“Dolly is here.”

i'm spiritually connected with batman, but we keep our friendship private

[nikoisme]

scrapped painting,, thought i might as well post it

[fairylightsupapplepine]

Daz-bi?

[reading-stains]

this is so fucking cute 😭

[reading-stains]

new coping strategy just dropped. if your friend is dead, the fic is an angsty one-shot with an ambiguous ending. if your friend is alive, it's a two-chapter hurt/comfort with happy ending.

[cloudabserk]

it wants to be close to me. probably because it is so cold and soft & it knows i am strong and warm

[reading-stains]

i reblogged john green without realizing i was reblogging john green and i've just had the mortifying realization i was the only person that reblogged with a comment instead of a tag edit: guys nvm, it was a trick of the light (i reloaded my screen). as everyone always says about social change, if you're the second person, it doesn't really count in the innovation score board. wdym that undermines the understanding of social progress—

[sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog]

oh wait just realized i can edit my own posts.

like you can't edit reblogs anymore but you can still edit your own post even after it has a thousand notes or whatever.

[sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog]

i have the opportunity to do the funniest thing.

[reading-stains]

you threaten yet you lay still.

[somepomegranatetea]

she's platonic about it but in my opinion, stratt 100% treats grace as her dead wife. she keeps a tacky fox trinket in her coat pocket. there's a framed photo of him in her study . he's grinning goofily in it (bc he's a dork). new guy like: is that her husband? / no, dumbass, it's dr. ryland grace, 1/3 of the hail mary mission. / oh, fuck. were they... ? / yeah, it's unclear. black-and-white montages of grace messing around in high-level meetings play every time stratt contemplates committing more environmental crimes. she looks up at the night sky and vaguely wonders if he's enjoying his space ramen. that's her dead wife. she killed him.

[overthinkingmoth]

i hope you all know me as your dear mutual dragonfucker moth

[orange-sora]

Depends... Have you successfully fucked a dragon or is that still wishful thinking?

[overthinkingmoth]

i will have lesbian sex with a dragon before 2027.

[reading-stains]

taking notes on this as we speak

[ilovelyan]

guys I really need angsty soukoku fic recs give me the slowest burn like I need it so bad you don't get it Omg why are you ignoring this wtf Girl whatver I don't even need it that bad

[reading-stains]

Okay listen. I’m guessing you’ve already read IWSYNTTR, so here’s the deep cut.

On Deathless Feet by AbsoluteNegation

Synopsis: Chuuya always knows the monster can get out of control, but it doesn’t get any less surprising when Arahabaki powers through him. For a while though, it’d been comforting to know Dazai could always reign it in, make it go quiet. Because he did when they recently met, when they rose through the ranks, and at the brink of their end. But after years of disconnection, and the consistent waves of betrayal, is Chuuya capable of trusting him? And is Dazai capable of letting him?

Tags: Caretaking, Controlling Arahabaki, Port Mafia, Post-Port Mafia, Mistrust, Non-Linear Storytelling

Word Count: 71,848

Note: Don’t know if the right word is slow burn, but the resolution takes the entire fic to happen.

music for our funeral by itotypes

Synopsis: Dazai has always been lost on what exactly he wants to be. Chuuya knows exactly what he wants. Working with such incredible differences proves to be a difficult challenge, ending in at least a little bit of violence multiple times, but they make it work. Because their music sounds beautiful. Because they’re better geniuses beside the other. And maybe because once it started, they can’t seem to process this journey can ever end.

Tags: No Smut, Angst, 70s, Musicians!AU, Drug Abuse, References to Child Neglect, Lowkey Pretty Violent, Emotional Cheating (w/ Main Ship)

Word Count: 67,723

Note: I don’t remember this fic, but I remember how I felt. The daze took multiple days to leave me. A lot later, I met the author somewhere online and remember thinking they were super nice. So. Go support!!

I’ll crown your inner child with laurel by acuteguwu

Synopsis: Chuuya has worked in a Michelin Star restaurant. So he really has no place in losing this cooking competition. But a sudden newcomer, who seemingly has no previous experience in the field, seems to want to tell him his bechamel sauce isn’t ready. And really, who does he think he is?

Tags: Chef Competition AU, Character Study, Slow Burn, Chuuya Is A Blunt Perfectionist, Dazai Is A Culinary Genius

Words: 197,090

Notes: Perfect fic.

i'll bleed out for you by StarshipDancer

Synopsis: After getting impaled together, basically dying in each other's arms in a joint mission with the Port Mafia and the ADA, and getting brought back by Yosano, this shattered Soukoku is asked to go into hiding. In this time, things seem to start healing. But the impending call asking them to return to their positions in their groups haunts them, and when it arrives, things fall apart all over again.

Tags: Caretaking, PTSD, A Singularly Important Rat Is Present, Canon-Divergence, Post-Port Mafia Days, Love Confession, Pet Co-Parenting, Angst

Word Count: 71,848

Notes: Rattata is the best character. I remember reading this fanfic between the airport and my flight, and when chapter four ended, I had to board the plane, with my shaking hands and quiet sniffles. Please read this one.

Easy in Theory by the_most_happy

Synopsis: Chuuya is genuinely confused on how they got here. Meanwhile, Dazai didn’t mean to start fake-dating his childhood-best-friend-turned-stranger-turned-roommate’s sister, but here he is, and he’s paying a high toll for it. It’s complicated to lie. It’s also even more complicated when tension keeps building into a yearning that neither seem to be able to tame.

Word Count: 126,736

Tags: Smut, Angst, Childhood Friends!Soukoku, No Powers AU, Self-Harm, Funny Start, Joyful End, Really Fucking Sad Middle

Notes: This is a really rough conversation about really difficult things, but it also has such wonderful moments, and great shows of yk, love. I liked it a lot. Please check tags before reading. Anyway, this was the fic that introduced me to the author and I am forever in love, they’re my favorite, everything they did was genius. I don’t know if you can call this slow burn, but it gets really painful.

Amphisbaena by wheat_bus

Synopsis: Chuuya’s come to kill him. For once, Dazai doesn’t know what’s led him here. He’s in his work office, the ADA is on a normal day, and it’s this Tuesday that finds Chuuya Nakahara moving and looking like he’s ready to kill him. He has a red scarf drenched in blood that doesn’t seem his, and there’s grief sinking even into the mafioso’s breath. He seems so prepared to take Dazai's life as he steps toward him. It makes him wonder what this means. Makes him ask who led him to this.

Word Count: 36,612

Tags: Beast!AU, Regular BSD, Two Chuuyas, Angst, Bittersweet (In A Good Sense) Ending, Kidnapping, Possessive Chuuya (Both Of Them Ngl)

Notes: I read this on my friend’s bed in the morning after a sleepover, and we were going to keep watching the Fifteen arc and I kept being like “one more chapter” until I finished an hour later. The fanfic is a really quick read, so I definitely recommend it. It’s genuinely very effective in its storytelling, and I was worried about how they resolved it, but I felt very fulfilled by it. It was a pretty damn good interpretation of Beast!Chuuya.

Honorable mentions:

A Lesson in Thorns and Finding North by arkastadt

breaking point by dandelionclouds

When I Awake by wildflowertea

[overthinkingmoth]

the thing about mxtx novels is that they demonstrate both a significant degree of authorial misogyny and a better understanding of feminist theory than the average Tumblr user

[overthinkingmoth]

ok i feel like i should explain what this means.

on the one hand it is clear from her work that she understands how patriarchy and similar systems of power and oppression (notably classism) work, as well as an understanding of Why They Are Bad that goes beyond the typical "girlboss" or "men bad" forms of feminism.

on the other hand she does not give a single fuck about her female characters.

[mikkeneko]

#every woman she writes has depth and internality and a relationship to the society she lives in#and it's really impressive how she manages to do this while allergic to having a woman present for longer than 3 pages at a time#like damn miss moxiang this character was very compelling for the 5 lines of dialogue she was allowed to have. how do you do it? - via @lgbtlunaverse

[reading-stains]

facts and facts. her novels draw back on the curtain of social hierarchy while simultaneously glossing over every woman for the arc of a man.

[almondcroissantsandink]

I've seen this with Stratt and Grace but not Grace and Rocky lol

[clacy2812]

Teethies <3

[atomikats]

my personal take on the matter

[genderfluid-druid]

[ID: A comic of Grace at a table with the Hail Mary astronauts. Shapiro, with her arm around Dubois, asks, "You're sure you and Stratt aren't a thing."

"Absolutely positive," says Grace.

"You've never even kissed?"

"Nuh uh. Nope."

Dubois joins in, saying, "But if she asked you to... say... get your arm surgically attached to hers. Would you?"

"...huh???" says Grace, raising an eyebrow.

"Well, would you?" asks Yao.

Grace looks thoughtful. "Like. I mean. If it was pertinent to the mission, then..."

"Never mind," says Ilyukhina. "Something much more concerning than sex is going on here." End ID]

[appei]

Love language public displays of affection but also no homo...

Extra Boomerang warming on the 🔞 Patreon!

[arctvros]

gettin’ handsy

[gaangsta]

[reading-stains]

sometimes I look at what I say and I look at how I feel and I look at what I’ve lived, and suddenly it strikes me that despite appearances, I’m only 20 years old