hi i'm eydika and you're watching disney channel this is my swtor blog with a tiny sprinkling of kotor and general star wars.
i've been playing, thinking, dreaming, pondering about swtor since just a bit before the release of rise of the hutt cartel and while my attention to and love for it occasionally hide like a sleeper agent i doubt that'll ever go away.
most of my oc thoughts are behind walls (the discord dms (because i'm scared)) but i like to especially share art of my blorbos from time to time on here. :) if you're interested in learning more about my characters, feel free to head over to my character page. fair warning! while all of these characters have a tag linked, some tags are empty.
for easier navigation, these are the top three scrimblinos i've talked about: nine / aniel pivur / felin fenner
i love hearing about other people's swtor characters and i have a massive weakness for chiss
i hope they never stop with the little look lana gives you right before a personal scene between the player and theron. that imperceptible "yeah yeah i'm going gross" sends me into hysterics every time
Thinking about the parallel lines of the Imperial Agent and the Sith Inquisitor stories, two people objectified by their role in the Empire. One a tool and the other a vessel. The Agent forged into something obedient and sharp, to be thrown away as soon as it loses its edge. The Inquisitor shaped into something hollow, the heart yanked out to make room for the will and desires of those above it. Every part of their world has beaten into them that they are not people, merely the sum of their uses.
How do you establish your own personhood under those conditions? What is the self outside of a resource for others?
So, I'm still very *loud sobbing* over what resolution of the Mando subplot we got, but I'm also having a bit of a thought that is Bothering me.
So do we think Jekiah's going to end up the Mand'alor now?
Because he's been acting as Arbiter almost this whole time and basically stepped into the role in everything but name when Shae went AWOL. Old Republic era rules are usually a whole "win it in combat" thing, but this kinda... Shae's gone. Heta's gone. There's no way all those disparate clan leaders for the Hidden Chain are going to stick together, like Shae said, they'd usually be at each other's throats without Heta. Out of all the "leaders" in the divided Mando factions, he kinda feels like the only one left. It's a lot like the state they were in after Revan again.
...aaaaaand as I was typing that a different train of thought came completely out of left field to t-bone me because wait a bloomin' minutr what if this is why they chose to make the brothers Clan ORDO???
ok it was so, so, SOOOO cathartic to pick 'Let me do my job' instead of 'We need to work together' cos by this point, Aelirra is fucking done with the Republic, and it's such a key turning point for her character.
She's been so loyal, such an ardent believer in the Republic since the class story, that even the Republic's inaction during the Zakuul arc and what they did on Iokath didn't make her hesitate returning to them.
She gains some self-awareness during her time in the Alliance though, and realises how much the Republic had been using her, this one Jedi Knight, to quell so many crises that she is undeniably exhausted and emotionally spent. She entertains the idea of maintaining some distance from the Republic and the Jedi Order, just to sort herself out. When she's alright, she'll surely be back in a position to help her allies, right?
Then 7.8.1 hits. The Republic practically invades Odessen to put her on house arrest. Blames her for the mess she was trying to stop. And she's forced to admit that the Republic is no longer what she recognises and fought for, that her own ideals and belief in helping others, no matter how good, chafes against the Republic's need for control. Over her.
So she snaps. Takes a leap of faith to live her own life, her own way. She disobeys the Republic and sends Ves to investigate Jadus in her stead. Doesn't back down when the Chancellor confronts her about it.
And now, when they try to raise a ruckus upon Ves' return, Ael finally tells the Republic to know their fucking place, because she was the one who'd kept them there. She'd bled, sacrificed, suffered all those decades for their sake, to keep them from falling apart, keep them safe. Now they try to pin the blame for their current crisis on her? Fuck off. 'Avriss, tear them apart for me please. I'm a Jedi so I can't do it :)'
If there was a choice to break off from your faction in this update, Ael would've taken it. She needs no reward or recognition, but to receive vitriol and be accused of being a traitor, of all things? She's had enough.
(also op gratuitously inserting her opinion that the whole faction turning against the commander thing was so contrived ohhhmygodd but we are where we are at the moment)
then what was it, Shae? because it felt personal to Staz š¤”
also, can we talk about Rass Ordo? Rass freakinā Ordo. youāre telling me Staz only gets one (1) smooch from him??? and only a cheek smooch??? are you kidding me??? how could they do this to me??? š š š he better be making out with Staz, fucking her, and marrying her in the next update or else š”š”
anyway.
heās got āideas.ā the fact that heās been thinking about ways for them to still meet after the civil war always gets me š„¹ also the Jekiah cockblock wosjsns
he sounded so sad š„ŗ but itās so sweet that he refuses to tell Staz how he feels in the middle of crises. like he wants the moment to be special. iāll jump off a bridge.
and finally, my bad screenshot(s) of the cheek kiss and the aftermath:
iāll take better ones on the re-roll, i promise š
