Rambling Mind Of Rayyan

My little online diary 🪴

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

It’s so hard to enjoy your own company when you’re constantly alone

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

I constantly feel like I’m living on borrowed time

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

I don’t want to wake up one day at 80 years old and still be alone that would break my heart

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

And suddenly you couldn't cry or think or eat or sleep suddenly you were a 14 year old girl again Wondering why you are not good enough for anyone Wondering why you love too hard and get scraps in return Wondering why the sadness and darkness is consuming you Wondering why people say your depressed not believing them except 2 years later you diagnosed with clinical depression Suddenly 9/2/25

You will always be good enough 💕

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

I hope to see the light at the end of the tunnel

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

I want to matter to someone

to feel needed

to feel wanted

to feel loved

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Why does no one ever call or text me first.

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

It’s the last day of the year and life still sucks just as it did on the first day of the year.

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

How is it that I crave love so desperately and yet I’m still unloveable.

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Why am I always so lonely. It hurts. It hurts.

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Do you ever think about how different life would be if we weren’t so insecure all the time.

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Everyone is going through the same thing, don't worry 💕

It’s reassuring to hear other people feel the same way but it’s also really sad because it shows how much we’re all struggling and I wish that wasn’t the case 🥺

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Sometimes it’s really lonely being me.

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Does anyone else have the sudden urge to crawl out of their skin?

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Is life supposed to be this hard?

Because I look around and everyone else looks happy. So why am I not happy.

[ramblingmindofrayyan]

Why?

Why do I constantly feel like an outsider looking in.