Here's a little story to go with the drawing:
So basically this drawing is set I'ma say about three months after the events of KH3 and MOM - (Kingdom hearts 3 and Melody of memories)
Kairi has been training in the land of departure for those three months
And she has formed a pretty good bond with all of them in her time there
She really looks up to aqua as her mentor and aqua becomes a second mother/big sister to kairi she pushes kairi to be the best she can be but is also very firm when she finds her pushing herself too hard she's also very encouraging to her and praises her when she does well along with giving her advice about her confidence issues
She also has good relationship with ventus with them up sometimes staying up late on days when they are not training just talking until sunrises or having cooking disasters in the kitchen or playing pranks on terra he becomes another brother to kairi similar to axel/lea when she would find herself feeling sad or lonely Ven would always be there ready to make laugh and helped her forget whatever was bothering her earlier that day
And last but certainly not least Terra who this drawing has in it her and terra kinda had a bit of a rocky start when they first met with him looking so much like the xahanort from her memories she wasn't cruel to him by all means but kinda avoided him and was little nervous around him and also didn't really make a effort to get to know him like she did Ven
But as time went by terra noticed this and eventually with encouragment from Aqua and Ven sat down with kairi with just the two of them and had a heart to heart with her on what happened and why she acts the way she does around him, she explains to him that it's not really him but it's more so of who he reminds her of how every time she would look at him she would see xahanort all over kidnapping her and sending away from her home as it was being destroyed, along with other trauma associated with xanort (and also probably murdered her grandmother right in front of her but it's not really confirmed tho so take this with a grain of salt)
As she explains this terra's eyes get really glossy and when she finally gets done speaking, terra with tears in his eyes gives kairi a wholehearted apology for everything that happened to her and all the pain he caused her (even though terra had no control over his heart anymore at that point) and that he would spend everyday trying to make things right with her, (even though somewhere deep down inside he feels as though nothing will)
And Kairi being the sweetheart she is she looks in his eyes and sees the sincerity in his apology and that he was no longer the man haunting in her memories but also a victim of xahanort just as she was and that she forgives him for everything the two share a hug
And afterwards Terra becomes a older brother to kairi in way, on nights when she can't sleep he's always there with a cup of hot chocolate and a soft blanket ready to listen if she wants to talk about it or if not he just stays with her until she's able to fall back asleep or if she starts feels like she's not doing enough he's always quick to reassure her that she's doing great, he also loves to pretend that hes angry about whatever prank her and ven did to him just to get a laugh out of her, he becomes her anchor in after everything.
So that you are all caught up on everything now to the story of this drawing:
Kairi had not had a easy week she has been having a really hard time mastering spellweaver she found herself really getting frustrated with herself for not mastering it she when she should've she would almost have it then she would just fizzle out
Aqua would feel kairi getting frustrated and in return would tell her they'll try again tomorrow and then they move on to something else this goes on for a week until kairi snaps at aqua telling her she doesn't wanna move on to something else she wants to keep going until she gets it right
Aqua also feeling frustrated with kairi snaps back at her telling her she's not gonna master it because she's not ready and she's too inexperienced to master it and that they need to move on to something more on her level
This makes the two go back and forth until eventually aqua dismisses her for the day this causes kairi to storm off and lock herself in her room for the whole rest of the day
Terra and Ven and even Aqua at some point knock on door through out the day trying to coax her to come out and talk to them and eat but she refuses or just flat out ignores them they eventually give up and gives her her space
Later on that evening she falls asleep but she doesn't stay asleep long as she a awful anxiety filled nightmare and after tossing and turning for about thirty minutes
She decides to goes to her usual coping mechanism when she doesn't wanna bother terra which is the training grounds she usually goes there and get her anger out until she feel exhausted enough to go to sleep
So she puts her boots on and her cardigan to protect from the cool air and makes her way to the training ground unbeknownst to her terra quietly follows her
Once she reaches the grounds she makes her way to the training dummy and she attacks this poor training dummy with full force releasing a weeks or longer worth anger and frustration on it
Eventually her arms get sore enough and the tightness in her chest loosens just a little just enough for it to feel easier to breathe and so she stops
Once she does she hears a warm familiar voice behind "a little late to be training" terra says as he was sitting on a bench located on the grounds
Kairi said irritation clear in her tone and her face as she looks at him "isn't that what I'm here for?"
Terra doesn't get angry at her instead he looks at her with that soft understanding "it is," he says keeping the same gentle tone he always had "but not like this"
Kairi doesn't say anything she just she swallows the words threatening to spill out
When she doesn't respond he continues "what your doing, I've been where you are," he leans forward ever slightly keeping eye contact with her "I know how you feel"
Kairi raises a eyebrow at this "no you don't" he opens his mouth to respond but she doesn't give him a chance
"You have no idea how I feel," she says finally releasing the pressure on her heart "You have no idea how it feels to be weak!, to try and try and try to strong enough to protect the ones that are the most important to you and never being enough to protect them!" Each word left her feeling lighter and lighter "So don't patronize me!!" By the end of it she was shouting and out of breath
After few deep breaths she built up the courage to look back at him halfway through her speech she broke eye contact from him but when she did she was surprised
He wasn't angry nor frustrated with her for disregarding what he said he just look at her with those same sad gentle understanding eyes that made her feel awful
She released her grip on her keyblade it dropped to the ground the sound of it clanking before it disappeared her fingers aching from the death grip she had on it
"I-I'm sorry,terra" she apologized "I don't know what came over me, I'm not angry with you" she said barely keep her voice even
"But it's how you feel isn't it?" He said simply
Her eyes burrowed slightly as she gives him a confused look
"Angry" He clarified
Her eyes widened at his revelation she felt that far too familiar sting in back of her eyes
She let out a high pitched unnatural laugh "I-I'm not angry" she says "I-I'm fine" her voice trembled slightly at the end
Terra didn't say anything just looked with that quiet sad understanding like he saw her hurt her pain and understood it
She tried her best to hold in her tears to push down her pain her anger just as she always has, but in end she fails to hold them in this time
Terra is over there with three quick long strides and he wraps one arm around her shoulders gently pulling her to his chest and the other hand resting gently on the back of her head moving up and down in a soothing out the wild strands of hair
And kairi just cries and cries finally letting out those years and months worth of anger and hurt....
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