touch only after one night, and now you had to spend the rest of your life without it.Â
It was the only way.Â
This whole thing was ridiculous to begin with â you never cared to be involved in the yakuza to begin with. You wanted a normal life â or at least as normal of a life you could have with who your grandfather was. You had never expected to end up wrapped up in all of this â and in both of them.Â
But you didnât know if you could choose between them â and you knew, you had to. It wasnât fair to either of them â not when they had asked you to choose last night and they had indulged you in both of them. And now, you didnât want to let either of them go.Â
So you had to let both of them go.Â
You shifted slowly to sit up, Your fingers traced Satoruâs cheek lightly, as you toyed with a strand of Suguruâs hair. They both still stayed fast asleep, quiet snores filling the silence of the early morning, deep in the embrace of sleep after the events of last night and the last few weeks. You didnât want to be someone like your grandfather â you didnât know what you wanted and that was enough of an answer wasnât it?
The two shift in their sleep, and your body grows heavy, your back still aching from last night, as you lie back down beside them, running your fingers over both of their arms.Â
Even if you had your answer, you didnât have to face it for another few hours. And their bodies shifted, Satoru burying his face in the nape of your neck, while you rested against Suguruâs chest. This was enough â enough to last you a lifetime, wasnât it? Your eyes fluttered shut, sinking slowly back to sleep. You had told your grandfather youâd break their hearts âÂ
âbut you didnât know you would be breaking yours as well.Â
~~~
âWhat do you mean sheâs gone?â Satoru narrowed his eyes, crossing his arms, as Suguru stepped aside to show the empty room you had left behind â a bare husk with nothing left behind, not even a note.Â
It had been a day.Â
When Satoru had woken up beside you, he could have sworn he was still dreaming, even as he grazed your skin gently with the back of his knuckles, he still couldnât quite believe it. And when he spotted Suguru pressing kisses to your cheek, he knew it was real.Â
âHow long have you been awake?â Satoru raised an eyebrow, âitâs not fair to have your fun while we were asleep,âÂ
And Suguru rolled his eyes, as he rubbed the back of his knuckles gently against her cheek, âI just woke up, and all I did was kiss her, you idiot,âÂ
âNot fair, that means I have to kiss her too,â Satoru murmurs, pressing gentle kisses to your forehead and cheek, and one even to your nose. Your nose wrinkles in your sleep, and Satoruâs lips quirk upwards, âsheâs so exhausted from last night still,âÂ
âShe is,â Suguru hums, as he tilts his head, âwhat are we going to do about last night?âÂ
Satoru pauses a moment to consider, âWell, what is there to discuss? She chose us both, didnât she?â Satoru leaned close to you, to press a kiss to your head.Â
âShe did,â Suguru props himself up with his elbow on his side, âI thought you werenât one to share,âÂ
And Satoru shrugged â he wasnât one to share, he wanted what was his to be his alone, but with you â the more people to protect you, the better, âIf itâs what makes her happy, I donât mind,â and he adds, âand I donât mind if itâs you that Iâm sharing with,âÂ
Suguru raises an eyebrow, a chuckle on his lips, âIs that so? Well, good,â as he runs a finger through your hair, âbecause I feel the same.âÂ
But Satoru supposed you didnât.Â
âWhen did sheââÂ
âMy father told me she contacted her grandfather this morning, and let them know she was leaving â and her single request was to send us away on business so we wouldnât be able to stop her,â and Satoru gives a bitter chuckle.Â
âSo thatâs it?â Satoru crosses his arms, âwhy did sheââ and he cuts himself off, âhave you tried to callââÂ
âIâm blocked, I assume you are too,â Suguru shook his head, a silence settling over the two of them that Satoru chose to break.Â
âDo we go after her?â And Suguru pauses, his brow wrinkling a moment, before he sighs, shaking his head.Â
âIf she comes back, it has to be her choice,â Suguru slid his hands into his pockets, âotherwise, weâre back to square one,â and he adds, âand I donât think I can go back after last night.âÂ
Suguru steps away, heading back down the hallway, and Satoru follows.Â
No, Satoru thinks, sparing one glance at the empty room, before pulling the door shut, neither could he.Â
~~~
âWhy did you come back?â You set another box down, wiping the sweat from your brow, your grandfather simply watching as you brought your things back into your room.Â
âWhat a warm welcome,â you scoff, as you head back out to pick up another â the other staff had offered to help, but you had waved them off, lifting another box, your back still aching â and now you were starting to regret it. But you knew if you didnât do something to distract yourself â your phone taunting you on the top of your desk â youâd do something youâd regret.Â
And youâd already filled your quota for the next six months at least.Â
âDonât get me wrong, kid,â the geezer sighed, as he watched you bring the last of the boxes in, âIâm glad youâre back and the matters are all settled â but,â he tilts his head, âyou seem more miserable than before,âÂ
âIâm just tired,â you reply, but his furrowed brow says heâs unconvinced, as you grab a box cutter and begin to open up the boxes, beginning to sort through your things, âand still trying to wrap my head around the fact you lied to me,âÂ
And he sighs, âthis isnât about me right now â itâs about youââÂ
âHow convenient,â you mutter under your breath.Â
âYouâre in love, arenât you?â And you canât help but freeze for a moment, until you force yourself to continue unpacking, pulling out some of your clothes from the box, âwhich one is it?âÂ
The question stabs between your ribs like a well thrust sword between the ribs, finding the center of the problem â along with your heart.Â
âGrampsââÂ
âSo itâs both of them?â and you whirl on him, your eyes narrowing, and he chuckles, holding up his hand, âI didnât spy â I just took a guess,â he sighed, as he pulled out your desk chair and took a seat in it, âand it looks like I was right,âÂ
You swallow, your eyes falling to the floor, âI didnât cheat, if thatâs whatââÂ
He laughs, âI know you arenât like me, little one,â he leans back in the chair, hands folded in his lap, âyou arenât one to lie â because I know thereâs more you hate than liars,â and his gaze grows a little sadder, âAnd Iâm sorry I had to become one of them,âÂ
You grit your teeth, âIâm not mad at you â Iâm justââ you choose your words carefully â because youâre angry, you were upset â upset that he felt as if he couldnât trust you, âwondering why you didnât tell me the truth,âÂ
He sighs, rubbing the back of his neck, âMy past isnât something Iâm proud of, and I wanted to deal with it without involving you,â he sighed, âafter everything with our family â I didnât want to give you another reason to distance yourself from me,âÂ
âLying to me isnât a better option than that,â he rubs the back of his head, âyou have to make it right for Akari and her mother â as well as if you have any other kidsâI donât need to know,â you add, when he opens his mouth, âit isnât fair to them,â and it would be no fairer to not choose between Satoru and Suguru.Â
âYouâre right,â he raises a brow, âis that the problem? You canât choose between the two of them, eh?â and your gaze refuses to meet his, âhave you talked to them about it?â and your silence serves as an answer, âthen I think you should take your own advice and talk to them about it,âÂ
âWhat will that do?â you murmur, âthey still will want me to chooseââÂ
âDo you know that for a fact?â he crosses his arms, âI think you owe it to them and to yourself to talk to them, and to your grandfather who canât stand to see you this miserable at home,âÂ
âDo you think it will change anything?â and he shrugs.Â
âMaybe it will or maybe it wonât,â he tilts his head, as he pulls out his phone to call you a car, âbut if itâs a chance for you to be happy, isnât it worth taking?âÂ
~~~~
âI want to marry you both,âÂ
And again, your statement is met with confused stares, as you had all but pulled up to their compound and entered to find them seated together discussing business in a side room â and their stares were still anything but average â but to you now, they meant so much more.Â
âNot marry you right now, but maybe eventually,â adrenaline was surely pumping through your system, right? Thatâs probably why your hands were shaking and your mouth was dry, but even so you knew you needed to say it before they spoke, âIâm sorry for leaving the way I did. I told myself after we first met I wouldnât be a coward, but I was when I ran away, and I donât have any excuse,â you swallowed, âbut I know what I want â and I want both of you, as selfish as that feels,â guilt crawled up your throat at the statement of that sentence, as if begging you to swallow the words that spilled from your lips back up, âand I donât know how either of you feel â but if we were to do this, I would want us to be honest andââÂ
And the screech of their chairs takes you aback, and you felt your cheeks burn, was this it?Â
But instead of brushing past you, they stand in front of you, one of them tilting your head upwards to meet their gazes.Â
âTook you long enough, sweetheart,â Satoruâs lips curled, his hand cupping your cheek, âI know we said we wanted you to hurt us, but not like that,â
âSent us away just to ghost us,â Suguru clicked his tongue, his fingers still under your chin, âIâll have to plant a tracker on you again,âÂ
You shake your head, âWait, what? Are you both okayââÂ
âWe did say weâd kill the other for your hand, but,â Suguru presses a kiss to your forehead, âBut now we realize the more eyes watching you, the better, and,â he shrugs, âwe donât mind sharing if itâs just with the other,âÂ
âAnd I know youâll prefer me sooner or later,â Satoru adds, earning a glare from Suguru, as you only chuckle, âSuguru is always so grumpyâow!â Suguru smacks on the back of the head, as the black haired yakuza wraps his arms around you, pressing your back to his front.Â
âAnd you are always too busy running your mouth,â Suguru replies, pressing a kiss to your cheek, âsure you can handle both of us in your life?â and you pull Satoru close too, letting his lips brush yours, before turning and pressing a kiss to Suguru.Â
âShouldnât you be asking yourselves that?â you say, as the two of them wrap an arm around you, âI am supposed to ruin your lives after all.âÂ
â§ a/n: so this has been a longtime coming. i was supposed to be working on prof geto (5) + my nanami celebration fic but this took over my life and wouldn't let go until i finished. so i hope you guys enjoy!! and this is my reminder why i don't write multi partner scenes like this often because its....difficult. thank you to @gaylatteart for reading and putting up with me <333
ê°Â satoru has been gone for three months thus far and youâre at the end of your rope with missing him. ê±Â
áŽáŽ ÉŽÉȘ. 5.2k. f!reader. no curses, idol au. fluff. angst. happy ending. est/semi-ldr. satoruâs a successful idol. sfw. reposted.
you know that this is his dream, but the loneliness youâre constantly left to face is becoming genuinely unbearable.
long distance dynamics are not at all for the faint of heart.
there are days when the video calls are all you long for, seeing his adorable face filling up the screen and smiling at you quite lovingly. then, there are days like today when, for a brief, fleeting moment, you consider breaking things off with the love of your life ê° and one of the most famous men in the world ê±, gojo satoru.
it starts with the fact that your friend gets married and you have to go to the wedding all alone because you donât have a date.
your date is busy traveling the world, entertaining the masses, making women everywhere fawn and fall head over heels in love with him.
the entirety of the event, you feel out of place with no one to dance with who isnât a very seedy family member of the wedding party or a friend of yours who came with their own date and canât act as your stand-in.
so you opt to sit at a table alone, drinking your weight in roscato, staring at an open text thread because satoru read your message telling him how hard this was getting for you eleven hours prior but never responds.
it hurts.
itâs the fact that you nearly always end up doing things like this alone. times and events where you would, can, or should bring a plus one and yours is actually able to attend with you is seldom. rarities. so painfully sporadic.
itâs too hard doing the thing of being in love without being able to do the things of being in love.
date nights out on the town? forget it, unless he takes you on an impromptu trip out of the country thatâs so unplanned thereâs no chance of you both being bombarded by the general public.
paris is gorgeous. rome is phenomenal. america is a dizziness of diversity. but who wants to constantly have to pack up to take a thirteen-hour flight or longer for a three-hour date? itâs unnecessarily inconvenient.
having a shoulder to cry on? not practical for his schedule. not practical for all the time zones that pack so tightly between you both that his mornings become your late evenings.
his downtime is the peak of your busyness. you can only seem to synchronize free time in passing.
nothing too long. nothing solid. nothing consistent. nothing secure.
nothing remotely reassuring.
for you, the foundation of the relationship is crumbling.
satoru travels the world with his friends, endlessly doted on by his adoring fans, seeing new sights and forging new moments to reminisce fondly over in the future.
but you? youâre stuck at home, stuck at your job that you hate so much and donât even need but have anyway because working a job you hate is somehow still better than sitting at home with little yuuji and missing the boisterous laughter of your lover strolling through the house for months on end.
agonizing ghosts of him singing frank sinatra in the hallway because he âloves the acoustics right thereâ taunting and haunting you, not comforting in the least.
everything is starting to always hurt.
12:22 am. you:Â i know youâre probably busy, but when you get time, we really, really need to talk about us.
teary-eyed and pouting, you stumble into your bedroom, a little yuuji trotting beside you as you drop your removed heels right at the entry of the bedroom door before slipping into the closet to undress.
satoru hates when you do it, leave your shoes lying about, but once again, heâs not here to gripe at you about it or even to ask you to pick them back up.
the house is always so empty and eerily quiet these days. everything always is. the house. the other side of the line when you do manage to get in touch with him. your heart. your willingness. the hope that keeps you in this for three years already. itâs all emptied out and vacant.
you just keep thinking about how this isnât how you want to spend your life: not having a date to events with your friends, only sleeping next to him for a quarter of the year in total, getting by on facetime calls and those two-week periods that heâs allowed to be completely free, coping with still having to share him in that time, and worst of all, getting left on read to a text telling him how hard this is becoming.
itâs becoming too much for you, and you know you need to tell him now or youâll stay by his side, buried under the weight of your resentment.
despite his routine absence, he doesnât deserve that.
satoruâs a wonderful man. the kindest one. the most earnest. the strongest. the most innocent.
satoru is a good man â a good man who deserves the truth about where missing him is forcing you to stand.
you text him again, the need to talk to him becoming borderline desperate.
12:26 am. you:Â i havenât heard your voice in two days. i havenât heard from you at all today. please. can you step away and call me for just a minute?
12:31 am. satoru:Â really busy right now baby. i was gonna text back as soon as we were done here. mâsorry. been on the move all day. weâll talk soon i promise. i know youâre having a hard time. iâm trying to get done asap so we can talk. please donât give up on me.
the last part of his text sends your tears spilling over your waterline. you find yourself sitting down on the floor of the closet in the beautiful gown he paid hundreds for just so you can attend a wedding alone.
just so you can be spoken for but live like youâre not because you always get left on your own. you donât want to give up on him. you donât want to throw away a whole three years of building even this small, fragment of a life together, but thisâŠthis is agonizing. youâre miserable. not with him, but with the distance between you whose presence feels more permanent and more familiar than satoruâs.
12:34 am. you: iâm lonely, satoru. i miss you. iâm not handling all of this well right now. iâm having doubts. serious doubts. i justâŠwe really have to talk, okay? i need you to make time for us to do that tonight.
12:40 am. satoru: babyâŠangelâŠare you about to leave me? because i wonât accept it. i wonât agree to you leaving me.
what does he mean he wonât accept it? you arenât aware that you both can simply protest or completely disregard the verbs the other wans to perform that you donât like, and why does he get to do so when heâs already left you?
12:41 am. satoru:Â you know youâre my angel, right? my everything? i love you so fucking much. i know the distance sucks right now, but weâve gone longer, yeah? itâs been worse but weâve made it every time, baby. please donât leave. not like this. give me time.
12:45 am. you:Â time? is three years not enough? what am i supposed to do? iâm tired of crying every single day. all day. all because i canât see you. i havenât spoken to you. you stopped telling me good morning everyday weeks ago so i donât even wake up to your affection. i canât get you to answer your phone. iâm just here. taking care of the house and yuuji while you live your greatest life without me by your side. you donât even need me.
that was the last text he was willing to exchange before he calls you. when you refuse to answer, he calls again. and again. and again.
1:18 am. satoru:Â answer the phone baby. letâs talk about this okay? love you so much. please pick up.
your stomach flips and you curse yourself because youâre in the starting stages of initiating the end of an era but youâre getting butterflies because he calls you baby, because he says he loves you, because he more than loves you.
how can you confidently leave a man who can be thousands of miles away yet still make you feel like this? youâre uncertain if youâre ready for right now and whatâs likely to occur or follow.
because you say the words and you realize upon sending them that you arenât angry. you arenât yelling at him. youâre just stating the truth. you mean it.
he doesnât need you.
the truth is youâre not a priority for him right now because you canât be.
you accepted it for all this time, but thinking about marriage and real life together, you donât know if you want to build a future with a man who cannot prioritize building a future with you.
this much is on you, on your indulgent heart who wanted to kow the taste of his adoration despite knowing the obstacles that come in tow.
you met him at a time when he was in the dead center of building a future for himself, and because of his job, you donât have the luxury of being part of it.
his company is vehemently against publicizing your relationship, especially now, especially when everything is so fragile and uncertain in the coming years, especially when satoru is just started inching towards his peak.
the craziest part of it all is that neither of you wants to âpublicize itâ with intention, but you want to go places together, like normal adults whoâre dating, and if you guys are seen together thenâŠoh well?
but theyâre against a single soul knowing you even exist in his world.
theyâre against you ever being seen at events, behind the scenes, anywhere during his tours. you have to stay at home, out of sight, out of the media, out of his managementâs way of making him a star.
to them, the rumors are bad enough.
mitigating the media on the possibility satoru is dating openly is a headache to deal with let alone an actual, sustained relationship theyâd likely have to keep mitigating the media over? itâs nothing personal for management, just business.
what future would you guys be able to have like this?
1:23 am. satoru:Â iâm begging you please answer the phone. please talk to me. donât give up on us. i miss you too baby. so letâs talk. answer the phone and spend time with me.
so when your phone rings again, âmister gojo đ»â in big, bold letters on the screen looking like his final plea, you sigh and answer morosely.
sniffling, you greet him. âhey,â
âangelâŠangel, youâre killing me.â a deep, shaky sigh. âbaby, whatâs going on in your head right now? fuck. leaving me? us?â
the background is quite noisy and his volume is muffled by the array of sounds behind him: the indistinct chatter of all the others lingering wherever he is, a series of beeping and automated speech over an intercom, the sounds of scraping and rolling and static. itâs so distracting, but he calls you even though itâs horrendously inconvenient. you know itâs because you present a very serious, critical concern in your relationship that he seems to not have been expecting.
he says immediately, his voice cracking. âiâm sorry i havenât talked to you, angel. i am. i couldnât.â
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it breaks your heart to hear him sound so wounded by your words, but itâs how youâre feeling about it all.
you wipe at your eyes. âiâm in my head because thatâs the only place to be. i spend 85% of my time at home entertaining myself when iâm not working. everyone has things to do that donât include me, and thatâsâŠthatâs fine, but feeling lonely when youâre not even alone is torture.â
âweâre supposed to be upfront about stuff like this, not let it get so bad that youâre ready to go.â you hear him sniffle on the other side.
it doesnât anger you, but it is frustrating. youâve been trying to get in contact with him and talk about the difficulties youâre facing with his absence for days, but itâs either interviews or rehearsals, performances or photoshoots.
thereâs never even little slivers of time for you.
even when heâs getting hair and makeup done, the stylists say heâs too distracted and itâs making applying his makeup harder. his members hate when he tries to talk while theyâre all shuffled together traveling. and management gives not even a speckle of a fuck about him having time for you every day.
thereâs never any time to talk about it.
you scoff. âiâve been trying to for the last few days. youâre always too busy. you donât text me back. you donât pick up the phone anymore, baby.â
you present the last part as a quiet sorrow. thereâs no frustration behind it, only the part of you whoâs desperately trying to keep your relationship intact despite all the distance thatâs constantly forged between your yearning bodies, and failing.
âyouâre supposed to tell me before, baby. like along the way. before it gets so overwhelming that youâre ready to leave me and throw away my entire heart when iâm literally trying to get home to you. before all of that.â
you cover your mouth to hold back the sound of your own cries, forcing sniffles and tiny hiccups in the place of moaning and wailing. your vision becomes blurry and fills up with shimmering tears, because satoru is very openly, very audibly crying â small sobs and whimpers between his speech.
âwho said i donât need you? who said that?â he asks, voice broken and fearful. âif i didnât need you, i wouldnât cry like a fucking baby at night because youâre not with me. i feel sick inside missing you. wishing you were here with me. wishing i could give you a normal fucking relationship, but iâm not in a normal position. you knew that. i told you. i begged you not to give up on me if you were agreeing to do this with me. you said forever and now youâre trying to take it back? no. i donât accept that. i wonât. so what do i need to do to keep you? what will it take?â
âsatoruâŠpleaseâŠâ
âno. thereâs no please. tell me what i need to do to keep you. because honestly, angel, youâre ripping my fucking heart to shreds right now. we have to figure this out. thereâs no way in hell iâm letting you walk away from us.â he sniffs, weak cries still flowing into the phone, painting every crevice of your heart in a shade of aching. âthereâs no walking away from us, baby. okay?â
your lower lip trembles, overwhelmed by his determination to keep you. maybe youâre wrong about not being a priority. âiâm sorry, satoru. i justâŠthis has been so fucking hard. and then i went to the wedding all on my own. again. and everyone just keeps asking why you never show up with me anywhere. again. it justâŠit got to me really bad this time. itâs so hard. being completely and utterly taken but having to live practically single because your partner canât be there. i miss you, satoru. iâm lonely.â
âbaby, i understand. i get it. i feel that way, too, you know?â his voice is soft, warm even, trying to maintain a sense of calmness, compassion, and love. âitâs hard for me, too.â
âis it?â you question very seriously. âbecause every time i see clips of you from your shows on ig or tiktok, you look like youâre having the time of your life. smiling from ear to ear. being surrounded by so much love that it doesnât seem to matter to have mine.â
he squeaks but then goes silent. you hear the opening of a door and the harsh closing behind it, all the background noise falling completely silent. you hear that heâs still crying at the softest volume he can manage. when he speaks, his voice is softly appalled, brittle, threatening to crumble at any moment.
âhow can you say that? how can you suggest youâre the only one in this having a brutal fucking time without the love of their life? because i smile for cameras and for my fans? because i want the people who paid hundreds of dollars just to see me to feel like they got the best version of me so they donât feel disappointed? youâre taking that and measuring it to missing you? as if i donât periodically call you in tears from how badly i wanna be with you?
as if i donât tell you how much i love touring but itâs a goddamn depressing time for my personal life because it means leaving my little family behind. you and yuuji. how can you say that? you canât be here with me. iâm all yours and stuck being far away for so long. you donât get to come to company banquets or award ceremonies to be there for me, with me. when i win anything, i have to get on stage and fight back my fucking tears because the one person i want to see looking back at me and thank for believing in me canât be there with me. it kills me. it fucking destroys me inside. donât tell me itâs not hard for me.â
upon hearing his words, thereâs now a thick blanket of guilt covering the top of your sadness, feeling more like itâs suffocating you.
you havenât thought of it that way, from his perspective, havenât even considered the amount of events he attends alone. heâs with his friends and members, sure, but times and events where he would, can, or should bring a plus one and his is actually able to attend isâŠnever. for you, his presence is seldom.
itâs rare, but it is.
whereas with him, your attendance is entirely nonexistent. not because you want it that way. not for a lack of trying on your part.
âiâŠyouâre rightâŠi canât say that. itâs not fair.â you admit quietly, voice low and lightly ashamed of the words you say and his experience you disregard. âiâm sorry for saying that to you, satoru.â
âletâs just get through this, okay? no apologies. i just want to keep you, and i canât get off this phone until i know i am.â he sniffles hard. âi love you, angel. you know that, right? you know youâre not in this alone, yeah? weâre in it together.â
tears still silently flowing, you respond tenderly. âi know you love me, satoru. i love you, too. butâŠare you even happy like this? donât you want more than this?â
âwhat more is there to want? i have exactly what i want and exactly what i need. and both of those things are you. of course, i wish you could be there and be here with me, but i know youâre supporting me no matter what. it pushes me to do my best every time. getting to see you after is the highlight of those evenings. skipping after parties to come crawl into bed with you is my favorite pastime.â
you donât say anything iat first. you just wonder where to even go from here. he says breaking up isnât an option. he says heâs going to stay on the phone until he knows heâs keeping you.
he says heâs fine with things as they are, even if they hurt you both, because he has you, and itâs worth the sacrifice.
you feel the same way; you do. and maybe for a split second, you just forget, become too jaded by the heaviness of feeling like youâve been isolated and abandoned.
but you recall quite vividly that you told him after the first year together that thereâs no separating for you both. only forever and working it out.
no forfeiting, only fighting tooth and nail to make it work.
âwhat do i need to do, baby?â he asks, much softer, much more loving. âhow can i keep you by my side?â
the kaleidoscope of butterflies swarm you. the way it feels, itâs like your heart is free falling, diving to find him and be drowned in all his devotion.
âiâŠi..â you sigh, shaky and defeated. ânothingâŠnothing at all, satoru. iâm here. iâm sorry. iâm sorry for all of this.â
âjust needing me?â he asks, his voice small and raspy, teeming with all of his longing. âbecauseâŠiâm just needing you, too. and it hurts a lot.â
although he canât see, you nod in agreement. it does hurt a lot, a whole fucking lot. your quivering lip and tear-filled eyes can attest to that much.
âyeah,â your fragile voice falls as a whisper. âmâjust needing you so bad. and it hurts that youâre not here.â
âmâon my way, okay? iâll be home soon.â he promises. âjust wait for me. give me a little more time. please, angel. just hold out a little longer for me.â
âyeahâŠokayâŠokay. iâll hold out.â you promise. âi miss you.â
a sniffle and a declaration. âwe wonât have to miss each other for much longer.â
in the background, you hear him returning to all the noise. inwardly, you sigh. thereâs always something distracting, always something in the way of you both being able to submerge into your time together fully.
you both just got over a small hurdle that threatened to end in you leaving this house and the life you made with him inside of it.
âitâs so fucking loud in here.â he grumbles.
you hum, agreeing. âwhere are you even?â
âairport,â he answers calmly. âconnecting flight.â
when he says it, you arenât sure why it makes you start to cry all over again. maybe because you know it means heâs still gone. heâs still so far away, and heâs not coming home soon.
he still has more work to do, more promises to his fans to fulfill, and more time he owes them all. heâs on a connecting flight and probably didnât anticipate having this conversation right now.
he probably planned to be asleep, but he ends up reconciling having to go to their next show utterly heartbroken.
âoff to your next stop?â you ask, sniffling and continuing to wipe your tears.
âyeahâŠyeah i am. my last one, actually.â he says. âmy last flight for a very fucking long time, i hope.â
this makes you smile, him talking about coming home, him talking about anything other than being gone for longer than the three months heâs already been.
âwhereâs your last stop?â
he chuckles. âi suppose weâll find out soon enough.â
âwhat? is it like some secret show they didnât tell you guys about?â you ask him, confused by his response. he hums his uncertainty. âthatâs fucking weird.â
âyeah, a bit. but, babyâŠare we good?â he asks timidly. âyouâre still mine?â
you look down at your knees curled up to your chest, dejection filling up your existence, because you know as soon as you give him the answer he wants, heâll be off, leaving you on your own again.
still, you murmur, âyeahâŠyeah, iâm still yours.â
âgood,â he breathes. âno takebacks.â
you giggle. âokay,â
âpromise?â
âyeah, baby, i promise.â
he sighs his relief. âyou had me freaking out, baby. you had me fucking losing it. the thought of you leaving? coming home but itâs not to you? just yuuji and the house we picked together? all our pictures on the wall? i was gonna have a meltdown.â
âiâm sorry.â
in the closet still, you stand to your feet, finally finding the energy to get up and change into clothes you can sleep in. thatâs all you want to do now: go to sleep so you can stop thinking about all of this, so you can have a few hours where missing him isnât plaguing your existence and stealing the air in lungs, a few hours where his absence isnât like a chisel to an ice block on your resolve.
âno apologies.â his gentle reminder. âno walking away.â
your soft agreemet. âi know, baby.â
âonly loving bear forever.â he added. âonly staying by his side.â
you nodded, a smile reshaping your lips that sunk into a melancholic pout. âonly loving bear forever. and staying by bearâs side.â
âi love you, angel. i have to go, but get some rest. itâs late there. and i just know you left your shoes in the doorway. please pick them up. itâs so unsanitary and yuuji is already a little vacuum for random particles.â
much to your surprise, you laugh. âhow could you possibly know that?â
âbecause youâre my honey and i know you.â
you roll your eyes at him, still smiling fondly, heart bursting with reminders of why itâs him. why you chose him, why you were willing to do the hard part for all this time, why thereâs no walking away, why thereâs only loving him forever and staying by his side.
âof course a bear would be quite familiar with his honey.â you note, nodding as you undress. âyou get some rest, too. i love you so much.â
âyou better love me back.â he grumbled. âgoodnight, angel. i love you, too. so, so much.â
when the call ends, you find yourself crestfallen, succumbing to all the waves of indubitable despondency.
here you are, alone again.
ending your night alone again, laying on his side of the bed that doesnât even smell like him anymore because heâs been a ghost to the egyptian cotton for months, alone again. you change into a big shirt, one of his, because if you canât have him then youâll cling to all of the belongings he leaves behind.
you find yourself observing the whole room as you saunter to your overly-sized and overwhelmingly empty bed. thereâs pictures everywhere along the walls, all of memories you both have made in the last three years, all a display of the fondness thatâs accumulated between you both in all this time, a quilt of attachment you both weave in love together.
heâs right, truly, thereâs no walking away. not when every thread of your lives is tangled and stitched together, not when those tangles and stitches are the very seams of who you both are: part of each other.
you lay in bed filled with regret about whatâs happened, because even though he seems happy that he isnât losing you, you worry he would start to have doubts of his own now that youâd basically threatened to leave him. does that mean itâll be on the table for him in the future?
when you fall asleep that night, weepy and emotional, a dark cloud of impending doom looming over your head, you wonder why he canât be there.
why canât you both be together without anything or anyone in the way?
the next morning, you wake up groaning because yuujiâs zooming through the house, barking at the top of his baby lungs and youâve had enough already. how can a creature that hardly weighs 10lbs emit such sounds and project them so loudly? you pull another pillow over your face to drown out the sound. thereâs no way it isnât incredibly early, so yuujiâs behavior is quite honestly disrespectful.
âyuu, please.â you whine, pulling blankets over your head. âlet mommy sleep.â
what alarms you then is the shuffling in the hallway you hear and you spring up, heart racing in your chest thinking that someoneâs gotten in and thatâs why yuujiâs having a conniption.
unsure of what to do, because you have neither weapons nor burglar-combat strength, you decide to crouch down beside the bed, contemplating whether or not you should go ahead and try to wedge yourself underneath it.
you arenât expecting anyone. satoru is god knows where. the only other people with a key are his two best friends outside of his members and parents, but all of those people call before showing up.
yuujiâs barking turns into whining, and the voice that coos his name sends your heart clambering up into your throat.
âaww, did you miss daddy?â satoru coos in the hallway right outside the bedroom door. âi missed you, too, bud. letâs go see if your mom missed me as much as she says she does.â
upon hearing his voice, realizing itâs him and heâs home, you rise to your feet so fast, you nearly fall right back down to the floor.
you squeak trying to catch your steps. when you look up, your favorite boy is standing in the doorway to your bedroom, looking at you with a lazy grin spanninng his lips, a huge duffle on his shoulders that he drops immediately upon seeing you.
of course, your sobbing and blubbering is instantaneous.
âyouâre home?â you ask, lips set into a deep pout. âreally home?â
he nods, ardent eyes melting at the sight of you. âangel, get over here.â
and you do. you go around the bed carefully because you have a horrible habit of running into things and you shoot straight for his arms that are wide open and waiting, ready to receive you urgently and without hesitation, scooping you up while your legs wrap around him and your arms go around his shoulders.
heâs home. heâs home. heâs home.
âwhy didnât you tell me?â you ask, so angry and so grateful at the same time. âoh my god, i almost broke up with you on your way fucking home?â
the sob you release makes him chuckle, becoming teary-eyed himself.
âi missed you so fucking much. i knew i was coming home early to surprise you. i almost spoiled every-fucking-thing when you tried to leave me.â he told you, hot tears spilling out his eyes. âi didnât answer for all that time because i was on a twelve-hour flight, baby. we literally had landed to catch our connect. iâŠbaby, i got so scared i was about to come home to an empty house. i got your texts and my fucking heart dropped.â
now, heâs moving you both toward your bed. you cradle his cheeks in the palms of your hands, apologetic eyes peering at him. when his eyes meet yours again, you both pause, realizing your irises are merely reflections of the otherâs, yearning observing yearning.Â
âyou have two seconds to kiss me before i devour you.â he warns. âhurry, your bear is ready to hibernate.â
âbear doesnât want a taste of honey beforehand?â you ask seductively.
giggling, you close the distance between your mouths, elation and eagerness being traded between breaths. this is truly all you want, all you cried on the closet floor for â a kiss and a halcyon sigh, two arms around you, and sinking into the future you both promised.
he grins, a shake of the head, âwhen bear wakes up, itâll be spring, and heâs going to eat his fill of honey then.â