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AkA the drag king conservatives hate A MINOR he/it in drag, any out of drag chronically ill, physically disabled, and neurodivergent

[random-peoples]

My bodies kinda weak rn, most of my muscles (specifically legs) r tense for no reason and won't fully relax n it sucks.

Theyre twitchy and I'm falling most of the time I try to stand, I have to drag myself up stairs using the wall n railing or railing n crutch, and I hug the wall when I walk.

Ive started using one of my crutches around the house, and I'm using my wheelchair almost always when I leave the house.

I went to spirit Halloween within friends a few weeks ago and crashed after, the crash is over but this shit remains n is getting worse.

Ive danced my whole life, it was my identity, and while I dont do classes anymore I still do fursuit dance comps, I'm doing one in 3 weeks and it'll be my last if I can even do it, and it sucks, I love doing them so it sucks so much Im almost completely unable to. Part of it is choosing to focus on floor wars but even then idk if I can do floor wars.

I have other things that make me me, but man I wish I wasnt losing the one that was the most consistent n one of the favorites.

[random-peoples]

the grief that comes from chronic illness hurts so much

i went from dancing my whole life, training to go on pointe to being stuck in my house majority of the time

this shit took so much away from me and it hurts

i went out with my friends for 4 hours on sunday and proceeded to feel like i had the flu, and that was when i was using my wheelchair

im still undiagnosed as well, like yes i probably have eds but none of my drs feel confident to dx me, and i have post exertional malaise and fit the criteria for me/cfs but ya

at the end of the day i dont fully know whats up, i just know ive lost so much and i dont confidently know why

[random-peoples]

Its so weird being someone who's grown up as someone who was sick/visibly different but never had it acknowledged

Like when I was like 4-6 ish I was always sick, any colds I got would turn into an infection, I had ear infections every few months, I was always coughing, and I saw Drs pretty often. All of this stopped when I got my adenoids removed thankfully. But it was never acknowledged or talked about, I had to stop swimming cause I got sick to often but it was never discussed with me, I didn't know why I was seeing Drs so often, I just knew something was wrong.

I also have a rotational deformity, I grew up hearing comments and getting teased abt how I was pigeon toed, and asked if I was drunk as a joke cause I couldnt walk straight and would trip and fall a lot. I still to this day have people tell me my legs are creepy, or get genuinely scared or grossed out at em.

And I mean like I'm 15, people still skirt around these conversations, tell me that Ill get better or can achieve anything I want. The only reason my disabilities get acknowledged at all is cause they can't not be, I can't walk more than like 5-10 mins without my legs locking up and not moving right, I have days where I'm so off balance I fall into walls every few seconds. I can't live alone cause I depend on others for support, my mom is my carer, she goes almost everywhere with me, or she'll drive me n pick me up, when I'm not with her I'm with other family/friends.

Growing up like this only taught me that I was wrong, that I should be ashamed, and I still deal with the consequences.

[itsis0k]

He's a long boy

[random-peoples]

im finally getting proper care for disability and seeing the drs i needa but its very overwhelming, im super grateful but its a lot to get used to

[fromzetareticuli]

did - dude, impressive dick!

ocd - obese cock disorder

adhd - amazing dick herald. damn

aspd - awesome sauce…. penis dicks.

bpd - big penis dude

[myboobsaresentientbeeings]

@official-penis-posts

[official-penis-posts]

This feels like a HIPAA violation 

[cute-catts]

I could watch this for hours 🐈🐈

[random-peoples]

bro idk

this is so cursed, maybe ill start using this blog again.

im in hs now, its pretty fun ig, overall im just vibing.

[random-peoples]

New Beads!

im getting new pony beads tomorrow!!!!!

im like soooo excited rn, also halloween and me and moi friends r gonna have a sleepover and im gonna be Nico Di Angelo!!

[random-peoples]

i need some new artists to listen to

preferably pop punk or emo, but edm is also appreciated

[random-peoples]

this is random

ahahahaha idk what im doin, but im out of kandi beads and bored so ahahaha

[random-peoples]

Yeet

I have a really annoying urge to just scream yeet

[random-peoples]

a annoying problem

teacher: girls go find a skittle

me (a transmasc nb): (stands in spot)

teacher: (sees me)

teacher: and people with X chromosomes

[random-peoples]

Skittles

So I was joking with my friends and for some reason a gay joke popped into my head and it was "since skittles say 'taste the rainbow' does that mean they make you gay" and all my friends startlaughing and I just wanted to share this