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That hashtag wants me dead, but I don't mind It's just another way we grieve For all the times we failed to be the ones We thought we had the chance to be

And when it gets too complicated When you can't get to sleep When the morning seems impossible Select all, delete Select all, delete Select all, delete

And I don't mean to miss the good old days The good old days were mostly bad But I recall how dark the night got then How absences could make me glad

So when it's too illuminated Too loud and indiscreet When it gets you stoned or gets you strange Select all, delete Select all, delete Select all, delete

#i love you all #it's just....#it is just #please know that i am always radiating love at you #like a friendly ghost aunt creeping in your hallway radiators wishing you joy and fulfillment and success #<333333333

boybandquicksand

I’m coming out of hibernation to say, every minute this photograph hasn’t been in my life has been a goddamn waste

#i love that he raised both erica and i from the grave #this was so comforting to me to see your post right at the instant i posted my nonsense #did u know that i have stared at this picture for hours today?#i made it my desktop background at work #i just keep looking at it #i don't know how i lived without this picture #i have been singing don't know much but i know i love you-oo-oo-oo at this pic in aaron neville voice all day #HAROLD #hi erica kiss kiss

harryisclever-deactivated201803

One of Harry’s mix tapes

#ok listen #do you know how important blaze foley is to me?#like how much i love sad old timey country dudes?#do you know what thinking about harry lying on the floor listening to blaze foley does to me?#do you know that it is enough to RAISE ME FROM THE DEAD and also KILL ME AGAIN?#like i had to yell in tags about this #i miss yelling in tags and this is PRECISELY THE OCCASION #TO DO IT #OK BUT of course he picked ooh love OF COURSE but also picture #did he listen to IF I COULD ONLY FLY and think about that while singing IF I COULD FLY #DOES HARRY ALSO LISTEN TO TOWNES?#DOES HARRY ALSO LISTEN TO JACKSON C FRANK?#DOES HE HAVE A REAL SAD TIME?#and do not even TALK TO ME ABOUT CHOOSING HELPLESSLY HOPING THAT IS SUCH A FLIPPING HARRY SONG I AM SO ANGRY #he is such a sweet soft good boy #a special boy a gentle boy a soft boy #i miss all of you btw #like for real #kisses from your weird aunt #HAROLD

gloryhollanovjah

You don’t have only one soul-mate; Instead, you have soul-mates, because your heart is huge and you have the room.

-from you fall in love easily but your heart still isn’t full by styleshockey

#I know it might seem repetitive #but in case you forgot #I'm OT5 as heck #ot5 #that's all

1999gorl

i don’t even skip pillowtalk, its you, befour, or like i would….. thats how u kno its real

#EVERY SONG IS A JAM #mind of mine #no filler!#ZAYN PAIN

ripfeelingshulk

I’ve been in fandoms, in music scenes, I’ve loved things deeply before. But One Direction has been so powerful and healing for me. It took me 30 years to get to a place where I could love something sincerely, where I could own 7 shirts, decorate my office walls, have both a phone case and a lock screen of the same person, fly across the country and buy VIP tickets to see shows, weep at said shows. I’m making up for decades of feeling like I had to explain my joy, of dealing with gatekeeping boys, of having to pass a test to determine if I really liked a band, of needing to like something intellectually instead of emotionally. Snarky comments and rationalization. One Direction came along and all I wanted to do was reach out and share my feelings with other people. To appreciate and embrace truly loving something. I had so many protective walls up around my joy and now I want to reach out and share that with people. I’ve made genuine powerful emotional connections with incredible people on tumblr through loving One Direction. I’ve become someone who can be open with their sincerity.

And Zayn. Zayn has been the most important to me through it all. I have had favorite members of bands before but this? This is the first time I have let myself really feel what it is to have a favorite. The weight and the joy of that. Of looking at a picture of someone and shouting “NO!”. Of thinking about mixes you’d make them. Feeling protective when someone insulted them. Your standard crush stuff but bigger, more interactive - because you could build a community around it. Heavy and wonderful. There is so much I love about his personality, I’ve written volumes about it. I found myself referring to him as my patron saint of gentle boundaries so often and I’m thinking about that now, and I’m feeling so much love, but I’m also devastated. The things I adore about Zayn are the reasons I can understand and feel proud of his decision. But still. BUT STILL. I know you should appreciate the moments that you have but also I feel like I got to hold this feeling for such a short time. My first true favorite, Zayn Malik. I’m so glad it was you.

ripfeelingshulk

Well it’s been quite a year. Thanks to all of you for navigating this with me. We’ve built such a community out of working through our feelings. I’ll never forget my feelings about Zayn as a part of One Direction, and I’m so thankful that now I get to have so many feelings about Zayn Malik as Zayn Malik. Today feels....it feels like a lot. It’s healing. It’s moving forward without invalidating the past. It’s excitement with a hint of wistfulness, sadness, the feelings I have about so many intense moments of my past. I’m proud of Zayn, I’m proud of us. It’s March 25th.

#happy anniversary?#is that the thing to say?#just honestly....thank you for following me while I've worked through this last year #i've vanished and crashed back in #i've tried to find my place here #i'm still trying to find my place here #but we can be here in this together #and we can look at this past year and be like HEY WE DID IT WE ARE HERE #love to all of you #and love to Zayn #I'm so proud of him #I'm so proud of us #I will say it again #ZAYN PAIN #march 25th

hobisdaydreams-deactivated20180

all these reviewers are so fucking stale and boring… they desperately want there to be some kind of post boyband formula so all their reviews are influenced by that shit and completely inane comparisons instead of looking at zayn as a debuting artist, like i get the reasons why but it’s still unfair and just a blatant bias lmao like it’s impossible to be objective about an album if you’re looking at it through the limited lens of ‘the robbie williams’ or ‘the justin timberlake’ or whatever other fucking asinine lazy assumption