After careful consideration, I believe it is time for me to deactivate this blog or at the very least remove any personal information from it and log out forever.
I have cherished my time in the P-shifter and adjacent nonhuman communities, and I still consider myself nonhuman. None of this is any less a part of me despite my desire to leave these communities in the past.
Keeping this blog, even when I haven’t been looking at it, has been causing me a great deal of anxiety. I just don’t think nonhuman communities, especially on tumblr, are for me or what I need right now. I wish I could say I have a desire to come back at a later time, but I can’t really say that I do. The p-shifter community has been kinder than most in some ways, but in general nonhuman communities just cause me a great deal of stress, anger, and anxiety.
I want to live freely. For a while, this blog helped me do that. I finally had a place I could be myself. But I got too comfortable, and now I’m worried i’ve put too much of myself on here. Being open about who and what I am feels great in the moment but honestly just leaves me feeling hollow afterwards, because I realize I prefer total anonymity. So, continuing on in nonhuman communities, where the focus is Yourself and Your identity is not correlating with my desire to live freely. I do not think it’s healthy for me to continue engaging in a space that causes me anxiety in any sense.
I guess that’s all I really wanted to say. I wish everyone in the community luck on their endeavors and hope my presence won’t be missed. I’m sorry I never got around to sharing more of my ideas on how genetics plays a role in shifting, but I will say I have been learning a lot in my class and haven’t found anything that would outright disprove it as far as I’m aware.
That is all, thank you to anyone who welcomed me, and farewell.
I know this feels super sudden but I am honestly considering deleting this blog soon. I love this community dearly and I do like that we have a corner on the internet for our weirdness here, but lately Ive been anxious about us sharing too many details and having too much information associated with us.
I have another life on the internet much more important to me now than keeping a pshifter blog that could potentially be used against me. It might be safer for me to keep shifting to myself and limit my online presence to just my art accounts. I think i’ve done okay in keeping this blog separate from my art persona, but my theriotypes are very identifiable due to their “rarity” so I feel this could easily link back to my actual mains, and i don’t want that.
I’m trying to build a dream I’ve had since I was young, of being a respected artist online, how am I supposed to have that if people find out I’m a shifter and use it against me? How many people would actually respect me if they knew? How many of them would disregard my work because they think I’m crazy or untrustworthy? It’s sad to think about, but it might be time for me to let this blog go and just be a shifter in complete privacy.
I don’t like doing this. I wish I could have both. Maybe I’ll just abandon this blog instead of deleting it completely, I don’t know. I want a job as an artist. Is there any hope for me to be hired if my employer knows I talk about being a shapeshifter online? Socially unacceptable behavior to most. People are bound to find out eventually if my art “blows up” too many times. I wish I was braver, but I’m also just trying to be loyal to the kid we used to be who wanted to be a professional artist more than anything.
hello Pangur !! I hope I'm not bothering in any way ^^
I want to know more about how you experience p-shifting. I've been questioning being a physical shifter and other pshifter's experiences would really help me out. I want to ask some questions to you:
If these questions bother you in some way or if you don't want to reply, feel free to delete this ask :·) I will not pester you with spamming /genuine
how do your transformations (tend to) occur ? Do they happen in specific conditions only or do they happen randomly ?
do you think that the current moon phase influences your transformations ?
why have you started considering yourself a (questioning) pshifter ? When did you find out about the pshifting community ?
thank you <3
sorry for such a late response! i’ve been pretty busy with college classes lately
I have not fully or partially transformed a whole lot of times (at least from what I can remember, which is … not a lot lol), but most of the time when I have it’s because I was meaning to. I try to practice shifting regularly (though recently this has been hard to get back into due to other priorities) and have been trying to develop my own method to more reliably pshift. as far as i’m aware i’ve never had a “random” pshift, though I have noticed if I go too long without attempting to shift i start to feel itchy under my skin, particularly near my arms, and I get very restless.
I’m not sure if the moon phases influence my transformations that much… I do know when the moon is very bright, I feel the urge to shift, but I think this is just more a psychological response since the trope of shifting being triggered under moonlight is so common
I started questioning it probably almost a year ago? Time is kindof fuzzy, I know at some point I was just very angry with the therian community. I was always kindof upset with the therian community because I think deep down I knew they weren’t the exact experience I was looking for which is why it felt like I never really belonged. Eventually I stumbled across the pshifters, and of course I was skeptical, but I figured there was no harm in trying, and I liked how a lot of them spoke about their nonhumanity because it felt closer to how I feel it. The (perceptible) supernatural has also always been a big part of why I consider myself nonhuman and did as a child, and while spiritual therians exist, they seldom had experiences that were similar to mine in terms of perceptible supernatural experiences (as in, experiences with supernatural beings, odd abilities, unexplainable experiences without the supernatural, etc)
I’ve realized more recently that the more I try to shift, the more I try to connect to this nonhumanity through pshifting the closer I feel to a part of me I thought was lost for good. part of this is in a system sense, I think the closer I get to shifting the closer I get to what I believe to be our former host, and the more memories I uncover. In a more general sense, I don’t think I feel entirely myself without shifting, and while I haven’t seen enough “results” to feel like I can fully call myself one hence the “questioning”, I do feel comfortable here and feel like this is where my identity was meant to be all along.
woke up after a shift attempt and found one very long, black, and very distinctly animal-like, not human hair in my bed. It reminds me of my dogs fur, but… my dog is pure white (she does occasionally get a black hair, but what are the chances of her shedding it in my bed rather than the millions of white ones?) . The end of the hair also looks like it’s been cut, and we’ve never cut her hair.
I’ll double check my dog to be sure but this is all very odd lol.
late update: i double checked my dog to see if the one black hair she has on her right now is still there and it was. The black hair is also a little wavy/curly , and I’m the only one in my family with wavy/curly hair. I think it’s a little weird it’s only one though? maybe I only grew one hair and shed it but that seems a little implausible to me lol??
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Unfortunately, due to a recent altercation between me, my biological mother, and her husband I am currently left facing homelessness and struggles to afford basic nessecities. While I am desperately searching for work to make a stable income as a college student, until someone hires me I am left scrounging for any money I can get my paws on to survive.
About a week before Christmas, my mothers husband had a massive outburst while we were alone in his car. He threatened me, accused me of trying to get between him and my mother's relationship, and said some very cruel and nasty things about me.
What particularly stuck out to me and is still paining me most today was his accusation that I wanted to "frame him" as a sexual predator. The following text has been written verbatim to his words.
[Mothers husband]
[Me]
"You keep bringing up things and calling me a weirdo, thats all the proof I need. I already know what you're trying to do."
"I did not call you a weirdo. I said you asking me, my boyfriend, and my friends about our genitals and sex lives is weird and uncomfortable."
"No, I'm done talking. I already know what you're trying to do. I was already warned about this."
"What are you talking about? I don't understand what you think I'm thinking? Who warned you about what?"
"No. Nothing."
"Say it. What are you talking about?"
"[Abuser] already told me years ago that you'd try to make up a story about me sexually abusing you."
"What? My abuser told you that? And you actually believe her?"
"I already have all the proof I need. I already know."
"Are you fucking serious?"
"I'm done talking. If it weren't for your mom I would've kicked you out a long time ago. The only reason why you're living with us is because of her."
My abuser, among other horrific and disgusting things, sexually abused me in various forms between the ages of 6-17. Which makes this all the more horrifying and soul-crushing to hear.
This is only one part of the altercation from that day. Not long after this my mother decided that I was asking her to "choose between her kid and her husband" and chose her husband after a week of performative acts in a desperate attempt to get me back instead of being upset with the man himself. She's currently blaming me for her husbands bizzare and ridiculous behavior and actions, refusing to acknowledge that the man she decided to marry is an absolute piece of shit, but I guess it takes one to know one.
For the time being, I am receiving some help from friends but of course they cannot help me with everything. I am selling my old masks in hopes of making some income to help me afford things like hygiene essentials and medical expenses my insurance doesn't cover.
The masks are being sold through depop and im offering a 10% discount to anyone who purchases more than one mask. I'm also willing to negotiate a lower price as the masks have a starting offer at $28 per mask. My depop account is caged_canine.
Please, even if you aren't intrested in purchasing them I ask you to share this or reblog so other creatures may see this. It'd be a massive help to me.
woke up after a shift attempt and found one very long, black, and very distinctly animal-like, not human hair in my bed. It reminds me of my dogs fur, but… my dog is pure white (she does occasionally get a black hair, but what are the chances of her shedding it in my bed rather than the millions of white ones?) . The end of the hair also looks like it’s been cut, and we’ve never cut her hair.
I’ll double check my dog to be sure but this is all very odd lol.
I came to the sudden realization recently that the other form I usually feel (the ambiguous animal i keep mentioning) most often when I attempt to physically shift actually somewhat resembles a Thylacine.
the snout shape in particular but also the ear shape, the lean build, and proportions (maybe a little bit taller though)
The only difference is my tail feels shorter, and my fur is much darker.
I remember a long time ago I kept coming back to the thylacine wondering if it could be a theriotype but I always dismissed it. Maybe this is the real reason it kept coming back to me.
I guess the only way to find out is to try to shift again, I’m heavily out of practice though …
hi hello everyone! Sorry for the disappearance, I needed a break from everything, and I’ve been working on something unrelated to my nonhumanity. Unfortunately, I can only go so long with my nonhumanity in a “waning” phase before i start to feel restless, hence my return. I miss feeling animal, I miss shifting, It feels so itchy under my skin like I need to shapeshift before I disintegrate. I need to feel like myself again.
Being disabled, working nearly full time, and on top of all that still trying to keep up with my goals for this year have put this part of me on “hold”, so to speak, but I forget how hard it is to Act, play pretend like I am a normal human. I need to figure out how to make more time for myself.
This stopped being about racism the moment I realized that the person who is saying that they are "actively trying to change" is.. a groomer, and is communicating with minors in the physical nonhuman/fictionfolk community.
But I am reposting this beware despite the wishes of a few, because I have contacted the minors currently involved and I have given them resources and I have told them of the situation without anon being on. I am willing to see something change, I am.
I will not approach this with pettiness or with some sort of triumphant emotion as a winner of the new discourse. This will be blunt and it
I used to be a bad person too. Harassment, anti-anti, the whole nine yards, mainly because I knew that since it was online, I was just "expressing myself." Radqueer or not, the problem stands with the actions someone takes. At some point, I saw my anger in the face of friends and family to be destructive, and I sought out active change. I removed myself from certain communities, I left their spaces, I blocked them and I stopped mentioning those people in my life. Even when I did take on a new "persona", I did so not out of fear but out of recognition that I was becoming a new person. I did not restart my life, I made an entire callout post about myself and shared it publicly with those who asked for it! I have a horrible history online because I used to be a horrible kid, and now I'm just a regular adult who engages with communities adjacent to my own. I have left these spaces and I have left the servers that I held sacred to me in order to once again, change.
Change is not point A to point B, it is consistent. It is forever. If this person wishes to change fine, but that starts with recognizing that you in fact did harm against someone. That you have hurt, that you have damaged, and that you have victims of your harassment and fantasies. That is something you cannot deny if you want to change as a person. but it is clear that you do not wish to change, you wish to not have responsibility for your actions.
These are the current blogs:
@degradingdata
@degradingdatas-proshit-blog
@sans-culture-is
@chalkduster
The fact that there are expectations on not making callout posts on predators in your community because callout posts have the potential to be used by bad actors is:
excusing predatory behavior as a means of prioritizing the feelings of those also doing predatory behavior
being complicit in a predator's ability to shapeshift into other communities
I know what it is like to be "called out." I know what it is like to be banished or otherwise unwelcome in spaces. It hurts, but it is not forever. I am still brandished as a bad person, for my past life's actions and my own here, but I recognize that I still have changed for the better despite that. I donate to those in need, I care for my family and friends, I support them when they need it, and I am there for others in my community. I am a bad person, yes, but that does not mean I need to continue doing bad things.
making a brand new blog to harass me, real mature for a 30 year old
god forbid a victim of incest not want to see something like that on their dash, huh? you’re right aldmeric, i’m just soooo bigoted towards incest, this is exactly like being homophobic and i am clearly a crazy and hysteric victim who isn’t thinking clearly, right? 💔 lmao
psst i think all the fictionkin currently on your ass would love to know this about you :)
Your notes thus far on shifting are quite interesting, I am delighted to see where things will go and the progress you will make
/gen /im in the mythical community im not some anti watching you like a zoo exhibit
Sorry about going anon… I’m just nervous ^^’
aww thank you!! dw about being nervous that’s what the anon is there for :-)
i’m glad you find my notes interesting hehe, hopefully I will have more progress to share soon but I’m working on other things for now 🤲 i’m getting closer though!! i can feel it!!
experimenting with my shifting and finding a method for myself that might actually work if i keep it up >>>>
last night I thought, maybe if I am able to ‘separate’ my body and mind, it will allow me to focus more and let my body do its own thing when it comes to physical shifting. It goes in line with the one time I (potentially) partially shifted on accident while trying to reality shift.
Apparently for me, entering/attempting to enter the void state makes physical shifting that much more powerful, but i’m not quite sure why lol
When I put my body in the background and my consciousness in the foreground, I am able to focus more on my auric energy and shape that, allowing my body to start to change on its own? I think??
I didn’t get super far with physically shifting, but this was definitely the most intense one i’ve had. It felt like there was something bubbling up under my skin to form paw pads, and I felt a sharp tingly feeling all over. My limbs involuntarily twitched and felt numb, too. Overall it felt more natural, it was easier for me to attempt to shift multiple areas rather than just one like before.
It didn’t feel like something I was forcing my body to do but rather something my body was supposed to do.
This probably deserves a proper long form essay but I think everyone would have a much easier time of it if we all started seeing nonhumanity (and, I think alterhumanity broadly, though this is less my area) not as some sort of specifically defined hard-edged identity capable of categorization as a platonic ideal and more of just….a mode of meaning making for clusters of experiences and thought processes. Like we get close when we describe feelings of nonhumanity as byproducts of disability, neurodivergence and etc but we should commit. I’m not a therian because “therian” is a neat box that exists metaphysically I can be put into, but because it communicates the way I have made sense of my existence and the way I interact with the world.
I've been noticing some confusion in the non-human community regarding physical shifting vs. other types of shifting? I don't know how, but hopefully this can help clear things up.
A phantom shift is the non-physical, tactile presence of a limb, body part, or other appendage. A therian or otherkin phantom shifting may experience nonhuman body parts that can be felt but (typically) not seen overlaid onto their physical human body; it is not a physical transformation. Usually other people cannot see or react to these limbs, and anytime a person does see or interact with them it will be in a metaphysical (spiritual) sense; they have no physical impact upon this world.
(Occasionally a person may report a phantom limb on their body as being more of an absence than a presence, this is normal.)
In contrast, a physical shift is a physical transformation into another form. A shifter physically shifting into another form may experience their physical human body violently or gradually reforming into something else. In a physical shift every part of the physical body has the potential to change, from the organs to the skin of the shifter; it is not an etheric change and people can see you transforming if you shift in front of them.
(Spiritual physical shifters exist, but usually these physical shifts can still be seen/perceived by others and still have effects on the physical body.)
Does the difference matter?
Yes! They're two different experiences, and feel different. Someone experiencing a phantom shift is likely not seeing or experiencing physical changes that lead them to believe they are shifting, and may not find relevant experiences in the physical shifter community. Someone who is experiencing intense physical shifts (organs moving, senses changing, bones shifting) may struggle to relate to someone who is only ever having phantom shifts that they cannot see but feel. They are two different experiences, and conflating the two is likely to lead to errors and problems in how people communicate these experiences.
Phantom shifting has never referred to physical shifting. Even in old community resources you can see there was a clear difference between the two. Phantom shifters were widely accepted, physical shifters were not due to the "impossibilities" of physical shifting. It was never used as a synonym between the two, nor did people ever really conflate them. (The only exception to this would be when some people would use "p-shift" to refer to phantom shift; in those situations it was never intended to refer to a physical shift and was usually quickly corrected or clarified.)
When physical shifters say they shift, do they mean a really vivid phantom shift? Do they believe physical shifting is impossible?
No. Most physical shifters mean it exactly as intended - a physical body change. We're not using it to refer to a phantom shift and, since I've seen this misconception stated: no we never used it because we "know it’s an impossible feat, they just don’t want to admit it"; when we're talking about physical shifts it's entirely literal. How far may be a matter of debate, but we are talking about shifts in this world, not the metaphysical one.
Why do I see some people describe what appear to be phantom shifts as physical shifts?
I've noticed that in the past, some (such as some clinical zoanthropes) would talk about their shifts and complain that they couldn't be seen by others, which might have spurred confusion? However, these people were still claiming a physical shift, still felt they were physically or genetically nonhuman, and still treated their limbs and/or body as if they were physically there. It wasn't simply a phantom shift, but experientially a physical shift they or others couldn't see. They still believed 100% they were genetically nonhuman, and that they maybe retained some nonhuman traits or had their true physical nature hidden from humans but that it was physically there. They still had physical effects from their shifts, such as physiological effects (intolerances to foods their species couldn't eat, shifting pains, etc.) or somatic shifts. Some also claimed that their limbs while invisible still affected this world (such as scratching a wall with their unseen claws and leaving actual claw marks on said wall). This is different from a therian/otherkin phantom shift which is generally acknowledged to not be physically there.
Hopefully this helps clarify some things! Both are valid phenomena, but they're not interchangeable.
You know in retrospect all the anti p-shifter stuff is like very clearly just a baseless demand for legibility more than anything else. This is very obvious in the myriad DNIs that specifically allow for CLCZs and endels but not p-shifters. The appeals to “consensus reality” are necessarily shallow because that’s not really what the problem is for anyone and because such appeals negate, like, literally every other identity and experience in the community. It’s almost like consensus reality…isn’t a useful bar for discussing all experiential narratives and we should expand our language and understanding in this respect.
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