the fact that dottore is shown to play piano for pantalone and columbina makes my heart aches, how pitiful for a person like him never knew the standard of how family actually worked, he couldn't even understand why columbina began to distance herself from him
to play a piano is probably equivalent to cook for the people you care about the most, it's sad that only pantalone could he has his banter with
thinking if dottore ever reborn with different name, different identity where zandik truly cease to exist, we'll never know his actual birthday, we never know the reason why he was being chased by pitchforks, we'll never see the old zandik whose name scaring every single person on teyvat anymore, there'll be lots of truth buried on the ground about original zandik
to think how the name zandik made him do all of those evil things, It's devastating how he'll never have a place to exist as him, forever, unless he goes through a rebirth as someone new, someone that has wisdom and can grow like the seed of a tree
i do think rielle probably try smoking for fun, he probably does it a few times and when nathaniel caught him, he just gave rielle a raised eyebrows before plucking them away from Rielle's mouth
it's worth the try to smoke in front of him, though rielle doesn't want to do it anymore, the cold shoulder nathaniel showed him feels like a painful rejection
hundreds of revisions at work cant stop me from thinking that pantalone might have knowledge about medical practice that he got from frequently getting injuries and live a long life alongside dottore
just imagine if one day he figures which part is the most sensitive to tease—while they make love just to make dottore cum a lot resulting for him to fall asleep right after
or to learn which aphrodisiac he suddenly gifted to dottore before waiting for dottore to come over to his office with a flushed face—begging for pantalone to ruin him here and there
usually people would say, the last 7 minutes of death, your brain would replay the most meaningful memories to provide comfort over our dying situations.
Dottore replayed his favorite memories with pantalone, his most trusted partner, his only ally, their partnership
their memories together is all that comfort dottore in his final moment
surely that's not a coincidence for hyv to put their cutscenes while dottore was slowly dying, right? riight?? mmm im gonna cry
The story takes years before Peter starts to infiltrate Glory Hospital, Nathaniel and Rielle became close acquaintances after Rielle offered to help him on his experiments.
Rielle is in active self harm, painting his arms with different cuts is a routine at some point, even if he's sober after a dangerous mission as a killer or after sneaking to Glory hospital to meet Nathaniel
To feel pain after a continuous fight, to feel whatever is left after starving doesn't leave any discomfort, Rielle sat there as he begins his handiwork, his masterpiece. One cut after another, then another, the blood dropped to the floor, truly the most beautiful things he's seen today
Nathaniel opened the door to Rielle's apartment with the spare keys he got, he sat silently under his couch, the cold granite seemingly didn't affect his legs for now.
Being a doctor is one thing but for his beloved Rielle? he can't even believe that the only person he has to tend is his partner that day
his arms were full of cuts, blood splattered right to his shirts and pants, his head would bow down as he hugs himself—the sight might be alien, but not to Nathaniel.
it wasn't the first time for Nathaniel to come over to his apartment, he just hasn't calculated Rielle's behavior enough to get to this moment, the choices to tend a patient are a lot, but Rielle is his dearest one, is he not?
Shuld he comfort him first before acting like a doctor and his colleagues again? should he stay as Na Hyeon il then to make Rielle feel safe around him? He doesn't think twice about it
"Nathaniel ... it doesn't hurt" A grin came up on his face, much to the doctor's speechless state, Rielle starts to laugh on his own, exhausted voice as he looks down again.
Rielle's lips are dry as he looks up, blood smeared on his chin probably from biting—Nathaniel guessed.
The sun is still warm that day, just like how Nathaniel feels when Rielle is in his grasp. He easily lifts up Rielle to lay him down in his bed.
Minimal space for his bed and lots of room for tables that are filled with PC set ups and a small library for his books and comics collection, a bit messy for Rielle projects to look at as it was probably thrown to the floor mindlessly.
There's another cutter on his night stands, but that's not the point now, cause Rielle hasn't said anything besides those words earlier.
"Let's see, what happened to my fox today?" his lips curled upwards, as if comforting a child, his eyes soften. It's fortunate that he has an emergency gauze in his pocket, along with small antiseptic wipes that he always keep just in case.
"They almost exposed our secrets, so I took it into my own hands, but they're gone less than an hour .... so boring" The sun sets perched from the window through his eyelashes, making hid feature looks softer than he usually is.
The cuts are supposed to be cleaned with running water, but the look on Rielle's face says otherwise, he buried half of his face on the pillow instead.
He hates to use the antiseptic when he could clean the blood first—the wounds still minor as well as it'd hurt Rielle in the process, so he chose to clean it first, as it earns a groan came out of Rielle's lips.
"That's not so bad, Doctor. I'd do it again to feel that sensation forever!" Typical masochist, leaving Nathaniel sighs as he tended his arms with clean gauze.
I've noticed there's a glitch screen in nahida's trailer and it shows the irminsul that hasn't been burned
the next shot is nahida gazing at the birds that flew as if at that moment it was foreshadowing what would happen to irminsul, the glitch is probably dottore all along, mind you the mv is posted 3 years ago