Why can some women be so mean to other women?
The Covid-19 pandemic was hard for many people. I have to admit that I really found it a challenge to be living alone. I have depression and anxiety and living in solitude can be very dangerous for the mental health. But what I want to share has nothing to do with the pandemic nor solitude.
In summer 2021, I wrote to a girlfriend of mine that I haven't spoken to in years due to the forced isolation. I asked her if she wanted to go for a walk. Thankfully she accepted and we went for a nice walk in the park. After that moment, we started hanging out often and we hung out a lot.
Now for those of you who know me, know that I don't surround myself with girl friends often due to the bullying and exclusion I went through during my schooling life. But, I was whilling to take a chance with our new found friendship as she also needed a good friend by her side. I was so grateful to have her as a friend.
Then, one night, we hung out with some of her friends and she started getting angry at me for being nice to her friends. She was jealous and would ignore me for days till I appologized to her. I didn't understand what I was doing wrong.
This continued for weeks till she decided to block me as she said that I was a slut and that I was sleeping around with her friends to get back to her. I was so hurt by her words that I started to beg her for an appology for something that I hadn't done. She started spreading rumors about me and was threatening me via text. I know that most of you will say that I should have moved on and blocked her, but I am not good at that.
Instead, she blocked me. She said that I was too toxic for her and a bad influence. Those words really hurt me as I had done so much for her and her daughter.
Thankfully, I decided to join my Yoga studio again and did lots of meditation. I learned to let go of the situation and focus on people that actually respect me.
This weekend, she started calling me non stop during the night. She woke me up at 3:00 am and then at 4:00 am and then 5:00 am. I didn't want to pick up as I didn't want her negative energy in my life. I just ignored the phone. This made her so angry that she sent me mean texts again and was accusing me of spreading rumors about her and that I should stop ruining her life.
I was so surprised as I didn't talk or think about her since she blocked me. I didn't want to enter in her games so I finally did blocked her this morning. I decided that I won't let anyone treat me like that anymore. I am always sad to lose a friend, but I want to learn to love me and become my own best friend.
