âWhereâd Jay go?â Aryn asked me as I was headed to the front door to go down to the lobby and sign Nas in.
âFuck him,â I responded venomously rolling my eyes at the thought of him. I was seriously done with trying to be anything to him. Forget being friends. There was no way in hell I was going to get over how disrespectful he was being to me.Â
âChill on my mans Koko!â Ryan butted in
âLike I said fuck him. Tell your mans he can kiss my ass,â I spat grabbing the door knob
âWhere you going?â Aryn inquired
âTo sign my friend in real quick.â
âYou know you ainât go no friends but us,â Ryan said cracking on me but little did he know
âYeah ok. Weâll see,â I said then smirked at him leaving out the door.
âTook you long enough shawty,â Nas said to me as I stepped off of the elevator. He looked better than I remembered last night. His curly hair coiled perfectly on top of his head as his body clad some Nike Tech shorts, a Nike Air t-shirt and some Huaracheâs. I digged his whole lil swag and the dimples to match added bonus points.
âMy bad my roommate was talking to me,â I told him approaching the help desk. The student workers who staffed the desk looked up between the two of us as if they were taking mental notes.
âGive me a hug shawty I ainât seen you since last night,â he said smiling pulling me into him. As my arms wrapped around his body, I took in the scent of his Dolce & Gabanna Light Blue cologne. I knew that smell anywhere. It was one of my favorites for a guy to wear. âWhat you looking at?â He asked peering down at me staring at him because of his literal perfection. I donât know whatâs coming over me but itâs like Iâm star struck. Maybe itâs love at first sight?
âLet me hurry up and sign you in,â I said letting go nervously chuckling at myself and ignoring his question. I needed to snap the fuck out of it!
âHi Iâm trying to sign him in,â I told the girl at the desk
âI need both of your IDs,â she said eyeballing Nas. Mugging my face up at her I tapped my ID on the counter to break her attention away from him.
âUm here you go,â I said with a hint of attitude. As Nas reached his hand out to give her his ID I intervened taking it from him and handing it to her myself. Was this bitch crazy trying to flirt with him while I was standing right here? No ma'am I wasnât having it. Nas snickered to himself I guess realizing what just happened. I looked at him and shook my head making him laugh even more.
âHereâs your pass sir. Have a good day,â she said handing it to Nas but I took it out of her hand for him. We had a stare down before she handed me both of the IDs back and we made our way onto the elevator. She had me twisted and if she thought I was going to allow her to interact with Nas after how thirsty she looked staring at him. Yeah I stared too but heâs potential bae so I can do that SHE CANT!
âYou something else shawty,â Nas said then died laughing at me
âItâs not funny!â I said. âThat bitch tried it. You seen the way she was looking at you? Fuck out of here.â
âHow was she looking at me?â
âAll like this,â I told him then mocked the thirsty up and down look that she was giving him
âNah I missed that,â he said cracking up
âI donât know how. It was so thirsty. Donât know why she tried that while I was there. Nope shut that ass down,â I said. The elevator chimed that we were on my floor.
âWhy canât she look at me?â Nas asked stepping off behind me
âNasir,â I said stopping and giving him that look and he fell out laughing at me causing me to laugh too. He was so goofy!
âIâm just messing with you shawty,â he said putting his arm over my shoulder as I started to walk again making our way to my suite
âGotta let these bitches know,â I said laughing. He just pulled me in closer as we continued our walk down the long hallway. âOk so my roommate and her friend are right here in the living room. You wanna sit out here or be alone?â I asked him as we stood in front of my door.
âIt doesnât matter to me. This your crib Iâm down with whatever you decide.â
âUgh I donât know. I guess we can chill with them for a little while,â I told him unlocking the door. When I opened the door both Aryn and Ryanâs head snapped into our direction. Their eyes widened and Ryan started to cough up a storm. I closed the door with Nas behind me. âHey y'all this is Nas. Nas this is my roommate/twin Aryn and her friend Ryan,â I said introducing everyone
âAre you okay?â Aryn said to Ryan who was still choking on air like the asshole he is. Ryan replied by shaking his head up and down as he pulled himself together. âHi nice to meet you,â she said getting up to give him a hug.
âI remember you from last night. You was done for,â Nas told her laughing
âOh my gosh you were there?â Aryn said covering her face in embarrassment
âYeah I was. Itâs all good tho. Whatâs good bruh? You straight?â Nas said reaching his hand out to Ryan. Ryan was a little hesitant at first but got up to dap him up
âAinât shit fool and yeah Iâm good,â Ryan responded shaking his hand after clearing his throat. Ryan gave me the most serious side eye that Iâve ever seen him make. He was always on joke time but right now I could tell that he felt some type of way about me bringing Nas up here. It was my mission to avoid any type of eye contact with him.
âWell weâre going to leave the two of you alone. Aryn tell me when you ready to start cooking.â
âI will,â she responded and I led Nas to my room shutting the door behind us
âThat was awkward,â Nas said standing in the middle of my floor not knowing what to do with himself.
âHow?â I said sitting my things on the dresser
âWhy dude act like he ainât want to dap me up? Is there something I donât know?â
âNah. I donât know why he did that,â I lied. âYou can sit wherever you want instead of standing there,â I told him switching the subject
âOn my bed,â I said jumping up on it. I was too short for it so I always had to jump first to get on.
âShort ass,â Nas said laughing. He took off his shoes then got onto my bed laying his head on my chest. We both were silent adjusting to being around each other. I mean we just met last night and here we are chilling together in my bed already. The silence wasnât awkward tho thanks to the Martin re-run that was playing on my TV.
âYou gonna stay over for spaghetti night?â I asked him once a commercial came onÂ
âCan you cook?â He asked looking up at me
âI know how to make spaghetti,â I said laughing
âThat wasnât the question,â he smirked. âI asked you if you know how to cook not make spaghetti.â
âFixing spaghetti is cooking right?â
âSpaghetti is easy tho.â
âCooking is cooking Nasir no matter the difficulty.â
âYou got it,â he said chuckling. âBut I got stroll practice around 9 for a performance we have coming up this weekend so I canât stay. I just wanted to chill with you while I had some free time in my schedule. Usually Iâm a busy man.â
âYeah right. Busy doing what?â I teased
âTaking care of my business baby girl!â
âYeah yeah I hear you Nas,â I replied and he gently mushed me making me smile. âSo where you performing at?â
âItâs a welcome back pep rally in the arena this Friday. All the Greeks are going to be strolling. They gonna be introducing the basketball team and stuff like that. Basically itâs for the new students to get familiar with the organizations on campus,â Nas explained. âYou coming?â
âThis my first time hearing anything about it. If my roommates are down Iâll be there.â
âEven if they arenât you rolling with me,â he said then bit down on his bottom lip
âOh really? Iâm cool enough to be seen rolling around campus with Mr. Big Shit,â I said laughing
âI ainât nobody girl,â he said laughing being humble. âAnd even if I was Iâd be proud to wear you on my arm as my trophy piece.â
âYou speaking real highly of me right now.â
âHow can I not? Look at youâŠyouâre gorgeous,â he spoke then licked his lips making me shy away and blush. âDonât turn your head pretty girl,â he said gently touching my chin turning my face back towards him. Â
âItâs just you seem to know all the right words to say and I canât help but feel like youâre running game on me,â I confessed
âYou think I say that to every girl I come in contact with?â He asked letting go of my chin looking me dead in my eyes
âNot every girl,â I said stumbling over my words. âBut maybe some. It comes too natural out of your mouth. Iâve heard sweet talking my whole life so I canât help but to pick up on it.â
âDakota listenâŠâ he said sitting up. âA lot of girls throw themselves at me and get at me based on what I look like but itâs very rare that Iâm the one in pursuit. This situation with you and meâŠI came at you, which I donât do. You want to know why I donât go at girls?â
âBecause I donât have to. Some of the baddest bitches throw pussy my way so I never have to go out searching for it but thatâs all they will ever be to me is bad bitches. I donât spend quality time with them or tell them that theyâre gorgeous. I might say a little something here and there to get them out of their pants but I donât really mean that shit Dakota. I just be trying to hit,â he said shrugging
âNas I really donât understand how this is supposed to make me like you or understand you any more than I already do if anything itâs making me question your intentions more,â I said confused by his rant. How the hell is telling me you get all of this pussy thrown in your lap supposed to make me feel comfortable?Â
âIâm saying all of this to say I donât look at you in the same way that I look at these other bitches. All they are and all they will ever be to me are exactly what I called themâŠbitches. I would never refer to you as one of my bitches. When I saw you from across the room you caught my attention so I knew I had to get at you. Iâm pursuing you not the other way around which makes our situation a whole different ball game.â
âWhenâs the last time you pursued a girl?â
âI really couldnât tell you honestly. Itâs been a while maybe high school.â
âSo you havenât been serious about a girl since high school?â I inquired
âYeah. Most of those bitches werenât worth the energy. Nobody could hold my attention long enough to bring that out of me.â
âWhatâs so different about me?â
âI donât know but Iâm going to find out. Thereâs something about you shawty that Iâm fucking with,â he finished licking his lips. âWhat you thinking about?â
âCome on speak your mind. I just gave you an ear full I want to know what you think. You still skeptical about if Iâm being genuine with you or not?â
âKind of. You just met me last night so it seems kind of fast that you can say Iâm different from the rest when in all honesty you donât even know me. You know what funny?â I asked rhetorically. âThis morning I was raving to my friends about how dope I thought you were last night and they were saying the same thing to me about it being early and how I didnât know you but here I am saying it to you. I get where theyâre coming from now. Itâs not realistic Nas.â
âWho is to define our reality Dakota? If we both say that we fucking with each other and could feel a different type of vibe who is there to tell us what weâre feeling isnât true?â
âOnly we could define that.â
âExactly. And it seems like both of us had the same idea of each other after just one night.â
âWe did but-â I started but was cut off
âThere arenât any buts. Stop making excuses for how you feel.â
âLook Nas. I think youâre a cool person so far and I can see myself kicking it with you but I donât want to rush things.â
âSo you checking that girl downstairs for flirting with me wasnât rushing things?â
âI wouldnât consider it rushing just demanding respect. Nobody gonna flirt with my nigga while Iâm standing there.â
âThe magic word in that sentence was âmy niggaâ you claiming me already but donât want to rush things? I donât get you Dakota. If we not rushing things then itâs not gonna be any of that. If we just kicking it then weâre both liable to still do us until we decide together that we want to be exclusive,â he said
âNas I like you but I need time. There are a couple of cloudy situations in my life that I need to get cleared out before I can be fully dedicated to you,â I told him
âOk and until then weâre both free agents,â he said laying his head back onto my chest focusing his attention back on Martin
âNas,â I called out to him but he ignored me. I could tell he was in his feelings about our conversation but even tho I really liked what Iâve seen so far I canât be all into him after only knowing him for less than 24 hours. Iâm surprised that heâs actually down for it from the way he supposedly had all these girls on his dick. Thatâs something else that I would have to worry about. At this pep rally on Friday I was going to see how he treated me in front of other females and just how much they be on him because I canât deal with another guy getting all of that attention again. Itâs too much of a headache and I couldnât beat bitches up here. âCan you look at me please?â
âWassup?â he spoke turning his head to look up at me
âGive me time ok? Meanwhile, I donât want you to do your own thing because itâs just going to run me away. I promise Iâll be worth the wait,â I said smiling at him causing him to expose his perfect set Â
âI know you will,â he smirked then looked back up into my eyes. âWhat would you do if I just kissed you right now?â he suddenly asked
âHuh?â I said thrown off
âUh I donât-â I began to speak but was cut off by his plump lips crashing into mine. I closed my eyes and let my body take over my mind as Nas adjusted his body on top of me. The kiss deepened as our tongues ran laps around each other and my chest heaved up and down. I was breathless but loved every second of it.
âI want you and I donât care what it takes to have you,â Nas spoke out of breath as he began rubbing his hands on my ass under the t-shirt dress I was wearing. Wanting more I pulled his head down kissing, biting and sucking on his bottom lip making it quiver under my touch. Heating up the kiss, I ran my soft hands under the brim of his Nike shirt feeling all over his chiseled abs instantly being turned on. I wonât lie I wanted to feel him more than I was but it was too soon and I couldnât be like the rest of the bitches he told me about.
âNas I canât,â I said breaking the kiss taking in all of the oxygen that I could. He on the other hand kept going kissing, sucking and licking my neck in all the right spots causing my back to arch as I bit down hard on my bottom lip. Nasâ hands snaked all the way up my dress as he caressed one of my breasts making me moan out when his fingers came in contact with my bare nipple. There was a tsunami brewing between my legs and I could fell him hardening on my inner thigh through his shorts. âNas,â I said moaning out his name again. This really needed to end before it went to far and I regretted it.
âYou want me to stop?â Nas asked running his tongue across my neck then sucking it as his hand that once held my breast simultaneously slid down into the hem of my underwear
âAs much as I want toâŠnot right now,â I said to him removing his hands before they came in contact with my pearl
âYou sure shawty?â he asked pecking my lips as I tried to control my hormones and not let them take over my conscious mind.
âNo,â I responded chuckling. âBut we canât. Remember I told you Iâll be worth the wait?â
âYeah,â he said licking his lips
âThen wait on it,â I said kissing him around rolling over on top of him
âNah get off of me shawty. With your teasing ass,â he said laughing as he tickled me
âStoppp!â I whined laughing trying to get him to stop
âAye did I leave my-â he barged in the room but stopped in his tracks when he seen me straddling Nas. Our eyes connected and I could see the look of disappointment wash across his face. We just had a big argument not even two hours ago and here I was sitting on top of another guy. His eyes switched between me and Nasâ faces as I could see his mind working overtime putting the pieces of the puzzle together.
âI tried to tell him not to come in here but he wouldnât listen,â Aryn said trying to pull on his arm so he could leave my room but his feet were cemented in the spot he stood.
âJay come on bruh,â Ryan said touching his shoulder. I could feel Nas eyes beaming a hole through the side of my face but I wouldnât dare turn to look at him. I couldnât seem to fix my eyes from Jaylen who stood there in complete agony wondering what the hell I was doing.
âFind my ID and bring it to class tomorrow,â he spat at me in the driest tone of voice Iâve ever heard come from him. Before I could respond he walked out slamming my bedroom door leaving Nas and I in the most uncomfortable position. Â
âThat did not just happen,â I said to myself getting off of Nas and my bed. âThat shit did not just fucking happen!â I said louder and I paced back and forth my floor
âYou got something you want to tell me? Thatâs your nigga?â
âNo. No, heâs not my nigga but weâre friends. Really good friends and I think I just ruined everything,â I said holding my head stressed out as to what my next move was going to be
âIf heâs just your friend then whatâs ruined? I donât get it,â Nas pressed me out
âNas he is just my damn friend,â I said irritated
âOhhhh he must be one of those cloudy situations you need to clear up that you mentioned, huh?â Nas said bitterly. âYou talking about me not dealing with other chicks when you got a whole ass nigga on the side busting up in your room like he fucking lives here,â Nas spoke raising his voice at me.
âNas! It is not like that just calm down and let me explain,â I pleaded as he got off my bed and started to put his shoes on
âLooks like he needs more explaining than I do. Like I told you earlier weâre both liable to do us until we call it exclusive,â he spat
âPlease donât do this right now. Iâm sorry!â
âI got places to be shawty. Iâll holla at you later,â Nas said kissing me on my forehead then walking out of my room
âFuckkk!â I yelled throwing my notebook at the wall. I watched as all of the papers scattered along my bedroom floor just like the pieces of my life that needed to be put back together
âYo you good?â Aryn asked coming into my room
âAre you fucking serious right now Aryn!? Why would you let him into the house when you KNEW that I had him in here!? That makes no sense to me!â I yelled at her
âFirst of all, you need to ask what happened besides assuming shit! I wasnât the one who opened the door. Venus was on her way out when he knocked so she answered it. When he tried to go to your room Ryan and I both was telling him you was sleep and shit so he wouldnât go open your door but he didnât care. I even tried to hold a conversation with him long enough to text you but that didnât work.â
âI didnât receive no damn text message,â I said smacking my teeth
âHave you even looked at your phone?â she asked and I rolled my eyes grabbing it off of my dresser. âRight. So donât tell me I let the shit happen,â she spat walking away from my door. I unlocked my phone to read the message.
JAYLEN IS ABOUT TO WALK IN! HIDE HIM!
After I read the two messages and cursed under my breath at her trying to warn me but I was too caught up in the moment to even notice that my phone had vibrated. The one thought that continuously keeps running through my mind right now is what if he had walked in a couple of minutes sooner. He wouldâve seen a whole lot more than he bargained for.
âAryn Iâm sorry for blaming you. Iâm just frustrated and donât know what to do,â I said walking into the common room as she began to take out pots to make the spaghetti. âDo you hear me?â I said because she ignored meÂ
âYeah I hear you Dakota but you gotta freeze up on that attitude shit because you already know Iâm on your side and I would never purposely let Jaylen walk in on you and ole boy. You know this!âÂ
âI know and I said Iâm sorry Aryn! Itâs just a lot running through my mind right now. What do you want me to do?â
âYou can start by cutting up this green pepper for me,â she said handing me it and a knife.
âI donât think itâs safe for me to use a knife right now with my nerves. I might kill myself,â I pouted sitting it down on the counter
âYouâre really hurt right now?â Aryn said appalled
âYes! Thatâs not how you find out some shit. That was so foul,â I said shaking my head
âBut I thought you didnât like Jaylen,â Aryn said putting down the food and focusing her attention on me. I crossed my arms over my chest and raised my head in the air to keep the burning sensation behind my eyes from coming out. âAw Dakota donât cry.â
âI donât know Aryn,â I said with my voice cracking. âWhy is this happening to me? I meet two dope people and then this happens? When is it going to be my turn to be happy?â I cried
âBaby girl itâs okay to have options. Whatâs meant for you will always be for youâŠremember that. Happiness is a choice that no one can take away from you. Not even two fine ass niggas,â she said the last part making me giggle a little
âThank you,â I sniffed
âFor what?â she said preparing the food
âJust for being here for me and my dumb ass decisions.â
âYour decisions arenât dumb Kody. Youâre just young and have your options open. As long as youâre single there is nothing wrong with that. Neither of them negroes put a ring on it so you can do whatever the hell you want. Okay!â
âOkay,â I said wiping my face ridding it of the few tears that dropped
âNow what were you doing straddling Nasty Nas? I need details!â
âBye nosey!â I said laughing walking away to clean the mess I made in my room
âWait you better come help me make this spaghetti!â
âIâll be back!â I said laughing going into my room. Although my spirits seem to be lifted my mind was still running a mile a minute. How was I going to get myself out of this predicament?