and wind may blow...

But there'll still be many miles to go.

[everydaytourister]

Hike to Kvalvika Beach, Lofoten, Norway (2024)

[jadeseadragon]

Icelandic Horses

[dankmemeuniversity]

[soft-xbaby]

fuck

[janhooks]

i don’t like the idea of covid just kind of gradually fading as a concern and life slowly returning to normal… i want there to be a specific day that is the End of Covid, some kind of orgastic festival with drugs, dancing, and giant bonfires

[sovietnam]

[dankmemeuniversity]

[funnytwittertweets]

[dankmemeuniversity]

[pickledchickenetti]

Y’all I’m DYING 😂😂

[hand]

Me forcing myself to save money and cook instead of eating out

[hilarioushumorfromouterspace]

[whitepeopletwitter]

[toastbutteregg]

[inoor]

I come on tumblr to talk to myself publicly

[catchymemes]

[rainmayfall]

Having a baby and being home 24/7 on maternity leave (plus in quarantine) has made my OCD soooooo much worse than normal. I have nothing to distract myself from being ritualistic, and technically it’s helpful to be as organized as I am with the baby’s schedule so my behavior feels justified. I just gotta keep reminding myself to take time to be in the present and let chaos happen sometimes. I need to find joy in each moment instead of always thinking about the next thing on the schedule.

Also I need to process the fact that I am a MOM now, which is insane. I still feel like a kid playing “house” with my husband and my baby, going through the motions of what a mom should be like but not really feeling any more grown up than before. It’s so weird y’all.

Still trying to process everything it took to get here too. Nothing has felt real this year between Covid, the protests, the election, the wildfires, etc. plus being pregnant and suddenly going to full-time working from home. Then the long, traumatic labor and surgery, the hospital stay, and now being on leave with a newborn. It feels like a dream I had, or a tv show I watched, not like something that happened to me personally.

I don’t want to miss out on anything because I’m being too detached or just going through the motions though - maybe I should practice meditating or something to ground myself... I need to really remember everything about my baby right now, because I know he’ll grow up so fast. I shouldn’t avoid making memories even if it’s just driving around to see Christmas lights or dressing him in cute outfits, just because I am afraid of making him fuss or cry.

Anyway, being on maternity leave gives you a lot of time to think about weird things and get lost in your own thoughts that’s for sure.