Local Podcast Protag

he/him but like..in a non-binary way suspected system this is just where I shove my more private shit. if you know me, no you don't /silly

[lunanova-fr]

when i say i kin caine, i mean:

terrified of being abandoned or replaced

struggles to understand the people around them

struggles with criticism (even if worded kindly and constructively)

passionate about creations and terrified of no longer being good at skills / talents

jealousy and bitterness towards those who seem to understand interacting and friendships better

craves validation like a human craves food

i am NOT talking about:

tortures others

incapable of considering other's feelings

insensitive

demanding attention at all times

[fruitorchardsystem]

Every time someone says the word system my brain creates this image

[mr-deep-downer]

need

[alittlekendoll]

arousal! repulsion! arousal! repulsion! arousal! repulsion! arousal! repulsion!

[ceasarslegion]

I started listening to the cree radio station because its the only one left in my range that doesnt play alberta separatist ads now and those make me see red like some sort of bull, which is not safe while im behind the wheel of a vehicle going 110

Why haven't they told me about the cree all-purpose radio station sooner. They play everything from the 50s to today. Half of their ads and one of their shows is in cree which I do not speak a lick of but thats fine, they play banger music. They give me local news updates that arent dripping with UCP cocksucking. They tell me about things that affect a demographic I otherwise hear very little about by virtue of being a white guy in alberta.

We are holding hands. We are learning about other cultures. We are listening to 60s rock and roll and then an elder will tell us stories about his youth. I am enamored. I am in love.

[ceasarslegion]

Lots of people in the notes have asked me to drop the radio station im talking about here. If youre in the Edmonton area the frequency is 89.3, and when we went on a trip recently we got pretty reliable signal all the way to Ponoka. If youre outside of it or international you can get the live broadcast at ravenradio.ca

They also have a retro hour at noon every day and do language lessons for allies

[earhartsease]

89.3 The Raven

Playing a little bit of everything from the 50's to Today! Alberta's Best Rock

for easy access

[ceasarslegion]

I started listening to the cree radio station because its the only one left in my range that doesnt play alberta separatist ads now and those make me see red like some sort of bull, which is not safe while im behind the wheel of a vehicle going 110

Why haven't they told me about the cree all-purpose radio station sooner. They play everything from the 50s to today. Half of their ads and one of their shows is in cree which I do not speak a lick of but thats fine, they play banger music. They give me local news updates that arent dripping with UCP cocksucking. They tell me about things that affect a demographic I otherwise hear very little about by virtue of being a white guy in alberta.

We are holding hands. We are learning about other cultures. We are listening to 60s rock and roll and then an elder will tell us stories about his youth. I am enamored. I am in love.

[ceasarslegion]

Lots of people in the notes have asked me to drop the radio station im talking about here. If youre in the Edmonton area the frequency is 89.3, and when we went on a trip recently we got pretty reliable signal all the way to Ponoka. If youre outside of it or international you can get the live broadcast at ravenradio.ca

They also have a retro hour at noon every day and do language lessons for allies

[earhartsease]

89.3 The Raven

Playing a little bit of everything from the 50's to Today! Alberta's Best Rock

for easy access

[starsfic]

Demon Custom, Chapter 20: Racing Forward

Red Son considers how he's raced into things. Wukong is trying to catch up.

[mithartu]

i don't ship them i just think they could get ragebaited into having sex with each other

[chaserology-deactivated20260410]

this is maybe the greatest post ever made

[fictionkinfessions]

why are the literal horrors less scary than the mortifying ordeal of reaching out to sourcemates <3 don't get me wrong I'm having fun but people are somehow scarier than the horror creatures

-Martin Blackwood (from The Magnus Archives)(#📎🌌)

(ps I have gotten several responses so far and I am winning rn!!!!)

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[fictionkinfessions]

why are the literal horrors less scary than the mortifying ordeal of reaching out to sourcemates <3 don't get me wrong I'm having fun but people are somehow scarier than the horror creatures

-Martin Blackwood (from The Magnus Archives)(#📎🌌)

(ps I have gotten several responses so far and I am winning rn!!!!)

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[fictionkinfessions]

This art is doing things to me because WDYM I'M NOW KINNING A MC VILLAGER??? AND LIBRARIAN NONETHELESS 😭😭 THEY PLAYERS ARE GOING FOR MY ASS ISTTH 😭😭 T

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[themainspoon]

There's so many horror games about having to try to weed out and deal with inhuman imposters, but I want one where the script is flipped. You are something inhuman, you are an imposter, and if you want to survive you have to blend into a world that is trying to hunt you down and destroy you. You aren't human, but you must masquerade as one and infiltrate their world, or you will die.

[themainspoon]

I actually think we need to start inverting more Horror premises/tropes.

Like "You have to venture into the scary insane asylum!" VS "You're a patient who was admitted by force to an asylum, and you are very clearly in real danger, but everyone is pretending that you're just deluded, and are essentially leaving you to die because they don't really see you as a person."

I feel like there's a lot of Horror tropes built off of the fear of the other, when in reality it's actually often the other who is in danger. Maybe we could start recognising that more.

[themainspoon]

Interesting how the first half of the post has picked up popularity while the second part, which perhaps clarifies the idea of the original post, hasn't.

It's been interesting to see what media people are recommending based on the first post alone. A lot of recommendations for games/franchises like World of Darkness, Carrion, Kill All Humans, Among Us, etc. It's interesting because these are games that put you into the shoes of the violent other that has to infiltrate, without actually challenging the idea that the other is a threat. They actually parrot the ideas of the other as violent.

Funnily enough, the people recommending the comedy game Octodad understand the post much better than most of the people recommending horror media. A few mentions of Am I Nima, which isn't finished yet but does look like it could be what I am describing, so brownie points to the people recommending that.

But everyone saying stuff like "This is just being Trans/Autistic/Etc" really gets it, like really really gets it. Horror always communicates the fears and anxieties of the people who create it, this post was basically: "What if instead of communicating the fear of the other, we communicated the fears of the others, which are actually vastly more legitimate than the dominant groups fear of the other. We should recognise that it is overwhelmingly the others who are the ones who actually suffer and die, all for the perceived "saftey" and "comfort" of the dominant group."

This idea is about transphobia, it is about ableism, about anti-imigrant rhetoric and white supremacy, about queerphobia, it's about all of it. It is horror from the perspective of minority groups. It is the twisting of a trope built upon reactionary fears and narratives in order to critique them, it is a direct allegory for all those experiences you are describing.

Overall, it's just interesting to see who gets it and who doesn't.

[roseimtryingtoresonateconcrete25]

[fictionkinfessions]

I'm not beating the monsterlover allegations I keep seeing drawings of monster designs of my past life partner and going "wow..... he's so pretty........... so many eyes to stare into romantically....... oooh" and then I have to take a step back and be like "that is an eldritch horror what are you TALKING about here." still cute tho-

-M

(I'm not doing more of a signoff than that. I am Embarrassed™ about this. this is probably guessable because I sincerely doubt there are any other people out there whose names start with M and have an eye-associated boyfriend that people frequently draw monster designs of but like. y'know. I like the *idea* of anonymity lol.)

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[fictionkinfessions]

I'm not beating the monsterlover allegations I keep seeing drawings of monster designs of my past life partner and going "wow..... he's so pretty........... so many eyes to stare into romantically....... oooh" and then I have to take a step back and be like "that is an eldritch horror what are you TALKING about here." still cute tho-

-M

(I'm not doing more of a signoff than that. I am Embarrassed™ about this. this is probably guessable because I sincerely doubt there are any other people out there whose names start with M and have an eye-associated boyfriend that people frequently draw monster designs of but like. y'know. I like the *idea* of anonymity lol.)

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[theegosystem-deactivated2024012]

the worst is wanting to create and create and create but being trapped in a body that is so so so so tired