Kyu Honey

[realkyuhoney]

Still so proud of this... 🥺

SasuNaru ASMR.

Written by me. Performed by Yuri Lowenthal.

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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Naruto…

Are you… already asleep?

Heh… Of course you are. It's been a long and exhausting mission. Feels like we’ve had a lot of these lately.

You know, despite everything that’s happened. I bet you’ve never experienced a bad night’s sleep a day in your life. But… you’ve always been that way, haven’t you? Even when we’ve had to sleep outside on the ground like this.

You’re fierce and you’re determined and you protect the people that you love and you love the people you should hate. I suppose there’s nothing to keep you awake. You’ve always had this innate ability to just know that everything’s going to turn out alright. You just…

*Sasuke chuckles softly at what he’s about to say*

Believe it… You always have and you make others believe with you. Or you beat them down until they do.

I, on the other hand, am riddled with regret… and… if I’m being completely honest. Fear.

My past haunts me to no end and I fear I may have ruined the future. I’m terrified of losing the people I love. I’m terrified that, no matter how powerful I may have become, that I’ll never be able to protect them. But the thing I’m most afraid of… is me. I’ve spent most of my life alone and I’m still terrified of making the wrong choices. I’m afraid that I’ve ruined any chance at any kind of relationship with my daughter. I still struggle to even think of myself as a father. Because I haven’t been.

I’m glad she has you, Naruto. I’m glad they all do.

I’m no longer… angry… all the time. And I’m still learning how to express any other emotion. I feel them… I just *sigh* I don’t know how to shut off my indifference. I’m not indifferent. I care. Deeply. Maybe too deeply…

I suppose I’m much like Kakashi in that respect. But maybe he’s braver than I am. Maybe I’m just such a coward that I won’t ever be able to truly let go of that darkness. It’s like a comforting blanket that I can never let go of, even though it’s cold and it's wet, I still cling to it. How did he let go of all of that? How did you? And what’s so wrong with me that I can’t? Especially with all of the good things I have in my life. I’m surrounded by beauty. So why am I still like this?...

All those times you came after me and I just ran away... I don’t know if I would’ve ever done that for you had our roles been reversed. I’m not sure I’d do it now… I’d want to. But something dark would stop me. It would tell me to give you your space. It would tell me to let you have your revenge. Let you be angry. Let your hatred consume you so that you can be stronger for it. I would want to help you, but I don’t have the light for that. I’ll never be like you. But you make me want to try.

I’m sorry for fighting with you. That time on the roof… I was such a petulant little brat. Throwing a tantrum, because I’d always thought of myself as some kind of prodigy, I put myself so high above you, but I wasn’t and it drove me crazy. I don’t know why I did. And it’s not true that I only spared your life on a whim. I was just trying to sound detached and… well, maybe a little cool. I never wanted to kill you. I never even wanted to hurt you. I just knew that you wouldn’t let me go if I didn’t. One of us was going to end up in the hospital after that fight. I couldn’t let it be me… And then that fight after the war. *soft chuckle* We were both a bit foolish that day. But you know, you already had my respect. I just… I wanted to make sure that I had yours too. I wanted you to see that my time away from the village wasn’t a complete waste.

Though, looking back now… of course… I no longer believe that. I should’ve let love guide and motivate me.

Not hatred.

You were the first light in my life. Even though I kept trying to shut you off. I tried so hard to blow your flame out, but you’d just light it again. And then you’d make it bigger. And everytime I’d get more and more angry, furious. You’d match my darkness with your light until finally… I couldn’t extinguish your fire. Everything suddenly stopped feeling so cold and empty. It was like… I looked up one day and finally saw how full my heart was and the warmth just… washed over me.

You pulled me from my darkness even when I didn’t want you to. I’m not sure where I’d be if you hadn’t. Probably trying to burn the world to the ground.

I would love to just put my past behind me entirely and be the person I want to be. Not just for me, but for Sakura and Sarada. Even for you and Kakashi. Say thank you. Say I’m sorry.

Say… I love you…

I can’t be too sure, it’s all still so unfamiliar and new to me, but I’d like to think that I am motivated by love and light now.

And… well… I know you’re asleep, but I guess all I mean to say is. Thanks.

Loser… (said affectionately)

[thatsprettylane]

Kakagai + Assorted Text Posts (Part 5)

[aleksandracoffan]

A gift for my good friend! Shikamaru in your hands

[realkyuhoney]

HAIR DOWN SHIKAMARU BECAUSE WE NEED THIS!!! And the smirk!!! HAIR! DOWN!!! And! The! Smirk! 🫶

[realkyuhoney]

Shikamaru 🤗🫶

[retroflexs]

Naruto: Now that I'm the hokage I can access the archived personnel records and see Kakashi sensei's face!

*opens the file*

*the photo is cut in half and the lower part is missing*

Naruto: You've gotta be kidding me-

10 years prior

Kakashi: Now that I'm the hokage-

[frog-thief]

baby Naruto, baby Kakashi and baby Gai

٩(๑･ิᴗ･ิ)۶٩(･ิᴗ･ิ๑)۶

[realkyuhoney]

Kakashi 🥹 and Kakashi 🥵

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Might as well plug some of my fics with my art! 🤗

[realkyuhoney]

Barely Holding On to You

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"I'm fallin' apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating..."

Sasuke is heartbroken and can't sleep after Naruto breaks up with him. So he takes this time to reflect.

Based on a meme and heavily influenced by the song Broken by Lifehouse because it was on repeat while I wrote this.

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"If you take one more step, Naruto, that's it. This is the end."

Sasuke opened his eyes and stared at the broken clock on the wall. Somehow the lack of ticking was helping him sleep, but then he'd hear the words again and wake up. Why? Why had he said it?

"Sasuke, I'm breaking up with you."

The words wouldn't stop echoing through his memory. Yet, he still couldn't believe it had happened.

"Yeah, right."

He'd been so smug… Of course he had been. He always was when it came to Naruto. When they were kids and he thought he was the better ninja, more advanced in every way. And then even as they grew, he still behaved as though Naruto would never catch up to him. And then when he realized that he loved him and Naruto kissed him. Even then, he considered his time more valuable than Naruto’s. Always showing up late to their dates. Always leaving when he felt like it, finding pleasure in the way Naruto would pout and say that he wasn't ready for Sasuke to go.

He liked making Naruto beg for his attention. He didn't know why.

He loved Naruto so much, but he couldn't stop pretending as though he didn't.

"I can't keep letting you do this to me. I'm sorry."

Even then, he was waiting for Naruto to start laughing and say that he was joking. He stood there smirking at him, waiting for a playful kiss. But Naruto cried instead.

Soft. Heartbroken. Full of sorrow as he turned away from him.

"Naruto…"

In that moment, the look in his eyes had completely broken Sasuke. He wanted so much to run to him and scoop him up and pepper his beautiful face with the softest kisses. Apologize genuinely and profusely. Beg for his forgiveness and ask how he can do better.

But then his pride took over and stopped him. Changed him from regretful to offended. And all he could think was how dare he? Naruto, break up with him? Naruto?! With his big blue eyes and cute little whiskers… That… warm, tanned skin and perfectly toned body…

He couldn't bear the thought. He didn't want to lose him, but he couldn't make himself do the thing he had originally wanted to do. So instead of softening his facial expression and falling to his knees, he scowled. He balled his fists and clenched his jaw as he stared at Naruto’s back moving farther away from him. And he yelled after him.

"You think I care? I never really loved you, you know that?"

He had been so sure Naruto would turn around and look at him angrily. That he'd march over to him and call him a jerk, inches from his face. And then he'd be putty in Sasuke's hands again. Sasuke had every intention of telling him that he knew he'd never go through with it. Never quit Sasuke… but… he didn't look at him. He didn't even stop.

Even then, he'd wanted to soften. He'd wanted to reach out and say something, anything other than what he was saying. Please. I'm sorry, Naruto. But he couldn't do it. His mind and his body betrayed what was in his heart. And he couldn't stop himself from reacting.

"If you take one more step, Naruto, that's it. This is the end."

Tears were streaming down his face, but his voice refused to show even the slightest inkling of weakness as it stayed perfectly even. And the words were not at all what he had wanted to say. But he said them and they were so final.

And Naruto stayed strong. For once. Believing so much that Sasuke didn't care. Because… that's what he had wanted him to believe. He couldn't show Naruto how weak he actually was for him.

And give him the upperhand?

Though, what was so wrong with that?

Sasuke looked back over at the clock. He could've put a new battery in so many times in the last six months. But he almost preferred to leave it broken. Then he could tell himself that he didn't have any obligations. Especially when Naruto slept over. He knew what time it was. But he could pretend he didn't and get lost in kissing Naruto. Touching him. Cuddling with him after. And then he could look at his watch suddenly and tell Naruto that he had somewhere to be. Training to do. A mission to go on. Something. Anything to keep Naruto wanting more.

Keep him guessing.

Not letting Naruto see that the only thing Sasuke really had to offer him were his lips and his body. Not letting him see how truly damaged he was.

Sasuke sat up suddenly as the realization hit him. He'd been so scared to let Naruto see him in that way. Naruto had always admired him and thought him strong. But to know he was damaged in a way that may never truly be fixed? He would've lost him much sooner.

Tears poured down Sasuke's face as his chest heaved. He felt as though he were falling completely apart and he could barely breathe as he sobbed through the heartbreak. He'd held happiness and sunshine in the palm of his hand and he had taken it so much for granted.

"What's wrong with me?" he asked himself through his tears as he clenched fistfuls of his own hair. He could barely breathe at this point. Memories of Naruto flashing through his mind. Smiling, laughing… Looking at Sasuke with more affection than Sasuke was used to. Naruto's love for him had always been so selfless. And all Sasuke had ever done was take advantage of that.

As Sasuke sat in bed falling apart, he couldn't help but wonder if Naruto was half as broken as him. Though, he was sure he wasn't. He was probably relieved, free. Finally.

And Sasuke couldn't blame him. He couldn't blame Naruto if he moved on quickly. If he fell in love with some girl, maybe Sakura. They'd make a great couple. He couldn't blame Naruto if he never spoke to Sasuke again. If he never even so much as looked in Sasuke's direction. No. Sasuke couldn't blame him.

He would pine for him always. No matter what. And Naruto deserved to be pined for. To be loved, to be longed for. From near and afar. Sasuke probably always was best suited to love someone from afar anyway. Even if it hurt him. Naruto would find someone to be close to. Easily. Hinata had always had a thing for him.

Sasuke couldn't help but feel jealous as he tried to consider a new partner for Naruto. Sakura? Hinata? With Naruto?

"Over my dead body," he said as he tossed his blankets aside and got out of his bed. He was in pajamas, but he didn't care to find normal clothes, it was still the middle of the night anyway. He didn't even bother to put shoes on or lock his door when he left.

Naruto needed to know how he felt. His true heart. Or nevermind… Naruto already knew. He always had. What he needed was to hear it. From Sasuke's mouth. Sasuke had to tell him. Tell him about his pain, his struggles, his weaknesses. Tell him how despite all of that, his love for Naruto was what kept him going. What brought him home. What kept him here.

And even after he told him. If he still didn't want Sasuke back, then that would be alright. At least Sasuke tried. He communicated. He opened his heart, and he said it was open, and he told Naruto it was his forever. No matter what, at least Naruto would know for a fact that Sasuke was his and his alone.

Always.

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[realkyuhoney]

Kakashi Hatake, 18

[softshuji]

Hanma sees a dude looking at you for just a second too long and then suddenly disappears at night, coming home with his suit soaked through with blood. And when you ask what's happened he'll kiss you so tenderly before he sinks onto the sofa and lights a cigarette saying "don't you worry your pretty little head sweetheart" before parting his legs and patting his thigh so you can settle between them and rest your cheek there, like a pet.

[realkyuhoney]

Same on the tags tho 😫🤗

[realkyuhoney]

There's Rock Lee... and then there's Fuck Boy Lee. 😆

[kokodrawings]

Artober day 1: Minato's kids

[kokodrawings]

Artober day 6: Copy Cat Kakashi

[sasuke-naruto]

Kan kan sasunaru no debatt 😭😭 . Cre:_chugege_

[malcontentonline]

[realkyuhoney]

I don't know who, what, when, where, how or why we all know this, but we do and it's a universal truth - Shikamaru fucks good.