Machine Queen

28. Cosplayer/musician/lover of existential dread

[mossshhh]

Mikoshi

[handshandshandshandshandshands]

[yhane]

共犯

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Accomplice AU

[pettypastels]

happy deltajune ❤️ here are some pics from my latest con!! Everyone was so nice to us. ✨

[qasimlondon]

[silima]

i made this at 4am and it was a lot funnier then but we persist

[silima]

[mydearlycoris]

[woodwool]

severely deficient in whatever vitamin makes u a person

[mokadevs]

so twisted

[raguinore]

[loveridden1999]

[vertigris-art]

As long as you don't forget me, I'm there.

[processed-meat]

otd drawover

original image beneath the cut

[redqueen303]

Being a perfectionist is truly the most exhausting experience because you feel like you have to constantly rehearse every aspect of life.

Like I can’t go ice skating or do any casual hobby without obsessively studying how to not be immediately awful at it.

I have a hard time agreeing to last minute plans because I won’t have time to research the venue, the menu or whatever activity is happening.

I almost only cosplay characters I deeply love and identify with because my brain creates hypothetical scenarios where I’m quizzed on them whenever I go to a convention.

As an actor, I really struggle because I obsessively rehearse for my rehearsals and if I don’t have everything down perfectly I feel horribly vulnerable.

Like there’s nothing more nerve wracking and fear inducing than showing up anywhere and not knowing what I’m doing, and when that does actually happen I dissociate soo hard because the guilt and self loathing I feel is crazy.

And of course that is a necessary aspect of life, to be able to adapt and grow around people. And it’s something I’ve tried to be better at the past few years. However if given the choice, I would always rather figure things out at home where no one can perceive me. And I feel like I miss out on a lot of genuine human connection because of that.

[herheim731]

Claymore

[rocketbirdie]

tomodachi crime scene

[fairycosmos]

apparently youre supposed to perform. they love it when you perform. but it has to be authentic. they hate it when it's not authentic. but you have to perform.