Raine Desidia

Hi! I'm Raine Desidia! I'm a Vtuber and aspiring author! Check out my Carrd at https://rainedesidia.carrd.co

[rainedesidia]

Getting rid of Google in my life will be hard. I wanna try and make my life more open source.

So I recruited a Linux user-

[prokopetz]

Elaborate fantasy and sci-fi worldbuilding as necessary context and structure for porn is great, but what's really fantastic is when the worldbuilding is a product of the porn. It clearly didn't need to be there, but at some point the author took a closer look at the porn and started asking "okay, so what does this imply?"

[prokopetz]

Level 1: The worldbuilding needs to be there for the porn to make sense.

Level 2: The porn needs to be there for the worldbuilding to make sense.

[rainedesidia]

Im pretty sure Google thinks I'm pregnant. I'm getting constant ads for parenting/childcare products. I've never seen this many ads for baby formula and cribs in my life.

DAMN I WISH I COULD BE PREGNANT 😭😭😭

[luna-azzurra]

Tips for Writing Trauma!

i love you all and i need you to stop writing trauma as a single breakdown scene in the rain after which the character is Healed and Ready to Love Again. that is NOT trauma :(

⊹ Trauma doesn't announce itself. it shows up as your character suddenly not being able to eat a specific food, or going very quiet in a loud room, or laughing at the wrong moment because their nervous system decided that was the appropriate response. it's mundane and weird and it makes no sense from the outside. the dramatic flashback sequence is the least realistic part. the most realistic part is your character suddenly needing to leave a grocery store for a reason they can't articulate.

⊹ The body keeps score and it keeps it in the strangest places. a particular smell. the quality of light at a certain time of day. a tone of voice that sounds like someone who hurt them. your traumatised character doesn't think "this reminds me of the bad thing." their heart rate spikes and they don't know why. they feel wrong and they can't locate the feeling. they're irritable for three days and only later, if ever, do they make the connection. write the disconnection. it's more honest.

⊹ trauma also does not make people universally sympathetic and wise. it makes some people controlling. some people funny at inappropriate times. some people very good in a crisis and completely unable to handle a normal day. some people are generously kind to strangers and absolutely terrible to people they love. trauma shapes behaviour in contradictory, inconvenient ways that don't resolve into a lesson. your traumatised character can be difficult to like. that's not a flaw in the writing. that's the WRITING.

⊹ Healing is not linear and it is not a destination. your character does not get better and stay better. they have a good month and then something small undoes two years of progress and they have to start again with slightly more tools than before. that's the actual shape of it. the spiral, not the arc. the scene where they finally open up and cry is not the end. it might not even be progress. sometimes it just means they were tired that night.

[thinkingabout-girls]

the funniest moment in dungeon meshi is when marcille is having her nightmare and brings up her dead bird while also talking about her dead dad, saying “papa and pipi” and laios automatically assumes pipi is marcilles third nonbinary parent on top of her mom and dad

[ouppygirlcity]

[mush7221]

Table Top Transition

[rainedesidia]

Yes I'm listening to a chaotic [but goddamned amazing] mess of music mashups by Triple Q

I am hit with nostalgia for a lot of songs that I've either never heard or never realized I heard before.

Seriously check out Triple Q's channel, each track works. Even the ones that feel like they shouldn't *at first*. They WILL work.

[b0tster]

The morning after ❤️💬☕🖤

[b0tster]

cant stop thinking about these two. my first random ocs made on a whim with no big long term plans. im a real internet artist now 😊😊😊

so uh. what does one do with random ocs with no big long term plans 🤔

[rainedesidia]

So I have 3 options as a trans creative, I've noticed

- draw [which I can't do]

- make RPG Maker games [I've made small demos before]

- make visual novels [either with ren'py or a fuckload of RPG Maker MZ plugins]

If there's more options lmk, my pc won't let me stream T^T

[mush7221]

Final Feminization

Hey y’all! Wanted to do a bit of a shorter one this week to give me more time to work on the last part of N’s Evolution and inspiration hit me like a truck when I saw this post. Anywhoooo hope y’all have a good dayyyy!

[mush7221]

Final Feminization

Hey y’all! Wanted to do a bit of a shorter one this week to give me more time to work on the last part of N’s Evolution and inspiration hit me like a truck when I saw this post. Anywhoooo hope y’all have a good dayyyy!

[rainedesidia]

I miss when consoles let you edit themes. I miss being able to have cool custom music tied to a game and a nice background to tie them in. Now it's just [Light/Dark] mode or [which PlayStation console do you want to mimic on the home menu. Idk if XBOX has themes or not, but I hope so.

[rainedesidia]

Just had a gender dysphoria episode while trying to go on walkies today. Didn't feel good at all. No, it did not. And the thing is? They're getting worse. Much worse.

I can't focus on my day to day life these days, I can barely get any work done on any of my projects, and I constantly feel like I'm going to throw up from the stress.

I need to find a skill I have that I can make money from. Drawing, game development, something, anything! I want to be able to move out and sustain myself while doing so!

[b0tster]

animated lesbians making out as a follower milestone on bluesky. enjoy 💋💋

[salamie-baby]

Tomodachi Life: Living The Dream - Personality Chart

Feel free to save and share around. This is just a simple cheat sheet to get the personality you want fast. I made this based on the European localisation btw, the US one should take the same inputs but the descriptions for the personalities might be different. I unno. Enjoy

[bearloonz]

the trick about getting invested and confident in ur own concepts is to surround urself with other likeminded artists who are down to earth. i know nowadays especially people think "indie" and they think undertale or glitch pilots and they have paved the way for great things but i mean like. engage with your friends comics theyve been posting to an audience of 20-30 people. The people who are genuinely at your level with you. Who are working on their projects on the side because they still have a full time job to attend to. who go on long hiatuses because theyre in college and are crunching for tests at the moment.

maybe one day youll have all the resources you want to create your stories exactly how you imagine it at the speed you want it to be done, but until you get there you'll find so many people working with the same resources and available time that you have, and its about that network of small artists being able to support each other that can light a spark that you thought you needed an audience of hundreds to light.

[rainedesidia]

Sometimes I remember that I was gonna be in a Resident Evil inspired VRChat roleplay, set during the final months of the RPD, but then it went nowhere and kinda collapsed. Honestly? A shame. I woulda had a lot of fun tbh.