summary. You came to Dustwell looking for a fresh start. To live a new life in the beat-up house your grandfather left you. Getting involved with the local ranch hand definitely wasn’t on the agenda—and ending up in his bed? Yeah, that wasn’t part of the plan either.
word count. 15k (oh what the hell-)
content. mdni fem!reader, cowboy!choso, slow burnnnn, they want each other but wont do anything about it, he fell first but she fell harder trope, he's lowkey protective, alcohol consumption, pet names, smut, oral (fem rec.), fingering, FERAL choso, p in v, cowgirl (because save a horse), rough sex, multiple orgasms, praise, creampie, overstim, aftercare
author's note. WHAT ARE THEY FEEDING THE CHOSO ARTISTS OH MY DAYS
The house looks smaller than you remember. Maybe it’s the dust-soft edges or the way the sun hits it, turning the old wood siding gold like a sepia photograph. You stand at the edge of the gravel driveway, hands on your hips, squinting through the heat shimmer rolling off the hood of your car.
Inherited property. That’s what the letter called it—like it was some gift. But all you see is a sagging front porch, weeds elbowing through the cracks in the steps, and a mailbox hanging on by a single rusted screw. The whole place smells like dry earth, wood rot, and a faint hint of motor oil.
You spend the afternoon sweating through your shirt, dragging boxes inside and swatting at flies that seem personally offended by your presence. The floors creak in protest. One of the cabinet doors falls off when you open it. You curse out loud and immediately apologize to the empty house, like your grandpa might still be listening somewhere.
There’s no air conditioning. The ceiling fan makes a sound like it’s chewing on itself. You prop open the back door and hope the breeze isn’t carrying more hornets.
By the time the sun starts to dip behind the trees, the living room’s half-unpacked, your hair’s sticking to your neck, and you’re dangerously close to throwing a box labeled “KITCHEN — FRAGILE” straight through the window.
You need a drink.
The bar—locals call it The Pit—is tucked between a feed store and a mechanic’s garage on the edge of town. It’s not much to look at from the outside, just sun-bleached siding and a rusted-out neon sign that reads “OPEN” if you squint hard enough. But inside, it’s cool, low-lit, and smells like wood polish and whiskey.
You get exactly three steps in before every head turns. A beat passes. Then the low hum of conversation starts back up, like nothing happened.
The bartender is a woman with blond streaks in her braid and she’s wearing a plain tank top and jeans, no name tag. She raises an eyebrow as you approach.
“New in town?”
You slide onto a stool. “That obvious?”
She pours something golden into a glass. “Around here? Everything is.”
You take a sip. It burns, in a good way.
“Movin’ into the old place a few blocks down?” she asks, already knowing the answer.
You nod, and she hums like that means something. Maybe it does.
She gestures vaguely toward the back of the bar, where a wall’s been plastered with old photos—rodeos, family cookouts, black-and-white shots of horses mid-stride.
“Lotta history out there,” she says. “That land’s got roots deeper than the well.”
You glance at the glass in your hand. “Hopefully no ghosts.”
She smirks. “Nah. Just nosy neighbors, rattlesnakes, and one too many cowboys who think silence is a personality trait.”
You laugh, tired but genuine. You don’t ask for names. Not yet.
The bartender leans back on one hip, wiping down a glass with a rag that’s seen better days. “You’ll meet the whole town soon enough,” she says, voice easy. “Mornings at the diner, Friday nights at the Pit. Someone’ll swing by your place, offer help you didn’t ask for. Happens every time someone new rolls in.”
You raise an eyebrow. “That supposed to be comforting?”
She grins. “That depends. Some of ’em are harmless. Some of ’em don’t know how to mind their own business.”
A photo behind her catches your eye—framed and slightly crooked, tucked between shelves of mismatched liquor bottles. It’s black and white, a bit worn at the edges. A man stands in front of a horse, head bowed just enough that the brim of his hat hides most of his face. He’s wearing gloves, a long coat, boots scuffed to hell. There’s something still about him—something heavy.
“That one?” she says, catching your gaze. “Choso.”
You don’t look away. “He local?”
“Mhm. Works the Dustwell Ranch a few miles out. Sticks to himself. Comes in when the nights get long or the work gets worse.” She pauses, then adds, “Quiet, mostly. But folks around here know better than to mistake that for soft.”
You blink. The photo stays with you longer than it should.
“Lemme guess,” you say, setting your glass down. “He one of those cowboys you mentioned?”
She chuckles, dry. “He’s the reason I mentioned them.”
You nod slowly. “He’s… not bad-looking.”
The bartender smirks. “Yeah, he hears that a lot. Doesn’t do much with it, though.”
You glance back at the photo. “Not the friendly type?”
“Polite,” she says, “but quiet. Keeps to himself. Doesn’t stick around long when folks start talking too much.”
You hum into your drink. “So, not exactly easy to get to know.”
She shrugs. “People’ve tried. Never really seems interested. Doesn’t mean anything’s wrong with him—just one of those men who likes his space.”
You let that sit for a second. Then: “You saying I shouldn’t bother?”
She smiles without looking at you. “I’m saying if you’re the curious type, just don’t expect straight answers.”
-
You head out just before sunset, boots crunching on gravel as the heat finally starts to ease off the land. The air smells like mesquite and dirt, with a hint of something sweet on the wind—wildflowers, maybe. The road that runs past your place stretches long in both directions, flanked by open fields and fences that lean just enough to say no one’s been out here fixing things in a while.
You don’t take a phone. There’s no signal anyway. Just the breeze, the cicadas, and the sound of your own steps as you walk past fences wrapped in rusted wire, thistles pushing up through the cracks in the asphalt.
There’s not much out here—just land. Wide and quiet. Like it’s still waiting to decide what to do with you.
Then, about half a mile out, the trees start to thin, and you catch sight of a gate.
It’s big—old wood and iron, solid in that way that says it wasn’t built for decoration. There’s a sign nailed across the top beam. The paint’s worn, but the lettering’s still clear:
DUSTWELL RANCH
You slow without meaning to.
Beyond the gate, the land stretches open again—miles of pasture rolling out beneath a soft orange sky. You can just make out the edge of a barn in the distance, roof sloped, doors cracked. A couple of horses stand near the fence line, heads down, tails flicking lazily.
You rest your hands on the top of the gate. Not climbing it. Just looking.
You’re about to turn back when you hear it—the low groan of leather, the thud of boots hitting packed earth.
Someone’s moving out there.
And then, farther out—near the barn—you catch sight of a figure. Broad shoulders, long stride, dark hair pulled back under a white hat. He moves like the heat doesn’t bother him. Like the land’s just an extension of his own skin.
You can’t make out his face from this far, but something about the way he adjusts the strap over his shoulder—smooth, practiced—tells you it’s him.
Choso.
You don’t call out. You don’t wave.
You just watch, quiet, until he disappears around the side of the barn.
You stay a moment more before turning back, heading home before the sky goes fully dark.
-
You decide to take a look at the general store the next afternoon.
The little bell above the door jingles as you step inside, and you’re immediately hit with the scent of wood and old paper. The general store’s got everything—canned beans, rope, seed packets, and even a rack of novelty postcards that look older than you.
You wander through the aisles, basket on your arm, grabbing some cleaning rags and a stubborn bottle of wood polish. You’re reaching for a pack of nails on a higher shelf when someone steps into the aisle at the same time you do.
You both stop—almost head to chest.
“Whoa—sorry,” you say, laughing a little.
He steps back without much of a reaction, but his eyes linger. It’s him. Cowboy hat, button-down rolled to the elbows, gloves tucked into his back pocket. He’s taller up close. And quieter, too—like the kind of quiet that says more than most people do out loud.
“Haven’t seen you around before,” he says, voice low and easy. “You new?”
You nod, trying not to stare. “Yeah. Just moved in. My grandfather left me the old place off Hollow Creek.”
He tilts his head. “Big property, that one. Lotta trees.”
“Also a lot of creaky floors and suspicious plumbing,” you joke.
That gets him—just barely. A small huff of a laugh, like it surprised him too.
“I’m Choso.”
“So I’ve heard.” you smile at him before offering your own name.
“Well,” he says, eyes crinkling just a little at the corners, “welcome to Dustwell, darlin’.”
And just like that, he tips his hat and keeps walking, leaving you in the middle of aisle three, staring after him with a half-full basket and a flutter in your chest.
-
The FaceTime connects with a familiar ceiling view and the soft clink of ice in a glass.
“...Are you lying dead in a ditch or just ghosting me now?” Shoko’s voice is dry as ever as she finally appears on screen, sunglasses on, cigarette in one hand, something suspiciously alcoholic in the other—even though it’s barely 3 p.m.
“I’ve been busy,” you whine, slumping onto the couch. “There’s a lot to unpack.”
“Yeah? Unpack the hot cowboy you texted me about at midnight and then never followed up on.”
You groan into your palm. “It wasn’t that serious! He just—he was at the store. I bumped into him. Literally. And he’s tall and—hat, gloves, boots, the whole deal.”
“Cowboy cosplay or actual cowboy?”
“Actual cowboy, Shoko. Like... brawny forearms and slow drawl. Called me darlin’.”
She sips her drink. “Mmm. Cowboys are usually good with their hands. You should test that.”
“Shoko! I don’t even know the guy!”
“Perfect. No expectations. Just vibes.”
You gawk at her, scandalized. She shrugs.
“I'm just saying—man’s probably got calluses in all the right places.”
You grab a pillow and yell into it while she just watches, smug.
You peek out from behind the pillow. “You’re the worst.”
“I’ve been called worse,” she says, exhaling smoke. “Now show me.”
“Show you what?”
“The cowboy, obviously.”
You blink. “Shoko. I’m not a stalker. I didn’t take a picture of him.”
She raises a brow. “Miss ma’am didn’t sneak a pic? I taught you nothing.”
You groan. “It would’ve been weird! I didn’t even know what to say after he walked off. I just stood there like an idiot with my bread and canned soup.”
“That’s hot. Very romance novel of you.”
“I hate you.”
“No you don’t,” she says, smug. “You’re just mad because your little prairie crush made your brain short-circuit.”
You bury your face again, voice muffled. “He had that whole rugged, fresh-off-the-ranch thing going on, Shoko.”
There’s a pause.
“Okay, yeah. You’re done for.”
You sit back up, defeated. “It was just one interaction. He probably won’t even remember me.”
“Oh, he’ll remember. You’re new in town. He absolutely noticed. And if he’s quiet and broody like you said, that man’s probably thought about you seventeen times since then and doesn’t know what to do about it.”
You blink at her.
“You’re scary.”
“I’m right.”
You sulk into the couch. “What do I even do with that information?”
Shoko grins slowly. “You go to the store again. And you wait.”
You squint at the screen. “That’s your plan? I just... loiter in the soup aisle until he appears?”
“If he’s got work boots and a quiet drawl, yeah. Linger,” Shoko says, entirely unfazed.
You groan. “He probably won’t even show up again. It’s a small town, not a Hallmark movie.”
“Which means he’ll show up everywhere,” she counters, raising a brow. “That’s the rule. First hot man encounter? You will see him again. At least three times. One of them in an inconvenient setting.”
You pause. “Like what?”
She smirks. “Public restroom line. Town fair. Your porch. Shirtless.”
“Okay goodbye,” you say, jabbing the screen to hang up, and her laughter is the last thing you hear before it goes dark.
You drop your phone on your stomach and stare at the ceiling, brain already drifting.
You weren’t even looking for anyone. This move was supposed to be peaceful—slow mornings, quiet skies, maybe a dog. You were going to find yourself or whatever people in dramatic life transitions are supposed to do.
But now there’s a man with sleepy eyes and dust on his jeans, and you can’t stop replaying the way he’d said darlin’, like it wasn’t the first time he’d said it and like he wouldn’t mind saying it again.
You sigh.
And the worst part?
You already need eggs.
-
You need eggs.
That’s what you tell yourself, at least, when you head back to the little general store the next day, pretending it has nothing to do with a six-foot-something man in a cowboy hat.
Nope. It’s all for the eggs.
You meander through the store, making slow, aimless rounds. Produce. Aisles with three different kinds of cereal. Laundry detergent. You’re halfway through the snacks when you realize you’re not shopping anymore. You’re lurking.
You make a show of studying a can of chili you have zero intention of buying.
Still no sign of him.
You check your phone. It's been almost 30 minutes. You’ve looped the store twice, possibly three times. The cashier’s starting to give you that polite, “do you need help with something or are you casing the joint” smile.
You give up and finally head to the register with the single carton of eggs you came for.
No Choso.
No deep voice. No gloves in his back pocket. Not even a damn cowboy hat on the horizon.
You leave the store feeling... not disappointed, exactly. Just... aware of how silly you probably looked loitering in front of a shelf of trail mix like it was hiding romance.
You sigh and clutch the eggs a little tighter.
Guess he won’t be everywhere after all.
You’re not looking for him.
You’re just taking a walk.
That’s what you tell yourself as your feet find the same dusty road that runs past that ranch. The sign’s old but well-kept, carved into smooth wood with curling ends, tucked beside a wide gate.
You think about turning back.
You don’t.
There’s a low sound—rhythmic, heavy. Hooves. And when you glance up, there he is.
Horseback. Broad-shouldered. Hat low over his eyes. A quiet silhouette against the gold-tinted sky, steering a few cattle into a separate pen like it’s second nature. The reins in one hand, the other resting lazily on his thigh.
You freeze. Not even dramatically. You just stop walking.
And when he spots you, he pauses, too. The horse slows under him, and he turns his head just slightly, eyes squinting under the brim.
“You again,” he says, like it’s not surprising at all. “You lost, darlin’?”
Your stomach does a stupid flip.
“No,” you manage. “Just walking.”
He nods like that tracks. “It’s getting late.”
You shrug, trying not to stare at the way the reins rest between his gloved fingers. “Needed air.”
He hums—low and easy. “Air’s better out here anyway.”
You take a breath like you need proof. It is better.
He shifts a bit in the saddle, posture relaxed. “So. You just out sightseeing?”
You huff a laugh before you can stop it. “Just wanted to familiarize myself with the place.”
That gets a tiny smile out of him—small, but there. He tips his hat. “Well. You ever wanna get closer, Dustwell has open trails past the fence. Just mind the mud. And the bulls.”
“Oh,” you say, blinking. “Cool. Thanks.”
“Sure thing,” he says, clicking his tongue once to move the horse forward. He nods at you as he rides past. “See you ‘round.”
You don’t say anything. You’re too busy trying not to grin at nothing like a complete idiot.
Shoko was right.
You’re done for.
-
The bar’s quieter tonight.
Dim, warm lights. A slow, lazy country tune playing on the old jukebox in the corner. You slide onto a stool, nod at the bartender—same one from before, hair up in a messy bun, a dishrag slung over her shoulder like it’s part of the uniform.
“Back already?” she asks with a grin. “Thought you city types got bored easy.”
“I don’t scare that easy,” you say, returning the smile. “And besides… the drinks are good.”
She snorts. “Flattery won’t get you a free round.”
“Damn. Worth a shot.”
She pours you something light, something crisp, and leans against the bar, elbow propped lazily. “So. You settlin’ in okay out at that old house?”
You nod. “Trying to. Place has character.”
“You mean termites?”
You laugh. And then, because maybe the alcohol’s working faster than expected, you say it—
“I met Choso though. Kind of. Ran into him out by the ranch. Real quiet.”
The bartender lifts an eyebrow. “Tall, broody, horse-riding kind of hot?”
You gesture with your glass. “Exactly.”
She hums knowingly. “Sounds like him.”
“Yeah. He was pretty nice though.”
“Mhm. Doesn’t talk much. Just keeps to himself.”
You nod along, about to say something else when the bell over the door rings.
And of course—
Speak of the devil.
There he is.
Choso. Same dark clothes, same quiet presence, the brim of his hat low over his eyes as he steps into the bar like he doesn’t know you were just talking about him.
Your mouth goes a little dry.
The bartender glances at you and smirks.
“Well, well,” she murmurs under her breath. “Looks like fate’s got a good sense of timing.”
You straighten in your seat instinctively, like posture is going to fix the heat crawling up your neck.
The bartender leans in closer, voice pitched low just for you. “You want me to bring him over?”
Your eyes go wide. “Absolutely not.”
She grins like that’s not an answer. “Too late.”
Before you can stop her, she cups a hand to her mouth and calls out across the bar, casual as anything—
“Hey, Choso! You want your usual?”
His head lifts slightly. His gaze shifts, one beat to the bartender, the next—unmistakably—to you.
Then he nods.
The bartender grabs a clean glass, but before she moves to pour, she shoots you a wink. “Be a peach and slide down one seat, would you?”
You blink. “You’re not serious.”
“I’m always serious about good company.”
You hesitate just long enough to regret it, and then Choso’s already making his way over—long strides, quiet steps, the click of his boots drowned out by your internal oh no oh no oh no loop.
He settles beside you without much fanfare, tipping his hat a little as he sits.
“Evenin’,” he says, low and smooth.
Your heart’s doing something ridiculous, but you manage a smile. “Hey. Fancy seeing you again.”
The bartender places his drink down and looks way too pleased with herself. “Y’all have fun,” she says, backing away with her towel slung over her shoulder like a mission accomplished banner.
Choso glances after her, then back at you.
“She always like that?” you ask.
He huffs a quiet laugh. “Only when she senses blood in the water.”
And there’s something playful in his tone this time. Barely there. But it makes your stomach flutter anyway.
You raise a brow. “That so?”
hides a smile behind his glass.
“So,” you say after a beat, “do you always ride in dramatically right after someone talks about you?”
He tilts his head. “You were talkin’ about me?”
You pause, caught.
“…No?”
He hums. “Huh.”
You shoot him a look. “Don’t act like you weren’t eavesdropping.”
“Didn’t have to,” he says, calm as ever. “You’re not exactly subtle.”
You open your mouth to respond, probably with something clever—or at least less humiliating—but he leans an elbow on the bar, eyes on yours.
“Darlin’, I can tell.”
Your jaw drops. “I was not-”
“It’s cute.”
You swat at his arm lightly, but he just chuckles under his breath—barely there, but there.
Somehow, the small talk slips easy after that. Talk of the town. The best place for coffee in the morning (“It’s not the diner,” he warns). At some point, your shoulders stop feeling so tight. And by the time the bartender swings by again with a smug little grin, you're both halfway through your second drinks.
You glance out the window—dark now, and quiet, the kind of still night that makes everything feel slower.
“I should probably head back,” you say, setting your glass down.
Choso finishes his sip and nods. “I’ll walk you.”
You blink. “You don’t have to—”
“I want to.”
Simple as that.
So you agree.
Outside, the night air is cooler than it was when you stepped in. Crisp in a way that feels nice after being inside with too many people and too many thoughts. Choso falls into step beside you like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
You glance at him. “You always this quiet?”
He shrugs, hands tucked into his jacket pockets. “Talk when I need to.”
You hum. “That’s fair. I talk even when I don’t need to, so… you balance it out.”
There’s the ghost of a grin at the edge of his mouth. “Yeah, I figured that out.”
You nudge him lightly with your shoulder, and he lets it happen without comment.
It’s quiet again. Not awkward, just… easy.
You don’t live far, and the walk feels shorter with someone next to you. Before long, your porch light’s glowing just up ahead.
“Well,” you say as you stop in front of your door. “Thanks for the company.”
Choso nods. “You gonna be alright out here on your own?”
“I’ve survived worse,” you joke. “Like moving boxes. And small talk with ranch-hands.”
That gets a real smile out of him. Barely-there dimples. Trouble.
He dips his head a little, eyes on you. “You ever need somethin’, you know where the ranch is.”
You raise a brow. “And what exactly would I be needin’?”
He takes a small step back, eyes flicking to your porch light, then back to you.
“Dunno,” he says, and this time his voice is a little rougher. “Thought I’d leave the door open.”
And with that, he tips his hat—just slightly—and turns to walk off.
-
[you]: okay wait
[you]: I get it now.
[you]: the cowboy thing.
She replies in two seconds flat.
[shoko]: took you long enough
[shoko]: you gonna test the hands theory or what
You stare at your screen and groan.
[you]: SHOKO.
[you]: i’ve met him 3 times.
[shoko]: and that’s just the BEGINNING
[shoko]: trust the process
[you]: i’m blocking you.
[shoko]: you say that every time sweetie
You huff, turning your phone off, and get up to get ready for bed.
You lie down, stare at the ceiling. Think about the unpacked boxes still in the hallway. The weird noise the fridge made earlier. And then—like clockwork—your mind drifts.
Choso.
You don’t even know him. Had one conversation, maybe two. But of course that’s enough for your brain to cling to the one decent-looking guy you’ve seen in town so far. Tall, quiet, unfairly attractive. Of course.
You roll over, annoyed at yourself.
He’s probably just...normal. Works with his hands. Doesn’t talk much. Wears the whole rugged cowboy thing like it’s not a big deal, which makes it worse somehow. And okay—fine, the “darlin’” thing did something to you. That’s on him. But it’s also on you for letting it live rent-free in your head all day.
You stare at yourself in the bathroom mirror.
You didn’t come here to get distracted. Definitely not by some man with pretty hands and a nice voice and a face that should be illegal this far out in the middle of nowhere.
No. You’re here to get your life together.
Unfortunately, your life now involves a cowboy you can’t stop thinking about.
You shut your eyes and try to pretend you’re not already in trouble.
-
You’d been at it for over an hour now—sweating under the midday sun, brow furrowed, and jaw clenched tight. The damn wooden plank on your porch just wouldn’t fit right. You’d hammered, yanked, cursed, and even tried sweet-talking it at one point, like that would somehow make it cooperate.
It didn’t.
You sit back on your heels with a frustrated sigh, wiping at your temple with the back of your hand. The rest of the porch is a patchwork of replaced and rotted wood, and the one plank holding everything up just refuses to be tamed.
“Y’look like you’re about five seconds from fightin’ that board.”
You jump a little, glancing up to see Choso standing by the gate—hands in his back pockets, hat pulled low, a half-smirk tugging at his lips.
“Don’t tempt me,” you mutter, rising to your feet. “I’ve about had it with this thing.”
He starts walking toward you, boots crunching softly in the dirt. “Need a hand?”
You shake your head quickly. “No, no, I—I got it. Don’t worry. I know you’ve got your own work to do.”
He slows to a stop at the edge of the porch. “Ain’t in a rush. S’not a burden if I offer.”
You hesitate. He’s not the kind of man you ask favors from lightly—partly because he’s always so quiet, so distant. But he’s looking at you with a kind of patience that softens his usually sharp features.
“…Alright,” you say, stepping aside. “But only because this thing’s winning, and I can’t have that.”
He huffs a quiet laugh and crouches beside the plank, examining the fit. You expect him to just get to work—but instead, he peels off his gloves, sets them aside, and reaches up to tug his hat off his head.
You blink.
Because holy hell.
You’d only ever seen glimpses of his face before—just enough to wonder what he was hiding beneath the brim. And now that it’s gone, it’s like the sun comes out in full.
He’s beautiful. Not the kind of pretty you’d expect from someone who works rough and silent—no, he’s got the kind of beauty that’s sharp. Angular cheekbones. Long lashes. Hair tied back but loose strands frame his face. And that tattoo—dark and striking across the bridge of his nose—only makes it worse.
Your brain short-circuits for a second.
“...What?” he asks, not looking up, already focused on the wood.
“What?” he asks.
You swallow, trying to play it cool. “Just… didn’t know you had a tattoo there.”
He nods once, unfazed. “Had it a long time.”
“It suits you,” you say before you can think better of it.
Choso pauses. His eyes flick to yours—slow, unreadable.
“Thanks,” he murmurs, then goes right back to work.
The two of you work in near silence after that. He makes quick work of the stubborn plank, fitting it with practiced ease, fingers steady and sure. You hold nails when he asks, pass him tools without thinking. It’s the kind of quiet that doesn’t feel awkward—just natural.
At one point, your hands brush as you hand him the screwdriver. Neither of you say anything. But you feel it. The spark. The stillness.
You glance at him from the corner of your eye. His brow is furrowed, lips parted slightly in concentration, and there’s a bit of sawdust on his shoulder.
He catches you looking.
You snap your gaze away.
And in your chest, something shifts. Something soft. Warm. Familiar in a way that unsettles you.
You like him.
You like him.
It hits you like a whisper—gentle, but impossible to ignore.
When the board’s finally in place, he sits back and nods once, satisfied. “There. Should hold now.”
You clear your throat. “Thanks. Really.”
He glances up at you, hat dangling from his fingers. “Told you I’d help if you needed.”
“Yeah,” you say quietly. “Guess you did.”
The two of you sit there for a minute longer, side by side, watching the wind stir the grass. It’s quiet, but not in a bad way.
Like maybe you don’t need to say everything out loud.
“You want somethin’ to drink?” you ask, brushing your palms on your thighs as you stand. “It’s not much, just some lemonade. Store-bought, not even the fancy kind.”
Choso shifts a little like he’s not used to being offered anything. Like you’ve surprised him.
You catch it, that pause—and suddenly feel a little silly. “You don’t have to, obviously. I just thought, you know… in return for saving me from an early death by splinter.”
He huffs out a laugh, low and amused. “Didn’t know I was savin’ your life.”
“Oh, you absolutely were,” you say, feigning seriousness. “That board had it out for me.”
He looks at you for a second too long. Then: “Alright. I’ll take a glass.”
You try not to grin as you head inside, calling back over your shoulder, “Don’t run off. I’m only sharing if you stay and actually drink it.”
When you return, two slightly sweating glasses in hand, he’s still sitting on the porch step, hat resting beside him, hair a little mussed from the heat and work. He glances up as you hand him his glass.
“Thanks,” he says, fingers brushing yours briefly.
You sit beside him again, both sipping in a quiet that doesn’t feel awkward—just easy.
It’s small. It’s nothing.
But your heart is beating just a little faster anyway.
Choso tips his glass back, slow. “Did a good job, y’know.”
You glance over. “On the porch?”
“On the house. All of it.” He shrugs one shoulder, like it’s no big deal. “Most folks would’ve given up or hired it out. But you stuck with it.”
You blink, surprised by the softness in his voice.
“Thanks,” you say, quieter than you mean to. “I wasn’t sure it’d show.”
He nods once. “It shows.”
Then he stands, stretches a bit, picks up his hat. And just as he steps off the porch, he glances back at you.
“You’re settlin’ in alright,” he says simply. “You should stay. It’d be nice if you do.”
And then he’s gone—hat pulled low again, boots crunching down the gravel path.
You sit there a moment longer, lemonade glass half full in your lap, brain absolutely fried.
You should stay.
Goddamn it.
-
[you]: shoko
[you]: shoko
[you]: SHOKO
[shoko]: it’s literally midnight
[shoko]: did something catch on fire
[you]: NO
[you]: but I’m gonna die anyway
[you]: he said it’d be nice if i stay here
[you]: WHO SAYS THAT
[you]: I HAVEN’T STOPPED THINKING ABOUT IT FOR TWO HOURS
[shoko]: it means he thinks you should stay there
[shoko]: probably with him, in his weird cowboy brain
The Pit is quieter on weeknights. Less rowdy, more murmured conversation and old country music buzzing from the jukebox in the corner. You’re at the bar nursing a whiskey and soda, trying very hard not to think about the way Choso had looked at you like that porch was the only thing standing between you and him.
“You look distracted,” drawls the bartender as she wipes down a glass.
You smile sheepishly. “Long day.”
She hums like she doesn’t believe you, sliding the glass onto the shelf. “Well, you’ll wanna unwind before Saturday anyway. Big weekend comin’.”
You blink. “Saturday?”
“You didn’t hear? Dustwell’s annual Fall Festival.” She leans an elbow on the bar, grinning. “Whole town shows up. Good food, live music, terrible dancing.”
Your brows raise. “That sounds... kind of amazing.”
“Oh, it’s somethin’. Bit of everything—bonfire, market stalls, pie contest, all that small-town charm.” She leans in a little. “You should come. Be a good way to meet folks.”
You sip your drink. “Will there be whiskey?”
“Enough to drown a horse,” she deadpans. “C’mon. You might even have fun.”
You hesitate. Then nod, smiling. “Alright. I’ll check it out.”
She straightens, clearly pleased. “Attagirl.”
You pause. “Is it the kind of thing people go to alone?”
“You won’t be alone long,” she says, smirking as she grabs a bottle from the shelf. “Trust me.”
You smile into your glass and murmur, “That’s what I’m afraid of.”
She laughs and moves on to the next customer, leaving you sitting in the low golden glow of the bar lights, your drink slowly warming in your hand.
You swirl the ice once more.
You’re going to that festival. You already know exactly who you hope to see there.
-
You tell yourself it’s just a small-town festival.
No need to overthink it. Just food stalls, some live music, maybe a bonfire if the wind stays down. But somehow, you’ve tried on three outfits already and you’re still standing in front of the mirror, arms crossed, trying to decide if you look like you’re trying.
Your fingers smooth down the hem of the floral babydoll dress you finally settled on—light, flowy, soft against your skin. Not too short. Not too loud. Just enough.
Your boots are worn but clean. A bit of balm on your lips, a brush through your hair. You pause over the mascara.
“Stupid,” you mutter, swiping it on anyway.
You’re not dressing up for him. You’re not.
You grab your bag and give yourself one last look in the mirror. The dress sways with your movement, delicate and easy in the late afternoon light.
You look… nice.
And if a certain broody ranch hand happens to notice?
Well. That’s not why you’re going.
(Probably.)
-
The lights strung up over Dustwell’s main road flicker warm and golden, casting a glow over the small crowd that’s gathered. There’s laughter, music, chatter—a rhythm to the evening that thrums low and pleasant.
You should be enjoying it.
But your eyes are elsewhere.
You move through the crowd slowly, aimless, pretending to admire booths you don’t quite see. A table of carved wooden animals. A local honey stand. Rows of pies, flaky and golden. People pass with plates stacked high, cups of cider sloshing, the scent of cinnamon in the air.
And still, you keep looking.
Your boots crunch softly on gravel as you round the corner near the bonfire pit. A flicker of orange firelight glows against smiling faces. Couples sway to the drawl of a country ballad being played live somewhere off to the left. You scan each cluster of people with careful, almost casual glances.
He’s not here.
You try not to feel stupid about it.
Choso never said he’d come. Hell, you never even asked him. Maybe he’s back at the ranch. Maybe he hates crowds. Or maybe he just didn’t think about you at all.
You sigh through your nose and roll your shoulders like that could shake the disappointment off.
“Pretty dress,” someone says beside you, voice too close, too sticky with alcohol.
You tense.
Some guy, clearly drunk, sways into your space with a grin that’s more grease than charm. He’s got a beer bottle in hand and eyes that crawl. You step back slightly, but he follows, grin widening.
“You look real sweet tonight,” he adds, leaning closer. “You local?”
You step sideways, the movement polite but clear. “Just passing through,” you lie.
He follows. “Nah, I’ve seen you before. Came in not long ago. You’ve been out at the old farmstead, ain’t you? Near the ridge?”
Your mouth tightens. “I don’t think we’ve met.”
He laughs, too loud, too bold. “Well, we’re meetin’ now, ain’t we?”
“You here alone?” he asks, leaning in. “Don’t seem right, someone like you walkin’ around without a man.”
“I’m fine, thanks,” you say, voice firm but polite.
“Aww, c’mon now—don’t be like that,” he drawls, reaching like he’s about to touch your arm.
You stiffen, heart starting to pound—
Then suddenly, there’s someone else.
A wall of quiet tension slots between you and the sleazy stranger, solid and unmoving. The guy stumbles back half a step as the air shifts.
You don’t even need to look up to know who it is.
Low and slow, that familiar gravel-edged voice speaks:
“This guy botherin’ you, darlin’?”
Your heart kicks hard in your chest.
Choso stands between you and the drunk, broad shoulders blocking the man from view, voice calm but carrying a warning beneath it.
You swallow, then nod.
Choso doesn’t turn around. Doesn’t raise his voice. Just says, “Get lost.”
The guy laughs nervously. “Hey, no trouble—just chattin’, that’s all—”
Choso shifts. Barely. But something about the way he straightens, the silence that falls around him—it’s enough.
The drunk mutters something under his breath and stumbles off.
For a beat, it’s quiet.
Then Choso turns, finally, and his eyes rake over you—slowly, like he’s still processing what he’s seeing.
“You alright?” he asks.
You nod, heart fluttering so loud you’re sure he can hear it. “Yeah. Thanks.”
His gaze lingers a second too long before flicking away. “Shouldn’t be lettin’ creeps like that get near you.”
You smile softly. “Wasn’t exactly planning on it.”
He huffs, almost a laugh, then gestures toward the booths. “You eaten yet?”
“…No.”
“C’mon then,” he murmurs. “I’ll buy you somethin’.”
You fall into step beside him.
Maybe you weren’t just looking around after all.
The two of you drift past the bonfire, not saying much at first. There’s an ease to it—like neither of you feels the need to fill the silence. Just the scrape of boots on gravel, the occasional burst of laughter from nearby, and the soft hum of music carried on the wind.
You pause at a food stall where an older woman is selling fried hand pies. Choso buys two without asking—one for you, one for him. You raise an eyebrow as he hands it over.
“Thought I wasn’t hungry,” you say, amused.
“You looked at it twice,” he replies simply.
You roll your eyes, but your smile betrays you. “You always this observant?”
He shrugs, chewing. “Just when it matters.”
You try not to read too much into that. You fail.
You wander with him toward a quieter part of the festival, where the booths thin out and string lights dangle lower from wooden poles. Kids run past in a blur, chasing each other with glow sticks. There’s a tent set up nearby with hay bales inside for resting.
You slip into the edge of it to take a break, brushing your skirt down as you sit. Choso stands nearby, arms folded loosely, watching the crowd.
You can’t help sneaking a look at him. The way the firelight hits his profile. The way his jaw tightens when he’s lost in thought. He’s wearing that same beat-up hat—but you’ve seen what’s underneath now. The soft waves of his hair. The scar, beautiful in its own way. How gentle his eyes are, even when his face looks like it’s forgotten how to smile.
“You don’t like crowds, do you?” you ask softly.
He glances over, amused. “Figured that obvious?”
You laugh. “You’re standing like a bouncer outside a saloon.”
He huffs. “Just keepin’ an eye out.”
“For trouble?”
He looks at you for a beat. “For you.”
You don’t know what to say to that. Your fingers fidget with the edge of your dress—until you feel his gaze lower.
“That dress,” he says, voice low like he almost hadn’t meant to say it aloud. “You look real pretty in it.”
You blink up at him, caught off guard. “…What?”
He shifts his weight, gaze still on you but softer now. “I mean it. Real damn pretty, darlin’.”
Your heart jumps at the nickname. God, it sounds even better tonight. Heat crawls up the back of your neck as you glance down at the floral fabric bunched around your knees.
“I almost wore jeans,” you murmur, smiling despite yourself.
He chuckles, and it’s quiet but deep. “Would’ve looked good either way. But I’m glad you didn’t.”
You peek up at him again—and he’s still looking. Not just at your dress, not at the way your hair’s curled around your shoulders—but at you. Really looking.
He gestures to the edge of the hill beyond the festival. “C’mon. There’s a view you might like.”
You follow without thinking.
And maybe this isn’t a date. Maybe you both keep pretending it’s not.
But as he walks just ahead of you, turning back now and then to make sure you’re still with him—you feel it settling in your chest.
You follow him past the last of the booths, away from the warmth of the fire and the noise of the crowd. The grass grows wilder out here, untamed and soft beneath your boots. String lights give way to open sky, and above you, the stars stretch wide and scattered like sugar spilled over velvet.
Choso walks a little ahead, hands tucked in his pockets. His pace is slow, easy. Like he’s making sure you can keep up without looking like he’s trying.
“D you always bring girls out here?” you tease, nudging his arm gently with your shoulder.
He glances at you, amused. “Ain’t much of a crowd person, remember?”
“Still didn’t answer the question.”
That almost-smile tugs at his lips again. “No. First time.”
You don’t know what to say to that, but your heart makes a quiet little flutter behind your ribs.
The hill slopes up just enough to make your calves ache by the time you reach the top. But the view? It’s worth it.
Below, Dustwell looks like something out of a painting. Warm flickers of light. People like shadows moving between tents. Music floating up faint and distant. And past it all, the open stretch of the plains—blue-black and endless.
You exhale softly. “Wow.”
Choso settles beside you, just close enough for your arms to almost brush. “Didn’t oversell it, huh?”
You shake your head. “You didn’t say anything about it being this beautiful.”
He glances sideways, and for a moment, you think he’s going to say something else.
Instead, he hums low in his throat and says, “Figured you’d see it yourself.”
A breeze kicks up, catching the hem of your dress and lifting it just enough to make you shiver. You cross your arms, rubbing at your sleeves, and without a word, Choso shrugs off his jacket.
You hesitate. “You don’t have to—”
“I know,” he says simply, already draping it over your shoulders. “But you’re cold.”
The jacket smells like cedar and sun-warmed cotton. It’s too big, but in a comforting way. You sink into it without thinking, and when you glance up to thank him, he’s already looking at you.
Not shy. Not teasing.
Just… honest.
And something about it—something about him—makes your pulse slow, heavy in your ears.
Maybe this isn’t a date.
But it feels like one.
And right now, that’s more than enough.
You both fall into a quiet lull, watching the horizon blur at its edges. The night wraps around you, soft and vast, and with his jacket warming your shoulders, something inside you loosens.
You hug it closer. “I wasn’t even sure I’d stay at first,” you admit, voice hushed. “Dustwell just… felt like a name on a deed. Not a place I’d belong.”
Choso doesn’t interrupt. He waits, like he knows there’s more.
“I thought I’d fix up the house, sell it maybe. Move back to the city,” you say. “But then I started patching up things. Talking to people. And then…”
You glance over, offering a small smile. “Then I met you.”
His gaze is steady, unreadable—but his jaw flexes, just barely. Like your words landed somewhere deeper than you meant them to.
You shift slightly, brushing hair away from your face. “You ever get that feeling? Like maybe you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be, even if it doesn’t make sense yet?”
He’s silent for a beat too long.
Then, quietly—“Yeah.”
The word hangs between you, heavy and fragile.
You turn to face him fully now, searching his expression—and find that he’s already looking at you.
And there’s something in his eyes. Something new.
Tentative. Quiet. Intense.
His gaze flickers downward—just once, just enough to make your breath catch.
To your mouth.
He swallows, throat working. “You keep lookin’ at me like that, darlin’, ’m gonna start gettin’ ideas.”
Your heart slams in your chest.
And then he leans in—slow, so goddamn slow, like giving you every chance to pull away.
But you don’t.
Your hand finds the edge of his shirt, fingers curling into the fabric on instinct—like you need something to hold onto to keep you grounded. His fingertips skim along your jaw, featherlight, until his thumb brushes a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
He doesn’t pull away.
And you don’t either.
The air between you grows thick, weighted with everything unsaid. His hand lingers just beneath your jaw, rough from work and calloused in a way that feels real, solid—so unlike anything you’ve ever known.
You swear your heart’s beating so loud it’s echoing in your ears.
His eyes flicker from yours to your lips and back again, like he’s giving you every second to say no.
You don’t.
His nose grazes yours, warm breath fanning across your skin. Your lashes flutter as your eyes fall shut.
Then, finally, his lips press to yours.
Soft. Barely there at first. Just a brush. A question.
You sigh—yes, God, yes—and that’s all he needs.
The kiss deepens, coaxed open by quiet urgency and something tender just beneath the surface. His palm cradles the side of your face now, thumb stroking the apple of your cheek like he’s trying to memorize the shape of you.
He tastes like mint and something a little smoky, a little wild. He kisses like he’s not used to having something this gentle, this good, and he’s afraid it’ll vanish if he pushes too hard.
But still—he leans in closer.
Your spine meets the wooden rail behind you, but you hardly notice. Your hands slide up to his chest, the warmth of him soaking through his shirt, steady and sure. One of his hands drifts to your waist, grounding you, tugging you infinitesimally closer.
And God—you feel it. That shift.
That invisible line you just crossed.
When you finally part, it’s only because you need to breathe. And even then, his lips brush yours once more. A quieter kiss. A promise.
He doesn’t move far.
Forehead resting against yours, he murmurs, voice husky, “Been wantin’ to do that for a while now.”
You smile, lips still tingling. “Yeah?”
His eyes don’t leave yours. “Yeah.”
You blink up at him, dazed. Your lips still buzz where his mouth had just been, and your heart is doing something stupidly dramatic in your chest—fluttering like it’s got something to prove.
Choso pulls back just enough to see you, really see you. There’s a small crease between his brows like he’s still unsure if he overstepped.
But all you can do is stare.
Then—God—you laugh.
A quiet, breathy little sound that slips out before you can catch it.
He tilts his head. “Somethin’ funny, darlin’?”
Your hands are still resting against his chest, and you shake your head, cheeks warming. “No—no, just… I think my brain short-circuited a little.”
That earns the faintest smirk from him—just the barest curve at the corner of his mouth, but it feels like sunlight cracking through clouds.
“Well,” he drawls, voice low and rough, “you did look real pretty tonight. Could’ve warned me.”
You narrow your eyes at him, trying to play it cool despite the way your pulse is still racing. “Is that how you kiss everyone?”
He huffs a quiet breath—almost a laugh—and dips his gaze to your lips again. “No,” he says, low. “Just you.”
That does something to your chest. You feel it settle there, warm and certain.
Your voice is quieter now. “Why me?”
His eyes meet yours again, steady. “Ain’t figured that part out yet.”
And just like that, the shyness dissolves into something quieter, sweeter. You lean into him, your hands settling over his heart. It’s steady. Comforting.
He doesn’t rush the silence. Doesn’t push.
The noise of the festival still hums in the background, but it feels like a distant memory now—muted beneath the rush of your heart and the warmth still lingering on your lips.
He steps back a little, just enough to breathe, but not enough to lose the closeness. “You wan’ me to walk ya home?”
Your answer is immediate, quiet. “I do.”
You fall into step beside each other, the path dimly lit by strings of warm bulbs and the fading firelight from the festival. The ground crunches under your boots, and the night air wraps cool and easy around your skin. He doesn’t speak at first, and you don’t mind. You like the silence between you—it’s comfortable. Safe.
Then, as you near the edge of town, his hand brushes yours.
Just barely.
You glance over at him. He’s looking straight ahead like nothing happened, but there’s a soft pink creeping up the side of his neck.
You don’t say anything. You just let your hand shift a little closer.
The next time they touch, it’s on purpose.
Fingers slide together slow, like testing the weight of something new.
He doesn’t pull away.
And neither do you.
-
By the time you reach your porch, the stars are scattered thick above you and the crickets are singing like they know something you don’t.
You stop at the steps, not quite ready to go inside.
Choso stands just a step down, taller than you even now, his silhouette all shadows and moonlight. His fingers are still loosely curled around yours.
He looks at you, quiet.
You look back.
Something thick and tender swims in the air between you.
Then, just as you’re about to speak—he leans in again.
But this time, it’s different.
Softer. Slower. Like he’s savoring it.
His hand comes up to cup your cheek, thumb brushing over your skin, and his lips meet yours in a kiss that’s warm and unhurried. Like a goodnight. Like a promise.
It doesn’t last long—but it doesn’t need to.
When he pulls away, you’re still standing there, blinking, trying to catch your breath.
“Night, darlin’,” he murmurs, voice low and warm.
You open your mouth to respond but—nothing comes out.
He smirks, just barely, and tips his hat before turning back toward the road, boots crunching softly as he walks away.
You exhale a breath you didn’t know you were holding, pressing your fingers to your lips, heart racing.
-
[you]: shoko.
[you]: he kissed me.
[you]: just… kissed me. said “night, darlin’” and walked off like it was nothing.
[you]: i think i forgot how to stand for a second.
You watch the typing bubble blink in and out a few times.
[shoko]: and how was it
[you]: …really good.
[shoko]: knew it. told you he had a thing for you.
[you]: you also said he probably talks to horses more than people.
[shoko]: and apparently he kisses better than both. proud of you.
You huff a laugh, dropping your head back against the couch.
The room is quiet. The porch light still glows through the curtains. Your lips still tingle.
You pull your knees up to your chest, phone resting in your palm.
And when sleep finally pulls you under, it's with the weight of his touch still lingering and his voice—low and warm—tucked somewhere in the back of your mind.
-
The days that follow feel different.
Not loud or sudden—just quieter in a way that stays with you.
Like the way his eyes linger a little longer when you talk. Like the way he leans in when no one’s looking. Like the way your hand always seems to find his when no one’s around to see.
There’s a moment in the barn—just the two of you, the air heavy with hay and late sun—where he kisses you slow, with one hand braced against the stall and the other at your waist. You laugh into his mouth, and he smiles like he can’t help it.
Another time, it’s behind your house, just after he helps you carry firewood. You thank him and mean it—and before you can say more, he cups your jaw and kisses you like he’s been thinking about it all day.
Sometimes, though—sometimes it shifts.
Like the night you're sitting side by side on your porch steps, your knee brushing his, your laughter fading into something quieter. His eyes darken as they drop to your mouth. He kisses you, slower this time. Deeper. And when his lips trail down to the edge of your jaw, when his hand skims along your thigh—
The porch light flickers.
A car rumbles by.
You both pause, breath caught in your throats.
He pulls back with a soft exhale, forehead resting against yours for a second longer before he clears his throat and leans away.
Another time, it’s the hayloft—warm, private, the dust floating golden in the air. He’s hovering above you, lips at your collarbone, fingers curling just under the hem of your shirt—
Then the barn door creaks. A voice calls for him.
You sit up, flushed and breathless, heart thudding hard in your chest.
He mutters something under his breath, presses a kiss to your temple, and climbs down first.
It’s never awkward. Never forced.
Just moments that build. Stretch. Hold.
And it’s always him who pulls back—like he's afraid of what might happen if he doesn’t.
-
The air seems lighter, the walk into town quieter, your thoughts a little louder.
You find yourself smiling at nothing, fingers ghosting over your lips like they still remember the weight of his. And when you catch sight of him across the way—hat low, shirt clinging to his shoulders from the heat—you swear your pulse stutters.
He doesn’t say much when he sees you, just tips his head in that lazy way of his, mouth curling faintly at the edges.
But as you pass by, his hand brushes yours—just for a second. Barely there. Like a secret no one else is supposed to notice.
And you swear your skin hums from the touch.
Later, when you're out by the edge of the property replacing fence boards, he shows up with that same quiet timing he always does. He leans against the post beside you, hands in his pockets, watching.
“You’re gonna get splinters, y’know,” he drawls.
You shoot him a look. “Then maybe you should help.”
He does.
And this time, when he kneels beside you, handing you nails and steadying the board with one hand, his knee brushes yours and stays there. There’s no flinch, no apology—just a glance up, a half-smile passed between you.
When he stands, he offers a hand to pull you up. You hesitate a moment too long before taking it, your fingers curling around his, warm and sure.
“You always this helpful?” you tease.
He shrugs. “Only when there’s pretty company.”
You try to roll your eyes, but the way your heart kicks in your chest ruins the effort.
-
It starts with a rumble.
The sky’s been moody all morning, clouds hanging heavy like they’re waiting for the right moment to split open. You’d taken the risk anyway, walking into town for some supplies, telling yourself you’d beat the storm back.
You don’t.
You're only halfway down the winding road back to the house when it hits—sudden and sharp, fat drops pelting the dust and kicking up the smell of rain-soaked earth. Within seconds, you’re drenched. Your dress clings to your skin, hair plastered to your face, and you’re shivering as you trudge along, arms wrapped around yourself.
You barely hear the truck pulling up beside you over the roar of rain.
But you definitely hear his voice.
“Darlin’?”
You blink through the downpour, and there he is—Choso, leaning out the driver’s side window of his old pickup, hat pulled low, brow furrowed in concern.
“You tryin’ to drown out here?”
You shake your head, a breathless laugh escaping you despite the chill. “Thought I could outrun it.”
His eyes flick down, taking in your soaked dress, the way you’re hugging your elbows. His jaw flexes.
“My place is closer,” he says after a beat. “C’mon.”
You hesitate only for a second. Not because you don’t trust him—you do, more than you probably should—but because stepping into that truck feels like crossing into something else. Something charged.
Still, the rain’s cold, and your feet hurt, and his voice is so damn gentle.
You nod.
He’s out of the truck in a blink, jogging around the front and opening the door for you like it’s nothing, like it doesn’t send a flutter through your chest. He holds the door open as you climb in, and when your fingers brush his wrist, they’re warm, solid. Comforting.
Inside the cab, the heater’s on, and it smells like cedar and something faintly smoky. Choso reaches behind the seat, grabs an old flannel, and without a word, drapes it over your shoulders.
You glance over at him, your hands gripping the soft fabric.
“Thanks,” you murmur.
He’s quiet for a moment, eyes fixed ahead as he pulls back onto the road. Then, voice low: “Ain’t gonna let you freeze out here.”
You look over at him again, and this time, he catches your gaze.
The silence stretches.
“You always play knight in shining armor?” you tease, trying for casual, though your voice is soft around the edges.
Choso doesn’t look at you right away. His fingers flex around the steering wheel. “Nah,” he says eventually. “Don’t usually have a reason to.”
The hum of the engine fills the cab, steady and low, and the rain tapping against the windshield makes the world outside feel far away—blurred and gray and quiet.
Inside, it’s warmer. Safer.
You clutch the flannel tighter around you, the sleeves hanging over your fingers. The scent of it—woodsmoke, leather, something him—makes your chest ache just a little.
“Didn’t think the weather’d turn that fast,” you murmur, glancing out the window.
Choso glances over. “Storms move quick out here,” he says. “You’ll learn.”
You smile faintly. “Guess I’m still adjusting.”
“You’re doin’ alright,” he says, voice low.
The silence returns, but it’s not awkward. It settles over the two of you like another blanket. Comforting. There’s something steady in his presence, something grounding, and it creeps in slow, calming your nerves until your body starts to relax on its own.
He makes a turn, gravel crunching under the tires as he pulls onto a long, dirt path lined with wild mesquite trees. You didn’t realize how close his place actually was.
Your eyes feel heavy. Maybe it’s the warmth. Maybe it’s the rhythm of the road.
Maybe it’s him.
You glance over, watching him quietly—his jawline, the way the rain beads on the brim of his hat. Without thinking, you lean a little closer, until your head gently rests against his shoulder.
Choso’s muscles tense just slightly beneath you.
“Sorry,” you say quickly, starting to pull away.
But his voice stops you—soft, quieter than usual.
“It’s alright.”
And so you stay.
For a minute, maybe two, neither of you says anything. His shoulder is solid and warm beneath your cheek. You close your eyes.
“You get used to the rain, too,” he says after a while. “’Specially when you’ve got someone to ride it out with.”
There’s a pause. Your fingers twitch under the flannel.
“Think I’d like that,” you murmur.
He doesn’t answer, but you can feel the way his breath shifts. Like he wants to say something but bites it back.
The truck rolls to a stop.
“We’re here,” he says gently.
The rain’s still falling when Choso gets out and jogs around to open your door, hat tilted low to shield from the downpour. You hesitate for a second before slipping your hand into his, jumping down from the truck. His palm is rough and warm, and when you look up at him, his eyes are already on you.
The walk to the front porch is brief but soaked. By the time you’re inside, boots tracking mud onto the wooden floor, your clothes cling to your skin and your hair’s dripping water down your neck.
“Bathroom’s down the hall,” Choso says, tossing his keys onto a hook near the door. “Towels are in the cabinet. I’ll find you somethin’ dry.”
You nod, teeth chattering just a bit. “Thanks.”
The bathroom smells faintly of cedar and old cologne. You dry off as best you can, toweling your hair and arms. When you step out, Choso’s waiting in the hall with a bundle in his hands—a soft, well-worn hoodie and a pair of sweatpants that’ll definitely be too big.
“Hope that works,” he says, eyes flicking over you quickly. “Didn’t figure you’d want jeans.”
You smile, hugging the bundle to your chest. “Perfect.”
When you come out dressed in his clothes, sleeves past your hands and the waistband of the sweatpants rolled over once, he’s in the kitchen, pouring you a mug of something steaming.
“Here,” he says, holding it out. “Hot cocoa. Not coffee—it’s late.”
You raise a brow. “Didn’t peg you as the cocoa type.”
A ghost of a smirk tugs at his lips. “I ain’t. But you seem like the kind who’d need somethin’ sweet after a cold walk home.”
Your stomach flips.
You sip slowly, the warmth seeping into your fingers. He leans against the counter, arms crossed, watching you. There’s a quiet in the room again—not awkward, just…thick. Charged. Like something could happen if either of you let it.
Then, he tilts his head a bit. “You look good in that.”
Your gaze snaps up to his.
“In what?”
He nods at the hoodie. “Never liked how it looked on me, but it suits you.”
You laugh softly, heart in your throat. “I look like I’m drowning in it.”
“Still suits you.”
You barely register the shift in the air until you feel him move behind you—slow, purposeful. His boots echo quiet on the wooden floor, and before you can even turn, he’s there. His arms plant on either side of you, palms flat against the counter, caging you in without a word.
The space between your bodies buzzes with unspoken something. His chest nearly brushes your back, and when he dips his head, breath warm at the curve of your neck, you freeze.
Then—soft.
The faintest brush of his lips against your skin. Once. Then again. Featherlight, like he’s not sure he’s allowed to want this much.
You manage a breathless laugh. “I’m starting to think this was all an excuse to bring me here.”
You feel him smile against your neck, a quiet huff of amusement. “Wouldn’t be the worst idea I’ve ever had.”
Your heart skips, and before you can respond, he presses one more kiss—just below your ear this time—and murmurs, voice low, rough:
“Glad you agreed to come.”
You shift slightly, finally daring to glance back at him. “And if I hadn’t?”
He lifts his head, eyes locking with yours now—closer than you expected, darker too. “Guess I’d be missin’ out.”
The tension between you crackles. You're not sure who leans in first, but suddenly the distance isn’t so wide anymore.
His mouth crashes against yours this time—no hesitation, no space to think, just heat.
It’s clumsy at first, teeth clashing, breath hitching, but neither of you care. Your fingers tangle in the front of his shirt, tugging him closer like you’ll fall apart if there’s even an inch between you. He groans into your mouth, low and rough, one hand sliding around your waist to press you flush to him, the other threading into your hair.
Your back hits the counter as he crowds you in, lips hot and relentless, kissing like he means to memorize every inch. Tongues meet, the kiss deepening into something hungry, something that’s been simmering just below the surface for far too long.
His fingers splay across your lower back, gripping like he can’t stand the thought of letting go. Your hands wander—his jaw, his neck, the soft strands of his hair now damp from the rain. He kisses you like he’s starved, like this moment has been clawing at the edge of his self-control for days. Weeks.
When you gasp against him, he takes the opportunity to nip at your bottom lip, chasing it with a gentler kiss right after—contrasting, addictive. You pull him closer, like you’ll crawl into him if he lets you.
The only sound in the room is the soft rustle of clothing, the quiet thud of footsteps shifting, the desperate sound of mouths colliding again and again—wet, open-mouthed, aching.
Nothing else exists. Just the warmth of his body, the taste of his kiss, and the way he’s kissing you like he never wants to stop.
His hand slips beneath your hoodie, palm warm and steady against your skin. It’s not rushed—he touches like he’s memorizing, tracing the curve of your spine, the dip of your waist.
“Been thinkin’ about this,” he murmurs against your mouth, voice thick. “’Bout you.”
You shiver, not just from his touch but from how needy he sounds—like he’s been holding back and it’s finally breaking loose.
His teeth graze your jaw, your neck, and then he’s kissing lower, slower, the kind of kiss that makes your knees threaten to give out.
“You gotta tell me to stop,” he says, breath hot against your skin, “or I’m not gonna.”
But your hands are already tugging his shirt up, fingers greedy against the lines of his stomach, and the way you say his name—low, breathy, a little wrecked—has him cursing under his breath.
He’s everywhere—hands and lips and heat.
You barely notice when his hands shift—one to your thigh, the other braced at your lower back—until your feet leave the ground.
You gasp, arms locking around his shoulders as he lifts you like you weigh nothing.
“Choso—”
“Not here,” he murmurs, voice rough in your ear. “You deserve better than a fuckin’ kitchen counter.”
The heat of his breath sends a full-body shiver down your spine, but there’s something else too—the way he carries you, steady and certain, like he’s done thinking. Like he’s made up his mind.
He walks with you through the dim hallway, never once breaking eye contact when you look up at him.
“You sure?” he asks, even though he’s already halfway to his room.
You nod, breathless. “Yeah.”
His mouth twitches and the second you’re in his room, he’s setting you down on the bed like you’re the most important thing he’s ever touched.
Then he’s on you again, lips trailing down your neck, hands at your waist, tugging at your clothes like they’re in the way of something holy.
He leans over you, breath still heavy, eyes dragging across your body like he can’t decide where to touch first.
You’re in his hoodie—his hoodie—and there’s something about that that makes his jaw flex, like the sight alone has undone him.
“Didn’t think you could look better in my clothes,” he murmurs, voice low and gravelly. “’Til now.”
His fingers curl around the hem, and he lifts it inch by inch, knuckles brushing your stomach, your ribs, the curve of your chest—leaving a trail of goosebumps in their wake. He pulls it over your head with care, like he’s unwrapping something delicate, and tosses it aside without taking his eyes off you.
Then his hands slide to the waistband of the sweatpants.
He hooks his fingers under the fabric, ready to ask again—ready to take it slow. But when he tugs it down your hips and catches the bare skin beneath, he freezes.
There’s no fabric. No lace. Nothing.
His breath catches—sharp and audible—and his hands go still.
“...You’re not wearin’ anything underneath,” he says, almost like he’s making sure he didn’t just imagine it.
You nod, watching the understanding settle across his face. “Yeah. Didn’t wanna put them back on. You handed me your clothes, so I just…”
His hands tighten at your hips, knuckles flexing against your bare skin like he’s trying so fucking hard not to lose it.
“Jesus,” he mutters, low and hoarse, like the image just broke something in him. “You’ve been like this the whole time?”
Your breath hitches, and that’s all the answer he needs.
The shift in him is instant—his mouth is back on your skin, kissing a line down your stomach, then your inner thigh, slower this time, deeper, like he’s savoring the thought.
Hands spread your legs with a kind of reverence, eyes locked on you like a man seeing something sacred for the first time.
And when he settles between them, shoulders anchoring your thighs apart, it’s not just lust in his expression.
It’s awe. It’s hunger. It’s devotion.
He exhales slow, like he’s trying to ground himself—but the tension in his shoulders says it’s a losing battle.
“Fuck, baby…” he murmurs, voice barely there, lips hovering just over your skin. “You got no idea what that’s doin’ to me.”
His fingers dig into your thighs, spreading you wider as he leans in—and when he finally drags his tongue through your folds, slow and deliberate, it pulls a gasp straight from your chest.
He groans against you, deep and raw, like you’re the best thing he’s ever tasted.
“You’re soaked,” he breathes, almost in disbelief, like he wasn’t expecting you to be this ready for him. “This all for me?”
You nod, breath ragged, and he huffs a short, wrecked laugh against your skin. Then he’s back at it—mouth open, tongue greedy, sucking your clit into the heat of his mouth before pulling away just enough to tease you with the flat of his tongue.
It’s messy. It’s focused. He’s focused—like he’s been dreaming about this and finally has you where he wants you, and now he can’t stop. Won’t stop.
He grips your thighs tighter when they start to twitch, holding you in place, tongue fucking into you with slow, devastating precision. He’s learning what makes you squirm, what makes your hips buck, and he goes after it again and again—hungry, deliberate, obsessed.
Every so often, he pauses just to kiss you there. Open-mouthed, lingering kisses, like he’s trying to make it tender and filthy at the same time.
And when he speaks, it’s into your skin—low and reverent and wrecked.
“You taste so fuckin’ good,” he growls. “Could stay down here all night. You’d let me, wouldn’t you? Let me make you come on my fuckin’ tongue?”
You can’t even respond—your fingers are in his hair, clutching hard, and he moans at the way you tug, like your need turns him on even more.
He doesn’t stop. If anything, he gets deeper, more intense—tongue and lips working in tandem, determined to push you right over the edge.
And the look he gives you when you start to unravel? It’s pure worship.
Like you’re a miracle.
He doesn’t rush.
Doesn’t tear into you like he’s trying to make a point. He just stays there—mouth warm and steady, tongue moving slow and sure through your folds, like he’s figuring you out by feel.
And the second you react—hips tilting toward him, breath hitching—he locks onto it. Keeps going in the same rhythm, like he’s memorizing what works.
His grip on your thighs tightens just slightly, holding you open, but never forceful. Just firm. Like he doesn’t want to miss a single twitch, a single sound. One hand slides up, settling on your hip, grounding you, keeping you right where he wants you. The other stays on your thigh, thumb brushing slow circles into your skin, keeping you calm. Or trying to.
Because it’s not calm anymore.
There’s nothing showy in the way he moves—just focused, hungry pressure. Every lap of his tongue has intention behind it. He’s not trying to tease. He wants you to come, and it’s obvious in every breath, every groan, every time his mouth seals around your clit and pulls a noise out of you you didn’t know you could make.
When you start to shake, he pulls back just a little—enough to look at you.
“Almost there?”
You nod fast, too far gone for words, and that’s all he needs.
He goes right back in, tongue and mouth working in sync now, no hesitation, no breaks. Just pressure, just heat, just him, fully focused on pulling you under. The tension builds quick—sharp and tight, spiraling—and he doesn’t stop until you fall apart.
Even then, he lingers. Soft, slow, soothing now. Gentle licks while you come down, his hands smoothing over your hips like he’s making sure you’re still breathing.
He stays between your thighs for a moment, just breathing, eyes dragging over you like he’s trying to decide if you’re real. Then his hand slides down—slow, careful—and his fingers spread you open with a quiet, appreciative hum.
“You’re still dripping,” he murmurs, almost to himself.
He runs a thumb through the mess he’s made, not teasing, just... feeling. Like he needs to know how soft you are, how warm. Then he shifts up slightly, mouth still close, and presses a kiss to the inside of your thigh before slipping one finger in—slow and steady.
“Still with me?” he asks, voice low.
You nod, biting your lip, hips twitching at the stretch.
“Good.”
He keeps it gentle at first, letting you adjust, watching your face the whole time. Then he curls his finger just right, and the sound you make has him swearing under his breath.
“Fuck… yeah. There it is.”
He adds a second finger, just as slowly. It’s a snug fit, but you’re wet enough that he doesn’t have to push hard—and he doesn’t. He’s careful, steady, easing you open like he wants to take his time.
Like it matters.
And it does.
“You’re takin’ me so well already,” he says quietly, more wonder than praise. “Gonna feel so fuckin’ good around me.”
His fingers work in a steady rhythm now—deep, purposeful, hitting the spot over and over while his thumb finds your clit again, rubbing soft, slow circles that have your thighs shaking all over again.
“Think you can come like this?” he asks, almost curious. “Wanna feel you squeeze around my fingers before I even get inside you.”
He keeps going until your legs are trembling again, until you’re arching into him without even realizing, until he knows you’re right there—
And he doesn’t stop until he has you falling apart a second time.
You’re still catching your breath when his fingers slip free, slow and careful, like he doesn’t want to lose the warmth of you just yet. He presses another kiss to your inner thigh, then one just above your hipbone, working his way up your body with this quiet, steady intensity—like he’s been waiting forever to touch you like this.
When he finally settles over you, his face is close, his hair still damp at the ends, a little wild from where you’ve tugged at it.
“You okay?” he asks, voice low and quiet. Not just a throwaway check-in—he means it. Like if you said stop right now, he actually would.
You nod, still flushed, still reeling.
He studies you for a beat longer, eyes scanning your face like he’s looking for any sign you’re not sure. But you are. And when your hand curls around the back of his neck to pull him down for a kiss, that’s all he needs.
His mouth moves over yours—slow this time, less frantic than before. It’s warm. Intimate. Like he wants you to feel how much this means to him. And when he pulls back, his forehead rests against yours.
“Still not rushin’ you,” he says, almost like a promise. “But I want you. Been wantin’ you since the day we met.”
You swallow, heart pounding, and ease up onto your knees.
“Then let me,” you murmur. “I want to.”
He nods—small, reverent. His hands fall back to the mattress like he’s surrendering himself to you completely, and you shift, climbing into his lap with shaky hands and a tight chest. He watches you the whole time, eyes dark but gentle, tracking the way your thighs settle around his hips.
You lean forward to kiss him once—slow, almost nervous—then sit back and reach for the waistband of his sweatpants.
And that’s when your breath catches.
He’s big.
Thick, flushed, already leaking at the tip, and heavy against his stomach. You don’t even have your hand around him yet and he looks like he shouldn’t fit.
Choso sees your hesitation—feels it, maybe—and his voice comes quiet. Steady.
“You don’t have to—”
“I want to,” you whisper, eyes still locked on him.
You reach down, fingers curling around the base, and he shudders under you. The sound he makes is low and wrecked, like even the idea of you touching him is too much.
You guide him toward your entrance, breathing a little harder now. Every nerve is alive. His leaky tip brushes against you and he groans, fingers twitching against the bedsheets.
“Wait,” he says softly, his voice suddenly closer, steadier. His hand comes to your thigh, grounding. “You alright?”
You nod—quick, almost frantic.
“Yeah,” you breathe. “I just—you're big.”
His thumb strokes gently along your skin. “I know, baby. You don’t gotta rush, alright?”
Still, you press down—slowly, inch by inch—and your body gives, stretching around him. He’s thick, the burn immediate but not unbearable, just enough to make your eyes flutter shut, jaw tight as you try to breathe through it.
He sees it all.
Your thighs shaking. The hitch in your breath. The way your hands scramble for something to hold onto—him, the sheets, anything.
“Takin’ me so good,” he murmurs, sitting up just a bit to cup your face. His thumbs brush beneath your eyes. “Look at me, sweetheart.”
You blink down at him—and that’s when the tears slip, soft and silent.
“Oh, hey,” he whispers, thumbing them away gently, kissing the edge of your jaw. “Shh… you’re okay. You’re doin’ so good for me.”
His hands cradle your hips now, steadying you. Not forcing—supporting.
“You feel like heaven,” he says, eyes flicking down to where you’re still taking him. “You’re perfect. So fuckin’ perfect like this.”
Your breath stutters as you sink just a little more, and his jaw clenches hard.
“God, you’re squeezin’ me so tight,” he breathes, voice wrecked. “You don’t even know what you’re doin’ to me.”
You pause with most of him inside, breath shaky, overwhelmed—but full. And when your eyes find his again, he’s already there, watching you with a kind of quiet awe.
“You’re okay?” he asks again, softer this time.
You nod, a tear rolling down your cheek.
“I want to,” you whisper.
Choso smiles—soft and aching.
“Then take your time,” he says. “I’m not goin’ anywhere.”
You breathe deep, hands braced on his chest, hips trembling as you sink down the last few inches. The stretch burns, your body aching with the effort, but the way he looks at you—like you’re some kind of miracle—keeps you steady.
And then you bottom out.
Your thighs meet his hips. He’s all the way inside.
And for a second, everything goes still.
Choso’s head falls back against the pillows with a ragged breath, jaw clenched so tight you swear you can hear his teeth grind. His fingers grip your hips, not to guide you, just to anchor himself—like he needs something to hold on to or he’ll lose whatever grip on reality he has left.
“Fuck,” he chokes out. “Baby—fuck, you—”
His eyes squeeze shut and he groans, long and low, like he’s never felt anything like this before. Like you’ve just undone him completely.
“You feel so good,” he whispers, voice shaking. “You feel so fuckin’ good, I can’t—can’t even think straight.”
Your hands slide up his chest as you breathe through the fullness, the pressure—every nerve raw and pulsing.
He blinks up at you, eyes blown wide, flushed and wrecked. His hands move again, gentler now, one cupping your waist, the other smoothing up your spine until it cradles the back of your head.
“You okay?” he murmurs again. “Still good?”
You nod, breathless, lips parted. “Yeah.”
“You’re takin’ me so good. Can’t believe you’re lettin’ me in like this. Feels like—feels like I’m dreamin’,” he murmurs, kissing your chest, your collarbone, wherever he can reach.
You shift your hips just slightly, and he groans, clutching at your waist like it’s the only thing keeping him grounded.
“Don’t move yet,” he begs, forehead pressed to your sternum. “Just—just stay like this a minute. Let me feel you.”
And so you do.
You sit there, chest to chest, buried deep in each other, his hands trembling against your skin, your breath feathering against his ear. No movement. No rush. Just the overwhelming heat of him inside you, the way he kisses your shoulder like he’s saying thank you without words.
Like he can’t believe he gets to be this close.
You start to move—just barely. A slow roll of your hips, careful and unsure, easing yourself into the rhythm.
Choso groans, low and guttural, his fingers tightening where they rest on your hips. You feel him twitch inside you, thick and heavy, and when you do it again—just a little deeper—his head drops back with a gasp.
“Baby…”
It’s a warning. A plea. His restraint is hanging by a thread.
But you do it again—grind down a little harder, a little slower—and that thread snaps.
He surges up with a grunt, hips bucking into you hard and sudden, burying himself deeper than before. You gasp, eyes wide, hands flying to his chest for balance.
“Choso—!”
“Fuck, I can’t,” he growls, mouth at your neck, voice cracked and breathless. “You feel too good—too fuckin’ good—I tried, baby, I did—”
He thrusts up again, rougher now, the sound of skin meeting skin filling the room. You moan loud, back arching into him, completely overwhelmed.
He groans against your shoulder, hands gripping your hips like a man possessed, guiding you into a rhythm he can’t hold back anymore. Snapping up into you over and over, messy and hard and desperate.
“So tight—so fuckin’ wet—” he pants. “You were made for me, weren’t you?”
You whimper, nodding against his mouth, and he kisses you hard, open and gasping between thrusts.
“This what you wanted?” he mutters, teeth grazing your bottom lip. “Me losin’ it underneath you? Fuckin’ you like I need it?”
Your only answer is a cry—his name—and that breaks him even more.
He pounds into you now, rhythm rough and frantic, his body trembling under the weight of it all. Every thrust drives him deeper, drags a moan from your throat, makes your vision blur with heat.
His thumb brushes your clit, fast and precise, and your whole body jerks.
“There you go,” he breathes, watching you with wild eyes. “C’mon, baby. Wanna feel you cum on me. Wanna feel you lose it—right fuckin’ here.”
And with the way he’s fucking into you—relentless, possessive, absolutely wrecked—you know you won’t last long.
Your climax crashes through you like a wave—sudden, shaking, too much. Your hips stutter, thighs trembling where they’re locked around him, mouth falling open in a gasping moan.
“Thaaat’s it,” he murmurs through gritted teeth, slowing his thrusts but never stopping, easing you through the high. “That’s my girl. Fuck—so pretty when you come for me.”
His grip on your waist loosens just slightly, letting you ride the tail end of it. You collapse forward onto his chest, boneless, breathing hard, face tucked into the crook of his neck as your walls flutter helplessly around him.
He groans.
And then it happens.
In one fluid motion, he moves—sits up, grabs you by the hips, and flips you onto your back like you weigh nothing. Your gasp barely escapes before his mouth is on yours, hungry, his body heavy and burning over yours.
He thrusts back into you hard and deep, and your whole body jolts. He’s panting now, fully gone, sweat beading at his temple, hair sticking to his jaw in damp strands.
His hips slap against yours, hard and fast, rhythm brutal. Gone is the careful restraint.
“Fuck—you’re still so tight,” he pants, driving into you again, harder. “So warm—could stay inside you forever.”
One hand grabs your thigh and pushes it back, open, spreading you wider so he can get even deeper. You cry out, toes curling, fingernails dragging down his back.
“Hold it there, baby,” he says through clenched teeth, eyes locked on where you’re joined. “Just like that—let me have it.”
His other hand drops between your bodies, fingers finding your clit like he knows exactly what you need. He rubs tight, fast circles, dragging a broken sound from your throat.
“You’re gonna give me another one,” he growls, pace relentless. “You’re gonna fuckin’ take it.”
And with the way he’s pounding into you—feral, possessed, hand on your thigh, breath hot against your cheek—you know he means it.
You’re not leaving this bed until he’s satisfied.
You’re soaked—sweat-slick and breathless beneath him, body trembling with the aftershocks of your third orgasm but he’s still moving—still buried inside you, deep and hard and relentless.
“Cho,” you whimper, voice wrecked, eyes fluttering.
“I know, I know,” Choso breathes, hand still working tight, precise circles against your clit. “One more, you got one more for me.”
You’re not sure if it’s a question or a command—but your body responds before your mouth can. Hips twitching, walls fluttering again around him like you need him to wring the last of it from you.
His thrusts grow rougher—sloppier, deeper—his control unraveling fast. His hand moves from your thigh to your face, tilting your chin toward him as he leans in, eyes locked to yours.
“You feel what you’re doin’ to me?” he hisses. “Can’t hold back anymore—fuck, baby—”
And then he slams into you one last time, hips grinding deep as you clench around him like a vice.
That’s all it takes. You break.
Again.
Your fourth orgasm rips through you without warning—violent, breath-stealing, almost too much. Your vision blurs. Back arches. A sob breaks in your throat as your body clenches, pulsing wildly around him.
Choso loses it.
“Fuck—fuck—oh my god—” he snarls, buried to the hilt as his body goes rigid, cock twitching inside you. “That’s it—fuckin’—fuckin’ takin’ me just like that—”
He cums hard, groaning deep and wrecked, hips jerking as he spills into you, warmth flooding deep. One hand cradles the back of your head, the other gripping your waist like it’s the only thing keeping him from falling apart completely.
You both stay like that—panting, sweating, shaking—his body heavy over yours, his forehead pressed to yours, eyes shut tight like he’s afraid it’s all going to disappear if he opens them.
Finally, he exhales—slow, shaky, almost a laugh.
“You alright?” he whispers, voice hoarse, thumb brushing your cheek.
You nod weakly, barely able to speak. “Mhm.”
He smiles, kisses your forehead.
“You were so good for me, angel,” he murmurs. “So fuckin’ perfect.”
You flinch a little when he pulls away, already missing the weight of him, the heat.
“Be right back, darlin’,” he murmurs, pressing a soft kiss to your jaw. His voice is low, rough around the edges, but there’s something tender in it. “Gonna get you cleaned up.”
You nod, barely able to do more than breathe.
He disappears down the hall, leaving the room bathed in the quiet aftermath—your heart still hammering, skin tingling where his hands had been. He returns a minute later with a damp, warm towel and kneels beside you, moving slow, careful.
“Still doin’ alright?” he asks, voice softer now.
“Yeah,” you whisper, and he gives a small nod, gaze never leaving yours as he starts to clean you up.
“Did so good for me,” he says. “Took me so damn well.”
You try to hide your face, but he catches your chin between his fingers, thumb brushing the edge of your jaw.
“Don’t go shy on me now.”
Once he’s done, he tosses the towel aside and climbs back into bed, pulling you into him like you belong there. You do. Right now, you do.
For a long while, it’s just the sound of your breathing—yours slowing, his steady. One of his hands drifts up and down your back, lazy and unhurried, like he’s in no rush to let the moment go.
Then, quietly, “Didn’t think I’d ever want somethin’ like this.”
You glance up at him, chin tucked near his shoulder. “Like what?”
He hesitates, eyes on the ceiling. Then, “You. In my bed. Not just for tonight.”
Your breath catches, heart stumbling. You don’t answer right away. Instead, your fingers find his, lacing together.
“I’m not in a rush to leave,” you murmur, pressing your forehead to his chest.
Choso doesn’t say anything at first, just exhales slowly—and the arm around you tightens, pulling you in like he’s afraid to let go.
Then, just above a whisper, you hear him say, “I’m glad you’re not.”
There’s a quiet honesty in it that makes your chest ache a little. You nuzzle closer, fingers still laced with his, and let the silence stretch comfortably between you.
No need to rush. Not tonight.
author's note. not my proudest work but to be fair, i did write this while going through major writer's block. i still hope y'all enjoy it <3
Gonna have to issue a flood warning from how much I'm gushing, reading this 🤤🤤🤤
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PAIRINGS: outlaw!gojo satoru x fem!reader | WC: 5k
SUMMARY: you live a nice, yet hard-working life as a rancher's daughter - and you expect that it will continue to be so until a certain gang of outlaws shows up at your doorstep.
WARNINGS: story takes place in wild west, albeit it may not be fully accurate to how it was back then. kidnaping, angst, forced labor, some characters may act slightly ooc at times, murder, mentions of death, blood and violence.
A/N: i hope nobody has done this before help. uhm, theres more notes at the end of the chapter so i wont be saying a lot here buuut dont worry, ill still be doing my batfam x reader this is jst a side obsession i have to feed rn or else i wont be able to focus.
you knew the heat would kill the tomatoes before august, but you kept hauling the water buckets anyway.
that was just how life was.
for you, at least. not for those snobby rich folk down the road that didn’t have to worry ‘bout money a day in their life.
you suppose, life on the perimeter of the territory didn’t leave room for whole lot of laziness. you were the oldest, so while your pa was out sweating over a herd of cattle the bank technically owned (albeit the man kept insisting it wasn't actually like that - you just sighed and gave him the benefit of doubt), and your ma was trying to keep the toddlers from swallowing dirt, you did the heavy lifting. you hadn’t got no brother to take up the hard and dirty work to let you leisure and dally around - to keep you real sweet and unhardened by the world and maybe a little naive to the ways of life like most men would want their daughters to be.
naively happy. innocently happy.
your knuckles seemed to be permanently stained gray from scrubbing denim on the washboard and your back more often than not ached by noon.
it was a dull, predictable kind of tired, but it was yours. you loved your family enough to bear with it.
but the dust kicked up on the horizon.
they came for you in the middle of the day. whole lot of shameless bastards they are - better men would at least wait for nightfall, would at least try and hide their intentions behind the cloak of darkness and come during the blind man's hour. not them though. they kicked the door in when your family was just about ready to eat lunch, the food still steaming and your sweet ma still in her apron.
poor little you didn’t even have time to let out a yelp.
oh god, pa. get up, please get up.
one outlaw smashed his rifle butt into your pa's temple and your old man was out like a light, still clutching the knife he'd grabbed to defend you in a poor, desperate attempt. two others grabbed your mother and shoved her into the pantry, blocking the door with a tipped over cupboard.
you ran to get your siblings and then the sheriff - or tried to at least. they were crowded into your kitchen, laughing as you turned from one to the other.
"no way out, lady."
"too late to run now, shoulda started before we even got here if you wanted to get away."
"look at her all scared. well ain't it just adorable?"
with near identical duster coats and bandanas tied across their faces (although one had their bandana or what that was tied around his eyes…?), you couldn't tell them fully apart. all you could tell was the distinct differences in their heir color - one having white, the other having some shade of pinkish red and the last one having short black hair. it didn’t matter though, they were dirty, rotten bastards. all of them. they were closing in on you, a little at a time. you tried to fight, to pull away when one of them grabbed you. but they were dust-bitten outlaws and you were just a rancher's daughter. it wasn't even a struggle for them.
the one with pinkish red one slammed you down on the kitchen table to keep you in place.
your mama's good jug which she had poured milk in tumbled off and shattered on the floor. that was what you focused on for a second as the guy held you down.
not the wedding gift. anything but that - it was so dear to your ma, she would be devastated seeing that. the shards of blue and white ceramic in the puddle of milk. your chest began heaving as you struggled against the brute's grip.
while you were pinned, the tallest outlaw strolled over to your father's limp body. he had stark white hair peeking out from beneath his hat, and a thick black bandana tied tightly over his eyes - you would have wondered why he wears it that way and how he even sees if it wasn’t for you desperately tryna get out of the pink haired one's hold. he looked entirely too relaxed for a man standing in a home he ruined. with an annoyed whine, the white-haired man bent down, grabbed your pa by his hair, and yanked his head around roughly.
“heeey, wake up," the guy grumbled, shaking your pa's head back and forth. "ain't no way you're actually weak enough to get knocked out from just that. come on, old man. don't play dead on me now, its time for business.”
the black haired one sighed as he stood behind him. “quit playing, we got business.”
the white haired one doesn’t turn to even spare him a glance, poking your pa's cheek now. “i am doing business.”
the pink-haired one holding you down groaned in sheer annoyance, his boots shifting on the floorboards. "satoru, just tie him up and take the damn bastard or shoot 'em so we can get moving. we ain't got all damn day for you to play around."
shoot him? oh god, no. they're gonna kill him right here. they were gonna kill your pa.
panic surged through you, hotter than the desert sun. you stopped thrashing against the table for a split second, drawing in enough breath to scream over the sound of your mother's muffled crying from the pantry.
"don't! please, don't shoot him!" your voice cracked, and you don’t think you've ever heard yourself sound so desperate before. you glared up at the white-haired man, tears of anger blurring your vision. "why are you doing this? what do you even want from us? we ain't got nothing as you can see!"
the white-haired man stopped shaking your pa's hair. he slowly let the old man's head drop back to the floor and turned his face toward you with a grin. even with the bandana covering his eyes, you could feel the weight of his stare pressing down on you, judging.
"well, now," he purred, taking a step toward the counter. "looks like the little bird's got a voice after all."
the white-haired man took his sweet time walking over, his boots clicking against the floorboards before he leaned his hip against the very counter the brute held you on. he looked down at you seemingly completely unbothered by your terror.
the brute just let out another heavy groan from behind you, his grip tightening on your shoulders as if to say he was sick to death of the man's theater, but he didn't say a word to stop him. despite all their complaining, nobody had tried to stop him.
"ain't got nothing, you say?" the white haired man asked, tilting his head. the black cloth over his eyes didn't hide the amusement you could tell he was feeling. "now, that's just a flat-out lie, sweetheart. or maybe you're just blind."
"i'm not lying!" you choked out, the wood of the counter scraping your cheek as you tried to look him dead in the face. "we're just ranchers. we don't have gold! we ain’t got nothin for scum like you!"
the white-haired man didn't twitch at the insult, the bastard thought it to be funny considering how he chuckled so loudly that it made your skin crawl, before he eventually pushed himself off the counter. he turned his back on you like you weren't even a threat, wanderin’ lazy-like around your kitchen.
all you could do was helplessly watched him through a blur of tears as he began to poke through your life like it wasn’t nothing special. he stopped by the mantle, his long fingers trailin’ over the dusty little family photograph your ma had saved from the old country, the one she was so proud to put up. he moved to the window, idly pinchin’ the fabric of the curtains - curtains you'd spent three nights patchin’ up by the light of a dyin’ candle just to keep the draft out for your baby siblings who always complained about sun ray's peeking through so early in the morning. then he started openin’ the cupboards. click, clack. one after the other, starin’ at the half-empty shelves, the meager tins of flour and the near-bare lard jars.
he let out a whistle that echoed through the house.
"well, now," the white-haired man mused, swingin’ a cupboard door shut with a soft thud. "either your old man was spinnin’ me a whole web of lies, or he's just a whole lot worse at ranchin’ than i thought he was. standard's real low around these parts, ain't it?"
your head spun. worse at ranchin’ than he thought? why he'd talk about your pa that way? he talked about your old man like he sat at his table before, like he knew the exact size of the herd you were supposed to have. it didn't make a lick of sense, your pa was an honest man! he didn't run with thieves, ‘specially such scummy ones.
"who are you?" you demanded, your voice tremblin’ but loud enough to be clear. "how do you know my pa? explain it to me, goddamn it!"
the white-haired man's attention snapped back to you in a second. he strolled back across the kitchen, his towerin’ frame castin’ a long shadow that swallowed you whole where you lay pinned under the brute's weight. the easy-going smirk vanished from his face, replaced by something that made him look every bit the monster you're sure he was.
"a debt is owed, darlin'," the white-haired man said, his voice droppin’ into a dangerous register. "a real long one at that. your pa owes me a mountain of money that he hadn't paid back in years. every winter it's the same story. 'i'm a good rancher makin’ good money, satoru, it'll come soon, just give me till the spring.' well, spring came and went, and my pockets are still pretty light." he mimicked your pa's voice far too theatrically.
he leaned down, his face inches from yours and you could smell him. he smelled…
…surprisingly fresh. surprisingly a whole lot like soap and cakes and sugar. maybe even a tad bit like peaches.
you barely registered the fact that your pa made a deal with a damn outlaw and borrowed money from 'em, you had to keep yourselves alive somehow.
"so i'm here to take what's mine. and since he ain't got the coin, i reckon i'll just have to take it out of his hide."
before you could even get a word past the lump in your throat, another voice did so before you.
"satoru. we gotta get goin’."
you blinked through the tears, realized the black-haired one had moved away from the door and was now standin’ right by the window, peeking through a gap in the patched curtains. you’d been so fixated on the white-haired man - on satoru, as he’d called himself and gotten called - that you hadn't even heard the him move.
"camp’s waitin’," the black-haired one muttered, his eyes scanin’ the dusty road outside. "ain't too good to stay in such an place for too long. the law might get wind."
the brute let out a harsh bark of a laugh from above you. "finally. thought we’d be rotting in this shack forever."
satoru just sighed, a totally fake, disappointed sound - you don't think you've ever seen a more theatrical man. he leaned down, and before you could flinch, his leather-gloved hand came down on your head, rufflin’ your hair like you were some stray dog he’d found on the trail. "well, duty calls, darlin'."
he pulled his hand away and gave you a mock wave. "bye-bye now. don't you worry none, you’ll probably see your pa again in a few years. i mean, if he survives the canyon work, that is." he shrugged his big shoulders, lettin’ out a little giggle that made your stomach drop.
survives?
satoru turned his back on you, noddin’ to the black-haired one. the two of them hauled your limp, unconscious pa off the floor, rough as sack of potatoes, and took the thick hemp ropes off their belt and started binding his wrists. they stuffed a dirty rag into his mouth, gaggin' him tight.
fuck, fuck fuck. panic was all you could feel as you thrashed against the table again, but the brute didn't even sweat, keeping you pinned flat. think, goddamn it, think. if they took your pa, your family was dead. the bank owned the land, the cattle, the house - everything was in his name and they sure as hell wouldn’t hand it over to your ma, and even then, the woman’s less clueless than your old man! a woman and three toddlers couldn't run a failing cattle ranch alone. the bankers would ride out here by next month and toss your ma and the kids into the dirt without a second thought. they needed him. they couldn't survive without him even if he was a little feather headed.
you couldn't let them take him, also because he was your pa.
"wait!" you screamed, your voice crackin’ so loud it rattled the remaining dishes. "take me! take me in his stead!"
the kitchen went dead quiet, you swear you could hear damn crickets chirping.
satoru froze, half-bent over your father's tied-up boots. he slowly turned his head toward you, his jaw slightly slack. for a second, his face looked completely shocked - genuine, real shock. but then, that goddamn smirk crawled right back onto his mouth.
he let out a dramatic gasp, straight-up feigning shame as he crossed his arms over his chest, playfully hiding himself like a schoolgirl caught out of uniform.
"my, my," satoru gasped, his voice going all high and mock-offended. "i mean, i know i’m incredibly, spectacularly handsome, darlin’, but ain't it a little bold to just throw yourself at a man like that? right in front of your kin, too?” he said ‘bashfully’, slightly turning himself away from you. “i'll have you know i'm as holy and pure as the virgin mary herself."
you just stared at him, completely bewildered. is this bastard insane? there was blood on his boots, a gun on his hip, your family was ruined, and he was standing there making jokes about his face!
the black-haired one didn't look amused either. he just gave satoru a look of pure disgust, shakin’ his head as he turned on his heel and walked right out the busted front door.
the brute seemed to have hit his limit, too. he let out a curse under his breath and abruptly let go of you, shoving himself away from the table. the sudden loss of pressure made your whole body ache, your ribs throbbing where they’d been crushed against the wood.
"harry up, satoru," the brute growled, checkin' the cylinders on his revolver as he moved toward the exit. "i’ll get the horses ready and wait outside. don't take all damn day."
once the brute cleared out, you pushed yourself up on your shaky elbows, your face burning with a mix of fury and terror. "you're a creep," you hissed at the white-haired man, your voice shakin’. "a total pervert."
satoru just tilted his head, his grin widenin’ like he enjoyed the tongue-lashing.
a cold chill ran down your spine… maybe you should shut up. you're acting like a damn idiot, what’re you doing, angering him? he can still shoot pa. he could shoot you. you swallowed your pride, squeezin' your eyes shut for a brief second before locking your gaze back onto the black cloth over his eyes. you had to double down. it was the only way, wasn’t it?
"i mean it," you said, your voice steadier now, forcing the desperation out. "take me instead of him. i can cook and i can clean the camp, i… i can do the laundry, and i know basic first aid. i can even patch up bullet holes and mix poultices. i'm useful! my pa is old and slow - he'll just slow your gang down on the trail. take me."
the mock-offended posture he had a second ago melted off him in an instant. satoru stood tall, his broad shoulders squared as he looked down at you.
the silence that stretched between you in that dusty kitchen was thick enough to choke on and a part of you wished you would, so you wouldn’t have to deal with this. this situation. even with that black rag tied over his eyes, you could feel him starin’ holes right through you, weighin' your worth, testin' your mettle.
the easy-goin' man he feigned to be was gone; this is what an outlaw is supposed to be like, every bit as cold and deadly and cruel as the rumors say ‘em to be.
"that what you truly want, darlin'?" he asked. his voice wasn't high or playful no more.
your throat felt like it was full of desert sand. your hands slightly trembled against the wood of the counter, your fingers twitchin'. you tried to get a word out, to spit a defiant yes right into his face, but your voice just wouldn't come. you had to settle for a firm, nod of your head.
satoru stared a second longer before he suddenly turned away, dismissin’ you like the choice was already made. he strode back over to your pa's limp form, bent down, and sliced the thick hemp ropes with a quick flick of his pocket knife. he yanked the dirty gag out of the old man's mouth and tossed it to the floor.
"reckon the trade's made, then," satoru murmured, clearin' his throat as he stood back up. "you’ll be payin' your father's debts off in labor. let's see if you're half as useful as you claim."
before you could even process it, his leather-gloved hand wrapped around your wrist like an iron manacle. he yanked you onto your sole feet, the sudden movement makin' your bruised ribs protest. he didn't seem to care. he pulled you right along behind him, your boots scrapin' against the wood as he led you toward the busted front door.
as you were dragged out, your heart ached fiercely for your poor ma. you could still hear her wailin' from inside the pantry, albeit it had quieted down to a low, ragged sobbing that broke what little spirit you had left. you could only hope your younger siblings would wake up from their afternoon nap soon - or whatever it was they were doing in the back room that they couldn’t hear all the commotion - and notice the quiet, find her, and free her. or maybe your pa would stir first. tears pricked your eyes as you thought of how your father would react when he finally woke up and found you gone. you thought of your ma and the little ones, how upset and broken they’d all be when they realized what you’d done.
the blinding glare of the midday sun hit you as satoru pulled you out onto the porch. down in the dirt yard, the brute and the black-haired one turned their heads. the brute raised his eyebrows slightly at the sight of you bein’ dragged along, clearly surprised the boss had actually taken you, but not questioning his judgment.
they were standin’ with three of the most magnificent creatures you’d ever laid eyes on. for a gang of cold-blooded thieves, their stock was immaculate. there was one majestic, deep brown horse twitchin' its ears, one absolutely beautiful and massive black steed that looked like a shadow come to life, and one striking white horse covered in dark spots. every single one of them was exceptionally beautiful, coat gleamin’ in the heat, and clearly well taken care of. even better than the horses in your family’s stall, you think
"you actually changin' the terms, satoru?" the brute grunted, tossin' the reins of the brown horse over its neck. "thought we were here for the old man."
"the girl volunteered," the black-haired one muttered from atop the spotted white horse, his voice flat as he adjusted his hat. he probably overheard your conversation with satoru considering there wasn’t much blocking the noise.. the door was busted down afterall. "said she’s useful. means less dead weight for us to carry if she can actually cook."
"ain't that the truth," satoru chirped, his fake charm returning in a flash. he led you straight toward that massive black steed - his horse. "besides, look at her. she’s got a lot more fire in her than that old codger."
before you could even guess his next move, satoru caught you by the waist. to your absolute surprise, he hoisted you straight up in the air with a little ‘huup!’ like you weighed nothing at all, settlin' you down sideways right onto the front of his saddle.
"hey-!" you started, but he just patted your knee, a grin stretchin' across his hidden face.
"can't be trustin' you with takin' one of the horses from your family's stall, darlin'," satoru said, checking the stirrups. "considerin' you could just ride off into the brush the second we turn our backs. not that i think you'd actually do that, mind you. you’d just doom your pa if you ran. but a good lawman - or a good outlaw - is always sure."
you sat uncomfortably, your thighs pressed against the hard leather of the saddle horn, your hands clutched tight to stay balanced. a second later, the saddle creaked as satoru swung his long leg over the back, mountin' the massive horse right behind you. his chest pressed flush against your back, his long arms comin' around either side of your waist to grip the thick leather reins. you were completely caged in by hard-earned muscle and the scent of trail dust.
the brute and the black-haired one spurred their mounts, and satoru followed right behind, his massive black steed clickin’ its hooves against the earth. as the horses broke into a steady trot, heading straight toward the red canyons on the horizon, you didn't look back. you couldn't bear to see the dust risin' over your ruined home.
…
the horses ate up the miles at a bone-jarring pace, headin' deeper into the foothills where the brush turned to rock. the midday heat was brutal, the sun heavy on your neck (although some of it was blocked by satoru's massive frame), but you just sat there meekly. you didn't say a word and kept your hands tucked into your lap, your eyes fixed on the twitch of the black steed's ears, tryin’ your best not to lean back against satoru’s chest. but every tilt of the trail shifted your weight, and his arm stayed locked around your waist like a iron strap, keepin' you from slippin' off.
after an hour of nothing but the sound of creakin' leather and hooves against dry dirt, they took off their bandanas - well, the brute and the black haired one at least. satoru kept his covering his eyes. you were surprised to see that both the brute and the black haired one had tattoo's - the brute more so than the black haired one considering he has most of his face done and the other only one singular tattoo across his nose like a scar. soon enough, the men started talkin’ over the wind.
"suguru’s gonna have a fit when we ride in without the coin," the brute grunted, pullin' his hat down to block the glare.
"let him pace," satoru chimed in from behind you, his voice vibrating right through your spine. he sounded completely cheerful, like they were just comin' back from a sunday social. " ‘sides, suguru knows the old man didn't have a red cent. besides, i brought back a worker. that's an investment, ain't it, choso?"
the black-haired one - choso - didn't look back from his spotted horse. "suguru ain't the problem. it's nobara. that girl’s probably goin’ to nag at us the second she sees we brought a hostage instead of supplies. she’s been sour since the flour ran low."
"nobara nags at everyone," the brute muttered, spittin' a stream of dark tobacco juice into the dirt. "if she starts squawkin' at me, i’ll tell her to take it up with yuji. speaking of - where’s our brother been anyway? didn't see him since we went out to ride. if he didn't finish the wood line like he was told, i'm clip-ping his ears."
"yuji was helpin' megumi with the horses when we left," choso said, his voice soft but carrying a strange, protective edge. "he's a good boy. don't go layin' a hand on him, sukuna. i told you about that."
you listened to them trade words, your mind workin' through the exhaustion. sukuna. so that was the brute’s name. and choso was the black-haired one. you glanced between them, catchin' the line of their jaws and the way they both held their reins. our brother. brother. you wouldn't have guessed it from the way the brute snarled at everything that breathed, but maybe there was a resemblance. and there were more of them waitin', too. a woman named nobara, someone named suguru, and a couple of boys named yuji and megumi. an entire damn gang hidden away in the canyons.
"hear that, darlin'?" satoru murmured, leanin' down just enough so his breath tickled the shell of your ear. "you'll be sooo popular with everyone. nobara’s a real spitfire, but i reckon you two will get along just fine once she realizes you can scrub a pot."
you didn't give him the satisfaction of a reply. you squeezed your eyes shut, your body achin' from the stiff saddle, and prayed the trail would end soon.
A/N: OKAY THATS IT W UHH PT1. honestly been getting a lot into gojo satoru x reader and rdr2 so i just haaadd to write an outlaw!gojo… im not sure how many parts this will have considering im still gonna be posting and writing scream, but i really like the concept i have for this fic. albeit im really unsure if i did their characterization justice esp gojo's. 🥹 anyhow lmk if you want me to continue this or naaahhh. to be added to the taglist 4 this jst like and comment ✌️
the local haunted house has a 5-star rating (and a very clingy ghost)
an incomplete list of things the realtor failed to mention before you signed the lease:
1. the plumbing sounds like a Victorian child weeping.
2. the kitchen is permanently five degrees colder than the rest of the house.
3. the ghost living in the master bedroom is 6'3, possesses eyes like expensive marble countertops, and is an absolute menace to society.
it’s your third night in the house when the haunting officially begins.
you’re sitting on the living room floor, surrounded by half-unpacked boxes and eating cold takeout, when a pristine thrift-store mug lifts itself off the counter, floats into the air, and drops directly onto the hardwood.
smash.
you don’t even flinch. you’re too tired. your back hurts. you look at the shattered ceramic, then stare blankly at the empty space above it.
"look," you say, your voice dripping with soul-crushing exhaustion. "i paid first, last, and a security deposit. i have forty-two dollars left in my savings account. if you’re trying to scare me out, you’re going to have to try harder, because the economy is worse than whatever curse is on this house."
a beat of silence.
then, a laugh. it’s not a spooky, echoing, graveyard laugh. it’s loud, bright, and deeply amused.
the air in front of you shimmers like hot asphalt, and suddenly there’s a guy leaning against your kitchen counter. he’s impossibly tall, wearing a loose black high-necked jacket, and has a shock of snow-white hair that looks completely defying of gravity. also, he’s wearing a thick black blindfold.
"huh," the ghost says, tilting his head. "usually people scream. or cry. one guy threw a Bible at me. that was funny."
"i’m too broke to cry," you say, taking another bite of your noodles. "who are you? and why are you breaking my mugs?"
the ghost grins, a devastatingly handsome smirk. he reaches up with two pale fingers and slides the blindfold down around his neck.
oh.
his eyes are… ridiculous. they’re a blinding, electric sky-blue. they look like captured fragments of the sky, or expensive jewelry. it’s deeply unfair that a dead guy looks this good.
"the name's Gojo Satoru," he says, giving you a theatrical little wink. "and for the record, i didn't mean to smash it. i was trying to do a cool flip to impress my new roommate, but my grip strength on physical objects is a little glitchy today. my bad!"
within two weeks, you establish a routine. you learn very quickly that satoru isn't a vengeful spirit. he's just an incredibly bored, fiercely protective, and aggressively dramatic supernatural entity who has been stuck in this house alone since the early 2000s.
having you here is the most excitement he’s had in decades.
you have to establish strict boundaries, though:
RULE 1: no walking through walls while you’re changing. (he complained loudly about "censorship").
RULE 2: if he gets too close to your morning coffee, it turns into iced coffee. he is banned from hovering until you’ve had at least one cup.
RULE 3: you have to leave the TV on when you go to work so he can watch reality television.
"i’m telling you, she’s only with him for the clout," satoru whines one evening.
you glance up from folding laundry. he is currently floating horizontally, two feet above your couch, resting his chin in his hands.
"satoru, it’s The Bachelor. everyone is there for the clout," you say, tossing a rolled-up pair of socks at him.
they pass directly through his midsection and land on the cushion.
he gasps, clutching his chest dramatically as he drops to the floor, landing without a sound. "physical violence? against a defenseless, handsome spirit? i’m writing a bad review on yelp."
"you don't even have a phone."
"i’ll manifest one just to slander you."
you roll your eyes, but there’s a smile tugging at your lips. you look at him—at the way his white hair catches the dim lamplight, at the genuine, soft warmth hidden behind his endless teasing. the house is old and drafty, but with him floating around cracking terrible jokes, it’s the warmest place you’ve ever lived.
satoru steps closer. the air turns crisp, smelling faintly like winter air and ozone. he stops just a foot away, those breathtaking blue eyes melting into something incredibly gentle.
"hey," he murmurs, his voice dropping into a low, rare serious register. "you don't get lonely here? living with a ghost instead of, like… a real person?"
you pause, a half-folded towel in your hands. "i was lonely before i moved here," you admit softly, looking up at him. "but since i met you? not at all."
satoru blinks. a faint, ethereal pink flushes across his pale cheeks. he lets out a soft, flustered huff and reaches his hand out toward your face.
he doesn't touch you—he can't, not fully—but his fingers hover just millimeters from your cheekbone. you can feel the intense, thrilling chill of his presence, a pleasant shiver running down your spine.
"good," he whispers, his gaze dropping to your lips for a fraction of a second before flying back to your eyes, a familiar, cocky grin returning to his face. "because i've decided i'm keeping you. you're stuck with me forever."
"is that a threat, gojo?"
"a promise, sweetheart."
he leans in, gently resting his forehead against yours. it feels like a brush of soft ice, but inside your chest, everything is completely, utterly warm.
I can imagine Satoru would be the kind of ghost to wake you up in the middle of the night moaning and groaning like smth out of a horror movie. Other nights you'd probably wake up to his face mere centimeters from yours. His eyes wide and glowing like the headlights of a truck.
summary: your boyfriend clark just has to have you before getting ready for work.
cw: established relationship, p! in v, porn w/o plot, creampie, slight somno
it begins with his huge, heavy palm smoothing over your waist, warm and steady, pulling you from the edges of your sleep. his voice rumbles in your ear, low and rough, still thick with sleep.
“turn over for me, baby.” a kiss behind your ear, lazy but possessive. ”c'mon. don’t wanna leave without filling you up first.”
you whimper softly, limbs heavy, but you roll onto your side like he asked. He presses up behind you, cock already hard, dragging against your folds as he fists the base and lines himself up.
“good girl,” he breathes, pushing in slow, filling you deep and steady until your mouth drops open on a sharp inhale. “f-fuck, you’re so warm in the morning. always so ready for me, princess.”
a broken moan slips from your lips, barely awake but already clenching around him as he rocks his hips forward. His big hand slips under your thigh, hiking your leg up to open you wider.
“just like that,” he grunts, voice hot in your ear. “take it. let me in deep, baby.”
your fingers clutch the pillow, gasps catching in your throat as he grinds slow and deep, rolling his hips instead of thrusting fast, savoring every inch.
“clark–” you whimper, and he cuts you off with a sharp snap of his hips that knocks the wind out of you.
“i know, sweetheart,” he groans. “feels good, huh? gonna leave you dripping all day…leaking down these pretty thighs while i’m at work thinking of you.”
a long, shaky moan tears from your throat as he tightens his grip on your waist, pace picking up, still steady but a little rougher now.
“you’re clenching so fucking tight, baby. you miss me already?” his voice is breathless, teasing, but tender underneath it all. “haven’t even left yet.”
you nod helplessly, gasping as the pleasure builds, your body trembling against his.
“that’s it, baby. give it to me. let me hear you.”
and you do. moaning, gasping, whimpering his name into the pillow as he fucks you through it., slow and deep until you’re cumming hard around him, thighs shaking, voice breaking apart in his arms.
he follows with a low groan, spilling deep inside you, holding you close, burying his face in your neck.
“fuck, princess. look at you,” he pants, pulling out slow, watching his cum spill from your swollen cunt. “so fucking beautiful…all full of me.
you can barely move, boneless and wrecked, but you giggle softly, voice hoarse.
“now we gotta clean up before your shift.”
but he pulls you back in, wrapping his arms around your waist. “nah, baby. you’re staying like this for a little while. want it to soak in.”
dividers by @uzmacchiato - likes, reblogs, moots would be appreciated!!!
summary: Clark has done everything he can for people to see him as them, as human. but he’s still an alien, and sometimes that's all people will see — inspired by Lex’s line “he’s not a man, he’s an it”
pairing: clark kent x female reader
word count: 3.8k
warnings: some mentions of police force, angst angst angst, a lil fluff hehe, spoilers!! (come on its been out a bit), canon level violence
a/n: so yea this is a song fic ish, listen to Mastermind by Taylor Swift thx (clark is so midnights coded)
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Once upon a time, the planets and the fates
And all the stars aligned
“Can you even eat beets?”
Your hands moved skillfully across the wooden board, knife sharp as you diced the various vegetables haphazardly laid across the counter. You didn’t need to look up to see the way his eyes rolled so dramatically that they may just end up stuck; you knew he was just behind you.
His presence always gave you clues. The way the floorboards of your downtown studio creaked from his steps, the floating aroma of paper, linen, and something that was distinctly him. But mostly, it was the way your heart raced before you even realized it was him. It was almost instinctual.
“Of course I can! What kinda question is that?” Clark moved from his place behind you, his large hands slipping from their place at your waist as he came to rest on the counter.
The knife ceased its rocking on the cutting board, the cucumber left half intact in your grip. When you raised your gaze, those familiar blues were beaming right at you.
“I just, you’re not from here… like biologically. I just wonder if there are things on Earth that you wouldn’t be able to eat,” you said, a giggle trailing behind your words as you placed the knife down.
He stepped closer, his fingers slipping through the belt loops of your jeans to pull you to him. From your view looking up, the sharp angle of his jaw curved to show the scarcely visible freckles where his neck began. The soft stubble you knew would be gone come morning, but for right now, it was like a secret between the two of you. You could see the way his collarbones dipped and met at his sternum, drawing your eyes down to be met by the start of his slightly undone button-down.
“And you think that thing is gonna be a beet?” he said, ducking his head closer to you as he spoke. He was always gentle with you, so gentle. Even when his words would jest, they were laced with a softness you knew was reserved just for you.
You leaned into his chest, laughing as you fisted his shirt. His hand moved to the back of your head, fingers sinking into your hair as he pressed a kiss to the top of your head. Before you could get your bearings, he moved you with just two firm hands on your waist. You found yourself sitting on the counter as he overtook the task of chopping the vegetables.
“Okay, okay, calm down, ET,” you said, starry-eyed as you watched him. He was perfect in every way you could measure— though he never hesitated to insist otherwise. You always brushed it off. Every flaw just reminded you he was him. That was your Clark.
He couldn’t hide the short puff of laughter that slipped. He pulled his bottom lip between his teeth, shaking his head as he finished the cucumber you’d abandoned. The way you’d poke fun at him, the nicknames that were wrapped in endearment, the way he knew it could never be anything but pure. All it amounted to was the burning red at the tips of his ears. This time was no different.
You leaned forward, taking the top of his ear softly between two fingers and tugging ever so slightly. You scooted closer, your hand moving to cup his jaw.
“You know I still love you, even if you may not be able to eat beets."
What if I told you none of it was accidental
And the first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me?
The bullpen often birthed dramatic, albeit intriguing, conversations. Most times, Clark had elected not to engage, keeping his nose buried in the piles of papers at his desk. Whittling away at yet another Superman interview that you warned him several times would eventually become suspicious.
It wasn’t until he heard the debate between Lois and that guy from the sports section, what was it? Keith? It wasn’t until the dry and sardonic tone that was so familiar to Lois floated over his computer to grip his attention that he perked up.
“How can you think that? I mean, is he perfect, no. But he’s still a person— a person who was seen helping little kids with their fractions at the park last week!” He looked up, noticing how her hands frantically danced as she spoke.
Keith leaned against the counter, shaking his head with that egotistical smirk that drove Clark insane. He hated those kinds of looks.
“He’s an alien, Lane! End of story! And now he's stirring up problems for us, humans who shouldn't have to deal with messes he causes,” he snatched the fresh coffee from her hand, ignoring the shocked but not shaken look Lois gave. “You really would trust something like that with your kids?”
Clark lowered his gaze. His throat was dry, and a bitter taste was growing in his mouth.
Alien. Something.
The comments were nothing new. Especially after his stunt in Jarhanpur. He knew he had his skeptics, those who always saw the worst in him, despite his intentions. Those who—no matter how small he made himself, how much he downplayed the Kryptonian side of himself, how human he tried to be —would always see him as foreign.
But, a something. That was new.
He wished he could say he let it roll off his back, that he didn’t let the small nature that Keith so clearly felt the need to compensate for affect him. But that would just be a lie, and one thing about Clark. He hated lies.
What if I told you I'm a mastermind?
Clark’s body was splayed out over yours, his weight grounding as you sank into the pillows and mattress. Perhaps his size was slightly too much, putting a dull strain on your lungs. But the all-encompassing security his closeness provided more than made up for it.
Your hands dug into his hair, exploring and occasionally tugging gingerly on the loose curls. His soft hums of contentment egged you on, filling your stomach with butterflies you swore he put there. Some Kryptonian spell he must’ve had to make the love you felt for him so all-consuming.
“You don’t care that I’m not from here, right?” he said, his arms wrapped firmly around your middle.
“I mean, normally I hate transplants. But you do my dishes, so…” Your joke died in giggles as he groaned into your chest.
“No, no,” his head popped up, looking into your eyes. “Does it bother you that I'm not from Earth? That I’m an alien?”
You giggled softly, sitting up as he pulled himself from your lap. He rolled off, resting his arms on his knees as he listened for your response. As if something in him needed you to say the right thing. To assure him that all his efforts, the way he walked or stood or spoke, none of it was for nothing. That he was as human as anyone else.
“Clark, come on,” you said, your tone still humorous, “That’s crazy, of course I don’t care.”
He looked down, a huff of relief leaving as he began to relax. The feeling of your arms as they wrapped around his shoulders, the way you scooted closer and rested your chin on his shoulder, the soft lip pressed under his jaw. It pulled him out of the pit that was growing inside him, one he couldn’t figure out how it got there.
You took his chin in your hand, turning him to face you as you rested your forehead to his.
“You’re an alien, sure. But you're my alien, you weirdo,” you said, squeezing his hand before slipping off the bed and heading to the bathroom.
Why didn’t he feel better?
If you fail to plan, you plan to fail
Strategy sets the scene for the tale
It wasn’t sudden. As if he didn’t want you to notice something was off. But you did. How could you not?
He seemed smaller, less eager. The little things that made him him, the lines that blurred between the man in the suit and the man in the red and blue, began to fade. And somewhere in that, you noticed him slipping away.
After all, he wasn’t Clark Kent, the Daily Planet reporter. He wasn’t Superman. He was Clark, a man somewhere between the two. And lately, it seemed as though the latter was missing in action. Leaving you with that facade that was normallyfor everyone but you.
You noticed the way his hearing suddenly worsened, how the speed he used to race into your room when you even hummed the start of his name slowed down. You noticed the number of dishes remained the same over the past week or so, and he hadn’t accidentally broken a glass in his hand as he dried the clean dishes. His strength, which he could control most of the time, became precise, never to be used outside of the cape.
Something was off with him. If it were you, he didn’t show it. His hands never hesitated to pull you close, to fidget with the hem of your dress when you were perched on his lap. The way you never had to touch a door handle around him, or dare to imagine walking home from work alone, nothing changed. But you knew Clark, maybe better than he knew himself.
His hands gripped the vacuum so tight we wondered how the plastic hadn’t splintered. The furrow of his brow betrayed the frustration he had been trying his best to cloak. He wasn’t stupid; he was one of the smartest people you knew. So why was he trying to cram the vacuum under the narrow slit between the couch and the floor?
“Hey, you okay?” you asked, coming up to rest a soft hand on his arm. He switched off the vacuum with a slight huff. Any building irritation was gone when he turned to you, that smile you would die for slowly growing as his eyes roamed over you. The smile that seemed different lately.
“I’m fine… why?” he said, resting the vacuum on the arm of the couch.
“Why don’t you just lift the couch, like always?” you asked, your eyes narrowing to prying slits.
He didn’t answer, well, not in words. A stalling ‘uh’ creeped from his mouth as he looked at the couch, then to his hands. If he was trying to convince you he was okay, that familiar high pitch gave him away.
He turned back to you, with a smile you swore had to be forced, before kissing your temple.
“I’ll um…I’ll do it later,” you tried not to panic as he walked off. This wasn’t him. This wasn’t your Clark.
I laid the groundwork and then, just like clockwork
The dominoes cascaded in a line
Sent to rule Earth. Rule without mercy. A Secret Harem?
It was all ridiculous. Absurd. It was unequivocally untrue.
You knew him, you knew him better than yourself. It was a lie. All of it.
That was not him, it never could be. The lies, the slander, the hate, all of it bubbled over inside of you as your screen flashed with whatever new article popped up when you refreshed your search. It chewed at your insides, leaving a hollow and rotten feeling that made your heart rise to your throat.
They didn’t know him. They didn’t know how he stared at the hashtags on his phone, so affected by strangers' opinions, you always told him to ignore. How you had to remind him to log off when you could see him wearing a tread in the hardwoods. How he always gave himself the messy pancakes because he swore they tasted better, you knew he just wanted you to have the best. How he refused to kill spiders no matter how much you shrieked, dumping them outside in a cup, even if he had to walk four flights of stairs.
They didn’t know Clark. They didn’t know how human he actually was.
You sent text after text, noticing there was no coverage of him in the city. Each went unanswered, leaving bile to rise in your throat. You grabbed your coat and bolted for the subway. The spare key to his apartment spun on your fingers as you raced through the turnstile.
Something was building up in him, an insecurity you just couldn’t place. One you wished he’d let you in on. If so, you could come in with a sword and slay them all to the ground.
Another text. Two calls. No response. Just that familiar voicemail that caught the sound of you calling him from the kitchen.
By the time you reached his empty apartment, you just hoped he was okay.
It was all my design
'Cause I'm a mastermind
It was five past midnight when he finally came through the windows. You tried not to rush him as he sat on the couch and adjusted his boots. You didn’t need to make yourself known; he could hear your heartbeat from three neighborhoods away.
The urge to pull him into your arms won at some point in the night. You found yourself sitting on the coffee table, Clark on his knees as he rests between your legs. Your hands found their way to his curls, second nature, as if they couldn’t be anywhere else. The soft tremble in his shoulders didn’t escape you; it never could. It was the same one you saw some nights when he found himself too deep in pockets of social media that saw him as something vile.
Despite your words, your assurance that you never believed a word, the quiver in his brow told you he wasn’t sure. Despite your pleading, the way your hands tugged at his cape, and your perfume lingered as he tried so hard to stay stoic, he was making his way back to the window. Back into a world that didn’t deserve him. To turn himself over to people who would never handle him with the care he deserved.
“I love you,” he said, his face buried into the hair at the top of your head. You could feel him slipping away, a tremor in his hands that never was there when he held you, “So much it scares me.”
“Clark,” you said, pulling back and cupping his face in your hands. “Please don’t do this. You don’t have to—”
His lips were on yours before you could finish, holding you as if he wouldn’t get the chance again. The shake in his lips had your fingers digging into his sides, and any attempt to keep him from those who you knew didn’t see him as anything beyond the red and blue.
By the time you realized he had pulled back, the crisp air of Metropolis was brushing against your cheek. The flap of the wind under his cape had never sounded so sickening.
You knew it was stupid, you knew it was pointless. Clark was gonna kill you. But you would kill him for turning himself in.
You cried out as you watched them smash his face into the pavement, the rubble of the blacktop shattering under his strength. Your blood ran cold at the sight of him on the ground as SWAT and cops swarmed him. The harsh yank of his arms, the way they continuously shoved him down, forcing the soft flesh of his cheek further into the debris. That should have been the worst part. But it wasn’t.
Their words made your stomach drop. Their tone dripped with disdain and disgust, their fear and hatred laced into each word.
“Contain it!”
“Alien scum!”
The echoes of the cops’ words rang from the crowd that surrounded you, creeping up from a dull roar into a mob that was only held back by the spare men who weren’t occupied by crushing your boyfriend into the pavement.
You knew he could hear you, the way you shouted for them to stop. Your hands pushed you through the crowd, and as close as you could get. The pleas that fell from your lips as you tried to get past the cop to reach him. His head turned under the hold of the men, his blue eyes reaching yours through the rubble. You swore your heart shattered at the sight.
Your fight dulled for a moment as you watched his face, defeated and full of sorrow you had never seen. His head softly shook, only for you. Telling you no, begging through the restraints that kept him from reaching you. What you didn’tknow was that those restraints weren’t the handcuffs that could never contain him. No, it was that pit in his stomach that had never felt heavier.
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid
So I've been scheming like a criminal ever since
To make them love me and make it seem effortless
This is the first time I've felt the need to confess
It wasn’t the safest time to be back in the city, not as soon as the growing tear in the ground had closed. But as soon as you saw him in the sky, you knew you had to be there. You had to reach him before anyone else.
The three days without him, not knowing where he was or if he was alive, ate away at you. You couldn’t tear yourself from your phone, praying for a text or anything that would pull you from the spiral of news you found yourself in.
You had no idea what was happening to him; all you knew was it was nothing kind. The sight from Wednesday was burned into your mind, replaying over and over as you found yourself curled in the sheets of his bed. The way they threw him to the ground, the force, the hate. It had your stomach turning. Their hands on him as if he weren’t a person but a thing, a weapon that they deemed a threat.
As if he weren’t human.
You moved through the street, avoiding other civilians as they rushed to family or friends. From a landed ship, you could see people rushing from the ram to a gathered crowd of loved ones. Beside it, a red craft and Clark’s coworkers. Finally, your eyes landed on him.
You tried not to rush forward, the need to protect him and his identity constantly fogging your mind. Hands fidgeted at your side as you stood by the door of a shopping center, waiting under the awning for him to notice.
His brows twitched, and you watched as his head turned, scanning the crowd as if he were looking for a lifeline. A smile grew on your face as you watched his brows perk, eager to find you. You swore the air was knocked from your lungs when his eyes finally met yours.
He excused himself from the reporters around him, slipping away towards you. With a knowing smirk, you turned and headed into the building, waiting in the shadow by the doors.
His hands on you were desperate, pulling you close as if it was the only thing grounding him. Your arms wrapped around his neck, trying to pull him closer down to you, but failing as he lifted you to him. His face found the crook of your neck, pressing kisses to the dip of your shoulder.
“You’re still here,” he said, that familiar crack in his voice you only heard late at night.
“Where else would I be?”
So I told you none of it was accidental
And the first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me
His hands wrapped around your hips, gripping softly as the pads of his fingers played with the hem of your sweats. You refused to let him leave your site, attached to his hip as he moved around your apartment. By the time night had come, he drew you in, keeping you as close as he could. Your fingers danced along those freckles at his jaw, counting softly aloud to keep him grounded.
“All their words, all their fears, I didn’t realize how strong they are…” Your eyes watched his solemn face as he spoke. “I thought, I thought I did everything I could, to be…”
Your hands slipped to his neck, thumbs brushing gently at the hollow dip near his throat. Your eyes were inviting, urging him to continue, to finally open up.
“To be what, hun?” you asked, leaning in.
“I just…I thought if I did everything right. Maybe they wouldn’t see me as a threat,” his eyes never met yours.
“Ever since I was little, I did everything I could to keep this in check.” his hands moved from your hips, displayed before you as the thing he needed to control. “I always did what I could to be smaller, to be what I thought they would accept.”
You nodded, trying to remain neutral so as not to spook him. But the way your heart broke inside your chest threatened to make you hurl.
“And Superman…all I’ve ever wanted to do was good. To show these people how much I love them, how much I want to be one of you. And I thought I did a good job, but…” You shook your head as his voice cracked, your hands moving to cup his cheeks and fix his gaze to you.
“Hey, hey,” you started, ducking your head to meet his eyes as they tried to move away. “You don’t have to try, you are human. As human as any of us.”
You noticed his hands in your lap, unsure of where to go. Gently, you took them and placed them at your waist. When you felt them pulling back, you held them firm, “You always were, Clark. Despite what anyone says.”
“They called me an it, baby,” he said, his voice low and wavering. Your chest heaved at the sob building in his throat.
“Don’t listen to anyone, anyone, who tries to make you feel anything less than just like us.” Your hands released his, and when they moved back to his face, his grip on your waist remained.
“I’ve always wanted to be normal. Everything I’ve ever done, it’s…I just care so much,” his eyes stayed on yours.
“Clark, honey, you’re a miracle,” you pressed a kiss to his cheekbone. When you pulled back, that familiar red burned in the tips of his ears. “You don’t need to be normal.”
Content & Warnings: romantic tension, yearning, passionate kissing, fade to black, admission of feelings, fluff, light angst
Word Count: 1.3k
On a patrol together, Haldir confronts you about your feelings for him even though you’re promised to another.
ao3 // main masterlist
For @childofyuggoth
The stars twinkle through the gnarled canopy. White. Bright. Bathing the forest floor with iridescent light. You close your eyes and inhale deeply, savoring the scents of the forest around you. Caras Galadhon dwells behind you, sleeping and silent in the peaceful dark.
You are attuned to every sound in the deep wood, and as you filter through it all, you find nothing out of place or suspicious. But the disturbance of the wood is not of your immediate concern. There are greater trials and closer bodies that seek your attention other than the animals that softly move through the underbrush.
Haldir of Lórien is a beacon in the dark. You sense him before you see him, standing just shy of your right shoulder.
“The night is quiet,” he whispers.
You open your eyes, turn to face him. “It is indeed.”
Haldir’s gaze casually drops to your lips and then back to your eyes. A gentle heat radiates up your body to encompass you in its embrace. You have little control over your body’s reaction to him.
The answering of your flesh when he is in your presence is unfair. It is a cruel joke. You are promised to another, but not one of your choosing. If you had a choice, you would pick Haldir.
Always.
But that is not to be. That is not the path set out before you.
Him standing here next to you, alone in the gentle dark, is agony. The heat of him is so near, so alive that it sends your senses tingling with anticipation. The clashing beat within you is a deafening drum.
Can Haldir hear the racing of your heart? Can he sense your need and your aching tremble?
You hope he can’t, but you also silently hope that he does. What would he do then?
Haldir’s gaze finally leaves you to glance out into the wood. “We should begin the patrol.”
“Of course,” you murmur, inclining your head, allowing Haldir to take the lead.
He returns his gaze to you briefly before taking a step forward to walk between two trees. You follow him at a short distance, watching the distance, keeping a constant pivot. The two of you walk in relative silence, moving like phantoms amongst the towering trees.
At a small clearing, Haldir pauses. You cozy up beside him, a question starting to form on your lips.
“Do you remember this place?” he asks softly, gaze fixated at the center of the clearing. A sharp beam of moonlight illuminates the ground. The flowers glow under its lunar light.
You do know this place. On one of your many patrols with Haldir, he confessed his love in this very clearing. He held your hands in his, kissed your knuckles and each of your fingers. He whispered in a longing of gentle song that soothed your nerves and calmed your soul. In that moment, you didn’t want anyone else, you only wished for him.
But how things change.
“It is etched upon my heart,” you answer truthfully.
Haldir’s silver hair shines like starlight. “I’d like to stay here. My memories of this place are happy ones.”
The two of you have come to this clearing on multiple occasions. It is no coincidence that Haldir’s patrol includes you. He selects you on purpose, and you go with him willingly because you desire the closeness. It will not last forever, not when you’re promised to another.
“We can only linger here for so long,” you remind him.
Haldir sighs heavily, and turns to face you. He has always been stoic. Calm. Even in your presence, even when he whispered gentle words of love to you, Haldir never appeared…desperate.
The look on his face now is anything but calm. It is intense—a billowing storm tightly contained.
“Stop looking at me like that,” you murmur, startled by the sudden change.
Haldir’s gaze goes to your lips, lingers, and then flicks up to your eyes. “Why do you deny yourself what you want?” he asks.
You swallow and tuck your clenched fist behind your back. Haldir’s directness is too much. He knows that this is not of your own choosing.
“You cannot ask this of me,” you answer, hating yourself for sounding so weak.
Haldir entirely shifts his body in your direction. Taking a step forward, he moves into your space. Your back bumps up against the tree next to you. Haldir places his hand against the trunk next to your head.
You are trapped, but by all the stars in the night sky, you do not care.
His scent is woodsy and clean. You lean in a bit, inhaling, attempting to remember his smell since this might be your last opportunity to do so.
“You stay loyal to him.” Haldir bends at the elbow, pressing in. “And yet you know that he lusts after another.” The center of his brow furrows slightly. “Why not be with someone who will always worship you?”
Him. Him, meaning, your betrothed. The one you’re supposed to be with in the end. The selection made for you. This is an expectation placed upon you.
And Haldir is right. He does not love you. While you intend to be loyal in your upcoming marriage, you also know his heart will yearn for another. But you also yearn for someone else, and Haldir is standing right here, questioning all of this, wanting to know why you won’t pick him.
“Sometimes duty comes before happiness,” you reply softly, gaze cast downward.
“Does it?” he counters quickly.
You keep your face turned toward the ground. Stare at your feet.
The two of you have lain in this clearing, limbs draped over and around each other. There has always been closeness between the two of you. There has always been touching, skin pressed to skin, lips brushing but never fully meeting. Yet, the two of you have never completed the act itself.
That is binding. That is forever.
But you see it in Haldir’s eyes now as you sneak a peek of him. That desperate hunger. The desire to be with one person for the end of your days. It is an arrow through the heart, piercing and sharp and stinging.
You wish to satiated it, to admit to what you want most in this world. Because it is him. It is Haldir that you crave more than anyone else.
“I would be breaking my oath,” you reply softly, finally having the courage to look at him directly.
“Would you?” he asks. “You have made no vow. You have created no bond. The choice is yours. Utterly.” He gestures at himself with his free hand. “And I am right here.”
With a shaking hand, you reach up to cradle his cheek. Haldir turns into your touch, sighing gently, and that snaps your resolve, dissolves it like the winter snows melting in the sun. Haldir must sense the change, because the two of you meet, lips finally joining in what they’ve been longing for.
He tastes perfect. Wonderful. A match made for the ages.
Haldir’s hand upon the tree departs, leaving the bark to encircle your waist, to draw your body against his. You do not resist. You surrender to him, opening like a flower, wanting nothing more than to forget all your fears and sorrows in this little clearing.
The night is long, but it is not forever. For now, the two of you can have this.
Haldir drags you even closer, pressing you firmly against him as he learns the contours of your lips. His hands discover the planes of your body, and yet it’s not enough for him. Haldir is charged like lightening across the sky.
The two of you have been denying these mutual feelings for far too long.
This is a tremor. Earth-shaking. A star bursting into dust.
Haldir guides you to the center of the clearing, easily removing his cloak with one hand. He breaks away a moment to lay it down on the dewy grass, reaching for you the moment it fans out to hold the two of you.
You sink down with him, buckles and straps, and armor disappearing as you go.
