Renaissance Lady

30•Bi(polar)sexual•Qu(irky)eer

[rifnas]

[daddystinygirll]

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

[adlersappetite]

god, yeah

[plumslices]

Hanging out is all we have left

[girls-and-concerts]

you can tell me a million times that i’m not a burden to you and i still wouldn’t believe it

[thoughtkick]

A bad relationship is like standing on broken glass, if you stay you will keep hurting. If you walk away, you will hurt but eventually you will heal.

Autumn Kohler (via thoughtkick)

[rifnas]

I need A

-crew-

Where my fam at?

[rifnas]

Are there actually any hot people that live like Josh Cody and his uncles? Just woke up from a dream where I was hang out AND making out with Finn Cole, at a huge house party, and he was quite similar to his role on Animal Kingdom… I was abruptly woken up, and now I’m sad that I’m not in that world anymore. I strongly wish for that life.. meh

[rifnas]

When I was a kid, one of my biggest fears were ghosts with bullet wounds in their heads. I know that sounds kinda specific, but you can thank The Sixth Sense and The Amityville Horror. However, I remember always thinking “it’s just a movie,” or “it’s not real,” as that’s what our parents always told us when we had nightmares. But two and a half years ago, an abusive ex took his life, by gunshot, in his closet, surrounded by pillows. Leaving this world, blaming me. Nothing could’ve prepared me for this. Because no one, even me, could’ve seen something like this coming. Nothing has ruined me more. I’m still losing my shit.. two and a half years later.. and I still don’t know how to be a person, again.. just as I’m finally getting up, again, another trauma occurs.. what is the point in this life if I’m only meant to suffer? Did I do something wrong in a past life? Nothing else makes sense.

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[dumbsuicidalteen]

being suicidal and living for others is the most drowning feeling ever.

why can’t i find a reason to live for myself?

[shoelace4-48-deactivated2022061]

[killerquetiapine]

being borderline is not knowing who you are unless it’s in relation to others & that’s a horrible fucking feeling

[rifnas]

Everytime I share my interests/dreams/wants with other people, it all works out for them… WHAT THE FUCK?! I’m tired of this shit. I’ve wanted these things for so long, and then you come along, and the shit is practically handed to you. I’m so tired of working for nothing. Tired of having too much anxiety and depression to work. Tired of everyone else getting what I’ve always wanted. Tired of being fucking poor and sad. Fuckkkkkkk.

[rifnas]

Is there anyone out there who enjoys paying for a broke girl’s stuff, no strings attached? 😅😅😅 Fml. Just had to drop $450 in property taxes to get a registration sticker on my car. Still need to get an inspection and oil change, as well. Fuckin awesome.

Send donations-

Cashapp-$morrigana91

PayPal- @missba91

[rifnas]

So, I need to get my car inspection, and I’m afraid it won’t pass without having my brake pads replaced.. fml. If anyone has more $$ than they need, and would like to donate to my pity fund, please do.. currently unemployed bc mental illness ruins my life.. 😓 PayPal- @missba1991.. your help is always appreciated more than I could ever express. ❤️

[rifnas]

Why is being who I want to be so impossible? Why can’t it be as easy as it looks? Save me.

[dominant-dominion]

Fights and arguments are part of a relationship. Name calling and manipulation isn't.