little miss perfect - r.c - introduction & masterlist
pairing: siren!reader x rafe (non-fantasy).
they grew up side by side—her, the golden girl; him, the reckless heir. their dads were old money best friends, bound by business and legacy, blind to the games she played. she was always the favorite; he, the scapegoat with a temper. everyone saw her as sweet, perfect, untouchable—but rafe saw through the act. to him, she’s just the siren: made to ruin him.
warnings: suggestive, +18 themes, smut.
Rafe opens the door to find you already in the kitchen—barefoot, in white linen shorts and one of his old t-shirts you’d probably stolen years ago and somehow still owned.
You’re halfway through his dad’s bourbon cherries, pretending to inspect a cookbook you weren’t reading.
“Don’t you have somewhere else to be?” He mutters, brushing past you.
You don’t look up. “Missed you too, Rafey.”
He tenses.
That voice—sweet as honey with arsenic under the tongue.
You’ve been using it against him since you were eight and blamed him for breaking the Cameroons’ pool table. Somehow, even now, even after all these years, everyone still believed it when you batted your lashes and said, "Rafe did it."
Of course they did.
You were Daddy’s little darling, picture-perfect in pastels, and he was the one with skinned knees and a short fuse.
Once, you switched out the detergent in the Cameron’s laundry room with something that reeked like gasoline. His dad lost it when his suits came out ruined.
Guess who got blamed? He got grounded for a week, you cried to your dad and got ice cream.
He used to pray for the day you'd grow out of being a little shit.
Instead, you just got better at it.
Siren.
That’s what he calls you in his head, has since you were kids. Evil, always singing some sweet lie to drag him into hell.
“I told Dad you were excited I was coming,” you add, looking up at him now, wide-eyed. “Said you were asking about me.”
He scoffs, leaning against the counter. “You’re insane.”
“And you’re obsessed.” You pop a cherry into your mouth, your tongue catching the syrup. “Kinda cute.”
That sets him off.
When you both hit high school, the game changed.
You started flirting. Not cutesy, nor shy—calculated. What made it all worse, unbearable, was that you were fucking gorgeous. Everything about you looked like it was designed specifically to fuck with his self-control.
You’d lean in at family barbecues, whisper dumb shit like, “You’ve got a little something…” and swipe your thumb across his mouth slowly.
You’d wear the shortest skirts when you knew he’d be at the club, then dance like you forgot your daddy was on the board.
At one Fourth of July party, you cornered him in the pool house and said, “You ever wonder what it’d be like if I weren’t so good?” before walking out like it was nothing. Leaving him there with wet swim trunks and a hard-on, he had to drown in beer and denial.
That was always the worst part—you never let it go anywhere, never gave him what he was sure you knew he wanted.
“Still running your little games?” He sneers in disgust. “You’re not ten anymore. Nobody’s falling for that good-girl bullshit.”
“Oh, Rafe…” You tilt your head. “They don’t have to.”
Summer’s back.
You’re here, in his house. Wearing his shirt.
Sleeping one hallway away, still smiling like the devil incarnated.
He hates you, he does. But every time you sashay into the room, all slick lipgloss and wicked grins, his brain fries more. He wants to shove you against a wall, yell until you cry.
He wants to break you. Most of all, he wants to know what it looks like when you finally drop the act. When the fake angel burns.
He watches the way you eat that cherry, knowing what you’re doing. You want him to look. You do—of course you do, you're doing it for him. The T-shirt hangs loose on you, but he knows it’s not an accident.
You have that fucking smile again—you’re winning.
Rafe forces himself to look away, opening the fridge for something, anything, to focus on that isn’t you sucking cherry syrup off your fingers like you’ve got no fucking manners.
“You ever stop talking?” He peeks into the fridge.
“You ever stop being so grumpy?” you counter, lazy and sweet, your warm poison. “You used to be fun, you know.”
“I was never fun around you.”
“Sure you were,” You hum. “That one time I flashed your friend Kelce. You grabbed my wrist so hard I bruised. Still have a picture of it somewhere. Kinda hot.”
He slams the fridge shut.
You flinch, but you’re grinning, you love this.
“You think this is cute?” He grinds out. “Trying to get a rise out of me like you’re twelve?”
“Works, doesn’t it?”
That’s the last straw.
Rafe stalks toward you and you don’t move, you never fucking do.
You want him mad and he doesn’t know if he wants to scream or kiss you just to shut you the fuck up.
He stops a foot away, looking down at you.
Your eyes are bright, shining with mischief, biting your cherry-stained lip like it’s the funniest thing in the world that he looks ready to murder you. Or fuck you. Or both.
You’re poison wrapped in sugar. Fucking Siren. Every goddamn year, worse than the last.
“You know what’s crazy?” he says low, cold voice. “Every year you get worse.”
You blink innocently. “Worse?”
“Worse,” he spits. “Worse at pretending you don’t love this. Worse at hiding how much you want me to snap. And one day—”
He leans closer, so close his breath hits your cheek.
“One day, you’re gonna push too far.”
You look up at him—sweet little mask slipping enough for him to see the devil underneath.
Then you say, syrupy, “I hope so.”
You step closer, enough for your breath to ghost across his neck.
Rafe has to close his eyes, he’s not overwhelmed per se, but if he looks at you for one more second, he might do something stupid, something that proves you right. Your fingers graze his jaw, feather-light, enough to make his skin prickle.
You tilt his face toward you like he’s yours to taunt, to toy with. You’re still smiling when his eyes snap open. He’s glaring at your mouth, the gloss is sticky, red from the cherries, shining like sin.
You lean into the counter, thighs brushing his hips. Your legs part to invite him in, offering him hell on a silver platter.
And then— “Is anyone home?”
Sarah’s voice.
You don’t flinch. Of course you don’t.
Rafe, though, jerks back like he’s been shot.
His sister stands in the doorway, brows pulled together, looking between the two of you.
You let out a soft giggle.
“Sorry, Sarah. Rafe’s such a messy eater.” You pick up the cherry bowl and lick syrup off your thumb—deliberately. “He got juice on his face. I was helping.”
Sarah squints. “Seriously, Rafe?”
You blink at her all wide-eyed and saintly.
“He went through half the bowl. You’d think he was starving.”
Rafe says nothing. He can’t. His jaw is locked so tight it might crack.
Sarah shakes her head and sighs like she’s the older one—even though she’s eighteen and you’re both older than her.
“Dad’s gonna flip if you eat his stash again, dumbass.”
You hum. “I’ll tell him it was an accident. He believes me.”
Sarah disappears back upstairs, muttering about boys and stains and god-knows-what. The second she’s gone, Rafe turns to you—rage curling under his ribs.
“You think this is funny?”
Your lips twitch. “I think you’re funny.”
Then you pop another cherry between your lips, wink, and glide past him—brushing his shoulder. For the second time in five minutes, he’s left standing in the kitchen, rock hard, breathless, and burning.
He hates you. He does.
So why the fuck can’t he stop chasing the high of you ruining him?
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masterlist⍣ ೋ
.*. ⋆1st dinner of the season*. ⋆
*. ⋆pool day for us!. *. ⋆
*. how do i look?*. ⋆
*. ⋆hole in one. *. ⋆
*. ⋆girl who cried wolf. *. ⋆
*. ⋆exes and oh's!*. ⋆
*. ⋆mommy issues!*. ⋆
. *. ⋆the perfect dip*. ⋆
. *. ⋆that's dirty work*. ⋆
. *. ⋆softest hands*. ⋆
*. ⋆payback's a bitch*. ⋆
*. ⋆how's that going so far?*. ⋆
*. ⋆that was easy!*. ⋆
*. ⋆teamwork makes the dream work*. ⋆
*. ⋆she loves me*. ⋆
*. ⋆soulmates and shit*. ⋆
→ ۫ ׅ prompts ۫ ׅ : time jump - vega's wedding; first halloween; babytrapping
mon petit monstre | f1 smau
part one | part two | part three | part four (coming soon)
charles leclerc x f!vettel!reader
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mon petit monstre: my little monster (affectionate)
fc: so many. various ex partners of charles, pinterest model, f1a drivers, etc.
cw: f reader, vettel younger sister reader, seb calls reader ‘dandelion’, karting accident, online hate, artistic liberties taken, poorly translated german, probable typos, smidge of reader angst, sweet charles. begins in 2012, some time stamps included. i think that’s it for now.
an: this idea stuck in my head while i was painting my house the other day. i’m thinking it will be 5 or 6 parts & i have a decent amount drafted. enjoy!
check out my op81 x reader smau here.
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pri.vett | story 2012
tagged: lec.priv
liked by lec.priv, alab.priv, priv.pear, and 8 others…
pri.vett mein freund ❤️
lec.priv: mon amour ❤️
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f1 | 2013
liked by user1, user2, user3, and 263790 others…
f1 much of the grid spent their weekend off in germany at the karting eu championship season opener to support yn vettel - sebastian vettel’s younger sister.
user1: yn is an icon because wdym she has f1 drivers at her karting race
user2: nepotism at its finest
| user3: user2 oh shut up. she’s an amazing driver
user4: go yn!
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sebastianvettel | 2013
tagged: ynvettel.races
liked by vettelparents, kimiraikkonen, aussiegrit, and 75617 others…
sebastianvettel my baby sister is cooler than yours
vettelparents: coolest kids ever
kimiraikkonen: 👍🏻
aussiegrit: great race, kid!
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ynvettel.races | 2013
tagged: prema_team
liked by sebastianvettel, charlesleclerc, kimiraikkonen, and 1726 others…
ynvettel.races excited to announce i’ll be racing for prema for the 2014 formula renault eurocup season!
sebastianvettel: so proud of you, löwenzahn
charlesleclerc: can’t wait for another season together
kimiraikkonen: 👍🏻
pierregasly: congrats, yn!
alexalbon: see you on the track
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ynvettel.races | 2013
liked by charlesleclerc, georgerussell, kimiraikkonen, and 2417 others…
ynvettel.races gymnasium abitur complete
charlesleclerc: smartest karting driver ever
fan1: sorry did you qualify for uni at 15 years old?
| ynvettel.races: fan1 ja 👍🏻
kimiraikkonen: 👍🏻
sebastianvettel: smart, fast, & fashionable. what can’t she do 💁🏼♀️
| ynvettel.races: sebastianvettel please stop trying to be cool
georgerussell: meanwhile we’re all struggling with grade 10 maths
| alexalbon: georgerussell who is ‘we’
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ynvettel.races | 2013
tagged: sebastianvettel, redbullracing
liked by sebastianvettel, redbullracing, charlesleclerc, and 1903 others…
ynvettel.races my big brother is cooler than yours! FOUR TIME WORLD CHAMPION!!!!
charlesleclerc: iconic sibling duo
sebastianvettel: danke, löwenzahn! one day it will be you
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priv.vett | 2014
tagged: lec.priv
liked by lec.priv, notgr, priv.pear, and 12 others…
pri.vett the only thing i love more than racing is you ❤️
lec.priv: je t’aime mon amour ❤️
notgr: please no pda on the track 🙅🏻♂️
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lec.priv story
my number one girl ❤️
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prema_team
tagged: ynvettel.races
liked by ynvettel.races, charlesleclerc, georgerussell, and 38201 others…
prema_team yn vettel is on FIRE! going into hungary race weekend, she has won all four races of the formula renault eurocup season! vettel is leading the championship with a massive 107 points!
ynvettel.races: can’t wait to do it again at the redbull ring! ❤️
user1: family talent goes crazy
user2: clean sweep of the eurocup
user3: she’s peaking now, no future in f1
| user4: user3 take your misogyny somewhere else
georgerussell: yn can you at least let someone else win once
| ynvettel.races: georgerussell nein ❤️
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“that’s the checkered flag and another 27 points!” your race engineer, james, said over the radio.
“woo-hoo! great job today, prema!” you cheered.
you started to slow, going into your cool down lap, and watched as de vries, on his final lap, lost the rear end and binned it into turn 2.
you swerved to avoid collision with the other driver and debris on the track. you overcorrected and, unable to fix your mistake, hit the concrete barrier nose-on. your left knee had been locked out, pressing on the brake as hard as possible, and it took the bulk of the impact. pain ricocheted up your leg, your knee hyperextending as you felt two disturbing snaps.
“yn?” james called over the radio.
“i’m alright,” you lied. you used your arms to push you out of the car.
your left leg gave out when you attempted to put weight on it and you shrieked.
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prema_team
tagged: ynvettel.races
liked by alexalbon, pierregasley, user1, and 49012 others…
prema_team our 5 time race winner will be out for the remainder of the championship after a collision with the barrier while avoiding another driver. best wishes to yn on her recovery!
user1: her collapse outside the car was nasty
user2: devrys just ended her championship chances
ynvettel.races: ❤️
alexalbon: feel better soon, yn!
pierregasly: she still won the race, though
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ynvettel.races | 2014
liked by charlesleclerc, aussiegrit, danielricciardo, and 3560 others…
ynvettel.races chipped the head of my tibia, fractured femur, torn acl, pcl, mcl, and lcl. i’m on the mend ❤️🩹
charlesleclerc: get well soon, mon petit monstre
aussiegrit: you’ll come back stronger 💪🏻
danielricciardo: you’ve got this, baby vett!
pierregasly: just a bump in the track
nyckdevries: sorry again, yn! liked by ynvettel.races
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you were sandwiched between seb and charles as you all processed your surgeon’s words.
no more racing. ever.
they had done their best to repair your blown knee and broken bones, but racing going forward was off the table. the risk of reinjury was too high.
your entire life’s dream gone in a blink. you wouldn’t drive in f2 or f1. there would be no f1 podiums; you’d never been a world champion.
you wouldn’t race beside charles again. you wouldn’t follow him to f1. your plans from childhood were no more.
you’d never follow in your brother’s footsteps. he was your idol, had been since you were born. your dream was his dream.
and it was over.
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ynvettel
liked by charlesleclerc, maxverstappen, aussiegrit, and 2072 others…
ynvettel it is with the heaviest heart that i am announcing my retirement from motorsport. nothing will ever compare to the adventures i had and the friends i made in karting and formula renault. time to live life outside the cockpit.
charlesleclerc: the grid won’t be the same without you, mon petit monstre ❤️
maxverstappen: you’ll be missed
aussiegrit: lots of love from me & ann 💙
fan1: i am in mourning
fan2: the user change 💔
prema_team: we love you, yn! ❤️
pierregasly: miss you already
georgerussell: maybe i can get a podium now. in all seriousness, i know you’ll do great things outside the car
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lec.priv | 2014
tagged: pri.vett
liked by pri.vett, priv.pear, and 16 others…
lec.priv my love for you is bigger than racing, mon petit monstre ❤️
Can you write a smut about Rafe and reader are in an arranged marriage. How will their sex life be? Can you make up a story where they do it intensely?
notes. i def don’t think you wanted a fanfic that was this long, but i saw so much potential in this idea i just couldn’t help myself to write this for you. this took me days to do, so enjoy! this is for all of my lovers who love backstory & character development. i tried my best! this is so long but so cute and worth it (in my opinion)
content warnings. ⸝⸝ fem reader, arranged marriage, fluff, arguing, tad angst, cussing, so much backstory, no proof read, cuddling, slow burn, make up sex, tender mornings, rough sex, hair pulling, love making, rafe spitting in reader’s mouth, degrading, praising, showering together, wife!reader, husband!rafe, ass slapping/spanking, backshots, choking, slight wording of cnc(?), some intimate scenes, brat taming, edging
ward wants his son to have a good girl. he’s told rafe the standards he should look for, not a drug addict, someone sweet, someone good to him. simple enough, but rafe never followed through. he went for party girls who had no direction in life, fucked girls for drugs, and messed around with ones who’d been passed around so much they’d probably had every std in the book.
then you came along.
ward was immediately interested. he’d spoken to you before, when you were planting flowers in homemade vases along your front yard fence. you had this soft, sweet charm he’d never seen in any of the girls rafe usually brought around.
you didn’t expose yourself in everyday clothes, you spoke like you didn’t even know curse words existed, and you carried yourself with a modesty that felt rare. you were perfect for the cameron image. the kind of girl who could clean up rafe’s mess of addictions and reckless behavior.
when the wedding came, rafe had no real say. you were beautiful, sure, but he wasn’t ready to let go of his old life. so on your wedding night, after you were officially married, he didn’t say much. he was still adjusting.
you found him in the bathroom, a towel wrapped low around his waist while he brushed his teeth. you poked gently at his side. “hi,” you said, meeting his eyes in the mirror.
he glanced down at the spot you’d poked, then looked at you. toothbrush still in his mouth. “…hello.” you smiled, a playful little pout forming on your lips. “that’s all i get?”
he stayed quiet for a second, eyes now fully on you. “what am i supposed to say?” he asked and you shrugged. “i don’t know… we just got married!” excitement colored your voice. “yeah,” he replied dryly, spitting into the sink. “trust me, i’m aware.” he adds.
your smile faltered, and you swallowed. rafe sighed, rubbing a hand over his face. “look, i’m not trying to be a dick. this whole thing is just… a lot.” he explained. you nodded, looking up at him. “is there anything i can do to help you relieve some stress?” your brows furrowed in genuine concern. “anything you need?” you ask.
he stared at you for a long moment. “a drink,” he said flatly. you frowned. “i don’t think that’s what you need,” you replied softly. his eyebrow lifted. “you’ve been my wife for three hours and you’re already arguing with me?” he asked, sarcasm thick in his tone.
you didn’t answer. instead, you gave a small, quiet nod and walked out of the bathroom.
the whole adjustment process to rafe was strange. one day, you were receiving nothing but attitude and toxicity, and the next, little moments of kindness that caught you off guard.
coming from a family who handled their feelings by sitting down and talking things out didn’t exactly prepare you for someone like rafe. he thought he knew everything, and even when he knew he was wrong, getting an apology out of him was like pulling teeth.
he wasn’t even close to what you imagined in a husband before his father came talking to you. you wanted someone sweet, mature, someone who didn’t treat every disagreement like a battle. someone who could tell you what was wrong instead of making you figure it out yourself.
just like the first night of your honeymoon, he was still angry. still angry at his father for putting him in this situation, for making choices for him like he was a kid. it was around two in the morning, and he was sitting out in the living room of the hotel ward had paid for in another country.
every now and then his voice would rise, frustration bleeding into every word as he talked on the phone about how he was sick of everyone deciding his life for him. his voice carried all the way down the hall to the bedroom, and you sat there on the bed with your hair in a messy bun, listening to every word.
when he kept going, something in you finally gave out. quietly, you got up and headed to the closet, pulling your suitcase onto the floor and beginning to pack the clothes you’d brought with you.
when rafe heard the movement, he ended the call and walked into the room, stopping when he saw you calmly folding your things into the suitcase.
“what are you doing?” he asked, but he could obviously see what you were doing. you didn’t look up instead just continued. “packing.” you reply. rafe stared at the suitcase for a second. “i can see that.” he said and you folded another shirt. “then why’d you ask?” you interviewed, and he went quiet. his jaw tightened, like he was holding back a groan. “where are you going?” he asked, looking at everything about you.
your hair, clothes, skin. “home.” you stated, dryly. the answer came so easily that it caught him off guard. “what?” he said. “you’ve spent the whole trip talking about how much you don’t want this. i figured i’d make it easier for you.” you replied.
“that’s not—” he started and you scoffed. “not what?” you cut him off, as you looked at him. “i heard you, rafe.” you mention and you got nothing but silence.
he then shifted his weight. “you’re seriously packing because i was pissed off?” he asked and you let out a small laugh mid sentence. “because you were pissed off? no.” you correct, another shirt landed in the suitcase.
“because you’ve made it very clear you don’t want me here.” you said and it was visible that something uncomfortable settled in his chest, that wasn’t what he’d been trying to say. at least, not anymore. “stop.” he demanded.
you ignored him, adjusting your shirt on your shoulder. “i said stop.” he repeated. “why?” you ask, looking up to meet his gaze. the question hit him harder than he expected, because he didn’t have a good answer at all to give you, because a couple days ago he would’ve gladly watched you walk away, but because now that you were actually doing it, he couldn’t stand the sight of it.
“just…” he rubbed a hand over his face. “stop packing for five seconds.” he told you, approaching slowly as if you were an angry animal that would pounce any moment. you scoff as if he had asked you something insane, the audacity he had making you began to get angry.
“no rafe!” you say, looking at him, your volume catching him off guard. “you don’t like me, so i’m leaving. simple. i don’t need your permission.” you stated, keeping eye contact with him. his face went cold, staring at you. “i’m not stupid, nor am i gonna waste my time! i’m leaving.” you yelled, and he didn’t even react. but he did scoff when you told him you were leaving.
because he knew you weren’t, you can pack all the shit you want but he knew in his head, you weren’t leaving him. not him.
“you’re not leaving.” he stated, and you looked up at him and laughed. “watch me.” you told him, moving to the nightstand and getting your phone charger out and makeup. “i’m serious.” he told you, standing still while watching you, his tone spoke for itself. “so am i.” you flash a fake smile before rolling your eyes, putting your charger in your pocket and makeup in the suitcase. “you’re my wife.” he stated.
“a wife you don’t even want!” you correct. “i didn’t say that.” he responds, and you looked at him as if he wasn’t crazy. “yeah right” you say, rolling your eyes with attitude. his expression darkened, anger lingering in his eyes. “quit putting words in my mouth.” he demanded and you turned to him fully, crossing your arms.
“then tell me i’m wrong, rafe.”
and he couldn’t, he just sat there looking fucking stupid. “that’s what i thought.” you said quietly now, nodding in acknowledgement and you continued packing.
for the rest of the night, he left you alone. at least, mostly. after another pointless argument, he stormed back into the living room and dropped onto the couch, rubbing a hand over his face. every few minutes he’d hear another zipper, another drawer opening, another reminder that you were actually packing. it got under his skin more than he wanted to admit. twice he got up and walked toward the bedroom, only to turn around before he reached the door.
by three in the morning, he was still sitting awake on the couch, staring at nothing and listening to the sounds coming from the bedroom. he fucked hated hearing the suitcase’s wheels rolling on the floor, and the zippers bit at his patience.
he drifted off on the couch, and by the time he woke up, he heard the sound of the suitcase wheels. at first, he didn’t react, then he looked up to see the bags, all of them. his stomach dropped. “what are you doing?” he asked, but you didn’t answer. you just kept walking toward the door.
“hey.” he said, louder. but he still got nothing. “seriously, where the hell are you going?” he asked while you reached for the handle. “home.” you finally answered. rafe stood up so fast the coffee table rattled. “you’re actually leaving?” he questioned. you laughed, but there wasn’t any humor in it. “what did you think i was doing all night?” you asked.
his jaw tightened, he didn’t have an answer, because he didn’t want to come to speak out loud about this view and also truthfully he’d thought you’d calm down, he’d thought you’d unpack, he’d thought you’d stay.
“so that’s it?” he asked, and you looked at him. “what do you want me to do, rafe?” you asked. he hates that questions like that, because when he’s asked questions like that, most of the time he doesn’t want to answer… and also because for the first time since the wedding, he knew exactly what he didn’t want. he didn’t want you walking out that door.
“don’t go.” he told you. the words came out rough, almost angry, like they had been dragged out of him. “don’t go.” he repeated and you stared at him, your hand still wrapped around the suitcase handle as you searched his face for something real, something that would make any of this make sense.
“give me one reason.” rafe looked away immediately, like he couldn’t stand being pinned down by the question. “i don’t need a reason.” he defends. “yes, you do.” you follow up quickly. “no, i don’t.” he said. you slowly let go of the suitcase handle and shook your head.
“that’s funny.” his eyes narrowed. “what?” he asked. “because every time you want something from me, there’s supposed to be a reason. every time you expect me to understand you, forgive you, follow along with whatever you decide, there’s always some explanation i’m supposed to accept. but now suddenly you want me to stay and i’m just supposed to do it because you said so?” you ask, staring at him.
“what are you talking about?” he asked. “you want me to stay? okay. why?” you question, letting your hands drop to your sides. “because i said so.” he told you. you let out a laugh that held no amusement whatsoever. “that’s not an answer.” you say. his jaw clenched hard enough that you could see the muscle jump.
“can you stop doing that?” he requested. “doing what?” you ask. “turning everything into an interrogation.” he explained and you rolled your eyes. “i’m not interrogating you, rafe. i’m asking a simple question.” you gestured toward the suitcases sitting by the door, packed and ready to go. “you’ve spent this entire trip acting like i’m a burden, like my presence is something you have to tolerate instead of something you actually want.” you stated. “that’s not true.” he continued after you quickly.
“really?” you ask. he went quiet, and that silence told you more than any argument ever could. you nodded slowly. “that’s what i thought.” you repeat again tonight. “i never said you were a burden.” he corrected. “you didn’t have to. you made it obvious enough without saying the words.” you said, flashing a fake comforted smile.
“for fuck’s sake—” he groans. “see?” you interrupted him abruptly. “there you go again.” his hands flew up in frustration. “what do you want me to say?” “the truth.” you yell. “i am telling the truth.” he yelled back. “no, you’re not.” the room fell silent after that, the tension stretching between you until it felt impossible to breathe around it. you took a step closer, refusing to look away from him this time.
“if you want me to stay, tell me why.” rafe looked frustrated enough to punch a wall, his entire body rigid with the effort of holding something back. “because.” he said dryly. “because why?” you ask. “i don’t know.” he swallowed.
“that’s a lie.” his eyes snapped to yours instantly. “you think you know everything, huh?” he questioned bitterly. “no. i think you’re scared to say it.” you mention and his expression hardened. “say what?” he asked. “that maybe you don’t hate me as much as you wanted to.” for a moment neither of you moved. neither of you spoke. the words hung heavily in the air between you.
“i never said i hated you.” he corrected. this time his voice was quieter, stripped of some of its usual anger. you swallowed hard. “then stop acting like i’m impossible to keep around.” rafe looked down at the floor, staring at it for several long seconds before finally lifting his gaze back to yours.
when he spoke again, there was something different in his expression, something tired and honest and completely unguarded. “i got used to you being here, okay?” it wasn’t a grand confession. it wasn’t romantic or dramatic or anything close to the kind of speech people gave in movies. but somehow that made it feel more real.
it was probably the most honest thing he’d said since the wedding, and you could tell how much it cost him to admit it. “and?” you asked softly. he rubbed a hand over his face and let out a slow breath. “and i don’t want you to leave.” he said, finally.
you stare at him. “keep that attitude up, and i’ll stay.” you tell him, opening the door. “you have my number, prove you don’t want me to leave, rafe.” you continue and he rubbed his face, he was livid.
his eyebrows furrowed. “what?” he asked, looking back at you as you open the door wider. “you heard me.” you said. for a second, he just stared. then his expression hardened. “that’s bullshit.” he said, aggressively. “is it?” you respond, sarcastically. “yeah, it is.” he said. “why?” you questioned.
“because you’re putting me in some stupid test.” he responded and you sigh. “no, rafe. i’m leaving.” you stated, and the words hit harder than he expected, so hard that he shifted his weight and his voice was quieter. “then leave.” he said, gesturing toward the door with his hand before letting it drop back down to his leg.
you simply nodded. “okay.”
he didn’t say anything to you after that, you bought a plane ticket back home and you arrived home some time later. you didn’t receive any calls from him when you were boarding the plane and the time prior, but when you got on the plane he started to text you, and call you.
you decided to make him wait, so you turned your phone off. when getting home, the scent of your favorite candle still lingered. the sunlight pouring through your glass french doors stretched across the hallway that you passed from the front door. it was so beautiful, and so much calmer than hanging out with your new husband.
you let your hair down from the bun, your hair touching your skin as you swayed your hips to the kitchen. you made yourself some food, the calm morning still having a warm embrace on you. you sighed, your chest becoming more comfortable and not tight and stressed out.
once you finished making your food and eating it, you headed upstairs. when you reached the second floor, you stripped out of your pants and took your shirt off just for preparation for bed. your bed was calling you, so you made it easier for you.
you opened your door, tossing the clothes to your floor, and you looked at your bed, suddenly realizing rafe sitting there.
“jesus!” you yelled, rushing to cover yourself with the door and peeking your head out to look at him. “would you stop yelling?” he asked, rolling his eyes. “you’re in my house rafe.” you defended, before squinting your eyes at him. “why are you here?” you asked.
“you turned your phone off, what the hell was i supposed to do?” he asked, looking at you. “oh, i don’t know, maybe tell me if you’re on the way?” you offered, and rafe scoffed. “right, because you were doing such a great job answering your phone.” he replied, getting up from the bed and you stared at him.
“that’s not the point.” you stated. “it is the point.” he shot back. “no, rafe, the point is i came home and found a man sitting in my bedroom.” you said to him. “your husband.” he corrected.
“don’t do that.” you scoffed. “do what?” he asked. “use that whenever it’s convenient for you.” you replied and his jaw tightened. “i called you.” he admitted. “and i didn’t answer.” you replied. “yeah, i noticed.” he replied, walking toward the door. “that doesn’t mean you get to break into my house.” you mentioned.
“i didn’t break in.” he said, lifting a brow. you then folded your arms. his hand went to the door, opening it fully to look at you.
“then how did you get in?” you asked and he went quiet for a second. “your spare key.” he admitted. “rafe.” you started. “what?” he asked. “that’s creepy…how the fuck did you even get a spare?” you asked, brows furrowed now. “you getting on a plane and disappearing was crazy.” he mentioned, ignoring your question.
“i told you i was leaving.” you replied. “and i told you not to.” he continued. you rolled your eyes dramatically and pushed past him. “you win.” you said as you rubbed your face with a soft sigh. “i’m so done arguing with you.” you said.
rafe didn’t have a comeback. it was like he didn’t even want to say anything to end the conversation. he wanted you to stay, to talk to him, but you walked past him and sat on the edge of the bed.
“seriously. i’m tired.” you assured and watched as he watched you pull the blankets back.
“that’s it?” he asked.
you looked over your shoulder. “what else is there to say?” you asked. he opened his mouth, then closed it again. there was that fucking question again. you sighed.
“if you really came all the way here just to sit in my bedroom and be angry, you can sleep here if you want.” you said. rafe stared at you. “maybe argue with me in my sleep.” you laughed softly, but he didn’t laugh. he rolled his eyes.
“that’s not why i came.” he said.
“okay.” you replied softly, providing him a soft and gentle out to this argument. but the fact that you didn’t argue made the situation worse to him. the way you just simply laid down and turned away from him made the room fall quiet.
“you’re just gonna go to sleep?” he asked.
you let out a tired laugh. “what do you want from me, rafe?” you asked once more and he didn’t answer. because that was the problem, he wasn’t entirely sure. he was never sure when that question came out.
all he knew was that seeing you leave had felt wrong, and now that he’d found you again, the fight suddenly seemed a lot less important than it had a few hours ago.
after a long moment, he looked away. “move over.” he said roughly. you raised an eyebrow. “thought you’d never ask.” you said, moving over. “don’t make it weird.” he muttered, laying down next to you.
“you’re sitting in my room.” you said, turning to look at him. “our room.” he corrected, and to that admission, he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you close. the most physical touch he’s given you is from you giving up on an argument. you laughed at that thought. he was impossible, and so annoying.
you woke up gently, you could hear the sound of his phone faintly. you stretched lightly on the bed, getting up and sitting on your knees on the bed, hair falling loose as you finally looked at him properly.
he glanced up from his phone, his eyes meeting yours. “what time is it?” you ask. “three.” he responded and your eyes widened a little. “i should probably get up and make us lunch.” you said, as you shifted forward on your knees, then leaned toward him like it was the most normal thing in the world.
he stiffened slightly, not pulling away, just surprised by the sudden closeness after everything. but you came from a family of affection, of tender love. so a kiss after you wake up was mandatory. you brushed a soft kiss along his jaw, then another near his neck. his hand paused mid scroll on his phone.
“do you want that? or do you want delivery?” you asked, your eyes meeting his again. he stared at you for a second, confused if he should be upset or happy you’re acting this way. “…why are you acting like yesterday didn’t happen?” he asked, you hummed softly, still close. “did it change what you want to eat?” you ask, and that caught him off guard.
his jaw tightened like he was trying not to react too much. “that’s not the point.” he commented. you smiled a little, backing up from him. “okay. then what’s the point?” you asked, he didn’t answer immediately. because the truth was, he didn’t know how to respond to you being soft with him again after everything.
he set his phone down. “i don’t know what’s going on with you.” he stated. “i’m just being nice, rafe.” you respond and he let out a short breath. “yeah. that’s the problem.” he said. you pushed your lips into a thin line, running your hand through his hair as you get up. “so, you want me to make it?” you ask.
he looked at you for a second longer than necessary. “i didn’t say that.” he said, you sigh and you tilted your head slightly. “you didn’t say anything.” you stated. that got a reaction out of him, but just a faint shift in his expression. “…just don’t burn anything.” he said. you smiled, getting up from the bed and already moving toward the door. “that’s not an answer.” you said.
he exhaled through his nose, setting his phone down on the bed. “yeah, fine. make it.” he said, a pause settling between you two. then, he spoke up quietly. “i’m not trying to fight with you.” he said, his tone unrecognizable because of how sweet it was. you glanced back at him. he wasn’t looking at you anymore, instead looking at the bed. “i know.” you gently responded.
you finally leave the room, making your way down to the stairs, the cold air biting at your skin, your eyes looking out your glass french doors and seeing ward and some random guy. you pause, looking down at your body that only had a bra and panties on.
you go back upstairs calmly, luckily they hadn’t seen you, despite your french doors being so open to the house. you go to your walk in closet, putting your hair up before putting on a top and shorts, and making your way to the bedroom to rafe. “uh. your dad is outside with some guy.” you told rafe, rafe lifted a brow.
“what guy?” he asked. you shook your head slightly, shrugging. “i don’t know. i just saw them through the glass doors.” you responded. his expression changed immediately, it was subtle, but sharp. ward seemed like he was a trigger for him, judging by how tense he got.
he sat up a little straighter. “he didn’t call.” he mentions. “does he ever?” you jokingly respond but that made his jaw tighten. rafe pushed himself off the bed. “yeah, okay.” he mumbled to himself. he grabbed his phone off the nightstand, already unlocking it. “he’s probably trying to turn this into some kind of meeting.” he mumbled to himself once more.
it seemed like he was trying to calm himself down, by his own voice and words while you watched him. “you want me to go downstairs?” you ask. he glanced at you for half a second. “no.” he said firmly. then, he swallowed. “just… stay here.” he added, his tone less strict.
there was a pause before he added, quieter, like it slipped out without thinking. “i’ll handle it.” he assured you, before brushing past you. you bite your cheek and sit on the bed, holding your face.
you spent a couple minutes up there, hearing quiet voices that stretched upstairs, you couldn’t hear them completely but rafe was mad about something. then you hear rafe coming back upstairs, when he found you, he didn’t say much.
“my dad’s downstairs.” he started, and you looked up. “yeah, i know.” you responded back and he hesitated. he shifts his weight. “he wants you down there.” he told you and your brows furrow in confusion. “why?” you question. rafe exhaled through his nose.
“just come on.” he told you, you studied him for a second, then followed. the moment you walked into the dining room, you felt it. too many chairs, it was too formal just for a quick chit chat. ward sitting like he owned the air itself, and someone else. a woman you didn’t know.
rafe stopped behind you. “what is this?” he asked, and ward gestured lightly. “sit down.” ward said but rafe didn’t move. “no. what is this.” he asked once again. a pause settled, and then ward leaned forward slightly.
“this is a marriage counselor.” rafe’s expression went completely still. “…you brought a therapist.” rafe started, glaring at ward. “for you and your wife.” ward explained, staring at rafe. rafe let out a short, disbelieving laugh.
“without telling me?” rafe asked. ward’s voice stayed calm. “you weren’t going to agree if i asked.” he explained. rafe looked at him for a long moment, then glanced at you, then back at ward.
the anger he was feeling wasn’t loud it was controlled, and dangerous underneath.
“you don’t get to manage my marriage like a business deal.” rafe stated and ward didn’t flinch. “then start acting like it isn’t one.” ward clapped back.
rafe stood, arms stiff at his sides as ward looked up from his seat. ward didn’t look at him, his eyes went straight to you. a soft smile settled on his face. “hi sweetheart.” he coos. you blinked, a little surprised but you smiled back automatically.
“hi.” you reply, giving him a soft wave. ward’s tone warmed just slightly. “how are you doing?” he asked, you hesitated for half a second, then answered honestly, still polite. “i’m okay… a little confused.” you say.
“understandable,” he said smoothly. “this is a lot for you.” he gently said. rafe’s jaw tightened behind you. ward gestured toward the empty chair. “why don’t you sit down, sweetheart.” he offered. you glanced back at rafe briefly, then sat.
rafe didn’t move, which made ward finally look at him now. “you too, rafe.”
rafe let out a short breath through his nose. “no.” he said firmly but ward’s expression didn’t change. “sit.” he commanded, silence stretched then rafe slowly pulled out the chair and sat, but his posture stayed rigid. ward folded his hands. “i wanted to talk to both of you properly.”
rafe cut in immediately. “you could’ve told me what this was.” he said. ward tilted his head slightly. “you wouldn’t have come.” ward stated. rafe scoffed. “yeah. because it’s insane.” ward ignored that, eyes shifting back to you.
“i just want to make sure you’re settling in alright, sweetheart.” he explained to you, which you nodded softly. “i think i am… it’s just been a lot of change.” you describe with a smile. “of course it has,” ward said gently. “you’ve been very patient with everything.” he compliments, rafe looked between you two, disbelief flickering across his face. because he knew that tone.
it wasn’t real warmth, it was strategy. and seeing it directed at you made it worse for him, his anger started to boil even more than before.
then counselor offered a polite smile.
“thank you both for sitting down with me today. i know this probably wasn’t how either of you expected to spend your afternoon.” she said. “you got that right,” rafe muttered.
ward shot him a look but the counselor ignored it. “why don’t we start with something simple? how has married life been so far?” she asked, her eyes on you. you smiled politely. “it’s been an adjustment.” you answer. “that’s a very mature answer.” she complimented and you smiled once again. “thank you.”
“and for you, rafe?” she asked, writing down something before looking up at him. he leaned back in his chair. “it’s been great.” the deadpan answer made the counselor pause. “great?” she echoes. “yeah. fantastic.” he repeated. you closed your eyes briefly. “rafe.” you said.
“what?” he asked.
the counselor offered a patient smile. “i’m assuming that’s sarcasm.” she replied. “good catch.” he stated, ward rubbed his forehead. you could practically feel the tension radiating off rafe. the counselor tried again. “what has been the most difficult part?” she asked. “my father arranging the whole thing.” he said flatly.
“rafe.” you repeat, looking at him. “what? she asked.” he said. the woman nodded. “that’s a fair answer.” she said. rafe looked surprised for a second. “it is?” he asked and she nodded. “yes.”
his expression softened slightly. “oh.” he murmurs. you glanced at him and the counselor smiled. “you’re allowed to be frustrated. i think what we’re trying to figure out is what comes after that frustration.” she explains, and rafe looked away.
for a moment, nobody spoke and under the table, you carefully reached for his hand. his fingers immediately tensed, you honestly expected him to pull away, but he didn’t. instead, he glanced at you. you rubbed your thumb across the back of his hand once, just once.
a silent reminder that he wasn’t alone in this conversation. so, when the counselor spoke again, his answer came out less sharp. “i don’t know.” he said. the room went quiet.
“that’s okay,” she said gently. “you don’t have to know everything right now.” she continued. rafe looked down at the table, then at your hand still holding his. “i’m just trying to figure it out.” he said, being the most honest he’s been with her since sitting down. she wasn’t getting that confession again, and the woman could tell.
after ward and the woman left, rafe had been distant. quieter than usual. he wasn’t giving you the cold shoulder exactly, but the warmth from the night before had cooled. he kept himself busy, answers short, eyes avoiding prolonged contact. like he was rethinking everything that had been dragged out in front of that stranger.
you hated the shift. so later in the day, when the house felt too heavy with silence, you stood in the doorway of the bedroom and said softly, “rafe… come take a shower with me.” he looked up from where he was sitting on the edge of the bed, jaw tight. for a second you thought he might say no. his pride was still stinging.
“i’m fine,” he muttered, even though he clearly wasn’t. you didn’t push hard. you just tilted your head, voice gentle. “you don’t have to talk. i just… want you close. please?” you plead softly.
one thing your mother taught you was intimacy was something every couple needed, especially after such an intense experience for him.
that last word always did something to him. he stared at you for a long moment, then exhaled through his nose and stood up without another word. he followed you into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him a little harder than necessary.
once the water was running hot and steam started filling the space, he undressed slowly, still not looking at you much. but when you stepped under the spray and held your hand out to him, he took it. he let you pull him in.
the moment the water hit his shoulders, some of the tension in his back eased. you didn’t force conversation. you just washed his hair, fingers gentle against his scalp, and he eventually leaned into your touch. his arms came around your waist after a while, forehead resting against your shoulder as the water ran over both of you.
he didn’t say much, but the way he held you tighter than usual told you everything. the distance was still there, but it was cracking. this was his version of letting you back in, quiet, physical, a little grumpy, but present.
he wasn’t sure why he was doing this, but it definitely was not because he suddenly loved vulnerability, but because you asked, and deep down he needed the closeness more than he wanted to admit.
standing under the warm spray, you leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to his cheek, your lips lingering for a second against his damp skin. “what do you need, rafe?” you asked gently, pulling back just enough to meet his eyes. he stayed quiet at first, water running down his shoulders, then his voice came low and rough. “i just need you.” he said.
the words settled between you like something heavy and honest. you didn’t push for more. instead you stayed close, letting the shower run over both of you for a couple of minutes in comfortable silence. his arms stayed wrapped around your waist, your bodies pressed together under the steady stream, the tension in him slowly easing.
after a while you pulled back slightly and brushed wet strands of hair from his face. “go ahead and get out, okay? go lay down. i’ll make you some dinner and then we can watch tv.” he suggest. he nodded, agreeing without argument for once. as he stepped toward the edge of the shower, he paused, cupped your face with one hand, and leaned in. his lips met yours in a soft, simple peck, your first kiss.
you blinked, a little shocked, warmth blooming across your cheeks as he pulled away. he didn’t say anything else, just gave you a small look before stepping out and grabbing a towel.
you stayed under the water a moment longer, washing your hair with slow fingers. your mind kept drifting back to that kiss, the unexpected gentleness of it, the way it felt both new and familiar at the same time. a quiet smile tugged at your lips while the steam swirled around you.
when you got out the shower, you quickly got dressed and headed out to your bedroom, giving rafe a soft glance while making your way to the stairs. you get downstairs, and search your freezer for any type of food you had.
you didn’t want to give him something fancy to overwhelm him, just somethin’ easy so he wouldn’t have to wait for a good while.
when you finally came back upstairs, balancing two plates in your hands, the television was still playing quietly in the background. rafe hadn’t moved much. he was stretched across the bed, one arm behind his head, staring at the screen without really watching it.
his eyes shifted toward you when you entered. “food.” you calmly said as you held up the plate. that got a small reaction. he sat up slowly as you placed the plate on his lap.
a burger and fries. nothin fancy. just something warm, maybe familiar. it was something filling, something easy.
rafe looked down at it, then up at you. “you made this?” he asked, you smiled. “obviously.” you respond. “you didn’t have to.” he mutters. you shrugged. “i wanted to.” you whisper to him, for a moment, he just stared at the food, then he picked up a fry.
“thanks.” he said, the words were quiet, almost awkward coming from him, but they were genuine.
that was good enough for you, so you smiled. “you’re welcome.” you said, he nodded once and looked back down at his plate, still very quiet. still thinking about whatever had been running through his head all afternoon.
but not quite as distant as before.
before you could get comfortable, rafe looked at you once again. your eyes met and he grabbed your plate and his, moving them to the nightstand. he pulled you to him as he kissed you, slow and deep, like he had been holding back for hours.
the tv hummed softly in the background, some show neither of you were really watching anymore. you melted into the kiss, your hands sliding up his chest as his fingers threaded gently through your hair. the makeout grew heavier, more intimate.
tongues brushing, breaths mixing, his grip on your waist tightening just enough to keep you close. he was surprisingly gentle at first, savoring every second, every little sound you made.
his hands moved carefully, sliding under your shirt and lifting it slowly over your head. you did the same with his, palms exploring the warm skin of his chest and shoulders. clothes came off piece by piece between kisses; your shorts, his sweatpants, until there was nothing between you.
he laid you back against the pillows, hovering over you, eyes dark but soft as he took you in fully. his gaze traced every inch of your body like he was memorizing it.
“you’re so beautiful,” he murmured against your neck, voice low and rough. he kissed down your collarbone, taking his time, hands gentle as they roamed your sides and thighs.
when he finally settled between your legs, he moved with a patience you didn’t expect from him, slow, deep thrusts, letting you feel every moment. your jaw dropped softly, his size stretching you. his forehead pressed to yours, breaths shared, bodies moving together in a steady rhythm that felt both intense and tender.
he stayed gentle through it all at the start, hands cradling your face, lips brushing yours between gasps, completely focused on you. the earlier distance had cracked wide open, replaced by something warmer, more vulnerable, as the two of you lost yourselves in each other.
rafe kept going, his pace deepening as he pressed more of his weight down onto you through his hips. each thrust hit harder now, the pressure intense and overwhelming in the best way, his body pinning you firmly into the mattress.
he buried his face in your neck, kissing and sucking along your skin, lips hot and relentless as he marked you with every breath.
you lost your breath beneath him, gasping softly with every heavy stroke. his cock felt so thick and deep inside you, filling you completely. your legs stayed spread wide for him, trembling and quivering as he fucked straight into your g-spot over and over again. the sensation was almost too much, heavy delicious pleasure that made your toes curl and your thighs shake.
your hands flew up, gripping tightly onto the bed frame above your head for some kind of anchor while he drove into you. rafe didn’t ease up. he stayed right there, heavy and relentless, hips rolling with purpose, grinding against you on every thrust. his mouth never left your neck, kissing, licking, biting gently as low groans rumbled from his chest.
the weight of him, the way he fucked you so deep and steady, had you breathless and dizzy, completely lost in the feeling of him. his cock felt impossibly heavy inside you, stretching and rubbing every sensitive spot until your whole body was trembling beneath him.
his hips pressing all his weight down with every thrust, driving his cock right into that perfect spot inside you. the pressure was overwhelming, his thick length stretching and rubbing you so good you could barely think. your legs shook violently around him, still spread wide as your body tightened more and more.
“rafe—” you gasped, breath coming out in short, desperate pants. the pleasure built impossibly high until it crashed over you. you came hard around his cock, walls clenching and pulsing as waves of heat flooded through you. your mouth fell open, panting desperately for air because his cock felt so fucking good, pushing you through every throbbing second of your orgasm.
“that’s it, baby,” rafe murmured against your neck, voice low and rough with praise. he kept moving through it, slower but still deep, grinding against you. “you’re doing so good for me. fuck, cum on my cock just like that… let me feel you.” he rambled.
your hands stayed gripping the bed frame, body trembling as you rode it out. he kissed along your jaw and neck, then pulled back just enough to look at you, eyes dark and intense.
“i’m sorry for being mean to you,” he whispered, still buried inside you, voice thick with emotion. “i don’t want you to go. i want you to stay… with me.” he said to you. he kept praising you softly between kisses, hips still rocking gently as you came down, breathless and warm beneath him.
you came hard all over his dick, your slick warmth coating every inch of him, dripping down his length with every thrust. your walls fluttered and squeezed around him so tightly, soaking him completely as your body shook beneath his weight.
“fuck, just like that,” he groaned, voice breaking with pleasure. his hips stuttered, losing their rhythm as he buried himself as deep as he could go. he came hard inside you, thick ropes of cum spilling deep into your pussy, filling you up with every heavy pulse.
you felt every twitch, every warm spurt as he emptied himself completely, his cock throbbing against your sensitive walls while he pressed his hips flush against yours, making sure you took every drop.
his breath was ragged against your neck, body heavy and trembling as he stayed buried inside you, both of you panting and slick with sweat. he kissed your skin softly, still rocking gently through the aftershocks, his cum leaking out around his cock as your bodies stayed locked together.
ever since that day, you two have been fucking like animals. since the day he gave you permission to do everything and anything you wanted to him, the tension between you never really settled. you’d both end up tangled up from the smallest triggers; if he looked at you a certain way, held your hand a little too long, spoke to you in that low voice, bought you random gifts, or even just looked too good while getting dressed.
this time it was over something stupid.. laundry. it had been two months since you two got married, and it still turned you on like crazy seeing him being so domestic, doing shit for you without even being asked. you walked into the laundry room to find him loading the machine, sleeves rolled up, that focused look on his face, and it hit you instantly.
before you could even think, you were bent over the washing machine, hands gripping the edge tightly as rafe shoved your shorts down and pushed inside you in one rough thrust. he was fucking you hard, deep strokes that made the machine shake beneath you.
“fuck, look at you,” he growled, one hand fisting your hair and yanking your head back. “bent over like a little slut just because i’m doing laundry. so fuckin pathetic.” he said.
his other hand came down hard, smacking your ass with a sharp sting that made you moan louder. he did it again, harder, the sound echoing in the small room. you pushed back against him, taking every inch of his thick cock, the size difference hitting you hard as he stretched you open so wide it almost hurt, because you knew he’s forcing you to take it.
rafe leaned over you, his chest pressed to your back, and wrapped his hand around your throat, squeezing just enough to make your head spin. “this pussy was made for me, wasn’t it? so tight and greedy for my big dick.” he taunted.
he pulled your head back further and spit directly into your open mouth. “swallow it,” he ordered. you did, whimpering as he fucked you even rougher, hips slamming against your ass. his grip on your neck stayed firm, controlling every movement while he railed you from behind, the wet sounds of your bodies filling the laundry room.
“that’s it, take it like the desperate little housewife you are,” he groaned, smacking your ass again as he buried himself to the hilt over and over. your legs were shaking, hands gripping the washing machine for dear life as he used you exactly how he wanted.
you came so fast when he fucked you like that, but then there were other times where he fucked you and edged you for what felt like days.
you caught an attitude with him at a party at his father’s house. he warned you so many times but you didn’t want to hear it. so when you got home and the front door closed, he snatched you up. you both didn’t even make it to the main bedroom.
he pulled you into the spare room you were renovating into an office. the dress you were wearing was yanked down your legs in seconds, and getting him out of his suit might’ve been a world record.
“turn around and lay on your stomach,” he told you simply. you laughed, shaking your head. “can’t make shit simple, huh?” he asked, his face showing he wasn’t in the mood for your games. he flipped you over firmly but fell on top of you gently, his mouth right next to your ear as he worked your panties down.
“y’been so bad tonight, baby,” he muttered in your ear, pressing his weight down so you couldn’t squirm away. his words came out slow and low as he dragged your panties to your mid-thighs, using them as a makeshift restraint.
“have i?” you asked, voice already breathy.
his left arm hooked around your throat, applying just enough pressure to make your pulse race. “mhm,” he hummed against your ear, his heavy cock dragging along the back of your thigh before he lined himself up with your pussy.
he pushed in with one slow, thick thrust, stretching you open as he buried himself deep. a broken moan slipped from your lips. rafe kept his arm locked around your neck, holding you right where he wanted while he started fucking you harder, hips snapping against your ass.
“yeah, you have,” he whispered hotly in your ear, voice rough. “acting like a fucking brat all night… thought i wouldn’t handle you when we got home?” he taunted.
you tried to reply, lips parting, but the way he was pounding into you made it hard to speak. “i—fuck, rafe—” your words came out shaky and strained, breath catching every time he drove deep. your hands gripped the sheets, body rocking forward with each rough thrust while his arm stayed firm around your throat, keeping you pressed into the mattress.
he didn’t let up, lips brushing your ear as he kept whispering. “that’s right. struggle all you want, baby. this pussy still gets so wet for me when you’re in trouble.” he comments.
you tried to talk back, lips parting as you gasped out a shaky reply. “i wasn’t—fuck—” you start. “shut up,” rafe stated low in your ear, cutting you off instantly.
before you could get another word out, he fucked you so much harder, hips slamming into you with brutal force. the sudden intensity knocked the air right out of your lungs.
every thick inch of his cock drove deeper, faster, pounding into you so relentlessly that all you could do was moan and whimper helplessly. coherent words completely failed you now. just broken, desperate sounds spilling from your mouth.
rafe’s large hand quickly moved from your throat to cover your mouth, palm pressing firmly against your lips to muffle the loud noises you couldn’t hold back. “so fucking loud,” he hissed against your ear, still railing you without mercy, the sound of skin slapping skin echoing through the half renovated office. “can’t even behave for five minutes without screaming for my cock.”
your eyes rolled back, body jolting forward with every savage thrust while his hand kept you quiet. you could barely breathe through the overwhelming pleasure, completely overwhelmed.
you tried to warn him, voice muffled desperately against his palm. “rafe—i’m gonna cum—” you managed to choke out, barely intelligible.
for a moment he kept the brutal pace, hips snapping hard like he was going to let you. “yeah? you wanna cum, baby?” he whispered hot against your ear, sounding almost sweet. his cock drove deep and steady, hitting that spot over and over, pushing you right to the edge.
your body tensed, thighs shaking, right there..then he pulled out completely.
a broken whine escaped you instantly, hips pushing back desperately, searching for him. “did i tell you to speak?” rafe growled, voice dark and low.
before you could even process it, he slammed back into you, rougher than before. his thrusts turned punishing, hips slamming against your ass with raw force, the wet slap of skin filling the room as he fucked you even harder. his hand stayed clamped tight over your mouth, muffling your loud cries while his arm kept you pinned beneath him.
“brats don’t get to cum that easy,” he hissed into your ear, pounding you mercilessly, stretching your soaked pussy around his thick cock with every savage stroke.
you reached back desperately, fingers digging into his biceps, gripping the hard muscle as he kept pounding into you. your mind had gone completely fuzzy, cock drunk and lost in the feeling of him stretching you so deep.
“rafe— fuck… your cock feels so good,” you babbled breathlessly against his hand, words slurring together. “so fucking big… i can’t— it’s so good, baby, please—”
he kept fucking you through your desperate little praises, hips slamming against your ass with wet, filthy sounds. your grip on his arms tightened, nails digging in as your body started trembling again, that familiar pressure building dangerously fast.
“i’m gonna cum—rafe, please, i’m so close—”
he groaned low in your ear, sounding like he was finally going to let you. his thrusts stayed deep and rough, pushing you right up to the edge, right there and then he pulled out again.
you let out a broken, frustrated sob, hips twitching uselessly as the orgasm slipped away. your body was shaking, pussy clenching around nothing while you tried to catch your breath.
rafe gave you just a few seconds to come down, breathing hard against your neck, before he lined himself up and slammed back inside you without warning. he started fucking you even harder than before, the new angle making his thick cock hit even deeper.
“not yet,” he stated, voice dark and teasing in your ear as his hand stayed pressed over your mouth. “you don’t cum until i say so, baby.” he taunted cruelly.
your muffled moans grew louder as he railed you mercilessly again, using your body like he owned it, drawing out your pleasure until you were a trembling, cock drunk mess beneath him once more.
“rafe— please,” you begged, voice muffled and broken against his palm. “let me cum… i’ll be good, i swear. i’ll be your good girl. please baby, i love you— i love you so much, just let me cum on your cock.” your words came out in a desperate, teary babble, body shaking as he kept pounding into you without mercy. rafe’s grip on your mouth tightened slightly, his lips brushing your ear as he listened to you fall apart for him.
“that’s it,” he growled, voice low and rough. “beg like you mean it.” he said. you kept pleading between broken moans, hips pushing back to meet his savage thrusts. “please rafe… i’ll be so good for you. i love you— fuck, please let me cum—” you beg more.
he finally gave in. his thrusts stayed deep and punishing, but he angled his hips just right, slamming into that perfect spot over and over until your whole body locked up.
“cum then,” he ordered against your ear. “cum on my cock like a good little wife.”
the permission hit you like a wave. you came hard, crying out into his hand as your pussy clenched and pulsed around his thick cock, soaking him completely. your legs shook violently, eyes rolling back while pleasure crashed through you in heavy, blinding waves. rafe fucked you through every second of it, groaning at how tightly you squeezed him.
only when your orgasm started to fade did he slow down, still buried deep inside you. he moved his hand from your mouth and pressed a hot kiss to the side of your neck, breathing hard.
“don’t test me again, baby,” he warned. “next time i won’t be so nice.” he teased.
Hi! Love your writing! If you’re up to a rage fic -
I would love an angst trade where he calls reader clingy and she distances herself!
are you busy?
SUMMARY . . rafe gets exactly what he asks for when he calls you clingy in front of everyone and discovers that silence is a lot harder to live with than he expected.
AUTHOR’S NOTE . . 2144 words ( before edit ) ; i did use she/her pronouns for this ; did a little obsession spin on this because i feel like he’d actually become the version he saw you as before his little outburst, so a bit of irony. if anyone wats me to fulfill any more requests let me know !!
MAIN MASTERLIST | PART TWO REQUEST
the party stretches across the cameron property, spilling from the back patio and out toward the water where expensive boats rock gently against their slips. music drifts through air while people move in clusters.
you’ve spent the better part of the evening weaving through those groups looking for rafe, catching glimpses of him only long enough for somebody else to pull him away again before you can get more than a few words out of him.
when you finally spot him near the edge of the deck, talking to topper and a handful of other people, relief settles in your chest before you can stop it.
maybe it’s pathetic. maybe it isn’t. all you know is that finding him feels like finally being able to exhale after spending the last hour searching.
you make your way over without thinking twice, squeezing between a couple of people until you’re standing beside him, your shoulder brushing lightly against his arm as you tilt your head up toward him with a smile.
“there you are,” you say. “i’ve been looking for you.”
for a moment, he doesn’t answer. his jaw flexes instead while he stares out toward the water. you've seen him stressed at things that had absolutely nothing to do with you before. because of that, it takes a second to realize the look he finally turns on you isn’t aimed through you or past you. it’s aimed directly at you.
“can you relax?” he asks sharply.
the smile fades from your face. “what?”
“you’ve been looking for me all night.”
confusion settles over you immediately because the accusation feels so strange. of course you’ve been looking for him. he’s your boyfriend. he literally picked you up so you could be here tonight.
the idea that he’d be annoyed by that doesn’t even occur to you until you catch the way topper’s attention shifts between the two of you, along with the subtle quieting of the conversation around him.
“i mean, i was just trying to find you,” you tell him.
rafe smiles and runs his palm across his buzzed head, looking every bit as frustrated as he has all evening. except now, instead of whatever has been bothering him all day, all of that frustration seems to have landed squarely on your shoulders.
“no, that’s exactly what i’m talking about,” he says, “you’re always trying to find me.”
your stomach sinks. people are listening now, you know they are.
you can see it in the way conversations nearby begin to slow, or the way somebody glances over their shoulder before quickly looking away.
somehow none of that feels as important as the expression on rafe’s face, though. while everyone else fades into the background, your attention stays fixed entirely on him, searching for some indication that he’s going to stop, realize what he’s saying, and walk it back.
instead, he keeps going.
“you’re always texting me, always asking where i am, always asking what i’m doing,” he says, throwing one hand out in exasperation. “you don’t have to be attached to me every second of the day.”
your entire body gives a small involuntary flinch, not because he moves toward you or because you’re scared of him, but because hearing something like that from the person whose opinion matters most to you feels a little like missing a step in the dark.
you stare at him. that’s all you can do.
suddenly you’re replaying every interaction you’ve had over the past few months, wondering which part of it annoyed him this much.
was it the good morning texts? the calls? asking if he’d made it home safely after disappearing for hours? was it showing up when he asked you to? sitting beside him when he was in a bad mood? listening to him complain about his father, his life, his problems, and everything else? none of it had ever felt excessive to you. it had just felt like a relationship.
for the first time since you’ve known him, rafe seems to realize how bad what he said actually sounded, but just for a split second. the anger on his face falters slightly, uncertainty slipping through the cracks, but by then the damage is already done.
there are too many people standing around, too many eyes watching, and too much pride keeping either of you from pretending the moment never happened.
the lump in your throat makes it difficult to speak. still, you manage.
“okay.” the word comes out quiet enough that he almost doesn’t hear it. you don’t argue or try to defend yourself.
you simply nod once, forcing yourself to hold his gaze for another second before looking away, and somehow that hurts him far more than any argument probably would have. because for the first time all night, you’re not trying to reach him anymore.
the drive home that night is quieter than rafe expected, not because of what happened earlier. if anything, he almost wishes you were arguing back to him. arguments are familiar territory. he knows how to handle yelling and angry words and people fighting back.
what he doesn’t know how to handle is silence. after your small, quiet okay at the party, you never bring it up again.
you don’t ask him why he said it. you don’t just tell him he embarrassed you. you don’t even demand an apology or make him explain himself. you simply retreat into yourself, staring out the passenger window. a few times he glances over, almost expecting you to say something, but you never do.
eventually his grip tightens around the steering wheel as irritation replaces the guilt. if you’re upset, then be upset. if you’re angry, then say something. instead, you just sit there, and by the time he drops you off, he’s convinced himself the entire thing wasn’t nearly as bad as it felt.
the next morning feels strangely peaceful.
his phone isn’t lighting up every few hours. there isn’t a text waiting for him when he wakes up or a notification asking if he slept well, if he’s busy today, or if he wants to do something later.
at first, he barely notices. if anything, a part of him feels relieved.
isn't this what he wanted? space? room to breathe?
for the first couple of days, that’s exactly how he frames it in his head. he spends his time doing whatever he wants, going wherever he wants, and never once has to answer a question about where he’s been. every now and then he catches himself expecting a text to come through, but when it doesn’t, he simply tosses his phone aside and moves on.
it isn’t until the third day that the silence starts feeling less like freedom and more like something missing, because it isn’t just the texts. it’s everything.
it’s the fact that you don’t stop by tannyhill after being nearby, or that he doesn’t hear your name from rose asking if you’re coming over, or ward wondering if you’re joining them for dinner.
somehow you’d become woven into the routine of his life so gradually that he never noticed it happening, and now every missing piece sticks out.
he keeps expecting things to go back to normal on their own, and keeps expecting you to call first like you always do. he just keeps expecting you to show up, but each day passes exactly like the one before it.
then a week goes by. by that point, he’s checking his phone more than he’d ever admit out loud.
not texting you. he’s not that desperate. at least that’s what he tells himself. he’s just looking, just seeing if maybe you posted something, or if maybe you called while he wasn’t paying attention.
just seeing if maybe—
nothing.
which is why your name slips out so casually one afternoon that even he doesn’t realize he’s asking about you until it’s too late.
he’s sitting with topper and kelce outside the country club, all three of them halfway through a conversation that started about boats and somehow turned into making fun of one of the kook guys they know. laughter circles the table, and for a few minutes rafe almost forgets about the irritating little knot that’s been sitting in his chest all week.
then he reaches for his drink and says, “where’s y/n been?”
the laughter dies immediately. kelce blinks and topper looks up. for a second neither of them answers, because of all people, why would they know?
“what?” kelce asks.
rafe grins like he doesn’t understand. “what do you mean ‘what’?”
“you just asked where y/n’s been.”
“yeah.”
another pause. topper and kelce exchange a glance.
rafe immediately notices, and immediately hates it. “what?” he asks.
“nothing,” topper says.
“then answer the question.”
topper leans back slightly. “i don’t know. i think she was down at the wreck yesterday.”
rafe’s eyes narrow. “the wreck?”
“yeah.”
“with who?”
kelce lets out a short laugh. “how are we supposed to know?”
rafe ignores him, his attention staying fixed on topper.
topper shrugs. “some friends, i guess.”
“what friends?”
this time both of them stare at him, and rafe doesn’t understand why. the questions seem perfectly reasonable.
he’s your boyfriend, or at least he thinks he still is.
asking where you are shouldn’t feel weird, and asking who you’ve been spending time with shouldn’t earn him these looks. at least this is what he thinks in his own head.
“i don’t know, man,” topper says slowly. “i just heard she was there.”
rafe’s jaw tightens, “like, all day?”
“i guess.”
“she was there the day before too, then,” kelce adds. “pretty sure i saw her when i was driving through.”
that piece of information settles uncomfortably in rafe’s chest. so for the last two days, while he’s been sitting around waiting for some sign of life from you, you’ve apparently been out enjoying yourself.
the realization annoys him far more than it should. he tells himself it’s because it’s weird. maybe ‘cause it’s different. after months of knowing exactly where you are and what you’re doing, the sudden lack of information feels unfamiliar.
deep down, though, he knows that’s not the reason. the real reason is that he’d expected you to be upset and miss him. instead, every report he’s hearing now makes it sound like you’re doing perfectly fine without him.
that night, the thought follows him home, and then into his bedroom, and then into the early hours of the morning.
he ends up sprawled across his bed with one arm behind his head and his phone balanced against his chest, staring at the ceiling. every few minutes he unlocks his screen or checks the time. he finds himself opening the same apps for absolutely no reason before locking the phone again.
but eventually he gives up pretending. his thumb presses against your contact. he stares at your contact photo and the message thread that’s been dead for over a week. then he backs out, opens your location instead. the map loads.
you’re not home. his foot starts bouncing immediately. he tells himself he doesn’t care, he’s obviously only looking because he’s curious. right? because it’d be weird not to wonder. because—
you’re at the movies.
the realization irritates him instantly. movies with who? how many people are there with you? when did that plan even get made? how come he didn’t know about it?
his thumb pinches the screen, zooming in on the little circle as if the answer might magically appear if he looks hard enough, but he knows it doesn’t. all it tells him is that you’re somewhere having fun. somewhere that isn’t with him.
every bit of these thoughts trace back to one stupid night and one stupid argument that he can’t stop replaying no matter how badly he wants to. because the more he thinks about it, the more details come back - the way you’d looked at him and didn’t argue. you’d just looked hurt.
rafe shifts against the headboard. your location is still pulled up on his screen, somewhere near the beach tonight, probably with friends.
his jaw tightens, loosens, then tightens again. it almost makes him angry. reaching out means admitting something, that he was wrong and that he misses hearing from you.
eventually, the silence wins. or maybe it loses. he isn’t sure anymore. all he knows is that his thumb finally presses against the keyboard.
he starts typing something longer before deleting it immediately, starts again, then deletes that too. nothing sounds right. in the end, he settles on the only thing he can manage.
rafe stares at the message for a second before he finally hits send. the delivered notification appears almost instantly, and for the first time in weeks, the waiting belongs to him.
‘ are you busy? ’
and just seconds later, your read receipts pick up below his message.
CW: harry is a hot shot ceo, and y/n is his shy, new PA! minors please dni!!! enjoy!! longer an at the end!
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He made the familiar walk to his office, hand stuffed into his pocket and phone secure between his fingers. The lights were on, from what he could see from the outside, and the blurred glass made way for a figure standing right by his desk. Confusion lurked in Harry’s head as he wondered who could possibly be in his office without his permission. Without a second thought, he threw the door open and walked right in, “who are you?”
His voice was gruff and cold, a complete opposite to the sugary sight before him. Stood by his desk was a girl— a very pretty one, in fact. Big, round eyes looked at him, resembling a deer, and a plush mouth was left agape as she eyed him up and down. She was wearing a sweet ensemble; a pretty pastel blue dress that fell just past mid-thigh and had a tiny slit on it. Her hair was swept back over her neck, tamed and neat.
He lingered his gaze on her as she straightened up from where she was bent over his desk and cleared her throat, “hi, Mr. Styles, it’s nice to finally meet you,” she extended a hand for him to shake, “I’m Y/N. Your new assistant.” The slight rise and fall of her chest gave her nerves away but her eye-contact never faltered. Her hand was warm and soft when he took it, and only then did the last-minute text from Mitch come back to him.
By the way, you’ve got a new assistant starting this week. Be nice to her.
This was her. Of course. He gave her a firm handshake, “Harry.”
Y/N never thought life after university would be like this. When she first pursued her bachelors in business degree, she had dreamt of a future where right after graduation, she’d be offered all these hot-shot jobs and she’d go on to become a big, powerful business woman. Some might think this dream of hers was far-fetched and unrealistic, but when you graduate from a highly prestigious university, first class with honours, well, it’s at least a little bit fair to have such expectations.
She worked her ass off when she was still in school— nailing every exam and assignment, doing summer internships and for a moment she thought about applying for a masters degree, but that was quickly shot down when Y/N checked in on her accruing student debt. She might pursue it some time down the road, but for now, her main goal was to get out of this shit-hole of a cafe where she worked and get her ass to a big firm, just like she was promised by all the career counsellors at university.
She was applying consistently to a million different firms, and at this point, she’d be happy if she could even be a receptionist at one of them. She had exhausted all of her connections made in university in hopes of anyone linking her to a decent job, but she turned up with no luck as of yet.
She had been working at Bluebird cafe all throughout her degree and she was working there even now, seven months post graduating. Disappointment welled deep in her guts every time she saw herself in that same old uniform and cap, greeting the same customers and making do with the same lousy cheque.
It was another dreadful morning at said cafe when Y/N was preparing a humongous order for at least twenty six people. She assumed it was for an office or corporation, judging by the jittery young man who placed the order at the counter. He read carefully off a piece of paper every single order and made Y/N recite it back to him to ensure the drinks were perfect. He ended up handing the paper to Y/N so she could once again make sure everything was according to the requests, and it was on the paper Y/N recognised the prestigious navy logo stamped on the top right.
Grapejuice Inc.
One of the biggest textile corporations in the world, run by the famous Styles’ family. Y/N could only dream of a job there. It was suddenly understandable why the young man was nervous before her. The drinks must probably be for a big, senior meeting or something.
Y/N took her time perfecting them, writing the details of each order on the cups to make it easier for the man to allocate them. She slowly placed them in six separate paper cartons, stacking them on top of each other carefully. The man sighed graciously and took the bag from her hand ever so slowly before walking out of the cafe. She sighed, wiping her hands on her black apron. Behind her, Niall enthused out loud, “how much d’ya think they pay the poor boy to get ‘em their morning drinks?”
Y/N turned to face him, watching him rinse out the alternate milk blender, “probably thousands. It’s a huge company.” Niall hummed, “maybe. But usually such prissies have a hard time paying their employees well.”
Y/N was distracted by an order that pinged on their little UberEats tablet, and started prepping the two drinks and almond croissant. She hummed at his response. “Prissies or not, they’re one of the most influential corporations in the world.”
Niall nudged her shoulder and smirked, “don’t go around licking their asses already. They haven’t hired ya yet.”
”Ha. Let’s all make fun of my inability to find a proper job, now,” she mumbled sarcastically. She took her anger out on the oven door, slamming it shut after she put the croissant in there to warm up. Niall wiped his hands on a towel and rubbed them up and down her arms, comforting her, “hey c’mon, babe,” he said gently, noticing her frustrated frown. Seeing that man working for such an amazing corporation made her slightly jealous. It was a sour, unpleasant feeling which Y/N hated. Niall pulled her into his chest in the empty cafe, save for another employee, Mina, who wiped down the tables.
”They’re missing out on the biggest brain in the city,” he flicked her cap playfully, “the right job will come along, I know it. Don’t worry your pretty head over it.”
Y/N appreciated the comfort, leaning into him. She was grateful for his presence, and for his reassuring touch that grounded her. He pulled back and pinched her cheek playfully, “cheer up, buttercup. We’ve got lattes to make for abusive boomers!”
Y/N sighed. She only prayed that Niall's previous words had some truth to them.
-
That night when she got home, Y/N followed her usual routine of feeding her cat Pebble and then turning the shower on, waiting for it to warm up. In the meantime she prepped for dinner and picked out her pyjamas. Once she was all showered and fed, she climbed into bed and pulled out her laptop to do her nightly job search. Numerous sites were searched, Linkedin was scowered and her CV was passed around like a blunt at a party.
She might have applied for a position at Grapejuice Inc, in her sleep-driven haze. It might have been an assistant position for one of their senior management… could have been the Secretary… or the CEO. She doesn’t remember, as she passed out in front of her computer screen, the light glowing and illuminating her peaceful features.
-
When Y/N was in high school many years ago, she met a boy named Landon. They were both in the same Art History class, and the teacher paired them up for a project where they had to analyse and present on a popular period piece. She ended up spending long hours with him during the week, and Y/N being the hormonal teenage girl she was, fell for Landon’s shaggy blonde hair and toothy grin. He was sweet and caring, taller than her and called Y/N ‘sweets’ and four months after they first met, he asked her to be his girlfriend and took her out on her first date.
Landon had taken most of her firsts. He was the only boyfriend she ever had and the only person she ever kissed, but that was it. They never did anything beyond that. The most they ever dabbled in was maybe a hand on her ass or slipping under her shirt to touch her tummy while they made out, but it was never anything more. Y/N blamed the distance for that.
After high school, both Y/N and Landon had big dreams for university. They both wanted to go to one of the big schools, but the problem was that the one Y/N wanted to go to was ten hours away from the one Landon got into. Education was something that was important to both of them, so compromising it for the sake of their relationship was out of the question. They decided to make do with the distance and promised to each other they would remain loyal despite the land that separated them.
It was hard at times, especially in university when all of Y/N’s friends were able to go out and bring whoever they wanted home, date different people and have new experiences while she sat feeling lame because she missed her boyfriend. They still made an effort to try and see each other— oftentimes during semester breaks Y/N would visit Landon and Landon would try to visit Y/N. It was those fleeting days that kept Y/N sane during the course of their relationship.
She spoke to him everyday still, texting him little updates of her day, and he’d text her his. They called every couple of days, though they were pretty short since they were out of words to say thanks to their texts.
Y/N knew that Landon was currently working at his new job as a junior editor after he graduated with his English degree. She was happy for him, of course, but his new commitment meant she was hearing less and less from him. Although there were the daily ‘good morning’ and ‘good night’ texts, these days she was seldom seeing those as well.
It was her day off today, a quiet Tuesday afternoon where Y/N decided to go to the farmers market a little ways from her apartment. She was sitting down at a small restaurant, a cold drink battling the summer heat resting in her hand, but her attention was somewhere else. Her lip was abused under her teeth as she typed up a message to Landon. She missed talking to him, and was penning all her frustrations and thoughts in a long paragraph when she was interrupted by her phone ringing.
The phone number was unfamiliar, making Y/N’s eyebrows furrow. She answered it cautiously. “Hello?”
”Good morning, am I speaking with Miss Y/N L/N?”
Confusion crept upon her. “Yes, this is her.”
”Hi, Miss L/N. This is Mitch Rowland calling from Grapejuice Inc, how are you today?”
Now that rendered Y/N speechless. Her heart dropped and her mouth fell open in surprise. The sound of a child shouting nearby shook her from her thoughts as she regained her consciousness and straightened up, “I’m well, how are you?”
”Pretty alright. Listen, we saw your application for senior assistant to the Chief Executive Officer and loved your CV. How are you placed for an interview sometime this week? Say, Thursday at nine?”
Y/N could not believe the words she was hearing through the phone. She wanted to scream and dance and hug this Mitch guy all at the same time. Her cheeks heated up and a big smile spread across her face, “yes! Thank you for calling me, of course, Thursday at nine is perfect.”
”Great! I’ll text you the address. You can come straight to the reception. Sheila will have your name and will let you through to the interview room. I look forward to meeting you.”
Y/N wished him a confident ‘me too’ and said goodbye, her heart still racing. She took a moment to bask in the reality of the situation. It felt so surreal— Y/N only ever dreamed of getting to work in such an amazing corporation, that too at such an amazing position.
Suddenly, the sun wasn’t harsh like before and her drink was sweeter. The chatter of children nearby made her feel peaceful instead of irritated. She didn’t even find it in herself to care about Landon’s lack of communication as she excitedly dialled Niall’s phone and screamed the news into his unsuspecting ear. An unfamiliar sense of hope filled her heart. Maybe things would finally start to look up for Y/N.
-
The two days leading up to Thursday were the longest ever. Y/N was nervous and excited at the same time, jittery while she was at the cafe serving customers. Niall hyped Y/N up, mumbled a million ‘I told you so’s and tried to ease her nerves when she went on and on about what she should say at the interview.
She asked Mina to cover her Thursday morning shift and ran to the mall the night before to browse for a new blazer, wanting to dress professional but also cute. It was also a million degrees out, so she would probably only wear the blazer indoors for an hour or two, depending on how long the interview was.
She still hadn’t texted Landon about it. Maybe once the job was secured she would, but she didn’t want to get his hopes up just to shatter them if things somehow did not work out.
The morning of, Y/N was too nauseous to eat anything. She usually got that way when she was nervous or anticipating something, so her lack of appetite didn’t come as a shock. The top she wore clung to her body nicely, a light pink colour which matched the kitten heels she had on. The blazer and skirt were of the same dark grey colour, complementing each other nicely. She felt pretty with her hair done neatly and makeup light. Hopefully she made a good impression on Mitch and whoever she met.
Driving to the office was somewhat of a dream. Y/N never thought she would be in this position, especially with how things were looking the past few months. Constant disappointment almost rendered her hopeless, but she was proud of herself for sticking through it. Now, she prayed that she got the job and could finally stand on her own feet, with a job she rightfully earned. She felt giddy thinking about what it would be like if she got the job. She would hand in her notice to the cafe immediately. Then she’d call her mum and Landon. They would be so happy for her, she just knew it.
The place was gigantic— an intimidating building that loomed over her jittery body. Y/N stared up at it. It had to be at least forty storeys. She took a deep breath and mustered up the courage to walk in, a smile gracing her features. Following Mitch’s instructions, Y/N went straight up to the lavish reception and caught Sheila’s attention. Sheila, who was gorgeous; long brown hair cascading down her back, and adorned in a baby blue dress. She flashed Y/N a friendly smile. “Hi! How can I help?”
”Hi, my name’s Y/N. I’m here for an interview. Mitch called me,” Y/N said. a look of recognition came across Sheila’s face as she grinned, “of course. It’s nice to meet you, Y/N. Just follow me through here.” Grapejuice Inc was just as grand on the inside as it was on the outside— immaculate architecture and wide, open spaces. There were large windows on all walls allowing sunlight to filter into the space, brightening up the area. Y/N followed Sheila to the elevator, “it’s the twenty second floor, fourth door to your right,” she informed Y/N easily.
Doing as she was told, Y/N soon found herself outside of a large room with double doors. The hallway she was standing in was mostly empty, littered with artwork on both sides. It felt like no one was even on the floor, silence flooding the area. As soon she thought about knocking on the doors, they swung open and she was met with a tall, brunette man.
He had long hair which was tied back neatly, and he smiled warmly at Y/N, “you must be Y/N,” he said, “my name’s Mitch. We spoke on the phone a couple of days ago.”
Y/N grinned and held out her hand, “right. Nice to meet you in person.” His handshake was solid— professional and perfected as he guided her into the room. It was a large room with a long conference table in the middle. On one side a bunch of papers were scattered. That was probably where Mitch was sitting. He motioned for her to take a seat across from him. A jug of water rested on the table along with a paper and pen. Y/N bit her nails into her palm to ground herself.
“Sorry about the mess. I’ve been doing these interviews all morning,” he started sheepishly. Y/N waved him away, “that’s okay. Don’t have to apologise.” Mitch cleared his throat, “let’s get started then…”
-
The interview ran for about an hour and a half. Y/N felt like Mitch was eating away at her brain, throwing a million questions at her at such a fast rate. She tried her best to answer diligently, taking her time to really think through what he was saying to give the best possible response. Y/N knew such opportunities were hard to come by, and she wanted to make the best of it.
The job he was describing was mostly administration stuff; keeping track of the CEO, Mr. Styles’, meetings, planning his trips, scheduling, filing, invoicing, organising. All the things she had mastered at school and during her internships. Mitch wanted Y/N to meet Mr. Styles in person, but he was away for a business conference in Japan.
“Well, all I can say right now is that I’m really glad I called you, Miss L/N,” he said, resting his hands on the table, “this has been great.”
Y/N felt her face heating and smiled gingerly, “thank you.”
“I know we spoke about this plenty, but keep this job description,” Mitch slid a piece of paper her way across the table, “feel free to familiarise yourself with it. I’ll have a chat with the team and let you know about the outcome of this interview latest by Monday.” He got up and held the door open for her, “thanks for coming in.”
Y/N shook his hand again and bid him goodbye, giddy as she walked out of the interview room and into the elevator. The sheet of paper was clutched between her fingers and she let out a deep breath. Although the interview was tiring, she was feeling hopeful about the job. Mitch was great and helpful, answering all of her questions easily and explaining the role to her in depth. She waved goodbye to Sheila and made her way out of the building, and when she was finally in the confines of her car, she squealed to herself; everything was slowly falling into place, and she couldn’t be more grateful.
-
Friday at three PM Y/N was at the cafe, mindlessly wiping down the counter. A startled Niall walked in from the back, “Y/N your phone was ringing. T’was an unknown number but I think they left an email or something.”
Y/N turned around in confusion. She saw as Niall stared down at her illuminating screen and tried to take her phone from him, “what? Who is it?” He furrowed his eyebrows, “it’s from someone called Mitch Rowland. I think… I think you got the job.” Her eyes widened, “you’re joking. Show me.”
He passed her the phone, and there it was. An email from Mitch. She read it over and over and over. Tears brimmed in her eyes as she realised she wasn’t dreaming. Y/N was going to be working at Grapejuice Inc. They wanted her as soon as possible.
Niall saw her dazed face and squeezed her tightly, his arms near suffocating her, “I told you! I knew you could do it, so fucking smart you are,” he kissed her hair, “I’m so happy for you, pet. They’re gonna love you.” She peeled back from his chest and looked at him with her tear-soaked face, “I can’t believe this is actually happening,” she laughed in disbelief, “this whole thing feels like a dream.”
-
If Harry didn’t know any better, he could probably be convinced that this was what heaven felt like.
The way he jabbed into the back of the pretty girl’s throat had him throwing his head back and moaning uncontrollably, and he felt like an angel was personally taking his hand and leading him to eden. His palm came down on the kitchen counter in front of him, the other hand weaving into her hair to pull her further on his cock, “oh, fuck me.” The girl beneath him, Sophie, gagged around him loudly and then popped off of him, strings of her saliva connecting her to him. She smirked up at him, twisting her hand over his length as she gave her mouth a break.
“Yeah? You like the way I suck your di—”
He didn’t bother to hear the end of her poorly executed attempt at dirty talk and groaned, shoving her back on his cock. The action took her by surprise, and a wet filthy sound came from her throat as she swallowed around him desperately. Harry whimpered a little, head falling back on his shoulders. He held her there for about twenty seconds, throbbing in her mouth and letting his hair tickle her nose. When he saw tears prickle in her eyes, he decided to let her off for a bit. He loosened his grip on her hair and opted to softly scratch his nails against her scalp as she returned to bobbing her head.
It didn’t take much longer after that to make him come, a train of curses falling from his mouth as he held onto the counter tightly and whined, “fuck, fuck— Sophie, fu—” Hot, white ropes of his come spilled into her mouth which she took in willingly, eyes screwed shut and tongue out. He came for a while, and he came a lot; some of it dripping down the side of her mouth and on her chin. When he was finally done, his hand in her hair slipped to her jaw which he held tightly, prying her lips open.
Harry let a glob of his spit fall into her mouth, mixing in with his come on the well of her tongue. Sophie whined highly as he did, and moaned when Harry slapped her right cheek, soft enough that it didn’t seriously hurt her but hard enough that the zap went straight to her clit. He pushed her cheeks together and closed her mouth, “swallow.”
She did so obediently, before Harry backed up and let her stand to her full height. His eyes raked shamelessly over her figure, adorned in nothing but his office button up, legs bare and chin spit-slicked. Her blonde locks were a mess as she put her hands on his chest and giggled, “did you like that?”
Harry pulled her wrists off and thumbed at her cheek, “mhmm. I have to go to work,” he told her. Sophie pouted, “can’t you take one day off? You must be so tired after such a long flight…,” she ran her clean hand through his curls, “don’t go today? For me?”
He could have laughed in her face for that. If she thought she was anything more than an easy fuck for him, she was sorely mistaken. It didn’t matter that he had known her for over a year now— Harry didn’t date or commit. He hadn’t for a couple of years now. One night stands and fuck-buddies were more than enough to satiate his needs.
Sophie frowned when he stepped away from her and pulled his pyjama pants back up over his hips. He sighed, “I can’t stay, Sophie, I’ve a company to run.” She huffed and stomped her foot like a child, “but I missed you so much, H.” Her voice was nasally, suddenly annoying him to no end, especially when she tried to wrap her arms around him again. Harry dodged her and picked up his phone instead. “This was nice, Soph, but you have to go. I’ll call you a car and have Jared drop you off,” he patted her hip, “talk soon.”
He didn’t wait to hear her response and slipped upstairs to his large bedroom, shutting and locking the door in case she tried to follow him up. He really was tired and jet-lagged after the twelve hour flight. A couple of days off might do him some good, but as much as he hated to admit it, he was a workaholic who would choose a productive day at the office over a day off ninety percent of the time. He took a quick shower and got dressed, tugging on a crisp, dry-cleaned navy blue suit. His eyes flitted about his room as he sprayed on some cologne.
The sheets were awry and there were silk ties hanging off his headboard. Memories of the past night flooded his mind as he put on his cuff-links and gelled his hair. The way she felt around him, wet and soft, gushing on his cock. The way she tasted and writhed beneath him, coming over and over until Harry had to tie her down and force her to take what he gave her. Fucking her over and over again, bruise marks on her round ass, a warm mouth wrapped around his cock. It really was a lot of fun.
After making sure he had his phone and wallet, Harry rushed down the stairs and was glad to see that Sophie had left. At least he was safe from another awkward goodbye where she would whine about her feelings for him and he would have to let her down gently. She kept saying Harry was leading her on, but he didn’t see how.
He told Sophie from the beginning that he only wanted sex and she was fine with it. The first time she alluded to any sort of feelings, Harry told her he wasn’t interested in that way. She was hurt and she cried a bit, (which was Harry’s worst nightmare because he really had no idea how to react in situations like that), but she still showed up the next time he called her. He just assumed she was over him. Harry was a huge perfectionist, and if he wanted a relationship, he would have to put a lot of time and effort into it for it to be the sort he was looking for; time that he unfortunately did not have, since he was so busy making sure Grapejuice Inc ran smoothly.
As he left, he made sure to leave a note on his fridge for his cleaner letting her know that his sheets needed changing and the clothes on the floor needed to be dry cleaned. He put down what he wanted the chef to meal-prep for and called the elevator to go down to his car. He lived in the top floor penthouse apartment of a luxury accommodation in the middle of the city— a location which was convenient for him in more ways than one. It was close to where he worked, and he enjoyed the hustle and bustle of the city below him. The large windows in his place were his favourite since he could people-watch all he wanted (and he enjoyed the occasional fuck against it when it was dark enough).
He greeted Tomas, his driver, as he pulled the door open and let Harry into the car. They made small talk and Harry asked Tomas about his son who just started high school and his wife who was battling an illness. Tomas was Harry’s father’s driver as well, and he watched Harry grow up in front of him. He would drive Harry to daycare when he was a baby, soccer practice when he was a schoolboy, concerts when he was a teenager and now here he was, driving him to the same office he used to drive his father to. Harry felt oddly connected to Tomas, and couldn’t let him go no matter how much his age persisted.
They reached the building pretty quick and Harry thanked Tomas as he stepped out. Sheila smiled and greeted him as he walked in, and every cubicle he passed on his way to the elevator mumbled a ‘good morning, Sir.’
He made the familiar walk to his office, hand stuffed into his pocket and phone secure between his fingers. The lights were on, from what he could see from the outside, and the blurred glass made way for a figure standing right by his desk. Confusion lurked in Harry’s head as he wondered who could possibly be in his office without his permission. Without a second thought, he threw the door open and walked right in, “who are you?”
His voice was gruff and cold, a complete opposite to the sugary sight before him. Stood by his desk was a girl— a very pretty one, in fact. Big, round eyes looked at him, resembling a deer, and a plush mouth was left agape as she eyed him up and down. She was wearing a sweet ensemble; a pretty pastel blue dress that fell just past mid-thigh and had a tiny slit on it. Her hair was swept back over her neck, tamed and neat, perfect for an office atmosphere.
He lingered his gaze on her as she straightened up from where she was bent over his desk and cleared her throat, “hi, Mr. Styles, it’s nice to finally meet you,” she extended a hand for him to shake, “I’m Y/N. Your new assistant.” The slight rise and fall of her chest gave her nerves away but her eye-contact never faltered. Her hand was warm and soft when he took it, and only then did the last-minute text from Mitch come back to him.
By the way, you’ve got a new assistant starting this week. Be nice to her.
This was her. Of course. He gave her a firm handshake, “Harry.”
She smiled at him softly, a strand of her hair falling over her eye. Harry itched to tuck it behind her ear, maybe feel how soft her skin might be under her jaw, but he refrained. “I was just sorting out some of your files. I know you’ve been away so I—”
“What did you touch?”
He spoke sharply, eyebrows furrowed as he set his phone down on his desk and sat on his chair. “Just the documents in the filing drawers. I didn’t touch your desk, don’t worry.” Harry hummed. He watched as she stood in the middle of the room, twiddling her hands behind her back, “I… I colour coded and arranged them alphabetically. Cleaned up your schedule and added the reminders feature to your Teams as well,” she trailed off. She took his silence as her queue to continue. “I also re-recorded your voicemail for the phone and—”
“You can clean whatever you want, just don’t touch my desk. I take my coffee at nine, black, no milk and no sugar. Nine-fifteen, you’ll be in my office with my schedule. You will take orders from me and me only, and I should not have to buzz you twice if I need to see you. You’re off when I say you’re off, and don’t worry about lunch breaks, I tend to have them outside.”
He explained all this sternly, eyes sturdy and fixated on her. She let out a quiet breath and nodded, firm, “Noted. I’ll…” she glanced at the clock above his head. 8:47AM. “I’ll go and get your coffee, sir.”
With that, she smiled once again and scurried out of the room. Harry could tell she was a sweet little thing, just eager to please. Maybe it would be nice to have a pretty face in the office. His days might become less dull. He knew she was getting paid a lot for this job as his assistant, so he had a lot of expectations from her too. Hopefully she could bring a little warmth to his frigid reputation.
-
As the days passed with Y/N acting as Harry’s senior assistant, he had come to realise she executed the role much better than most of his previous assistants. The instructions he gave to her on the first day she seemed to have tattooed on her heart, and she stuck to them diligently. His coffee was at his desk everyday at nine sharp, she had a printed schedule she would read to him and then leave with him once she was done, she would organise some new cabinet of his or folder in his emails everyday and she was on top of his meetings and notes. Harry thought he might have to take Mitch out for a drink or something for managing to hire such an efficient assistant for him.
On top of all that, she had a pretty face which Harry occasionally enjoyed to ogle at. Though he wasn’t one to mix business and pleasure, he figured a little eye-candy never hurt anyone. It was not like he would ever act upon it, no matter how badly he wanted to bend her over his desk and fuck the life out of her.
Today was one such day as she came in wearing a tiny little red dress and matching heels. It was like she walked right out of a hot office fantasy, pencil in her hair and glasses on her nose. She was wearing a blazer on top earlier, but she took it off soon after arriving at work.
When she was reading out his schedule and setting his coffee on his desk, Harry struggled to not stare shamelessly at her figure which filled out the dress just perfectly. A few minutes in, she dropped a pencil on the floor and Harry felt like a teenage boy seeing boobs for the first time as she bent to pick it up.
Unsurprisingly, her pretty face didn’t go unnoticed by many. He realised that when they went into the monthly Senior Leadership Team meeting today, and most of the managers and team directors said hello to her tits first and then her face. It wasn’t even like the dress was provocative in any way— it was summer and a gazillion degrees out, Harry didn’t expect her to walk in wearing a wool jumper and sweats. Plus, the dress did cover most of her skin, it was just her legs that were bare, and that was only a little before her knees. Although Harry did think she was gorgeous (particularly today) he didn’t stare so blatantly and deliberately make her uncomfortable.
Once they said their greetings to everyone, Y/N settled in next to Harry with her notebook and pen on the table before her. He could smell her since she was right beside him, warm vanilla and caramel, a sweet scent that could put him to sleep. She was really testing him today, and the worst part was that Harry didn’t think she knew she even had that effect on him and almost everyone she met.
She asked him if he was okay when he didn’t move for a bit, to which Harry clenched his jaw and nodded tightly. Willing away his scandalous thoughts, Harry cleared his throat and pulled open the meeting notes Y/N prepared for him beforehand, “I hope you’re all having a good morning,” he looked around the room, “we’ve got a couple of important things to go over today, so make sure you’ve got your ears open. I need fresh ideas on the table…”
He listed off the BAU for the week and they went around the table to hear monthly updates from each of the department heads. Y/N penned every important detail vigorously with her lip between her teeth, but one particular discussion had her ears perking up. “I think it’s better if we stick to our suppliers in China and Bangladesh. It’s cost efficient and we’re meeting all of our KPIs,” one of the team members spoke up. Harry watched as another retorted, “I understand that it’s cost efficient, but we have to draft our yearly financial report in two months where we have to talk about our suppliers and sustainability. Large shipments of textiles every year is anything but.”
Next to him, he could feel Y/N’s nervousness wafting off in waves as she sat up straight and cleared her throat. Her soft voice quietly followed, “I… I think we can try switching to internal suppliers instead of external,” she glanced around the room looking for reassurance and settled her eyes on Harry who nodded at her. Although it wasn’t in her exact line of work to advise on this matter, she was still a valued member of the team who brought new input to the company. She continued, “it would be good for our brand image and we won’t have to fabricate our annual report. It’ll be ethical and sustainable, and that’s what consumers are looking for nowadays. We can even market it a—”
“Who are you?” Jerry, one of the team heads, suddenly cut her off. His eyes dug daggers into hers as he raised his brows. Y/N stuttered, “Y/N…I—I’m Mr. Styles’ senior assistant. I just had a few ide—”
“Save it,” he raised his palm, dismissing her thought, “I was thin—”
Harry’s loud voice cut Jerry off, “I believe Miss L/N was saying something before you so rudely interrupted her, Jerry. I do not permit anyone but me to give orders to any of my personal staff. Next time, I suggest you learn how to respect your peers in a meeting before walking into an esteemed room such as this.”
Y/N’s chest rose and fell nervously as she watched the exchange with wide eyes. Jerry immediately dropped his shoulders and darted his eyes away from both Harry and Y/N, now looking down at his notebook, “apologies, Mr. Styles.”
“Don’t apologise to me. Apologise to her.”
Now it was Jerry’s turn to have wide eyes as he looked at Y/N, “but she’s a—”
“We don’t have a lot of time here.”
A few moments passed as Y/N twiddled with her hands and looked at Harry before looking back at Jerry who didn’t meet her eyes as he quietly mumbled, “sorry.” She smiled softly. “It’s okay.” Harry could feel the heat radiating off of her; her face had gone pink and she was squirmy under the attention of the whole meeting room. He decided to close the chapter, “good. Keep these etiquettes in mind next time you walk into another meeting. Y/N, draft your initiative and send it to Analytics. I want to see the pros and cons of switching to internal suppliers by next week. You’re all dismissed.”
-
The whole exchange at the meeting had Y/N’s heart beating like crazy as they left the conference room. “Are you okay?” Harry checked in on her as they walked to his office. “Yep.”
She didn’t want to bother Harry with her anxious thoughts and worry him more than he already was as a CEO of such a big company. Her heart was still racing, “I’m gonna go for a quick walk,” she told Harry before grabbing her phone and heading to the elevators. Hopefully a little fresh air would do her some good. As she stepped outside into the bustling city, she took a deep breath and began walking to the courtyard where there was a big water fountain. She liked sitting by it and hearing the pitter-patter of the water. Her phone pinged when she sat down. It was Landon. The notification made her heart drop just slightly. Ever since she told him about her new job, he had been very distant. There was an initial excitement, but then he asked her how much she was getting paid. That’s when things went downhill. Grapejuice Inc was a big firm, and she had an important position. Her bank account was going to fatten up a little, but his reaction just had her a little disappointed.
Plus he kept asking her all these questions about the people she worked with, and not in a cool, interesting way. It was very stalker-ish and accusatory. She didn’t like it one bit. With a sigh, she ignored the message and shut her eyes, feeling the breeze against her face and trying to forget what happened in the meeting today.
-
About a week later, Y/N finally began feeling more comfortable in her role. She was getting to know Harry’s needs better and better as the days passed, and she tried her best to exceed his expectations as much as she could. Ever since he stood up for her in the meeting, she felt like she owed him that at least. It had been a long week at the office, with Harry slipping in and out of meetings which Y/N had to join him for, so she was particularly happy today as the week ended and the weekend approached.
She set her stuff down on her desk when they walked out of the last meeting of the week, “I’m just gonna get a coffee really quick. Did you want anything?” Harry was distracted by his phone, his eyes never straying as he walked past her.
“I’m alright, thanks,” he replied. Once he was in the confines in his office, Y/N let out a deep breath. Her hands slid down her skirt as she made her way to the office kitchen on the third floor, walking in to see a handful of people heating up lunches and waiting for the coffee machine. She reached up to get a cup and was startled when she suddenly felt a presence behind her.
A very unladylike yelp left her mouth as she turned to see the same guy she saw at Bluebird cafe a couple of weeks ago. “I’m so sorry, I didn't mean to startle you!”
She held a hand to her chest and closed her eyes, a long breath escaping her lips, “you scared the living daylights out of me.” The man chuckled and backed up giving her space to lean back against the counter. “Sorry… though the sound you made was quite funny.” Y/N rolled her eyes and faked a dry laugh.
He grinned as he looked at her, before she saw his eyes narrowing, “wait, you’re the girl from the cafe a while ago. You made those twenty six drinks for the annual conference.” Y/N watched as realisation dawned upon him and he examined her like she was a bug under a microscope, “yeah. I remember you, mister so-nervous-I’m-shaking.” She watched as his cheeks turned pink. He looked down, making his dark hair flop over his forehead, “yeah. It was a big meeting, but they all really liked the drinks, so thank you for that.” It was then Y/N noticed how tall he was, towering over her with his brown eyes peering down at her.
“No problem. It was kind of my job at the time so…” Y/N turned to use the coffee machine, leaving him still blushing and staring at his shoes. She followed the prompts on the machine until her desired coffee poured out of the snout. “You’re Mr. Styles’ new assistant aren’t you?” He asked from behind her. Y/N hummed and nodded. “What’s your name?”
He giggled again, “oh right. I totally forgot to introduce myself. I’m Logan, I’m an administration coordinator.” Logan held out a hand for her to shake which she took, smiling, “nice to meet you, Logan. I’m Y/N.”
“I heard about what happened in the meeting last week,” this had Y/N turning around fully to look at him, an eyebrow raised, “word travels surprisingly fast in an office like this.”
“Oh.” She didn’t know what he expected her to say after making that statement. She kind of hated that the first thing he associated her job title to was the speck of drama that went down in the meeting. Her heart hurt a little— she wanted to be recognised for more than just some petty spectacle.
Next to Y/N, another girl stood by the second coffee machine. She must have been listening to their conversation because she spoke up first, “we all heard what happened. Not gonna lie, it was a little bit shocking to hear that Mr. Styles told Jerry off for talking down to an assistant. He usually loves Jerry.”
Y/N’s lips parted, “he didn’t tell anyone off, he just… told him to somtimes let other people have the floor in meetings. It’s common manners.”
The girl smirked, “Mr. Styles doesn’t do that for just anyone. He’s very… cold.” Y/N furrowed her brows, “I don’t understand what you’re trying to say to me.” The blonde only scoffed and flicked her hair over her shoulder, “oh, I think it’s very clear what I’m trying to say. One doesn’t just score a job like yours and become Mr. Styles’ favourite little pet,” she raked her eyes up and down Y/N’s body, “compensation has to be… paid, somehow.”
What she was implying had Y/N’s stomach churning. Not only did she feel utterly disgusted at such an accusation, but she was hurt beyond belief. The words were disrespectful and not true. Y/N did not work her ass off to get into Grapejuice Inc just for it to be reduced to nothing by some employee.
Just as she was going to retort back with something fiery, a deep voice beat her to it, “I hope this little party is about the new marketing strategy your team is implementing, Becca.” Y/N turned to see Harry standing in the doorway of the kitchen, arms crossed over his chest. The blonde girl— Becca’s eyes widened, “Mr. Styles! Yes, I was just asking Logan ab—”
“I hate a fibber.”
Becca stammered over her words. “Sorry, Mr. Styles. I was just getting back to my desk.”
“Good,” Harry said, stopping her in her tracks, “I also hate petty gossip, especially in my office. If I hear another word of false accusations about anyone from anyone’s mouth, you’ll be hearing from HR.”
Y/N raised her brows at his comment and saw how Logan passed her a look of surprise as well. Becca mumbled a ‘sorry’ and left the kitchen soon after, scurrying past Harry. He didn’t even spare a glance her way as he looked at Y/N. “Get back to work.”
“Yes, Mr. Styles.” She told Logan goodbye before leaving the kitchen. Her coffee was clutched tightly in her hands the whole way to her desk as she wondered what the fuck her day had been.
-
It was later on the same day as Y/N sat at her desk with her head in her hands. She had a long tiring day running around in meetings and scheduling appointments for next week. Plus, Becca’s earlier comments still weighed heavy in her mind. The words affected her more than she would like to admit. On top of all of that, Landon was still being cold over text. He gave her one-word answers after leaving her on delivered for ages. She was wracking her brain trying to figure out why he was acting this way— was it jealousy? Or did he just miss her? She hoped it was the latter.
Her head was pounding and she glanced at the clock to see it was six PM. Way past her home time. She just had so much to do. The pressure got to her head as she dug her fingers into her scalp, trying to relieve some pain. Things only got worse when she felt tears prickle her eyes and spill past her waterline. She just felt so stupid.
She felt pathetic crying at her workplace and letting her tears stain her to-do list which was littered with a bunch of little tasks. Taking a few breaths to contain herself, she didn’t even notice when Harry stepped out of his office for a breather. Her sniffling caught his attention. “Miss L/N? What are you still doing here?”
She quickly wiped her tears and straightened up, “I was just finishing a few things up,” she mumbled. She kept her head low but Harry saw right through her. The whole building was dark and quiet as everyone had gone home. The only light on her desk was from her lamp. Harry leaned against it and looked down at Y/N. “Y/N,” he called her by her first name, “what’s wrong? Are you… are you crying?”
A dry chuckle left her mouth. Her wet eyes met his and his shoulders deflated. This was his nightmare situation. He was the worst at comforting people. His hips shifted nervously. “A—are you alright?”
“Clearly no.” She shook her head and looked down into her lap, cheeks heating up. Harry didn’t want to overstep any boundaries but he also couldn’t just leave her sobbing at her desk. “Do… you wanna talk about it?”
She shot him an incredulous look. Even if she did want to talk about it, her boss was not the ideal person. Y/N tried to dismiss him without hurting his feelings. “I’m fine, really,” she sniffled and wiped one more tear. Although Harry was terrible with emotions, he wasn’t an idiot. Clearly something was bothering her to the extent that she had to cry at her desk. He sighed, deciding to ask one more time, “are you sure?”
If it was him in her shoes, he’d probably tell the other person to fuck off and mind their own business, just because he was terrible at being vulnerable. But this was Y/N— sweet Y/N who brightened up his mornings with her pretty smile. He might not know her too well, but he knew she had a good heart.
A long breath escaped her nose as she shut her eyes and held a hand on her forehead, “I just… it’s just been a lot recently.”
Harry’s eyes widen, “is it the workload? You can tell m—”
“No! No, it’s not that. Things have been shaky in my personal life and I… I can’t stop thinking about this morning with Becca a—”
“Did she say something again?” He cut her off, stern. Y/N’s head snapped up, “not after you warned her, no. But before you came she said some nasty things which obviously weren’t true and I can’t get them out of my head. It’s stupid.”
She sniffled and Harry frowned. He heard the conversation just as he was approaching the kitchen. Becca’s words were sharp enough to hurt someone, especially someone as educated and well-performing as Y/N. Harry knew what it was like when people tried to blame your success on things like sex and connections, having been from a big family. Older CEOs and managers often under-estimated him, assuming he was where he was because of his family. That just wasn’t true. He worked really hard to be where he was. It wasn’t like his father made it easy on him.
He took a step closer and hesitantly put a hand on her shoulder. The touch was awkward but he wanted to offer her some form of comfort, “what she said was obviously not true,” he watched as she winced, realising he heard the conversation, “it shouldn’t matter what she says. Or what anyone says. You can’t get hung up on petty things like that if you want to go far in this line of work. People will always talk down and project their failures on you but you can’t let that get you. Unless you want to get walked all over.”
Y/N’s shoulder burned where he touched her, his palm almost electric. Physical touch was something she rarely got since Landon was so far away, and really, how clingy could she be with Niall before he got pissed? She took a deep breath and wiped her eyes, “yeah,” sniffle, “yeah. You’re right.”
Harry watched as she closed her eyes and composed herself. He slowly took his hand off of her, noticing how she deflated with… disappointment?
A few moments passed and he heard her tummy grumble loudly. The sound brought a small barely-there smile to his lips as she blushed furiously, “sorry, I—”
“Why are you apologising? For having normal human functions? Have you not eaten yet?”
Y/N shook her head, twiddling with her hands. Not only was she embarrassed that she cried in front of her boss, but her stomach’s loud protests had her all red. She didn’t have time to get lunch today since she was so busy, running on coffees all day. Harry sighed, “c’mon. We’ll go get something to eat.”
Her eyes widened, “wh–what?”
Harry raised his brows, “let’s go.”
She couldn’t say anything after that as Harry left to grab his coat and phone from his office. Y/N watched as he shrugged it on, admiring his biceps bulging against the button up. The soft, dim lighting of the area wasn’t making things any easier. He cleared his throat, snapping her out of her thoughts, “I’ve called for Tomas, my driver.”
Nodding, Y/N grabbed her purse and phone. They took the lift together. There was an odd tension as they stood silently, stealing glances at each other occasionally. Y/N played with her fingers in the oddly long ride, filling the silence by humming quietly. Harry smiled to himself upon hearing her.
When they reached, he led her out and towards the car Tomas brought out front. Tomas smiled at both of them and Y/N shook his hand. His stare lingered on her puffy eyes but he didn’t say anything. “I hope you like Italian,” Harry murmured. He opened the door and let her sit first and then followed. There was a whole seat empty between them where Y/N settled her purse. She still couldn’t process what was happening as she nodded at his words.
“La Vita Vino, please, Tomas.”
“Yes, sir.”
A couple of beats of silence passed. Harry’s face was illuminated by his phone as he scrolled. In the meantime, Y/N’s lip faced the wrath of her anxiety. She decided to speak up, “you really don’t have to do this, Mr. Styles. I—I’m very grateful but I hate putting you through so much troubl—”
“It’s no trouble.”
He shut his phone and glanced at her. Just the look had her skin burning. Y/N blamed the nerves.
“Okay.”
A car honked.
“Thanks though,” Y/N said.
“You’re welcome.”
The rest of the drive was silent. Y/N saw how Tomas spared glances at the two of them, eyes lingering on the empty seat between them. She might have seen him smile, but that could be her imagination. She was feeling quite out of it, especially after that cry.
They soon arrived at a beautiful restaurant. It had soft, yellow lighting and an outdoor patio. It was oddly romantic for a CEO-personal assistant dinner, but Y/N bit her tongue. Just the fact that he bothered to take her out meant so much to her. She didn’t want to ruin the moment with anything. She said thanks to Tomas as he held the door open for her.
When they walked in, Y/N couldn’t help but look around in awe. It had a gorgeous interior with intimate seating. She watched as Harry walked up to the hostess and requested his ‘regular’ table. The hostess smiled, “of course, Mr. Styles.”
Y/N saw as Harry followed the waitress, looking back at her, “c’mon.”
She was snapped out of her daze, allowing the hostess to lead them to a small table around the back. Thankfully it wasn’t candle-lit. That would make the dinner look like something it most definitely was not. The hostess pulled out a seat for Y/N and then Harry. “Can I get you started with some wine, sir?”
Harry glanced at Y/N, “any preferences?’
“Oh, I don’t drink,” she bit her lip. His brows dipped just slightly but he didn’t say anything. “I’ll have a serving of Masseto, please.”
“Of course, sir. Perhaps water for the missus?”
Y/N’s eyes almost shot out of her skull when she heard the hostess. She stammered over her words, “Oh, we—I’m not—”
“Yes, please.”
The hostess smiled and left, promising to come back with their drinks. As she left, Y/N turned to Harry, still flustered, ‘“sorry! I don’t know why she said that.” He looked at her like she was crazy, “why are you apologising?” He repeated for the second time that night, “it’s not like you told her to say that.”
Her mouth shut at that. She relaxed into the seat, still unable to meet his eyes, “yeah… I guess you’re right.”
Harry hummed approvingly. He slid a menu towards her to have a look at. Wordlessly, she picked it up and scanned the items. They were all crazy expensive— almost a week's worth of her wages for one dish. Plus, she could barely even read some of these names. Nervously she glanced at Harry, “what do you usually get?”
“I like their Agnolotti del Plin,” he said, not looking up from the menu. She put hers down and sighed. His eyebrows furrowed as he met her eyes, “what’s wrong?”
“Nothing. I’ll get what you’re having. The agnal thing.”
“Agnolotti del Plin?”
“Yes.”
“Hmm.”
The waitress came back to their table and asked them if they were ready to order. Y/N let Harry do the talking, afraid to mispronounce anything. She watched in awe as the Italian rolled off his tongue so easily. The waitress nodded and told them she’d be back with their dishes soon. When Harry turned back to her, his brows were still furrowed.
“Have you… ever had Agnolotti del Plin?”
“... yes,” she lied.
“Oh. Right.”
It was silent again. Their dynamic was so odd that Y/N didn’t know how to make conversation with him. What would they even talk about?
“Do you feel better?” He referred to her earlier breakdown. A breath escaped her mouth, “yes. Thank you Mr. Styles.”
“I don’t want to pry, but if there’s anything you want to talk about…” Harry said. Getting the sentence out was a feat. He was smart enough to know that talking about your feelings helped you feel better but he didn’t know what he would do once she started talking. Should he be touching her shoulder again? Rubbing her arm for comfort?
“I don’t want to bother you with my problems.”
“It’s no bother, otherwise I wouldn’t have asked. But I understand if you don’t want to talk.”
“Thanks,” she said for the millionth time that night. She wasn’t quite ready to spill her guts in front of her boss yet, no matter how vulnerable the crying made her seem. They remained quiet until the food was placed before them.
The dish was amazing— ravioli packed with smoked pigeon and covered in truffle sauce. It was when she smelled it that she realised how truly hungry she was. Once it was presented to her, she had her head down, engrossed in the food. Harry could understand completely. He himself was starving when he walked out of his office earlier. The only reason he really left was to go see if there was anything in the office fridge he could snack on.
About midway through their meal, her phone pinged. She ignored it when it went off once. But then it pinged again and again and again. Ignoring it for the sake of having good manners, Y/N turned it over and tried to continue with the meal, except it began pinging even more. “I’m sorry,” she sighed, putting her fork down and picking up her phone. It was Landon.
Her eyebrows furrowed as she stared down at the texts. He demanded to know where she was since she hadn’t texted him in a couple of hours. She couldn’t believe the audacity of the man; he didn’t respond to any of her texts all day and still expected her to continue texting him even after he made it clear he didn’t want to speak to her. Her irritated expression didn’t go unnoticed by Harry.
“Is everything alright?”
“Yeah… yeah, it’s just my boyfriend.”
His eyebrows shot up. “You have a boyfriend?” He blurted out.
Y/N met his rounded eyes. “Yes. We’re long distance.”
“Oh.”
“He’s been weird ever since I started working at Grapejuice Inc,” Y/N continued. “I don’t know. It’s just stressing me out, I guess.”
Harry hummed. It wasn’t his place to say, but he knew that if a relationship was stressing someone out, then it probably wasn’t healthy. He bit his tongue when he saw her furrowed brows. She huffed and put her phone on silent, not bothering to respond as she went back to her food.
They finished eating soon after. Y/N insisted on splitting the bill but Harry looked at her like she had grown a second head, snatching the bill from her hands. He slid his platinum card inside and gave it to the waitress who found their exchange amusing. After she brought them the receipt, Harry called Tomas to come up front. “Where do you live?” He looked at her expectantly and held the door open for her.
“Oh, just down nine and fifth avenue. It’s the house with the purple mailbox.”
Tomas nodded at her words and began driving. This time, Y/N had her purse in her lap. Her hand was resting on the middle seat. Harry was looking out of the window as they sat in silence. She admired him for a little while, appreciating the cut of his jaw and his plump lips. It was almost aggravating how pretty he was. His hand, ringed and tattooed with a cross by his thumb, rested on the middle seat as well.
His eyes never wavered from where they looked outside at the passing lights. Y/N shut her eyes and rested her head back against the seat. It had been an insane day and she couldn’t wait to go home and get under her covers. She must have relaxed a little too much, though, because a few moments later she felt her pinky collide with his. Surprisingly, neither of them jumped at the feeling. His hand was warm and her heart was racing.
They grazed each other again. For a second, Y/N felt his pinky rest completely on top of hers, though he didn’t stop gazing out the window. They both jumped as Tomas suddenly sneezed, pulling their hands away. Harry cleared his throat and Y/N told Tomas ‘bless you.’ The whole interaction had her breathing erratic and lip worried.
She finally recognised her street when they turned around the familiar corner. A grateful smile graced her features. She thanked Tomas first and then turned to Harry. She was immensely thankful for his comfort and for providing her with a full belly by treating her to such a luxurious meal. “Thank you, Mr. Styles. I had a great time and I feel so much better.”
He met her smile with a small one. “It was my pleasure. Have a good night, Miss L/N.”
“Night.”
-
Y/N relayed the night's details to Niall the next morning over coffee. He gasped dramatically and went on and on about how this was Y/N’s ‘romcom’ moment and that she was the main character who had a hot CEO boss obsessed with her. Y/N only laughed at how ridiculous he was, smacking his head when he wouldn't shut up and began narrating detailed, graphic, office fantasies that he most probably saw in some cheap porno.
“It doesn’t matter, Ni. I have a boyfriend,” was what she told him, trying to brush him off. “A boyfriend who lives a million miles away and doesn’t care if you live or die.” Those words did make her frown a little bit. Maybe Landon was a little bit weird and possessive, but surely he would care if Y/N dropped dead out of nowhere. She tried to give no weight to Niall’s words. She had enough on her plate to worry about.
When she finally decided to confront Landon, he demanded she tell him where she was last night. Y/N lied and said she was having dinner with Niall, but Landon didn’t even like that response. Any friend of Y/N that was a male was automatically disliked by Landon. It was a stupid habit of his, but then Y/N put herself in his shoes and thought about how she would feel if he began hanging out with a bunch of girls. It would leave a sour taste in her mouth but would she really react like he did? So dramatic and accusatory?
She tried her best to ignore the pestering thoughts as she walked into work the following Monday. She wondered if the air between her and Harry would be any different now that he had seen her in such a vulnerable state. But then again, he was known for his cold exterior, so maybe not. She took a deep breath as she walked in with his coffee in hand at exactly nine AM. He was busy on the phone and typing something on his computer at the same time, sparing her a glance and a small nod.
Whispering a small ‘good morning’, Y/N set the coffee down on his table. It was then she realised how dark and stuffy it was in his office. He probably forgot to open up the windows again on Friday before leaving. Deciding to open them up to encourage some air circulation, she walked behind Harry’s desk. The blinds were behind his chair and Y/N tried to squeeze herself between the small gap to open them up. Harry was too preoccupied on the phone to notice her.
The space was quite narrow so she had to really get in there to get the blinds open, stretching slightly and getting on her tippy-toes. Behind her, she heard Harry put the phone down. Suddenly, she felt as she lost her footing, a yelp escaping her mouth as she prepared to collapse face-first on the floor.
Except she didn’t collapse.
A firm, warm pair of hands settled on her waist, preventing her from face-planting into the floor. She was standing in between Harry’s legs, leaning over him so his breath washed over her face. Her hands were planted on his broad shoulders, fingers digging into the muscle there and he held her waist tightly. Her breath was stolen from her lungs.
“You okay?”
For some reason, she struggled to tear her gaze away from his mouth as he spoke, mesmerised by the way his lips moved. She almost relaxed into his hold. “Y–yeah. Thanks.” Now it was Harry’s turn to stare at her mouth. He met her eyes, then her lips, then her eyes, then her lips. They were painted pink and parted, practically begging Harry to kiss them. It was like he couldn’t help it as he leaned in closer— like her lips personally called to him to be tasted.
His thumbs dug into her ribs. She made a small sound which sounded awfully close to a whimper. That was ultimately what pushed him over the edge as he threw all resolve out of the door and caved in to the taste of her mouth. He had been thinking about what she might taste like for the longest time now, the night at the restaurant not making things any easier as her mouth plumped up in constant pouts.
Now, though, Harry was in heaven. She was sweet, like mango juice as he kissed her more firmly, letting her relax in his hold. His grip on her waist was all that was holding her up now as she suckled on his bottom lip and grabbed his shoulders harder.
This was so, so wrong. It was so inappropriate for him to be making out with his assistant in his office, lost in the taste of her and the sight of her in that little floral sundress. He groaned against her when she slid her tongue into his mouth. Her movements were bolder than he expected as she bit his lip softly.
The shrill sound of his phone ringing was what made them part, a filthy sound resounding when they pulled away, and strings of spit connected their mouth. He looked into her eyes as she wiped his mouth with her thumb and finally stood up. She looked flustered and fucked out— cheeks flushed and lips spit-slicked. Her dress had ridden up but she quickly pulled it down. Harry tried desperately to will his hard-on away, eyes never leaving hers despite the sound of his phone ringing in the office.
She was a little out of breath, “you… you should probably get that.”
He nodded, snapped out of his daze. “Yes. Yep. I’ll, uh… I’ll get that.”
“Cool.” Cool?
Turning on her heel, she left his office. When the door shut behind her, Y/N slid a hand through her hair and bit her thumb. She just made out with her hot CEO boss. In his office.
Although the kiss was amazing and her heart was racing, she couldn’t help but feel a little guilty. She had a whole boyfriend who trusted her to remain loyal and this was what she decided to do? Her heart sank a little in her chest, but she realised it didn’t outweigh the giddiness in her body and wetness between her thighs, all because of a little kiss. She groaned.
Y/N was fucked.
-
It was nearing lunch-time and Harry was still hung up on that fucking kiss. He felt so stupid for letting himself slip like that. How could he have made such a big mistake? Getting hot with your employees was one of the biggest no-nos of being in-charge of running a whole company.
But he just couldn’t deny how good it felt.
How nice she tasted, how she felt under his hands. The sounds she made and her confidence as she slipped her tongue into his mouth. She was exactly how he thought she would be— addicting. He couldn’t stop thinking about her; not as he went about his day to numerous meetings, attended a morning tea and interviewed an important client.
His every thought started and ended with her ever since she cursed him with that fucking mouth. Soft, warm, wet… he could only imagine how she felt in other places. Running a hand down his face, Harry sighed heavily. This wasn’t healthy. He had to either stop thinking about her or figure out a way to deal with this situation head on. Somehow the latter seemed easier.
He thought back to a couple nights ago when she was stressed and crying right in front of him. He knew the poor girl had a lot going on in her life, and with her boyfriend being long distance, he assumed she didn’t have a lot of means to release some of her frustrations. Plus, from what she told him, her boyfriend sounded like an absolute shit-bag so Harry automatically assumed he wouldn’t be able to give Y/N the satisfaction she needed anyway.
Pacing in his office, a crazy idea popped into Harry’s head.
Since just buying her dinner made her so happy and stress-free, Harry wondered what else he could do for her to make her feel good again. He wasn’t just thinking about pleasuring her anymore. He wanted to spoil her. He wanted to make her feel special. Not only would it help with her frustrations, but it would be a good outlet for him as well. It was not like he had plans to marry and start a family soon and he had heaps of money just sitting in his bank accounts. Money that had no use apart from paying for his bills and groceries.
Money he was willing to spend and that would probably be appreciated more elsewhere.
He wanted to propose an arrangement to Y/N, like the business-man he was. He’ll spoil her to the ends of the world, till her heart’s content— till he pleases. In return he would request her time and affections. In the way he craves, like a starved man. It was crazy to think that just the touch of her lips was driving him to take such steps— he felt like a spell had been cast on him. He had to see her. He had to tell her.
Finally deciding to grow a pair, Harry threw his door open and strutted out of his office, hair messy thanks to his fingers and eyes wide. However, his stomach sank when he turned to see if Y/N was at her desk.
The good part was that she was there like he hoped, looking all pretty in her sundress and hair left down. The bad part was that there was a blonde man standing before her, handing her a bouquet of flowers and pulling her in for a kiss.
The same lips he kissed mere hours ago.
The same waist he caressed was being hugged tightly as the boy lifted her off her feet and she smiled into his mouth, blinded to the shattering of Harry’s heart as he stood there by the door, disappointment overcoming his hard features.
-
Kissing Landon was very different to kissing Harry.
Whereas Harry met Y/N gently, like she was made of glass, puckered his lips tenderly and pressed sweet little pecks against her pouty mouth, Landon was quite… harsh. His arm slithered around her waist the same time he kissed her; rough, oddly possessive and a little painful, if she was being honest. He smashed his mouth into her teeth too hard, and paired with the grip he had on her waist, Y/N almost felt like she was being punished for some horrific crime.
And well, now that she pondered over it, maybe she deserved a distasteful kiss. She wasn’t really the ideal girlfriend these past couple of days which she spent daydreaming about her hot CEO boss, wondering what his soft words and lingering touches meant. Then when he kissed her mere hours before Landon surprised her, for those couple of minutes, the fact that Y/N even had a boyfriend slipped her mind completely. All she could think about was the strong, caring man in front of her, kissing her with so much passion and his hands on her sides, which pressed into the warm skin, bunching up her dress, and maybe if the phone didn’t ring and they didn’t have to stop, he would have pulled her onto his lap and slipped his fingers beneath her dress—
She was truly a terrible person.
She was a horrible, nasty, disgusting person for cheating on her poor unsuspecting boyfriend and kissing another man behind his back. The moment she stepped outside of his office, breathless with swollen lips, guilt swarmed her belly and made her insides turn black. Like she was rotten. And she felt rotten, but that wasn’t the worst part. Something else dug into her whirlwind of a brain, rattled her bones and made her breath tremble.
Despite the guilt that ate away at her heart, Y/N couldn’t deny that she liked it.
She liked the way he latched onto her bottom lip, and she liked the way he held her like she was going to slip away if he loosened for even a second. She liked the sounds he made and she liked the look in his eyes when she pulled away— hazy, like he couldn’t tear his gaze away from her spit-slicked lips. And perhaps she liked all of these things a little too much… perhaps they outweighed the guilt in her tummy.
God, she was just an awful human. She spent the next three hours following the kiss internally fighting herself over this dilemma, going back and forth feeling guilty and then feeling horny. Her panties were uncomfortably soaked and she had to make an embarrassing trip to the mall by the office just to grab a new pair of underwear— over a fucking kiss.
A kiss. That was literally it. They didn’t do anything further, he didn’t slide his hands between her legs, didn’t kiss down her neck— just showered her in honeyed purses of his lips and she was such a fucking mess. In her defence, she hadn’t been touched in any way in a long, long time. With Landon living ages away, Y/N often had to go months upon months without any physical affection. Even when they did get to spend time together, he didn’t let their kisses get too frisky. Didn’t let it progress to anything further, no matter how much she wanted.
She asked him about it too, but he would always go on some long spiel about how he was saving it for marriage and how amazing their first night together would be once they were husband and wife and they could finally have sex. Outwardly, she’d agree. Landon was always sort of sentimental— someone who was sensitive and wanted everything to have some deep meaning they could uncover together.
But Y/N was only just a girl. She had needs. Needs which her boyfriend was not meeting and needs for which her vibrator was just not enough anymore! That was why she was so ready to take things further with Harry. She wouldn’t have minded if he yanked her on his lap and grinded her against his bulge. She wouldn’t have minded if he touched her ass and pushed her dress up, tucked his fingers into her panties an—
This was becoming a problem. Her fucking boyfriend was standing right in front of her yet all she could think about was what Harry’s palms would feel like on her thighs.
Her fucking boyfriend was standing right in front of her and— wait. Why was he standing right in front of her?
Her jaw dropped when he stepped out of the elevators and came into her view; tall, beaming, blonde hair pushed back and a bouquet of roses in his hands. Her jaw stayed dropped when he sauntered towards her, one arm stretched wide like he was presenting himself, “surprise!”
And then:
“Oh my god! Landon!”
She stopped lagging and forced herself to a stand, watching as he jogged towards her and engulfed her into his chest. Landon felt familiar. He was warm, sturdy, built with strong muscles and broad shoulders which she wrapped her arms around. Citrus and musk invaded her senses; a scent which usually brought her comfort. Usually reminded her of home and date nights, cuddles and walks in the park.
Now it made her sick. Nauseous. Her stomach had been churning ever since she left Harry’s office that morning and his harsh cologne was not helping. Her nose was squished into his neck and his arms were wrapped around her like cling-film, nearly smothering her. She felt like she was suffocating, and she would have, had she not put her hands on his chest and gently shoved him off of her. Then came the initial shock, “wh–what are you doing here? How did y—”
“I wanted to surprise you, sweets. I missed you and I barely heard from you. Are you not happy to see me?”
Now, how could Y/N ever tell him she was anything but?
AN: BHHEHE GUYS SORRY I COULDNT HELP MYSELF WITH ALL THE TOUR CONTENT AND THE BUSINESS CASUAL VIBE IT WAS DRIVING ME NUTSSS!!! I HAD TO PULL TIS ONE OUT OF THE BAG!!! I THINK IMMA CONTINUE THIS SERIES I HAD SM PLANNED AND IT IS ONE OF MY FAVS!!!! HOPE U ENJOY!!! LET ME KNOW UR THOUGHTS!! also i know my fic plans are ALL OVER THE PLACE just trust im waiting to be done with uni and IM LOCKING INNNNN
Hi!! Can i request for Charles Leclerc x media/yn? Gender doesn't matter and if there's a romance or not. Just them being chaotic and everyone on real life and online noticed (more like Charles and too eager and yn getting ragged from his energy). Making this request because i remember him shouting brake to Carlos and thee "Banana Leclerc". Thank you regardless if you'll make this request or not <33
Summary: Survival as an F1 journalist gets complicated when Charles Leclerc chooses you as his partner in crime. From paddock jump scares to absolute disaster during a pumpkin carving challenge, the internet watches in delight as you desperately try to survive his chaotic golden retriever energy across the globe.
Requested: Yes/ Anon
Word count: 3951
Author's note: Hii, thank you so much for this request, it was so much fun to bring Charles's chaotic energy to life, especially with iconic moments like the banana suit era and shouting brake to Carlos, i hope you like it, and please feel free to send more ideas once my requests are open again, take care!! xx. I also used a timeline where carlos and charles were still teammates.
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The neon lights of the Marina Bay paddock cast long, distorted shadows across the asphalt as the humidity of Singapore wrapped around everyone like a warm, wet blanket. You were currently leaning against a stack of Pirelli tire blankets, trying to fan yourself with a media pass that had seen better days. Your hair was stuck to the back of your neck, your notebook was damp from your own palms, and you were seriously questioning every life choice that had led you to becoming a traveling Formula One presenter and journalist.
Then came the hurricane.
“Y/N! Y/N, you will not believe what just happened in the garage!”
You didn't even need to turn your head to know who it was. The sheer velocity of the footsteps, combined with a voice that pitched up two octaves whenever its owner was excited, gave him away instantly. Charles Leclerc skidded to a halt right in front of you, still half-zipped in his red Scuderia Ferrari race suit, his hair a sweaty, chaotic mop that defied all laws of gravity. He was vibrating on a frequency that could probably power a small village.
“Charles, please,” you groaned, not lowering your makeshift fan. “It is forty degrees with ninety percent humidity. If you increase the kinetic energy in this immediate radius, I am going to spontaneously combust.”
“No, listen to me,” Charles said, completely ignoring your plea for mercy. He grabbed your shoulders, his gloved hands leaving faint smudges on your white team shirt. “Carlos was trying to explain the braking point for turn fourteen, and he was being so slow, so detailed, like a professor, you know? And I just looked at him and I screamed BRAKE! Just like that, right in his ear! You should have seen his face, Y/N, his eyes went so wide, like this!”
Charles proceeded to stretch his eyes open with his fingers, mimicking a terrified Carlos Sainz, while making a high-pitched screeching noise that caught the attention of two Mercedes mechanics walking past. They stared, whispered to each other, and kept walking.
“You screamed in his ear while he was looking at telemetry?” you asked, rubbing your temples.
“Yes! Because he takes too long! We need to go fast, not talk about the corner for twenty minutes!” Charles beamed, immensely proud of himself. He looked like a golden retriever that had just successfully chased its own tail and expected a medal for it.
“You are a menace to society,” you told him, finally pushing his hands off your shoulders. “And more importantly, you are currently being filmed by three different fan-cams from the grandstands above us. Look up.”
Charles blinked, looked up toward the grandstands where a group of fans was franticly waving their phones, and immediately flashed his textbook, pristine media smile, waving like a pageant queen. The juxtaposition from a manic, screaming gremlin to a suave Monaco prince took exactly half a second.
“They love it,” Charles declared, turning back to you with a cheeky grin. “And you love it too.”
“I am paid to tolerate you,” you corrected, though the small smile tugging at the corner of your lips gave you away. “Now go finish your media debrief before your press officer executes us both.”
That interaction, though trivial at the time, set the tone for what the internet would come to call the Chaos Era.
By the time the paddock moved to Japan the following week, the video of Charles yelling and making faces in the middle of the Singapore paddock had gone viral on TikTok. Someone had edited a cartoon slipping sound effect over his movements, and the comments were flooded.
User1: why is he like this lmfaoooo
User2: y/n looks so tired, like a mother of a toddler
User3: Charles is high on life and y/n is just trying to survive the humidity
You saw the edits while sitting in the media center at Suzuka, sipping on a cold green tea. You showed it to Charles when he walked in for his scheduled one-on-one interview with you.
“Look what you did,” you said, sliding your phone across the table.
Charles leaned over, watching the video. Instead of being embarrassed, he burst into that loud, unfiltered laugh of his, his shoulders shaking. “Ah, this is brilliant! Look at my face! I look so crazy!”
“You *are* crazy,” you pointed out, adjusting the microphone clip on his shirt. “Can we please keep this interview professional? My producer said if you derail another broadcast with a random story about your streaming setup or your piano, I am going to be relegated to interviewing the safety car driver.”
“I am always professional, Y/N,” Charles said, crossing his arms and putting on his most serious, dedicated racing driver expression. “Ask me about the upgrades. Ask me about the tarmac. I am a professional.”
Two minutes into the live broadcast, a giant beetle landed on the table right next to your notes.
Suzuka was notorious for its wildlife, but this particular insect looked like it had been working out in the gym. You froze, trying to maintain your composure on live television, hoping the camera wouldn't catch your internal panic. Charles, however, had no such filter.
“Mon dieu! What is that!” Charles shrieked, jumping back so hard his chair screeched against the concrete floor. He stood up, pointing wildly at the table. “Y/N! Look at the size of it! It is a monster!”
“Charles, we are live,” you hissed through your teeth, keeping your face fixed toward the main camera lens. “The upgrades for this weekend seem promising, Charles, how do you feel about the front-end stability?”
“How can I think about front-end stability when there is a dinosaur on the table!” Charles yelled, his voice cracking slightly. He grabbed your clipboard and began waving it wildly near the beetle, trying to shoo it away, but only succeeding in knocking over your water bottle. Water spilled everywhere, soaking your notes.
“Charles! Stop!” you yelled, finally breaking character as you tried to save your tablet from the incoming wave of water.
“I am saving us!” he shouted back, before lunging forward and successfully swatting the beetle away into the bushes. He stood there, chest heaving, holding your wet clipboard like a warrior sword, looking directly into the live camera. “The beetle is gone. You are safe, everyone.”
The camera operator was shaking from laughing so hard. You closed your eyes, taking a deep, centering breath, and muttered, “We return to the studio.”
The internet went absolutely feral. Within an hour, the clip of Charles Leclerc fighting a beetle with a journalist’s clipboard was the number one trending topic on X. The memes were instantaneous. People cropped your face, frozen in pure despair, and turned it into a reaction image for when your life is falling apart but you have to pretend everything is fine.
A popular F1 meme account posted a side-by-side photo. On the left, Charles looking sophisticated in a tuxedo playing the piano. On the right, Charles screaming at a beetle while you looked like you wanted to jump into a volcano. The caption read: *The dual duality of Charles Leclerc, and his primary victim, Y/N.*
The next day in the paddock, Max Verstappen walked past you during the TV pen, leaned in, and whispered, “Watch out, Y/N, I think I saw a spider near the Red Bull hospitality.” Carlos Sainz gave you a sympathetic pat on the back, murmuring, “I told you. He is impossible.”
You thought it couldn't get any worse, but then came Austin, Texas.
The United States Grand Prix was always a spectacle, with drivers wearing cowboy hats and teams going all out with American-themed marketing. Charles had decided that his mission for the week was to master a Texas accent. He was terrible at it. It sounded like a mix of a French aristocrat and a pirate who had spent five minutes in a Boston pub.
You were conducting a joint interview with him and Pierre Gasly in the fan zone, standing on a stage in front of thousands of cheering fans.
“So, Charles,” you started, holding the microphone up. “The bumps on this track are always a challenge. How are you feeling physically heading into practice?”
Charles took the microphone, leaned his head back, adjusted his cowboy hat, and drawled, “Well, ya see, partner, it is mighty bumpy out there on that there track, but we gotta ride 'em cowboy, ya know? Just gotta wrangle that red beast and hunker down!”
The crowd erupted into cheers and laughter. Pierre covered his face with his hands, groaning audibly. You just stood there, staring at Charles with a deadpan expression that felt like it had been etched into your soul after weeks of dealing with him.
“Charles,” you said into your own microphone, your voice completely flat. “Please never do that again.”
“What? I am fitting in! I am an American cowboy now!” Charles turned to the crowd. “Am I right, guys?” The crowd roared in approval, which only fueled his chaotic energy. He started doing a little country line-dance step right there on the stage, his race boots clicking against the wooden floorboards.
You looked over at Pierre. “If I walk off this stage right now, will you cover for me?”
“No,” Pierre laughed, backing away. “I am enjoying this too much. You are on your own, Y/N.”
Charles then grabbed your arm, trying to pull you into his impromptu dance. “Come on, Y/N! Show them the Texas spirit!”
“Charles, I am wearing a skirt and carrying a triple-battery wireless microphone transmitter, let go of me,” you laughed, resisting his pull, but he was too enthusiastic. For a brief three seconds, you were dragged into a bizarre, clumsy spin before you managed to break free, nearly tripping over a monitor speaker in the process.
The clip went everywhere. TikTok edits were made with country music blasting over Charles dancing while you looked like a hostage trying to escape a captor. The comments section of the official F1 account was a goldmine.
User4: Charles is that one friend who drinks five espressos and expects everyone to match his vibe
User5: Y/N’s eye twitch when he said partner lmfao she is suffering
User6: can we talk about how Charles just drags Y/N into all his intrusive thoughts? They are pure chaos together.
By the time the paddock arrived in Mexico, the narrative was fully formed. You and Charles were the designated comedy duo of the grid, whether you liked it or not. Fans started bringing signs to the tracks that read *Save Y/N from Charles* or *Charles, give Y/N her clipboard back*.
Charles found the signs hilarious. He actually stopped during a fan walk to sign one of the *Save Y/N* posters, writing *No, she is stuck with me* next to his signature. A photo of him doing that went viral within minutes.
You were sitting in the Ferrari hospitality unit, waiting for him to finish a strategy meeting, when his press officer, Jock, walked in with a look of mild amusement on his face.
“Y/N, I have a request from the social media team,” Jock said, sitting down across from you.
“If it involves me wearing a cowboy hat or standing anywhere near Charles while he is holding a large object, the answer is no,” you said immediately, not looking up from your laptop.
“Actually, it is a challenge video. For Halloween. They want you and Charles to do a pumpkin carving contest against Carlos and a Spanish content creator.”
You sighed, closing your laptop. “Jock, you know how Charles gets when he is competitive. He loses all fine motor skills and just starts destroying things.”
“Please? The engagement metrics when you two are together are higher than our podium announcements,” Jock pleaded, flashing a sympathetic smile. “Just twenty minutes. We will give you safety goggles.”
That was how you found yourself sitting at a table in the paddock, surrounded by cameras, with a massive pumpkin in front of you and an overly excited Monégasque next to you holding a small, serrated plastic knife like it was a deadly weapon.
“We are going to win this, Y/N,” Charles whispered intensely, leaning in so close his shoulder bumped yours. “Carlos thinks he is an artist because he can draw a smooth circle. I will show him real art.”
“Charles, it is a pumpkin, not a Michelangelo sculpture,” you said, carefully tracing a face onto your pumpkin with a sharpie. “Let’s just make a standard jack-o'-lantern and call it a day.”
“No! We must make the Ferrari logo! A stallion!” Charles declared.
“A stallion? On a round, bumpy vegetable? With plastic tools?” You looked at him like he had lost his mind. “That is impossible.”
“Nothing is impossible,” Charles said, and immediately stabbed the top of his pumpkin with immense force. The plastic knife snapped in half instantly, leaving the blade lodged deep inside the pumpkin skin.
Across the table, Carlos Sainz paused, looked at the broken knife, shook his head, and scoffed. “Unbelievable. Two seconds in and he has already broken the car.”
“It was a faulty tool!” Charles defended himself, his face turning red. “Y/N, give me your knife!”
“No, I am using mine!” you said, pulling your pumpkin closer to protect it. “Go ask the crew for another one!”
Charles didn't wait for the crew. He grabbed a metal spoon that was sitting in a bowl of candy nearby and started aggressively scraping at the top of the pumpkin, making horrible, screeching noises. He was working so fast, with so much chaotic energy, that pumpkin pulp and seeds started flying everywhere. A stray seed hit you right in the cheek.
“Charles!” you yelled, wiping the seed off your face. “You are a hazard! Look at this, I have pumpkin guts in my hair!”
“It is a high-downforce setup!” Charles yelled back, completely absorbed in his work, his face covered in sweat. He was scooping out the inside of the pumpkin with his bare hands now, throwing the pulp into a bucket with maximum velocity. “We are gaining time on Carlos! Look at him, he is still on the first cut!”
“Because I am doing it properly, Charles,” Carlos said calmly, meticulously carving a perfect, clean eye shape into his pumpkin. “You look like a wild animal.”
By the end of the twenty minutes, Carlos’s pumpkin looked like a beautiful, professional Halloween decoration. Your pumpkin looked decent, mostly because you had managed to carve two eyes and a mouth while dodging Charles’s flailing arms. Charles’s pumpkin, however, looked like it had been run over by a freight train. It had a massive, irregular hole in the front that looked less like a stallion and more like a cave-in.
“Ta-da!” Charles announced proudly, lifting his hands in the air, completely coated in orange slime. “The Ferrari stallion!”
“Charles, that looks like a tragic accident,” you said, staring at the disaster.
“No, look closely! If you squint, you can see the legs!” He leaned over, trying to adjust the pumpkin, but his slimy hand slipped, and the entire pumpkin rolled off the table, crashing onto the floor and splitting into three pieces.
The entire room went dead silent for a second, before Carlos burst into hysterical laughter, pointing at the floor. You just dropped your head onto the table, hiding your face in your arms, wondering why this was your life.
Charles stood there, looking down at the ruined pumpkin with a look of genuine, heartbroken shock. “Oh. It broke.”
The YouTube video of the carving challenge was released the next day, titled *Ferrari Halloween Chaos*. It reached a million views in less than twelve hours. The comments were a symphony of amusement.
User7: Charles breaking the knife in the first five seconds is peak Charles Leclerc
User8: Y/N hiding her face on the table is the most relatable thing in F1 history
User9: somebody please give Y/N a raise or a vacation, she is fighting for her life with this man
User10: The way Charles threw the pumpkin seeds at her like a golden retriever playing in mud lmfao
As the season progressed toward the finale in Abu Dhabi, the online phenomenon only grew. It became a running joke that you were the only person capable of slowing Charles down, or at least, the only one brave enough to publicly tell him he was being ridiculous.
One evening, during a Thursday media day in Brazil, you were doing a livestream for the official F1 app, walking around the pit lane and talking to fans who were watching online. Charles saw you from the Ferrari garage and decided to hijack the stream. He snuck up behind you, completely silent for once, and suddenly popped his head over your shoulder, right into the camera frame.
“Hi everyone!” he shouted.
You jumped, nearly dropping the expensive broadcast phone. “Charles! For the love of god, stop scaring me!”
“What are we talking about? Let me see the comments,” he said, leaning in so close his cheek was almost pressing against yours to look at the small screen. He started reading the live chat out loud. “Charles is chaotic... Y/N looks stressed... why is Charles always bothering her... Hey! I am not always bothering her! Tell them, Y/N, I am a very good friend.”
“You are a very loud friend,” you corrected, trying to steer the phone away from him, but he kept following the camera angle like a moth to a flame. “We were actually discussing the track conditions and the weather forecast for tomorrow.”
“Ah, the weather! It will rain, or it will be dry,” Charles said with absolute confidence. “That is my expert prediction.”
“Wow, thank you, meteorologist Charles,” you sighed. “Truly groundbreaking analysis.”
“You are welcome. Also, everyone, you should know that Y/N stole my favorite pen yesterday during the FIA press conference. I want it back.”
“I did not steal your pen! It was a generic black biro that was sitting on the media desk!” you defended yourself, laughing as the live chat went into overdrive with emojis.
“It was my lucky pen! I won Monza with a pen like that!” Charles argued, Pouting his lip in a way that he knew full well made him look entirely innocent.
“You won Monza three years ago, Charles, that pen is long gone!”
The live chat was moving so fast it was a blur of text.
User11: they are bickering like an old married couple im crying
User12: CHARLES PLEASE LET HER DO HER JOB
User13: Not the lucky pen argument lmao Y/N look at his face you have to give it back
The clip of the live stream hit TikTok before you even finished walking back to the media center. A compilation of all your interactions throughout the season was put together by a fan, set to upbeat, comedic music. It showed you rolling your eyes in Singapore, the beetle incident in Japan, the cowboy dancing in Austin, the pumpkin disaster in Mexico, and finally the pen argument in Brazil. The video accumulated millions of views, with people commenting that your dynamic was the best part of the race weekends.
By the time the final race weekend in Abu Dhabi arrived, you were exhausted. The long season had taken its toll, and you were looking forward to a winter break of absolute silence and zero racing cars.
You were standing by the yachts in the marina on Sunday night, after the race had concluded. The fireworks had already gone off, lighting up the desert sky, and the distant sound of team parties echoed across the water. You were leaning against the railing, holding a glass of sparkling water, just enjoying the rare moment of quiet.
“There you are.”
You didn't jump this time. Your brain had become hardwired to recognize the cadence of his voice, even when he spoke softly. Charles walked up next to you, no longer in his race suit, but wearing a clean, white linen shirt and trousers. He looked relaxed, the heavy pressure of the championship season finally lifted off his shoulders.
“Hi, Charles,” you said, offering a small smile. “Congratulations on the podium today. Good way to end the year.”
“Thank you,” he said, leaning his forearms against the railing and looking out at the water. For a moment, he was quiet, a rare occurrence that always made you wonder what was going on in that fast-moving brain of his. “It was a tough race, but I am happy with the result.”
“You drove well,” you said sincerely. “You should be proud.”
Charles turned his head to look at you, a soft, genuine smile replacing his usual manic grin. “I wanted to say thank you, Y/N.”
“For what? Surviving you?” you joked.
“Yes, exactly,” he laughed softly, the sound carrying over the water. “I know I am... a lot sometimes. I get very excited, very hyper, and I know I interrupt your interviews and break your clipboards and throw pumpkin seeds at you. But you always match my energy, even when you are pretending to be annoyed. You make the weekends fun for me. It is easy to get too stressed in this paddock, but when I see you, I know I can just be myself and have a laugh.”
You blinked, slightly caught off guard by the sudden vulnerability. The chaotic, screaming, beetle-fighting driver had vanished, replaced by the sweet, thoughtful guy beneath the helmet.
“Well,” you said gently, feeling a warmth in your chest that had nothing to do with the Abu Dhabi heat. “You are definitely a handful, Charles. But honestly? The weekends would be pretty boring without you around to cause a disaster. Even if you did ruin my favorite clipboard.”
Charles chuckled, reaching into his pocket. “Ah, yes. About that.” He pulled out a sleek, beautifully wrapped box and handed it to you.
You opened it to find a high-quality, customized leather clipboard, with your initials embossed in silver at the bottom. On the clip itself, a tiny, elegant stallion was engraved, alongside the words: *For professional use only. Keep away from beetles.*
You burst into a genuine, loud laugh, looking up at him. “Charles, this is amazing. Thank you.”
“You like it?” he asked, his eyes lighting up with that familiar, eager puppy-dog energy.
“I love it,” you said.
“Good! Because now that you have a new clipboard, we can do a special interview for the end of the year! Come on, I brought my phone, we can do a quick video for the fans, they want to know if we are still enemies!”
Before you could even protest, Charles had pulled his phone out, extended his arm, and wrapped his other arm around your shoulder, pulling you tightly against his side.
“Hi everyone!” Charles shouted into the phone camera, his chaotic energy returning in a split second. “We are here in Abu Dhabi, the season is over, and Y/N finally forgave me! Look at her new clipboard!” He thrust the leather board right into the camera lens, completely blocking both of your faces.
“Charles, they can’t see us, you are holding it too close,” you laughed, trying to pull his arm down.
“Ah, sorry, sorry!” He adjusted the angle, flashing his massive, brilliant smile while you looked into the camera with that familiar, affectionate, slightly exasperated expression that the internet had grown to love. “Happy winter break everyone! See you next year for more chaos!”
You smiled into the lens, knowing that despite the madness, the ruined notes, and the constant exhaustion, you wouldn't trade your chaotic racing driver for anything in the world.
ʚɞ You and steve had been connected at the hip for years until high school came and he got swept away into chaos leading him to be become someone new, someone too “cool” for you and your friendship. You swore you hated him, swore you’d never speak to him again until he starts hanging around your younger brother and one day shows up at your house drugged and beaten with your brother begging for your help.
𝜗𝜚⋆₊˚ Hi! i honestly haven’t written in years so this is a little sloppy and all over the place but i figured i should start writing my thoughts down and share them bc who doesn’t love steve. i might try to write a part two if i can be more organized during writing it’s also poorly proofread i just wanted to post it before i got to scared. i hope you enjoy angels 🤍
Wc: 4.1k (ish)
There was no big fight signaling the end of the friendship. no yelling no violent words thrown back back forth no conversation about it at all. It happened under your nose, one day it was there then the next it started floating away too fast for you to react. The two of you met at camp the summer before second grade and from that moment on you did everything together. You went through the transition from elementary school to middle school together and the awkward puberty stage together but nothing could tear you apart until steve entered high school while you were a year younger. You were soft spoken, reserved and shy meanwhile steve fed of the attention of popularity, he loved it to the point of completely becoming someone new. His Freshman year wasn’t so bad you guys still spoke still hung out occasionally but when it was your turn to go to hawkins high he completely acted like you didn’t exist. He walked around school head held high with tommy h and carol and coined the name “king steve”. On your first day for freshman year he walked past you without a glance and from that moment on you knew he was gone.
After adapting to the new environment you learned your so called place in high school hierarchy. You made new friends, got good grades, stepped out of your comfort zone and became someone new. Someone who didn’t let people get under your skin the way steve did freshman year. You avoided him, kept distance and learned to not let it bother you until one day he and your younger brother dustin became some weird kind of friends and now he was showing up to your house casually like nothing happened between you two. And oh you fucking hated it.
July came with heat, sweat, melted ice pops and starcourt mall your new favorite way to escape the sun.
“ i don’t understand why you won’t just say yes he’s been begging to go out with you for like months” mary said as you two casually walked through the mall swinging The gap bags in your hands.
“ Cole is too.. i don’t know not me” you say looking at the floor
“ you mean he’s so much like steve” mary deadpans
the mention of him name makes you snap your head at her with a confused look. it had been years since you spoke about him as your about to be a senior in high school the upcoming fall.
“ don’t look at me like that you know it’s true i mean come on cole’s on the basketball team he’s got girls throwing themselves at him left and right and he does have really nice hair kinda like you know who” she says looking at you observing your reaction
“ok that really makes me wanna go out with him now” you say through laughter as you walk past scoops ahoy not realizing that who mary was comparing cole to stood right inside catching a glimpse of you almost letting it weigh on him. Almost.
Over the next few days you decided that you didn’t want to let your hatred of jocks because of steve hold you back anymore and maybe cole would change your presumptions. To be fair cole was nice to look at, tall, Blonde, Sharp blue eyes and wide shoulders you wouldn’t mind holding on too. You knew steve hated cole in high school and maybe that would have stopped you from going for it in the past but now the thought of letting an old friends past opinions stop you felt wildly stupid.
On your next trip to the mall you and mary ran into cole and his friends and all your fears flew out of the window.
“hey y/n” Cole said walking over to you looking you up and down meeting you half way to stand conveniently directly in from of scoops.
“ Oh hey cole nice uh.. shirt” as soon as the words came out of your mouth you internally cringed but decided to not let that stop you.
“hey thanks came here a few days ago and got it had to come back though i figured id need something nice to wear to the fair since i plan to ask someone special to go with me” he says casually running his hands through his blonde hair looking at you like he was implying something that you didn’t pick up on for a moment.
And then it clicked “ oh really i’m sure she would have a great time with you… and your new outfit” you say offering him and sweet smile but you were internally screaming at yourself because the talking to a boy like this felt so foreign to to since you swore of men at 14.
The conversation continued with mindless flirting and awkward looks until he handed you his phone number written on the back of a half crumpled receipt and told you to call him later before walking away only to turn back and wink at you. You had been so in your own world trying not to sound like a freak but also trying to flirt successfully with no practice that you didn’t realize the eyes looking at you from inside the ice cream shop.
“whatcha looking at sailor” robin said to steve who had been awkwardly standing still scooper in hand. her eyes followed his until they saw you right before you walked away giggling with mary holding the receipt with both hands.
“ohhhhh who’s that, do you know her, should i add a tally under you suck” she said poking his side as he finally moved from his spot he had been in during your whole interaction with cole.
ripping of the sailor hat and trying to fix his hair that’s too far gone he mumbled “ not anymore i used to this isn’t a tally moment robin” he said giving air quotes.
“ this is gonna sound … weird but since i gave up the whole “king steve” act i’ve been thinking about the stupid crap i did” he said as he pushed himself up to hit on the counter behind robin.
“awww self reflection you know that’s a good sign right it’s like stage 3 in becoming less assholey”
“what did you do to her stand her up or something, call her another girls name” she dramatically stopped and turned to face him “did you give her an STD” she said pointing a finger at him.
“ ok what… one i never even had an STD two i didnt stand her up or whatever else your saying… she was my best friend and i kinda went ghost a few years back you know peak assholey phase” steve said hands up in defense.
“ oooooh i see typical prime bird brain steve” robin said before turning to wipe the counter.
“she’s dustin’s older sister” steve blurts out causing her to whip her head around and stare.
“ so you dropped the older henderson and moved on to the younger one… what is it with you and that family” the girl said laughing as steve rolled his eyes and whent to help a customer.
The phone call with cole went better than expected later that night and you finally caved and officially planned to go to the fair with him on saturday giving you three days to try and learn how to flirt but you weren’t hopeful.
The fair was bright and loud, running wild with kids and families. The multicolored lights flashed across the warm July sky as the sun slowly disappeared behind the horizon. The smell of popcorn, cotton candy, and funnel cakes drifted through the air, mixing with the sounds of laughter and music from the rides. Ferris wheels sparkled with glowing lights distracting you from the hand that was wrapped around your own .
“Are you having fun?” Cole asked, smiling as you walked past the game booths.
“Yeah, actually. I was kind of nervous before tonight, but this is really nice,” you admitted.
“I was nervous too,” Cole laughed. “I spent way too long deciding what to wear.”
you smiled. “hey i thought you went and got a new outfit for this specifically”
“I did but the weather is so unpredictable… it’s really damn hot” he said shyly whipping sweat of his head.
you continued walking through the crowded fair, listening to the music and watching the rides speed past and children buzz with excitement.
Cole pointed toward the Ferris wheel. “You know, I think that has the best view here.”
You looked up at the towering ride. “It does look pretty amazing.”
Cole hesitated for a second before speaking. “Would you want to go on it with me?”
“The Ferris wheel?” you asked.
“Yeah. Unless you’re secretly terrified of heights.”
You laughed. “A little, maybe. But I think I can survive one ride.”
“Good,” Cole said, grinning. “Because I’d hate to miss the chance to see the whole fair from up there.”
“Then let’s do it.”
As you joined the line, Jake glanced over at her. “I’m glad you came tonight.”
You smiled. “Me too.” realizing maybe he wasn’t so bad after all
“Dude, why do you keep asking about her?” Dustin asked. “I told you she doesn’t care. Like, seriously. You’re making this way weirder than it needs to be.”
Steve sighed. “I know.”
“No, I don’t think you do,” Dustin said. “You’ve brought her up three times this week. Three. That’s not normal people behavior.” the boy said pointing a finger in steve’s face.
Robin snorted “He’s obsessed.”
“I’m not obsessed.”
“Sure,” Robin said. “And I’m secretly the mayor of Hawkins and you totally didn’t stare at her at work the other day for like ten whole long painful excruciating minutes”
Steve rolled his eyes “I’m just thinking about it.”
“Thinking about a friendship that ended four years ago?” Robin asked. “That’s somehow pathetic but makes total sense for you.”
“Thanks for the support.” steve said.
“Anytime.” Robin said shoving her face with more cotton candy.
Dustin looked between them “For real though, man. You guys barely talk. Actually, scratch that—you don’t talk at all i mean she acts like you don’t exist when your at my house and you do the same so what’s with the change of attitude harrington .”
“she got boobs, nice ones” robin said smirking
“Ew, Buckley, that’s my sister. Can we not?” Dustin said, pretending to gag.
Robin shrugged.
“What? I’m just saying. It’s not like he’s suddenly interested in her sparkling personality after ignoring her for four years.”
Steve groaned.
“Can both of you stop talking about me like I’m not standing here?”
“No,” Robin and Dustin said at the same time.
Robin pointed her cotton candy at him “Then explain it, Harrington.”
“Explain what?”
“The sudden interest.”
Steve opened his mouth, then closed it.
“See?” Robin said. “He doesn’t even have an excuse.”
“Maybe I just feel bad.”
Robin burst out laughing“Oh, that’s pathetic.”
“Thanks.”
“No, seriously. You spend years not talking to each other, and now you’re wandering around looking like someone kicked your puppy because she won’t magically start being your friend again?”
Steve rubbed a hand over his face “You’re making this sound worse than it is.”
“Am I?”
“Yes.”
Dustin looked at him suspiciously “You know what I think?”
“I don’t, actually.”
“I think something happened at my house that I missed.”
“Nothing happened.”
“That’s exactly what someone says when something happened i mean you are over like all the time.”
Robin gasped dramatically “Oh my God. What if they made eye contact?”
“Robin.”
“Maybe she said hi.”
“Robin.”
“Maybe she asked him to pass the salt and he’s been thinking about it ever since.”
Dustin laughed.
Steve pointed at her “You’re the worst.”
“And yet,” Robin said, smirking, “I’m still not the one asking about Dustin’s sister every five minutes.”
For once, Steve didn’t have a comeback.
That was all the confirmation Robin needed “Oh my God.”
“Don’t.”
“OH MY GOD.”
“Robin.”
“You totally miss her.”
The fair was beginning to wind down by the time Cole walked you back to his car. The bright lights that had seemed so overwhelming hours ago now felt softer, reflecting off the nearly empty parking lot.You held the stuffed bear he had won for you at one of the game booths against your chest as the two of you walked in comfortable silence.
Cole unlocked the passenger door before you could reach for the handle.
“Thank you,” you said.
He gave a small shrug. “Yeah, sure.”
The drive home was quieter than the fair had been.Not awkward.Just calm.The radio played softly in the background while warm July air drifted through the cracked windows.
Cole rested one hand on the steering wheel “I had fun tonight.”
You glanced over “You did?”
He laughed “Was that really that surprising?”
“A little.”
“Why?”
You smiled at the passing streetlights outside “I don’t know. You just seemed nervous.”
Cole groaned “I was nervous.”
“I could tell.”
“Great.”
“You asked me if I was having fun like six different times.”
“Okay, first of all, it was maybe four.”
“It was six.”
“It was not six.”
For a moment neither of you said anything.The houses in your neighborhood began appearing through the windshield.The night suddenly felt like it was ending too fast.Cole pulled up in front of your house and put the car in park.Neither of you immediately moved.
“Well,” you said quietly.
“Yeah.”
The porch light was already on, You looked down at the stuffed bear “Thanks for tonight.”
Cole looked over at you “No problem.”
Another small silence settled between you Not uncomfortable Just neither of you wanting to be the first person to open the door.
Finally you smiled “I had fun too.”
Something in Cole’s expression softened “Good.”
You reached for the handle before pausing “I wouldn’t mind doing this again sometime.”
Cole blinked. Then a grin spread across his face “Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
“Okay,” he said, trying and failing to sound casual. “I’d like that.”
You stepped out of the car and started toward your front door.Halfway up the walkway, you turned around.Cole was still there.Watching to make sure you got inside safely.When he realized you’d caught him, he rubbed the back of his neck and looked away with an embarrassed smile.Your smile only grew wider as you headed inside.And Cole didn’t pull away from the curb until the front door closed behind you. Maybe boys weren’t so bad after all.
The days after your date with Cole should have felt normal. Hawkins was still Hawkins the same quiet streets, the same familiar faces, the same routines everyone had followed for years. Yet something felt different. The air seemed heavier somehow, thick with the humidity of late summer and an unshakable feeling that settled in the pit of your stomach. Maybe it was because your mind kept drifting back to Cole and the way he smiled when he dropped you off that night. Maybe it was because the town felt strangely tense, Hawkins felt different. Not wrong exactly—just off. Like the familiar town you had known your entire life was holding its breath, and you had no idea why.
The doorbell rang just as you were walking through the living room.
“Dustin!” you shouted. “Your ride’s here!”
No answer. Typical.
With a sigh, you crossed the room and pulled open the front door. The words died in your throat.
Steve Harrington stood on the porch.
For a second, neither of you spoke. You hadn’t expected him.And judging by the look on his face, he hadn’t expected you either.
“Oh.”
“Hi.”
The greeting came out at the same time. An awkward silence followed.Steve shoved his hands into the pockets of his jacket.You tightened your grip on the doorknob.
“Uh… Dustin’s still getting ready.”
“Right.”
Another silence, A painfully awkward one.
You glanced toward the stairs. Steve looked at the welcome mat.
The years between you seemed to stretch across the doorway. Finally, Steve cleared his throat.
“So… how’ve you been?” The question caught you off guard.
Good, you wanted to say.
Busy.
Fine.
Instead, all that came out was: “Good.”
Steve nodded “Good.”
Silence.
Somewhere upstairs, something crashed “DUSTIN!” your mom yelled.
Steve laughed before he could stop himself. The sound surprised both of you.For the first time, the tension eased slightly.
“Some things never change,” he said.
You couldn’t help smiling. “No. They really don’t.”
Steve noticed Just for a second.
Then Dustin came barreling down the stairs “There you are!” he said, grabbing his backpack. “Why are you both standing there looking weird?”
You immediately stepped back from the doorway “We’re not.”
“You totally are.”
“Dustin.”
“What?”
Steve rubbed a hand over his face “Can we just go?”
Dustin looked between the two of you. Then a grin slowly spread across his face “Oh my God.”
“What?” you and Steve asked simultaneously.
Dustin pointed dramatically “You both still do that.”
“Do what?” Steve asked.
“The talking at the same time thing.”
Neither of you had a response to that.
Dustin’s grin widened“Interesting.”
Before he could say anything else, Steve grabbed the strap of Dustin’s backpack and steered him toward the driveway “Get in the car.”
“You can’t silence the truth, Harrington!”
You rolled your eyes as Dustin continued shouting nonsense all the way to the car.
Steve opened the driver’s door before pausing.For a moment, he glanced back at the porch.
You were still standing there.
Watching.
His expression softened “See you around.”
The words were casual. Simple even.But they were the first real words either of you had spoken to each other in years.
You nodded “Yeah. See you around.”
Steve gave a small smile before climbing into the car.
You tried not to think about Steve after he left with Dustin.You really did.There was no reason to.Years had passed since the two of you had been friends, and even more time had passed since either of you had made an effort to fix whatever had broken between you. Somewhere along the way, ignoring each other had become easier than dealing with it.At least, that’s what you had always told yourself.But for some reason, seeing him standing on your front porch had unsettled something.Not in a bad way.Just enough to leave you confused.
You found yourself replaying the interaction at random moments throughout the day. The awkward silence. The way he looked just as uncomfortable as you felt. The small laugh the two of you had shared when Dustin nearly destroyed something upstairs.Most confusing of all was how normal it had felt.Not the awkwardness.The familiarity underneath it.
Like no matter how many years had passed, some part of your brain still remembered what it was like when Steve Harrington had been someone you talked to every day.
You hated that thought.Especially because things with Cole were going well.Cole was easy to be around. Easy to talk to. You found yourself smiling whenever you thought about the fair or the way he’d waited until you got inside before driving away.
So why was Steve suddenly taking up space in your head?t wasn’t like you missed him.At least, you didn’t think you did.Maybe you were just bothered by the fact that there had never been any real ending. No conversation. No closure. Just years of silence that had slowly turned two former friends into strangers.
The more you thought about it, the less sense it made.Because when you looked at Steve standing on your porch, he hadn’t felt like a stranger.And maybe that was the part that bothered you most.You weren’t sure whether you were remembering who he used to be or realizing that you never completely forgot.
Sleep refused to come.No matter how many times you rolled over or fluffed your pillow, your thoughts kept circling back to Steve.
To the awkward conversation.To the way he had looked at you before leaving.To the fact that seeing him again had stirred up feelings you couldn’t quite name.
By midnight, you finally gave up.You changed into your favorite pajamas—a soft oversized T-shirt and plaid shorts—and settled into bed with a book, hoping it would distract you.It didn’t.
The house had gone completely quiet.Your parents were asleep.Dustin hadn’t been home for hours.The only sound was the occasional creak of the old Henderson house settling for the night.
Then came a loud bang.You sat upright immediately. Another noise followed.The unmistakable sound of someone stumbling into a wall downstairs.
“Dustin?” you called.
No answer.A knot formed in your stomach.
You slipped out of bed and pulled open your bedroom door.The moment you stepped into the hallway, you heard frantic footsteps on the stairs.
Then Dustin appeared Half dragging, half supporting someone beside him.
Your heart nearly stopped.
Steve.
His arm was slung over Dustin’s shoulders while Dustin struggled to keep him upright.
“Dustin, what happened?” you asked, rushing forward.
“I need help,” he blurted That alone was enough to make your stomach drop.
Dustin never asked for help.
Not like this.
Steve’s head lolled slightly as he looked up His eyes seemed unfocused.
Distant.
Like he couldn’t quite figure out where he was.n“Hey,” he said suddenly.
You froze.“Hi.”
Steve pointed vaguely in your direction.“You’re real.”
“Okay,” Dustin muttered. “See? This is what I’ve been dealing with.”
“What happened to him?”
“I’ll explain later.”
“Dustin—”
“Please.”The panic in his voice stopped you.
For a moment, you simply stared.
Steve looked exhausted. His clothes were dirty. There were cuts along his arms and face.Dark bruises spread beneath his skin, blooming in soft patches of purple, blue, and red that reminded you of watercolor paint bleeding across wet paper, color spreading beneath the surface in uneven shapes.Evidence of something painful.Something neither boy seemed ready to explain.
Your chest tightened.“Dustin…”
“Please help me clean him up before Mom sees.”
Steve blinked“Oh.”
Everyone looked at himHe pointed at Dustin “He’s tiny.”
Dustin closed his eyes “I know.”
“And angry.”
“I know.”
“You yell a lot.”
“Dude.”
Steve frowned thoughtfully “I think you’re my friend.”
For the first time all night, Dustin almost smiled “Yeah, idiot. I am.”
Steve nodded like this was the most important revelation he’d ever had “Good.”Then his gaze drifted toward you.
His expression softened immediately “Oh.”
You swallowed“Oh?”
A slow smile appeared on his face “There’s two Hendersons.”
“Oh my God,” Dustin groaned.
You couldn’t help it. Despite everything.Despite the confusion.Despite the bruises and whatever terrible thing had happened.A laugh escaped.
Steve smiled wider. Like hearing it was enough.
Dustin pointed toward the bathroom You nodded immediately.As you hurried away, you couldn’t shake the image of Steve leaning heavily against your brother, bruised and exhausted, yet somehow still trying to smile.
And for reasons you didn’t understand, that frightened you far more than the injuries themselves.
The bathroom door clicked shut behind Dustin “ill be right back,” he said. “Just… make sure he doesn’t fall over.”
“Dustin—” Too late. He was already gone.
You stared at the closed door. And Steve sat on the edge of the bathtub while you carefully cleaned the cut near his eyebrow.
For once, he wasn’t talking.
He just watched you.The kind of stare that made you aware of every movement.
Every breath.
Every second.
“You’re still doing that.”
You glanced up“Doing what?”
“The concentration thing.”
“What concentration thing?”
Steve smiled softly “The one where your eyebrows pull together when you’re focused.”
Your hand paused “You remember that?”
“Of course I remember that.”
The answer came too quickly. Too honestly.
Something twisted uncomfortably in your chest.“You remember weird things.”
Steve laughed quietly “No.”
His eyes dropped to the floor “I remember everything.”
The smile disappeared from your face.Neither of you spoke for a moment.
Then Steve shook his head.“God.”
“What?”
His laugh was softer this time.
Sadder.
“We were such idiots.”
You looked down at the bandage in your hands“Yeah.”
“No.”Steve rubbed a hand over his face. “I mean me.”
The words surprised you.Steve wasn’t usually the type to admit fault.Not even before everything happened.
“I spent years convincing myself I didn’t care.”
You froze. The confession seemed to surprise him too. Like he’d only realized he was thinking it once the words were already out.
“I’d see you at school and pretend it didn’t bother me.”
Your chest tightened. “Steve—”
“I’m serious.”His gaze stayed fixed somewhere on the bathroom floor. “Every time.”
The room suddenly felt too small. Too warm.
You weren’t sure what to do with this version of him. The honest version.The one that wasn’t hiding.
“You’d walk by with your friends and I’d act like I didn’t even notice.” A hollow laugh escaped him. “Then I’d spend the rest of the day thinking about it.”
The bandage in your hand suddenly became very interesting. Because looking at him felt impossible.
“Why?”The question came out before you could stop it.
Steve blinked. Then looked at you. “Why what?”
“Why did it bother you?”
For a second, neither of you moved. The answer seemed obvious. And somehow impossible.
Finally Steve smiled. Not his usual smile. Something smaller. More fragile.
“Because you were my person.”
The words stole the air from your lungs.
Steve immediately looked away As though hearing himself say it had embarrassed him. “We told each other everything.” His voice had grown quieter.
“You knew me before everybody else did.”
The lump in your throat became impossible to ignore.
“Then one day we just…” He gestured vaguely.
“Stopped.”
The silence stretched.
Years of hurt packed into a single unfinished sentence.
You looked down “I thought you didn’t care.”
Steve laughed. The sound was almost heartbreaking.
“Yeah.” His eyes met yours again “So did I.”
Something in your chest cracked slightly.
Not broken. Just shifting. Changing shape.
Steve stared at you for a long moment.The drugs had made him honest. Painfully honest and all of The usual walls were gone. for the first time in years, you were seeing exactly what was underneath.
“You know what’s stupid?”
“What?”
His smile returned.Small.
Fond.
“I saw you on the porch today and all I could think was that you’re still pretty.”
Your breath caught.
Steve’s eyes widened immediately. “Oh.”
For the first time all night, he looked genuinely alarmed. “I wasn’t supposed to say that one.”
Despite everything, a laugh escaped you.
Steve dropped his head into his hands “Oh my God.”
“You said it.”
“I know.” His voice was muffled. “I am having the worst day of my life.”
You laughed again. And when Steve looked up, he was smiling too.Like hearing you laugh was worth every embarrassing thing he’d accidentally admitted.
The moment lingered.Neither of you looking away. Neither of you quite sure what to say next.
Then the bathroom door burst open.Dustin stepped inside carrying an ice pack.
He stopped immediately.
Looked at Steve.
Looked at you.
Looked back at Steve.
“…Why does it feel like I interrupted something?”
Steve immediately pointed at him “Your sister is really pretty”
Dustin groaned so loudly it echoed through the entire house. “you are gonna regret that in the morning buddy”
part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4 - part 5 - part 6 - part 7 - part 8
summary: You’ve been in love with your best friend Harrison for quite a while now but when Tom, Harrison and Tuwaine go on a trip to Monaco for the F1 Grand Prix, you’re quick to tag along, even though it means spending time with Harrison’s girlfriend.
warnings: Will make you want to move to Monaco asap.
words count: 7.2k
a/n: Thank you very much to @borhapstyles for sending me this request! I’ve loved mixing Tom’s world with the F1′s and having him visit Monaco for the last GP was the perfect occasion for it! I hope you’ll like it! Xx
Summary: The kiss cam never lands on you, but the one time it does, it gives you the opportunity to kiss a very handsome man.
Content: fluff, meet-cute, mostly not proofread, tweaked the way a quidditch game goes of course, let me know if I missed any!
Word count: 1.4k
The stadium was already roaring as you found your seat, clutching your bag to your chest as you squeezed in, giving apologies to the people you went past. You let out a sigh of relief as you finally plopped into your seat, which was in a section high up from the ground.
You placed your bag in your lap, and rummaged through it to pull out your Omnioculars. You peered through him, inspecting the field that was currently empty as the game hadn't begun yet. You set them down, and waited in anticipation for the game to start.
You watched as people around you navigated the crowds to get to their seats. You were staring at a couple bickering in front of you when you heard a loud, "coming through!" From above you, and you lifted your gaze to see two men squeezing past the seats, coming your way.
You shuffled back into your seat as much as possible to give them, and they didn't go further as they took the seats next to you, the man with the glasses filling the one beside you.
You glanced at him once, and then twice, quietly taking notice of his good looks. He had dark, messy hair that fell over his eyes charmingly, and round glasses perched on his nose that suited him so well it should've been a crime.
He caught your gaze briefly, and you exchanged a polite smile with him, the kind only directed towards strangers, and looked away. He turned back to talk animatedly with his friend next to him, who had wavy black hair that fell to his shoulders.
You had seen plenty of handsome men in your lifetime, so you paid no more particular attention to the man beside you, and focused on the game instead. Your knee bounced with excitement as the commentator's voice started to boom from all corners of the stadium, the crowd finally somewhat settled as it increased in volume.
You cheered loudly with excitement as the players from each team came out, especially when you spotted your favourites. It was a game of Scotland versus Luxembourg, and while you had nothing against Scotland, you were rooting heavily for Luxembourg.
The game kicked off to a thrilling start, and you quickly discovered what team the man beside you barracked for by the way he he cheered especially whenever Scotland had the Quaffle, him and his friend sometimes shaking each other aggressively and shouting obnoxiously loud in your ear. You made your support for Luxembourg no less obvious, and felt smug whenever they took the Quaffle off Scotland's hands.
The game had been going on for hours, afternoon stretching into night when the Scotland team captain called for a timeout. It was basically a break for the players, and a break for your throat that had screamed itself hoarse. You felt no regret for it since Luxembourg was in front by sixty points.
After fifteen minutes had passed with no sign of the game starting up again anytime soon, a romantic melody started to blast in the stadium with a large projection of big letters appearing in the middle of the stadium.
A simultaneous series of groans and cheers erupted from the crowd.
It was the kiss cam.
The kiss cam only ever showed up when a timeout in a Quidditch match took a while, so it served as a source of entertainment while the viewers waited for the main event to start again. You had encountered a kiss cam before, but it had never once landed on you. It had gotten close, but you had never been put in a situation where you were pressured to kiss a stranger in front of thousands of people, so you were quite grateful.
You stared up at it in amusement. While you were happy to have never been a victim of it, it didn’t mean you didn’t find it entertaining.
A minute passed before the magical projection showed anything else, letting the crowd process what was happening. Then, the letters dissolved, and a large projection of a man and a woman appeared.
The stadium cheered loudly, encouraging them to kiss, and it seemed that the man and woman were already a couple by the way they laughed, leaning in for a sweet kiss with practiced ease.
Next was another man who sat with a younger girl, and it was clear as day that the girl was his daughter as he laughed at the girl’s obvious embarrassment, pressing a fatherly kiss to her forehead.
You waited eagerly to see the next faces on the projection when suddenly, you were looking at your own.
You blinked, eyebrows furrowing as your face showed on the large projection. You looked around you, eyes slowly widening as you realised you were on the kiss cam, where the whole stadium could see you.
And in the projection with you, was the handsome man with the glasses.
You both looked at each other in bewilderment while the stadium roared around you, loud voices telling you to snog.
“Uh- we don’t have to,” the man said, seeming just as unsure as you about what to do.
“Oh come on, just kiss her!” His friend encouraged, patting his back.
“I don’t know, are you…” he trailed off as you stared at him wordlessly, becoming speechless as you continued to gape at him. “We don’t have to, it’s okay.”
Before you could object, he looked to the projection of you two, and shook his head to the crowd, waving his arm to tell the people controlling the projection to turn it to someone else. The projection of you two eventually disappeared, replaced with someone else while the crowd booed.
Heat rushed to your cheeks, and he gave you a sheepish smile. “Sorry.”
“It’s okay,” you quietly said, even though it was impossible for him to hear you over the booming stadium.
You looked at your lap as a strange disappointment settled in your chest. You had no right to be disappointed, it had been your fault you hadn’t kissed, you hadn’t gathered the words to tell him it was okay. You had just frozen up like an idiot, and now your chance was gone.
It was only two kisses later when your face and his appeared on the projection again, another attempt at getting you to kiss.
Everyone around you screamed at the both of you to just lean in, and you let out a surprised laugh as the man’s friend slapped him over the head.
“Just snog her, Prongs! That’s the whole point of it!” His friend shouted.
The man looked at you cautiously. “Listen, if you’re not comfortable-”
“I don’t mind,” you said quickly, not wanting to miss your chance again. “Unless you do.”
He blinked in surprise, and then smiled. “No, I don’t.”
You mirrored his smile. “Okay, good. Then I guess I’ll just, um…”
“Yeah…”
You turned your body to him as you both started to lean in, and you were taken aback as his hand came to cup your cheek. You stared into his blazing eyes for a moment before you closed yours, and felt him close the distance between your lips.
You melted into it immediately, humming against his soft lips as his hand dropped from your cheek to your waist, while one of your hands went to his neck. You deepened the kiss, and felt him groan as he tilted his head, squeezing your waist.
The cheers around you were deafening, reverberating off the seats beneath you as you continued to kiss him reverently.
“The kiss cam isn’t on you anymore!” The man’s friend called to you, yet neither of you pulled away, too lost in each other’s lips.
You felt his tongue run along your bottom lip before it gently probed into your mouth, and your other hand flew to his neck, while both of his hands were suddenly squeezing your hips.
You only pulled away when you were out of breath, one of your hands sliding from his neck to his chest as you panted. You felt his chest move up and down as he caught his breath, his hands still on your hips.
Your eyes met his, and you both burst into laughter.
“I’m James,” he said breathlessly.
You grinned, telling him your own name.
“Nice to meet you,” said James, his warm breath still fanning on your face.
“Can’t believe you just snogged a Luxembourg fan,” said his friend from beside, and James lifted one hand off your hip to reach back and slap his friend on the back of his head, making you giggle.
No warnings just pure fluff and fate working together, it is impliedthat the reader is american
Summary: You and a boy exchanged letters as children through a school program but eventually lost touch. Years later, while cleaning out old boxes, you post one of the letters online. An F1 driver recognizes it immediately.
Requested: No
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word count: 1570
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The cardboard box smelled faintly of dust, cedar, and old scholastic book fair bookmarks, specifically those lenticular ones that clicked when you ran your thumbnail over them. It was a suffocating, comforting scent, the olfactory equivalent of a time capsule. It was the kind of deep-cleaning afternoon where progress is measured not by how much trash goes into the black plastic bags, but by how long you sit cross-legged on the hardwood floor, paralyzed by a sudden, heavy wave of nostalgia. A pile of discarded clothes lay forgotten to your left; a stack of old textbooks gathered dust to your right.
Among the high school yearbooks, plastic wrapped prom corsages, and faded concert tickets to bands that had long since broken up, sat a bundle of loose-leaf papers. They were bound together by a thick, beige rubber band that had long since lost its elasticity; it had dried out into a brittle, crusty ring that snapped at the slightest touch, leaving a chalky residue on your fingers.
You pulled the top sheet from the pile. The paper was standard wide-ruled school paper, slightly yellowed and brittle at the edges, bearing the distinct blue lines that used to dictate the boundaries of childhood thoughts. The page was covered in the overly careful, slightly cramped cursive of someone writing with immense deliberation—the handwriting of a child trying very hard to please a teacher in a language that was not entirely their own. The ink was a pale, vintage fountain pen blue, faint but perfectly legible.
Dear Y/N,
Thank you for your letter. Monaco is very nice today. The sun is shining and I can hear the cars outside. Today I practiced my English with my teacher, and then I went to the karting track. My father says if I work hard, I can be a champion one day. What is your favorite sport? I hope your English is better than mine.
Your friend,
Charles
A sudden rush of memory hit you, sharp and vivid. The third-grade international pen-pal program. Your elementary school teacher, Mrs. Gallagher, had set up a cultural exchange, pairing everyone in the class with students from European schools to help them practice their English conversational skills. You remembered the fierce excitement of waiting for those international stamps to arrive in the mail—brightly colored squares with foreign monarchs or landmarks—and tracing the textured postmarks with your thumb. You and Charles had exchanged letters for nearly two years, sharing the beautiful, mundane details of childhood life across an ocean. You had sent him a drawing of your dog; he had sent you a sticker from a local French bakery. Then the school year ended, middle school distractions took over, interests shifted, and the correspondence quietly faded into the background of growing up.
Amused by the earnestness of his eighth-grade vocabulary and the sweet simplicity of his ambition, you took a quick, aesthetic photo of the letter on your phone. The lighting from the bedroom window hit the page just right, highlighting the faded blue ink, the slight ink smudging on the capital letters where his hand had dragged across the page, and the innocent, naked declaration of a childhood dream.
You opened your social media app, uploaded the photo without thinking twice, and typed out a casual, lighthearted caption:
“Cleaning out my childhood bedroom and found these. Shoutout to my middle school pen-pal Charles from Monaco. I hope you made it to the karting championship, buddy. Your English was actually great.”
You locked your phone, tossed it onto the mattress of your unmade bed, and went back to sorting through old varsity sweatshirts and mismatched socks. You didn't think about it again for the rest of the afternoon.
Many time zones away, the paddock of the Circuit de Barcelona-Catalunya was buzzing with the chaotic, high-octane energy of a Formula 1 race weekend. The late afternoon sun beat down on the tarmac, and the air was thick with the scent of burning rubber, high-grade fuel, and expensive catering. Engineers were hovering over banks of monitors displaying complex telemetry data, mechanics were executing synchronized, blink-and-you-miss-it pit-stop drills in the garage, and the media pen was a chaotic sea of cameras, boom mics, and aggressive journalists.
In the quiet, air-conditioned sanctuary at the back of the Scuderia Ferrari hospitality suite, Charles Leclerc slumped into a pristine white leather sofa. He was exhausted, his hair damp with sweat and flattened by his balaclava after a grueling secondary practice session where the car's balance had felt completely uncooperative. His trainer handed him a protein recovery shake and a chilled towel. Charles wiped his face, sighing, and instinctively reached for his phone to kill the twenty minutes of downtime before his mandatory engineering data debrief.
He scrolled mindlessly through his notifications, templated sponsor tags, high quality fan edits set to trending audio, analytical race previews, and standard public relations alerts. It was a deluge of digital noise until a specific image caught his eye. It wasn't the kind of polished, high definition motorsport photography that usually filled his feed. It was a poorly lit, amateur photo of old, lined school paper, sitting on what looked like a bedroom floor.
Charles paused. The scrolling stopped. He zoomed in on the handwriting.
A strange sensation, a disorienting mix of vertigo and intense, buried familiarity, washed over him. He knew that handwriting. He recognized the specific, slightly exaggerated way those lowercase 'g's and 'y's looped at the bottom, a stubborn habit his childhood tutor, Madame Bonnet, had spent months trying to correct with a red pen. He read the English words, and a memory locked deep in the vault of his childhood suddenly broke wide open.
Monaco is very nice today... I went to the karting track.
"No way," Charles muttered under his breath, sitting up straight on the sofa, the recovery shake forgotten in his hand.
His trainer looked over from his laptop, raising an eyebrow. "Everything okay, Charles? Something from the data?"
"Yeah... no, it's nothing about the car," Charles murmured, his green eyes scanning the username of the account that had posted the photo. Y/N. The name instantly connected the scattered dots of a memory from fifteen years ago. Suddenly, he wasn't in a high tech paddock in Spain; he was ten years old, sitting at the wooden kitchen table in his family's apartment in Monaco. He remembered his mother cutting up slices of apple for him while he looked up English verbs in a heavy, French-English dictionary, determined to write a response that would sound smart and impress his friend across the Atlantic. He remembered the genuine heartbreak he had felt when the school program concluded, and the letters abruptly stopped coming—swallowed up by the relentless, demanding, and stressful schedule of junior karting championships that eventually consumed his entire youth.
A small, genuine smile broke across his face, entirely different from the practiced, media ready smiles he gave to the television cameras. He didn't notify his public relations team. He didn't ask for permission from the team principal. He simply tapped the direct message icon, his thumbs flying across the glass screen with far more speed, confidence, and fluency than the little boy who had struggled over that letter fifteen years ago.
Back in your bedroom, your phone buzzed against the mattress.
Then it buzzed again. And again. A rapid-fire succession of haptic vibrations caused the device to slide an inch across the sheets.
Within an hour, your notification feed had turned into an unreadable, runaway blur of activity. The screen was a continuous scroll of red numbers. You picked it up, thoroughly confused, assuming a stray hashtag had accidentally caught the attention of a rogue bot network or a crypto scam.
But when you opened the app, the notifications weren't random strings of spam numbers or automated advertisements. They were thousands of real comments, thousands of retweets, and an exponentially skyrocketing count of direct messages. Formula 1 fans, internet sleuths, and casual observers had intercepted the post, and it was spreading across the internet like wildfire.
“Is this a joke? Tell me this is a joke. There is no way this is real.”
“Bro casual dropped the most historic, multi-million-dollar flex in internet history.”
“Imagine having an F1 race winner as a childhood pen-pal and just finding out today??”
“OP, check your DMs right now, I am screaming for you.”
Baffled and feeling a sudden spike of adrenaline, you tapped on your direct messages icon. At the very top of the primary request folder, sitting beneath a prominent, verified blue checkmark and a professional profile picture of a handsome man wearing a red racing suit, was a message sent just ten minutes prior.
Charles Leclerc (@Charles_Leclerc)
“I did make it to the championship, actually! It took a lot of practice, just like the English. I cannot believe you still have this letter, it brings back so many good memories. How have you been, Y/N?”
Your breath caught sharply in your throat. You stared at the verified badge, then at the profile with its millions of followers, and then back down to the faded, yellowing piece of school paper sitting on your messy bedroom floor.
The little boy who had spent his sunny afternoons dreaming of racing tracks while struggling with foreign grammar had actually done it. And against all statistical probability, the vastness of the internet had just brought him back.
authors note: i don’t know if i like the plot or not, i had this written in my notes for so long and decided to post it, should i make a part 2?
You think Clark is about to propose, but he breaks up with you instead.
cw: 18+, smut, exhibitionism, getting frisky on a bus, colleague!reader, popular girl!reader, sexual tension, push and pull dynamics, miscommunication, gossip girl inspired, office relationships, breakup angst (3.3k wc)
"Believe me when I say that you're…such a great and wonderful girl."
A bigger hand carefully lays onto yours, and you pull the rim of your glass away from your lips. Smiling blissfully at the man before you.
This was it.
You'd gone down the checklist — weirdly cagey boyfriend, expensive place you just needed to make reservations for months prior. Your nails were done up, a pretty natural nude matching your skin tone.
"I couldn't have imagined all my firsts with anyone but you."
He was going to do it. He was going to propose.
"…But…I think it's best if we go our separate ways…"
The violins in your head stopped playing. Sounds of strings unceremoniously snapping as you watched Clark, thumb at your knuckles. Remorseful.
What the hell.
"What the hell?" You choke, the glass clinking down onto the table loud enough to gather the prying eyes of others.
"You're breaking up with me?!"
His expression twists at the discontent on your face, gaze flicking over at the commotion they were inadvertently making. The last thing he wanted was to actually hurt you.
"I-I'm sorry! We just — I think we don't exactly align and…"
"Why would you have me pick from six different restaurants if you weren't even gonna propose?"
"W-Wait, propose?" He blinks at you wide, drawing his hands back when you snatch it out of his hold.
"You're…a really picky eater…"
"Oh my god!"
"I-I'm sorry! I really am!"
"You don't tell a girl how amazing and wonderful she is when you're planning to break up with her, Clark!"
The reality was that he didn't know the protocol for breaking up with someone. Was Jimmy messing with him? He'd followed exactly what he'd recommended.
Clark has the audacity of standing up to trail behind you, with his tail tucked between his legs. Offering to walk you home, carry your bag.
You pause, pointing accusingly at him. "Oh. This is your thing, isn't it? You take on this charming geek persona, and then you use girls."
"What?! I would nev —"
"Oh, and you're gonna say you would never. You are such a skeeze."
It hits him without warning. Wet. Sweet and cold. Doused in whatever you grabbed first from the server's tray. Humiliation (that was well deserved, even when it wasn't intentional) tasted like a cocktail of peaches and seltzer.
You'd stormed out of the restaurant, leaving him to bask in his own timely shame.
Clark had a late meeting that morning.
Meaning, he didn't get to see you after that awful restaurant debacle. It killed him that you hadn't responded to his texts, offering some half-baked apology about why it wasn't a good idea to date someone in his workplace.
He could fix it, he thought. But not even Clark Kent fully understood the psyche of women.
He'd gotten a text from Olsen when he'd squeezed past the crowd to the Planet. Ominous.
[11:20AM]
Jimmy Olsen (Work): Oh man. What did you do?
That was a good question. What did he do?
He'd been on time to collect the team's press passes for next week's convention, and everything on his to-do list was checked for the morning.
[11:24AM]
Clark Kent: ???
It was a blast of cold air when he stepped into the bullpen, and it wasn't the thermostat that made it so. It'd felt like… everyone was looking at him, which wasn't the norm — him being invisible was how it was supposed to be. So he hadn't thought much of it at first. Even with the passive-aggressive interactions he was getting from the other women in the office.
Clark Kent, ever so sweet, spots you in the pantry. Standing up clumsily, the force of it sent his chair swivelling back.
It was dumb of you to have thought he'd come to grovel and beg for you back. One look at him, and his words grew tight in his throat. You raise a brow when he pulls out a dainty little keyring as a knee-jerk reaction, instead of apologising, like any decent guy would.
"This…I thought you should have it back…"
You stared at him. The keyring that you'd given to him— keys to your apartment. Could he really not have picked a better time to burn the bridges between you two completely? Your lips pressed tight, and you snatch it from his palms, leaving him standing to stew in his own inabilities to be tactful.
Gosh. This was why he never wanted to pursue office relationships.
He shouldn't feel guilty, he thinks. You didn't align with him. Being with someone airy, lighter and carefree, so impossibly feminine, he was pretty sure your biggest concern as of late was whether or not they'd be stocking up the caramel cookie Nespresso flavour pods.
You were pretty, way out of his league. Everyone in the Daily Planet adored you and would probably follow you off a cliff with so much as a flutter of your lashes. And maybe that's how he justified dumping a girl as perfect as you.
Or at least that's why he thinks he did. Clark had much more pressing problems now.
For one, the looks cast his way only grew more precarious. Spaces began to empty out when he set foot into it. Almost like everyone was just far too afraid to stand in his presence for what he'd done to you. The last straw had been when he set down his brown bagged lunch. He watched slowly as one by one, everyone got up and left, emptying out the space. Even Kenny, the copy guy, left him. After he'd offered him one of his tunnock's tea cakes.
It was ridiculous. He didn't want to think the worst of it, but it was the only possible conclusion that you were somehow blackballing him.
The door to the break room creaks open slowly, and he lifts his head in hopes of someone to keep him company. All that shot his way was an icy look from you when you'd come in, holding a box full of coffee pods. Clark looks behind you at the nervous looks and whispers being directed to the break room at the palpably tense atmosphere.
Clark hadn't said anything then. A better way around it would've definitely been to confront you about it in private.
It wasn't his best plan, he'd admit.
He didn't have a script in mind, and he really should've, because when you'd given him a less-than-pleased look the second you opened your front door, Clark's word vomit was unstoppable.
"I know you weren't pleased about our break-up. But pitting our colleagues…against me. It's juvenile. Please. Can we talk about it? Like adults?"
You'd stood there. Blinking. Arms folded tighter around your body.
"Oh, you're actually serious." A mirthless laugh leaves you, and you're scrambling to even dignify his accusation.
Clark remains tight-lipped, resolute in the conclusions he'd drawn, clutching tightly around the straps of his messenger bag.
"You know what your problem is, Clark?"
He gulps when you step out of the threshold of your home. The satin robe you had on shifts, and he eyes the exposed sliver of your thighs you'd unwittingly graced him with.
"Guys like you…the ones that think they're a good guy. You're worse than the ones who hurt with intention. Because you played with my feelings, with your whole shtick. So much for fuck and dump, huh?"
Clark frowns, visibly, taking your name in a tone that indicates he wasn't all that pleased about your scathing deduction of his personality.
"And for the record? I never told anyone to do anything." Your palms braced themselves at the door, shooting him a look over your shoulders before it slammed shut with finality.
"So, go figure."
He steps forward with a defeated sigh. Slumping his forehead onto your closed front doors.
Maybe he should've just left well enough alone.
Clark was certain that he would just have to live his days all by his lonesome with his newfound reputation.
He was probably being dramatic. At least Kenny still spoke to him — granted, it was his job to talk to Clark. He'd take it as a win regardless.
It took an awkward shuffle and ducking to get into the company-issued bus. The convention was taking place a couple of hours from Metropolis, so it meant a really long ride in silence with people not talking to him.
Then came Jimmy, who stood over a seated Clark. He looks up, perplexed.
"Let me scooch in there."
He gives way, fully turned to Jimmy, who'd just been casually making himself all comfortable and settled in. Clark was stiff, staring at him much like a puppy waiting to be given attention.
"Are we on talking terms now?"
Jimmy turns to Clark, amused, patting his back with an easy laughter, "hey man. It's not personal. Cat issued a social faux pas in all interactions with you."
"Miss Grant did? What does she have to do with this?"
"Think you did something to her friend. Rubbed Cat wrong."
"Her friend…" Clark groans, "oh gosh...her friend."
Of course. He'd seen you and Cat Grant together most days when you weren't with him. You'd been in the same department; he should've known. Clark felt like a complete idiot — he'd even gone up to your place to accuse you of being responsible for it.
You'd sauntered onto the bus shortly after his revelation. It killed him that the sweet smile he usually was the recipient of had turned into a scowl.
Half an hour goes by when your phone buzzes with notifications.
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Then —
[1:40PM]
Clark Kent: I was a jerk.
Clark Kent: You deserve a better apology after everything.
Clark Kent: Talk at my place when we get back?
The message is read immediately, and you look across to see Clark, who was side-eyeing you with a guilty look. You can't help but snort, shaking your head.
[1:42PM]
You: Ok.
He breathes a sigh of relief to himself, sinking back into his seat. Jimmy shoots him a grin, heavy hand slapping on his shoulder.
"Out of the dog-house, huh?"
"I was never in it," Clark bites back.
Jimmy shrugs, pulling his sleep mask on in broad daylight. Clark looks at him, not sure if he was in awe or in judgment of him.
"Not with a girl like that. You'll never get to escape it."
Something tells Clark he wasn't quite talking out of his ass. Proven by the sudden shudder that tears through Jimmy, as though he'd conjured a memory of someone.
Clark just wished he'd had this conversation with Jimmy before being forced to be within your vicinity for the next five hours.
It was out of curiosity at first when Jimmy's words rang in his mind, looking at you through his peripheral vision. Laughing, smiling with Cat, beaming with an imaginary light he pictured around you whenever you spoke.
An honest part of him wanted to admit that he couldn't keep up with you, in a sense where he didn't feel like him being your boyfriend would do you justice.
Clark looks over his shoulder when he feels a gentle tug on his sleeves. Eyes landing on the box of chocolates first, and then on the softer, manicured thumbs holding it.
"Want one?"
He shakes his head dumbly.
"Suit yourself."
You're already turned away, but his gaze remains ahead on your side profile.
It lingers on the way you bring the tip of the strawberry-coated chocolate to your lips that were curved up into a half smile, mid-conversation with someone.
He chokes his breath when soft pink wraps around the surface of it, lips gently dragging down the coated sweetness.
The sight of it was far too familiar, and it was making him twitch. The way your tongue peeks out to catch the chocolate that lingered on your bottom lip, and then back at him to thumb the leftover sugar.
Clark wasn't sure if it was intentional.
It all comes back to him like a whiplash, nonetheless— how you'd give him that heady, needy look when you had your mouth wrapped around his cock. Begging him to let you suck and mouth at his length like a popsicle, whining about wanting to stuff your cheeks full with his cock. Oh, he remembered it vividly; it wasn't often that he cried while having his dick sucked.
You were doing this on purpose. You had to be.
He looks away at the clear of his throat, uncomfortably adjusting the growing tightness in his slacks. Jimmy was out cold next to him. So he selfishly indulged, discreetly placing enough pressure to hopefully calm it.
Which worked for a while.
All he had to do was sit still, maybe think about his ma and pa. Yeah. The farm, Perry — oh, that one worked like a charm.
Just when he finally had his breathing in control, he sees movement at the corner of his eyes. You. Walking towards him. Or well — the bathroom. The effect it has on him is the same.
Your sweet scent wafts to him before you reach him, and Clark thinks he might just double over. But then, he hears you gasp, blinking confusedly directly at you.
Seated on his lap. Palms braced into your shoulders. Your lips part in a slow breath from the adrenaline of having been knocked out of your feet, but you frown as you readjust your thighs in the position you were in on him.
Something inexplicably hard was poking beneath.
Oh gosh. Oh gosh no. It's —
"Up." He blurts.
"G-Get up. Could you."
Clark's grabbing both sides of your hips without giving you a buffer time, unceremoniously plopping you back onto the deck like you weighed nothing.
Your gaze flickers to the obvious tent, and he winces. Waiting for the cruel mock he surely deserved. Instead, what he gets is a firm tug at his wrist.
Clark's standing up, even through his confusion, following where you were guiding him.
Trying to ignore the curious looks you were getting as you walked down the deck to the en-suite bathroom on the bus. Clark repeats your name as you tug at his tie to drag him into the already cramped space.
"Hey — " He chokes when you yank him down further, locking your lips with his. Clark groans into your mouth, tasting the remnants of the sweetness from earlier.
He shakes his head, pulling you away from him with both palms firm on your arms. Muttering a quiet 'ow' when the top of his head bumps the roof of the bus.
You're quick to shake him off, pushing him flat down onto the closed toilet seat.
He lets out a strained grunt when you hike your skirt all the way up to your thighs. In direct eye line to the very temptation that kept him coming back to you like a bad habit.
"Everyone… —" Clark tries to focus on anything else but the sight of your pretty lacy panties, and the trimmed hairs that obscenely sat behind the brocade.
"Everyone we know is outside." His voice gives him away, cracked and hasty, but he's comically contradicting himself with the way he's pawing at your bare thighs to guide you closer.
"They'll hear you."
It seemed like a considerate thought. But the slight twitch of his lip, that threatened to curl into a smirk, told you otherwise.
He knew you'd be loud. You always were. Whenever it was his cock he had you bouncing on? You were at the mercy of the guttural groans that spilt from you, stretching your cunt to his girth until you would beg him to cum deep into you. Clark had his way of doing that.
However wrong your relationship went. Sex was not one of them.
Your jaws clench at the unwarranted memory.
"Who said we were doing anything? You broke up with me, remember?"
He follows your line of sight to his erection with a defeated grunt. Nodding his head slowly in realisation as he leans back into the porcelain.
"You're punishing me for breaking up with you."
Clark cranes his neck back when you straddle him suddenly, with your knees tucked beneath you, ankles hooked around the meaty fat of his thighs.
His hand instinctively steadies around your hip. Looking up at you with a tilt of his head. "I'm not touching you anymore." He mutters, resolute. "It was never my intention to use you. I hope you're aware of that."
Your lips twitch, and a stuttered laugh escapes.
'Anymore.'
"I don't make it a habit of fucking men who aren't my boyfriend anymore." You bite back, through a crack in your voice.
"Hey — hey." A sigh rips through Clark when you attempt to shove him. Heavy palms cradle your cheeks to force you to face him.
Eyes glossy with tears you would never shed. Not in front of him, at least.
"Why do you insist on tamping all of this down, hm?"
You attempt to squirm away to no avail; he was insistently holding you in place. Thumbing at your cheekbone, each touch threatened to draw out the salty warmth.
"Don't do this." You managed. "Not when you've already made up your mind to break up with me. Not when you don't want me."
Clark tuts, grabbing at your wrist to guide you to rest in his crotch. Where he was still throbbing beneath his slacks.
"I have never not wanted you. That's…part of the problem." He lets go of your wrist, holding your face with both hands. "I just need you to give me more."
Your lips press into a slight purse. Glancing back down to unbuckle him. Clark sighs at your non-response, hands falling limp to rest on your thighs.
But then you continue, "suppose…we never really did much talking." His eyes are trained on your features, softening with a vulnerability he wanted to see for a long time now.
Clark shakes his head, smiling properly up at you, dimples and all. "Not really our forte, no."
The sharp sound of his zipper coming undone fills the small space. You lean in, pressing a peck onto his lips.
"We'll talk tonight." You promise. "Now…just…let me.."
His breath grows shaky against your lips when you're guiding his thick, already twitching cock out of his slacks.
Thumbing at the fat of your hips to ground himself. You look down, and Clark jumps as you let your spit dribble on his tip.
"G-Good…gosh…"
When he looks up, you're biting on your lower lip, transfixed at the way his cock had a mind of its own, reacting to just a weak, spit-slick stroke.
You looked at him with intention, with that pretty head of yours filling with the primal need of wanting to make him cum.
He remembers now why exactly he had to break up with you.
The first time Superman meets a telepath and nearly gets his secret revealed.
cw: 18+, smut, situationships, mutant telepath!reader, flirty teasing/banter, f!receiving oral, clark eats her out while talking to her through her mind-reading ability, movie content is mentioned, but not big spoilers (2.3k wc)
PART TWO
Jimmy was halfway rambling to Clark when you peer in from the receptionist area.
"You're here! Give me one second. Let me brief Perry and we'll go." He's fumbling around for his files, throwing a quick, "keep her company for me, Kent!" over his shoulder.
Clark is momentarily taken. You were radiant in a way that made everyone do a double take. Not particularly because of what you were wearing, but because you were carrying an easy, carefree warmth that seemed out of place in an office that was caffeine-run.
Definitely not the sort of girl anyone would assume Jimmy Olsen hung out with.
He offers you a tight smile, as he stands, about to introduce himself when your hand extends out, palm down, wrist tilted. A princess shake. Clark takes a second, and awkwardly grabs both your hand to shake your hand. The sheer size of him has you craning your neck all the way up, eyes widening a fraction.
"I've…heard that you're a pretty good help to Olsen." He begins, watching as you retreat your hand with an intrigued quirk of your brow. "Says you're something of a mind freak."
You frown immediately. Tucking your hair behind your ears and looking around for Olsen. It's clear he's lost your attention. "He calls me a freak?"
"No! Gosh no, something like, you know…a mentalist of sorts." The man seems flustered, and his attention draws to the commotion outside. You tip your head back, squinting to see a plume of smoke and shrieks from afar.
Your don't pay much attention to it. Except, you hear something.
(Crud. Doesn't look like a fire. Could be an explosion?)
You turn your head to look around, pin pointing the source of the thought. Then, another one —
(Need to get there before the second floor collapses.)
Clark's grabbing at his bag, not quite looking at you. And finally, he says out loud this time, "Uh — I have something to tend to."
"Like stopping that building from collapsing."
His eye twitches. "What…do you mean?"
(She can't possibly know, can she?)
"You're Superman." You affirm. With a bemused grin.
Clark hand snaps out around your mouth immediately. You're muffling your giggles against it before he's grabbing and pivoting you out of the bullpen and into the fire escape stairways.
He turns you into the the rusty & rain-scented stairwell. Cornering you close enough for your back to hit the wall. You're still muffling your laughter over his palm — not because you were scared, but because he was trying to hide what you already knew.
"Who sent you?"
You leaned back, licking a strip up his palm. Clark staggers back, in pure and utter shock, his voice increasing a pitch. "Woah what the — what the hay was that?!"
"You were smearing my lip gloss."
He looks at you in exasperation, shoulders stiff and wiping the remnants of pink gloss off on his slacks. But his gaze trails over you, and back to his hand. There's a variant of thoughts flittering through his mind, but you isolate one particular one.
"You think I'm pretty."
It doesn't register in his head fully, a busy mind it was, so he answers without thinking, "what? gosh — yes, that goes without saying." He gasps, snapping his head back at you when you announce the most loud thought in his mind.
"Stop that." Clark points at you accusatorily, "but wait — how on earth are you…"
It takes a solid second, before his shoulders go slack.
"You're…a mutant."
You grin with a shrug, "Jimmy doesn't know." Clark visibly winces when you 'answer' him. "He just thinks I'm reeaaal good at reading people." You're rocking on your heels, filling up with an intense curiosity for this revelation — this befuddled man, turning out to be one of the best discoveries of her life.
Clark wants to ask more. Head tilted, the words on his lips — but the roar of the building collapsing in the fire has his expression changing into something less Clark & more Superman.
"I gotta —" He groans. Running his hand through his hair while side-stepping you. Clark gestures at you with both palms, and then pointing between the two of you hastily while slow-jogging backwards.
"This — we, this isn't over!" He rasps, while sprinting full speed out of the corner.
The speed leaves your dress fluttering, a look of amusement etched onto your features.
Clark doesn't see you again for a few weeks.
Not that he was avoiding you. (Okay, well, maybe a little.) You had a habit of popping up in the weirdest places. Once, in the lobby of The Daily Planet asking concierge if people could claim insurance for super-hero related accidents. And the other, when he was mid-interview with the mayor and you were waving all perky at him, mouthing the words — "He's thinking about meeting his mistress."
You were airy, to put it simply. The sort of person who said whatever floated first into her head, or his. That was the problem, he supposed. You'd so brazenly slipped past the polite wall he kept in place for everyone else. After you were officially a civilian consultant for the paper you were around constantly. Which also meant you'd often catch him mid-thought.
It should annoy him. And gosh it had. Except it loosened something in him. Because with you, there wasn't a need for him to act the part. You got to know every one of his chaotic, burdened and messy thoughts — you didn't run away from it, you'd just leaned closer into it.
The first time the lines were blurred, it's raining impossibly heavily. And you're standing in his doorway, hair damp, clinging to his neck. Before he can even ask you what you were doing here, you're smiling.
"You're thinking about kissing me."
Clark groans, dragging his hand down his face. "I wasn't — you seriously need to stop doing that."
"You were. And now you're thinking about more. I'm down if you are." You skirt past him, leaving behind a trace of your rain-washed perfume, while you hop out of your strappy heels.
He exhales slowly, shutting his door behind you. "That's not — …it isn't a good idea." He mutters, softer.
"Yet you're still thinking about it."
It wasn't a bold declaration, or even something the two of you officially talked about. Sex just happened — once, and over and over again.
Enough times that you both had a slipped into an unsaid arrangement.
Krypto was missing.
Clark had been pacing his apartment since Lois had left. Muttering plans that were flimsy at best to himself. Jaws & shoulder tight. He's halfway to the door when a rustle from his couch has him spin.
There you were, shoes in hand, setting them to the side of his table. "How did you get past concierge — actually, no. Forget it. I'm not in the mood right now." Clark lets out a deep exhale, not wanting to let it show that he was just a little relieved to see you.
"Was that your girlfriend?"
His eyes narrow with a shake of his head. "What? Who, Lois? No. She's…someone close." Clark grabs around your elbow, and then pauses to think, looking at you offended. "And do you really think I'd be doing…what we were doing…with you, If I did have a girlfriend?"
You shrug slightly, letting yourself be walked closer to the door while his thoughts were loudly thinking about how you'd managed to sneak in and overhear his conversation with Lois. And then, he thinks about Kara's dog again.
"…I can help you, you know."
That seems to stop him in his tracks, and he studies you for a moment too long. "This isn't a game."
"When did I say it was? I'm offering because I can."
He almost considers it. But he shakes his head. "No." It was resolute. He backs away from you, arms folded and tense. "I'm not bringing you to Lex Luthor."
(I'm not putting you in danger like that.)
You don't point it out this time. Merely leaning back onto his counter tops, cheeks warming at that. You mirror his posture, folding your arms. "Superman." And your tone drops, a gentle lilt to it, "Clark."
"We're perfect together. It's a shame you don't wanna accept it."
He takes in your words, and then his head lolls to the side in thought. But you don't hear a thing.
Clark steps closer, trapping you where you stood, before his palm curls around your hips to set you on the counter. Holding the top of the cabinet, so you wouldn't bump into it.
Then, his hold on you eases, turning his attention to dragging his thumb mindlessly along the edge of the tiles.
"I..don't need the added headache."
"Au contraire." You gasp out, melodramatically while you tip his jaw to face you. "If anything, i'm a head-ease. You don't even have to open your mouth." Clark's letting out a exhale when your fingers card through the back of his head, and he steps between your thighs.
"They really let anyone be Superman these days. Not exactly man of steel right now. Man of kiddy-bedsheets, maybe."
He quirks a smile and looks up at you. "You're…really just a goddarned Swooper."
"What the hell is a swooper?"
"Something…my parents used to warn me about when I was a kid. A scary lady that would swoop me up if I'd wandered out in the farm on my own in the dark — hey. Don't laugh."
He croaks in exasperation, cheeks flushing at the sound of your laughter. "I'm not!" You protest. Raising your palms in a mock surrender. You lean in, pressing a quick peck to his cheek. "It's endearing. I like it. I'm your swooper."
Clark groans. "Don't even joke about that. I've had nightmares over it." His eyes soften when he looks at you, letting your lips meet his again, and again. You mumble in annoyance when his glasses bump into you. Frowning, you slip them off his face.
"Ohhh lookit. It's Superman."
"Hardy har har."
He leans in and noses at your cheek, kissing down your neck. And back on your lips. Clark closes the distance,tugging you to the edge of the counter top. "I promise, I won't get hurt." You offer, catching his quick glance at you when he kisses down your chest.
"I can be places without being seen. Part of the…mentalist stitch." Clark thumbs at your cheek, kissing the apple. "I'm not keeping you around just so I could use you."
"You might just be the only man who doesn't."
Clark huffs out a laugh at that, taking a knee while he ruched your skirt up your hips. "What happened to not using me?" He looks up at you with a lopsided smile, kissing up your ankles before pulling your thigh closes to his edge.
"You're not exactly the one being used in this scenario." You jolt against his face when he kisses up your inner thighs, his thumb skirting the string of your thong. A soft content sigh leaves your lips, lifting your hips just enough for him to tug at your underwear down.
"For someone who refuses.. —mhh—…to cuss, your mind is sure…full of filth.." You mutter, and Clark drags his tongue over your soft pussy. Sucking at the bud. You whine louder.
"Why say things when I can just do them?" He mutters low into your cunt, tongue dipping into your hole with a teasing intensity. Your hand grips around his curls, nudging his face just a little closer. "Oh—shit." You curl your thigh over your shoulder, seeking the friction of his curls against it.
(Greedy little thing. Do you plan to suffocate me?)
You jolt when you hear him, letting out a huff of laughter. Looking at him with a glint in your eyes. "Isn't…Superman able to hold his breath for super long?" You're biting your lip when he drags the curve of his nose along your slit.
(So you did your research. Cute)
"Jesus…I-I can't believe I'm saying this but shut up." Clark laughs against your pussy, the reverberation of it having you clutch around his head to drag him back. He hooks his arms underneath both your thighs, burying his head into your pussy. The kitchen fills with an obscene mixture of noises, his sucks, grunts, and your moans that were only growing more intense.
"Clark —" You rasp out, hips already moving to grind on his face.
(Yeah, baby?)
"T-Talk to me."
You feel him smirk at that, alternating to a deeper suck, lapping at your clit until they lift from the counters.
(Always knew your pussy would be fuckin' divine.)
Your cheeks grow warmer at his use of a curse word for the very first time. Your other palm snaps to grip around the counter, your pussy instinctively pulses around his tongue.
(Clenching around my tongue like that, dirty girl.)
You choke out a strangled cry, and Clark notices your chest rise and dip at a faster pace. He adjusts you rougher, manhandling you tad until you're curling your thighs around his neck. Clark doesn't stop, despite you trying to squirm away, he lets you hump at his tongue, all up till' you're gasping. "Yes, god, yes!" Your hips arching in heavy, forceful jolts into his mouth at the final suck of your clit.
He continues his assault on your pussy, making eye contact with you while you gush into his mouth. And then, only then, does your body finally go slack. Falling lip against the cabinets. Clark pulls away slow, his hand holding you entirely up right while he rises. Cradling your jaw until they rest on his cheek. Your pussy throbbed in the wake of loss, letting your head fall to the safety of his chest.
"How's that for using someone?" He murmurs into the side of his head, as he lifts you on the counter. The slick of your pussy smearing against his chest with every movement.
Summary: The first day of college nerves are suddenly made worse when you realised the guy you f*cked last night is your new Physics Professor!
Warnings! 18+ ONLY! This is some of the filthiest smut I have ever written and posted on here yet. Female reader and pronouns, Age gap (everyone is of legal age, Peter is a very young Professor), Oral (F + M Receiving), Dirty Talk (so much fucking dirty talk), praise kink, edging, P in V, Peter Parker (YES he does need his own warning), One Night Stand... or is it?, ITS SEX PEOPLE, JUST STRAIGHT UP SEX WITH A LITTLE PLOT FOR ADDED TENSION AND POW!
Word Count: 4.9k+
A/N: Consider this my formal application piece for the literary prostitutes society. There are no words for this, so I'm just gonna type/sing Don't Lose Your Head from Six. "Sorry not sorry but what I said, I'm just tryin' to have some fun..." But seriously though this was so self indulgent and I can't believe this came out of me. It's very much giving Aria and Ezra in Pretty Little Liars but older and much more Peter Parker. Also I am really sorry about if the tense keeps changing, I sometimes have a problem with finding my rhythm and I really cba to spend the time working it all out and changing it.
First day of college. Standard level of nerves for a first day. Are you running on just a couple hours of sleep? Sure. Still a little tipsy from last night? Okay, yeah, maybe just a little, but that’s a good thing right. Takes the edge off. But then again numbers and science had never let you down before. You can do physics. You’ve got this.
You took a deep breath, hand hesitating on the door handle. ‘This is the first day of the rest of your life.’ You said to yourself, breathing deeply.
You found a spot somewhere in the middle of the room. Not so eager you were at the front but you also didn’t want to hide away in the back. That and you were pretty sure you were due for an eye test and if you sat any further back you wouldn’t be able to read the board. You got out your notepad, flipping open to the first page, your fingers smoothing across the fresh paper comfortingly. You reach for a fresh pencil from the novelty pack your Mom had bought you especially for your first week, knowing you prefer the feel of writing in pencil than pen, the ink always getting smudged on your hand from your messy scrawl. You pluck the one with tiny zebra all over it from the clear case before placing it back in your bag. Your fingers drum the back of the pencil on your page nervously as you wait. You tried not to overthink things as your stomach began to churn. Had you really turned up this early? You took a quick look around the room at the other 5 people who had actually been there before you. ‘Hey,’ you reasoned to yourself, ‘at least you weren’t as early as them.’
You yawned. Damn you were tired. Although you had this early class, when your new room mate suggested you go out with the guys who lived across the hall you couldn’t say no. To be fair, it had been a good night all considered. You had met some new people, exchanged a few numbers, agreed to go to the end of semester drama club performance even though the term had only just started, drank way too many jello shots, got snuck into a local bar and then ended up going home with a tall brunette with the softest yet devious brown eyes you had ever seen who completely rocked your world.
You absentmindedly rubbed your thighs together, squirming slightly in your seat as you thought back to his head between your legs. The lewd moans he’d pulled from your lips echoing around your brain. It sent a fresh new wave of arousal straight to your core.
‘Not the time or place.’ you berated, instead forcing your mind back into the classroom and the task at hand. ‘Physics of Matter with Professor Peter Parker. He was probably middle aged’ you thought to yourself. It was always the case with classes like these, middle aged men finally leaving the lab for the first time after finally completing their life's work, now relenting to their wife’s begging to spend more time with the family. Or older men with white hair, wrinkles and tweed, desperately holding on to their independence, understimulated by the idea of retired life when all that knowledge of matter and the universe was rattling around their brains. ‘Young hot professors were only to be found in the movies or on TV’ you daydreamed as you tried to distract yourself from the growing pit of nerves in your stomach.
You check your phone every few seconds as other students file into the room, finding their own seats as you count down the minutes. 5 minutes… 3 minutes… 2 minutes… 1 minute… … He’s late… 1 minute past… 2 minutes past… 3 min-
“Okay, okay, settle down!” A voice called out as the classroom door opened, far younger than she expected and slightly familiar. “Welcome to Physics of Matter,” the voice continued as he made his way towards the board, picking up a bit of chalk and lifting it to the board as he spoke, “I am Professor Parker, but please,” he said dropping the piece of chalk back onto the little shelf at the bottom of the board, “call me Peter.” He said finally turning around.
SHIT!
DOUBLE SHIT!
You dip your head towards your page as you sink a little bit down in your seat. Hopefully he won’t notice. ‘FUCK!’ your head was suddenly screaming as all those memories of the night before flooded your brain again. His messy hair. His naked body. The way he had moaned into your cunt- FUCK!
You subtly glanced around the room from your head's dipped position. This had to be some new prank show right. There’s no way this happened in real life. There had to be cameras. He’s an actor right? Ashton Kutcher was about to burst through the classroom door shouting “YOU’VE BEEN PUNK’D” any second followed by the actual Professor Parker, right? Right?
“Now I’m not gonna ask you to get your books out this lesson,” he began to say playfully, his voice carrying around the room as he walked back and forth in front of his desk surveying his new class. “Today is about you getting to know me and me just going over all the things we are gonna be covering over the course of our year together.” He said, talking a lot with his hands. “As much as I’d love to start getting into equations with you, I’ve learnt that that tends to be futile during our first lessons. I mean, just by a show of hands, who went out drinking last night?” Professor Parker asked and a shower of hands across the room went up, Peter’s gaze scanning across the faces of the raised hands as he continued, “Keep your hand up if you’re still a little bit drunk-” his voice cut off as his eyes finally landed on you, his own oh shit face befalling him.
You felt your skin crawl as people lowered their hands and began following his gaze to you. You moved your hand up to your face as you sank down in your seat further. ‘Stop staring. Stop staring. Stop staring!’
8 HOURS EARLIER
“I couldn’t help but see you staring.” He said as he sidled up to you. ‘Holy fuck’ he was gorgeous. Tall, lean, perfectly messy brown hair and the most delicious biceps (not too big) that were flexing under the cuffs of his fitted T-shirt you really just wanted to wrap your fingers around and squeeze. Damn. “Is she okay?” He said turning to your friend.
“Yeah she’s just-“ your roommate started before nudging you and breaking you from your hypnotised gaze on this absolute Adonis of a man. “She thinks you’re really hot!” she shouted over the music to him.”
He raised his eyebrows as he gave a small chuckle, flattered, as you cringed. They both laughed at you. “Do you wanna dance?” he asked as he took your hand.
“Yes, she does!” your friend said, pushing you off your stool. His other hand comes out to steady you as you almost slam into his chest. You blush before turning to give your roommate a death stare.
He flashed one of those charming smiles again before he began to guide you away from her and to the dance floor. His hand doesn’t leave yours as he starts to bop and bounce, easing you both into the music. You slowly relax, smiling as a giddy feeling churns in your stomach, as you begin to bop with him to the music.
The music swells and he gives you a twirl under his arm before he pulls you closer to him. “So have you got a name or am I supposed to refer to you as flower for the rest of the night?”
You frown. “Why Flower?”
“Isn’t that the name of the skunk in Bambi who is all quiet and has those big eyes and blushing cheeks and-”
“Don’t call me Flower.” you quickly say, slightly embarrassed by the way you had gone all goo goo eyed and helpless over him.
“Okay, then what can I call you?”
You hesitate for a second as you think about giving him your real name but what would be the fun in that, especially if this only turned out to be a one night stand. “Trouble.”
He laughs, his head dipping to hide his amusement. “Is that so?” he says from beneath his lashes. “Fine, if that’s how we’re playing it, you can call me Professor Brat Tamer, Professor for short.”
You feel your arousal soak your panties the moment he says it, the words going straight to your core. What have you gotten yourself in for? It’s like he knows too from the way he’s smirking. He turns you, pulling you back into him, his hands resting on your hips as he begins to grind himself against your ass. “Now, are you gonna be a good student?” he coos against your ear only loud enough for you to hear. “Or are you gonna be like your namesake says and cause me a whole lot of trouble?”
He can feel the way you relax your body back against him, your eyes closing as you relish in the feeling his words elicit in you.
You smirk as you look back at him, “I’m sorry Professor, but you may have your work cut out for you.”
An hour and a half later he’s pulling you into his apartment, your back slamming hard against a wall of exposed brick as your mouth latches onto his. Both of you had done so well keeping your hands to yourself the whole way back, but the moment you got through the door it was like a starting pistol had gone off, both of you suddenly in a race for pleasure.
You moan against his mouth as his tongue slips between your teeth. You can taste his final Jack and Coke he had had before you left. Your skin felt like it was burning under his touch.
“Fuck.” You gasp as his mouth is suddenly moving across your jaw and down your neck, his teeth and stubble grazing you slightly in his hunger for you.
“God Trouble, you sound so fucking pretty.” he coos against your chest, his hand moving to paw at your breast, bunching it up to spill over the top of your dress as he leaves wet kisses across the skin.
Your fingers wrap around his messy tresses as you pull his head back up so you can connect your mouth with his again, a small growl escaping his lips at the slight pain. You kiss him messily, both of you breathing heavily before you push him back, allowing you room to drop to your knees on the hardwood floor. Your fingers immediately begin to fight with his belt buckle, the sound of the metal clinking sending arousal straight between your own legs.
“Fuck.” He pants as he looks down at you, his hand reaching to cradle either side of your face as you pull down his jeans and his boxers in one swift pull. “Uh, baby, baby, baby.” he coos as you take his length into your mouth and immediately begin to work your tongue up and down his cock.
His fingers move away from your face, grabbing at the hem of his t-shirt and you watch as he pulls it up and over his head, exposing the rest of his body to you. Fuck he really was gorgeous. “Oh my god.” he cried out when you began to swallow his length down your throat, your nose pressing to his pelvic bone. “Uh,” he said, his head tipping back, “she’s not trouble, she’s fucking perfect.” he says as he drops his head back forward to watch you, his thumb reaching to wipe away a stray tear at the corner of your eye.
You take his length out of your mouth as you gasp for air and he thinks it’s the sexiest thing he’s ever heard. “Come here Trouble.” he says as he takes your face and chin in his hands and lifts you from the floor, pulling your lips back to his as he smashes his mouth into yours.
He begins to kick off his shoes as well as his jeans and boxers that now sit tangled around his ankles as he continues to kiss you, freeing himself so he can lift you up into his arms, your own arms throwing themselves around his neck, as he carries you to his bedroom.
You can’t help but cheekily bite at his lower lip as he stops just before the foot of the bed. “Oh she has some bite does she?” he says against your mouth. Your teeth almost clash together from how close you are as you grin, waiting to see what he’ll do or say next. “Okay,” he says as he pauses a little for dramatic effect, “I can bite back.” he says before throwing you back on the bed.
You let out a small squeal as you're caught by the mattress springs and pillows. You quickly prop yourself up on your elbows so you can see the devilish look on his face as he pulls off your heels before he stalks up the bed towards you. He leans over you, attaching his lips to yours once more, his tongue sliding deftly into your mouth and out again with every kiss until his last, when he uses it to suck your lower lip between his teeth, pulling on it. He releases it just as you’re beginning to feel it bruise, his lips instead attaching to your throat as his hands come up to pull down the top of your dress. He had already clocked that you were sans bra from how low the back of your dress was and is even more grateful now he can immediately latch himself onto your nipples, his tongue lapping at the small sensitive nibs, one and then the other.
You moan under his touch, your eyes falling closed as your head tips back, fingers gripping tightly at the covers beneath you. When he looks up at you, keening under his touch, he thinks it's the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen. “Look at me baby.” he softly commands and you oblige, your chin pressing to your chest as you gaze straight into those big brown eyes. It’s the sexiest eye contact you’ve ever held. It’s like he’s fucking you with his eyes as his fingers begin to snake their way up your thighs, lifting the bottom of your dress up to your hips so he can pull down your underwear. He takes one feel of them before saying, “Fuck, trouble, these are soaked.”
You can only nod in agreement, as all words seem to have left your brain. ‘Fuck, he’s so fucking hot’ you think, as he kisses his way down your middle, over your dress until he reaches the hem where he can start kissing at your skin. You sigh, your head falling back again at the sensation of his lips kissing across your hips and then down your thighs.
His fingers spread your legs and he gives a small nip to the inside of your thigh and you gasp at the small feeling of pain, that quickly turns to pleasure, as yet another wave of arousal floods between your legs.
“Fuck, baby, you’re dripping.” he says as his finger scoops up the arousal thats begining to drip down your thighs, bringing it up to his mouth. You watch hypnotised as he sucks on his fingers. “Damn, trouble, you tast so fucking good.” he says as he slips his fingers from his mouth. It’s so filthy. He has barely done anything and you’re a fucking goner.
His tongue suddenly crashes between your folds. “FUCK!” you cry out loudly. His fingers trace over your thighs, reaching for your own fingers which you entwine with his. He’s got his eyes closed, savouring every moan, every little gasp he pulls from you.
He can tell you’re getting close from how your cunt begins to grind itself down against his tongue, chasing you’re high, but to allow you to have it would be too easy. He listens closely to your breathing, your moans; one… two… he suddenly moves his mouth away and you want to scream. He playfully nips at the inside of your thigh, almost hard enough to bruise. You really do scream now in frustration. “Told you I could bite.” he says coily as he mumbles against your skin.
He licks another stripe through your folds as if in apology, as if to soothe the sting but his tongue flicks at your sensitive clit before he sucks it hard between his lips and you cry out again. “Mmmm.” he hums against your cunt, “you sound so pretty when you scream like that.”
You want to cry, you are so sensitive and overstimulated but suddenly he’s lapping at your pussy again and you’re melting back into the bed as your muscles begin to relax again with the long slow licks of his tongue.
When you both begin to feel the build of your climax again he doesn’t pull away this time. He lets you have it, your thighs closing around his head, hips bucking off the bed as the wave of pleasure crashes over you. He keeps going, his mouth lapping up everything you’ll give him until you're pulling yourself away from him. Tears well in the corners of your eyes from the over stimulation as you pant and whine and rub your thighs together, desperate for the feeling to dissipate. He grabs at your ankles, holding you still as you flop back into the pillows at the top of the bed.
“So good for me Trouble, you’re doing so good.” he says as he crawls up the bed to kiss you.
Although he’s wiped at his mouth, the taste of you still remains and you lick it off every part of his mouth you can reach as he settles himself between your legs.
His hands slide up your thighs before they’re grabbing ahold of your waist and suddenly he’s flipping you, his head crashing into the pillows as you straddle his hips. Your lips race to chase his as you continue to pant breathlessly into his mouth, another flood of arousal soaking between your legs.
His fingers reach for the bottom of your dress, lifting it up and off your head, leaving you finally, completely naked before him. “Fuck, trouble,” he moans as his eyes drink you in, “has anyone told you how absolutely fucking perfect you are.” You giggle and blush as you lean down to kiss him. “No. No. Look at me.” he says as he takes your head in his hands and moves you away from him so you have to look at him. He’s giving you that look with his eyes again as he holds your face in place, not allowing you to break eye contact with him for one single moment as he begins to grind his hips up against you, his rock hard cock grinding against your clit. Your mouth falls open in a silent gasp. “So fucking perfect.” he repeats. “Now tell me, trouble, how do you want me to fuck you?” You can’t think, your eyes closing as you try to focus your thoughts as his skin drags across your clit teasingly. He gently taps your cheek with his fingers, forcing you to open your eyes and look at him. “Eyes on me Trouble,” he says, “find your words, tell me how you want me to fuck you.”
You shake your head as you close your eyes again, really unable to think. “Options.” you say breathlessly, your eyes flying open, before he can punish you for breaking eye contact again. “Give me options.”
“Okay.” he concedes with a small nod and a smile. “Okay, pretty girl.” he repeats again soothingly as he pulls you back down closer to him, his lips kissing you sweetly and encouragingly, aware he’s over stimulating your brain. “I can fuck you like this.” he says as he looks into your eyes. His hand slowly trails down to wrap around your throat, his other hand still cradling the back of your head as he flips you again. “Or I can fuck you like this.” he says as he continues to slowly grind himself against your sex. “Or,” he says as he lowers his head down to the crook of your neck, breathing you in deeply as he speaks directly into your ear, “I can flip you over and fuck you from behind.” You sigh as his words go straight to your core again.
“The last one.” you say breathlessly as your eyes close.
“MMM.” he hums into your ear as his teeth nip at your jaw, satisfied with your response. He pushes you back into the bed slightly as he lifts himself onto his knees, his hands moving away from your face and you watch him eagerly as you await his next move. He leans over to the bedside table, reaching into the draw for a condom, lazily tugging at his length with one hand whilst he uses his teeth and the other hand to open it up. You’re almost starring as he’s rolling it down the length of his cock, fully taking in his erect size. He smirks when he looks up to notice you nibbling at your lower lip.
“Come here, trouble.” he says before he’s flipping you over, your head finding a comfortable position on the pillow as he lifts your ass into the air.
He slides his fingers down your opening before placing two fingers slowly inside you, stretching you out and you let out another breathy moan at the feeling. He pumps them in and out of you a couple more times before he slowly lets them slide out of you, his fingertips dragging agonisingly across your clit before he uses them to pump his cock again a couple times, shifting himself into position.
His fingers grip tightly onto your hips as he lines himself up and slowly pushes himself inside you, your back arching with the stretch, head shifting as you let out another moan of satisfaction into the pillow. “Mmm, let me hear you baby.” he says as his hand removes itself from your hip to reach for the back of your head, his fingers tangling in your hair as he turns your head back towards him.
“Fuck.” you hiccup as he pulls himself out little by little before he’s slamming his hips forward against your ass, pushing himself in even deeper.
“Fuck, trouble. So fucking tight for me.”
You lose all ability to speak as he begins fucking into you, slowly building his pace until he’s fucking into you at a wicked speed. You want to scream again, your face screwing up in ecstasy as his cock continuously hits that spot inside you that makes you want to explode. His other hand reaches around for your throat, pulling you back up as he leans over you so he can stick his tongue back into your mouth. It adjusts his angle somehow, making the feeling in your cunt even more intense. Your mouth falls open as he holds it there, you’re panting and moaning into his mouth. “Look at me.” he encourages as his thumb rubs soothingly across your jaw. You can’t help but obliged.
It’s too much. It’s the hottest, most filthiest sex you’ve ever had. You know you’ll never be the same again. Nothing, no one, will ever compare to this. “Please, please, please.” you find yourself repeating as your eyes close again. You’re so close and he knows it because your cunt is constricting like a vice around his cock.
He moves his hand down to circle at your clit between your legs. “Come on, trouble, give it to me,” he coaches, “Fuck, baby!” he snarls against your mouth as he smashes his lips to yours again, pulling at your lips bruisingly.
You pull your mouth away from him, wailing, gasping for breath as your body convulses around him, his pace only slowing slightly to help you ride out your climax. “So good.” he coos, “My trouble, so fucking good for me. Atta girl.”
His pace is steady as he feels you begin to relax again but you’re still so stimulated. You’re surprised he’s still going. “Your turn.” you say to him breathlessly and he smiles. When he doesn’t say anything you decide to push your luck. “How do you want to fuck me?” you coo, now you’re the one who’s eye fucking him.
You watch as he closes his eyes, head falling back. He chuckles then, something low and devious. He suddenly pulls out of you. It makes you feel so empty. You’re about to whine but then he’s flipping you over and pulling your legs together and then over his shoulder as he bends you in half. He lines himself back up with your entrance and slips back in with ease and you gasp as he bottoms out, the position making him hit that devastating spot inside you instantly. He leans all the way over so he can kiss you, his mouth swallowing every moan, gasp and breath that leaves your mouth as he pounds down into you like something fierce.
“Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god.” you whine as the sensitivity grows too much. His pelvis is slamming against your clit with every thrust. Now you really are crying, your eyes rolling back in your head as you feel yourself clamping down on his cock again.
“Oh my god, baby.” he says. “You’re so fucking wet. So fucking good. Such a good fucking girl.”
It’s a guttural wail you let loose into the room as you cum and his head dips down as he buries himself in the crook of your neck, his thrusts growing even faster as he chases his high. “Stay with me, Trouble,” he says, trying to ground you. He lifts his head, hand reaching for your face, forcing you to look at him. “Just a little bit longer, baby, just a little bit-” but he can’t finish his words. He’s so fucking close. One pump, two- he suddenly stills as he buries himself inside you, his forehead pressing into yours grounding you both as he pumps his seed into the condom inside you. You whine at the feeling of his cock pulsating against the still extremely sensitive spot inside you.
“You did so good.” His voice reassures as he strokes soothingly across your cheek forcing you to look at him as you breathe deeply and heavily in your come down. “So fucking good.” he says as he kisses your forehead before slipping out of you.
With his body no longer crowding you you fully relax back into his sheets, your eyes closing as you try to regulate. You think you might even pass out. You think you may even have blacked out for a second, but you know you haven’t as your eyes fly open and your body jumps at the feeling of a cool damp cloth between your legs.
He watches you content as you suddenly relax once more, the cool washcloth doing wonders to soothe the hot swollen feeling between your legs as he cleans you up. You definitely black out then, completely exhausted.
You are disturbed again a few minutes later, a soft reassuring hand brushing up your legs. “Here.” his voice says softly as he sits on the side of the bed next to you, waiting for you to open your eyes and look at him so he can pass you a glass of water.
The cold liquid does wonders to help regulate your temperature and you can’t help but stare at him again in wonder as he sits before you in a pair of flannel pyjama bottoms. He leans over you, kissing the top of your head, breaking you from your sex induced stupor.
“You can stay if you want.” You nod your head, you have no energy to move yet.
“Okay.” he says with a soft smile as he takes the now mostly empty glass from your fingers. “I’m gonna go get you another one of these,” he says motioning to the glass now in his hands, “you go to the toilet, there’s a spare toothbrush under the sink, get yourself ready for bed and when you get back we can cuddle.”
You still have no words, just dociley nod and agree. You wobble slightly as you try to stand, blood rushing back to your limbs and his hand reaches out to steady you. “I’ve got it, I’ve got it.” You say as you sway slightly and wave him away.
He just chuckles. “Whatever you say, trouble.”
You crawl into bed beside him 5 minutes later, tucking yourself into his side as his arm wraps around you. “You really are Professor Brat Tamer huh?” you joke as you nestle into his bare chest.
“And don’t you know it.” he smiles, pulling you tighter into his side so he can place a kiss to the top of your head.
You wake just after 6am, sneaking from his bed with a smile on your face as you pick up your clothes before doing the walk of shame back to your student halls. The sun is just coming up and the leaves are just starting to change, you can still feel the alcohol in your system as well as the after effects of your orgasms and you know, although you’re tired, today is gonna be a great first day… or was it?
Summary: Once upon a time you and Steve Harrington were inseparable. You grew up together thinking that nothing would ever change between you two. Then middle school came along and suddenly the sweet boy that you knew was changing. He was became "King Steve" and there was nowhere for you in that title. You haven't talked to him in years by the time Hawkins keeps pushing you into each others lives.
(wc 4.9k)
Content: Childhood to Strangers to lovers, Slow burn (like slooow), canon violence, smoking, overprotective sister, fem reader, course language, use of y/n, reader not nothing anything till season 2 (so this chapter is literally all of season 1)
a/n: I've been thinking about this since the show ended and I finally started writing it down. Steve Harrington has had a hold on me since 2016 so this is long overdue.
November 6th, 1983
“There’s something wrong with your sister.” Dustin is shoving the rest of the pizza in his mouth as he talks.
“What are you talking about?” Mike was in the middle of talking to Will about their campaign.
“She’s got a stick up her butt.” Dustin continues while finally grabbing his bike.
“Yeah. It’s because she’s been dating that douchebag Steve Harrington.” Lucas adds.
“He used to be cool, I don’t know what happened to him.” Dustin says as he starts to walk the bike to the garage opening.
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“Do you want a ride to school?” You always offer but Dustin never takes you up on your offer. He said that his bike ride to and from school with his friends are sacred. Your mom has already left for work so it’s just the two of you at the table for breakfast. You were going to actually cook something for the two of you but he had already busted out the pop tarts.
“No.” He mumbles out with food still in his mouth.
You swat at his shoulder. “I told you not to talk with your mouth full, it's gross.”
“whatever.” He says as he stands up and starts to put his backpack on. You roll your eyes at his response. “I’m going to school.”
You stand up and start to clean up the table, but not before you reach over to ruffle his hair, even though he is wearing a hat. He hates that you still do that. “Have a good day at school, Dust.” And with that he’s out the door.
You stay back and give yourself one last look over in the mirror before you head out
You’re home before everyone else, you always are. Mom will get home around 5 and you’re never quite sure when Dustin will get home. You start your usual routine, feed Mews and start your homework on the couch while you turn on the TV. You’ve been watching Magnum P.I. Tom Sellek is hot, what can you say? Dustin always gives you crap about watching it. You’re not expecting him home till later when you hear the door open.
“You’re home early.” You say from your spot on the couch, not taking your attention off the TV.
“Will wasn’t at school,” His usual cheer isn’t in his voice, and that makes you look at him. “The cops came and talked to us about him.”
“Dusty…i’m sorry.” You stand up to hug him, he’s still shorter than you, but you know that won’t last long. He hugs you back and you can’t help but squeeze him a little harder when you think about the possibility of Will missing. You don’t know what you would do if you lost him. You stand there for another beat just holding him, before you both pull away.
“You wanna watch a movie?” You ask when you step apart. Trying to think of something to take his mind off his missing friend, though you don’t know how much good it will do.
Dustin finally looks at the TV for the first time since stepping into the house. “As long as I don’t have to watch that Magnum crap.” He scoffs out, his voice sounding a little less sad.
Dinner was quieter that night. Mom made meatloaf, Dustin's favorite. You’re guessing that Mrs. Byers or the cops called her while she was at work to ask about Will. The first thing she did when she came home was hug and kiss both you and Dustin. After dinner Dustin is quick to go to his room. She tells you that she wants you to start driving to school for a while. You say that you’ll try but you don’t know how willing he will be to let you.
It isn’t until later that night, after everyone had gone to bed, that you hear a thump from Dustin’s room. You had just walked out of your room to go to the bathroom when you hear it. You walk up to his door and lean your ear to it to listen in. It's been raining all night, maybe you misheard thunder. You can hear him shuffling around. You knock on the door, “Dustin, you okay?”
“Yup!” He says through the door.
“Are you sure? I heard a noise.” You’re still leaning on the door listening in.
“Oh, yeah. I- ummm… fell…off my bed.” There is no confidence in his voice when he replies. You go to open his door, but it's locked when you twist the handle.
“Dustin-”
“I’m fine y/n,” He cuts you off, “You can go back to bed, I promise I’m good.”
You’re still a little worried but there’s nothing you can do if he won’t let you in, literally and metaphorically. You make a note to keep an extra eye on him. You need to pee and are dead tired, you chalk this up for a problem for tomorrow.
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“Sooo, how’d you sleep last night?” You and Dustin are in your usual routine of eating at the table for breakfast, but he’s in a rush for some reason. Shoveling food into his mouth trying to get out the door as fast as possible.
“Fine.” That’s all you get out of him as he’s polishing off his breakfast.
“Dust, why don’t you let me drive-”
“I’m good. I gotta get to school.” He is up and putting his dishes in the sink as quickly as he was eating. Once he has his backpack on, he’s about to run out the door, but he stops himself to give you a quick kiss on the cheek. “Love you!” He yells out as he races out the door.
You are just left sitting there at the table. Trying to take in everything that just happened. Not sure why he’s in a rush to get to school. You knew it was a long shot that he would let you drive him but you thought you could argue it a little before he completely shut you down. You finally stand up from the table to leave the house. Mews is sitting in the doorway to the kitchen staring at you.
“That was weird right?” You ask him as if he’ll actually answer you. He just keeps staring at you, tail whipping back and forth on the ground. You let out a sigh, and start to head to grab your bag to leave for school. You make sure to pet Mews head before you pass by him.
You’re at your locker at school putting your books up. You can hear Steve and his crew, now joined by Nancy Wheeler and Barb Holland (Of course they’re together), talking about something. You can’t be arsed to actually listen. It’s probably some bs that ultimately means nothing. “Oh God, That’s depressing.” When Steve says that, it actually grabs your attention. If they didn’t want people eavesdropping then they shouldn’t be so loud in the middle of the hallway. You look up towards them to see what they’re talking about. Oh…you feel bad for Jonathan. He’s hanging up missing posters on the bulletin board. You can’t even imagine what he and his mom are going through. You don’t really know him, just the few conversions you’ve had when picking up or dropping off Dustin at the Byer’s or vice versa. He’s a year younger than you so you never have had classes with him either. He’s on the quiet, awkward side and you know he gets made fun of for it. You don’t hear the rest of their conversation. You space out thinking about what it would be like to be in his situation. You’re not far from it to begin with. A single mom, and little brother you look after. From what you’ve heard about the Byers dad, it sounds like it’s a good thing he’s out of the picture. You finally snap yourself out of it when you see Jonathan walk out of the school doors.
You should start to get to class before you’re late.
You’re lost in your head the rest of the day. Not being able to stop thinking about Jonathan hanging up those missing posters of his little brother. It haunts you. Once you get home you’re hoping that it will be another night that Dustin comes home early. You can’t lie, you’ve been on edge since yesterday night. You’re bouncing your leg up and down, somewhat trying to focus and do your homework, when you hear the phone ring. You are up and basically running to answer it.
“Hello?”
“Oh hey, y/n, It’s Karen,” You’ve talked to her enough both in person and on the phone for her to recognise your voice, “I was just calling to let you know that Dustin is over here and staying for dinner. With everything going on, I thought it would be a good idea to let you guys know.”
“Yeah of course, thanks for letting me know.” Knowing where Dustin is makes you feel a little better. You exchange good-byes before hanging up the phone. You let out a heavy breath. You wish Dustin would have let you know his plans, better yet you wish he was home until this whole thing is resloved… if it ever is. You can’t help but worry, he’s your kid brother. He’s been at your side his entire life, your emotional support sibling.
When Dustin comes home that night, he’s in a good mood. You find it odd considering one of his best friends is missing. As soon as he’s through the front door you stand up from the couch to talk to him.
“Dustin, are you okay? You know you can talk to me. I know with everything going on with Will it can be hard.” You’re trying to reach out to him, let him know that he doesn’t have to deal with his feelings on his own. Grief comes in all forms, maybe this is just his. You keep trying to justify his upbeat mood.
“Yeah, yeah of course.” He says as he rushes past you to his bedroom. You hear his door close. Your mom isn’t worried about him but that doesn’t help ease your mind. He isn’t telling you something, you know it. He usually always talks to you about his day, in detail you might add. It’s weird that he’s barely even looked in your direction and dodges all your questions. You know you can’t make him open up and all you can do is wait until he is ready but your patience is weaning.
· · • • • ✤ • • • · ·
You wake up with a headache the next morning. You can already hear Dustin moving about the house. What is he in a rush for? This whole ordeal and Dustin’s reaction is stressing you out. Maybe you should make him go see the school counselor. You debate even going to school today, but you have a big english test. You also want to try to track down Jonathan to get some posters so you can help hang them up. You don’t know how much help it will be, but there isn’t much else you can do.
Dustin is out the door before you're even dressed, so you eat breakfast by yourself. And Mews is here with you too. You look at his little face, glad to have some company. You top off his food bowl with the fancy stuff. You're slow to start your day and get to school.
You never did find Jonathan. Once you thought about it, you have no idea what any of his classes are or where he would be. The day dragged out. You just want to get home, and hopefully finally be able to talk to Dustin. You know it’s probably a long shot with the way he’s acting, but one can hope.
Your idea to talk to Dustin is immediately crushed when your mom comes home and lets you know that he won’t be home till late today, something at the Wheelers. Apparently he told her this morning while you were still asleep. You resign yourself to the couch until he comes home. It isn’t until way later that night that he finally comes home. Your mom is already asleep and you're 5 minutes away from crashing on the couch. As soon as you see him open the door you know something is off. There are tears in his eyes.
“Dusty?” You say as you stand up to get a better look at him.
As soon as he meets your eyes, he starts to fall apart. He rushes up to hug you. You hold him back instantly, trying to comfort him. He didn’t even bother to close the door before he ran to you. You can hear his quiet sobs against you. You run your hand up and down his back trying to soothe him. Your heart breaks at every tear that falls from his eyes. You wish you could take all his pain away. You knew it was going to eventually hit him.
“he’s…gone. he’s really gone.” he whispers out to you. You know who is talking about of course, he doesn’t even need to say the name. You don’t know what he saw or heard to make him finally come to that realization but you don’t need to. You just need to be here with him while he goes through something that no child should have to go through.
“It’s okay, I'm here. I’ll always be here for you.” You say quietly into his curls. You know that you can’t actually promise that, but god help you, nothing will take you away from your little brother. You stay in the entrance just holding each other while he cries. After a while his small sobs stop, and he pulls away to wipe his nose. His eyes are bloodshot and puffy from all the tears. You take your thumb and brush away what's left of tears on his cheek.
You usher him into his room. It’s late, and he’s had a long day. It’s only going to get harder from here and you hate that there isn’t anything you can really do about it. All you can do is be here for him.
“You gonna be okay in here by yourself?” you ask before you close his door. He gives a little nod of his head. You give him one last glance over before shutting the door. You go to close and lock the front door. Your mom does not need to know how long that was open when the heat was on. You give yourself a moment to just stand there to take everything in that just happened. You rub your hand against your face while you think. After a couple minutes of just staring into the carpet you make your way to your room. All you can think about while you crawl into bed is the look on Dustin’s face when he first opened the door, and the image of Jonathan hanging up those missing posters in the hallway.
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The next morning you make sure to wake up early so you can make Dustin his favorite breakfast. Chocolate chip waffles with bacon. It’s not much but you’ll do anything to help make him feel better. You’re finishing up plating everything when Dustin finally comes out of his room. His eyes are still puffy. You can only assume that he continued to cry after you went to bed.
“Hey Dust, I made breakfast.” You say as you grab both your plates and sit them down on the table. You pull his chair out for him to sit, and once he’s sitting you can’t help but give him a little kiss on the head.
“thanks” He mumbles out while he starts to pick at his food. He’s really broken up about this. He usually devours the waffles and bacon when you make it.
“You know dusty, I talked to mom before she left and we both agreed that if you-” You’re cut off mid sentence by a knock at the door. You go to answer it, and you’re greeted with Lucas Sinclair. You weren’t expecting him.
“Hey kid, how are you doing?” You know this has to be hard on him too.
“Hey y/n, where’s Dustin?” You can hear Dustin walk up behind you. “I’m here to pick him up…for school.” He tells you. Then he makes intense eye contact with Dustin, “It’s important.”
At that Dustin says okay, nodding his head and grabs his stuff to leave. He’s out the door before you can get a word in. You walk back to the table and stare at the food you made for the both of you. “Welp…” Mews is rubbing against your legs. He knows the smell of bacon and knows if he plays nice you’ll give him some. “At least someone will get to enjoy the food.” You say as you start to tear up a piece of bacon for him, your only response is a meow.
You really don’t want to be at school, but this way you're closer to Dustin if he needs you. You sneak away to the little alley by the football field for a smoke. You’re usually good about not smoking at school or near your family, but it's been a stressful couple of days. You take a drag of your cigarette when you hear the crunching of gravel as someone walks towards you.
“Since when do you smoke?” Steve is probably the last person you wanted to see right now. Hell you would take the principal over him, there’s a lot you can get away with when you’re a straight A student who is at the top of their class.
“Since when do you care?” Letting the smoke billow out your mouth as you speak. You don’t even bother to look over at him, so you don’t process his movements when he goes to grab your cigarette out of your hand and steps it out.
“What the hell!” Is all you can say, honestly you’re not even surprised by his audacity.
“Those things are bad for you.” Is all you get back. You just roll your eyes in response.
“Hey Steve-” Nancy stops in her tracks when she sees you standing with him. “Oh hey I didn’t know you were over here.” She says while just looking at you. You just go to grab another cigarette out of your bag and your lighter.
“I was just telling her those are bad for her.” You don’t even dignify his response with a look, while you go to light your cigarette.
Nancy gives him a confused look. “The other day you were just-”
Steve cuts her off, “Anyways me and Nance need to talk so…” he says just looking at you like you will automatically give him your spot, like no one could say no to ‘King Steve’.
“What? I was here first, and I honestly don’t care about whatever you guys are talking about.” It's true you were here first and you don’t care. They can go talk anyway, you can’t really smoke anywhere. To help make your point you walk a little down the alley to give them space, squatting to finish your cigarette.
He finally gives in and reassures Nancy that it’s fine to talk in front of you. You do your best to tune them out, but their conversation is actually interesting. You would have placed money on it being some stupid relationship crap that would bore you to death, but turns out you were wrong. Okay, this time you can’t blame them for your eavesdropping. Nancy storms off and Steve is left calling after her.
“That was rough to listen to.” You say as you stand up, finishing off your cigarette.
“Thought you didn’t care.” He scoffs at you, while crossing his arms.
“I don’t.” You drop your finished cigarette to stub it out with your shoe. “But you did sound like a total jerk.”
“You know how my dad is.” He says while giving you a pointed look.
“Yeah I know, but does she? Or did you just blow off her concerns about her missing friend over, for what probably seems like to her, a few beers and a grounding?”
“You know it’s more than that…” There’s almost a pleading look in his eyes, begging you to understand.
“Mmm, but does she? It doesn’t matter what I know, you’re not trying to get in my pants.”
“It’s not like that-”
“Whatever Harrington.” You dismiss him and start walking to class, you don’t want to smell like smoke and be late. Steve is just left standing alone in the alley, not that you would care anyway. He’s not your problem anymore, and hasn’t been for a while.
· · • • • ✤ • • • · ·
You figured Will’s funeral would be a hard day for Dustin, but as you’re helping him with his tie he seems perfectly fine. Hell, you think you’re having a harder time with the funeral than he is. Other than the night he came home crying, he’s been completely fine. Even last night you were expecting him to be upset but he wasn’t, just rushed to his room when he got home. You thought you were getting somewhere with him when he opened up to you but it’s like he’s back to acting like everything is normal. You don’t even know if it’s worth trying to get him to talk to you anymore. You’ve come to the realization that he has to do this on his own terms, however strange they might seem to you.
During the funeral you’re standing behind Dustin and his friends. You hope that your presence gives him some comfort but this kid does not seem to need it. You don’t know what he said to Mike, but it got Karen to shush him. Maybe you’re going crazy and this is a normal reaction, but he’s got you up the wall with how nonchalant he’s acting about the whole situation. You don’t bother to give your condolences to Mr. Byers. Mrs. Byers is out of it, you don’t even think she would hear you if you did. You try to find Jonathan before you go inside for the reception part of the funeral, but when you’re looking around you can’t seem to spot him. You don’t know where he ran off too.
You’re going to grab Dustin so you can head back home, but when you find him; he, Lucas, and Mike are huddled together whispering about something.
“Hey Dust, you ready to leave?”
“Umm, actually, I was thinking about going to Mike’s.” He keeps looking between Mike and Lucas while he talks. You raise your eyebrow at his response.
“We’re so sad, we don’t want to be alone right now.” Lucas answers for him, and he just nods his head at his words while he looks back at you.
“...okay, just don’t be home too late.” You’re hesitant to let him go but Lucas was right. The boys need each other now more than ever. Maybe he’ll lean on them since he seems to not be needing you.
Dustin doesn’t get home till late that night. You’re already in your room when you hear him come into the house. You don’t even bother going to check on him. If he needs you, he’ll come see you, which doesn’t seem to be happening as much as you anticipated. He’s hiding something from you, you know it. He’s never gone this long without talking your ear off about his day.
· · • • • ✤ • • • · ·
The next day when you wake up all you can think about is getting answers out of Dustin. He is not leaving the house today without telling you something, anything that’s going through his mind. As soon as you make your way into the living room, he’s already running around the house grabbing his stuff. There’s no way he’s getting out of talking to you today. You’re sick of him hiding something from you. You make your way to stand in front of the front door to hold your ground. Your armed crossed and staring at him when he tries to leave without acknowledging you.
“Talk.” You keep your stare at him not even blinking.
“What… are you…talking about?” He’s drawing out his words as he looks back at you.
“I know you're hiding something from me, and you’re not leaving this house until I get some answers.” You stay strong in your conviction.
He just looks back at you, trying to form whatever his response is. You can see the conflict across his face as he decides what he wants to tell.
“Will’s alive and we’re going to find.” He blurts out, like word vomit. You drop your arms when he says that. You were prepared for a lot but not that.
“Dustin-”
“No, no. I’m not crazy. He’s alive, I know it.”
“We went to his funeral…”
“That was a fake. He’s still out there waiting for us to find him. You don’t have to believe me but it’s true. I’m going to Mike’s and we’re going to find him.” He shoves his way past you and you let him. You’re left in shock just standing there. You don’t know what to do. He thinks his dead friend is alive and that he will find him. This is beyond what you were expecting. He’s in the denial stage of grief you tell yourself, that’s the only explanation you have.
The rest of the night is spent pacing around the house trying to figure out what to do with Dustin. Denial is a perfectly normal part of grief, right? It's one of the steps. You’re worried sick for the rest of the night. What if he gets hurt trying to ‘help’ Will…or worse. You are so deep in thought, you don’t even register that the phone is ringing. Your mom comes rushing into the living room to grab her coat and shoes. She is in a panic and that’s what gets you to snap out of it. She tells you that was the police, and that there was an incident at the school and Dustin was there. When she says that it makes you want to throw up. You start to go towards your shoes when she tells you that she wants you to stay at the house in case something else happens. You're about to argue with her but she’s out the door before you can start. Well now you see where Dustin got it from. If you thought you were worried before, this is nothing compared to that. You're pretty sure that there are going to be marks left in the carpet left from how much you’ve been pacing.
Sometime later that night the phone starts to ring. You’re quick to pick it up. It’s your mom, and she tells you she’s at the hospital, when you hear that you can feel the bile start to rise in your throat, and tears sting at your eyes. Leave it to your mom to lead with the worst parts first. She explains that Dustin is okay and that Will was found. You are left in awe at her words. You can’t believe that he’s actually alive. Dustin doesn’t want to leave the hospital till Will wakes up, and you don’t blame him. She asks you to come sit with him until he does, she still has work in the morning and can’t stay there all night. Your shoes are on and you're in the car within seconds. You’re not even sure you lock the door, that's how much of a rush you are in. This is probably the fastest you’ve ever driven. You know Dustin is okay, but you need to see it with your own eyes. Your heart is beating through your chest.
When you get to the waiting room it’s full, but the most surprising part is that Steve is there. His face is beaten and bloody, you don’t even know where to start with that. He’s not even sitting near Nancy, which is the only reason you can think that he would be here.
“You look like shit Harrington.” That grabs his attention and he lifts his head up to look at you. He’s slower than usual, must have been a bad beating. Before he can get a retort in, Dustin bust through the waiting room door. He’s running up to faster than you can process, and you’ve never been happier to have him nearly tackle you. Just as quickly you’re embracing him, borderline probably suffocating him. You hold on to him way longer than he probably wanted but sue you it’s been a stressful day. You finally let go of him.
“I told you y/n, he’s alive!” There’s no anger in voice, just absolute joy. He doesn’t care that you didn’t believe him. He’s just over the moon that his friend is alive and here.
“I know, I know, I should have believed you. I promise to always believe you Dust, you just have to talk to me.” You pull him in for another hug.
“Promise?” You nod against him as a response, but he pulls away. He brings his pinky finger up waiting for you to accept the most sacred vow. And you do, cause you mean it. You interlock pinkies with him sealing your promise. You would do anything for him, including believe the most ludicrous ideas.
cw: MDNI!! dubcon (bc there's an aphrodisiac involved), oral (f!receiving), fingering, lots of dirty talk, unprotected p in v, mating press, creampie, multiple orgasms, friends to lovers!!, HUNGRY peter
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you weren't sure when it became a habit to sneak into the chemistry building after hours with peter to help him work on his web fluid; all you knew was it was your turn to pay for the pizza.
it was nearing midnight as your full belly laughs echoed through the empty lab, crusts long forgotten on the table behind you, as you lost yourself in a story. peter's smile was visible through prickling tears.
he knew it was a bad idea to invite you from the start — there was no shot in hell he'd get any work done as long as you were around him. peter had figured that out by the senior year of high school: he just couldn't seem to focus on anything other than you. he began to lie and say he was finished with his homework whenever you would hang out, covering his lack of progress in your presence.
peter had been distracted by you for the last few years, yet he could never seem to resist your company anyway. he beamed as you laughed at your own joke, relishing in the alone time he got to spend with the one person who made him feel like himself.
you let out a snort, and peter was done for, tears in his own eyes as he joined you in hearty laughter. he reached down and grabbed a vial through blurry vision, adding the final touch to his web fluid 3.0.
except that, instead of a sticky web-like substance, peter was met with a bright flash of hot pink from the liquid in the beaker before a cloud of magenta powder exploded from the glass, dusting the room, and in turn, you and peter.
he was on you instantly, shielding you from the flying shards of glass before the beaker even burst, though the aerosol impact was inevitable. the reaction was quick to hit your lungs, dragging out hoarse coughs, rough and heavy in your chest as you fought to regain a sense of your surroundings.
the headache was almost immediate as peter leaned down to say something, and you winced as you looked up at him.
"what?"
"are you okay? did you get cut at all?" peter frantically examined for any tears in your sweatshirt, checking your hands for any possible nicks.
"i'm okay, rea—woah," peter placed a hand on your jaw to inspect your face, and the touch activated something deep inside of you.
suddenly, you felt the hottest you'd ever been, and the headrush made you weak in the knees. your vision began to cloud, senses on overdrive as you felt an aching pain rising in your chest. meeting peter's gaze with panicked eyes, you began to really take in the state of the situation.
"peter, what did you just mix?"
"i-i don't know, i must've grabbed the wrong thing..." he trailed off as he turned to search through the drawers, but the movement stopped him dead in his tracks.
peter was instantly met with a rush of vertigo, the room spinning violently around him as he braced himself on the countertop. he felt like he did when he was first bitten: hypersensitive and overwhelmed. fuck, what did he mix?
amidst the rest of the world in his ears, peter picked up on the sound of your heartbeat and immediately knew something was wrong. really wrong. he took a moment to analyze you, everything moving in slow motion as he fought to figure out what the hell he mixed together, and where these symptoms were headed.
your current state didn't give him much comfort; peter quickly noticed how you were starting to sweat, your chest heaving as you struggled to catch your breath, despite not having left your chair. your full-body flush made him wonder if he looked just as disheveled.
"are you feeling okay?" peter asked, heavy with concern and guilt.
you shook your head at him, words fighting to escape your trembling lips. "i-i don't know. i feel... warm. i don't know."
and then peter felt it. his cock twitched, and he realized for the first time how painfully hard he was. he looked down in horror, hoping you hadn't yet noticed in your own haze. peter quickly sat down again to cover the evidence, praying to any god who was listening that this wasn't happening.
while successful in his concealment, the slight friction in the movement of his pants was enough to elicit a groan from his throat; he hoped you didn't hear.
but you did. because each little noise he made, conscious or not, egged on every dirty fucking thought you were having right now. and about peter. in front of peter.
"maybe we should get some... some fresh air, or something," peter says weakly.
as you nodded in response and moved to get up, it became horribly apparent to peter that he had to stand up with you, and not only would you also know just how hard he was, but the friction alone might be enough to kill him.
and then he had a thought:
are you feeling this way too?
no, don't think like that. that's your best friend, and whatever's happening, clearly neither of you was in your right mind.
but peter had always felt this way about you. this time, it was just so physically painful for some reason. what the fuck was in that beaker?
he didn't have any more time for his mind to race, as you stood from your stool and he watched your knees buckle underneath you. peter rushed to stabilize you, grabbing your shoulders and keeping you steady. it was pointless, though. somehow, the feeling of peter's hand against you knocked your breath out, far worse than falling ever would've.
you had no idea what was going on, but it was getting harder and harder to think about anything other than peter (as if that wasn't the norm anyway, bffr). but this was heightened. this was all of your wildest desires pulled to the forefront of your mind in the middle of your ochem 403 lab at 11pm on a tuesday night.
what the fuck was going on with you?
you tried to shake off the way peter's touch relieved some of the haze clouding your brain, and tried to shake off the feeling that maybe he was also feeling this way. your thighs clenched at the thought — that peter was also thinking of every possible way to take you on this counter right now.
but this was your best friend, and you needed to get your shit together long enough to handle whatever this feeling was on your own.
"woah, are y'okay?" peter slurred, your body heat under his palms radiating down to the rest of his body and nearly sending him down as well.
"i... i don't know, i think..." you stuttered out, not trusting anything coming from your mouth right now. "i-i think i have to go, i'm, i'm not feeling well."
you turned to make a run for it, hoping to get out of peter's sight before you either passed out or pounced on him. he stopped you, though, grabbing your hand with a pleading "wait!" falling from his lips.
before you could stop it, a whimper escaped from your lips at his touch, and you went bright red in seconds, hand flying up to cover the unexpected noise.
peter didn't help as he stared at you with his mouth agape, pupils blown to shit. he looked fucked out beyond belief and you'd barely even touched.
you cleared your throat, hoping to get out as coherent and PG a sentence as you could. "peter i-i feel really weird. a-and, i think i'm freaking the fuck out."
knowing you were hurting as much as he was broke his heart, and peter struggled to put all his energy into focusing on you. "i know, it's okay, bug. just take some deep breaths, a-and let's try to make it outside, yeah?"
he tried to pull you, but your legs forgot how to work, and you were frozen where you were, breath quick as everything grew downright painful.
peter's breathing picked up as he heard you hyperventilating, panicking himself as he watched you crumble in front of you. he needed to find out what was in that vile, and fast.
but all he could fucking think about was being on his knees in between your thighs.
fuck.
"p-peter, please. please, i-i, i need your help. you have to make this stop."
"fuck— it'll be okay, i promise. i'll do whatever i need to get you better. i-i just..." he clamped his eyes shut, desperately trying to come up with a way to make an antidote of some kind without dying or ruining your friendship along the way.
"peter... i—"
"what?" he cut you off, concern heavy in his tone.
despite his ever-growing problem, peter reached out to cup your cheek, and though not an unnatural thing to do, it was one definitely influenced by a gravity drawing him towards the feeling of your skin on his.
you stared at his lust-blown eyes, wondering if yours looked the same. wondering if he felt the same.
peter spoke your name softly, his thumb grazing your cheek softly and lingering far too closely to your lips to not mean anything.
fuck it.
you grabbed his shirt and pulled him forward, nearly headbutting him in the process as you locked onto his lips, surprised when you felt him immediately reciprocate and tangle his hands in your hair. everything about the kiss was desperate, and the feeling of peter all over you was fucking radiant.
peter was nothing but a moaning mess against you, sloppy and wet against your lips as he pleaded your name as though each time he said it, it took away the pain in his chest. truthfully, it did.
peter pulled away to take a breath, and the lack of contact brought the sharp pain immediately back, earning a whine to fall from his lips. he shook it off, grabbing the sides of your face and doing his best to refocus.
"f-fuck, should we talk about this?" peter asked relectantly.
"i-i don't know. i don't know what's happening right now, pete. all i know is that i need you to touch me. anything, please. i'm sorry. just, please make it go away."
yeah, you could talk about it later.
"nonono, hey. im so sorry, baby, this is all my fault. i'll do whatever you need, i mean it. i'll make it better, i promise."
peter pulled you back into a hungry kiss, rough hands roaming your body in a way he'd never touched you before. the feeling of your curves under his palms was only something he'd dreamed of, and peter was insufferably hard as he pulled you into him further.
there was a nag in the back of his mind, something telling him to stop before you did something you'd regret. because there was no possible way he had you, his best friend, tangled in his arms and lips heavy on his own. and yeah, peter had been smitten with you since the day you met, but he was never going to do anything about it. you didn't feel that way about him, of course. right?
cause right now, you kinda did.
no! fuck! just the chemicals! this was a one-time thing, friends helping friends.
yeah, friends helping friends.
but the pretty little moans that came out of your mouth as peter trailed his way down your neck? those sounded awfully more than just friendly. and the way you whined as he moved his hands up your waist, palming your tits through your shirt as he growled for permission in your ear? peter was never going to be able to look you in the eyes after tonight.
but right now, he was entranced as you bunched his shirt fabric in your hands and begged for it off, pulling the material over his head and immediately attacking his firm chest with a series of hickeys. you shifted your hands down towards his waistband, tugging him by his belt loops as you left a wet, hot trail of kisses down his abs. peter couldn't help but cant his hips forward into you, absolutely fucking losing his mind.
his own hands made their way around your frame, trailing down to your ass and grabbing hard. you gasped at the feeling, then lost your breath fully as peter nipped at your ear and told you to jump. he caught your thighs, shifting to set you on the lab counter and wedging his body between your legs.
everything was hot and heavy, and the effects were evolving and worsening. it was growing stronger with each touch, and though feeling each other was helping ease the pain, the need for more was growing too strong to ignore.
you pulled away from him, tears threatening to spill from your doe eyes as you stared up at peter, who didn't look much better.
"what? what is it, what do you need, baby?"
"i-i... i need you to touch me, pete."
peter went pale at your confession. it was asked so quietly, but it held so much weight. weight he'd think about after he got to find out what you tasted like.
with a deep rumble in his chest and another sloppy kiss to your neck, peter began to fumble his way around your waistband, asking you a thousand extra times if this was okay.
yeah, i fucking think so.
peter's index fingers hooked the hips of your pants; feeling his hands on your bare skin for the first time covered you in goosebumps. it was numbing the pain in your chest and igniting something in it all the same. you were so caught up in the moment, gobsmacked over peter parker, your best friend of six years, tugging your pants down, that you almost didn't notice that he'd pulled them back up.
your cheeks instantly bloomed in mortification. "fuck, i-im sorry, i-i don't know what's come over me—"
"no! stop apologizing, please. i just..." peter took a dramatic pause, and the only thing that could be heard was the two of you heavily panting, taking in the scene unfolding before you as the pain hammered in each of your chests.
"i need to tell you something before anything else happens."
you gave him a worried look, and peter returned it with a heavy sigh.
"i don't know what the fuck is happening right now, and why i feel like im fucking going to die if you don't touch me right now, and this is all my fault and i'm so fucking sorry—"
"peter. what's wrong?"
well, we're already in this deep.
"i don't know what fuck-ass aphrodiasic i just created, but i need you to know that the real me means this too. i can't let anything happen without you knowing that i love you, and this still means something to me. even if i'm not myself right now. a-and i'll do whatever you need me to do, and we can never talk about this again, but you don't deserve me keeping that from you."
you sat on the counter, stunned, as peter anxiously bit his lip, worried he'd just fucked up one of the best relationships that had ever happened to him. and he was still so fucking hard.
the only response you gave him was hopping off the counter and taking your bottoms off for him.
and peter was immediately on you again.
he had a hand rough in your hair as he kissed you, his other firm on your bare ass as he kneaded the soft flesh with a hunger. through his moans and downright whines, he almost missed it:
"i love you too, peter. so fucking much."
something inside of him snapped, and this time he didn't even ask you to jump, wrapping his hands around your waist and lifting you to the counter like you weighed nothing. you wrapped your legs around his hips and pulled him close, the make-out nothing short of a frenzy.
the entire time, peter was in your ear, moaning things into your mouth you only ever dreamed you'd hear:
"this. this isn't how this was supposed to happen."
"you deserve better than this, fuck. deserve better than an empty fucking chem lab, christ's sake."
he was quick to get his hands back on you, traces of mischief left behind as he massaged your thighs and stared at your lace thong with a look you'd never seen from him before. peter had been so caught up in it all, he'd almost forgotten the effects of the reaction. his actions were genuine and intentional. but as he pulled back to get a proper look at you, the pain in his chest settled back in, and his senses reheightened to a million
"fuck, i need to touch you. please, can i touch you?" peter whined.
you were breathless in response, "please peter, do whatever the fuck you want to me. just please, do something. anything."
he groaned and ran his hands up your thighs till he reached the delicate lace, teasingly tracing the hemline. "don't fucking say that. i-i don't think i can control myself right now."
"pete, i don't want you to control yourself," a shudder ran down his spine.
"please. fuck me."
peter didn't have the energy left in him to delay this any longer.
he ripped the underwear clean from your body, pulling you to the edge of the counter and dropping to his knees in front of you. he wasted no time running his tongue through your glossy folds, latching his lips over your clit.
peter was so hungry, and the mixture of the fading pain in your chest and the pleasure blooming inside of you was an insane feeling. he added a finger? oh my god. you were fucking incoherent. he added another? you were pretty sure this rivaled the time you tried molly.
you pulled at his hair, begging him (to stop or to go harder, you didn't know). it was all so overwhelming, and every time you looked down to see the source of your pleasure and remembered it was your peter parker? you were close to the edge the quickest you'd ever been.
"pete, i-i..."
"what is it, baby?" he breathed, quickly returning to your dripping cunt.
baby. jesus fucking christ. that almost did you in right then and there.
"i wanna touch you too."
peter groaned deep inside you in response, and the vibration was enough to send you over the edge. you felt your body fly over the moon as you came, peter not letting down for a second as he fucked you with his tongue so you could ride out the high, lapping up every drop you gave him.
he stood up, breathless, glistening, and a little cocky if you knew peter the way you thought you did. "how are you feeling? did that help, d-does it still hurt?"
you were panting as you came down from your high, taking a second to be aware of your body and headspace again. you couldn't help but feel emotional as you noticed the effects starting to creep back in. you shed a tear and nodded as you felt the headache thundering in the distance.
peter pulled you into a hug, and it was almost enough to sober you up again, because something about this one felt different. more weighted.
"im sorry, baby, fuck. i-i'm sorry, what can i do? how can i help?" fuck, this was all his fault.
you sniffled in his ear, but the movement of your hips against his contradicted your melancholy demeanor. "it's better when you're touching me. please, just don't stop."
between your words and you snaking your hand down to palm him softly, peter parker was a wreck, and wrapped around your finger.
he was quick to envelop you in a kiss and drink you in, and you moved to claw his shirt off of him. you pulled back to look at him, and it wasn't like you hadn't seen peter shirtless over the years, but you'd never seen him this close, in this context. it made your chest hurt in a different way.
"fuck, you're so hot," you groaned, almost as though an inside thought had slipped out.
he snickered. "me? are you kidding me right now?"
peter roughly kissed you before tugging your shirt off, absolutely elated at the discovery you'd forgone a bra under your crewneck. he stared at you like a deer in headlights, starstruck as he saw you for the first time.
"jesus christ, you're a fucking dream."
his hands were on your tits before you could even register it, but the feeling only made you crave him more. you messed with his pants, and he took over amidst your frustration. boxers and all, he sprang free in front of you, and Holy Shit Peter Parker. that's fucking obscene.
"this is your last chance to change your mind. because once i start, i dont think i'll be able to stop," he warned.
"please fuck me, peter."
he attacked your chest with his lips, hands firm on your hips as he shifted you again to the edge of the counter. you wrapped your soft fingers around his leaking cock, and he was almost done for before you'd even started.
peter moaned loudly and moved to put his large hand over yours to line himself up. you were still soaked from peter's previous meal, making it easy for him to slide his head through your slit. you were a begging mess in his ear, nails scraping down his back in anticipation.
peter nudged your entrance and pushed in easily (whether from the pollen or his ample prep, no one knows). the two of you moaned in filthy harmony, the feeling a definition beyond indescribable.
his legs were shaking immediately, and despite his inhuman strength, it became apparent that he couldn't do this standing for much longer if you felt this good.
"fuck, sweetheart," peter grabbed you roughly and pulled you towards him, pushing to the hilt and pressing hip to hip with you. he picked you up, spun you around, and laid you on the cool tile
"this isn't what you deserve, fucking you on the ground like this. fuck, baby."
and then peter was relentless.
he pounded into you with such a force, his mouth still focused on your tits and how they bounced for him. both of you could breathe again, the pain lifting and now replaced with a newly discovered pleasure that made you emotional again. you looked completely fucked out, tears streaming down your cheeks as peter lifted your thighs higher to get as deep in you as possible.
"fuck, please don't cry," he begged, though he kept drilling into you, knees now meeting your own chest. "i'm sorry, i'm so sorry."
you pulled him down, his chest pressing against the back of your thighs, and your foreheads connected as you breathed him in, exhaling a rough "i love you so much, peter".
he stuttered for a moment, eyes as wide as they were the first time he heard you say it. not for long, though, as he stayed pressed against you and picked up the pace like never before.
"oh my god, i fucking love you."
peter had you seeing stars, and you didn't know how long you'd even been in the lab. five minutes could have passed, maybe three hours. all you knew was that you didn't care, and you were close. peter knew it too.
"babe-baby, you're close. i-i can feel it, you're so fucking tight around my cock." you couldn't help but clench him in response.
"fuck, yeah-y-yes. god, squeezing me so good. god, i knew you were made for me."
it was the sentimentality of everything that sent you over this time. hearing the way he talked about you, you came around his cock, and it felt so fucking magical. but peter didn't slow down, determined to ride out your orgasm. he was quickly losing his composure, though, at the feeling of you fluttering around his cock.
"sweetheart, w-where—"
"inside, please."
peter didn't even have time to question the outcomes to his actions because the second he heard you, his best fucking friend, moaning for him to cum inside of her? oh fucking hell.
he let out such a guttural moan as he came, hot and thick, deep inside of you. you felt so warm and full, so much so that it triggered a third orgasm, sobbing peter's name as he just kept going. mixed arousal spilled down your thighs as he continued to fuck you, and through your fucked out haze, you could feel his cum drip down and pool around your ass.
you were barely conscious at this point, but peter kept going as he muttered "i'm sorry" over and over again.
luckily, he'd released the goddamn mating press and released your legs, allowing you to stretch out. peter was able to cover more of your body with his, lying chest to chest with you as his hips rutted into yours. the new position was so much more intimate as he leaned in to capture your lips in a kiss again.
"please. please, just one more. one more and i'll stop."
peter said that three more times that evening before he was done, and he felt like himself again.
he looked down at you in awe, though concern slipped through his fucked out eyes. "you okay, bug?"
"i can't believe you really just gassed us with an aphrodisiac."
peter laughed, a blush creeping on his cheeks at the memory of his fatal mistake. "yeah, that was, uh... that was my bad."
Could u do that reader and Steve are like best best friends buuuuuttttttt Steve gets a new girlfriend and shes just really mean to reader?? I love angst lollll. The rest is up to youuuu!!
Thanks cutieee
"Not his first choice"
⋆⭒˚.⋆ Steve Harrington x reader ⋆⭒˚.⋆
english is not my language please be kind and sorry if i wrote wrong :) requests are open if you want!
summary: steve’s girlfriend drives a wedge between you and him, and his failure to defend you leads to a painful fallout and broken friendship.
Steve had always said you were his person, not in the romantic way everyone assumed, not in the “Steve Harrington secretly in love with his best friend” way Robin constantly teased him about. It was simpler than that, bigger, maybe.
You were just… you. The first person he called after a nightmare, the passenger princess in his BMW, the one who knew he liked his fries dipped in milkshakes and that he still got nervous before parent-teacher conferences for the kids even though he’d never admit it out loud.
So when Steve got a girlfriend, you tried really hard to be happy for him. At first, you were.
Her name was Amanda, pretty in the polished, intimidating kind of way. She wore expensive perfume and always looked like she’d stepped out of a catalog. Steve smiled more around her, he laughed easier and you loved Steve enough to want that for him. Even if something in your chest twisted every time he canceled plans.
“Sorry,” he’d said over the phone one friday night, voice muffled. “Amanda wants to go to the mall for the weekend.”
You stared at the pizza sitting on your counter and the two tickets to the horror movie marathon tucked under your wallet.
“Oh,” you answered quietly. “Yeah. Sure.”
“You’re not mad, right?”
“No,” you lied instantly. “Of course not.”
But then it kept happening. Movie nights forgotten, late-night calls unanswered, inside jokes fading into silence because Amanda would wrinkle her nose and ask, “Do you two always act this codependent?”
You laughed the first time she said it. Steve didn’t and that should’ve been your warning.
It got worse slowly, cruelly, like Amanda enjoyed seeing how far she could push before someone snapped.
“You’re still hanging around?” she asked one evening when you showed up at Family Video with coffees for Steve and Robin. Robin immediately looked uncomfortable, instead Steve glanced up from behind the counter. “Hey! You came.”
Amanda leaned against the display beside him, manicured nails tapping against her crossed arms. “That’s… sweet.” Something about the way she said it made heat crawl up your neck.
“I was in the area.”
“Mhm.” She looked you up and down. “Steve said you kind of just pop up everywhere.”
Robin coughed awkwardly, Steve frowned slightly. “Amanda…”
“What?” she laughed. “I’m kidding.”
But she never sounded like she was kidding.
Every comment had teeth.
You’re surprisingly pretty in good lighting.
Steve says you hate dating. I can see why.
Aw, matching bracelets? That’s adorable. Middle school vibes.
And Steve… God. Steve never really defended you, not properly, sometimes he’d mumble, “Amanda, stop.”
Sometimes he’d give you this apologetic look like please don’t make this difficult, and because you loved him, you swallowed every hurt feeling down until they sat heavy in your stomach like stones.
The breaking point came at Nancy’s party, you almost didn’t go. Steve had invited you three separate times, insisting he wanted you there.
“It won’t be fun if you’re not there,” he’d complained over the phone.
So you went and for a little while, things felt normal. You and Steve ended up on the kitchen floor at one point laughing so hard soda nearly came out of your nose because he’d attempted to dance and immediately slipped into a wall.
“There she is,” Robin said dramatically, pointing at the two of you. “The soulmates reunite.”
Steve grinned at you, a big and warm and familiar grin
Then Amanda appeared, her smile dropped immediately “Oh my god,” she muttered. “Seriously?”
Steve blinked. “What?”
“She’s attached to your hip.”
The room quieted just enough for embarrassment to flood through you.
“Amanda,” Steve warned softly.
“No, because I’m actually tired of pretending this isn’t weird.” She looked directly at you. “Do you not have your own life?”
Your face burned, Steve stood up quickly. “Okay, enough.” but Amanda kept going “You’re obsessed with him. Everyone sees it.” She laughed harshly. “It’s honestly pathetic.”
The kitchen went silent, Robin looked horrified and Steve hesitated, just for a second, but that second was enough. Enough for something inside you to crack straight down the middle.
You looked at him waiting for him to say something, to finally choose you, to finally tell her to stop. He rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly instead. “Amanda, maybe let’s just calm down…”
Calm down, not leave her alone, not don't talk to my best friend like that. Just calm down.
You suddenly felt stupid suddenly so unbelievably stupid.
“Oh,” you whispered.
Steve looked at you immediately. “Hey…”
“No, it’s okay.” Your voice shook despite your effort to steady it. “I get it.”
“You don’t…”
“No, I do.”
Your eyes burned, you hated crying in front of people. Hated it, but Steve looked more worried about the scene than about you. That hurt worst of all.
You laughed shakily, stepping backward toward the hallway. “I think maybe I stayed too long.”
“Don’t do this,” Steve said quietly.
The words sliced right through you. Don’t do this. Like you were the problem.
Amanda crossed her arms triumphantly and Steve let her. You nodded slowly, throat too tight to breathe properly. “Yeah. Okay.”
Then you left.
Steve called twelve times that night, you ignored every single one.
By morning, your phone was full of voicemails.
“Please answer.”
“Can we just talk?”
“You know she didn’t mean it like that.”
That one made you cry the hardest, because deep down? You knew she did.
And worse of all Steve knew too.
You didn’t answer Steve’s calls, not the twelve from last night, not the seven more in the morning, not even Robin’s, which you knew meant she’d either been bribed, threatened, or emotionally blackmailed into mediating.
Your phone kept lighting up on your desk like it couldn’t understand that something had already ended. It wasn’t even dramatic at first, that was the worst part, nothing had exploded, no final fight where everything was said cleanly and loudly and finally. No clear ending you could wrap your brain around and file away under this is over, move on.
Just… a slow shift, like a room you’d lived in your whole life had started shrinking while you weren’t looking and Steve had been in the middle of it the entire time, acting like nothing was changing.
By the third day, you stopped going outside unless you absolutely had to.
By the fourth, you started flinching every time a car pulled up outside your place, half-expecting his BMW to be sitting there like it used to be when he’d show up uninvited with snacks and a stupid grin and say, “Get in. We’re doing nothing today.”
On the fifth day, you finally went back to Family Video.
You told yourself it was normal, that you just needed a rental, that you weren’t avoiding anything, that Steve Harrington working there did not suddenly make every part of your life complicated. But the moment you stepped inside, the bell above the door chimed and everything inside you tightened.
Robin saw you first, her expression softened immediately, like she’d been bracing for this exact moment all week.
“Hey,” she said carefully.
“Hey,” you replied, too fast, too casual.
Steve was behind the counter, he looked like he hadn’t slept properly since the party. Hair messier than usual, eyes flicking up the second he heard your voice like his body had been waiting for it even if he hadn’t admitted it out loud. For a second, just a second, his face lit up. Then it faltered because Amanda wasn’t just standing beside him anymore.
She was there, leaning into his space like she belonged in it and the way she looked at you said she absolutely remembered everything she’d done.
“Well,” Amanda said brightly, voice sharp underneath the sweetness, “look who finally decided to reappear.”
Robin shifted uncomfortably, Steve straightened quickly. “Hey, you didn’t…uh…call.”
You blinked. That was what he led with.
Not are you okay?Not I’m sorry.Not I should’ve said something.
Just… logistics.
“I didn’t know I needed an appointment,” you said quietly.
Amanda laughed. “Oh my god, she’s funny.”
Steve shot her a look. “Amanda.”
“What?” she said innocently. “I’m just saying. She always acts like she lives here.”
The word acts hit harder than it should’ve. You swallowed, stepping closer to the counter but not all the way in, like there was an invisible line now you weren’t supposed to cross.
“I just came for a tape,” you said. “I’ll be quick.”
Steve looked like he wanted to say something else. His mouth opened, then closed again like he couldn’t find the right version of himself to speak with. Robin watched all of it like she was holding her breath. Amanda, meanwhile, leaned on Steve’s arm “So,” she said, voice light, “are we still doing dinner with my parents tonight?”
Steve blinked. “Oh…yeah. Right.”
Something in your chest tightened again, of course. He forgot things with you constantly now but not this, not her.
You nodded slowly, like that information made sense. Like it didn’t sting “Cool,” you said then you turned toward the shelves. You picked a movie you didn’t even care about, your hands were shaking slightly when you brought it to the counter.
Robin started to take it, but Steve stepped forward first “Let me,” he said quickly.
Your eyes met his for half a second, that used to be enough to feel like home, now it just felt like standing in a doorway that had been rebuilt while you weren’t looking.
He scanned the tape without looking at you for too long, Amanda watched from behind him like she was waiting for something to happen, like she was hoping something would.
“You okay?” Steve asked quietly, sliding the tape toward you.
There it was again. Not I’m sorry. Not I miss you.Just… Are you okay?
As if everything that had happened was still neutral enough to be a simple yes or no answer.
You forced a small nod. “Yeah.”
Steve didn’t look convinced.
Amanda sighed dramatically. “Can we go? I’m starving.”
Steve hesitated, just for a moment, then he nodded “Yeah,” he said.
And that was it, that was the moment something inside you finally stopped hoping.
You didn’t see Steve for a week after that, not because he didn’t try but because you stopped opening the door, stopped picking up, stopped letting yourself get halfway to forgiveness just because he sounded sad on voicemail.
Then, one evening, Robin showed up, no warning, no joke, no usual chaotic energy. Just Robin, standing on your porch like she’d been assigned a mission she didn’t fully agree with but was doing anyway.
You opened the door slowly, she studied you for a second. “You look like hell.”
“Thanks,” you muttered.
She exhaled. “Can I come in?”
You stepped aside. Inside, she didn’t sit right away. She paced once, then turned toward you like she was choosing her words carefully “I’m gonna say something and you’re not gonna like it,” she started.
“That’s usually your whole brand.”
That got a faint smile out of her, but it didn’t last “Steve’s not okay,” she said.
You stared at her, a long silence stretched between you, then you laughed once, sharp and humorless. “Okay.”
Robin frowned. “I’m serious.”
“So am I.”
Because what were you supposed to say to that?
That Steve Harrington, the guy who used to drag you into gas station parking lots at 2 a.m. because you “looked sad in a way that required snacks”, was not okay? You knew that, you just also knew something else now.
“It’s not just about him,” Robin added quietly.
Your gaze flicked up.
She exhaled. “Amanda’s been… yeah. I don’t like her. At all, but Steve keeps acting like if he ignores it long enough, it’ll fix itself.” That landed differently. Because that part? That part you knew too well.
Robin stepped closer. “He misses you.”
You swallowed hard. “He has her.”
Robin gave you a look like she was trying not to say something harsher. “Yeah, and that’s clearly working out great for everyone.”
Finally, she said, softer, “He didn’t defend you.”
It wasn’t a question, It wasn’t even an accusation, just truth.
Your throat tightened “I know,” you said.
And that was the problem, you did know, you always had.
Steve showed up the next night, you didn’t open the door. He knocked again. Then again. Finally, his voice came through the wood, quieter this time “Please.”
That alone almost broke you, you hated that it still affected you.
“Just…just talk to me. I’m not leaving.”
You leaned your forehead against the door, on the other side, he did the same without knowing you were there. “I messed up,” he said “I know that now. I should’ve said something at the party. I should’ve shut it down. I should’ve…” he exhaled sharply, frustrated with himself, “I don’t know, I should’ve been better.”
Your eyes burned.
“I didn’t mean for it to get like that,” he continued. “With her. With everything. I just… I thought I could balance it.”
A bitter laugh slipped out of you before you could stop it, balance it, like you were something he could put on the same scale as a relationship that clearly didn’t like you.
“I miss you,” he said finally, quieter.
That one hit harder, because it sounded real, not rehearsed, not convenient, not like he was trying to fix a problem he didn’t want to lose sleep over.
Just… Steve.
“I don’t know how to do this without you,” he admitted.
Your chest tightened painfully, and for a second, you almost opened the door. Almost. But then you remembered Amanda’s smile at the party, the silence in the kitchen, Steve not saying your name loud enough to matter and you realized something that made your hands stop shaking. He didn’t know how to do life without you but he had been doing just fine letting you feel alone inside it.
You stepped back from the door “Steve,” you said softly.
He went quiet instantly.
“I can’t be the person you come back to when things get uncomfortable.”
“…I know,” he said, but it sounded like he didn’t.
You closed your eyes “I love you,” you added, voice breaking slightly. “But I can’t do this version of it.”
On the other side of the door, he didn’t respond right away, when he did, his voice was rough “I’ll fix it.”
You shook your head even though he couldn’t see it “That’s not how this works.”
“…Do you hate me?” he asked quieter than ever
That question hurt in a different way, because the answer was no.
“I don’t,” you said honestly. “I just can’t keep getting hurt where I’m supposed to feel safe.”
He didn’t speak for a long time after that, when he finally did, it was barely above a whisper. “I’m sorry.”
“I know,” you said and you meant it, but sorry didn’t rewind things. Sorry didn’t make him choose differently when it mattered, didn’t undo the moment he stood there and let you feel small in a room you used to belong in.
His footsteps lingered outside for a while after that, then they left and this time, your phone didn’t light up right away. It stayed dark, like even it understood something was over.
Summary: you and Steve been situationships for a while. You want way more with him, but you feel like he’s not over Nancy yet.
A/N: Hii guys, wanted to make a situationship vibes with Steve. Lmk if you enjoy and if I should make it a series!
Warnings: fluff, teasing, arguments, angst.
You met Steve at a party, he was a bit drunk and so were you. But you remember it like it was yesterday. He recently broke up with Nancy the whole school knew. You thought you were just a silly one night stand. Till he kept seeing you way more often than a “friend” would.
You would have intimate conversations it felt good to be with him and even kiss him. But there was always something holding him back with being with you. You didn’t know if he was embarrassed by you. Or his ex Nancy.
He talked about Nancy a lot, you just thought it was his way of moving on. But the more he talked about her the more it seemed he wanted her back. Everytime you thought you and Steve were going somewhere he would always get back with Nancy.
Now here you were with Steve laying down in the grass together from biking. It felt so intimate, as if you were at the lake with your boyfriend. But you weren’t cause Steve didn’t think the same. You didn’t know if he liked being with you or he didn’t like being alone. Yet there you were always by his side.
“Can’t believe we graduated” you said as you turn to your side to see him looking at the sun. Steve sighs, “me too.. and yet I still have no clue what I’m going to do.” You were silent letting his words sink in. “Me too..”
Steve sat up as he yawns, “high school was fun huh?” You shrugged “sometimes yeah.” You said being a little more stand off with him. And he could tell you weren’t happy like how you use to be. Maybe you got tired of always having to reassure him about the same things.
Steve sighs as he looked down at you seeing the way you avoid his eyes kinda hurt his feelings more than he thought. “You look pretty in the sun.” You gave him a tiny smirk “thanks.” You got up as he took your hand and guided you to the lake.
Steve smiled as he went near the deck and took off his shirt and left in his shorts, as you took off you shirt and pants left in your underwear and bra. Steve was already getting into the lake as he jumped as you laugh getting splashed. “Oh my god!” You screamed as he laughed.
“Hurry up I can’t be swimming alone.” He said as you took off your watch and jumped off the deck. Once you landed into the lake with him he gripped your waist as he held you.
Little moments like this made you like him more and more, but you knew where is heart will belong too. Steve carried you as he threw you into the lake. “STEVE STOP!!” You yelled as he laughed as you splash water back onto him.
Steve smiled as he came closer you and held you as you try to get away from him but that didn’t work as he laughed watching you fail. “Oh baby C’mere” he said and kissed you. As you guys were kissing he stop out of nowhere. “Shit.. what time is it?..” he asked as you swim over to the deck and checked your watch.
“2:30” you said and turn over to him as he sighs. “Fuck I’m late.” He said and got out of the lake and putting his clothes on. You watch him get dressed as you were still in the lake. “Where you going?”
Steve sighs as he looked at you. “Nancy.. uh we have a date tonight.” You were silent as you should’ve knew better. “Of course.” You got out of the lake quiet you didn’t bother to talk more to him. “Hey I’m sorry.” You hurry up and put your clothes on and getting your bike and leaving as you try so hard to keep in your tears.
“No.. no don’t go let’s talk” he said desperate but you already left. He watched you bike away as he sighs as he looked down at the ground, you forgot your watch he bought you. He picked it up and put it in his pocket. He had to give it back to you.
On your way home biking, you couldn’t believe he would be kissing you in the lake then go off and have a date with Nancy. “Why am I so stupid?”.. you thought. Once you made it back home your mother smiled seeing you. “You’re home early..”
You nod, “yeah uh Steve had work so.. hangout time was cut short.” You lied and sat down at the dinner table. Your mom sighs, she knew about you and Steve and she knew if she interfere it be a mess. “i hoped you had fun.” You nodded as you drink water. Your mother was silent before she spoke up.
“You remember Oliver?..” your mother asked as you raised your eyebrow. Oliver was your childhood friend you use to hangout with in Italy. You were always in Italy as a kid since you had family over there.
“What about him?”.. you asked as your mother smiled. “His 20th birthday coming up.. and I wanna us to go for vacation.” You smiled thinking back to Oliver. He was your first love but did you really wanna leave Steve?
“How long are we going for?” You asked as your mom smiled. “2 months, not just for Oliver but for our family too.” You were in shocked but excited maybe being away from Steve will help you get over him and rekindle your relationship with Oliver.
“Does he even remember me?” You asked blushing a bit. Your mom nods. “Of course he does he called me earlier talking about his party and wanting you to come especially.” Your heart flutter. “I can’t wait to see him, when do we go?”
Your mother looks at the calendar, “in one week..” your eyes widen would that even be enough time to fix things with Steve? “Okay.. well I’m going to go ahead and figure out what outfits to wear.” You said rushing up going upstairs as your mother smiled. She was happy you had something to do and looked forward to seeing Oliver.
As you were busy thinking about Italy and Oliver your mother was downstairs as she yelled. “OLIVER ON THE PHONE.” Your eyes widened and rush downstairs, “let me.” You said as you took over the phone and that’s when you hear Oliver’s voice, it was so beautiful the way he talked made you miss him more.
“Ciao, bellissima” Oliver said as you smiled. “Hey Oliver..” you were already blushing just hearing his voice.
“How have you been.” He asked, you smiled “pretty good.. I can’t wait to see you.” Oliver chuckled over the phone as he smiled. “Me too.”
You finally ended the conversation hours later. You didn’t think you miss someone from so many years ago. It was nice catching up with him, and you couldn’t wait to see him either. But in the back of your mind you couldn’t help but think what was Steve doing. “Is he kissing Nancy?” “Why does he always go back to her?” You thought.
As you were now laying down in bed, it was 3 am you couldn’t sleep at all. You had way too much on your mind, first it was Steve then Oliver.. you knew you didn’t have to pick Steve since he’s with Nancy again. But something always tells you to keep being near him.
You decide to get up and go out to the lake. It be nice to go out and enjoy the weather alone. Maybe it’ll help take things off your brain for a while.
You went over to get your jacket and hurried to put your shoes on, as you went downstairs as quiet as you can. Once you were finally outside you got your bike and went to the lake. It felt amazing being alone riding your bike with the air in your face.
Once you made it to the lake you went pushing your bike down and seating on the grass. Laying down on the grass watching the stars made you miss Steve. But in your heart you felt like going to Italy and seeing Oliver you might move on from Steve.
It did scared you a bit from moving on from Steve. You were never his girlfriend he would never tell people that. But when you were alone with him it felt like that and he knew it too.
The only thing that really scared you was, if your connection with Oliver isn’t good and Steve moving on with Nancy. You knew why he loved her so much. She was beautiful, smart, caring you felt like you couldn’t compete.
As you were overthinking all of sudden you see Steve. He was out of breath as he ran to you. “I knew you be here.” He smiled as you sigh. “What do you need now?”
Steve smiled kinda faded as he sat down next to you. “Oh um.. you’re watch you left it.” He gave it you as you took it back and put it on the ground next to you.
“How come you didn’t answer my calls?” Steve asked as you didn’t even look at him. “Was calling someone else, beside why call me when your on a date with Nancy.” Steve looked down at the ground. “Um.. I didn’t end up going I found her with Jonathan.”
You were silent, now you felt like a dick. “Oh..well sorry I didn’t answer.” Steve nods as he looked at the lake. “Um.. who were you calling?” He asked as you sigh. Should I tell him the truth? You thought.
“My.. my friend who lives in Italy. His name is Oliver.” You said short and simple. Steve frowned he definitely didn’t like the idea of this Oliver guy who’s Italian. “How do you know him if he lives so far?”
You sigh “well I know him since I was a kid and I would be in Italy till I came here.” Steve nods “huh I wished you told me that before.” You roll your eyes. “Why would I tell you that? We only really have sex Steve.”
Steve scoffed. “That’s not true you know that, cmon we have more then sex.” You scoffed. “Right Steve we have way more that’s why you always go back to Nancy.” You said a bit harshly but it was the truth. Steve looked at you stunned and hurt. “Really? Why do you always bring her up huh? It’s not my fault you’re insecure.” He said which you didn’t take lightly.
You got up as you looked at him hurt but mad as hell. “Yeah Steve I’m so insecure” you said sarcastic. “I’m so insecure that I’m leaving here soon and I’m going to Italy to be with Oliver so maybe Oliver can take away my insecurities.”
Steve scoffed and got up “really? Just gonna go to another man huh?” You smirk. “You do the same with me and Nancy.”
Steve was quiet as he took your hand. “Look.. I’m an ass I know that but I truly don’t need you seeing this Italian Oliver guy.” You move your hand away from him and stand your ground.
“Steve no.. you’re lying to me like you always do. Stop saying you love me when you don’t. Why don’t you want me to be happy huh?” You said trying to keep your tears in for some reason it was a touchy subject.
You went over to him now face to face with him. “I am going to Italy okay? Maybe Oliver the right one for me I’ll let you know when I come back 2 months later.” You said as you can see Steve eyes start to water. God it hurt to see him like this, but it was important to tell him the truth and how you felt.
“Don’t bother to say goodbye either.” You said as got your bike and start to bike off. Steve stand there watching you back off as a tear fell down his face as he looked at the grown and mutter to himself. “Why do I do this to myself?..” as he looked down at the ground there was your watch staring right back at him as a cruel joke.
He knew in his heart it was you. But always in the back of his mind he thought of Nancy.