Just Being Me

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I hope everyone had a great a thanksgiving as I did! While I know the holidays are hard for many reasons, know it’s okay to not always be happy or smiling. The holidays are about what makes you feel happy and whole, so if that means needing to take a moment, an hour or a day for yourself do it because you deserve to feel the best you can! I am so grateful and thankful for all that I have, everything from my family and friends to the ability to go to college and achieve my goals! But absence truly does make the heart grow fonder and I am extremely lucky to be welcomed home by love and laughs! To think in about a month I’ll be done with my first semester at New Paltz😱 Anyway, to whoever is reading this no matter if we talk still or not I am grateful for having you in my life and wish you nothing but the best because there’s no room in this world for resentment and grudges💕🦋💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/B5b3CU6Bggo/?igshid=1wc0y05hqzp35

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Nice thing to come home to, thank you! Although I’m surprised they’re for me since my birthday was in August😂💕 (at SUNY New Paltz) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4GLCB-hBqt/?igshid=1555yk991ixte

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My first college Halloween👻🧡 🎵This is Halloween, This is Halloween I’ve got a pumpkin King!🎵🎃 https://www.instagram.com/p/B3suIHzhY5J/?igshid=htofml2tpgc0

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Missing this adorable lump a little extra this week, love you dud bud💕 Thank you @ekg_347 for the pictures😂💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/B3AgdFFBxXZ/?igshid=1oi2kfqu4nhll

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The lake looked particularly beautiful today... https://www.instagram.com/p/B2NQLDVFnV8/?igshid=1r6yfxktidij4

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Such a good movie series! The second one is better than the first, but both are good! Thanks to the best suite mates ever @megan_kathleeen @aliciamonteroo for introducing it to me! https://www.instagram.com/p/B2IEh6KhpnU/?igshid=d00stpzo4enl

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Happy #nationaldogday to my baby boy @dudleyboy2015 💕💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/B1peSHBhZnidjVaHmoMa30B18jqIHST-uK-B5E0/?igshid=706utmu34x6m

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Some of you know that this past Monday I had surgery... as you know I had surgery a few years ago on my left foot for a tarsal coalition, a few weeks ago I had found out I had a different type of coalition in my right foot, both of which I was born with. The only way to fix them is with surgery, while this fact both terrified me and broke my heart knowing I’d have to postpone and even cancel the fun plans I had with friends and being so worried I wouldn’t be healed enough to go to New Paltz, I just felt like giving up in a way I haven’t felt in a very long time... but thanks to the support and love from friends, family and even the surgeon and his staff, I was able to go into this surgery with a better mental state than I thought possible and almost enjoy the healing process because I’m being forced to do nothing but accept and actually feel like I deserve the kindness so many of you have shown me throughout this scary time. I hope you all know how much you mean to me and that I’m posting this not for sympathy, but to thank @ekg_347 @beriren @new_beginnings97 @dudleyboy2015 and many more for their love, kindness, generosity and thoughtfulness towards me and my situation(s) not just during these past few days, but for every moment you all have been in my life and shared your wonderful personalities and lives with me. Thank you for being you and don’t ever change! https://www.instagram.com/p/BzizjWyBePX/?igshid=1y690ow0kvlh

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Dudley vs a new kind of bottle is my current favorite show😂 https://www.instagram.com/p/ByTGjCgBN2m/?igshid=1siaisi74aydi

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I’m officially going to Cortland! #cortlandbound #sunycortland https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw2ppxKg85oWmPPnSWnLbaHBK_NAgBvKT-oBws0/?igshid=19c6fz7vhpk8u

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Ahh omg THE @kameronmichaels liked my comment! Just made my day! https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw0hE6TAIbNG2SPAANNvsvCXNao0Qobh7hJKiY0/?igshid=1eadtd1fzxgmk

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I hope you all had a great Easter, even if you don’t celebrate it! However, if your day wasn’t the best, know I not only love and care for you, but that I support you and am here for you. I may not be sure god is real, but I do believe we are all put on this earth for a reason. Sometimes that purpose can not be fulfilled without going through some difficult things, and it’s okay to need/ask for help during those times. Just know you are someone’s reason to smile!😊💕🦋☀️🦄🌈🌻🧡
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Everyone meet my chocolate scented love bunny Hamilton, and the best patient EVER who wants him as his own Dudley😂💕🐰💜🐶
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Thought of the Day

Recently I’ve been wanting to write a lot and since I want to be a author that’s good, but the problem is, I don’t quite know what I want to write, and even if I did, I don’t know where I can share it for feedback without the risk of people stealing my ideas. I know there’s Wattpad, but it seems so difficult to gain followers, even on here it seems like I’m writing to no one! I guess this want for feedback is the Leo in me, not that I really believe all that mumbo jumbo horoscope stuff, however, it’s not because I want attention, it’s because I want to know where I can improve or what people actually want to read. I know I could post on here, but again, no one’s really following me as of yet, so where do I even begin? For now I’ll just keep coming up with ideas and wait until a suitable plan comes to mind I suppose... but if anyone is reading this, please give me some answers or ideas or SOMETHING!

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“I will spend more time with myself in this lifetime than anyone else. Let me learn to be the kind of person I would like to have as a friend.”

— Courage to Change: One Day at a Time (Al-Anon.)

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one of the hardest things to learn as a depressed former Gifted Kid™ is that half-assed is better than nothing. take the 50%, 40%, even 20% job. scrubbing your face is better than not taking a shower at all. picking up your clothes is better than never cleaning. nibbling on some bread is better than starving.

DO THINGS HALFWAY. NOW YOU’RE 100% BETTER OFF THAN YOU WERE BEFORE.

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I learned this and I didn’t even know it

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If it costs you your peace, it’s too expensive. I don’t quite know why but after my first day back at college this semester I had a burst of confidence in my appearance and so, this is one of the products I like after a narcissistic montage of feeling cute and trying too hard😂😂 At least me, my phone and the people watching me through my phone are the only ones who’ll see those selfies that will never see the light of day again... https://www.instagram.com/p/BtSI5UIg2Bu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3spexjtnd93p