Refinement of a Courtesan

becoming my divine. transforming into a lady of leisure.

[refinementofacourtesan]

welp i made an "angry" tumblr lol

basically a "i'm tired of everyone's bullshit including my own" tumblr lol

the only thing i have on there so far is a few old posts from years ago that i didn't delete and my current fitness routine (it's getting intense ya'll) and my current eating regime (it's a bit intense as well).

i've thought about just moving those posts and everything over to here but i actually have followers on this blog and i dont want to trigger anyone incase they have an ED

not to mention i'm thinking about writing some things that they may make me sound like a bit unstable lol

[refinementofacourtesan]

so i don't know what to do with this blog lol 😂

when i first discovered hypergamyblr (way back when it was still known as the tumblr sugar bowl) i LOVED following and looking at everyone's pics and writings of their personal experiences...

and i always said that if i "made it", even if it was only one gift, one dinner, one "allowance", i would post it and i would talk about my experiences.

but now my camera roll says otherwise lol

i have so many blogs across tumblr you would think that i have some kind of addiction with creating new blogs (perhaps i do lol).

but i really need to condense them or at the very least - put all of my personal posts (especially my pics and my writings) onto one blog.

i like having some kind of "timeline"; and going back and looking at them

and then there's plans on what i want my next move to be because i definitely know which "era" i want to go into next...

[thatmoodboardd]

[refinementofacourtesan]

finished my workout for today - and my legs hurt a bit more - perhaps because the end of the workout was faster than usual:

warmup - 10 mins ab workout - 15 mins walking/aerobic/cardio mix - 47 mins, 47 secs cooldown/stretching - 10 mins

i know some would say that i need to include strength training and they're absolutely right, i do.

but not yet lol.

[simena]

Elizabeth Brandon

[fitnfabulous]

Do it.

Do it for the silk dresses. Do it for Paris and Mulan and Dubai. Do it for the ability to have thousands of dollars in my purse at all times. Do it for the millions of opportunities. Do it for the millions of dollars I can make. Do it for limitless shopping trips and relaxation. Do it for luxury apartments. Do it for clear skin. Do it for tight abs and better sex. Do it for better health. Do it to age gracefully. Do it for my dream wardrobe. Do it for the love of my past selves. Do it for huge bouquets of flowers and city scape views. Do it for photoshoots and cover spreads. Do it for your $3 million dream home that overlooks the beauty of the ocean. Do it for money shots. Do it for private jets and summer houses. Do it for bodycon dresses. Do it for guilt free lazy days. Do it for true blue royalty treatment without having to ask. Do it for the life of my dreams. Do it for to fulfill my promises to my younger self much sooner. Do it for because it's now or never. Do it to fulfill my purpose. Do it to prove to myself that I can do it when I say I am going to do it. Do it for the bragging rights. Do it for the self-satisfaction. Do it because you love yourself. Do it because you said you would and you're a woman of your word. Do it because you are more than worthy or capable you simply deserve it, it is your birthright.

Don't let cravings or laziness ruin all my progress just for a split second of satisfaction when I can be satisfied for a lifetime simply by continuing down my chosen path.

[refinementofacourtesan]

when i first created this blog, i made a post about the importance of being healthy/getting your body right;

so i guess it's rather fitting that my journey of refinement starts here.

i have a history of digestive issues. going all the way back to my childhood. years ago, i was diagnosed as having IBS, but lately it has gotten worse and the usual remedies haven't been working as well.

ironically, they got worse right around the time i started a weight loss journey.

i was airing my frustrations to Grey while also telling him what my plans were to deal with it when he suggested that i stopped guessing what was wrong with me and go to a doctor.

so i took my ass to a functional medicine doctor/nutritionist.

BEST DECISION.

after an appointment that lasted over an hour, and completing a very lengthy medical questionnaire along with a food diary,

she diagnosed me as not having IBS but actually having SIBO along with chronic constipation (sorry if that's tmi ya'll lol)

and the reason why it's gotten worse is because *drum roll*

i've been eating healthier [because of my weight loss journey].

apparently when you have SIBO (which stands for small intestinal bacteria overgrowth), some food that is healthy, actually isn't healthy for YOU because of the bacteria.

i won't go into detail what SIBO is (feel free to google it) but once she explained it my symptoms made sense and everything just *clicked*

so now i'm on a special diet and my natural, herbal medicine is on the way.

we're going to give it a few weeks to see if there are any *positive* changes and then adjust if necessary.

[loveletters2myself]

[refinementofacourtesan]

just realized

that the best way for me to document my "refinement" (level up, glow up, whatever you want to call it) is to just post what i'm doing on a daily basis plus any thoughts i may have at the moment

ideally i would post some kind of grandiose plan with lots of details, include which step i'm currently on, etc but it changes so quickly that it really wouldn't make any sense to do that lol

so instead i'll just start where i'm at in my next post. ✨

[subtleclassy]

[refinementofacourtesan]

just sampled the new hermès fragrance and i'm not sure what some of the initial reviews were going on about? it smells AMAZING. definitely feminine and sensual but not overly sweet or floral.

i'm wearing it right now and i can't stop smelling myself lol.

[eatmangoesnekkid]

I want to encourage you to go after everything that is yours. To reclaim everything that was stolen. To release what is not progressing you forward. To become her and create the body, life, love, and enterprise of your dreams. To go after your real desires and get your creativity out into the world. To surrender to crying, shaking, screaming, purgatory, heart-opening, cervical orgasms. To die emptied. -India Ame’ye, Author

[rosyy-coosy]

📸 mimiarr

[thepursuitofunderstanding]

“I desire violently, and I wait.”

— Anais Nin

[itsjustmmee]

[loveletters2myself]

it’s a beautiful day to start living how you’re called to be and stop worrying about how you’re perceived.

[thcartierrug]