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Erin | They/Them | 25+ | Personal / multifandom blog

[reinemichele]

【Until the moon sinks into the sea, that girl will never sleep...】

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❤ ↳ Erin | They/them | 25+ | Ace lesbian ❤ ↳ Previous URLS: rzgrm, thschei

❤ ↳ Please tag suicide as SDL for me!

❤ ↳ Fandoms: Doctor Who, Ghost, Devil May Cry, IWTV, Major Grom, Kpop/Jpop Hannibal, Sound Horizon, Star Wars, Supernatural, Yellowjackets, American Horror Story

❤ ↳ Fav ships: Doctor/Master, Hannibal/Will, Sergey/Igor, Lucifer/Sam, Obi-Wan/Anakin / Obi-Wan/Vader, Armand/Daniel

❤ ↳ Doogle Grive folder (& 2) full of books | Sound Horizon guide & DL links | Fig Binish 1 & 2 | Queue tag | Original post tag | Masterlist of vetted fundraisers: 1, 2

❤ ↳ Discussions of mental health & chronic health issues Lots of dark content like gore and cannibalism. I do my best to tag things, but let me know if I missed something or you need something else tagged!

❤ ↳ No tolerance for bigotry, fandom discourse bait (in replies or asks/DMs), or death threats/suicide baiting

[reinemichele]

Life update: more kid/ney sto/nes

I had a dr appointment yesterday so I'll have another ultrasound & a referral to a ur/oligist after the holidays but

(How else am I supposed to cope with this besides s/easons greaso/nsing my latest one)

[reinemichele]

Hiii, sorry for vanishing 🙏🏻 I've been in a lot of pain, sick, and uh... The results of my cardiology appointments have been stressful and a bit scary. I'll make a post about it later, but I've been consistently having extra heartbeats and my resting BPM (no anxiety or physical exertion) has gotten up to 152. It's mostly benign and can be treated with beta-blockers, but I'm having a difficult time processing it, esp bc no one in my family on either side has had any heart conditions

So . I've been off of here until I can get a proper grip on my emotions (and 🅱️ack pain)

[reinemichele]

Hi fellas 🤙🏻 So... I think I've processed the heart bullshit for the most part, but . I had more labs done last month, and they . Point in the direction of a . Rare hormone disorder . It explains a lot of symptoms I've had my entire life, like always being incredibly nauseous in the morning and being unable to eat when stressed (You might remember I said my dr asked when the chronic nausea started and I was like "??? When I was born???") It might also explain the eosinophilia, kidney stones/cysts, and autoimmune aspects too. (And maybe why it's been impossible to find the right antidepressant, if the problem is low cortisol, not serotonin?)

I don't want to put too much info on here bc I don't want to freak anyone out but that number is Not Good. Like, the earliest appointment I could get was in February, but my doctor's referral department was able to get me an appointment on Nov 20th, 113 days sooner .

But . This endocrinologist I saw was very dismissive and rude, almost outright hostile. I guess the POTS diagnosis isn't doing me any favors (since a lot of drs don't view it as legitimate), but I didn't know about this condition when I decided to prioritize the cardiologist.

Anyway, I requested a transfer of care, so I'll be scheduling with another endocrinologist, hopefully sooner rather than later. If I have Fuck You If You Get Sick Or Even Just Stressed Out disease and I've been pushing my body past its limits all my life, I can wait longer to see a dr with basic respect ✌🏻

Sorry that this isn't good news, but I wanted to post an update instead of waiting until I had another appointment to check in. Here's pics of my cat as something positive to share

[yume-kara-samete]

Egao YES Nude - Morning Musume '22

Morning Musume '22 CONCERT TOUR ~Never Been Better!~ Morito Chisaki Sotsugyou Special

[yume-kara-samete]

Sukatto My Heart - Morning Musume '24

Morning Musume '24 Concert Tour Haru MOTTO MORNING MUSUME。

[gruesomegf]

i feel a profound sadness within me...... sex horror sex bat sex horror sex vampire sex bat horror vampire sex

[exitwound]

equally confounded and obsessed by this quora question and response that i just stumbled onto

[subject--13919-deactivated20241]

they're just jealous that my body has already completely rotted inside and will decompose faster when it dies

[andremichaux]

BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER (1997 - 2003) ⏤ 6.13, Dead Things [ Original Dialogue ]

[enki2]

[lovertm]

pathetic affirmations (button sets, part 2) by Claire Thompson

[yume-kara-samete]

Egao YES Nude - Morning Musume '22

Morning Musume '22 CONCERT TOUR ~Never Been Better!~ Morito Chisaki Sotsugyou Special

[dailyjpop]

Mondo Grosso -  偽りのシンパシー (False Sympathy) [Vocal: AiNA THE END (BiSH)]

[sewerfight-deactivated20250114]

Kind of a Reddit AITA post but sometimes it is a little funny to fuck with people in ways that deliberately conform to a stereotype of what they must think of you. the other day I was talking to my friend and I randomly said that I wanted a pet chimpanzee. I'd dress it in person clothes (dungarees and hats) and I'd teach it to love science fiction. And this girl nearby was like "you know how dangerous those things are, right? Also how unethical it is to keep an ape as your pet for your own amusement" and I was already seeing where the conversation was going so I was pretending ignorance like "yea but it wouldn't just be for my amusement. It would have practical points too." And she ignored that statement entirely to say "Well chimpanzees can rip faces off" and I was like. What's the most frustrating thing I can say now. Finally settled on "Mine wouldn't do that though." and you could tell she wanted to hurt me very very badly. Like a chimpanzee would if I had one as a pet

[sewerfight-deactivated20250114]

Kind of a Reddit AITA post but sometimes it is a little funny to fuck with people in ways that deliberately conform to a stereotype of what they must think of you. the other day I was talking to my friend and I randomly said that I wanted a pet chimpanzee. I'd dress it in person clothes (dungarees and hats) and I'd teach it to love science fiction. And this girl nearby was like "you know how dangerous those things are, right? Also how unethical it is to keep an ape as your pet for your own amusement" and I was already seeing where the conversation was going so I was pretending ignorance like "yea but it wouldn't just be for my amusement. It would have practical points too." And she ignored that statement entirely to say "Well chimpanzees can rip faces off" and I was like. What's the most frustrating thing I can say now. Finally settled on "Mine wouldn't do that though." and you could tell she wanted to hurt me very very badly. Like a chimpanzee would if I had one as a pet

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[tamascotchi-deactivated20190101]

i had a dream i put some mcdonalds french fries in my pocket and when i went to grab them and they had transformed into a box of marlboro cigarettes. nice fucking symbolism dream banksy i just wanted a snack