Always Glancing Back

Independent fandomless oc rp blog. 8+ years of experience. Mun is 21+. Semi-selective. Tw for mentions of suicide and mental illness.

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Top 3 Overwatch skins per role:

Support:

Idunn deadass reminds me of Linkle from Hyrule Warriors, so I love it.

This and Bathmaster were tough to choose between, but genuinely, I think Zen is really adorable in this skin so it just barely won.

I bought the last battle pass just to get the Fae skin for Moira bc there was no way I wasn't playing problematic Irish woman with the Fae skin.

Lore accurate monk Ramattra, my beloved.

This skin for Sigma slaps. Usually I don't care for voiceline changes too much, but Galactic Emperor has some of the best.

I only have two tank mains, so I'm giving the 3rd slot to Star Sheep Orisa, because I genuinely just think it's a very well designed skin.

Rare moment where I actually play more than 3 characters, but I just picked my top 3.

Van Helsing Cassidy is never coming off. It's what I currently wear. I pair it with Blazing Sunsetter. It's a vibe.

Haunted Ashe looks like some pale rider who brings tidings of impending doom and I love her for it.

And nothing deep other than I like pretty Japanese man in formalwear. Sometimes that's all you need.

Tagged by: @shouga-nai

Tagging: anyone who wants it :3

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She had noticed the observation. Or at least, she thought she had. Staying alive in this, or any, world was only aided by vigilance. Still, sometimes she wondered if she was growing too paranoid, imagining lingering eyes where there were none, growing suspicious of those who had no ill intent. It would just be one step closer to insanity, wouldn't it? To perceive everyone to be staring at you. The thought almost made her want to laugh. Bitter. Humorless. Going insane would be a fitting ending to all of this.

Still, regardless of what was reality and what was merely the workings of paranoia, he had made no move towards hostility. Neither had any of his brothers in this place. She would offer the same in kind.

"As well as it can," she replied, eyes wandering him.

Now who was staring? She quickly snapped her gaze to the plants nearby. She should have been used to oddities by now, yet still, when she saw something so foreign to her own world, it still drew her in more than she should allow it to.

Her voice was what one would have expected from someone of her age and size, laced with a thick accent from the southern United States.

"I won't put y'all out for too much longer if I can help it," she said.

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He'll take that vague response, expecting that to be the end of the conversation, particularly when he caught the way she was eyeing him. Unlike her, he did not shift his gaze, as if trying to read her. Then she spoke once more, finally prompting him to let his gaze wander before unwanted thoughts would have a chance to develop.

My presence is found abhorrent - a part of him concluded; the logical part that formed assumptions based on observations made of the humans around him as of late. She might have recognized his model, though it's fairly hard to tell for certain. But Ramattra failed to see any other reason why their guest would feel the need to make her stay as short as possible given her condition.

"The mountain terrain and weather conditions are nothing to scoff at. Venturing out haphazardly even at optimum health poses a deadly risk. As things stand, you will not last."

That might come off harsh and cold, a tone unbefitting of a monk, one could also interpret it as the Omnic's way of warning and expressing concern for the recovering traveler's safety. Or, was it concern for the monastery's image and nothing more? He could only imagine the kind of talk that would spread if the one human under the monks' care ended up perishing...

A pause, and what sounded like a low, drawn out sigh left him. What was he saying?

"...Do you... have somewhere to be?" A destination she needed to reach, a place to return to-

His tone was quieter now, in an attempt to correct himself and salvage what's even left of this interaction. Perhaps trying to understand where she's coming from would prove helpful, at the very least.

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The part of her that was used to having to be bigger than she was bristled at the way he said it. It was the nature of things that were used to being small to ruffle their fur and arch their backs. Then logic caught up. She looked back at him, trying to remind herself that looking at people while speaking to them was polite.

It wasn't staring. She wasn't staring.

It snowed up here, so high in the mountains, even now in the late spring. Had she not stumbled up that path only a few days ago, arriving at their door shaking, arms crossed over herself, a hair away from collapse between the cold and her injuries. She hadn't realized how pleasant numb was until she'd taken her boots off and felt the stiff muscle protest against the friction.

She wouldn't last. Meaning she would have to be an inconvenience for these people for much longer than she'd have liked.

"A few miles south," she replied. "Not home or anything, just..."

She paused. What did she even call what she did without raising questions? This was why she hated talking about herself.

"...just a responsibility, I guess. Don't stay in one place for too long."

She wished she could read anything from him. Was his posture unease or just the way his body was built? His expression didn't change. Only the tone of his voice gave her some indication of what an appropriate response might be. It wasn't unique to him. It was difficult for her to read any of the monks before they spoke to her.

"I'm sorry. Am I making you uncomfortable?" She asked. "I don't think I've spoken to so many people in...No, I don't remember actually."

Be a little honest. Be disarming. If she'd offended him in some way, make up for it. This was his home, and she was just staying in it.

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((Damn, not one Belos rper in the rpc that I can find? I was hoping for a good old-fashioned "I want to tear your throat out, and the feeling is mutual" dynamic.

I'll have to keep searching until I find one. If anyone knows anyone, send them my way. I'd appreciate it.))

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@amischiefofmuses continued from x

Should his hands wander, he would find hurried, crude stitches administered by small, mortal hands. As crude as mortal medicine always was. Hardly befitting to administer to a God.

The way Ruby moved was in opposition to everything her body wanted when in the face of such an energy. Making contact with him sent shocks of it through her, powerful, like a punch that knocked the wind from her. Yet she had administered care, and now, in some reflex used to earnestness and the need for swift action, she reached out as he attempted to rise, palm pressing flat to his chest to warn against it.

She knelt in the sand at his side, a rag wet with her drinking water in one hand and the canteen in the other. Young, androgynous in all but voice. The accent was foreign.

Dressed in ichor, stained gold from her work.

She knew one of those names. Apollo. Fitting name for a healer. Though she doubted she'd be dragging him to any doctor. It had taken enough strength to position the two of them among the sand and rocks of the shallow cliff cave.

"Should I have left you out there?" she asked.

Not exactly the thanks she'd been expecting, but it wasn't enough to make her leave him behind. He at least had the decency to ask for a name.

"It's Ruby. You?" she asked. "Is there someone I can bring to help you?"

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Poseidon didn't expect such a return remark from a mortal, that much was certain, but it was one he chose not to take insult from given she had indeed gone out of her way to ensure he was tended to, futile though it might have been. -- ❝Some might say so, most don't meddle so recklessly in affairs that do not concern them.❞ He grumbled, taking in the sight of her before letting out a heavy sigh, shaking his head to himself. Young, stained in his lifeblood, what a foolish little thing to have put herself in harms way like this. Before he could comment on that, he was stopped short by her question. Who was he? She was doing all this unaware? Almost amusing, but it made more sense.

-- ❝Poseidon, God of the Sea - among other things.❞ Bowing only his head, for the notion of bending more than that was enough to evoke a wince of pain, he then shook his head. ❝I will not be ridiculed by others, this will heal.. In time. Until them, it would do you well to wash the ichor from yourself. Given your kindness thus far, it would be quite the shame to see you die in such agony..❞ To drink the golden ichor, even just a drop past the lips, would bring slow painful death to a mortal, for they were not meant to know such a taste.

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For a moment, she sat ridged. She could have had any number of reactions. She could have tried to laugh it off. Maybe said something along the likes of "right, and I'm from Atlantis." Denying it outright was a pretty good option.

None of that was what came out.

"...oh."

Did she even believe him? She wasn't sure. All she knew was that she was sitting in a cave on a beach, surrounded by an energy thay was primed to knock her on her ass in a way she'd never been knocked on her ass before, and she was covered in gold.

Ignore it. Just ignore it. Keep moving. Deal with it later. Forget he said it.

What did he say? Clean herself? Die?

Danger was at least something she could latch onto in the face of something so completely out of her wheelhouse. Danger required action, some instinctual, preprogrammed step she needed to follow to stay safe.

"Shit," she hissed, clumsily scrambling to her feet on the slick rock like a newborn foal trying to find footing. Reaching the water's edge a few yards out from where they were settled, she plunged her hands and arms into it and scrubbed the blood from them until the salt burned against her skin.

She returned, stripping the chlamys from her shoulders, grateful that the blood was confined to the cloak. The absence of the garmet made her look quite small, no longer bundled in multiple layers of fabric.

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((It's really funny, bc I started writing Ruby when I was thirteen, and back then I was like "oh, she's sixteen. She's high school age. She's so mature."

Now I'm 28, and this is a child. A child who has seen horrors, but a child. She can't even vote yet. She can't drink legally. Child.))

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(Alright. Disappearing for a bit to unpack more stuff. Might be like, an hour.)

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The Adventure Zone Balance from Arc 1 Here there be gerblins and moonlighting. feel free to change gender specific words, pronouns,  whatever you like to make it fit your muse better!

❝Hail and well met!❞

❝ So… Do you have gold? In here?❞

❝ Goodbye! Have fun! Bring me his head.❞

❝ You should have thought about that before throwing my dog in the fire! ❞

❝ Well you shouldn’t have had your dog jump up my ass! ❞

❝ I don’t think my dog could fit in an ass…❞

❝ Do you need any money or any— Can I just sort of— can I give you all of the things I have?❞

❝ Boy, I wish I hadn’t needed to murder them. That was, uh— oh boy. ❞

❝ All of the asses have been kicked, dear [Name]. ❞

❝ A lot of shit happened. And it was all really terrible, and if you gave me the option I would not do it again. ❞

❝ Let me pitch you this: It’s gonna be equally bad for my career if I just fucking die.❞

❝ Thinking is for other people.❞

❝ Okay, I take back what I said about talking and sharing. Let’s go.❞

❝ Here’s my solution and I think you’re gonna find it very equitable: I’m not going to shoot you with this giant crossbow. ❞

❝ I love your cadence, dear. Where you from? ❞

❝ I’m sorry, I don’t need to be introduced, do I? My reputation precedes me. ❞

❝ Now, this may be a little cheesy, but I can’t let you go. ❞

❝ Abraca-Fuck-You! ❞

❝ No, no, no. The sounds— no, the mouth words that you just made there can’t be a sound I’m exposed—❞

❝ I stole a bunch of gold!I stole a bunch of gold, and there was a whole thing of gold— I— There was a whole bunch of gold— I was just gonna remark about how we haven’t found any gold this whole time and how we were really upset about it but I’m sorry! I found a bunch of gold and here take a third of the gold! ❞

❝ I’m having a really great time and I think we’re becoming closer as friends! ❞

❝ I’m regretting letting you into this with every passing second. ❞

❝ It was ninety whole seconds! You couldn’t stand still for ninety whole seconds! ❞

❝ Stop! Stop thinking you know how magic things work. You’ve proven pretty inept at it. ❞

❝ Aren’t you tired of hurting? Aren’t you tired of fire and burning? ❞

❝ Do we get a license to kill? ❞

❝ No dogs are allowed on the moon, unfortunately, ❞

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PSA that I like whump. I like hurt/comfort.

I like Ruby taking care of other muses bc she gets so much in her feelings and shows that she loves other people despite trying to pretend that she doesnt.

I like other muses taking care of Ruby because she's so used to hurt and so convinced that he fate is to die alone and violently that she breaks down because someone cared enough to make sure that didn't happen. She shows that she wants comfort so badly. She clings and is just happy someone is there.

Please pet my girl and let her pet your muses.

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((Props to Obsession for being the first movie I've seen in years that made me scream and made my ass leave my seat.))

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@amischiefofmuses continued from x

Should his hands wander, he would find hurried, crude stitches administered by small, mortal hands. As crude as mortal medicine always was. Hardly befitting to administer to a God.

The way Ruby moved was in opposition to everything her body wanted when in the face of such an energy. Making contact with him sent shocks of it through her, powerful, like a punch that knocked the wind from her. Yet she had administered care, and now, in some reflex used to earnestness and the need for swift action, she reached out as he attempted to rise, palm pressing flat to his chest to warn against it.

She knelt in the sand at his side, a rag wet with her drinking water in her free hand. Young, androgynous in all but voice. The accent was foreign.

Dressed in ichor, stained gold from her work.

She knew one of those names. Apollo. Fitting name for a healer. Though she doubted she'd be dragging him to any doctor. It had taken enough strength to position the two of them among the sand and rocks of the shallow cliff cave.

"Should I have left you out there?" she asked.

Not exactly the thanks she'd been expecting, but it wasn't enough to make her leave him behind. He at least had the decency to ask for a name.

"It's Ruby. You?" she asked. "Is there someone I can bring to help you?"

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((I want one of those notepads for divers and a waterproof pen, because I always get ideas in the bathtub, and there's no way to write them down.))

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One of my favorite things about Ruby is the duality of her. She's a 16 year old kid who doesn't have the amount of life experience necessary be on the level with adults, but she's also an ex-soldier who can have very real conversations about pain and war and death and the struggle of living with nothing to her name. She's prickly and tries to keep people at arms length and is wary of strangers (until she loves you, then she never wants to leave you), but she also genuinely adores people and would give up a lot to help someone genuinely in trouble. She forgives others for a lot more than she forgives herself for, even if they're similar actions.

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((Sometimes I look at all the platonic and action rps I write with my partners and I'm like "yeah, this is my shit." Then I remember that I'm a horror writer and pivot to my other shit: complete despair.))

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Starter for @shouga-nai

When she said she was trying to get to the monastery, the villagers had looked at her like she'd just grown a second head. Then they'd pointed in the general direction and left her to make the trek. Funny how that one question had seemingly dissolved any urge they'd had to accommodate her, young as she was, black-eyed, arm in a makeshift sling of her own making, blood on her knuckles, only some of which was hers, and lacking any of the possessions she'd begun her trip with. Save for the instrument slung over her back, the case of which had been scuffed in the struggle.

The person in the last village she'd passed through, who had suggested she ask if they could provide her a place to rest, had neglected to mention that the monks weren't overly popular with some of the locals.

Now, days after limping her way up the mountain paths to safety in the wake of having almost everything in her possession stolen from her, some of the ache was at least starting to die down, though she still had a sling on her arm.

Ruby had a policy against trusting strangers. Throwing herself at the mercy of a large group of them would have been out of the question, had she not been desperate. She wished that in the face of their aid, she could have shaken that distrust from her shoulders, but old habits forged by being burned one too many times died hard.

They weren't what she was expecting. It seemed blunt to say that she was expecting humans, but that was the truth of it. At first, she'd wondered if the robotic monk who had greeted her at the door was merely a device to aid the others within the monastery. That hadn't turned out to be the case. Now she merely wondered how many of these people existed in this world. If they existed outside of these walls, or were simply confined to this place. She'd seen none of them in the villages when she'd passed through them.

They spoke to her as any other person would, and she did the same. After all, they were helping her, and she was trying to blend in. If this was common in this world, she should act at ease with it.

Speaking of at ease, the gardens were quiet at this time of day. She'd taken to sitting there for a while for some air, and it wasn't too far to wander, even for someone who still had a slight limp in their step.

His footsteps were distinct. Heavy. She'd noticed him before among the others. He was different. Taller. Built stronger. A different model perhaps, if that applied.

She'd never seen him when they were alone. What was she supposed to say? It was easy most of the time, keeping her head down, expressing gratitude. Now, she potentially found herself faced with a task that she'd always struggled with.

Small talk.

Saying nothing seemed rude.

"Sorry," she said. "I can leave if you want."

She wasn't sure why that was the first thing that came out. Maybe it was the way he was carrying himself. It seemed like the right thing to say.

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Ramattra mostly kept to himself when their latest guest arrived, keeping his distance while observing intently. Cautiously.

Despite all the Shambali's efforts in spreading peace and empathy, he saw no improvement in human-omnic relations as of late. Many of those who resided right by the foot of the mountain showed contempt towards their existence. What could then be expected from the rest of the world?

So forgive him for being a touch wary when this vagabond appeared before them. Naturally, the Shambali would not turn away a wandering visitor in need. Thus far, she seemed... agreeable, at best. And Ramattra allowed himself to ease up. Though still vigilant, he did find himself somewhat intrigued. Keen receptors noticed the way she limped down the monastery corridors, the disheveled and bruised look a telltale sign of one who's trudged through obstacle after obstacle, perhaps.

It's that very afternoon when he came across their present guest, unintended this time, considering he found her sitting by his usual spot. It's always serene enough out here for him to take to meditation. Otherwise, he'd find comfort in personally tending to the plants.

But now, he had company. Evidently he was standing in silence for a tad too long, likely coming off forbidding. He also wouldn't be surprised if his particular model was recognized. The first word he heard from her, however, left him perplexed.

"There is... no need to apologize." Ramattra began, attempting to center himself. Remember Mondatta's teachings... "Please, stay. I understand the calming appeal of nature."

There's the bout of silence again. He watched her as he did the time she first set foot within the monastery's walls, gaze shifting down to her arm still in a sling, and thought it proper to ask.

"Is your recuperation going well?"

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She had noticed the observation. Or at least, she thought she had. Staying alive in this, or any, world was only aided by vigilance. Still, sometimes she wondered if she was growing too paranoid, imagining lingering eyes where there were none, growing suspicious of those who had no ill intent. It would just be one step closer to insanity, wouldn't it? To perceive everyone to be staring at you. The thought almost made her want to laugh. Bitter. Humorless. Going insane would be a fitting ending to all of this.

Still, regardless of what was reality and what was merely the workings of paranoia, he had made no move towards hostility. Neither had any of his brothers in this place. She would offer the same in kind.

"As well as it can," she replied, eyes wandering him.

Now who was staring? She quickly snapped her gaze to the plants nearby. She should have been used to oddities by now, yet still, when she saw something so foreign to her own world, it still drew her in more than she should allow it to.

Her voice was what one would have expected from someone of her age and size, laced with a thick accent from the southern United States.

"I won't put y'all out for too much longer if I can help it," she said.