Now please, hear what I hear.

ray

[rayd0t]

fin.

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[oditorie]

[pphox]

[vexheart]

[nixscriptum]

[obscurix]

please don’t get attached to me i’m going to kill myself one day

[askyea-poesy]

These poems they are things that I do in the dark reaching for you whoever you are.

June Jordan

[old-school-romantics]

In the most selfish way possible, i hope no one admires you the way l do

[quotespile]

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up.”

— Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum

[angeldevil11]

[rayd0t]

Different feelings today.

I’m inching closer to the edge and I’m running out of room.

Maybe this time I won’t be alright.

I can feel my health declining.

I guess this is what I want anyways right?

Whatever it takes to speed up the process.

I’m getting closer to free fall but at least it’ll be a fun descent.

I feel like I’m in control now.

09/19/2025

[kosmogrl]

[ruhaniya]

I just want to disappear until no one remembers me.

[seaphine]

[vexheart]

[rayd0t]

I remember the peace I got when I would lie next to you. I listened to the beat of your heart and thought, "This love is true." We would close our eyes and fall asleep in each other's arms. During the cold season, all I wanted was to keep you warm.

I just want to feel you, darling. For every time I do, I forget the world exists. We were just two lovers caught in the wind. Two souls that were intertwined. The love we shared grew so much over time.

It's almost the end of summer. The weather will start to get cooler. However, I won't be the one keeping you warm this year. I read that line again, and it pains me to hear.

I don't want anyone else.

How do I say I miss you that'll make your heart ache like mine? How do I say I still love you in hopes that you'll feel the same? How can I sit here crying for hours every night about these thoughts when you know you've moved on? How can I make things whole again? How can I feel your love again?

Maybe there is no way. Maybe you really are gone. If so, then I hope I reach the end soon. This winter will be brutal, and I don't think I'll make it. Maybe I just don't have the will to try. The light can fade quickly in someone who no longer believes they matter. I don't see the light anymore.