A Pretty Princess

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary,

June 9th

Overall a pretty simple day. I’ve been trying to put together my dreams. It’s so hard because I don’t fully understand Skrillex. I don’t understand how she’s come into existence, and I keep seeing those stupid little paragraphs about the damn red string of destiny or whatever and I know it’s cute to other people but it’s just ominous to me. And I feel like it’s my fault she’s here in the first place. Especially if we were supposedly “sisters” at some point. But she’s creating herself. Kaeii says I think too literally. She’s right. I’ve known that about myself forever.

June 10th

I went to Spades today. The queen was very nice and she even laughed at my joke. It was definitely something.

June 14th

Fuck. Something was put into motion today. Rota is dead, Leesa’s on the run and Red is missing. Of course there were little messages from Skrillex. Taunting me for not choosing. I can’t let her get in my head. This is the worst.

June 15th.

We got ahold of Artemisia. She’s going to help us retrieve Red. We got ambushed at the first location. There’s a door that is like, alive and I couldn’t pick it. It was super icky.

June 16th

The Valkyries met today. I had to wear a blindfold to go with. While I understand their fear, it’s really annoying to be the one with the connection to the bad guys in your head. It makes me feel like the bad guy and a wee bit annoye.d But like I said, I get it. Lydia offered to step forward and become the leader (or interim) leader of the Valkyries. Honestly I think I would have liked to see Torch step forward. I think they’d be good at it, what with being a Hearts and all. Plus they were shadowing Rota, learning how to lead. I think it would have been a good opportunity.

On another note. I hung out with Maddie today. She seemed distracted and when I pushed it she avoided the subject. I really hope everythings going okay at school. She’s been working so hard, I’d hate for something to happen to that.

I heard the song Poet today and one line hit me in particular. He sings “I have written you down. You will live forever. And all the world will read you. You will live forever. In eyes not yet created. On tongues that are not born.”  What if that’s how Skrillex gets her power? Like, do we give her power by like talking about her? Do we give her that? Could I write her away if I figured out this “dragon” or whatever thing. Like, could I take away her power? I obviously am missing things still since she was a person. I saw her as a person. So, she can’t fully be powered by others. I dunno. I’ll think about it more.

June 18th

Learned about the door. Apparently it’s some sort of spirit. It should disintegrate in a little while. At least a week. We also got summoned into the court of Spades. Well, Lydia did technically. Something was left for her. But! The queen complimented my outfit. It was very exciting to have the queen acknowledge me and I didn’t realize how much I wanted something like that. It feels absolutely silly to write it here, but I felt important you know? I’ve never been one to struggle with self esteem, but recently especially I’ve been having difficulty. Everything is heating up and I’m not sure I’m strong enough to be useful. 

Anyway! What we found was an imprint of Cards. We think it’s a message from Red. There was like a, like a shadow of Monster. But he wasn’t himself. Red is definitely wearing the crown and I don’t want to have to fight him. But, it’s weird because Monster referred to Red as his friend, but that he didn’t know him. It’s very odd. I don’t have enough of my thoughts put together yet.

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary,

June 1st

We got our new place today! Now Alex, Lydia, and I live together! It's very exciting. I think this will certainly make it easier to do princess things, and now when I'm awoken early in the mornings with awful rabbits they can suffer too! Overall a very uneventful day. We learned about some gang activity and we're gonna go see if we can figure it out tomorrow.

June 2nd

So..we found the gang. I fucked up. I left the plan and sort of got knocked out by what I thought was the girl we were helping. It's so frustrating because I should have known. I should have had a better control of the situation and I'm just so mad. I'm so frustrated because I looked incompetent. And I looked incompetent in front of Ellex who was sent to help Lydia be a better Swords and I just looked like a fucking failure.

June 3rd

Went to the gun range today. I needed to do something that made me feel adequate. I'm still upset. And I don't want to be. I don't want to be because shit happens. And it happens to everyone, but I can't shake it.

June 4th

Oh my god. Alex became a mirror. They became a MIRROR! I..I'm so conflicted on how to feel. Like, they weren't going to tell us. And that makes me so nervous. I care about them and I just don't know what this means for our Nakama.

June 5th

Well, the rabbit says hopefully this doesn't affect the Nakama. That's you know, great. Rabbits are so fucking useful.

June 6th

I think I've decided to change courts. I just..I just don't feel like I belong. Honestly it's really bothering me. But I guess it's kind of like when I played the clarinet in middle school. Like, I had fun but I was shit at it. It wasn't the end of the world that I sucked at it though. I learned how to read music and that made learning how to sing way easier. I'm still disappointed though. In many ways I feel like I'm giving up. Maybe I didn't try hard enough at being a swords. Maybe I just didn't give it the right energy.

June 7th

I did it. I switched. Well, I was released from the court of Swords.I don't think it really matters. Like, I didn't have a place there. I just. I dunno. I had to write it down to prove I had done it. I'm honestly feeling super misplaced and it's hard being around both Alex and Lydia when I feel like this. They both seem to have such a grasp on who they are as hopeful. Lydia is making her way towards being a knight and being the champion of swords she was always going to be. And Alex, while I don't know how I feel about the mirrors thing, knows that that's what and where they want to be. I haven't had that yet.

-Izzy

[rapscallion-princess]

Izzy's Adventures in Telling Her Loved Ones!

I thought it'd be cool to write Izzy telling Maddie.

Isabella drummed her fingers nervously on the counter. She was waiting for a pizza to cook and her sister to make her slow ass to the apartment. Tonight was that night Izzy was going to tell her. Explain about all the weird absences and random injuries. It would probably be a hell of a lot easier explaining being a hopeful than it was explaining that she was a stripper. Probably.

A soft bzz sounded to alert Izzy to the finished pizza. She looked around the kitchen trying to find a hot pad. Izzy sighed and stretched her shirt out so she could use that as a hot pad. Bracing herself she grabbed the pan and moved it quickly to the counter. "Fuckin, ouch!" She cried as she set the pan down. "motherfucker.." She mumbled as a familiar face peeked in the door. "Is your hand alright?" Her sister asked as she let herself in. Izzy shrugged. "Maybe, or maybe it's going to become infected and I'm going to be a zombie. You'll have to put me out right away to save the world. I hope you're okay with that." She said picking a pepperoni off the pizza and popping it in her mouth. Maddie laughed. "I would come up with a cure before I would let that happen."

Izzy smiled brightly. It was nice to know her sister always had her back. She'd shown it when she came out to her parents and she knew it would hold steady as she explained the hopeful thing. "Ready for movie time and some pizza?" Izzy asked. It was a silly question. She knew the answer and was already cutting the pizza. "Pick something and I'll be in with the pizza." Maddie nodded and made her way into the living room. Izzy bit her lip and leaned against the counter. Maybe it was best to just get it out of the way. Like, blurt it out or something? Her eyes fell to the floor and she took a deep breath. This was way harder than she thought it was going to be. She looked up as she heard her sisters footsteps return to the kitchen. "What's up with you, Iz? You're being all weird. And not your normal weird." Izzy laughed. "Madeline. I got something to tell you."

Maddie stiffened. They only used each others' full names when it was something serious. She crossed her arms and leaned against the counter opposite her sister. "Are you going to tell me you're a stripper? Because honestly I've known for awhile, Jimmy told me. He went to Deja Vu one night with some friends and-" Izzy rose a hand and shook her head successfully cutting her off. "No. This is...honestly. You're not going to believe me." Izzy pulled her hair around her shoulder and began to play with it. "You know how I've been weird recently. We haven't been talking as much, and I seem to always be busy and when I do find time I have to woosh out?" She asked slowly. Maddie nodded. "Yeah, mom and I have been talking about it. Mostly we've been taking bets on drugs vs sketchy fiancee."

Izzy glared at her sister. "That's not funny. Or nice." Maddie shrugged. "Just spit it out. What's up? Are you Batman?" Izzy laughed. "More Sailor Moon." Maddie rolled her eyes. "Come on Iz. What does that even mean? Knock it off and just tell me." She scolded. Izzy shrugged. "I did. I'm a magical girl. I have a nakama that I work with and we go out and fight crime. I transform and I can shoot these tiny daggers and make myself difficult to see, and I've gotten extra good at picking locks, although that was a skill I had before..."

"Isabella Elizabeth Evans. Stop. Why would you pretend you had something to tell me like that? I was legitimately worried, and if you actually think you're some sort of superhero maybe mom and I need to get you back to that shrink." She snapped, anger poured from Maddie. She didn't like when her sister played these silly games. She'd always had a huge imagination but she was an adult now and it was childish to play such games. The way she had been talking Maddie was afraid someone was dying. She was afraid Izzy was dying and it just irked her. Izzy always did this. She always lived in her own little world, void of any real responsibility. It got under her skin.

Izzy scoffed. "I'm telling the truth. Like, I've been shot." She said lifting up her shirt to display her newest scar. "Why would I lie to you?" Maddie shook her head and grabbed her bag. "Okay, I need to leave. Now Izzy.  If you want to tell me whatever it is that you're keeping secret, get me when you're ready. Okay?" Izzy rolled her eyes and stepped between Maddie and the door. She took a deep breath and transformed. Her long red hair was replaced with medium length pigtails and her green eyes were gone, instead two blue eyes looked out at Maddie. Instead of the over sized t-shirt and sweats Izzy had been wearing, now she was clad in a beautiful pink and white dress.

Maddie stepped backwards her mouth falling open. "Izzy. What did you do? This has to be some sort of trick. Izzy, you tell me now. And I don't want to hear anything about magic, other than "theatre magic".

Izzy sighed. "I told you. I wasn't lying. I needed to tell you because I had a close call. I could have died and I didn't want you or mom to think that it was because I had gotten in with the wrong crowd, or that you guys had anything to do with it. I'm fighting spooky things. Monstery sorts of things. I need someone to know..." Maddie fell into the closest chair and looked up at her sister. "Oh my god. Isabella! How does this happen! Undo it. You can't be almost dying out there. Stop being a magical whatever." Maddie could feel panic coming upon her. "You can't do something that is going to get you killed. You're lucky I haven't told mom about the stripper thing! You can't expect me to keep this secret too! Isabella no. No. No. No no no no no!"

[rapscallion-princess]

Madeline (Maddie) Victoria Evans

Maddie and Izzy share a majority of their traits. Both have bright green eyes, a small pointed nose, freckles, dimples, and flaming hair. Maddie is shorter than Izzy by a few inches, standing at around 5'5" on a good day. She is also in general built smaller than Izzy.  Maddie was an all season athlete. She played volleyball in the fall, basketball in the winter, she ran track during the spring, and played softball during the summers.She felt that having practice offered her a nice schedule and forced her to stay on track with her school work.

Madeline has always been considered the smart one of the two. She is a curious girl who likes to know about the world she exists in. She's also very fond of animals and has been her entire life. As a child she was constantly pushing to get some sort of pet. Eventually succeeding on four occasions which lead to their two dogs, a cat, and a gerbil. Maddie is also very competitive. She likes to win in all situations of her life and she brings her full force against everything that she does in life.

Maddie went to the same college Izzy did but they allowed themselves space to grow. While Izzy threw herself into the theatre Maddie spent a majority of her time in the lab. She majored in biology and chemistry. After graduation she was accepted into the veterinary medicine program at the University of Minnesota Twin Cities. It was one of her proudest moments.

Maddie is very supportive of Izzy and has been to every opening night since Izzy started acting. She brings a bouquet of flowers with her, and Izzy keeps them at her mirror for the duration of her show. It's become a sort of good luck ritual between the two of them. Izzy does what she can to help Maddie prepare for exams and sometimes will run with Maddie or they will go to the gym together. They know they get a better work out in when they go together because neither likes to lose. Especially to each other.

When Izzy told Maddie about being a magical girl she didn't believe her. She told Izzy to stop being ridiculous and even offered up the idea of seeing a specialist. She is very firmly set in her world and has no time for the idea of something as silly as her sister telling her that she has magical abilities. However, she does believe what she sees and between Kaeii, her ability to transform and shoot tiny daggers, Maddie was then convinced. She's very protective of her sister and thinks that fighting spooky things is a good way to put her sister on the fast track to dead.

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary,

5-05-13

Lydia came out as a Swords today. It was a little odd to me, because I think I get so used to thinking that these things are more static then they are. She went and talked to the Queen of Spades and from what I understand things went well. I wanted to watch, since I've never met the Queen of Spades but I guess it wasn't really my business anyways. Oh well, we're gonna go to Swords tomorrow.

We also decided to go out tonight and that probably wasn't the best. I probably should have drank my margaritas a wee bit slower, but whatevs I guess. Alex got into a fight. It's lucky Lydia seems to have her shit together.

5-06-13

I seriously need to get a car. It's nice now, so I don't mind biking so much, but it takes so much longer! I had dinner with my housemates tonight. I think I've been neglecting my friends and Maddie, and mom, and the theatre, and really putting some creativity into my routines. Just in general I feel like I've become so entranced by this whole princess thing that I've let things get away from me. I really should get better at that. Ooh! Maybe I'll get a schedule and put it on my door and then I can map things out! Or..I dunno. I'm probably gonna have to tell Maddie about this whole princess thing. Katrina and Oliver know, but I feel like they're mostly trying to ignore it. Oh boy, conversations I'm not looking forward to.

Tonight we went to the dreamlands too. The Queen of Swords really liked Lydia. It was really awkward standing kind of off in the back. It probably could have gone better for Alex and I. I think I need to talk to another Swords. Most helpfully another troubadour. Maybe they can help me get my bearings. Maybe. Ughh. I just want to cuddle and not worry about things.

On another note, (cause I'll worry about that later, I think) I went back to the black rabbit room and there were writings next to each person. Red's said Liar, Rota's said Coward, and Leesa's said Killer. Not very good for any of them.

5-07-13

So! Today Alex texted Lydia and I because there was some funny business at the school. So I brought Kaeii over and she sniffed around and sure enough there is some dark spawn happening. So we went over that night, and oh man were they yucky. They were like, um, they looked like tongues and they made us want to give into our worst traits in some ways. Also, at one point Lydia forgot what they were and so that caused some problems. We finally found the guy who was controlling them but he got away unfortunately. So, we're gonna keep an eye out to see if the discipline issues crop up again. But seriously, some darkspawn is just beyond yucky. You'd think it'd get less icky the more we fought them. Or maybe I'm just squeamish. Who knows!

I also called my very own white rabbit tonight! It seems that what Red lied to us about was knowing the Green Fairy. In the dream they shook hands, so I imagine they made a deal on something. On what is really the question that I need answered and it's driving me mad!

5-08-13

Nothing really exciting happened today. I worked another shift at Deja Vu. I forgot how hard it was to actually get a regular schedule when you were a new girl. It's tiring and I feel like i have too much free time on my hands. I need to be doing something. So I'm auditioning for Kiss me Kate on Friday. It's a pretty exciting show in general. I'm really hoping for the role of Bianca/Lois Lane because let's be real, she certainly has the most fun song and maybe I can utilize my pole abilities. Gah! I'm kind of nervous and I shouldn't be. I love performing. I know once I start I will really be fine, it's just a matter of breathing before then!

5-09-13

I hung out with Maddie today. I thought about telling her but we haven't hung out much in the last couple months. I'm busy doing princess-y things and she has her writing. She also has a showing for some paintings coming up and I don't want to mess with her muse. "Oh by the way Maddie, I'm a warrior of light. I shoot things with little magic knife things and can be super sneaky. Wanna see?" No. No she probably doesn't right now. When is too late to tell her though? Like, obviously I don't want to die before telling her and mom but it is so awkward to bring up. Like, telling Oliver and Katrina was hard enough and I certainly wouldn't have done that if I had planned things out better. But alas.

5-10-13

Audition day! It was nervewracking as always but I think I held my own.Now the question is did I do well enough in comparison to the other girls that I'll be getting the part? Only time will tell. Fingers crossed to a quick email.

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary

Oh man has it been a long time since I've written in this. Let's see, top hits of the last month include: Meeting a person from the embassy of the sea, found out that Skrillex is my "sister", oh and I ended up with a double. Still not sure how to feel about that one. So much has happened with Leesa, and I'm worried about having to deal with her in the future. Skrillex hates me. To be fair she hates literally everyone, but I don't fully understand why. When I followed the rabbit today the message on the wall said "It's started." What is IT? I'm worried. She certainly lived a hard life and I wish there was a way to help her, but I wonder if there is?

Oh man! I also totally forgot but we met the mastermind, at least in a way. She talked to us. The Mastermind, Skrillex, and someone called the Monster all are on a team. And they are doing nothing good. Oh! Also, I learned a bit about the smoke monster dream and the fact that it's tied to 1983. That must be when Alex and Lydia's past lives took care of the big scary monster thing. Maybe? I couldn't tell you because I can't access it. That's the rabbit that I can't access because of Skrillex and I just don't get it and I don't want to shoot someone. :(

Okay, that's all I got for now. Maybe I'll try and keep my thoughts better organized next time. Or maybe I'll add more here later.

-Iz

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary,

March 30,

Today was long tech day. Which was mostly just sitting around and getting light cues to match with music cues. It was long. By the end of the night I was exhausted. But luckily I got another rabbit from fuckin Skrillex girl. I was brought to a room. There was a gun on a stool with a bullet and Red Star, Rota, and Bumi. Skrillex girl was in a corner dead. I keep being brought back to the same scene and I can't figure it out. I just can't. 

Monday April 1st,

I got the package from the Japanese princesses! It's gonna help with the whole radiation thing. Yay.

Tuesday April 2nd,

We went down into the manhole today. We ended up in a ruined city, there were four main places. A strip club, an art gallery, a gas station and a huge crater. After a long and intricate adventure filled with feral dogs we got a canvas thing. We also learned that someone got into the ruins and someone has the crown. Which is just fuckin' peachy.

I'm also sort of freaking out about the show. I don't know why memorizing has been so hard for this show. I need to get my shit together. Oh and  to top my day off another black rabbit came today and attacked my white rabbit. Luckily there was a note about the dream temple. I'll have to tell the others about it.

Wednesday April 3rd,

Dress rehearsal today! It actually went well! Lydia helped me with lines. Lydia and Alex came to the show. It was real nice.

Thursday April 4th,

Opening NIght! It was going super great until I saw fuckin Skrillex. She was there. I only saw her for a brief moment and then she was gone. I just don't understand her beef. I just don't get it and I'm annoyed.

Friday April 5th,

Another great performance. Nothing out of the ordinary. Alex I think is getting their groove. I'm real happy for them. Also Dreamlands! It was a long journey, as it always is. We played texas hold'em against Coyote and we won. Well, one of us. It was pretty great. Well, then we learned about how to get into the Moon temple. It was sorta exciting. Lupatria and Torch are both two of the people I've been seeing. But I'm not. I seemed boring. Plain, sorta looked like myself but not really. It was disappointing and confusing. Why am I seeing what's going on if I'm not connected to it? Why is Skrillex girl connected to me? I just don't know. I guess research? That's really all I got to go off of, or I need to figure out what is going on with the black rabbit so I can get other messages. Whatever I'm seeing that's in her form is holding damage, so that's weird. Ugh, bed time, my mind is so buzzy.

~Izzy

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary,

March 24th,

More rabbits today! How  very exciting. This time I ended up going straight to the tower and the smoke appeared and did it's big shebang. Then it did the whole "I'm gonna get you thing" and then the three individuals who were killed started rising like they were going to some afterlife and pulled the creature with it. It was like it was stuck in them. It was weird.

Torch made a guess that they are our past dreamself things. We have kind of a plan to figure it out. Whether that plan is a good plan is still to be determined. We also learned about this Temple of the Moon though, so maybe that will end up being more useful than just waiting for someone to succumb to gales.

March 25th,

Today was the sitzprobe for Chicago. That was super exciting. I can't believe we open in a week! I'm so excited! I suppose that should take a back seat to other events though. There was a huge explosion tonight and we were almost brought in by the police. Luckily we got away. We ended up going over to Leesa's to talk to her. She was pretty upset. Now we're on an adventure to find this lovely crown and instead we come across radiation that knocks Lupatria out. She could have died!

Red Star showed up. Okay, secret time diary and I think I've done a pretty good job of keeping this a secret, but I think I have a thing for Red. Which sucks. Like, I know Lupatria does. I know. And I don't want to be a bad friend, which is why I've tried to keep it a secret. Which you know how hard that is for me! I don't do good at hiding my feelings. I'm a cyclone of energy. But I think I have successfully hidden it from both Lupatria and Torch, so go me!

March 26th,

I tried to talk to Leesa today. Sometimes I kinda suck at reeling in myself. I forget that I can be overwhelming and I fucked up. This is something I'm supposed to be relatively good at! Overall though, not much happened today. I lead some Zumba today.

March 27th,

 I  got in touch with some Japanese princesses who are sending us over a bequest that will help with the radiation stuff and that's not even the best part! We're gonna go to Japan to help them with something in a trade! I've never been to Japan, I'm going to buy all of the Eevee and eeveelution plushies! All of them! I'm super pumped! :D

Anyways, we had some Nakama bonding time and that was pretty great. I think I'm starting to feel really comfortable with them now.

I'm also finding that I really miss Deja Vu. I know that I get to audition again in a couple weeks but I really want to go back to working there. It was super fun and all the girls are great. Now I have to rebecome their friends and ugh.

March 28th,

We obtained the Haz Mat suits today. They should certainly come in handy with fighting the radiation. Hopefully we don't get the walking ghost thing from radiation. Ick. We spent some time with Leesa today that was pretty snazzy.

March 29th,

Today was relatively uneventful. Taught pole. Kaeii put a dead bird in my bag. That was great. Overall nothing to say for today.

[rapscallion-princess]

Crawlspace

Izzy’s crawl space is through a door that looks fairly plain. It’s rounded, red  and the handle of the door is in the shape of a heart. Once inside it looks like a group make up room. There are various mirrors with lights above them, and a counter beneath them. There are chairs set up at each mirror creating make up stations for possible performers.Looking closer one would that there are little stations with different knickknacks and important pieces of Izzy’s life set up.

Each station is different and holds different memories with varying importance. One may have a make up carrier open and make up spread over the counter. Some have pictures tucked carefully into the mirrors, others a button that shows a specific dance or performance. Teddy bears, old costumes, and giant fans grace the counters and and chairs.

A worn teddy bear missing an eye and half an ear wearing a cape and a tutu sits at one of the stations. Upon closer investigation of the station one would find pictures of Izzy and Maddie at their first dance recital. Izzy seems to be glowing, with her missing front tooth and shiny freckles grinning up at the camera. If one pushes a button underneath the mirror and turn your attention to it, the reflective surface disappears and in it’s place, you would see Izzy’s first dance recital. Her bright smile doesn’t falter, not even when she steps on Maddie’s foot and takes them both tumbling to the floor. She jumps back up, pulls her sister to her feet and tries to find the beat, before the mirror goes dark and then returns to a reflective surface.

Meandering to a different station, one could find a floor length blue gown laid gently over a chair. Here one would find pictures of prom. Another site has two large featherfans and a corset. Pressing a button one would find a video of Izzy’s first burlesque show. These are only a few examples.

[rapscallion-princess]

Izzy!

[rapscallion-princess]

Izzy!

No one has ever called Izzy petite. Since hitting puberty she's been curvy. Broad shoulders and wide hips. She started out looking quite awkward and  initially she was very self conscious, but she hit a point where it didn't matter. She liked her five foot eight frame, her giant hips and wide shoulders. She began to have a confidence in herself that shines through in what she does.

Izzy has bright red hair and is cursed with a bridge of freckles across her nose, and on her shoulders. Izzy has never been fond of her freckles and covers the ones on her face up with foundation. She also has striking green eyes and a pointy nose. On top of the other gingery qualities Izzy is also paler than any person she has met. An ungodly pale. If she spends any time outside she slathers herself in sun tan lotion to protect herself from becoming a bright red crab. Plus it's awfully painful, and no one enjoys peeling off enough skin to create another person.

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary

March 17th,

I'm still trying to deal with the rabbits. They seem to be useful overall. Although I still can't get over the fucking giant ass smoke thing that can come into our world. Torch and Lupatria experienced it with me this time. It was literally awful for everyone. Oh and then after I fall back to sleep what crawls up with me? A black rabbit. Lucky right?

Also! It's my birthday today! It was super nice. I spent time with Maddie and Mom. Dad couldn't make it but that was okay! Lydia and Alex planned something for me at House and that was lovely. I bit off more than I could chew and ended up telling Oliver and Katrina about the whole princess thing. Could have gone better. Lots of princesses showed up. More than I expected actually. Red Star also asked for a dance and that was pretty exciting. I got all blushy before I could thank him for a lovely dance. I imagine it was a sort of birthday thing. It was nice though. Hopefully Oliver and Katrina can get on board with the Hopeful thing, because I'm not very good at explaining.

March 18th,

Talked to Oliver today! Kaeii helped a lot. In the ways that Kaeii helps. She also seems fond of my iPad. Hopefully that doesn't become a problem! Oh well. Lazy day!

I was also thinking today. I wonder if Kaeii reads this. Like, I keep it in my end table and I'm pretty sure she's rummaged through there, but like. Are my thoughts safe in here? Things to ponder...

I don't mind, I think. But it's kinda weird. 

March 19th,

I quit Deja Vu today as Isabella. It was hard because I feel like I've really gotten comfortable there. But there are greater goods and so I'm going to reapply as Valentine. The really only exciting thing here is I get to create a whole new character and theme it up. I always tried to stay rather flexible and eclectic with my talents because it's easier to market yourself if you can do more things. But I think it'd be fun to come up with something. Hm. I'll also probably wait to reapply until after I'm done with Chicago in, wow, two or three weeks? Omg. Okay, bye diary!

Wait I lied. Let's talk about Bumi for a bit. I think she's going to be super important. And I'm still not sure if that's gonna be a good important or a bad important. I don't know why. But like, she's been super chill with us, and I'd like to keep that way and possibly get closer to her and stuff. This is made increasingly more difficult when I have a lovely Nakama member who has the feelings for her. And I get that. I think, but being a rather pushy person I guess I see things differently than others. Like, I like to be proactive. Whatevs. Next time I suppose.

Okay good bye for real now!

March 21st,

We went to fucking Alhambra today. Like, holy fuck is it a dreary place. What's worse Pyre brought someone over there. We took him back with us. Unfortunately that puts us in a seriously dangerous place I think. I guess we will have to wait and see! But I'm worried.

[rapscallion-princess]

Dear Diary

Well. This princess thing gets weirder and harder and way way scarier. I literally got shot. I got shot in the dreamlands. That's not supposed to happen. Then I almost got dropped on a saw. Which is just super great. Red Star came and helped saved me from being sawed down the middle.

On a much happier note. My birthday is coming up. It's not all that big of a deal, but Lydia and Alex and I are going to House of Cards. I also invited Oliver and Katrina so that should be an exciting little shindig. It will be a welcomed break from Princessing.

~Izzy

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Imagine being free all the time. Then suddenly as you begin to grow and mature you are trapped in the dark, hidden away, suffocated and only fully released at night. As you continue to grow you may be forced into ridiculously small spaces, or constantly pushed around. That is the tragic life of a boob.

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 #I don’t know what I was expecting

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Basic shikigami design.

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Dear Diary,

So this princess thing gets harder and harder. There's so much I still don't understand and that puts me at a disadvantage I know. I think Torch is starting to like me more. Maybe. I think we had a moment. Lupatria is her kind self as always. No change there. Everything surrounding Jack was unfortunate and that mansion was awful. 

I don't think my rabbits are fake. Or at least not completely. But I suppose I don't fully know what to think of them. The other two don't seem to think of them as very important, but we'll see I guess.

I guess the only other thing to cover is the show. Chicago is harder than expected and Velma even harder than that. Luckily it's a dance heavy show and that's helpful, but my lines and singing have been shaky at best. I'm afraid they're going to give it to my understudy, but I can't let that fear overwhelm. I know I need to stay positive. I think I'm going to have to spend some time with Maddie soon. 

All my love,

Iz

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Important Places

Deja Vu: This is the club that Izzy works for. She started out with a minimal act that has grown into quite the dazzle. She now incorporates different things into her performances, and because Deja Vu not only acts as a strip club, but also indulges in random theme nights that have included more of a club atmosphere, she has honed a few other talents including a few burlesque routines, a couple hooping routines, and a jazz number.  Since Izzy has worked for Deja Vu for awhile now, she is sometimes called upon to help hire new girls.

Theatre B: This is where Izzy spends a good portion of her time. This is also where she blossomed. It was her first lead role. She was given the wonderful opportunity to play Maureen in a rendition of RENT. During her first performance was when she Blossomed and although the stage has always had special meaning to her, that meaning is tenfold with the addition of it being the place she blossomed. Particularly the stage at Theatre B.

Home: Izzy lives with Oliver and Katrina. Izzy has her own room and Katrina and Oliver share. They have a medium sized living room and kitchen and everyone went in together on furnishing the place. It's homey. Isabella fills the house with all sorts of candles and incenses. They help her to calm down. She also loves having fresh flowers all over the place. She tries to keep a positive energy in her house and in everything she does because she believes that it helps to put people at ease when they enter her house.