AKA. Shuith

Art account: @shui_th on instagram Age: 26 I'm old now. this tumblr has been inactive since I was 17 but I've resurrected from the dead. I'm still as cringe as I was back then me thinks

[rikanmiuki]

Sometimes I feel like a hollow shell putting up a facade to everyone. I think I function better like this on a day to day, but I don't think it's healthy or fair for anyone for me to be like this

[azhdarchidae]

caught her in perfect deviantart oc ref sheet pose

[raccoonboywrites]

Mutuals every time we’re all online this is what we’re doing

[rikanmiuki]

Awww this interaction was really sweet, randy and mireille are cute tgthrr

Currently at the last mishellam hangout for cs4, I like class 7, but I'll still hunt the SSS down hehe

Lloyd and Elie are rlly cute tgthr too, if I ever replay zero and azure, I'll go for elies route instead of randy

Did obligatory teacher duties and went to do bonding activities with all of reans students, plus alisa (my ex gf in cs2) and towa (who I was trying but failed to woo in cs1+2) and crow (the partner)

Haven't chosen the final date option yet, but waaa I'm stuck between alisa and towa

[rikanmiuki]

Wanted to try out water color since I got some water color paint when I went Malaysia for a short while. Wish me luck before I ruin this with paint

[rikanmiuki]

Damn wait water color is rlly fun I hope I don't mess this up

[rikanmiuki]

Smthn smthn idk wtf it is I'm doing smthn smthn

Puts hands in head. What is color

[rikanmiuki]

Stopping here to go dance prac (I really don't want to but I'm the one running things)

[rikanmiuki]

Head in hands, I give up

I'll move onto lineart now ajskslla

[possessable]

also facades and false identities are so fun . many such variations.

someone accidentally slipping further into a facade than they intended . someone purposefully retreating further into a facade . someone accidentally dropping their normally impeccable facade for a moment . someone purposefully letting their facade down as a taunt or mockery or in a genuine way because they're finally in a situation where they don't need the facade anymore . someone whose facade really is just a tool that they have complete control over and it never falters or fails . someone whose facade is the opposite and they're having a really bad time trying to maintain their facade or trying to maintain their true self under the facade . many such good options. all fun.

i love you facades and false identities and presentations of the self and separation of aspects of the self and

[butchfaith]

how it feels to become an active participant in your own life

[pnglove]

[rikanmiuki]

Sigh I feel like I'm constantly drowning in nostalgia, I can't seem to move forward. I'm scared of the future, I long for the past, I kinda want to kill myself but I know I shouldn't, my husband will miss me. I'm scared for my mom's operation too. Last time was an absolute disaster, if it goes the same route again or worse idk what I'd do. I hate this

Everytime I feel I can pick myself up, my brain just goes haha and I feel 10 times worse

[rikanmiuki]

Wanted to try out water color since I got some water color paint when I went Malaysia for a short while. Wish me luck before I ruin this with paint

[rikanmiuki]

Damn wait water color is rlly fun I hope I don't mess this up

[rikanmiuki]

Smthn smthn idk wtf it is I'm doing smthn smthn

Puts hands in head. What is color

[rikanmiuki]

Stopping here to go dance prac (I really don't want to but I'm the one running things)

[rikanmiuki]

Wanted to try out water color since I got some water color paint when I went Malaysia for a short while. Wish me luck before I ruin this with paint

[rikanmiuki]

Damn wait water color is rlly fun I hope I don't mess this up

[rikanmiuki]

Smthn smthn idk wtf it is I'm doing smthn smthn

Puts hands in head. What is color

[rikanmiuki]

If you think I know what I'm doing, no I don't

(stopping here to go for practice ugh I don't wanna)

[rikanmiuki]

Wanted to try out water color since I got some water color paint when I went Malaysia for a short while. Wish me luck before I ruin this with paint

[rikanmiuki]

Damn wait water color is rlly fun I hope I don't mess this up

[rikanmiuki]

Smthn smthn idk wtf it is I'm doing smthn smthn

Puts hands in head. What is color

[rikanmiuki]

Wanted to try out water color since I got some water color paint when I went Malaysia for a short while. Wish me luck before I ruin this with paint

[rikanmiuki]

Damn wait water color is rlly fun I hope I don't mess this up

[rikanmiuki]

Wanted to try out water color since I got some water color paint when I went Malaysia for a short while. Wish me luck before I ruin this with paint

[rikanmiuki]

Life absolutely knocked me the heck out, but I'm slowly getting back on my feet. On another note, I played abit of tomodachi and made the SSS into miis

On another another note, randy fell in love with Lloyd on first sight lmao, it wasn't even intentional, I made both bi

[not-your-average-url]

I miss when ads were a single click and then they’re gone. Now every ad has a minimum of three phases where you watch a video, exit the still frame of fake gameplay, and then exit the app download. That doesn’t even touch on the ones that forcibly take you to another app after opening a tab in safari without you ever touching the screen.

I hate advertising. I hate that you can’t do anything without companies jumping down your throat with mostly bullshit ads. I hate that billboards exist. I hate that every company unanimously decided to make their ads longer and longer. I hate that ad blockers try to charge you money and there are in app purchases to remove ads. I hate that my attention has become commodified. I hate that there’s nothing I can do about it.

[subwaybug]

❎ "my current mental state can cause me to be anxious, irrational, and overly reactive at times"

✅ "some sort of evil shadow self lurks within me that can only be defeated via battle of the mind combat"