psychosis blog💙

made by psychotics, for psychotics

[reallypsychotic]

hey guys!!!

i just wanna update you all!

i dont use tumblr much anymore, im thinking of coming back to it but im unsure.

anyways!

ive been on abilify since october i think. i. love. this. medicine. seriously, it’s working great for me! (lets not jinx it hehe)

im on 7.5mg right now, going up to 10mg probably friday. we’ve been taking dosage increases super slow, because-

while i have no side effects.. usually, i DO get them when i increase the dose, at all. it’s weird, i dont know why, but yeah.

when the dose increases, i get headaches, fatigue, and extreme anxiety. but only for about a week while i adjust.

after i adjust its a miracle!!! i love it! i havent noticed any side effects so im feeling great. it handles my hallucinations, my moods, my thinking, all of it and im really happy i got put on this medicine.

BUT.

i have hypothyroidism. turns out ive had it..ever since i was switched onto latuda. theres no evidence latuda caused it, legit none! i have an immune disorder (behcet’s disease) so that’s 99% the cause.

so was latuda causing tiredness? probably not! so i just wanted to update on that, for anyone fearing latuda cause of my review.

but, with that said, latuda was not NEARLY as helpful as abilify is. i fucking love this medicine.

thats the update! hope you all are doing good! feel free to update me on your alls treatments and such! id love to hear and possibly help out! :)

[holyholyholey]

This is important

[sweetschizo-deactivated20190808]

[fortunesque]

Activated Charcoal = ineffective meds

Friendly reminder that activated charcoal, even when put into food as a black colorant, binds to medication and can make it ineffective. Yes, this includes birth control! I thought I’d put this PSA out there since people are making spooky “black” versions of normal foods.

[vamptenya-deactivated20181016]

youtube is at it again. 

if you get an advert with  a little boy saying to his mum ‘can you close my closet?’ or something like that SKIP IT.

its an advert for the halloween reboot and it has a jumpscare at the end

[untitled4022]

Doesn’t really fit my blog, but as someone with anxiety I wanna help my pals with anxiety 💗

[aneurotypical]

Things you shouldn’t ask or say to someone on the schizophrenia spectrum or it will be rude:

“Do you want to hurt people?” (We’re statistically more likely to be hurt and manipulated by others.)

“Do you see anything right now?” (Makes us uncomfortable and paranoid and causes us to focus on what’s reality and what’s not)

“Are you hearing voices right now?”/“what do the voices say about me?” (We aren’t here for your entertainment, and this will make us uncomfortable and distrustful of you. And same as above comment.)

“That’s so cool!” (It’s a disorder and disability that is painful and hard to live with)

“I wish I had that” (Lord, I wish I was exaggerating.)

“So, you have multiple people in your head?” (May fuel a delusion, or you’re confusing it with Dissociative Personality Disorder)

“Are you dangerous?” (If we didn’t seem dangerous before telling you, why do we seem dangerous now? Again, we’re more likely to be abused and to hurt ourselves.)

“What medications are you on?” (Too Personal. You don’t need to know that.)

“Maybe it’s spiritual/real.”(any theory that it’s not a mental illness can cause confusion, paranoia, mistrust, fuel a delusion, or feeling misunderstood.)

“We’re all a little crazy, haha!” (Our brains look and work differently than majority of the population. It’s not comparable to bad or weird choices and quirks you have.)

“Do you trust me?”/“You trust me though, right?” (If we do, it could make us feel worried you doubt us. If we don’t, it’ll make us uncomfortable and feel like lying or fuel our mistrust.)

“You dont seem like you have schizophrenia/schizoid/schizoaffective/schizotypal..” (We aren’t all the same, and a lot of us are in different places of coping and have different severity of symptoms and how we hide them. It’s exhausting hiding and coping with our symptoms. Could also fuel a delusion of not being sick. Just don’t say that.)

“I knew someone with that.” (We really don’t care; that person isn’t us.)

Things you can say without being rude if someone lets you know they have a schizophrenia spectrum disorder:

“Is there anything I need to know about how this affects you?”

“Will there be times you’d like my support?”

“How can I support you if you need it?”

“Thanks for you letting me know/Thanks for opening up about that”

“Is there anything I need to look out for to make sure you’re safe and comfortable?”

“Is it alright if I ask a few questions so I have a better understanding?”

“Oh, okay.

[schizoaffxtive]

Little Schizo Things: Hiding all of your symptoms from literally everyone so when you finally start talking about them everyone thinks you’ve gone off the deep end even though you’ve had those symptoms longer than you can even remember.

[sapphicscience-archive]

i’m tired of “how to help a partner with [x mental illness]” guides that assume that the other partner has no issues of any kind; i want more discussion of how to balance the differing mental health needs of multiple people in a relationship

[borderbetweencountries]

So my partner and I have been together almost two years, and we both suffer from anxiety, BPD, and a handful of other mental illnesses, and here’s some things that help us out immensely.

communication is key. Tell your partner if you’re having a bad day. Listen when your partner says they’re having a bad day. It’s easier to be careful with someone when you know they’re already having a bad day. I can’t stress this enough - communication is always important in relationships; but it’s doubly so when one or both of you has a mental illness. You have to trust your partner to be able to be honest with you about what they’re feeling and how their illness is affecting them, and you need to be honest with them, too. ask questions. If your partner is struggling, asking them questions to help you understand how to help them can be good. Remember that ‘I don’t know’ is a valid answer, and it is one that you can also give. be reminders for each other. It can be super hard to remember to do simple things for yourself; it can be easier to remember to remind your partner to do them. My partner reminds me about medication, food, etc., and I do the same for him - it helps a lot. use safewords. And I don’t mean in the kinky sense. My partner and I have a series of words that mean different things, because sometimes it can be hard to say ‘I’m swinging’ or ‘I’m having a panic attack’ or ‘this subject is upsetting me for x y z’ reason. It’s easier to say one syllable - ‘swing’ for rapidly cycling emotions, ‘count’ for panic attacks (so one of us can count breaths for the other). We have words that mean ‘drop this subject now’ and words that mean ‘please don’t touch me’. We also have hand signals for days when one or both of us are nonverbal, and we revert to texting on those days. be willing to give each other space.  But don’t necessarily go far. If you need your space, tell your partner; if your partner needs their space, make sure they can still access you.  acknowledge each other’s illness. Don’t pretend it isn’t there. Ignoring it doesn’t make it go away. Acknowledge that they’re there, acknowledge that sometimes they may come in conflict with each other, and learn how to take a step back when it becomes a problem. call each other out. If your partner is repeatedly doing things that are detrimental to themselves/your relationship/you, call them on it. Don’t do it in an asshole way - just sit down with them and be like ‘hey, you’ve been doing this thing that is really sucky lately, and it needs to stop.’ Likewise, listen when you’re being called out. It’s really easy to get stuck in shitty loops when your brain is sick, and sometimes you don’t know what you’re doing ‘til someone points it out. This hurts! And it sucks! But it’s part of acknowledging your illnesses. It doesn’t do any good to let bad habits continue, even if there’s a reason they’re happening. learn to forgive. When you’ve both got brain issues going on, it’s inevitable that people are going to say things they don’t mean, and that is going to hurt. The important thing is being able to recognize when you’ve messed up and apologize sincerely, and accept it when your partner apologizes. These are just some things that work for us. Add to the list if you can and I hope this helps.

[faerph]

Some Stock Photo Sign Reminders To The RPC From Your Friendly Neighborhood Psychotic Because As Much As I Love Halloween I Am Actively Scared Of This Shit!!

happy goddamn halloween (some of these have captions)

[kate-coleman-writes]

This mental illness = scary killer trope is damaging as hell and needs to die.

[reallypsychotic]

starting abilify

DON’T REPLY WITH BAD EXPERIENCES PLEASE

i’m starting abilify tomorrow and quitting latuda today! 

again, if you have had any POSITIVE experiences with this med, let me know! preferably none with uh.. “but it did this___ so i had to go off” because i’m trying to be hopeful that abilify will be the one, and frankly i’ve heard WAY too many negatives with this one. probably because it’s extremely popular = more bad experiences.

(also please don’t come in my inbox telling me it’s a dangerous med or something i’m aware this is just kinda a last resort until injections)

[reallypsychotic]

going off latuda + why

so i’ll have to update my meds list after today but to those seeking experiences with medicines (and this blog being kinda my med journal), i’m gonna explain why i’m going off latuda today.

i started latuda 2-3 months ago, late june. i was immediately started at 60mg (not my choice, i know) and i stayed on it.

it was making me SO exhausted at first. thankfully after the first week it was alright, but i usually have to go to bed an hour after taking it, which is NOT convenient with how you must have 350 calories with it. (i eat dinner around 6 pm... im not gonna go to bed at 7pm everyday)

but that kinda tiredness faded into.....all the time tiredness. i’ve been exhausted all day ever since i’ve been on it, which is odd because it’s not a typical side effect, but one none the less.

anyways, i had a very scary experience on the 7th of september where i ended up in the emergency room with a resting heartrate of 180bpm. and that was after ativan was in my system.

longstory short we don’t know what happened, but my doctor wanted to lower latuda. he didn’t know, and frankly i didn’t either, if lowering latuda would help (because a very long dejavu was involved, and that can be because of latuda OR my schizoaffective disorder) or not, so he decided to be safe and lower it first, though his plan was if it was WORSE lowering it, we’d go up instead.

he lowered it to 40mg, and since then it’s been hell for me. i’m still exhausted, my hallucinations are worse again, my mood is awful, the works.

one thing i’ve noticed since going lower? my anxiety is SO much better. turns out latuda was making me so fucking anxious and i didn’t even realize it. i had read about this side effect for people but i thought my anxiety was just..because of me. i didn’t think it’d be because of my meds.

after sept 7th i had severe anxiety and panic attacks (resulting in going to the ER again) and lowering latuda..helped. i still have anxiety but not as bad and i’ve only had 1 panic attack since. 

but latuda was nice for my hallucinations....but that’s about it. my mood was unstable, my delusions were mostly bad, and yeah, etc.

though i had no weight gain or weight side effects as the past (zyprexa) has caused. so that was cool.

i’m going off because the fatigue is way too much for me. it’s horrible. again, it’s weird that latuda is doing this, and maybe there’s another reason not known yet, but yeah.

4/10 for me.

[reallypsychotic]

abilify

yall got good stories for me? i have tons of posts in the past talking abt how Horrible it was so i’d love to hear good things since i might be going on it!!

[reallypsychotic]

do you know of any instagram or snapchat support groups for people with psychosis? I’ve been looking for more people to talk to. (if anyone else knows one please dm me on insta @schizo.spam

i don’t i’m sorry :( i’m not active on either of those and they’re usually for close friends 

but if any of my followers do feel free to hit this person up!

[glitterglobe-blog]

important things to remember

if someone doesn’t reply to your message they are probably busy, not ignoring you

just because someone doesn’t message you first, it doesn’t mean they don’t care about you

if someone seems upset or distant they probably aren’t upset at you in particular

lots of people love you and you’re not annoying

[thoughts-of-a-schizophrenic]

The thing about schizophrenia is you dont really see it coming until one day you think the neighbors can read your mind and then that thought “I think they can” turns into “I know they can”

It’s some scary shit when you cant tell what’s real and what’s not real

[reallypsychotic]

psa

stop calling unlawful/bad people “psychotic” just because their thinking is unrational. you’re contributing to the stereotype that people with psychosis are just “crazy haha” and that we’re all shitty too and can’t function/think on our own.

[toastyglow]

how do you get rid of the part of yourself that wants to passively fish for sympathy/praise?

[xenoqueer]

Three things. First, just ask for the praise. People are a lot more forthcoming with compliments if they know you’re open to them. There’s a persistent and subtle belief that praise should be saved for special occasions and that it’s excessive (effusive) if given freely.

Second, be more giving with compliments and praise to other people. Most people will hear a genuine compliment, and respond with one in return. This has the benefit of both making you more practiced in giving people meaningful compliments, as well as getting more direct positivity in your life.

Third, praise yourself. There’s a belief that taking pride in your own accomplishments is vanity. That’s super, duper bullshit. Play yourself up constantly. It will feel fakey and gross at first, but over time you’ll become much more able to actually look at your own actions and see when you’re doing something good, and believe in that goodness.

I suppose as a bonus 4th thing, you could look into behavioural therapy techniques and see if any suit your needs, as well, but they can be pretty hard to self administer.

[toastyglow]

nice