A/N: some of yall liked this, so I wrote down my thoughts on these goobers. P.S. I'm AuDHD-leaning so these are based on things that I do.
Autistic!Itoshi brothers who, because their parents didn't think much of their sons' weird habits, end up with undiagnosed neurodivergences
Autistic!Rin who is surprisingly touchy. More than what you'd expect, more than what meets the eye. Fiddling with the soccer ball passes off as normal, but no one notices how often he cracks his knuckles, or plays with his nails or sleeve (loves wearing full sleeves for this reason), or how close he stands to the people he likes
Autistic!Rin who, as a kid, hung off his brother and mom like he needed them close to function well. It was a subtle body doubling, a subtle way to sate his need for touch and need for company before he could even verbalise what that hollowness in his chest was
Autistic!Rin who, obviously, chews on things. Oral fixation meets stimming. It's his favorite way of stimming. Gnawing on pencils while he solves sums, biting the inside of his cheek, buying packs of gum because he'd rather make obnoxious chewing noises than be mouthy with people. And he does get mouthy
Autistic!Rin who doesn't actually hate people. Sure, his RBF makes him look like he doesn't wanna be here, but is actually a sweetheart with a monotone. Surprisingly loves making friends—but strictly on his own terms
Autistic!Rin hates parties. Hates loud noises. He puts up with sports stadiums only because he loves the sport. If 'audience-less football' was a thing, he'd go for it, hands down
Autistic!Rin who probably stuffs cotton in his ears before matches, just to keep his head from hurting
Autistic!Rin who takes eye contact a little too.... literally....... (he got it from his brother. Sae kept telling that eye contact is polite. He forgot to mention the bit about too much contact). He ends up scaring people off, even ones he likes, so he's a little sad about that
Autistic!Rin who did that creepy-yet-awkwardly-cute thing of standing way too close to the person he likes in elementary school. I'm talking about nose touching and stuff. All in the name of "wanting to be close." Most of the times that person was Sae, but on the few times it was a classmate, they were either reduced to tears or complaining to the teacher
Autistic!Rin who craves to replicate that feeling with someone, someday
Autistic!Rin who only wears fine-thread clothes. Think leather jackets, boots, nylon sportswear. He can wear cotton just fine, but something about nylon puts him at ease. Hates silk with a passion
Autistic!Rin oddly... likes eating ice. He knows he shouldn't, it causes sore throats and blocks his lungs during practice, so he avoids eating it three days before a serious game. But on most days, he can't help but wait for his parents to leave the house before ransacking the freezer, chewing on ice cubes like they were a delicacy only he knew how to connoisseur
Autistic!Rin who is very all-or-nothing about attraction. He's either not aware of your existence or obsessively rotating you in his head 25/7. Probably has a journal specifically for the few crushes he's had in his life to vent about whatever he noticed about his person that day
Autistic!Rin definitely shows affection by being all up in his person's space. He needs to get inside your skin or it isn't love. Obsession is love, to him, and if he isn't obsessed then he's going to try harder. Would break his heart to have a touch-averse partner
Autistic!Rin who is much more aware of himself and his strangeness than he lets on. Sure, is a little difficult to believe that with his blunt words and blank expressions, but he sees his dissimilarities from the general populous clearly and chooses not to pay it mind
Autistic!Sae who did not grow up worrying about being 'off-putting' or 'weird'; as long as it's helping him get what he needs, people and resources, he can't possibly be wrong
Also, given the info in egoist bible (good at nothing but soccer), autistic!Sae may have savant syndrome. He'd be a football genius and still not know how to fold clothes without having a breakdown (no but like why is folding clothes such a nightmare????). Relies on his manager and hard money for literally everything
Autistic!Sae loves silence. It's one of the reasons he's on the fence about entering the dating scene. He's not sure if he's willing to compromise on his space and silence just yet
Autistic!Sae is more nonverbal than his brother. I think he hates the feeling of having his mouth moving, like the vibrating feeling of it irritates him, so he tries to keep his language crisp. In private settings, might even just settle for hums with differing tones and durations
Autistic!Sae who is almost touch-averse. Sure, a hug once in a while feels good, but it needs to end in 4 seconds or he feels like he'll combust. Cannot take too much skin contact. Needs to cover skin so as to prevent even accidental touches in crowded areas. Rin hates this secretly
Autistic!Sae likes to wear clothes that are softer and fluffier. Cashmere, wool, anything that won't chafe and is stretchy and breathable. He passively puts up with jersey material, gotten too used to it
Autistic!Sae definitely chases sensory pleasures. Loves eating foods and drinks with Tastes and Textures, clothes that feel nice on his skin, songs that tingle in his brain just right. His love for comedy also comes from here—it stimulates him intellectually and humorously. Which is to say he loves other kinds of sensory pleasures too.....
Autistic!Sae is more of that stereotypical "doesn't understand social cues" than his brother (like pls, man doesn't know that his little brother is having a one-sided beef with him. Cmon). He defo gets away with it + his bluntness purely by being a guy. You need to tell him things in the most straightforward, sans-slang manner possible, or he will get confused (shoutout to guy from 7th grade who confessed to me by saying some shit like "I want to C-word (confess) to you." I 'what??' his ass 3 times. You will be remembered)
Autistic!Sae who has definitely had people tell him to 'go to a psychiatrist, you might be autistic' and he might have done a quick google search late at night, but... doesn't see why he needs a diagnosis. I mean, so what if he's coming off as rude and emotionless and has uber-specific needs and preferences? It doesn't bother him (ykw, fair enough...😔😔 menace to society but making cheese)
Autistic!Sae would show his affection by.... knowing someone. For him, love means knowing someone inside out. Their routines, habits, preferences, what they dislike, why, and when are the exception cases. He might even absorb your exact lingo. Could easily imagine what you'd say, do, and think if put in xyz situation. And he expects the same from you. It'd hurt him if he ever realised his partner doesn't know him equally well
Autistic!Sae who doesn't understand typical dating rituals: the fawning, the skirting around, the teasing, but likes to play along (only if told explicitly that they're intentional acts). Even post getting into a relationship, he might not understand how jealousy equals showing his love for another (I hc him as a non-jealous person), but if asked to play along for 'your sake,' he'll entertain you. Genuinely
Autistic!Itoshi brothers for whom rejections are a nightmare. Not being chosen by a strong team, losing a match, getting a negative reaction from someone they like, or not getting due appreciation for their efforts—it feels like a tower collapsing onto their chest, and it takes some hours for them to process and move on from the hurt
Autistic!Itoshi brothers who are prone to bouts of depression. We all know Rin's episode when he got rejected by Sae, but I also hc that Sae tends to lose his appetite or sleep when he's spiralling or got any bad news. They need someone reminding and pushing them to take care of themselves to get back into regular functioning
Autistic!Itoshi brothers who'd love to teach their loved ones football. It's just that, again, no one asks—and no one shows interest in playing with them after the first impression—so they keep each other company, feeling like only they understand each other
A/N: hooooooly shit that took way too long than I expected!! We know so little about Sae as a person that I was drawing blanks for him😭😭 how do people write for characters like Bunny or Hugo is beyond me.
This was kinda cathartic for me, seeing my faves in things that I do so regularly. Ahhhhhh. I was also thinking that these are more of the outwardly observable signs, but there would be so many other things (ways of thinking, feeling, perceiving) that I haven't covered in this one. Should I cover those too? I might do an interview type format for that. Lemme know if yall would be interested in that. Love you!💕
BLLK FF oneshot idea and its just pure fluff and Crack and sae/shidou and sae & rin (they have a good relationship) and rin & shidou who are constantly bickering and fighting and sae just sits there and looks at them and for him rin&shidou fighting is very heartwarming and sae is very happy, because the two most important people in his live (his bf and his baby brother) are "getting along"
So basically the entire fic is sae shidou rin spending time together and yeah it goes how you'd expect with rin&shidou ig :P
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