Stardust

[rebeldiamondcutofthesun]

Summer time

The summer was around the next corner and with this, the pretty small city of Chico turn to a gosthing town during this season.

My best friend and I planned go to LA for stay around for a week and my love planned to catch me in Santa Monica. Exciting for start this dream trip, I couldn’t take out of my head a fantasy scene about a great and romantic kiss from my habibi at the peir and getting up to the Ferris wheel.

From the north to the south, I visited counties as Long Beach where my auntie lives, Anaheim for sneak peak hookah places, Huntington for drive around the beach with my BF and take the sun, Rancho Cocamunga for visited a friends and spent all day long at aquatic park and San Diego for took a tea time at the Joya. More over, Los Angeles for drove around the hills, felt kissed by the sun and step at the walk of fame.

Finally, Santa Monica for met to him at the pier. So, I was there, walked at the end of the trail but he didn’t appear. With a fantasy broken, and the moon as witness, I cleaned my tears and delete his name of my dreams.

Later, I received a call from him when I back to the hotel. He apologize because couldn’t make it. I was pretty deep hurt and told him I don’t have and won’t spend time anymore with games.

We couldn’t say goodbye face to face. He back to his country for summer and I took a flight to Chicago. My life is a continual voyage and I don’t make stops for too long.

[rebeldiamondcutofthesun]

Meet at midnight (part II)

The kisses was a perfect combination of sweet magic but at the same time forbidden.

Later, we decide to walk around and when I looked at the sky, the night covered us in its stellar mantle. He didn’t turn away his gaze from me and wondered asked the reason about my fascination of stars. What I said:

“ I love the stars because they don’t judge anyone and still shine for everyone”.

They are patient, cause can’t shine without darkness. They aren’t jealous of the sun, because without its reflection couldn’t have the way to shine so bright. I love the way they are. Is the way I want to be.

That smile, his beautiful and perfect smile just make me feel back to the reality and then realize that time goes fast. We back to home.

So it is, our first kiss, our first walk and our first private talk.

[rebeldiamondcutofthesun]

Meet at midnight (part I)

Later, I receive a text from him. Want me meet at the central plaza from our neighborhood at midnight and I reply with a short and unenthusiastic answer Okay.

-Can’t even imagine how awful feelings have about my un described behave. Seriously, flirting is not my thing-.

So here we are in the middle of a quiet night, with no cover up, no shame, no glory, just us trying to get to know each other quietly.

After a while, he said: I like you. My immediate response was: Why? - instead- what? His face was shocking and I changed my answer by apologizes.

Maybe, the cultural clash of language didn’t let me articulate the correct answer, I was so ashamed and for remedy he just kiss me. Was a surprised, warm, cute kiss. More than I could ask. Light full and pure.

[rebeldiamondcutofthesun]

Front door

It was a warm and pleasant afternoon to sit in front of the house and read a short story “A cup of tea” by Katherine Mansfield for my English literature class.

After a while, he was arriving in his car and parking next to the house. Trying to pretend I didn’t notice. He came out of the car and closed the door with a big smile and saying “hello”. Answering with a little smile and “hi” , he immediately came up.

-I was frozen-

With little answers on my part to his questions. I was awareness this wasn’t a dream and I wanted to make sure it wouldn’t end in a blink. Trying to check if any of my roomies was coming up or watching us. Before left, he ask for my number. At that time, I wasn’t sure if it was real but the breeze kiss my skin and realize I couldn’t stop to smile.

[rebeldiamondcutofthesun]

Backyard

And so it is, just like my mind imagine it would be. Most of the time, the pupil in denial. Trying to avoid him. His eyes reached me, I couldn’t resist. He caught me with his smile and ask where I was coming from.

Literally I couldn’t say anything else than “library” with a shy smile. I felt a resounding failure saying over and over again in my head “this is so a mess”.

After that, he and my roomies starts speaking in their language and I stop to paying attention, with a lost look, having a millions things on my head, just heard “ I feel so bad speaking other language, she don’t understand”.

When I realize what he said, I felt all theirs eyes over me. More than ever denying what was happening, I response “that’s fine, always happen”. So it is, he didn’t stop to looked at me and our first match point started.

[rebeldiamondcutofthesun]

That smile

I always want to live the California dream. At 23 yrs old I was there, living in a house in Sorrento, a nice one. Living near the university area. I had the opportunity for spend the best times ever there. One day I was walking back home and see our neighbors passing me in their cars coming with more friends, all of them students from Chico State. Particularly, one of them look at me and smile. That was the first time we know the existence of each other.

Next day, I was with my best friend and roomie, messing around in the living room and someone ring the door. Our third member of the house went to check and there he was.. the neighbor. I was so quiet, like nobody exist, but then he came into the house next to our roomie, again I was like nothing big happen, he step till kitchen and said “Hi”, we reply and I back my face to nowhere. Trying to avoid everything else and not paying attention about what they talk about. When he left, my best friend look at me and we both said “it’s mine” “not is mine”. How cute isn’t it , right? my friend asked. I response: don’t know, but he smile it’s. He look at me and know I was in trouble.

Few days later, I was at the library trying to do my homework, then I receive a text from my best friend exciting more than a girl about having in his backyard our neighbor. He and my other roomie was taking a tea and smoking hooka outside, when our roomie see the neighbor parking his car, immediately invited to our house. Of course, after a minutes my best friend couldn’t resist, he stand up and mentioned is a kind of late and need pick up to someone (that was me).

So here we go, my friend was waiting outside the campus and hurry me more than my mom trying to don’t miss more time. In our way to the house I saw my friend was more impatient than me, so I tried to behave, be cool, right like nothing happen. I can’t keep out of my mind his perfect smile. So that’s coming up our first face to face.